05 September 2017 @ 06:48 pm
Hi everyone, looking for 2 fics I read a few weeks ago on archive of our own.

The first one, Sam and dean find cas being tortured by some guy. The guy has carved Enochian sigils on cas so his wings manifest physically against his will and can be seen.
Cas keeps freaking out when brothers have to or accidentally touch his wings. He compares his wings being forced to manifest and then touched/seen without his permission was like rape. Sam and dean look after him and Eventually becomes okay with dean touching his wings. May have been gen or Destiel.

The second fic has cas suddenly appearing in the bunker. Sam and dean have to go through cas's important memory to keep him alive. They are able to feel cas emotions and find out how much he cared/admired them for the start.
One example I remember was them realising when cas first met Sam and called him boy with demon blood he actually didn't mean to be offensive he was actually happy to meet Sam and greatly admired him.
23 August 2017 @ 07:45 pm
Hi all

Hoping y'all can help me. I'm looking for a specific fic where Cas was trapped in a Purgatory type place and Dean went after him. I remember Dean disguised himself somehow and teamed up with someone (maybe Gordon?) who led him to a settlement where Cas was tied to a post being tortured. The monsters kept making him manifest somehow and he was pretty far gone. Very animalistic. Dean breaks him loose but it takes time for Cas to even recognize Dean.

Does this sound familiar to anyone? There may have been a train (maybe metaphorical?) that they eventually escape on or I may be blending stories. Any help is greatly appreciated.
23 March 2017 @ 02:44 am
I'm looking for a story I read where Cas came to the bunker after the angels fell, andunder cut for triggers for abuse/non-con )
I know it was on the kink meme a long time ago, not sure if it was ever posted anywhere else... anyone know the story I'm talking about? :)

06 March 2017 @ 09:37 pm
Hi all

This one isn't much to go on, but though still an angel Cas had been hurt. I think his ribs were out of alignment after being broken, and though he could heal Dean knew unless they were fixed first they wouldn't heal straight? So he had Cas lie down on the motel room bed and hold his breath as Dean carefully applied pressure to each rib in turn until they had all clicked back into place. I don't know if Cas was vulnerable or half fallen but I sort of remember it hurt him.

Hello! Been looking for these fics for a while and finally got up the courage to post.

1. This one is a Destiel AU in which Dean is really close friends with Cas and they both are mutually pining for each other and Dean is under a lot of stress mostly due to John. Dean is working in Bobby's shop and since he's so stressed out he gets careless and ends up being pinned under a car or large toolbox. He is found by Bobby and taken to the hospital. When he wakes up in the hospital he has amnesia and doesn't remember anyone, but he definitely knows he's attracted to Cas and wonders if he's his boyfriend. Dean eventually gets his memory back, tries to deny his feelings, but eventually gives into them and it's a happy ending.


2. I don't remember much about this one but it is a Destiel high school AU that involved Dean bullying Cas and then them eventually getting together. Dean may have had some stuff going on in his home life or denial of his homosexual feelings that made him act that way? There was also a sequel (I think) where all of Cas's siblings hate Dean for bullying Cas before they got together and didn't understand their relationship which made Dean's self-loathing kick in. I also think Dean had some sort of confrontation with Gabriel at some point. Everything gets worked out in the end.

3. I have been searching for download links for all 4 books of Bloody_Adorable and evil_twin's Smoke & Lightning 'verse, which is a J2 AU fic, and all the links I've come across have been broken. Does anyone happen to know where to find working links to all 4 books or have copies they'd be willing to share?


Thanks! :)

I would like to read
1: Lucifer-centric hurt/comfort stories; like some kind of angelic-family-fix it stories where Lucifer get comfort/protection/understanding from his family, and
2: any angel-family(fix-it) h/c fics.

I looked hard but I barely can find any. Anyone know any well written fic like that?

What I need:
1: hurt!Lucifer
2: any physically hurt!angel brother
1-2: protective angel-family/brothers
1-2: Lucifer only in Nick (if it's mentioned)
1-2: keep the characters in the show (no full human Au, or kidfics)

Please don't link
angelic incest
incurable injures
any school centric fics
sad ending

Gen or Destiel or Sabriel is okay. Any level of torture is okay until there are aftercare/comfort too. Human Luci or other humaned angels are also okay. THANK YOU!

