22 September 2017 @ 02:14 am
Hi again!! So im looking for a fic that I’Ve read on ff.com i i dont remember much but what i do remember is that marry’s parents were alive and they didnt bother with dean because he was born weak so marry cut them out of her life and the boys and john meet her father(after her death) at her gravestone and her father wanted to mend things with the boys but john refused as he rejected his son before and then john told sam why he refused but didn’t tell dean ,marry’s mother was a ‘lady’ and didnt want dean to embarrass her and i remeber a scene where yellow eyed demon found the boys and john and marry’s father was with them at bobby’s (p.s marry and her father weren’t hunters)
19 September 2017 @ 12:14 am
Hey all. I'm searching for Wincest fics based on episode 10x03 that have demon!Dean. In the end being cured is alright but I'd prefer if the focus on the story was on Demon!Dean.

Thank you!
18 September 2017 @ 11:19 am
Hello, I was hoping someone might have the podfic of "Red" by big_pink (Big Pink) saved and do not mind to share access to it. It's not back on the audiofic archive and I looked on other pages where the link to it had been posted. I loved the fic and would love to listen to the podfic version of it.
Thank you very much in advance.
16 September 2017 @ 08:43 am
I'm looking for fics where Garth is a major character or plays a significant role. I prefer Dean centric stories that are long and complete but any recs are welcome.

Thank you.
13 September 2017 @ 08:36 pm
Hi guys,

Looked everywhere and can't find these; I THINK the first one was "I'm not Giving Up (I'm Just Giving In)," can't remember the second. In the first Sam has a brain tumor and Dean wants to heal him, but he's resigned. Sam finds a cabin they go to; at the end, he falls in the shower and loses his ability to speak.

In the second, Cas visits so Dean can leave the much sicker Sam to take a shower. Cas sits with him.

They MAY be by Beckalooby, but I can't remember, and also have searched her new journal and the old posts and have had no luck. Pleae help!

1. I read a fic probably written during Season 1-3 where Dean had been raped by a group of men and it was mainly from Sam and John's point of view. I remember the beginning of the fic being out of Sam's journal. He's worried about his brother since Dean won't talk about it. John ends up showing up, notices something is wrong, and finds out. I know Dean locks himself in the bathroom and John encourages him to open the door, then comforts him. They recuperate at Missouri's. I think Dean tries to kill himself at one point, and possibly tracks down the attackers later on. There's a sequel, but I never got to finish it. It was gen fic with good!John and it was on FF.Net.

2. Any fics where either of the boys are recovering from abuse trauma? I'm not a wincest fan, but like gen, Destiel, and Saileen.



I'm looking for fics that showcase Dean's manipulative and sadistic tendencies. They don't necessarily have to be the focus of the story as long as they're included somehow.

It can be part of a regular Dean-centric fic, or something labeled as dark!Dean or Evil!Dean. That includes but isn't limited to works dealing with hell, demonhood and the mark of Cain. Basically, I want something complex that is focused on Dean and makes sense in the context of his story without transforming him into a one-dimensional villain who rapes the other characters. Rapist!Dean is the trope I'm trying to avoid by making this request.

I really hope some of you can help me with this. I'm good with gen or any Dean pairings.

Editing the post to say that I tend to dislike top!Dean especially in wincest so I'd prefer recs that don't have a lot of sexual content of that nature. Thanks!
Older story, but here is what I remember: Sam and Dean are still hunting, Sam has lost an eye, writing sigils or devils traps, etc causes him pain, but he's grateful to still be working with Dean. I think the demon blood is causing the problem. Very short story and pretty sure it's Gen. I tagged au and possible future fic. Thanks so much
05 September 2017 @ 06:48 pm
Hi everyone, looking for 2 fics I read a few weeks ago on archive of our own.

The first one, Sam and dean find cas being tortured by some guy. The guy has carved Enochian sigils on cas so his wings manifest physically against his will and can be seen.
Cas keeps freaking out when brothers have to or accidentally touch his wings. He compares his wings being forced to manifest and then touched/seen without his permission was like rape. Sam and dean look after him and Eventually becomes okay with dean touching his wings. May have been gen or Destiel.

