24 July 2017 @ 08:11 pm

In this fic, Dean is married to Cas and not by his choice. I believe Cas was a king and the one scene i remember vividly was that Cas has sex with dean thinking its consensual although Dean feels coerced into it. Cas didnt use oil (lube) or prep and i think Dean gets sick and the healer discovers his internal injuries from sex.
In the end they do get together though.

Please help!
Hi everyone, I'm looking for a fic whose title I cannot remember that, if I recall correctly, took place some time after the events of S05E03 "Free to Be You and Me," when Dean told Sam to "pick a hemisphere" after they had learned they were Michael and Lucifer's vessels. I guess it would be considered canon-divergent since Sam and Dean end up not reconciling or getting back together for a year or two, when they accidentally end up on the same hunt-- I think they might have been hunting a vengeful spirit in a barn or something? But the hunt was only a brief part of the story.

Anyway, during the hunt, Sam saves Dean from getting killed, I think, but Dean is still badly hurt, so Sam drives him back to the motel where they both happened to be staying and patches him up. On the way, Dean starts getting curious when he notices Sam's limp, which only becomes stronger when Sam goes out of his way to avoid talking about it, so Dean ended up sneaking into Sam's motel room the next day and saw Sam's prosthetic leg laying on the bed right before Sam came out of the shower. Dean was so shocked he threw up, and Sam ended up explaining that he had been hurt on a hunt (I think?) and had to have his right leg amputated, but didn't call Dean because he didn't think Dean wanted anything to do with him. Dean suggests that they start hunting together as brothers again, but Sam is conflicted because Lucifer has been making his phantom pains worse or something in an effort to force Sam to say "yes" to him, and he's afraid he'll eventually give in to relief the agony, I think?

I'm pretty sure that was more or less it as far as the story goes-- I am almost positive it was a one-shot, and that it was written in third person but in Dean's point of view. If I recall correctly, I read it in a Supernatural community here on LJ, but I'm having no luck whatsoever in tracking it down in any of the comms I belong to, and I didn't see it in the relevant tags here, either, so I don't know if its just been deleted or moved to a different site or what. If anyone can help me out in finding it, I would be so grateful! This is my first post here, so I'm hoping I did everything correctly.

ETA: thanks to the lovely [livejournal.com profile] lennelle the fic has been found! it is "Sufferance" by [livejournal.com profile] utsusemia
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16 June 2016 @ 10:37 pm
Hi Guys,

It's been a while but I need your help! What I remember is this:

1.John somehow injures Dean's back, either purposely or through neglect.

2. Dean runs away, puts weight on (by eating cheese!) and works at a hardware store under an alias. He has built himself a life and reinvented himself. I believe a guy he works for has feelings for Dean, but Dean only likes him as a friend.

3. Sam tracks Dean down ( can't remember how or why) Dean tells Sam he likes living with his new identity. I'm pretty sure it's Sam/Dean.

Hope that's enough to go on. You guys haven't failed me yet!

As ever mods, I hope my tags are ok!

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Hey, I'm basically looking for any fic where Sam is taken advantage of by someone outside the family (another hunter, or maybe a teacher) and Dean and/or John find out and are protective/supportive. A few things:

- I'd prefer for the "taking advantage of" to occur preseries, but the fic itself doesn't need to.

- It's totally fine if Sam doesn't realize he was taken advantage of, like if he's 15 and sleeps with someone in their 30s and doesn't know that's wrong. Also totally okay if he's fully aware that something wrong happened but feels like it's his fault.

- Wincest or gen, it doesn't matter to me.

Not sure if there's any fic like this out there at all, but I figured I'd ask just in case.
1) ETA: Found! Oversight, by kokoda2007. I'm looking for a specific story that I'm about 98% sure I read on FFN. It was genfic, set in an earlier season, and I think it was written back then, too—I want to say S1 or S2, but I couldn't swear to it.

The crux of the story was that the car's parked by the side of the road while Sam's picking up dinner (or some errand like that) and as he's returning to it, he sees a truck start to lose control on the road. Anxious/kinda neurotic from some minor quarrel with Dean earlier, he rushes in to try to get the Impala out of the way. The truck clips the Impala, which in turn strikes Sam.

After the accident, Sam thinks he's fine and goes back to where they're staying and tells Dean what happened to the car, leaving out what happened to him. Dean's upset about the car, naturally; Sam doesn't mention trying to save it.

Eventually Sam collapses from the internal injury he sustained. The doctor who treats him says that he bruised/borderline tore—I think—his kidneys. (Maybe his spleen? Some squishy bit you need intact.) The doctor seems skeptical that Dean could possibly not have known that Sam was hurt, but Dean, who doesn't even find out what Sam did until he goes back to the diner where it happened, is horrified.

A caveat: as precise as I think my recollection of this story is, I wouldn't be surprised to find I've conflated some details from other stories with it, so if you have one that you think it sounds like but it isn't a 100% match, please hit me!