[No hurt!Lucifer or fallen!Lucifer tags, can we get them pls?]
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Hey guys,

I looking for two specific fanic:
1: human setting AU, Cas was homeless and travels on bus all the time (for safety??), fell asleep beside Dean and used his shoulder for pillow while he slept (Dean didn't wake him up). Dean invite him to home for a dinner (he lived with Sammy), then asked him to stay for a while. I remember Cas painted out Dean's room with a gigant picture on the wall, but it was half finished. Dean gave him clothes and money and they got together, happy. One day Cas packed and leaved without a word, leaved a letter said he needed to go home to make his family together and make his mistakes right (he was the reason his rich family fell apart and became pretty poor). Dean was a mess, there wasn't any adress or phone number he can contact with Cas, but Cas sent letters for Dean time to time: sent the money he got from Dean and told how much damage he made already right. Dean was a mechanic at Bobby'. Later Cas came back, have money and asked Dean for a date, but Dean slapped the door at his face before throw his old clothes at him, along with all of the letters Dean wrote reply for Cas' letters (but he couldn't sent it bc Cas didn't leave any address). Dean was pretty heartbroken. Later Sam allowed in Cas (while Dean was away) to finish his paint on the wall, but Dean came home early.

2: I think it wasn't au, and somehow Cas got raped. The brothers supported him and it was a damn long recovery, bc he was afraid a bit and jumpy, so his mind was fucked up pretty much. He was fucked up emotionally, and that couldn't be healed fast. Dean know him very much and was really protective. I remember Cas avoid contact, like touch and hugs at all, but later he asked Dean if he would like to hug him, and Dean of course he was happy to Cas started open up for a bit, so he hugged him. And laters Cas started to eat a lot of chocolate but only one kind, that had a name "Kisses", and Dean needed a time to realise Cas eating that sweet because he want kisses, but real kisses, not the chocolate. It was a long fic, but my phone broke down when I read so I lost it.

I recently read Redemption Arc by galaxysoup. And it has me craving Castiel-centric fics.

I am especially looking for hurt/comfort and whump (abuse is fine). Castiel with mental illnesses (depression, PTSD) or phsyical disabilities (injuries, deaf, blindness). Fics similar to Redemption Arc would be great.

Any pairings except wincest are fine (wincestiel is okay). Happy endings preferable.
04 January 2017 @ 10:45 am
Happy New Year, everyone!

I'm looking for a specific fic I read about Cas' time being controlled. Unfortunately, all I can remember is there's a part where Dean's observing Cas, and notices that his eye looks strange (ie irritated, red, bruised, like something had been inserted into it, etc. I don't remember specifically how it was described).

And in general, I'd dearly love any fics dealing with what Cas endured under Naomi and the "lobotomy," (as seen in flashbacks here). I'd also be very happy reading any fic surrounding the angels who captured him in season 11, the ones who used those creepy head contraptions. Honestly, any fic surrounding these or related subjects would be fantastic. Aftermath is good, too! I'm a sucker for hurt!cas, caring/comforting!Dean and/or Sam, others. Can be gen or slash.

I hope some part of that drivel makes even a bit of sense; I'm afraid I am not very articulate at the moment.

Thank you all so much!
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02 January 2017 @ 09:35 pm
Hi so i'm looking for an au destiel fic. It had alpha/beta/omega dynamics in it. Anyway Dean was a cop or a detective and got called to investigate cas' home because an alpha had broken into it and released alpha pheromones? and that is a very offensive crime to an omega. I remember cas wasn't home at the time and cas' neighbor (meg I think) had called dean. Dean volunteers to look out for cas until they find out who broke in and they develop feelings along the way. I remeber Cas was an omega and had a baby with a rich omc, because he used to be his secretary (I think) but they had no hard feelings and cas actually set up the omc with his soulmate who was adam. Another thing is that Zachariah had kidnapped Cas and his child in an attempt to claim cas and get rid of his child. Fortunately Dean came just in time and saved both Cas and his child and arrested Zachariah. So as you can see i'm a little spotty with all the details, but hopefully someone knows what fic i'm talking about. Thanks in advance!!
08 November 2016 @ 06:11 pm
Hello friends!

You have helped me in the past, and I hope you can help again! I just got back into Supernatural after a long they-did-what?!?! post season 6 hiatus, and am rewatching via Netflix. The bits I've gleaned about season 7 on have given me major Cas feels, but I don't want to be spoiled too much from the fics I read.

So here's what I'd like: does anyone know of fics that deal directly with trauma/depression/angst/general hurt after Cas is "dragged back to bible camp?" I adore "Needle and Thread" by Misato, and really anything that deals directly with or has allusions to what Cas was undergoing in 4x20 is fantastic. Slash (destiel always preferred!) and self-recs more than welcome!

The only specific request I have is that the fic have a happy ending!

Otherwise, do your worst! The tissue box is close by.

Thank you so much!