The second fic has cas suddenly appearing in the bunker. Sam and dean have to go through cas's important memory to keep him alive. They are able to feel cas emotions and find out how much he cared/admired them for the start.
One example I remember was them realising when cas first met Sam and called him boy with demon blood he actually didn't mean to be offensive he was actually happy to meet Sam and greatly admired him.
01 September 2017 @ 12:31 pm
Hey all,

So I'm looking for a fic that I read years ago. All I can remember is that Jensen is raising an autistic son, and Jensen himself is on the spectrum but was never officially diagnosed. I just remember moments where Jensen could recognize some of his own characteristics and mannerisms in his child.

On that note, I would greatly appreciate any recs that deal with either of the J's or the Winchesters raising an autistic child (or one with asperger's syndrome). Or the reverse of that would be great as well: either of the J's/Winchesters having autism/asperger's while raising a child (neurotypical or otherwise). Any pairings welcome.

So I was wondering if anyone knew any fics that had Dean do the trials instead of Sam.

Or any in which had Dean gets possessed by Gadreel instead of Sam.

I love hurt Dean fics
Not a fan of destiel

Thank you :)
29 August 2017 @ 12:18 am
I'm looking for two specific fics.
1. about dean being de-aged. Can't remember how old he is but he's pretty young. He and Sam was in a relationship and Dean wanted to have sex. They got busted by the police when they were in the act or something. I think the police think that sam is into little boys or something. I can't remember much more.

And 2. A Gift of Release by Flutie4Lifes. Was looking through my reading list and noticed that it was deleted from fanfiction.net. Was wondering if someone had copy or know where I can find it.

Thanks in advance.
28 August 2017 @ 09:49 pm
I'm looking for a story where dean has died and is an angel, and sam is slowly dying. I think he has brain injuries but he carries on hunting. Dean takes a vessel and tries to help. Sam takes a hunt where he has to confront a son he didn't know he had with ruby. The son had killed ruby by the time sam gets there and I think the final confrontation is in the kitchen.

Cheers in advance!!! ❤❤❤
28 August 2017 @ 01:40 am
I've searched high and low for this fic. Google, all my memories, through out storyfinders and even Ao3. I can't for the life of me remember the author's full penname or what the story was called. What I do know is this: the author's name had to do with the word vampire or red. the author has passed on for awhile now. Dean had come back from hell, season 3 style. dean was having a lot of issues, like being aggressive, violent and his head was all messed up. he's just a completely changed man. I'm pretty sure he was getting into fights for no rhyme or reason. it was quite a long fic. it's definitely wincest.

I don't know what else to go on. Maybe the journal's deleted now since she can't update it anymore? or I'm somehow just missing it? I just know it's a really good fanfic and I want to read it again.
24 August 2017 @ 08:01 pm
I'm looking for a specific fanfiction I don't remember much but I hope it's enough.
~ Both are teenagers
~ it had definitely Guilty John in it
~ I think John was training Sam and let him run a few round but forgot about him and Sam collapsed
~ Sam was scared of John and didn't want to take a break because he thought he deserved it
I know it's not much but i still hope somebody finds it.
I also love guilty John or Dean and neglected Sam so if somebody could recommend me some of these too i would be really happy.

Have an awesome Day
22 August 2017 @ 10:20 pm
Hi guys, I'm back with another weird request. I was wondering if anyone could please recommend any stories where Dean is raped. I would prefer if it's not an AU and if it happens somewhere in the actual story-line (pre-series is good too).
Bonus points if Sam or Cas comfort him once they find out.
Multi-chapter stuff is preferred but one-shots are fine.
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21 August 2017 @ 05:00 pm
I read a specific postcage Sam story and I can't find it anywhere. Basically, Sam is struggling with his PTSD and hallucinations post Hell. He researches ways to cope. He finds a post that says knitting is supposed to help. So he knitts whenever he can't sleep or is having a particularly hard time with Hallucifer. It's a great story and I'd love to read it again! Thanks!
20 August 2017 @ 04:34 am
Hey everybody! I really need help finding a story that I have been looking for for weeks. All I can remember from this story was that it was a Pre series story with both sam and dean still going to school and john had dropped them of at bobby's house. I don't know if the story was over the course of a couple years but I know that it's very likely that it was from Bobby's POV and that it was mostly his thoughts on dean and how he acted as a kid. Although there is a very big difference from many other stories like this in the fact that there is a scene where sam ( and sam in this story is only in it for a very short time and he is described as being bratty and kindoff mean to dean) was lying to bobby about something. Bobby knew that sam was lying but for some reason I remember that bobby kindoff chose to belive sam because he thought that dean maybe needed to mature or something. I think we can see form his point of view his decision to chose sam over dean and how dean kindoff reacted to that where he felt very betrayed and there was this lose of trust. I know I'm not explaining it very well. But I'm not really sure it its a line in the story but I remember either reading or thinking (that bobby like many others chose sam over dean)because bobby was one of the few people that treated dean well and I think bobby thought he was coddling him to much and made a choice that resulted in him betraying dean. Which hurts very badly because in the story everybody knew sam was lying and dean was very trusting that bobby would listen to him but instead bobby killed the trust and hope in dean. I am so sorry for the terrible description but If anybody could help me find it I would greatly appreciate it.