2) Would also love to have people's Sam-whump recs, in the same vein as the above or otherwise. Dean (or Sam, for that matter) temporarily being a dick in ways that make sense for the character is fine, but no Dean-bashing, please. Extra cookies for Sam saving himself and otherwise being badass like in canon. Wincest and gen are both A-OK.
First of all the one I'm looking for is NOT Matching Weights.

In the story the boys have finished a hunt and they get hurt. Sam of course doesn't tell Dean and it gets worse after they go to another hunt. I think Sam was hurt on the abdomen area. Sam then asks Dean for some cash and Dean only gives him a twenty saying that's all he could spare. Sam then walks to a free clinic and meets a doctor who thinks Sam's being abused. He then recommends he goes to the hospital. He takes the taxi because he's tired. At the hospital, the doctor tells Sam to rest and gives him prescription pills to help with the pain. When Sam goes to buy them he finds out he doesn't have enough money so buys the strongest over the counter medicine instead. He gets home and Dean thinks Sam's being mopey or lazy and gets mad that Sam hasn't helped with the current hunt. Then he finds out Sam's hurt and does what he can to help him. There's a scene where Dean calls the doctor in the hospital and finds out that Sam needs a few weeks rest. Then Dean goes to buy the medication feeling bad for not giving Sam the money he asked earlier and that the medicine was a little over twenty dollars. Dean makes Sam rest until he gets better.

I keep reading this story and forgetting the title so if someone would be so kind to tell me the title I'd greatly appreciate it.

Also any stories where Sam is suicidal, has a mental disorder, eating disorder, low self esteem or selective mutism that'd be nice. I don't care if it's slash or not if there's rape or any other stuff in it. One thing though is if it is slash I prefer bottom!Sam but it isn't necessary.

Thank you in advance.
26 June 2015 @ 06:14 pm

General search for any stories where Sam gets hurt on a hunt and hides his injury. Especially if his hidden injury comes with stiff consequences. bonus for those around him feeling guilty for yelling or ignoring Sam after the hunt.

Please, help me! I read this years ago and now I can't find this fic.

John, Dean and Sam were on a hunt. I think Sammy got a concussion and Dean got a wound about he didn't tell because he was worried about Sammy and feeling guilty. At the hotel John told Dean to monitor Sam's breathing and left, but when John came back he found Dean asleep. So John woke Dean up, yelled something like "Sammy could stop breathing and you were sleeping!!" Dean was sent to bed and he knew that he actually needed to say something about his wound because the creature they had been hunting was kind of poisonous, but he was feeling guilty and sad so he didn't tell anything. In the morning John woke up to Sammy demanding breakfast. John's first thought: why the hell is Dean not up to take care about his brother?! He called for Dean, Sammy said that he couldn't wake Dean up. That made John worried, he came to Dean's bed and understood that something was really wrong. Then he found the wound, understood that Dean was dying and then he needed to find that creature again because they needed his blood (maybe?) for the antidote to Dean. I think that antidote information came from Bobby... but I'm not sure...
13 June 2015 @ 12:22 am
Hi! All I really remember is that Dean and Sam were on a case and in a small town bed and breakfast sort of place. The creature they were hunting was possessing Dean or getting into his dreams and he kept passing out. It became harder and harder for him to regain consciousness each time the spirit (?) Went into him. And I think there were amnesia aspects where he would think he was the ghost/spirit/whatever whenever he woke up. There was a scene where Dean said that he was afraid to go to sleep because he didn't know if he was going to remember who he was when he wakes up.

Please help!
24 November 2014 @ 08:29 pm

I feel like I've read all the good fan fics out there- I need help!

I'm looking for well-written multi-chapter, angsty, hurt!Dean fics with lots of brotherly love (AUs are my favorite- I like plot twists that take me by surprise!)

Please no angels, no destiel and no sexy business :P (doesn't have to be gen, just no sex scenes)

To make it easier for you, here are some specific things I'd like:

  1. Permanent injury

  2. Bullied!Dean, abused!Dean

  3. Weechesters

  4. Pre-series hurt!Dean

  5. Dean hiding injury or abuse

  6. Permanent injury due to torture

  7. PTSD (not hell related tho)

  8. Domestic fics

15 November 2014 @ 11:35 pm
Are there any other stories like this one - https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4987670/1/Not-Hungry - where Sam finds out that Dean sacrificed his own nutrition so that Sam could eat when there wasn't enough food for both of them? I'd especially like it if Sam finds this out when they are adults.

Any other stories about their different tastes in food would be good too. Maybe how Dean loves to cook or maybe some hurt!Dean where he has to adjust his diet and Sam convinces him to at least try and eat healthier.

I'm looking for a specific fic I read in the last year on Ao3 or fanfiction.com I think. John winchester goes on a hunt, takes the car. I think the boys run low on money and decide to live in a shack. Sam is in elementary/junior high, wants to join soccer. A monster is around their shack and they decide to fight it (maybe a wendigo?). Dean gets injured badly and Bobby shows up at the last minute to help. I think it was about 10 chapters, gen, like a pre-series case fic. Thanks!!!
04 October 2014 @ 01:26 pm
Hello! I have a general request, I was wondering if there were any fics set in season 9 where Dean gets (seriously) hurt and guilty!Sam ensues? Preferably fics set during the time where Sam was super angry at Dean and they weren't really... civil with each other. Bonus points if Dean hides his injuries and they get worse and Sam (despite everything he's said) feels super bad and guilty and takes care of him.