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13 August 2016 @ 09:03 pm
I'm looking for a specific fic about Castiel. Castiel goes missing, the angels (Zachariah?)removed his memory and gave him memories of a total different live (including a new name). The life he thought he lived trough was filled with all the bad stuff. He was also HIV-positive.
I've been looking everywhere and I just can't find it. I think it was gen.
01 August 2016 @ 09:06 am
Hi :) I read a fic quite a while ago and I can't seem to find it? I think Dean was blaming Cas for something with Sam (I can't quite remember what), and he starts to abuse Cas? Like not letting him sleep on a bed or something. At the end I remember Sam finding out about it somehow? I'm not entirely sure how to tag these things, so I'm really sorry if I've done something wrong. Thank you :)
23 June 2016 @ 04:32 pm
I'm looking for any really good hurt!cas or sick!cas fics, with protective!winchesters. Pairings are fine, as long as there's no wincest.
I'm looking for some stories where Castiel is struggling to get used to being human, and has trouble getting used to normal human things (like eating and sleeping maybe), which develops into health issues (eating disorders, insomnia, ect.)
13 June 2016 @ 10:43 pm
Can anyone recommend some fics, focused on Castiel, where:

1. He's hurt/sick/in trouble, but tries to hide this from Sam and Dean?

2. He goes off on his own for a period of time and makes friends other than Sam and Dean (can be a crossover fic, or can be with OCs)

3. Fics where other characters (OCs, or characters from crossovers) find out that Cas is an angel, and are in shock/awe

Hopefully someone knows some fics like these!
07 June 2016 @ 07:53 pm
Hi everyone,

I recently read takadainmate's The Demiurge (http://takadainmate.livejournal.com/154991.html), where Cas ends up with a crazy high fever and needs to be taken care of by Sam and Dean. It's a seriously awesome fic, basically a perfect H/C. Everyone should read it. I'd love to read some more Cas-with-a-fever fics but I'm having a hard time finding them. Any suggestions? Thanks!
31 May 2016 @ 10:00 pm
Any fics where any of the other angels are protective of Castiel? I've read a few with Gabriel. Long fics would be great, but I'll take anything.
Okay, I would like get some help again... I have the worst luck in the whole world. I looking for two specific fic.

1# I saw a fanfic months ago what immediately caught me right and then, but that was a Criminal Minds crossover, so I saved it for later, because I never saw any episode from CM. Some weeks ago I started the season06, so I wanted to start that fic too (finally!), but god, I can't find it anywhere. I already looked trough all of my place where I could save, I looked for sites, rec lists, but always nothing. This fic was a reason why I jump in a new fandom and I lost it. 😡 -.-
· it was a multichaptered novel
· human setting, mechanic Dean, ?agent? Cas
A serial killer kidnapped Dean and the BAU trying to find him in time, before the killer kill him too. There was lot of torture (hurtDean) and I think Cas was a BAU agent. Sam was a worried brother.

2# It's already a bit of foggy. I read this fic long-long time ago, some things I remember from it,
· it was a multichaptered novel
· in SPN universum
· in the bunker
· fallen(human) Cas
· Destiel or pre-destiel
In one of scene Cas was possessed by a demon (Abbadon maybe?, but I'm sure as hell the demon was female) and she tied down Dean, but not to some table, I think to someting what kept Dean sitting and vertically. They was in some room, maybe in a demontrap and maybe they wanted to trapping the demon, I don't know sure, but thing went down. The demon beat Dean up (a bit), but mostly tortured him with a knife, cutting him lot of place and deep, and she enjoyed the fact she could do in with Cas face, this hurt Dean the most. Then Cas expelled the demon from inside: he kept saying inself the Exorcism and the demon had to leave. I think she was very suprised and angered, and she threatened Cas to kill him if he expell her, but Cas wanted to protect Dean, no matter what. He was hurt because Dean got hurt by his hand, and the demon hurt him physically when she got expelled.
After this Dean can't trust in Cas anymore, he want but can't, no matter Cas apologized and he was in physically hurt shape because of the expelling. Emotionally both was hurt. Sam talked with Dean about Cas, his state and how hard is this for Cas too. I think this talking happened in Dean's room.

I hope somebody can show mercy on me and can help find it.
Also I hope I got some help with !!this post!! too, some of it is very important to me.

Okay, I can't find tags like torture, human Castiel (for any human setting AUs), possessed Castiel (so I used the demon!Castiel, what isn't fit but this is all what we have.)
So, again I need your help. I'm in a great need, I looking for a couple fanfic....