Also if their are any stories that kindoff give of that vibe about how dean was forced to grow up to fast or pre series on the neglect dean suffered. Anything dealing with the fact that dean was just a little kid and everybody especially john basically forced him to ignore his safety and do everything he could to protect sam please do rec them to me. I would love to read any recommendations.
15 August 2017 @ 07:30 pm
I am looking for two pretty general searches and one more specific fic.

1. Stories where Sam learns how much Dean has done and hoe much he has underestimated him and tsken him for granted. Fics where Dean has worked to the bone and parented Sam. Maybe went hungry and got sick ignoring his own needs. Hunger, exhaustion, ignoring injuries, etc.

2. Stories where Dean has a child and raises him/her and Sam realizes that Dean is an awesome parent because he already did it once.

3. Specific search - I dont remember much, but Dean had a daughter and was going to sueprise Sam at Stanford, but stopped at a cafe for cookies (I think). Sam was there with his friends and they spent time belittling he guy with the whiny kid.

Thanks! <3
13 August 2017 @ 10:30 pm
I been trying to find this fic for like ever!!!!

I am pretty sure that in it that John and Sam are arguing while fighting over a gun. I forgot what Dean was doing but got shot some where when the gun accidentally fires. Dean goes to the hospital, but John and Sam are still fighting and Bobby is there too. I think John leaves Dean at the hospital and Dean has a meltdown.

That is mostly all I can remember.
Please help me I am dying to read this fic again!
05 August 2017 @ 01:36 pm
I'm looking for a story, I think it was eventually Destiel, where a young Omega Dean is kicked out/abandoned/or dumped by his pack/John, and found/taken in by Castiel and his pack. I'm 99% sure it was a Werewolf AU, and that Dean was an Omega, or possibly a sub? I remember Cas found him outside in the snow or something, badly injured? I think John had beaten him before abandoning him. I remember a scene where Cas brought Dean to someone to be healed, possibly Ellen? I'm pretty sure Dean was a teenager at the start of the story, and that Cas was the alpha of a large pack. It was quite a long story, possibly still a WIP, and I think it was on AO3. Thanks!
03 August 2017 @ 08:27 pm
Hey everybody,

I'm looking for a story that I remember reading with Sam, Dean, and Cas. It may have been Season 6-ish timeframe, but I really can't remember. Sam and Dean get in a heated argument, and Dean storms off to a nearby bar. Cas comes in to find Sam having a seizure on the floor, stays with him until it passes, and then goes to find Dean and convince him to come back.

Anyone know where I can find this?

03 August 2017 @ 09:34 am
I'm looking for a story where the Winchesters were going out on a hunt for some bearlike creature (I honestly can't remember). And Sam basically has like a mental breakdown and kills the monster by himself with only a knife. John and Dean find him and are definitely creeped out by him. They go home, and Sam patches Dean and John up in his fugue state. Sound familiar to anyone?
01 August 2017 @ 12:40 am
Some time ago I posted this request: http://spnstoryfinders.livejournal.com/10002944.html but did not receive any responses, I would like to put the request out there again but also add that I would also gladly accept stories that focused on Dean being terrific with kids but unlike the Jensen request, I would prefer the kids that Dean interacts with not be his.

Please no WIPs, but self recs are always welcomed.

