07 March 2016 @ 04:34 pm
Recs for fiction with strong psychological overtones, please - not necessarily psycho to the point of madness (although always interesting) - and definitely not limited to the free-flowing angst that is sometimes Dean's (or teen-Sam's) internal, self-centered monologue.

Please rec (or self-rec) stories where the psychology of a character (or characters) is particularly effective, as a means of advancing the plot or illuminating the character in a new way. Yes, I realize that many fics have psychological issues as subtext, but I'd like to hear your takes on those stories that elevate it to a feature of the main plot/character - in a twisty or otherwise interesting way. (e.g., sandymg's wonderful One Small Step, in which Jared's Aspergers often drives the plot and the relationship)

NOTE:I chose a few tags from the 'Affliction' and 'Genre' categories as examples, but we're not limited to these. Also, no matter if story is gen or slash.

As always, thanks to the community for your inexhaustible expertise.
28 June 2015 @ 02:00 pm
I am looking for three things.

1) Angels as a family (Castiel, Gabriel, Lucifer, Michael, etc). Either canon (where they are angels) or AU (human or otherwise). Short or long, doesn't matter as long as it is complete. I don't mind if there is incest ("romantic" family is fine).

2) Castiel whump of any kind (mental, physical, sexual). Any where he is young and being abused by his family are great as long as there is a happy ending! Bonus if it can be tied into request #1.

3) Any fics with Castiel having a mental disorder. Any type is fine (OCD, Autism, Traumatic Brain Injury, etc). Bonus for tying into request #1 or #2.

Any pairings welcome for all.
1) Past Abuse PTSD

Jumpy J1 or Sam/Dean from some form of past abuse (flinching, stuttering, anxiety)
With the other character figuring it out (h/c preferred).

2)  Social Anxiety
J1 or J2 have social anxiety - bonus for them being polar oposits socially.

3) Low self esteem

bonus for:
flinching, stuttering, anxiety, nervousness, h/c, a/b/o and mpreg.

(j2 or sam/dean) self recs are great.
07 April 2015 @ 09:34 pm

So a couple of years ago I read a story at ff.net which I forgot to bookmark and can't find anymore.

It was a story that took place preseries and Sam could not have been over sixteen. Although it wasn't specifically mentioned, you could guess due to his behaviour that he had developed an extreme case of OCD. I think - I'm not sure though - that Sam acted the way he did to gain some control over his life, as he was so unhappy travelling with John and hunting monsters etc.That being said, it was a really angsty story.

I only remember that one specific scene, where John(?) spilled something on the carpet of a motel. Sam hardly contained himself from cleaning it right away, as he didn't want his family to know of his coping mechanisms. However, in the middle of the night he stood up, took the bleach, and desperately tried to get the stain off. Dean woke up, initially to drink water or something, and saw Sam on his knees, scrubbing the floor. I don't remember Dean commenting on it though.

I don't know whether it was a one-shot, but if it was multi-chaptered, it couldn't have been too long. Also, I'm pretty sure that there were no pairing or romance in general.

Thank you in advance:)

10 June 2014 @ 12:18 pm
Hi, I'm looking for two fics and I'm hoping you can help!

1. This was a Dean/Cas story and all I can remember is a scene in which Sam and Jess are getting married and Dean and Cas had some sort of misunderstanding/falling at the wedding (I think Dean was hired by Cas for sex and they were pretending to be boyfriends at the wedding and it didn't work or something...)

2. This story I think was Dean/Cas, but it might've been gen. I only remember a little bit and Dean is OCD or something and is always straightening things out and organizing. Sam and Cas are trying to help him get rid of his tendencies, I believe.

Sorry, I know those were all pretty vague, but that's all I can remember from each. Hopefully someone can help me!