Gen only please!
01 September 2014 @ 01:01 am
okey there is alot of hurt/comfort fics out there but i don reed it for just hurt or comfort so I want a fic were dean is injured or hurt on a hunt but he hide it coz sam is injured too and he should rescue him and get of it so i want this kind of protective dean i read just fic like that > pls help pls no slash or winchest or het just gen and no wee or teencharechters
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22 July 2014 @ 09:02 am
I really don't remember much about this story, so I don't know if anyone will be able to help me find it. I think it is around Sanford or pre-Sanford era. And from what I can remember of the story, I think Sam's face was scarred during a fire (cannot remember the how or why of it, sorry). The only thing that I can remember is that he and Dean are on a beach and they make out in front of some girls who were making fun of Sam. And Dean tells him how beautiful he is. I think Sam is ashamed of his face and tries to hide behind a hoodie most of the time. I could have it backwards in who I'm thinking about with the scars. Sorry, that I can't give any more info, but this is all I can think of for now. Any info would be appreciated and thanks in advance.

28 May 2014 @ 09:25 pm
I have three requests i've been looking for for a while, and I thought I'd finally ask here.

1. Any fics where Dean has issues as an adult from his childhood, non-AU. Malnourishment, old injuries that didn't get to heal properly, etc. I read a few amazing fics (by roque_clasique, I think?) where Dean was essentially illiterate, and anything along those lines would also be wonderful. Sam finding out about these would be preferred.

1b. Along these lines, basically any fics with Sam finding out what Dean sacrificed for him as a kid would be great.

2. Fics where Mary Winchester either comes back to life or time-travels forward to canon times, and finds out about the boys childhoods, what they're like as adults, etc. Destiel would be awesome, but completely not necessary.

3. Non-angsty demon!Dean fics. Fluffy, humorous fics revolving around Dean being a demon. post-9x23 is great, but not necessary. Again, I love Destiel, but gen is absolutely great too.


I'm hoping you lovely people will be able to help! I've probably read them all before but could you suggest/link me to the stories where Sam breaks his arm in CSPWDT - preferably where Dean doesn't notice/forgets/doesn't care!

Also any stories where Sam breaks/injures anything and hides it from Dean (and Bobby where possible) - again I've probably read most of them before but seriously craving some Sam!Whump :)
29 August 2013 @ 10:15 pm
I read this fic awhile ago but I don't remember the name if it, sorry if this offends people..

Dean was raped and he had been taking pills for some reason (for pain I think) and john found out about the pills and thought he was selling them for money and spanked him, and just after he found out about what happend to dean and felt guilty I think it was on ff.net but that's all I remember, I hope someone knows this fic. Thank you :)
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15 August 2013 @ 09:32 am
Hi all, I'm looking for a specific pre-series hurt!sam fic. Dean is on a hunt with Caleb and John takes Sam to a really run-down cabin in a remote town. John leaves for a hunt and gives sam a list of chores to do (i.e. chop wood, fix furnace, clean guns) but Sam is in a car accident with a man who owns the gas station who tries to molest Sam. He hides the injuries from John and gets really sick and delicious angst ensues. I think I read it on FF, but am not positive.

Sorry for the confusing description, but hopefully someone recognizes it!

Also I would love any recs for hurt/sick Sam fics, especially weechesters or pre-series fics.

28 July 2013 @ 01:05 pm
Hey there!

I'm on a hunt for stories about Jared (or anyone really) being concerned about Jensen's weight loss.

It could be because he's been sick, stressed, depressed or whatever the situation.  I just want some serious concern by friends or family.  Maybe some tears?  I love a crying Jensen, not gonna lie!

It can be AU or Non and if it's J2 that's a huge bonus but as long as there is some concern for Jensen and his health in the story, I'll be happy!
26 June 2013 @ 11:42 am
I love Dean, so I'm looking for a few things.