Five about Destiel: The Mirror of Erised, (Cas)Mpreg (you have to look at the pictures), demonCas - priestDean AU, Destiel with bike accident, Destiel where Cas fighting for animal rights.
One about pre-series Dean (Stanford area),
One Cockles with scared Misha.... Can/want you help me? Then read the whole and see thi pics... )

Please help! Longest (longer than 5,000 words) and well-written fics the best! Thank you dears!
06 January 2016 @ 11:24 am
In search of more Bobby adopts Cas fics....
frankly any or all Bobby adopts Cas fics or suggestions would be welcomed.

also another fic I am searching for is Karen and Bobby find a baby castiel, that's all i remember. any help in locating this fic would be awesome.

thank you.

mizukiruhoh at hotmail.com

tags: affliction: hurt!castiel, affliction: fallen!castiel, character: bobby, character: castiel, character: karen, character: jimmy, genre: wee!chesters, genre:fledgling!castiel, pairing: Bobby/Karen.
05 January 2016 @ 12:30 pm

fledgling or injured Castiel finds his way to earth and inhabits child jimmy. Bobby comes across the kid and adopts him. thinks he may be psychic.  <---- fic found: Rain Falling Down by Maychorian:

In search of more Bobby adopts Cas fics....
frankly any or all Bobby adopts Cas fics or suggestions would be welcomed.

thank you.

mizukiruhoh at hotmail.com

tags: affliction: hurt!castiel, affliction: fallen!castiel, character: bobby, character: castiel, character: jimmy, genre: wee!chesters, genre:fledgling!castiel

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12 November 2015 @ 08:35 pm
I seem to remember a story where Cas had been tainted by a ritual by Lilith, I think. It starts to effect him, but he breaks out and kidnaps Dean and takes him to Eden. Dean heals him with the power of his soul. Anyone know what I'm talking about?
This is quite an old one, but hopefully someone will remember it.

Sam becomes King of Hell, not sure how. He isn't evil but he is very dark. Naturally, Dean is with him, and Castiel too - I think because he wouldn't leave Dean with Sam (or possibly to avoid being taken by Heaven, or both). But now he's reliant on Dean for protection from Sam. (Possible Dean gets powers in this due to being Sam's brother and consort).

I do remember Castiel being scared of Sam and having to play it very carefully.

There are three scenes that have stuck in my mind:

1) Sam follows Castiel into a room and Cas wants to leave but thinks Sam won't let him pass - he does though.

2) Sam is in a relationship with Dean, but wants Cas too - a combination of actually wanting Cas for his own sake, and because he's an angel, and because he's a little jealous of how Dean still cares for Cas. I remember Cas drawing a promise from Sam not to hurt him, and having to remind him of it a few times because while Sam isn't rough he isn't gentle either. Dean's there to support Cas through it and make sure Sam reigns it in.

3)The Host show up to negotiate / deal with Sam, and it ends up with Sam, Dean and Cas on one side of the table and I think Michael and Zachariah on the other. They want to take Castiel back, and claim that Sam is holding him against his will. Sam disputes this, and says Cas is free to go anytime, but I think he gets a few barbs in about how he's treated Castiel better than they ever did. Michael and Zachariah tell Cas his place is in Heaven with them, not in Hell with the Winchesters, but Cas says he'd prefer to stay. (I think he says something like he'd rather serve in Hell than in Heaven). Which pisses them off and I think they threaten to take Cas, but Sam tells them Cas has made his choice and if they try to grab him Sam will just turn them and their armies back at the gates. I remember Cas being quite stunned at Sam being so protective of him.

Thanks in advance!
08 November 2015 @ 12:45 am
Hi all, I'm all new to LiveJournal and I was wondering if you could help quench my thirst for some particular SPN fics (Canon or AU I don't mind + I'm up for Destiel but please no Wincest):

1)I absolutely adore Castiel but I also love de-aged fics and so I thought why not combine the two and ask if anyone knew any good mentally de-aged Castiel fics and so here I am. If you have any other de-aged fics to rec that'd be great too.

2) Castiel with mental disorders (such as seizures, DID or Autism - like A Postcard for Castiel by almaasi etc).

3) Cas turning creature would be pretty good too. No specifics though. Maybe some angst.

4) Any fics where Dean chose Sam over Cas to save or Cas sacrifices himself.

5) Highschool AUs where Cas is poor, has a crap family (abused?) and maybe drug taking while Dean is rich and basically has everything Cas doesn't.

6) Any angsty cursed Castiel fics. I've already read Insult to Injury by strangenessandcharm and loved it so anything like that.

7) And finally, (and thank you for staying with me) I recently read Forget-me-not blues by noangelsinthegarrison and loved it so I was wondering if anyone knew any other fics about bullied Castiel, bully Dean and reunions.

Basically pure angst and fluff.

Thanks for the help :)
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05 November 2015 @ 10:27 pm

Fairly new to reading SPN and feeling a bit overwhelmed in combing through it all. Can anyone help by recommending their favorites featuring hurt/comfort Cas -- hurt!Cas, sick!Cas and the boys (especially Dean) being their awesome protective selves?