Thank you in advance for any suggestions you may have to offer.
31 July 2017 @ 11:54 am
I've been reading this fic Lazarus Needs a Robe of Scarlet Thread and it's good, very very good, that I want to read another fics just like this one. Is there another fics with Dean as the Second Coming or Jesus' reincarnate? Or fics where Dean have stigmata?
29 July 2017 @ 05:02 pm
Hi everyone!
I'm looking for a fic I've read before, and I'm pretty sure it was on here? Maybe.
It's set around the whole leviathan era I believe, in a kind of post apocalyptic setting. The main things/scenes I remember are:
1) I think in the beginning Dean takes Sam to a cabin somewhere (Dean has a broken leg) and Sam is practically comatose. It takes a long time for him to start speaking.
2)Sam has really bad nightmares and the only thing Dean can find to stop them is some sigil he carves into Sam's back with a knife. He does this at least twice throughout the story.
3) At some point they get invited to join this group of survivors/hunters and eventually help train them. They also help plan an attack on the leviathans.
4) Sam mostly uses knives because he feels more in control.
5) Walt and Roy make an appearance.
6) The boys are completely bamf. Most people are terrified of them and think of them as "legendary" and I think for awhile they hide their real names because of it.
7) Towards the end the boys have a fight. They're extremely codependent.

I've been looking for this fix for awhile, so any help finding it is greatly appreciated. Thank you!
27 July 2017 @ 03:35 pm
Hello everybody,

I'm looking for a story I read a long time ago. what I can remember about this fic is that there was a school shooting and dean was killed in it. He was trying to talk down the shooter and I think that the shooter accidently killed him. I think that the shooter felt bad about killing dean because dean was one of the few people that was nice to him. I'm not sure if he turned himself in or if he killed himself. I do know that after dean dies sam, when he is in class,I don't remember if it was in Stanford or high school but I know that in the class they talked about the shooting and brought up dean and his part in it and how he saved people I think and sam was sitting in the class and i think that people knew dean was his brother.
That's all I remember about it and it was written nicely It made me cry. I have tried searching for it in ao3 and fanfic.net but I don't remember which one it was in.

Thank you and I would appreciate any help I can get.
21 July 2017 @ 08:05 pm
I'm looking for a story I read once. Here's what I can remember:

One of the brothers finds one of their old cell phones, and in it are selfies they took that suggest they were a couple, only they never have been. They contact Castiel, who confesses the brothers' memories of their love affair were suppressed for the same reason John & Mary were manipulated by Cupid into falling in love, to guarantee the Apocalypse would play out. The brothers insist Castiel restore their memories, even at the risk of how confusing things could be between them afterwards, because they are just that sick of having their lives toyed with by angels, demons, and everything else.

So, memories restored, things don't change at first, but ultimately the brothers feel this pull towards each other, as right and natural as anything. Long story short, Sam gets injured somehow, and as Dean's patching him up, having his hands on Sam's skin for more prurient reasons just feels as normal as breathing, and Sam's expression says the same. Things go from there. I think it ends with Castiel observing them sleeping together afterwards, secure in the knowledge that everything is finally as it should be.

Any help finding this one would be appreciated.
Hi :)
I am looking for a fanfiction which was posted on archieveofourown.org, as far as I remember. It is about Sam who runs away from Dean and into a forest where he tries to kill himself with a knife.
Cas and Dean look for him but can't find him until it's too late.
When Cas finally finds Sam on a clearing he is already dead but he gets brought back to life by Lucifer...
That's all I can remember.
I hope anyone can help me :)
16 July 2017 @ 08:05 pm
Does anyone know of any stories where Dean is John's favorite and maybe it gets revealed somehow and Sam feels hurt.
Thanks :)
15 July 2017 @ 02:31 am
I read this fic a long time ago that was set soon after Mary died. John was very drunk and Dean enters the room. He yells at Dean about how upset he is that Mary died and, when Dean starts getting scared and crying, he yells him to stop crying. It's from John's POV and he's thinking that he should really stop yelling at Dean, but he keeps going.

Any other fics that have little Dean dealing with upset or drunk John would also be appreciated. Thanks for any recs!
14 July 2017 @ 04:58 am
I was hoping you guys would be able to help me find a fic I read a few years ago.

It was an spn/American Idol crossover, set in a world where the supernatural isn't real, and where Sam and Dean both sign up for American Idol. With several other spn chars participating as well.
And it turns out that Dean had to have John institutionalized because he became a threat to Sam.

Anyone know where to find it?
11 July 2017 @ 10:45 pm
Im looking for a fic where everythike dean thinks about the mark sam passes out and gets sick and I can't really remember much but dean kills sam and they somehow resurrect him I remember Charlie is in it and jo helps sam out of heaven
Hi I'm looking for a fic which is a short look at what Dean and Sam's life woukd be like if Supernatural were 'real', i.e., they were semi alcoholics after all the terrible things they've seen, they had to get rid of the Impala cause it was too obvious etc. Also, Dean got drunk at a bar and told some radom guy (Chuck) abou their lives, and it's now a successful TV show that Dean is watching in the fic - it's pretty drepressing, but a good read and I can't for the life of me remember who wrote it/ what it's called - any help appreciated!