1. Any Were-Animal Dean fics. Preferably where he's still a hunter. Can be born that way, or turned with lots of Dean angst to go with it. I read one where he was a Lycanthrope and it was really cool. Were-Tiger Dean would be extra awesome (do they exist?)
2. Fics where Dean gets really dehydrated, gets heat exhaustion, heat sickness, or severely sunburn from being out in the heat too long. Lots of hurt/comfort goodness to go along with it.
3. Any fics where Dean hides a major illness/injury from Sam that he got while they were apart for a while. Either stanford years, post season 5, or something that may have happened in purgatory. I read a part of one that was in season 6 and Dean had an illness he was recovering from, but I didn't get as far to know what he had, then my browser crashed. Does anybody have an idea?
4. Any fics where Soulless!sam abuses, rapes, or is just very shitty to Dean, and for Dean to be wary of Sam even when Sam is normal again because its now an instant reaction to flinch away or something.
5. Any MPREG Dean fics. I don't care what pairing or how it happens (if he's raped that would be interesting) Extra love for anyone that has a fic where its Cas that gets Dean pregnant. I can't find any destiel dean mpreg fics and it makes me sad. Lots of H/C goodness to go along with this as well. I have read the Wincest one Hunter's Lullaby.
6. Any fics where Dean curls up and sleeps in the backseat of the implala when he's sick or hurt because it provides him a little bit of familiarity and comfort. Or any fics where the impala somehow has healing powers for Dean.
7. AU's where Dean/Jensen are professional golfers. I'm kinda surprised I haven't come across one yet. J2 or Destiel for this.
For all requests: No Death Fics. Gen or any pairing with Dean is fine. Thanks in advance
24 June 2013 @ 09:14 pm
I just came across this story at an old Dean H/C meme and was wondering if there were any others like it - http://salacious-newt.livejournal.com/6233.html?view=211289

I'm looking for stories where a lot was put on Dean's shoulders as a child and Sam finds out. Maybe Dean was emotionally/physically abused as a child and Sam finds out later. I always thought that comment Dean makes in DSOTM about when John found out Sam ran away was telling and would love a fic that mentions it. Please no sexual abuse. I'm open to those roles being reversed too if need be and it being Sam who went through this and Dean finds out. But anything h/c and schmoopy where they discuss this issue would be amazing. I just love stories where Sam takes care of Dean for once. So if anyone knows of fic that fits such a generalization of Sam being the temporary big bro, I'm more than open to reading it!
I am looking for Stanford era fics where Dean is permanently injured and tries to cope with the injury alone. Blindness, deafness, loss of limbs, whatever- it's all good. And then of course, Sam finds out and helps him. I've read the drive 'verse by [livejournal.com profile] roque_clasique but that's a good example of what I'm looking for.

I am also looking for fics where either brother is suffering from some major illness/disability that he tries hiding from the other.

Lastly, anyone know of any good stories where one or both of the Winchesters are kidnapped?

As always, please no slash and multi-chapter is greatly preferred although I will take anything :)
01 May 2013 @ 06:10 pm
I was just looking for a bunch of fics with Sam where he gets depressed or tries to run away or exhausted and severely sad or something and ends up breaking down, and John sort of calms him down and reassures him of his place in the family or something along those lines. Anything from drinking to bullying to sam hiding an injury cause it's "his fault" to suicide is fine (as long as it's not a death fic)
I'd prefer in character stories, so no complete asshole John but he can be nasty.
Any big brother cute Dean stories too are fine.
I really just want any teak jerker sam fics, and maybe some wee!chester "I should've died instead of mom" sam with good john and dean.
10 March 2013 @ 09:44 am

I am looking for a general fic in which Jared orSam is in the hospital (preferably for something minor: like concussion, broken bones, etc...but it could be something major too. NO CHARACTOR DEATH!) and Jensen or Dean either collapse because of the stress or somhow but themselves into the hospital as well because of stress and worry. I always read these fics where the nurse tells them they are gonna wind up in the bed next to their loved one if they don't start taking care of themselves. Well that's what I wanna see! Bonus points for Jared or Sam telling Jensen or Dean to go home and rest or to take care of themselves, and Jensen or Dean just ignoring it. More Bonus points if you can find a fic where Jensen or Dean is trying to support Jared or Sam while they are in the hospital (to pay for insurance, care, etc...) and they wind up overworked and just completely run down and exhausted. AU is fine as is Non-AU...I'll read both!

I would prefer it to be slash (J2 or unrelated Dean/Sam) or wincest, but I will accept just about anything that goes along with my request. I also prefer bottom!Jensen or bottom!Dean, but again I am open to suggestions.

Please NO:
Major Character Death
OC slash

Self Recs are loved and if you can find things that are similar or at least have some of the parts of my request just let me know in the comments. Please Help!
04 March 2013 @ 09:59 am
Are there any j2 fics with one of them is really sick or dieing but is keeping it a secret from the other and eventually the other finds out.
03 March 2013 @ 09:56 pm
Hi my friends!!
I have two requests and hope you can help with them:)
1) J2 WEREWOLF MPREG FICS WITH ADORABLE CUBS- Can you please rec me some J2 werewolf fics where they have adorable cubs? I don't really mind about the story as long as its well written, has mpreg and cute playful cubs in it:)

2)J2 HURT/COMFORT FICS WHERE ONE RUNS AWAY- Any fic where one of the boys run away and the other finds him? The only fc I have read so far is this amazing one. Can you rec me some more?

3) J2 FIC WHERE ONE HIDES ILLNESS FROM THE OTHER- Any story where someone is hiding an illness or injury from the other?

