16 July 2017 @ 12:56 pm

Im looking for a specifc J2 fic where theyre in college together and in a relationship. Jensen wants to come out but Jared is afraid to. They havr a fight about it in a bar where Jared storms off. Some guys overhear the argument and attack Jensen. He ends up being very hurt and Jared hears about the attack on the news.

Jensen eventually recovers but now he is afraid to be public with their relationship when Jared has a change of heart.

Cant remember how it ends but if you know it, please tell me! I can't find it in my tags.
05 July 2017 @ 10:18 pm
Hey community -I need your help again please. I'm looking for a specific fic where Jensen and Jared are mates and I think Jensen is pack alpha. Jared may have been rescued/found and is very insecure. The part I remember clearly is that Danneel shows up after having been away on a mating quest. She and Jensen used to hook up and she is convinced that Jensen is her mate. She says some pretty awful things about Jared which he overhears.
04 June 2017 @ 11:45 pm
I read this AU Destiel fic a long time ago where Dean is depressed and sometimes it gets very bad. Sam is with Jess and they try to help him. Then he meets Cas and they get together. But Dean has an episode of extreme depression and ends up killing himself, thinking Cas would be better off not having to deal with him. I think he jumps out window in front of Cas? Cas then later also kills himself.

Yeah, very tragic ending. But if anyone can help me find it that would be great!
17 May 2017 @ 11:47 am
Im looking for J2 or Wincest fics where one of the boys is insecure about something: scars, shape, weight, post-mpreg body, whatever.
Apologies if this has been requested before, but I'm looking for fics that focus on Dean's insecurities and fear of abandonment, and subsequently feature Sam reassuring or being there for Dean in some way. So, fluff or h/c, but heavy on the comfort, please? Gen or Wincest, either is fine. 
I'm looking for fics where Dean or Sam or Jensen or Jared feels insecure about the way they look and the other comforts him, reassures him. Like, maybe they recently have gained weight or have some scars or wrinkles. I don't want it so be a long story (not more than 15k). Also, I found some stuff like that but it was always the very extreme (getting super super fat, Sam stuffing Dean with food for him to be fat etc) and I don't want anything like that. Wincest, J2, Gen.
I enjoyed this http://archiveofourown.org/works/222267 for example.

06 February 2017 @ 04:53 pm
1.) So I read this fic a while ago and it was on LiveJournal somewhere not sure if it's in ao3 or not. It's Stanford era and Deans feeling really alone. John left and Sam stopped calling him, on the hunt he goes on this witch made this sort of Sam clone/thing that was suppose to kill him in a month or so but the 'sam' ended up atttached to him. Months later the real Sam shows up and Dean is mind controlled by the 'sam' to try to kill him but Sam and Bobby end up killing it.

2.) I was looking for some hurt dean (probably Stanford era or Au Idc) where Dean gets sent to the hospital and wake up in a coma months later. But john and sam don't show up and Dean is tragically hurt by that. (Self esteem issues Dean feeling alone) any fic that has something to do with Dean being alone and hurt is good with me.

3.) So I never really see a lot of Dean and Sam fighting and Sam being wrong fics. I was wondering if there's some kind of fic where Sam says something super horrible/hurtful to Dean and ultimately makes him feel like shit (and thinks that sam doesn't care but he does) I just want a boys fighting one where Dean ends up emotionally hurt or right during the argument. I really want Sam to be kinda an asshole in it. ( love sam! But I just don't see many of these)

Thank you all!
20 January 2017 @ 09:41 pm
Hey all!

I'm looking for fics where J1 lives comfortably or is rich and J2 is poor and has low self worth/ is ashamed/sad, etc.

I'm especially interested in fics with this storyline with J2 as kids or teenagers, but I'll definitely take any age! I would love to read fics with rich/popular highschooler!jensen and poor!jared.

Self recs are awesome!