Hi to all you great people!

I'm looking for:

1) A fic where Sam was abducted and taken to a lab or place where they experimented with psychic kids. I remember there was another kid who they let wander more freely because he was harmless, but Sam tgey kept restrained.
It was kid or teen Sam, with Dean and John looking for him.

2) A fic (short, I believe) wehere Sam has amnesia, somehow he's taken by a female vampire but eventualy she takes him to an old lady's place. Because they don't know his name, the lady gives him a new one each day (or week, perhaps?). At some point he's in a church and prays so Cas is able to find him and ehen Sam sees Dean everything comes back (I think it all made him throwup)

Also, any similar stories are very welcome!!!
Thanks! :)
Hey all! I was wondering if there are fics out there that portray Sam being in a mental hospital or insane asylum at the end of season 7 beginning of season 8 when Dean was in purgatory instead of with Amelia.

Either fics of that time or after the time with Dean finding out are good for me.
Hello fellow travelers! I'm looking for any and all fix it fics for Dark Side of the Moon. I know it just continued the storyline, but I never understood why they didn't know they were being tricked. I mean, one of Dean's memories was of his mom crying over his father, how was THAT a happy memory? So, please, rec away! No dean/castiel please. Gen and wincest are fine.

Thanks in advance!
06 July 2017 @ 08:01 pm
I remember reading a fic titled something like "What Dean Knows for Certain" years ago on one of the kinkmemes but can't find a working link for it anywhere. The premise was that Dean chooses to become an omega behind John's back to spare Sam from that fate.

Does anyone happen to have a working link/downloadable copy they would be willing to send my way?

Thanks so much in advance!
05 July 2017 @ 01:01 pm
I am dying for some serious Dean whump! I'll take any kind of hurt!Dean: emotional, physical, sexual! The more Dean!pain the better! I love canon-compliant (but prefer season 3 and earlier - or even better, pre-series!), and AUs as well. Dean/Cas pairing great, or Dean/Benny. Not a big fan of wincest. Don't see a tag for Dean/Alastair, but I'd adore some good Dean/Alastair fics too (canon-compliant or AU).

Annaliesemichael's "A Hole in the World" is a good example of Dean whump AU.
Hi All,
I'm looking for a specific story where everyone has a guardian angel or something like it. Gabriel was Mary's guardian angel (or possibly Sam's) whom John blamed for Mary's death. John eventually banished Gabriel somehow, and it took years for the boys to be able to see him again. At the same time Dean began seeing an angel like boy with demon qualities who saved him intermittently. The story follows the boys growing up, and when Gabriel finally comes back Cas runs away in fear. It has a happy ending I think, and was quite long. Help?
Hi All,
I was rewatching season 1 the other day, and I couldn't stop wondering what the first season would have been like if Cas was already part of the story. What would he have thought of John, of a younger Dean and Sam? Thus, I am now on the hunt for pre-season 4 fics where Cas is part of the story, whether a canon divergence where Cas shows up early, time travel where an older Cas is thrown back in time, human Cas meeting Dean and/or Sam somewhere in the earlier seasons, Cas being a fellow hunter, basically anything set in season 1-3 where Cas is part of the equation. Destiel or friendship is awesome, thought no Wincest please.
Thanks, dc9
29 June 2017 @ 12:09 pm
Dean has been discharged from the military after combat I think and he may have PTSD. I think Castiel appears at night and watches over him or checks on him but Dean thinks he's a hallucination. I think they start dating not sure how and at some point Dean realizes that Castiel ended the world when he was full of the purgatory souls and has a flashback to Sam killed gruesomely by him. I think Cas tried to reset things because he was remorseful and Dean isn't supposed to have memories but does.
28 June 2017 @ 06:17 pm
I've read so many fics with the BAU from Criminal Minds interrogating Dean and I love them, but I never see any with them interrogating Sam. If you guys have any fics with the BAU interrogating both brothers or just Sam alone that would be great! I would prefer gen fics, but if it's slash that'd be okay too. Thanks guys!
27 June 2017 @ 03:03 pm
hey! I've been trying to find this story for forever, hopefully these details will help:
- it was a teenchester fic with John, Sam (and later) Dean
- 50000% sure it was on Fanfiction.net
- Dean was off on a separate hunt in another state but promised to meet John& Sam later
- it begins with Sam sulking from not wanting to go on the hunt with John
- The hunt was in the woods, off of a highway
- John told Sam to split up, but John found the monster first
- I think the creature threw a tree? at John, but somehow, John got knocked unconscious and was able to let out a few bullets (that i think killed the monster?)
- Sam heard the bullets and ran to where John was, but one of John's bullets hit Sam in the stomach
- i remember this part vividly, because Sam was lying in the forest and he didn't know what happened, but he knew he had to get to his father so he crawled/dragged his way next to him before passing out
- John wakes up and realized Sam is next to him and that he's bleeding/he shot him and calls Dean
- but he couldn't get a reception so he had to leave Sam to get back to the road and find help