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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1. I for some reason copied and saved this part of a summary/author's notes to a fic I wanted to read but managed to not save the title, author, or link. :-P So if this excerpt seems at all familiar to anyone, I'd greatly be obliged.
I'd also love reading any similar fics, namely Jared(Sam) in an abusive relationship/domestic abuse situation where he's the abused; or anything where he gets cheated on.
The quote: "And thirdly, I want to apologize to Tom Welling! I made him do some really horrible things in this little world of mine. I like to think of it as a role I cast him in. He was an actor I could see playing a street saint and a private devil, one I could see having the ability to dominate Jared physically and mentally. I in no way think that he or any of the real life actors I cast in this story are in any way like this in real life. So I guess that's my disclaimer. I don't own them. I don't think they would act in this way in real life. All I can claim are the words on the page. I hope they bring some enjoyment." (If it helps any, the background of the layout the person used on the journal I think was sort of an olive/brown-green color.)
2. Anything with germaphobic!Jared/Sam. Please, please, please, there has to be something out there! :-D
3. Jared/AU!Sam as a black ops agent/secret agent/undercover cop/soldier/whatever? who gets captured and tortured. 'Cause I'm evil. XD
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28 March 2013 @ 09:45 pm
1) Dean is devoted to Castiel (he could be an angel, a demon, another person/hunter or some other creature) for some reason. Castiel could send him on jobs that have Dean massacring Vampire nests or killing werewolves or anything really. Castiel role with Dean is something like a kind mentor / loving employer - or they could be in a relationship. I am currently craving a fic along these lines. It came from this pic [x] Give me many as you can; it'd be awesome if Sam or John or even Bobby find out about this especially after they'd abandoned (not in Bobby's case) him.
Dean and Castiel could be evil or neutral or good. Anything really.

2) Dean in a drag / as a prostitute / pole dancer / dancer / gymnast / ballerina.

3) Dean's hunting family (Bobby, Sam, John mostly) are surprised that Dean is married to Lisa / Castiel / Gabriel. Or he has kids. OFCs / OMCs are so-so.

4) Dean has amnesia and the other Winchesters and their hunting buddies (heck even supernatural beings) find him living his life.

5) Dean has OCD.

6) Dean ends up on the ceiling.

Destiel is preferred. Debriel is fine. Warn me if it's Wincest please.
Slash is preferred. Gen and straight are fine too.
Self-recs are fine too!

Thanks for the help :)
P.S Hope I got the tags right...
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11 November 2012 @ 02:54 pm
I'm back again, looking for Sam/Dean fics where Sam has some kind of disorder? It doesn't matter if it's preseries, or something that's been developed since/because of Dean's death or his own venture into hell, or whatever. OCD, self harm, suicidal!Sammy, ptsd, eating disorder, whatever you've got, I'll take it. 

The longer the fic, the better!
Preferably not mpreg, and not on ff.net
Thank you!

Sorry if I've missed anything
30 April 2012 @ 09:19 pm


I'm looking for a Destiel fic, the longer the better (over 20k if possible), where either Dean or Castiel has some form of mental health problem? It doesn't even have to be, like, diagnosed; just maybe where one of them is sort of messed up, y'know? Anything really, PTSD, schizophrenia, depression... loads of angst, but with a happy ending of some sort! Has to have a happy ending! It can be AU or canon, I don't mind.
Podfics/Audiofics are welcome too (actually encouraged)

Thanks in advance :B

15 April 2012 @ 10:31 am
Good morning! I glanced through the OCD tag, but didn't manage to find my request. I'm looking for a fic where one of the boys, Dean or Sam, has some sort of OCD affliction. I'd like it to be canon as possible, just with this added illness . It can be gen or Wincest. Does anybody know if a fic like this has been written before?

Thank you!
18 March 2012 @ 07:26 pm
Preferably something under 20k or I won’t get anything done tonight.

Destiel that addresses one ore more of these:

  • Wolf/Werewolf AU
  • Bipolar disorder
  • Any kind of disability or mental illness for one or both characters
  • I love fics where one of them is dependent on the other for something or everything
  • love angst/deathfics that are balanced by a little fluff
  • lots of Sammy plz (I really like Dean chooses between Sam and Cas, but if Dean chooses Cas, don’t even bother reccing it)
Thanks in advance! :)
11 January 2012 @ 11:21 pm
Hi there! I'm looking for any story you can rec me in which Sam loses touch with reality, hallucinates and doesn't know what's real any more. I'm not looking for mental illness fics per-se, I just want some off-the-deep-end Sam due to a curse, drugs, PTSD, torture, memories of Hell, hallucinations of Lucifer after the cage, anything where Sam loses it and starts acting crazy. I'd love to read stories in which the author focuses on Sam's train of thought at this point. 