Destiel or gen -- but will take any era of the show, AU, de-aged, whatever.

Thank you kindly.
Hi all!

I have a few general requests I hope someone can help me with:

Does anyone know of any stories where Dean and / or Sam do something stupid or thoughtless and Castiel pays the price? Maybe they mess up a devil's trap or leave a cursed object out that only affects angels but forget to tell Castiel not to touch it? They're meant to meet him somewhere and get tired/distracted, and forget? Not looking for any serious hurt, just Castiel all 'really?' and then Dean and Sam doing their best to make it up to him.

Also, I'm looking for any stories where Castiel gets trapped somewhere, or tied up, and despite his abilities, can't get free on his own so has to wait for Dean, Sam and / or Bobby to come and get him.

And lastly, I'm looking for any fics where someone takes on a fatherly / protective role for Cas - maybe it's Chuck without quite knowing why, or maybe it's actually Bobby, or some older guy Cas and the Winchesters bump into on a case.

Thanks in advance!
06 October 2015 @ 10:16 am
Hi! This is an YEARS old fic, so I'm not sure if it still exists or not. I had the link saved on my old computer (which I stopped using 2 years ago after it crashed) and finally managed to buy a new one, so I'm collecting everything I'd lost... Anyways, that aside...

I'm looking for a story where Dean is a restaurant owner/chef and Cas is waiter (I think) or one of the jr. kitchen staff at his restaurant. One night Dean finds Cas still in the kitchen WAY after the hotel closed and realises that Cas is basically squatting there. He tells Cas to go home. I think a couple of days later, Cas burns or cuts his hand on something, and Dean tells him to take the night off. Later, Dean is going somewhere, late at night, and it is raining heavily, when he sees Cas trying to sleep behind some dumpster/ shop. He brings Cas home. The next morning he makes Cas breakfast, omelette with tomatoes... because Cas can't hold the knife properly.

It was on Lj... either on some Destiel comm or someone's private journal. If someone recognises the story, I'd be really really grateful. Maybe even bake a batch of my trademark cashewnut-choco-chips cookies ;)
27 September 2015 @ 09:14 am
Hi, one fic I read long ago and can't find again, slight hooker!Dean. The other I lost somehow and can't seem go find again. Pleas help!
1)Dean takes a one time gig as a hooker to help pay for an internship Sam has at a law firm. The client turns out to be Cas and there is mild and very hot bondage involved. Turns out later Cas is one of Sam's bosses.

2)This one is a very recent WIP that i think is on AO3 but can't remember the title or authour of. Dean tortures Cas cause he thinks hes hinding something, forcing him to manifest his wings so he can really hurt him. The rest kf whatbis posted focuses on Cas recovering from the torture with Sam's help but he doesn't know Sam helped Dean with the spell to bring out his wings. Good fic with lots lf hurt and angst.

Thanks i advance especially on the first as that has been eluding me for over a year. -K
16 September 2015 @ 04:46 pm

Are there ants fics where Cas ends up in a wheelchair or is paralyzed that aren't AU?
31 August 2015 @ 10:20 am
Hi all,
I was looking for a fic that I read a few months ago. Dean was the Crown Prince of a Kingdom, and part of that Kingdom's tradition was to have a wolf shifter given to the royal child to take care of and raise. So Dean got Castiel when he was around 7, and was disappointed that he got an Omega wolf at first. But they grew up as the best of friends, and Cas became a fierce bodyguard. Cas couldn't shift into his human form until his 18th birthday... But when he finally shifted, Dean fell in love with him. I remember there were court politics in the fic and several assassination attempts and Dean had to fight a dragon to cure Cas of poison.
If anyone knows what fic this is, I would be sooo happy and grateful!
Thanks, guys!
21 August 2015 @ 12:21 am
I recently read The Wild Ones and I loved how protective Sam was of Castiel. I have two general searches:

1. Sam protecting, or taking care of Castiel. I haven't read a lot with Sam taking care of Castiel and I would really love to see more of it.

2. Anyone protecting, or taking care of Castiel. I would just love Castiel getting some love and comfort for a change. Nothing is too fluffy, or too angsty, as long as Castiel is taken care of.

I tagged for the main pairings with Castiel, but I'm not trying to limit it. I'm open to gen or any pairing, and I have no top/bottom preference. I'm good with almost anything (de-aging, AU, non-au, infantilism etc). Please no (permanent) major character death, non-con between the main pairing, or unhappy endings.