Thanks all! <3
30 November 2016 @ 11:47 pm
John and Sam had abandoned Dean and he's feeling lost, a cult lures him in, promising him a family. I know this isn't much and there are lots of cult stories out there but I can't recall anything else about it. I saw it while browsing stories but never got round to reading it and now I've lost the title. Help please. Thx to all who reply.
Sorry about the Tags, but there doesn't seem to be one dealing with cult stories.
28 November 2016 @ 01:53 am
I am looking for a Jensen/Jared Alpha/Omega arranged marriage story. In the story Jared is an omega whose family is horrible to him. They tell Jared how horrible sex is going to be and thats all hes going to be worth a sex toy. They tell him that he's going to be treated badly by his new alpha.Jensen treats Jared like hes a treasure. Jensen who is the alpha that Jared is marrying is also kind,thoughtful and doesn't act like a knotthead. Jared's family hooks him up with Jensen because of the money and just to get rid of Jared. They blame Jared for not getting their money especially Jareds brother.Jensen doesn't give Jareds family anything because of the way they treated Jared.Jensen gives something to Jareds only friend who was always there for Jared. Also Jared is an artist. Jensen gives Jared a surprise birthday party and invites one of Jareds old friends before Jared became an omega. He cant invite more because they havent been checked out for anything unusual or criminal. The story has multiple parts to it. In one of the stories Jareds brother tries to kill him during an omega rights march/protests. Jensen is a prince, his brother will be king someday. In another one of the stories Jensen tries to make Jared angry because Jared never gets angry. For Jareds birthday Jensen gives him a dog. Im not sure if they have sex on their wedding night. Jareds family hates omega s and thinks all there ment to do is have sex,birth pups and take care of the house.Thats all I remember.
10 November 2016 @ 05:03 am
I am looking for a story about Jared, who is getting abused by his husband. I think his family made him marry the man because of money. They basically sold Jared to this man. I'm not sure what the husbands name is. The husband is very controlling and abusive. Jared gets sent to a ranch while his husband is away on business or something like that. He is sent there to be watched because the husband is paranoid and doesn't trust Jared. He hires people to keep an eye out for Jared. Jared is an artist, he loves to draw, but he is always told by his husband that he is horrible and should stop wasting time on something that will never amount to anything. Jensen tells Jared that he's an amazing artist. The ranch turns out to be the best place for Jared because he gets more confidence in himself. And he is surrounded by people who care about him. He meets Jensen at the ranch either the first day or the second and later on they start a friendship,but it becomes an affair overtime.The friendship takes time because Jared is very timid and doesn't trust easily anymore. Chad shows up at the ranch with help from Jensen. Chad and Jared haven't seen each other in a long time because Chad and Jared are not allowed to hang out. Jared has been forbidden to see Chad, so they keep it a secret from Jared's husband as long as they can. The husband eventually finds out. At the very end of the story Jared shows up at his house to get stuff. He gets raped and ends up in a fight for his life. Jared either kills his husband or almost kills him, by bashing his head with a lamp or something like that. Jared ends up at the hospital. Jared and Jensen end up together in the end.
Here are some tidbits I remember from the story.
The husband parades Jared in front of his friends. The husband may share Jared I forget. The friends are also are mob related. There's evidence against the husband relating to his shady deals. The man had been grooming Jared for a long time and the minute he turned 18 he asked to marry Jared. The dad said yes and forced Jared to sign papers. Jared's mom is either a drug addict or an alcoholic so she is no help at all. During his stay at the ranch he is made to make multiple calls to his husband. He must tell his husband everything about his day. I think Jensenis the one to find Jared in the house after the attack and blames himself for Jared getting hurt. That's all I remember.

I hope that helps and I hope it wasn't to confusing.
23 October 2016 @ 11:22 pm

I'm looking for a specific supernatural rpf fic. I believe they were both in high school. Jensen was popular, Jared was a bit of a loner. Jensen was dared to befriend Jared and give him a makeover and get him a date for some sort of school function. Jensen's cousin was a hair stylist I think. Anyway, Jared found out, things got tense, but eventually worked itself out. If anyone has any idea of what story this is, please let me know. Thank you!

Also, I've been reading stories with mute/deaf/blind Sam/Jared and mentally ill/mentally disabled/autistic Sam/Jared and homeless Sam/Jared. I think I've read all that's been posted, but just in case, if you know of anything that is a bit harder to find, like isn't labeled for it, please let me know that too.

Thank you!

Story found! Title:My Problem is You Make Me Melt http://juice817.livejournal.com/200810.html or http://archiveofourown.org/works/6542323?view_full_work=true
07 September 2016 @ 11:56 pm
This is bugging the heck out of me. I can't seem to find the right tags to locate it.
It was a story of a young (20 something) J2 (maybe, possibly Sam/Dean AU, but I think it was J2) I seem to remember Jensen being the next best thing to homeless and he starts hanging around with Jared. Jensen has been horribly scarred in a fire and is very self-conscious. I also seem to remember Jared being kind of cruel or oblivious. Jensen thinks he's finally found something, but Jared may announce at some point that he's interested in someone else. Or I might be misremembering it.