Thanks a million in advance
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23 January 2013 @ 06:00 pm
I'm looking for any story where both Dean and Sam have been hurt and Dean is overlooked until it is almost too late. No death fics or Wincest please.
An example of what I'm looking for: http://m.fanfiction.net/s/4542836/1/Cliffhanger
14 January 2013 @ 01:45 pm
The general request is really generic. I'm looking for Benny fics. I really love him as a character and I feel like he hasn't been explored as fully in either the show or fandom as I'd like. Can be any pairing/rating/etc, though I don't read much het unless there's also slash involved somewhere. Mostly I want stories that explore him and let the reader see more about him and his life.

The specific fic is one I remember almost everything about except for the title and author. Looking through here and googling have been useless so I'm turning to you guys for help. Details for the specific fic are behind thecut )

Thanks so much in advance for the help!
13 December 2012 @ 03:21 am
Here’s what I remember about the 2 specific fics.


# Sam and Dean aren’t brothers.
# Dean is an ex hunter with a bad leg who know works as a mechanic.
# Dean takes in Sam and Sam’s daughter who are on the run from Sam’s abusive husband.
# I think Sam’s daughter was called Emma.
# Sam’s daughter likes to help Dean work on the Impala.
# Sam gives Dean physio to help with his leg.
# Sam’s ex shows up at some point and kidnaps Sam.


# Mary and John are foster parents and Dean and Sam are placed with them as an emergency placement.
# Both boys have been abused by their dad and also an aunt and uncle.
# Dean has big issues with food and refuses to eat what John and Mary cook. Sam sneaks down to make Dean a sandwich and when John catches him Sam ends up having a panic attack and Dean has to calm him down.
# Dean freaks out when a doctor tries to take photographs of his injuries and John looks after him.
# Sam has visions which they try to hide from John and Mary by telling them that they are seizures. I remember Dean punches John when he gets to close to Sam during a vision.
# Dean gets sick and thinks John is trying to punish him when he puts him a bath to try and bring down his fever.
# Sam has a nightmare about the supernatural and tries to salt his and Dean’s room.
# The dad and uncle kidnap Mary, John and the boys. Dean frees John and Mary and John rescues Sam after finding him hiding under a bed.
# Sam has never been to school and thinks it’s because he’s stupid.
# John and Dean bond over the impala.

General story searches.

1. Any stories where Sam hides injuries/being hurt from Dean or John.

2. I know this is probably a long shot but I have just finished reading Nightmares of Innocents and its prequel Hope of Innocents and I was wondering if their were any more fics along the same lines where Jensen is like a adult baby and Jared is his daddy but without anything sexual going on.

3. Fics where Dean/Jensen or Sam/Jared are turned into kittens or puppies.

4. I’m always on the lookout for cute weechester stories which have Dean meeting baby Sammy for the first time. I also love stories that deal with Bobby’s first introductions to the boys.

Thank you.
22 November 2012 @ 11:09 pm
I can't find it and it's just driving me crazyyy
It's pre-series, Sam is about 15? maybe? in his teen years anyways.
Dean and John are on a hunt leaving Sam alone and Sam is hit by a car in "hit and run" sort of accident, also I think it was a drunk driver? but I'm not sure.
Sam doesn't tell them that and tries to hide it, and also ends up not going to school for a day because he's in pain I think he had a concussion, really bad headaches for sure.
When they come back John is pissed at him because he got a call from Sam's teacher saying he didn't came and that he missed important test or something like that and also that's the reason he didn't came with them to the hunt, cause he said he needs to go to that test.
So John punish him by making him train hard, I don't exactly remember what happens but in the end I'm pretty sure they take him to the hospital after he collapse and you know lots of guilty Dean and John kinda thing

WOW that was detailed , PLEASE tell me you know what I'm talking about 
I HAVE to find this.

oh and I'm 100% sure it was on fanfiction.net so ... yeah.
I read a story a very long time ago that was a WIP at the time and I really hope it's been updated or completed by now.

Here's the story:

J's are strangers. Jensen is sitting at a bus stop, and Jared runs up. I believe Jared missed the bus and Jensen was oblivious to bus even coming. They start a conversation about Jared's university, and studies. I think the J's meet at the stop several times but during their conversations it becomes clear to Jared that Jensen is in an abusive relationship. I think Jensen is a student as well but only takes a few classes. True to Jared's assumptions we are thrusted into Jensen being severely abused both physically and mentally. Jared and Jensen see each other at a shopping mall and Jensen is with his abuser. He is so scared of what Jared will say to him in front of his abuser that he almost faints. There's a casual introduction where Jared covers nicely for how he knows Jensen after catching on to how scared Jensen is. Sadly Jensen's abuser only needs a little stimulus to start wailing on Jensen. Jared has a rich girl at school who is a pistol, and together they try to talk Jensen into leaving is abuser. Jensen is too scared, so they only get him to submit to pictures of his body for future evidence if he decides to pursue chargers when the relationship finally ends. I know that there is this really emotional scene where Jensen wants to get in a private swimming pool but his body is so scarred and damage he just sits by the side of the pool and watches. Jared and the his girl friend talk Jensen into the pool. It was so loving and unconditional I remember crying when I read that particular scene.