Self-recs and WIPs are welcome, any recs of this nature would be very much appreciated! Poor Castiel has had such a hard time, he really just needs someone to take care of him. :)
Takes place shortly after 5x2, Bobby is struggling to adjust to life in a wheelchair. Since Cas can't heal him, he starts demanding the angel help out in other ways. I specifically remember him telling Cas to come by at a specific day and time every week and to not be late. By the end of the fic (it's not a long one, don't even think it's multi-chaptered), Cas gets attacked by other angels, and then scrambles to make it to Bobby's on time with the groceries the old hunter wanted. Bobby starts seeing Cas as one of his adopted strays.
28 June 2015 @ 02:00 pm
I am looking for three things.

1) Angels as a family (Castiel, Gabriel, Lucifer, Michael, etc). Either canon (where they are angels) or AU (human or otherwise). Short or long, doesn't matter as long as it is complete. I don't mind if there is incest ("romantic" family is fine).

2) Castiel whump of any kind (mental, physical, sexual). Any where he is young and being abused by his family are great as long as there is a happy ending! Bonus if it can be tied into request #1.

3) Any fics with Castiel having a mental disorder. Any type is fine (OCD, Autism, Traumatic Brain Injury, etc). Bonus for tying into request #1 or #2.

Any pairings welcome for all.
UPDATE: FOUND- Soulmate Bond 'verse

I read this not to long ago, pretty sure it was on AO3 but now I can't find it for the life of me. This is as much as I can remember:

  • Opened with Cas being 'assigned' to rescue Dean from hell.

  • There was one of those predestined soulbond thingies but Michael and Raphael don't tell Cas about it b/c Dean is the vessel.

  • Gabriel finds out at some point about the soulbond thing and is super pissed at his brothers for lying to Cas.

  • There was some backstory stuff about how Cas was really close to the archangels back before the fall.

  • It was essentially a pile of schmoop and Cas angst and angel backstory and I need it

14 June 2015 @ 10:02 pm
What's the one where Castiel is really young, like 6-8 ish; he escapes a severely abusive home (I know there was a scene right near the beginning where he's hiding in a closet to avoid being assaulted) and makes his way to Bobby's. So Bobby takes him in and eventually adopts him. I think eventually John, Young!Dean, and Wee!Sammy move to a place close to Bobby after Castiel convinces John that he was sent to protect the boys.
11 June 2015 @ 11:39 pm
I'm trying to find a fic I read a while ago. I don't remember the title or who wrote it. I remember two scenes, but I'm not sure the second is from the same story.

1. Castiel gets injured escaping the warded mountaintop Gabriel put him on, to keep him from helping the Winchesters, during "Changing Channels". Gabriel didn't think Castiel would try to escape the mountain because of all the wards keeping him in; he thought it would be like a vacation.

2. Gabriel takes Castiel right after he leaves the warehouse. Gabriel takes him to heal him. He gets protective of Castiel.

If anybody can remember what this story was, that would be awesome. I cannot find it anywhere. Pretty sure there were no pairings. Just Gabriel acting like a protective brother.

I'm looking for two specific stories- hopefully someone will recognise them.

1) Cas is at Bobby's when Gabriel suddenly appears. He's delirious and convinced Cas is in danger, so tries to cover Cas with his wings but ends up hurting him. Dean tries to talk Gabriel down, but it might be Sam who manages to reach him.

2) Cas gets injured in a battle (early S4) and instinctively goes to Dean who panics and calls Uriel for help. Uriel heals Cas but he needs to recover with someone to watch over him and Uriel orders Dean to do it. I think it ended up Dean/Cas but Sam bonded with Cas as well because they're both a couple of geeks.

Also if anyone knows of any stories where Bobby is protective of Cas please could you let me know?

Thanks in advance.
21 April 2015 @ 04:06 pm
I'm desperately searching for a fic I read some time ago (maybe two years ago).
It was not an AU, but I don't remember up to which season it is canon compliant.
It started with Crowley telling the boys about something awful that happened and he eventually convinced them that Castiel was responsible for it.
When Cas shows up, Dean tortures him to get him to admit to the crime. When Cas insists that he is innocent and doesn't know what Dean is talking about, Dean uses a spell which exposes an angel's wings and uses his torture techniques on them. It scars Cas more than the previous torture (abusing an angel's wings is unforgivable and similar to rape).
After a while it turns out that Castiel was telling the truth and Crowley only set this up to get back to Cas for his betrayal in season 6.
Dean is shocked by his own actions and tries to beg Cas for forgiveness, but the angel is terrified of him and only allows Sam to touch him.
That's when I stopped reading unfortunately, so I don't know if it ended with Destiel, Sabriel or none of these.
I hope someone of you can help me out.
22 February 2015 @ 10:36 pm
I'm looking for recs where Dean and Same take care of an injured Castiel.
Similar to "The Demiurge" by takadainmate (http://takadainmate.livejournal.com/154991.html). Thanks.
10 February 2015 @ 11:34 pm
Hello everyone. I've been looking for this story, but all that I remember is a little of the plot.