The story ends with Jensen rushing to catch the bus and is so distracted he is struck and killed.

Does this ring any bells with anyone? It was a SPN_J2 Big Bang three or four years ago.
Any help appreciated.

FOUND by the awesome [livejournal.com profile] wusswooand I had everything wrong about the story except the scars!
Lick The Valleys Up by [livejournal.com profile] xxamlaxx
Summary: SPN AU based off Marianela. Dean and Sam's parents died in the fire that left Dean disfigured and Sam blind. Sam is adopted by the Winchesters, Dean isn't. In simpler terms: Dean is ugly, Sam is blind, and they meet.
03 September 2016 @ 11:47 pm
I think I need a refresher in "Google 101". Could I please ask for assistance in finding the following types of stories:

1. Dragon rider stories where Jensen is either rider or dragon. Would love one similar to Eragon. (Looking for more recent stories but will take any recommendations in case I missed some.)

2. Stories where Jensen has scars and he's afraid that Jared won't like him once he sees them. Jensen could have gotten them from a fire, or accident or from an injury caused in the line of duty (fireman, police or even military) or even from an abusive childhood.

3. Looking for a specific story but not really sure it exists or the premise just popped in my head....what I do recall is that Jensen was a Healer (magical not literal)but he and his friends tried to keep it a secret because each time he healed someone it took a little bit out of him. Of course he falls for Jared who is then severely wounded and Jensen heals him almost dying himself. There were little incidences in the story where Jensen did heal his friends (paper cuts, broken arm). Really hope this story actually exists.

Please no death fics or WIPs. J2 or Gen is preferred. Self recs are always welcomed.

As always, thank you in advance for any offerings you have.
Current Mood: tired
03 July 2016 @ 01:48 pm
Hi! So the first fic is an AU set during season 9 after Sam discovers Dean "tricked" him into saying yes to Gadreel. In the fic, Dean and Sam are mates but once Sam finds out about everything, he begins to unintentionally sever the bond between himself and Dean causing Dean to become sick. Dean eventually decides to kill himself to allow Sam to mate with someone else but Castiel intervenes before it is too late.

The second fic takes place earlier in the Supernatural timeline. I remember Dean named his teddy bear FUBAR after he mentally regresses to the mind frame of a child after a traumatic event. There's also a firefighter that Dean becomes close to during the story.

02 July 2016 @ 08:21 pm
Hello, everyone,

so I just read the amzing story Best Served Cold by Fatebigins and would love to read some story similar to this one. Any stories where one of the J2 is bullied by the other and then years later they fall in love or ugly duckling kind of stories in general.

Thanks in advance
24 June 2016 @ 01:17 am
I'm having kind of a bad week, so I was hoping someone could recommend some good fluffy fics of either Sastiel or Sabriel (I'm a sucker for a good Sam fic), where Sam is having a rough time for whatever reason and an angel (or angels) reassure Sam of his worth. A good example would be Wolfish_Willow's "Riding Shotgun, Going Nowhere", or red_river's The Other Guardian series.

Basically, in most of the canon of the show, people (especially angels) tell Sam that he's a monster, a freak, something that should be destroyed, and it wouldn't be surprising for that to wear a guy down. Sam's self esteem must be practically non-existent by now, and a good dose of angel affirmation of love would hopefully soothe both Sam and myself.
Current Mood: pessimistic
21 June 2016 @ 08:33 pm

1. So I'm im in the mood for some Stanford era fics with a lot of hurt Dean and mean Sam and neglectful John
-hurt Dean has amnesia or in a coma
-kidnapped Dean
-Depressed lonley Dean
-Neglectful Sam/John
-Mean Sam
-wincest angst

2. Sam betrays Dean some how. -Not looking for him while in purgatory
- Season 4 Sam drinking Demon blood with Ruby
- Cheating
-Sam leaving Dean behind

3. I'm also looking for a fic where there is a ghost or a curse of some kind that makes its victims commit suicide. Dean gets cursed and then is see this girl he couldn't save that happened to be Jess's best friend. Same gets mad at Dean and storms off.