(I've recently read a fic called "Everything flows, nothing remains" at "OhSam", in which Sam gets a phone call telling him that Dean has been killed in a robbery and he has to come identify the body, at which point Sam breaks down and goes nuts, then finds out that the dead guy wasn't really Dean. I loved that story, and I'm looking for other fics in that same register. Not this fic, just others like it.)

I'd love it if the fics were Wincest (Sam/Dean), but if they're really good, they can be gen, too. Just no het or Dean/Cas, please. Self-recs are more than welcome, and I accept any kind of genre, kink or plot. Bonus points if you can rec me something in the Season 7 timeline.

Thank you, and I hope you can help me. :D
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11 January 2012 @ 07:46 am
I'm looking for Dean/Castiel fics where one (or both) of them are physically or mentally afflicted and somewhat dependent on the other. I'll take gen too.

Examples of what I've read/am looking for:

Hummingbirds - Mute!Castiel

Ghost Dance - brain damage/mentally ill Dean

(Those are both beautiful by the way. Check them out.)
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10 January 2012 @ 06:22 am
  1. Werewolf Fics. I want some action stories involving werewolves! Preferably alpha John, Dean, JDM, or Jensen, but not required. I would like them to be werewolves but not all of them have to be. All pairings accepted. I have already read Hunter of the Shadows (by skagtrendy) stories so please don't rec those.
  2. Mental Illness!Sam. Sam with PTSD or any other mental illness. It can be something he's had his whole life or he got it from a hunt or a simple accident.
  3. Deaf or Blind!Sam. Sam goes deaf or blind or has been his whole life.
  4. Family fics! Basically I want any fics with caring John, awesome/protective Dean, and Sam being Sam.
Obviously I like hurt!Sam so throw some of those my way, too. Thanks in advance!
08 January 2012 @ 06:30 pm
hey guys,

I read all the stories over at J2 recs dealing with mental disorders and problems.

Are there any other good stories out there along those lines, that you know of? They can be any kind of mental illness, also depression etc.

I'd especially like to read stories dealing with Asperger's syndrome. Doesn't matter if it's J2 or SPN...

Thanks everyone!
I'm trying to locate a fic where Dean has had a kind of compulsion to work out mathematical problems in his head when he's anxious. Due to a spell or a curse Sam cannot help but hear his thoughts and it annoys him.

Thanks in advance.
So, I usually try to avoid sounding so dramatic but my life lately has been incredibly hard. to be honest I'm cracking a little under the pressure and lately supernatural and spn fic is really the only thing that actually distracts me. For that reason I was hoping that all you wonderful people can help me find more to read! You have never disappointed yet, so here goes! 

(also i hope i got the tags right! mods please help if i messed up!)

here's the request! )
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12 November 2011 @ 06:16 am
Hello! I'm looking for any story where it's Dean who takes a vacation from reality and becomes paranoid/trigger-happy. And then maybe some violence ensues. Or just a complete breakdown. Please keep Dean just as dangerous and charismatic as always!

Extra awesome if he were abusing painkillers/alcohol beforehand and they are no longer enough.
02 November 2011 @ 08:35 am
I have a couple requests guys. Anyone think they can help?

Okay so my first request is a story I read pretty recently. In it, Jared gets kidnapped, I'm not sure who does it, but he's taken to a house and tied to a chair half naked in one scene and is left alone in the room overnight with the window open. He winds up getting hypothermia I think, and the next day he's found by his kidnapper and the are very worried. It might be Jensen that kidnaps him but I can't say for sure.

My next request is for anything that has Sam?Jared with tourettes. It'd also be okay for anything with OCD or things along those lines but I'm really looking for tourettes. (I know it sounds weird)

Anyone know of any stories where Sam is deaged to a teenager but doesn't have his adult memories? Can be anything. I'd like to see Dean trying to convince a teenaged, very capable of fighting Sam what's going on. I'd really love this.

And last, I'm looking for a story where the boys switch places and they are both hurt and didn't tell each other about it. While in each others bodies they find out about it. Sam had a knee injury, I remember him massaging it for Dean while he's in his body. Anyone know what story I'm talking about?

Anyone who can help, that would be great! Thanks guys.