Please help me find this story:-)
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23 August 2012 @ 11:22 pm
hello everyone!
  I am looking for a list of stories with subjects as
        a.) in which Sam starts hunting solo and Dean and John are unaware. any timeline is okafirw 
        b.)while in Stanford Sam is hospitalized with a very serious disease (for ex. Cancer) and everyone finds out and explodes
        c.) the fire that killed Mary never happened meaning they never became hunters but Sam finds out and keeps it a secret until Dean finds out.
                          Please everyone no Wincest or J2. and if possible but not a real requirement try to avoid romance (i'm okay with it if there isnt)

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02 August 2012 @ 07:37 pm
Hi guys,

I'm back for more help please :-) I'm wondering if there are any fics out there with Jared hiding an injury/illness or playing down an injury/illness thats non au please? It can be gen or slash but i'd prefer Bottom!Jared please.

Thanks in advance for any help :-)
13 June 2012 @ 08:37 pm
Hello! Ok, this is my first time posting- here goes nothing. I thought I'd saved these fics, but now I can't find them. Anyone recognize them? Thanks!
1) In the first story, Dean and Sam are princes. Gabriel and Castiel are knights who protect the boys. Dean is engaged to marry another kingdoms princess, Jo, but first he has to go on some quest. Castiel, Lucifer, Michael and, I think, Uriel go with him.  Someone tries to kill Sam, but Gabriel saves him. The two end up bonding. At the end of the story, Dean and Castiel bond after the marriage is canceled. It's Sam/Gabriel, Dean/Cas and Lucifer/Jo.
2) In the second story, Dean and Sam are hunting a ghost. Sam's injured but doesn't tell Dean. The boys talk, Sam gets progressively weaker, and Dean finally notices Sam's hurt because of blood on the table or something. I can't remember how it ends.
13 June 2012 @ 07:53 pm
I'm looking for any fic where Sam has a secret that he's kept from Dean for awhile, and Dean finds out. Not a secret like demon blood secret, but a secret like someone abused him at one point in his life and he never said anything, or he had powers when he was a kid but never said anything because he was afraid Dean would hunt him. Self harm is an acceptable secret.

Similarly, I'm looking for fics where Sam's been abused but kept it a secret from Dean. It could come up years later, or while the abuse is still going on, but Dean has to find out in the end. 

I also have been trying to find fics with a teenage Sam and an angle. They don't even have to be together or whatever (though I don't mind that). I just was a teen Sam being friends with/somehow knowing an angel. Any angel.

Any fic where Sam calls John or Dean "Daddy." It might sound really weird, but I find it extremely adorable. (shrugs and blushes).

Finally, I'm looking for any fic where Sam stops talking for any reason. Maybe John or Dean say something that makes him go quiet or maybe he just decided it would be for the better for him to permanently shut up. Only requirement is that he has to have been able to talk and he decided that he didn't want to. 

I'm good with pretty much any warnings. Thanks!

I'm looking for a J2 fic I read a long time ago. I don't remember much but I do hope it's enough for someone to recognize.

It starts with Jensen coming back from a shoot. He's hurt his back from a stunt, and ignores it. Jared is calling his cellphone, they're together, but he doesn't want to talk to Jared. Or he did, and they broke up. Can't remember the details, but things aren't good between them.

The story skips forward a few years after that I think. They've broken up, and Jensen is now either in a wheelchair or something. He really hurt himself at that accident apparently.

They are both actors in the story, but Jensen isn't after the accident, and I don't  remember if it's an AU or not. 

Somehow they meet each other again. I think Jensen is now a movie director instead or something, or he owns some kind of special-effects company, or a company that makes digital effects? But they meet at a party as far as I remember, and then slowly start to get to know each other again.

It was quite angsty and heartbreaking but I think it had a happy ending. 

I know it's not much, but I just remember the first scene, with Jensen colapsing on his hotel bed, all hurting and groggy, and thinking how tired he is of Jared, and their relationship. I think Jensen might be either drinking or be on some kind of heavy medication. Not sure.

Hope this means something to someone. Please help.

16 April 2012 @ 01:01 pm
Hi! I'm a newbie, devouring this wonderful, prolific fandom, ditching work and ignoring family, staying up late at night to watch episodes as fast as I can! Seriously, you guys are amazing...

I'm also an h/c junkie with a medical kink, so I like nothing better than hurt!dean (I'll take hurt!sam too) in which the writer spares no details of the poor boy's suffering. Give me a gunshot wound that needs to be tended, some stitching complete with grunting and groaning, and I'm a happy fangirl :-). If there's a reason why a hospital is out of bounds... all the better. I'm not looking for out-and-out torture scenes, or whump for the sake of whump. I just have a fatal attraction for well-written hurt/comfort, where the hurt really makes you go ouch, and the comfort gives you some insight into the relationship between the two parties involved.