It takes place in the Croat!verse. Dean and Cas were on a supply run, and they ran into some demons at a convenience store. Cas ends up getting shot and taken back to camp where they had to dig the bullets out without anesthesia.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?
Pretty much what it says in the title c;
Thanks in advance to anyone who can find this fic for me! :)

other info:

> cas was tortured by leviathans that made themselves look like dean

> cas thought dean was a leviathan when he first saw him

> he threatened him with a knife until dean convinced him that he was himself

> dean got into the building easy because every leviathan thought he was just disguised as dean to torture cas

> i think dean hasn't told bobby or sam that he went to kill roman

And that's all i know sorry ^_^
12 October 2014 @ 10:32 pm
It's a bit older. Angels are known to humans. Castiel is a strange angel who comes to work at Bobby's shop and becomes friends with Dean.
One day a car he's fixing up falls on one of his wings.
He stays with Dean because "there is no one" and Dean replies something like "there's me."
Dean helps him recover, includes him helping Cas groom his wings after Castiel is having a hard time with it and yells at Dean when he misconstrues something Dean says as mocking. Dean gets Cas' oil on his face and Cas tells him to wash it off immediately but Dean leaves it on, and Castiel cries.
Naturally, they get together in the end. I'm not sure if it's a series, it was so long ago that I read it. Please hit me with a link if you know it. I'd love to read it again. Many thanks.
I'm looking for a fic where Sam and Dean are bounty hunters of a sort, rounding up rogue angels that have escaped from owners and turning them into the authorities. They find Castiel and Gabriel and instead of turning them in they help them to freedom. I'm almost certain it had Destiel and Sam/Gabriel, and a bit of Castiel whump.
I'm pretty sure this was an abandoned WIP but its an AU, I think pre-series or Stanford!era (or at least Sam is at Stanford), and Dean is called out to help some hunters with a case. It takes place in the desert and Dean is called because he knows Enochian really well. There's like rings around something, and each ring has Enochian guarding it. At one point Dean manages to get through a ring but it brings up (bad) memories; other hunters take bets on who can go farthest (whose the toughest); one of the hunters was Gordon. Anyway as they get closer to the center Dean starts to remember this guy Castiel, whose the love of his life. At some point they get through the rings and Zachariah was the one keeping him trapped (in a cave or below ground?) I remember the place floods but Dean and Cas get out and they end up in the hospital. When Dean wakes up - I think he has the burn on his shoulder and is extremely tired but is otherwise ok - he pushes to get to Cas's room and an OMC hunter tells the doctors to let him.

Other random parts I remember: there was another hunter about Dean's age who Dean used to have a crush on but he's married, and one scene (chapter?) is from his POV thinking about this and that he cares a lot about Dean. (Who I think was called - or he called Dean - Slick or Ace or Lucky.) During the story we find out Dean is in charge of making fake IDs for hunters (this OMC could have been better at it if he had more patience.) (I think he also had an extra insurance card that Cas uses?) I also remember - there may have been two hospital stays - but the OMC is calling all these hunters out (Bobby, Rufus, Jo, Ellen, OCs, etc) to help him rescue Cas and Dean - with his low self-esteem - expresses surprise and the OMC is like "duh, of course, if you love Cas we want to help." (Dean may have tried to call Sam for help and didn't get an answer right before this.) OMC was also worried about this Cas guy being good enough for Dean.

Not 100% sure but I think it was on A03.

Thank you so much for any help!


Found -- You are all that I adore by jenny_wren
I'm looking for two fics:

1) Sam gets captured by lucifer and tortured but castiel offers to switch places with sam (or tries to rescue him and gets caught himself while sam gets away) and gets tortured and probably also raped by lucifer. He's also fed demon blood by him until the boys rescue him

2) This is a domestic fic probably after season 8 with fallen!cas who has ptsd and panic attacks. There's a scene where he gets one in a shoe shop while shopping with dean and people are staring at him until dean gets there and calms him down + gets him out of there. There also a scene where dean is frustrated with cas' situation and punches a tree until his hand bleeds and sam tells him to get it together to help cas get better. It was a wip when i read it but it's probably finished now

Thanks in advance c;
02 September 2014 @ 07:02 pm
I hope I'm posting this right... I'm new to LJ.

I'm looking for some multi-chapter plot driven gen fics that are Castiel!Centric with a focus on his friendship/bond with the brothers (please no pairings). Specifically I'm a big fan of hurt/comfort, with a big enphisis on the recovery portion. If I have to be picky, I'd say I'm looking for stuff taking place after season 4, since that's when I think the charatcers'; relationships are strongest.