I can't remember much more, but i hope this helps! Thanks!
26 June 2017 @ 01:08 am
1. Is there any stories out there where Dean is born a Nephilim? Or when he's in his 20's he grows wings and is freaked out thinking Sam will reject him, or maybe other hunters, hunt him.

Plus 2. There was a story about a hunter wanting to get back at John for something he'd done and he poisons Dean and sends him up a mountain and a supernatural creature attacks him, I think he might be blind and only has a short time to live. Not sure if Sam is with him on the mountain. Does this ring any bells. Thanks to anyone that answers.
Hi there guys!
It's me again. Im trying to find an AU fic that I read a while ago and then lost. From what I remember of it, Sam had been kidnapped and taken to a remote island full of monsters. Dean found out where he had been taken and went to rescue him. Whilst he is there, he meets Cas who has injured wings and is full on feral (tries to kill Dean and everything). After that I'm a little fuzzy on details, but I think it had a happy ending? I'm also not sure if it was gen or a Dean/Cas pairing. All i know is it was AWESOME.
Sound familiar to anyone?
I recently read a Destiel fic (linked below) where Cas is all dark and depressing while Dean is happy and unfazed by how weird Castiel is. So I'm trying to find more Destiel fics with this dichotomy. It doesn't matter if Dean just acts happy but he's really not. I just want Cas to be kinda weird, monotone, or depressing while Dean is bright, smiley, or just completely unfazed by Cas's weirdness. Also, I would especially prefer it if it were AU.

These 2 fics are some really good examples:

Thanks for any recommendations!
24 June 2017 @ 02:56 pm
I am looking for a fic. I don't recall much of it. I recall it being a Destiel fic, a road trip type fic, and Cas dies. Dean follows in John's foot steps. it was a work in progress.

NorthernsSparrow did a fic similar called "into the fire"
I suppose I am looking for any fics that are similar to "Into the Fire"

any assistance in locating this fic or similar fics would be appreciated.
thank you,

Tags: genre: angst, genre: au, genre: hurt/comfort, genre: death!fic, genre: slash, character: castiel, character: dean, pairing: dean/castiel,
I can't remember many details. I think Dean hates him because he killed John. Sam goes along with his brother on a hunt or something and Dean gets annoyed, blacks out with rage and when he comes back to his surroundings Sam is beaten up and lying on the floor in a ball. I think Bobby also threatens him saying that he can't do that again. In the fic I think that Sam is sort of accepting of it all, thinking that he deserves it because he killed John. Anyone know what this is, it's been bugging me for a while?
22 June 2017 @ 09:18 pm
I haven't read "The Shack" yet (it's in the mail!) but the trailer for the movie just about kills me. It seems so similar to how Dean reacted when Chuck revealed he was God in season 11, that anger, hurt, confusion, betrayal, and longing for support.

Are there any fics out there where this scene was played out more, by either Sam or Dean? I feel Dean especially feels betrayed and hurt because the disappointment from John has stuck with him more, thus the comment of "just another deadbeat dad." I would love to see God/Chuck sympathizing with the boys, explaining things, supporting them. The scene in the trailer for "The Shack" with the main character begging to know "where were you when I needed you? When she (his daughter) needed you?" And God (I assume it's a she in this film) replies "I never left you and I never left her" almost in tears? Would love to see something like that between Chuck/God and the boys, but especially Dean.

Any pairing is fine, any rating is fine. The longer the better but I'll take anything you can find! Amara focusing on Dean's pain more would be awesome too!