4. Maybe Dean had a secret double life that Sam doesn't know about. Haha like while Sam was at Stanford Dean was hunting but also had a Wife with kids or was a firefighter or something

No DESTIEL please

I'm looking for a J2 fic where Jensen invites Jared over to spend New Years with him and his family. Danneel shows up unexpectedly. I believe Sandy and Jared had a bad break up. Its got a lot of insecure Jared and Danneel bashing. I have tried every variation of what I can remember from it and can't find it to save my life. Thank you for all the help!

It's been found: http://siouxsmn-3745.livejournal.com/9862.html
05 June 2016 @ 12:26 am
Hello SPN friends! I was hoping you wonderful folks could recommend some stories where Jensen has scars and is self conscious of them. Perhaps he got them because of child abuse, or was in the military and captured and tortured, or they could be surgery scars or due to an accident. They can be anywhere on his body. Would love if the stories were also J2 and Jared tells Jensen he's still beautiful or that he's even more beautiful because of the strength he has for having gone through whatever caused the scars. Can be gen or J2. Please no WIPs.

Thank you in advance.
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Music: Tennessee Whiskey, Chris Stapleton
Hey, I'm basically looking for any fic where Sam is taken advantage of by someone outside the family (another hunter, or maybe a teacher) and Dean and/or John find out and are protective/supportive. A few things:

- I'd prefer for the "taking advantage of" to occur preseries, but the fic itself doesn't need to.

- It's totally fine if Sam doesn't realize he was taken advantage of, like if he's 15 and sleeps with someone in their 30s and doesn't know that's wrong. Also totally okay if he's fully aware that something wrong happened but feels like it's his fault.

- Wincest or gen, it doesn't matter to me.

Not sure if there's any fic like this out there at all, but I figured I'd ask just in case.
Hello everyone. I just watched Disney's latest version of Cinderella and it has me craving for J2 versions, preferably with Jensen as the Cinderella character. I've done a search and found a few that I've bookmarked to read later, and I did find the below entry and was curious to know if anybody had a copy of the story mentioned? If so, would you mind sharing it provided the author is okay with that?


Of course, I'm interested in any other recommendations you may have. Just please no WIP's. Self recs are always welcomed.

Thank you in advance!
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Purring of my cat Hunter
27 January 2016 @ 07:15 pm
Hello! If you know some hurt!Jensen fics. I would love to read them,  low-self-esteem, self-harming, bullying, cheting, drug-addict etc.
And bonus if Jared saves the day or is very protective.

Thank you!
Hey guys, I'm looking for some general recs this time for the following:

1) Emotionally hurt/insecure!Sam - stories where Sam is uncertain about his place in Dean's (or someone else's) life, either due to insecurity or a misunderstanding/miscommunication.

2) Appreciated!Sam - stories where Sam goes above and beyond as a hunter/hero with research, fighting, etc. and someone shows their appreciation in some obvious way.

3) Commitment - stories where Sam and Dean commit to each other in some way (marriage, ritual, ceremony, etc.)

Mainly looking for Wincest, but gen and other Sam-centric pairings are accepted. Please don't rec anything with Destiel. Thanks!
24 December 2015 @ 09:36 pm
So, the last time i read this fic was on fanfiction.net. It was about how after they killed azazel and john died sam goes back to stanford and leaves dean completely. Dean feels upset. He goes to a bar saves this guys from a bar fight and the guy offers him a job as some kind of body guard, i think? After dean asks if they want to spend christmas with eachother sam says no cause hes with his friends. Then sam gets a lawyer job just because dean and then the his boss comes in deans friend and pretty much tells him he should appreciate dean more.

Ring any bells?
Hi everybody, I can't find a specific story.

This story is pretty long and finished. It starts when Jensen reveals to Jared he is gay, and Jared takes it badly. Eventually, Jared realizes he is interested in Jensen, they make up and start experimenting together. Jensen makes Jared promise, he must tell him if he loses interest, because in the past he has been hurt by many asshole exes who just cheated on him to let him know it is over. He comes into Jared's apartment one day and mistakes visiting Sandy (or Gen) coming out of the shower as a sign that Jared is tired of him and that he wants to end their relationship, he runs away and Jared later on finds him and tells him he loves him. It this story Jensen has non existent self esteem, it's really angsty.

Please help :-)!
First of all the one I'm looking for is NOT Matching Weights.