I really appreciate any recommendations out there. It's been really tough finding gen fics, and I'm really a huge fan of really strong friendships and brotherly bonds.

Here is a list of some of my favorite fics, as reference or in case I can help anyone else looking as I am:

Forgotton by Northern Sparrow
Summary: Sam and Dean are working a case in Wyoming, but are distracted by news of a dangerous angel called "Castiel"; who they can't remember ever having heard of before. The name seems a little bit familiar, but neither of the boys is sure why.
This is BY FAR my favorite fan fiction for Supernatural yet. It is very well written and has a great plot! I've seriously read it about 5 times over. Northern Sparrow is currently working on a Destiel/Slash sequal called "Flight", but has promised a gen version, which will be called "Broken".

Comfort to the Enemy / The Devil You Know by REB Jenn
Summary: Lucifer's rising in front of Sam & Dean ; an archangel's descending on Castiel. Picks up where the 4.22 finale left off.
I know a lot of people recomend this fic, and for good reason! I know I said I'm not really a fan of stuff from season 4, but this fic is a good exception. It is so well written and hits all the right whump spots.

The Hallowing of Pain (Four Men in a Car To Say Nothing of the Devil, When Angels Deserve to Die, Another Angel Down, The Hunter and the Hunted by Amynion
Summery: Team Free Will are reunited and back on the road! Though they seem to have an unwanted passenger... Picks up after 7x17
This is a series of smaller fics that really should have just been posted as one big fic. I recomend it highly. It has the most creative Purgatory description I've read yet. The links above are in order.

Pride and Pestilence by Celtic Amazon
Summary: The Winchesters and Castiel go hunting for the latest horseman to be summoned: Pestilence. But there are things the angel isn't telling them, and his pride may prove to be his downfall.
This is a good plot driven sick!castiel fic.

Again I really appreciate any recommendations anyone has! I've honestly been scouring the archives for two months, and the above are really all I've found... I could use some help!
21 August 2014 @ 10:47 pm
pleeeaaaase rescue me from becoming crazy.i am looking or a fic,where cas was hurt or tortured.he was saved and dean and sam were carrying for him.i remember one scene:they were in a diner and dean ordered coffee and cas did too.but he didn't like the taste,so dean put sugar in it.its not much i know,but its driving me crazy for sure.thx very much for trying.
Hey Guys!

I've been on the look for this story that had Dean in this biker gang (or maybe some other type of gang?). Anyways, he meets Castiel who is a libarian (I am not entirely sure about that detail though). I think that they end up hooking up, maybe at a bar or something and get into a relationship.

Something Castiel gets kidnapped by one of Dean's gang rivals, Alistair I think, and when they finally rescue him he isn't the same. Soon, it turns out that the abuse the Alistair put Castiel through change him and his way of coping through it was violence.

I wasn't like normal domestic violence because in this case it was mutual. Castiel copes with his abuse by being more rough and aggressive with in all facets of there relationship, especially sexually. Castiel would urge Dean to be as rough as possible with him during sex leaving bruises and hand prints over his body, slamming each other against the walls and even hitting each other sometimes. Dean was initially against being that rough with Castiel, but he was slowly losing him so he went along with it.

Dean's friends start to notice this change in there relationship when they start seeing Castiel with bruises and hand prints over his neck, initially believing that Dean is abusing him. Several times during the story they make comments to both Dean and Castiel about how they are abusing each other.

Other than that, I do believe that Dean ended up getting locked up because he got framed for murdering someone he didn't actually murder.

There is also a small possibility that this story could have been J2
I recall reading this on Archive of Our Own (It might be on LJ as well) and this story also had a verse and was complete or at least this part of the verse was.
And also, I am 100% that this was completely top!dean with no switching present, or at least written.

Thanks in advance!
(Couldn't find the Abuse tag)
07 August 2014 @ 11:25 am
Okay so i remember a lot from the specific fic which is why it annoys me so that i lost it :/

1) It's set after the season 8 finale and cas is still in the forest where he gets captured by other fallen angels (or demons? though i'm sure it's angels) who torture him in his human state. Meanwhile sam and dean gave up hope that cas is alive (they don't know that he got kidnapped) and team up with two other hunters. An older man and a young woman who could be tracy bell but i'm not sure. The two see a lot in black and white when it comes to hunting which is why the boys don't get along well with them.
The rest I remember is a little bit further in the story so i'm putting it in a cut

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2) Also are there any fics where cas is falling and slowly loses his knowledge and abilities? So not just his memories (but that too) but also things like talking and other stuff.

Thanks in advance!
(I'm not sure if the cut is working so really sorry if it isn't)