Some of the stories that really ring my bells:
Open Your Eyes by [livejournal.com profile] dodger_winslow, where John has to treat a teen!dean who's got a sort of cursed infection;
A Bullet and a Fire by [livejournal.com profile] soncnica, in which Bobby and Sam treat Dean for a bullet wound; 
Simple Man by [livejournal.com profile] stillwaters01. Dean has to stitch Sam's wound, but Sam's hallucinating that the suture needle is a meat hook. 

Please, rec me your favorite h/c fics. I have a particular affection for fics in which John is in the caretaking role, but I'll take anyone.
10 April 2012 @ 06:37 pm
I'm looking for stories where there is some kind of a misunderstanding that causes the boys' friendship/relationship to end, but they find out about the truth eventually and guilt ensues. Anything from infidelity to acting like a jerk is fine, but whatever it is, it shouldn't be actually true. I'm a Jensen-girl through and through, so I'd prefer Jensen to be the one blamed for something he hasn't actually done, and I'd also appreciate a warning if there's any bottom!Jared.

There's one specific fic that's a good example of what I'm searching for, and naturally I've somehow lost it. The story took place after Supernatural. Jensen had disappeared from the Hollywood scene and joined some kind of a special effects company. Someone (I think it was Sera Gamble) had told everybody that Jensen was using drugs and nobody from the cast was talking to him, but, in fact, Jensen had hurt his back while shooting a movie and couldn't act anymore. Jared finds out and proceeds to fix things between them.

FOUND: The specific one has been taken down, but it's "So Let Me Set The Battlements On Fire" by [livejournal.com profile] calamitycrow
I am looking for wee!chester, teen!chester stories in which Dean and/or Sam (preferably Dean) are abused and they try (unsuccessfully) to hide it. Could be discovered by a teacher, a doctor, a friend, the other brother, whatever.

Also, stories set during Stanford where John takes his anger, frustration, grief, etc. out on Dean after Sam leaves.

Finally, I'm looking for stories where MotW causes permanent injury to Dean.

I adore multi-chapters but one-shots are good too. And anything with lots of brotherly comforting would be adored!

Please, no slash :)

I'm searching for any stories that are pre-series/wee/teen!chesters that focus on a young Dean that is depressed/low self esteem and self-harming himself in some way (cutting, burning, etc).

some possible scenarios that may relate to this theme:

1. Dean's outlet to deal with the pain of depression from growing up a hunter's son and having to raise his little brother is to cut/burn/self-harm himself
2. while the boys were growing up, Sam/John discover and/or confront Dean's dark secret.
3. Dean self-harms (maybe on his thighs or chest to hide under clothes) but accidentally goes too far one time and there's dangerous repercussions when he doesn't reach out for help/doesn't get help in time.

or anything else that can relate to this theme of a 'young self-harming Dean' in anyway would be helpful.
I'm not too into Wincest but if it relates enough to the theme I'm searching for, I'll give it a shot.
I've read some stories that have a similar theme but they always tend to be of older/current series Dean..

any help would be super appreciated! thanks in advance! \^0^/

31 March 2012 @ 09:26 pm
I'm new to the fandom, and have been devouring fanfic like crazy. I'm hoping you can help me find more fics featuring my favorite tropes:

1.) Hurt!Cas, whether angel, fallen, or human. I'd love to see fics with the boys patching Castiel up, and taking care of him as he slowly heals. Gen or Slash (any configuration) is awesome. BAMF!Hurt!Cas is a nice bonus, as is protective!Sam

2.) This trope is common in my other fandoms. Hoping to find it here. Because of a misunderstanding, or misscommunication Castiel keeps an important fact secret, which ends up biting him. Ex: fallen!Castiel doesn't tell Dean he can't heal himself, and gets hurt during a hunt. human!castiel overhears bitching about increased food bills, and decides he probably doesn't actually need to eat...that sort of thing. Gen or Slash cool.

3.) Any fics featuring the boys an Castiel with Bobby, especially where Bobby is protective of Castiel. Hurt!Castiel and a Dean slow to forgive would be extra nice.
26 March 2012 @ 10:18 am
First time posting after lurking for months.

I'm never looking for specific fics because I make pdfs of everything I come across that I want to save for later. But I would absolutely love suggestions for similar stories.

I love reading stories were Dean is at Sam's mercy. Either because Sam is possessed or its Robo!Sam or he's just royally pissed off and Dean sort of suffers because of it. Some similar stories I've read  are Desperation Takes Hold by[livejournal.com profile] someblazingstar

and Confusion (i forgot the author or whether it was on ff.net or here) where Sam was possesed by a ghost but Dean didn't know and Sam was beating the shit out of him until Bobby came to the rescue. (I love it when Bobby comes to the rescue.)

Anything were Dean is reluctant to fight back because its Sam or even better if he truly can't because Sam is bigger and reasonably stronger because of his size.

Kudos if Sam is remorseful afterwards and/or Dean has a lingering fear or uncertainty that he tries to cover up.

Its preferably if its not slash and no RPF. If It is slash, nothing explicit. As far as "Desperation Takes Hold" goes is fine.