In the story the boys have finished a hunt and they get hurt. Sam of course doesn't tell Dean and it gets worse after they go to another hunt. I think Sam was hurt on the abdomen area. Sam then asks Dean for some cash and Dean only gives him a twenty saying that's all he could spare. Sam then walks to a free clinic and meets a doctor who thinks Sam's being abused. He then recommends he goes to the hospital. He takes the taxi because he's tired. At the hospital, the doctor tells Sam to rest and gives him prescription pills to help with the pain. When Sam goes to buy them he finds out he doesn't have enough money so buys the strongest over the counter medicine instead. He gets home and Dean thinks Sam's being mopey or lazy and gets mad that Sam hasn't helped with the current hunt. Then he finds out Sam's hurt and does what he can to help him. There's a scene where Dean calls the doctor in the hospital and finds out that Sam needs a few weeks rest. Then Dean goes to buy the medication feeling bad for not giving Sam the money he asked earlier and that the medicine was a little over twenty dollars. Dean makes Sam rest until he gets better.

I keep reading this story and forgetting the title so if someone would be so kind to tell me the title I'd greatly appreciate it.

Also any stories where Sam is suicidal, has a mental disorder, eating disorder, low self esteem or selective mutism that'd be nice. I don't care if it's slash or not if there's rape or any other stuff in it. One thing though is if it is slash I prefer bottom!Sam but it isn't necessary.

Thank you in advance.
Looking for: Jared is (I think) a waiter obsessed with Jensen, who never notices him until Jared kidnaps him. I think Jared isn't "dark" so much as very, very shy and socially awkward. cut for non-con triggers )

Related: The author also used to (maybe still does?) write kink under a different pseud, only I can't remember if they said this publicly or if I just figured it out. If it's open info and anyone knows, please help. Would love to read those fics again too.

Thank you!

Update: Found by [livejournal.com profile] phoenix1966. All That Shimmers is Sure to Fade Note: I had the roles reversed. Thank you so much!!
18 September 2015 @ 01:06 pm
So long story short, I had downloaded a story from AO3, but now my iPad is broken and the story isn't on AO3 anymore. It's devastating. I'm giving it a shot to see if anyone else has it downloaded or posted somewhere else?

The story is called Carry On, and it was posted by TamrynEriadne on AO3.

Castiel is a member of a sort of famous family, the Miltons, who own two TV networks among them, the Angel network, and the Devil network. Gabriel, his brother, runs a BDSM club. Dean is a sub who needs money for Sam's schooling, and so he agrees to basically be Castiel's live-in submissive. They fall in love (obviously).
17 July 2015 @ 10:52 am
Hi ya'll! Got some searches for ya:)

Specific Fic: I read this one a LONG time ago; Sam was Bobby's son Dean was his best friend from town and one day he just said something to hurt Sam/stopped coming around? Soemthing like that and that's all I remember. He did come back after Bobby died to make amends with Sam. Can you help?

General Search #1: Any Dean/Sam fics with insecure Sam.

#2: Dean/Cas/Sam fics with Sam thinking he's not wanted or everybody thinking Dean and Cas are a couple.

#3: Any fics where Jared/Sam is a foster child?

#4: Fics where Jared/Sam has low self-esteem?

#5: Spy fics!!! Any with Jared/Sam as a spy, Federal Agent, etc...

Thanks guys!
Hi! I recently read two very good fics, both similar in some ways but very different and enjoyable! They were

The Spirit of Lawrence High (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2594180/chapters/5776937): Dean Winchester is funny, gorgeous, brave, loyal, and a breath of fresh air in Castiel Shurley's life. Dean Winchester is also a ghost haunting Castiel's school, but nobody's perfect, right?


Jump the Track (http://archiveofourown.org/works/224944): It's Dean's senior year at Lawrence High, and he's already given up on himself. It takes the arrival of the strange, intense, awkward Castiel Delacroix at the school to prove to Dean that maybe his life is worth saving after all.

One similarity that both of these fics have are that Dean was raped by Alastair. The rape isn't central to the plot, and the stories mainly focus on the romance, but the angst is exactly the kind of thing I love.

I was wondering if anyone knew of any other AU fics out there with this kind of a plot? If two's a coincidence I'm hoping someone can find a third and make it a pattern. I do enjoy reading fics that are completely original and complex, but sometimes I enjoy sitting back and working through several stories with kind of the same basic setup and ingredients, especially when I'm stressed. Not that these fics aren't both creative and complicated, but they share very similar themes that I'd like to read more of!

Specific ingredients I'm looking for: Teenage Destiel (or I'd settle for college), regular-kid!Castiel, kind-of-outcast!Dean, low-self-esteem!Dean, bad-guy-teenage!Alastair. I also enjoy themes of depression, rape/assault recovery, and developing relationship.

Thank you!

I've just re-read [livejournal.com profile] _mournthewicked 's Reinventing Love Verse for the third time and I would like for y'all to recommend me your favourite J2!Highschool fics. Only bottom!Jensen please :)

It'll be a HUGE bonus if:
-J2's brothers are a big part of the story
-J2 are childhood friends

I'm also looking for fics whereby either of the following is a main focus of the story. If it's not Gen, then only bottom!Dean please :)

Anything that has:
-Dean's insecurity with regards to his father's love for him/Dean's Daddy issues
-Dean being a cherished child in the family (it can be a/b/o, anything!)
-Dean idolising/loving his Dad so much he does anything his Dad asks of him, even if it's unreasonable (the love part must be mentioned in the story)

Thank you very much in advance!
12 June 2015 @ 11:25 pm
Hey guys,

So there's this fic which I've been wanting to read again, and I thought I'd bookmarked it, but I can't find it.

Basically, it was an au J2 fic where the boys had never met but they constantly chatted to each other online. Eventually they fall in love and want to meet, but Jared is a bit reluctant because he's very self conscious about the way he looks and he's kind of shy and awkward and doesn't want to embarrass himself. Eventually though, he does agree, but when he goes to the meeting place (with Genevieve as his back up), he sees Jensen and freaks out and runs away, because in his eyes Jensen is so much more hotter than him and he thinks that there's no way he'd ever want to date him. I'm relatively sure the fic had a happy ending (I think Jensen is hurt when Jared dorsnt show up, but everything ends up being resolved in the end). But I just can't for the life of me find this fic! A little help please?? ^^
So, I have a hankering for fics that address the selfish comment Sam made about Dean in S9. Where he said that Dean is fine with sacrificing as long as he's not the one getting hurt. I really would love to see a fic where Sam is corrected. I'm not looking for the part where Sam says that he wouldn't do the same for Dean (save him if he were dying). I understand that part as miscommunication (Holy blonde cheerleader Batman, miscommunication!). I want it to brought to Sam's attention on just how much Dean has sacrificed for him over their lives. Stuff like, HELL?! Leaving Ben and Lisa (he tells Sam if he ever mentions their names again, he's going to break his nose...), his entire childhood, etc.

And... Are there any fics out there where it's brought out maybe just how far back or how long Dean's progression may have been? Like this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uk8g2ZMqzw

Perhaps maybe, when other characters sit and think about it, Dean's road to a demon never truly stopped from S3/4? The Mark just sped things up to where he couldn't fight against it anymore? (I don't believe Dean is inherently a bad person, just a thought about the way his life has gone, how much for granted he's taken by everyone, etc. I just think that takes a greater toll than the show has portrayed up until S9/10).
Hello everyone,
I´m looking for fic called For The Love of Jensen Ackles, but can´t find it anywhere. It´s J2 fic with Jensen as a fat ugly duckling. It´s been searched for and found here before, but that was years ago, and all the links are invalid now. Does anyone have a current link or perhaps a PDF copy if the author is still willing to share?

I´ll be also grateful for any other fic recommendation with similar topic. Recently, I read Lost and Found, amazing fic featuring overweight Jensen in a fat capm, and now I´m craving more stories with chubby Jensen.

Thank you:)
1) Past Abuse PTSD

Jumpy J1 or Sam/Dean from some form of past abuse (flinching, stuttering, anxiety)
With the other character figuring it out (h/c preferred).

2)  Social Anxiety
J1 or J2 have social anxiety - bonus for them being polar oposits socially.

3) Low self esteem

bonus for:
flinching, stuttering, anxiety, nervousness, h/c, a/b/o and mpreg.

(j2 or sam/dean) self recs are great.
06 April 2015 @ 11:09 pm
Looking for stories in which the fact that Sam was John's favorite is discussed. It could be Sam realizing he'd been blind/selfish, Dean internally monologuing his low self-esteem, or another adult observing the interactions - a teacher, a friend, or I would love for it to be Bobby.

In fact, any fics about Bobby trying to make up to Dean John's lack of good parenting is welcome. Especially if Bobby tries to shower Dean with affection since he can see that almost all of John's goes to Sam.