I'll be indebted if you could fine one where Dean ends up getting concussed. There should be a concussion tag here like at hoodie time.
Current Mood: hopeful
01 March 2012 @ 10:20 pm
Alright, so I have mock exams all of next week, not to mention getting results from the previous segment, so I'm working on the principle that I'm either going to need some good fics to cheer me up, or just for relaxing with. As such, I'm looking for a few things:

1. Stories where Sam and Dean or Jared and Jensen have an argument, or some kind of misunderstanding, and Jared/Sam ends up hurt - causing mucho guilt for Jensen/Dean. I’d much prefer that there wasn’t any cheating, but it’s alright if one of the boys simply THINKS that the other has cheated on them.

2. Stories where Sam/Jared essentially feels that he’s worthless. Eating disorders, self-harm or suicidal thoughts are all fine, although I’d prefer if it wasn’t a death!fic. Aftermath of dub-con or non-con is fine, as are mentions of mental issues such as bipolar or depression.

3. Stories where something happens to Sam at Stanford and Dean finds out about it - either when it happens or when they’re back together again, it doesn’t really matter.

4. Fics where a hurt!Sam saves either his brother, father or both. Particularly if there’s lots of hurt/comfort afterwards with Dean and/or John taking care of him.

5. I lovelovelove fics like tabaqui’s wolfpack ‘verse, where the boys are just a little wilder and more feral than they are in the TV show, and I’m actually working on a ‘verse with a more feral-based outlook for myself, and so I’d love if there was anything else out there that was similar.

6. General hurt!Sam/hurt!Jared stories - throw me your favs! No pairings other than Sam/Dean, Jared/Jensen and I’d prefer bottom Sam/Jared. (Mods: tagged the hell out of this. Feel free to add/remove any, as always. EDIT: Fixed!)
01 March 2012 @ 12:19 pm
Hi all, I'm after any fics where the boys are in high school and Jared more or less saves a downtrodden/abused/teased Jensen.

I have a very vague memory of an amazing story where Jensen was abused at home (I don't think it was sexual) and Jared was one of the richer kids, popular etc etc etc. He's the only one who notices the scars/bruises and worms his way into Jensen's life, eventually saving him from his abusive father (in-law?). This was written years ago, but hopefully somewhere out there knows which one I am talking about.

So, yes, anything in that vein is what I am after. Anything up to and including NC-17 is fine (and encouraged, in fact). Sexual abuse is also fine, but preferably not too graphic. Attempted suicide isn't a trigger for me either, so that is okay.
Current Mood: hopeful
15 February 2012 @ 08:15 pm
OK, So it was my birthday yesterday (yes on valentines!) Give me the gift of amazing SPN fics?

1. A master/slave (with Castiel as the master, preferably) relationship. Maybe in a 'verse where slavery is normal (eg. like @HigherMagic's demon buying in her one fic). Can contain any kink EXCEPT mpreg.

2. Highschool AU fic, where Castiel is bullied. Would like for it to include drug/alcohol abuse, self-harm and depression.

3. Something totally awesome/different, that you really love. Must have pr0n! PWP is more than welcome.

Oh, and please nothing lower than R ratings.
Sorry if I overtagged.
Current Location: South Africa, Johannesburg
Current Mood: hopeful
03 February 2012 @ 10:45 pm
Hello again,

Could you guys rec fics like "Let it Break" and "Matching Weight", where Sam is hurt but tries to hide it from Dean?

No teenchester or weechester (I think that's what the fandom calls them) please. Gen or slash, either is welcome.

21 January 2012 @ 08:35 pm
So first off, please no slash for any of these requests!

1) I read this awesome story, can't remember the name of it- but that doesn't matter, I'm not looking for it- but anyway, it was an AU andDean was an FBI agent and Sam was attending Berkley. In it, Sam was portrayed as a hippy and I loved picturing Sam as a hippy.

So that's what I'm looking for- hippy!Sam. Hippy!Dean is awesome too, it's just not as believable. :P

2) Request number two might be easier to find- I read "Trail Magic" by Bella Temple- so I want fics where the Winchesters are legen- wait for it- dary :P

I don't care what they're legendary for, maybe an outsider POV where a bunch of people are telling campfire stories and one of them is about the Winchesters, maybe hunters in a bar talking about the Winchesters and maybe people are like, "Yeah right, that doesn't sound real!"

Bonus points if the person being told the story is Sam or Dean (But the story teller doesn't know it) :)

3) I am looking for fics where either Sam or Dean have an unusual disorder or disease. For example, I read a fic where Sam had synesthesia (he sees colors in response to sounds) and a fic where Dean has prosopagnosia (he can't identify faces- every face looks the same).

Unusual curses work too :)

4) Either Sam or Dean have an eating disorder.

5) Bad!John fics :D

6) I've read a lot of bullied!sam stories but none where Dean was bullied- obviously he has a "don't screw with me" attitude- but if there's story that paints a believable scenario in which Dean is bullied, I would love to read it.

Again, please no slash and while I love angst, I want a hopeful ending. I don't want it to be all darkness and despair :P

Self-recs are awesome!