Thank you!
06 April 2015 @ 03:45 pm
Hi, I'd really like to read any and all fics in which Jensen or Dean have a stutter. I don't mind if it's a major part of the plot or just a character trait, I just want Jensen/Dean being adorable and stuttering (and maybe insecure or embarrassed, too!).

I'm cool with happy fics, fics that involve bullying/name-calling, and high-school fics (AU or otherwise.)

I don't want Wincest, although I'll make exceptions if the plot is good. I'd like Destiel. I'm fine with J2, and my preference is non-AU RPF, but AU is fine! Just help me find stutter!fics!
27 February 2015 @ 03:20 pm
I'm looking for any fics that put a strong emphasis on Dean learning to overcome his self-worth issues and finally value himself. Angsty/broken Dean is fine to include, so long as there is a happy ending after showing a progression of how he learned to appreciate himself. I prefer for the main focus to be on the comfort, not the hurt. Preference for Cas and/or Sam being the ones to help him get there, but I'm open to comfort from any other characters except John. Please no evil/cruel Sam or Cas. I'd like to see Dean get to the point where he can recognize how much they both love him and not doubt that he deserves it.

Destiel or Gen please. Self-recs and WIP welcome so long as they are being actively updated.

The longer the better - I love lengthy fics I can really get into, but I'll look at recs of any length.

Thanks in advance!
Hi everyone!
I've been looking through the suicidal tag and I gave up for like 2 pages, cuz they're ALL suicidal!Sam. So I decided just to try my luck here...

I'm looking for stories where Dean is suicidal for whatever reason(Sam leaving him, feel unworthy, being tortured/raped, etc), and he tries to hurt or kill himself and Sam or John or whoever finds out about it and feels guilty or something like that.

I prefer gen fic and stanford!era, or stories set in the first few seasons, but other eras are OK. If the fic has slash content I'd love it features a bottom!Dean. I love long fics, so that I can cry over and savour Dean's pain. ;)

Bonus if the person finds out about it feels super guilty (cuz they are neglecting Dean or something they've done hurt Dean very very badly) and becomes super protective over Dean.
Bo-bonus if the fic also has some delicious hurt!Dean. Cuz Dean is so beautiful when he's broken. XD

Hope I can get manysome recs. ><

Thanks in advance!
Not sure there are many stories like this out there, but I figured here's the place to look. Hoping to find pretty much exactly what the subject says, stories involving J2/Daneel or J2/Chris threesomes where Jared is the sub/bottom and the other partners are controlling/directing the situation, either in a hurt/comfort way or in a top/dom fashion. Dub/non-con is okay but warn me? (Am okay with moresomes as well so long as Jared is the bottom/sub.)

The examples I have so far are Two Against One and Two for One (for J2/Daneel) and Hungry as an Archway (for a moresome involving J2/Chris). Would love to find more if they're out there!
29 January 2015 @ 04:30 pm
I really enjoy stories that explore Dean's feminine side. We know from the show that he sometimes indulges in secret pleasures, such as pop ballads (I'm All Out Of Love), medical dramas (Dr. Sexy, M.D.), and wearing pink panties. We also know that a lot of what Dean shows the world is what he picked up copying John, and that, as his dream-self put it so eloquently, "His music? That's dad's. His car? That's dad's. Favorite leather jacket? Dad's. Does he even have an original thought?" Plus, monsters and humans alike really seem to enjoy pointing out Dean's prettiness and delicate features.

I'm looking for fics that delve into the side of Dean that he locks up inside himself and doesn't like to show people for fear of being seen as a lesser man and hunter. I'd love anything on this topic, whether these thoughts remain private, if Dean decides to share his secret with a few close friends (Sam, Castiel, Charlie), or he decides to fuck gender stereotypes and put cute kitty key-chains on his key ring or dress in drag.

Specific things I'd absolutely adore:

Dean wearing panties underneath his jeans.
Dean being really insecure about admiring delicate feminine things such as ballerinas.
Sam jokingly criticizing Dean's like of something, or off-handedly making an ephemiphobic/homophobic remark and accidentally hurting Dean's feelings.
Dean struggling with the fear that wanting to dress up femininely/like a woman makes him not a man/less of a man/gay.

I'm not looking for kink or smut! I'm looking for character analysis, sensitivity, and compelling inner/outer dialogue.
I'm also not looking for Dean to be gay or bisexual! While either is perfect and appreciated, I'd actually be even MORE grateful to find a fic where Dean has feminine tendencies but is heterosexual!

I'd also prefer no Wincest, I like the brotherly relationship. However, a well-written Wincest fic would not be ignored.

An example of what I'm looking for:
29 January 2015 @ 11:42 am
I remember pretty much everything about this fic since I read it several times, but I can't find it anymore. It's about how Jared's parents died when he was a kid and he went into the foster system, where he was abused by several different sets of foster parents. He then gets put into the care of the Ackles family, who work on a farm. I think it was split into two different parts, the first one with Jared settling into life on the ranch and getting caught in a flash flood after running away, and the second beginning with Jared attempting to kill himself after Jensen gets mad at him, finishing with him and Jensen finally becoming an official couple at the end around Christmas.
08 January 2015 @ 06:09 pm
I'm looking for any fics about Dean having a severe burn or deformity. I don't mind if they're AU or canon-compliant! I'd just really appreciate a fic surrounding the way it impacts his self-esteem and the way the boys interact, and the way it changes how people act around him. Especially if there is hurt/angst caused by name-calling or bullying of some sort!

A really good example is http://xxamlaxx.livejournal.com/247889.html, Lick The Valleys Up, which is an AU where the boys were raised apart after the fire killed Mary and John and left Dean severely burned and Sam blind. I would highly recommend it if you haven't read it! It is Wincest, but the boys never find out they're related.

That being said, I do prefer gen, but I want to read more fics like this so much that I'm willing to overlook Wincest. The injury can be recent, or very old, or existent since birth, I really don't care! Just give me anything you can! I'm desperate and hopeful!
03 January 2015 @ 07:38 pm
Are there any fics (probably would be au's) where Cas can't believe Dean is interested in him because he's very weird and no one has really been into him before? Maybe he thinks Dean is making fun of him or playing a joke on him?


I am looking for any good long fics in which both Jared and Jensen are weres (don't really care what kind), and Jared is the omaga or whaterver equivalent in the relationship.

Maybe he has just been turned and doesn't know what's happening to him, maybe he came from a different pack and was mistreated, or captured by humans who experimented on him or anything else that would cause Jensen to be protective of him.

It'd be great if he were to be considered special or a rarity for some reason.

I'll take anything!

Thanks so much for the help :)

06 December 2014 @ 08:40 pm
Hi guys, can anyone please help me find good low self esteem Jensen fics? I don't care if it's J2 or Cockles or another pairing. I'm not too keen on gen, A/B/O or mpreg, and I like longer fics. Thank you!
21 November 2014 @ 06:50 pm
So challenge time! Can anyone give me some thing about:

#1 Clumsy!Jensen (i.e Warning Signs)
#2 Adorabe!Jensen
#3 Non-Au Self-Sacrificing!Jensen
#4 Low-self-esteem!Jensen
#5 Non-Au Geek!Jensen
Any pairing is fine but J2 would be a big plus, and is there is sex, Bottom!Jensen only please :))
Thank you! :">
19 November 2014 @ 03:51 pm
Hi All,
I just finished reading "unleashed" by Indigo2831 in Fan Fiction and I was hoping to find similar fics with the same theme. "www.fanfiction.net/s/10822166/3/Unleashed"

I am looking for fics that basically portray Dean as the protective, fighter, big bad hunter that he is and When it comes to Sam his little brother, when he means "no one" touches his little brother, he means it and he goes out to leave that message loud and clear with any and all. Especially within the hunter community I would like it where he has to reminds them again by introducing himself (My name is Dean Winchester) and asking out loud to a bar full of hunters or gang of hunters and asking once again "what his number one rule is" like he does in the above story. And having an old timer/hunter responding out loud the answer.

It should have kidnapped, hurt Sammy because once again hunters find out Sam let out Lucifer or they find out he has/had Demon Blood.

Dean finding him with the hunters or after math (they hurt him but they take off cause they knew Dean was close by) but he takes Sam to the hospital, seeing his brother hurt like that make Dean's blood boil/ rage and realizes he need to send a loud message to the community once and for all. He leaves Sam at the hospital with either Bobby or Kevin or Castiel letting them know he needs to take care of something.

Or it could be John and Dean (would love to see some protective John Winchester and what he is capable of when he see his youngest hurt) reminding the hunter community "no one messes with their youngest" could be Pre-Stanford or even or after Stanford.

(I am so excited that Jeffrey Dean Morgan will be at the Las Vegas convention with Jensen and Jared)!!!

So if you know of any stories with this theme please send them to me??? I can't seem to find that many?