22 September 2017 @ 02:14 am
Hi again!! So im looking for a fic that I’Ve read on ff.com i i dont remember much but what i do remember is that marry’s parents were alive and they didnt bother with dean because he was born weak so marry cut them out of her life and the boys and john meet her father(after her death) at her gravestone and her father wanted to mend things with the boys but john refused as he rejected his son before and then john told sam why he refused but didn’t tell dean ,marry’s mother was a ‘lady’ and didnt want dean to embarrass her and i remeber a scene where yellow eyed demon found the boys and john and marry’s father was with them at bobby’s (p.s marry and her father weren’t hunters)
19 September 2017 @ 12:14 am
Hey all. I'm searching for Wincest fics based on episode 10x03 that have demon!Dean. In the end being cured is alright but I'd prefer if the focus on the story was on Demon!Dean.

Thank you!
18 September 2017 @ 11:19 am
Hello, I was hoping someone might have the podfic of "Red" by big_pink (Big Pink) saved and do not mind to share access to it. It's not back on the audiofic archive and I looked on other pages where the link to it had been posted. I loved the fic and would love to listen to the podfic version of it.
Thank you very much in advance.
13 September 2017 @ 08:36 pm
Hi guys,

Looked everywhere and can't find these; I THINK the first one was "I'm not Giving Up (I'm Just Giving In)," can't remember the second. In the first Sam has a brain tumor and Dean wants to heal him, but he's resigned. Sam finds a cabin they go to; at the end, he falls in the shower and loses his ability to speak.

In the second, Cas visits so Dean can leave the much sicker Sam to take a shower. Cas sits with him.

They MAY be by Beckalooby, but I can't remember, and also have searched her new journal and the old posts and have had no luck. Pleae help!

1. I read a fic probably written during Season 1-3 where Dean had been raped by a group of men and it was mainly from Sam and John's point of view. I remember the beginning of the fic being out of Sam's journal. He's worried about his brother since Dean won't talk about it. John ends up showing up, notices something is wrong, and finds out. I know Dean locks himself in the bathroom and John encourages him to open the door, then comforts him. They recuperate at Missouri's. I think Dean tries to kill himself at one point, and possibly tracks down the attackers later on. There's a sequel, but I never got to finish it. It was gen fic with good!John and it was on FF.Net.

2. Any fics where either of the boys are recovering from abuse trauma? I'm not a wincest fan, but like gen, Destiel, and Saileen.


10 September 2017 @ 10:45 pm

I am looking for a sam/reader where reader had sams child years ago but he doesnt know. Dean spots her and sams son in a diner (i think) where the son recognises hom from photos

Older story, but here is what I remember: Sam and Dean are still hunting, Sam has lost an eye, writing sigils or devils traps, etc causes him pain, but he's grateful to still be working with Dean. I think the demon blood is causing the problem. Very short story and pretty sure it's Gen. I tagged au and possible future fic. Thanks so much
05 September 2017 @ 06:48 pm
Hi everyone, looking for 2 fics I read a few weeks ago on archive of our own.

The first one, Sam and dean find cas being tortured by some guy. The guy has carved Enochian sigils on cas so his wings manifest physically against his will and can be seen.
Cas keeps freaking out when brothers have to or accidentally touch his wings. He compares his wings being forced to manifest and then touched/seen without his permission was like rape. Sam and dean look after him and Eventually becomes okay with dean touching his wings. May have been gen or Destiel.

The second fic has cas suddenly appearing in the bunker. Sam and dean have to go through cas's important memory to keep him alive. They are able to feel cas emotions and find out how much he cared/admired them for the start.
One example I remember was them realising when cas first met Sam and called him boy with demon blood he actually didn't mean to be offensive he was actually happy to meet Sam and greatly admired him.
There is a fic that I have been searching for everywhere, but can't remember the name of it or the author. Heck, I'm not even sure if it really exists or if my imagination is just making it up.

Anyway, I seem to recall that the story is about John needing to hold Sam up on his feet after Sam gets impaled on something. John's actually not a bastard in this and is rather frantic to keep Sam awake and standing so he won't be injured any worse.
I think the story took place in a haunted house and Dean was sent out for help, but John has to basically hold Sam up for a really long time. I can't remember much more than it was a good story and it really bugs me that I can't find it anywhere and I would love to read it again.

Thanks for any help you can give me!
03 September 2017 @ 11:34 pm
I folks! I was wondering if there are Sam-centric fanfics dealing with Lucifer in season 11 and 12.

I mean, I think those seasons had a lot of wasted potential and didn't deal well with Sam facing again his torturer. And also how it was so easy to built another vessel for him.

I want fanfics of season11-12 with Sam afraid of Lucifer, dealing with the trauma, maybe Lucifer playing with him, trying to manipulate him of trying to convince to be his vessel. I read a lot like that from season 5 (and I love them), but now I want them from seasons 11-12.

I don't care about pairings (except no Sam/Lucifer, unless it's non-consensual) but I want the characters to be well written and in-character. Bonus for protective!Dean.
I have no idea if I'm making any sense but thank you in advance!!
01 September 2017 @ 12:31 pm
Hey all,

So I'm looking for a fic that I read years ago. All I can remember is that Jensen is raising an autistic son, and Jensen himself is on the spectrum but was never officially diagnosed. I just remember moments where Jensen could recognize some of his own characteristics and mannerisms in his child.

On that note, I would greatly appreciate any recs that deal with either of the J's or the Winchesters raising an autistic child (or one with asperger's syndrome). Or the reverse of that would be great as well: either of the J's/Winchesters having autism/asperger's while raising a child (neurotypical or otherwise). Any pairings welcome.

29 August 2017 @ 12:18 am
I'm looking for two specific fics.
1. about dean being de-aged. Can't remember how old he is but he's pretty young. He and Sam was in a relationship and Dean wanted to have sex. They got busted by the police when they were in the act or something. I think the police think that sam is into little boys or something. I can't remember much more.

And 2. A Gift of Release by Flutie4Lifes. Was looking through my reading list and noticed that it was deleted from fanfiction.net. Was wondering if someone had copy or know where I can find it.

Thanks in advance.
28 August 2017 @ 09:49 pm
I'm looking for a story where dean has died and is an angel, and sam is slowly dying. I think he has brain injuries but he carries on hunting. Dean takes a vessel and tries to help. Sam takes a hunt where he has to confront a son he didn't know he had with ruby. The son had killed ruby by the time sam gets there and I think the final confrontation is in the kitchen.

Cheers in advance!!! ❤❤❤
28 August 2017 @ 01:40 am
I've searched high and low for this fic. Google, all my memories, through out storyfinders and even Ao3. I can't for the life of me remember the author's full penname or what the story was called. What I do know is this: the author's name had to do with the word vampire or red. the author has passed on for awhile now. Dean had come back from hell, season 3 style. dean was having a lot of issues, like being aggressive, violent and his head was all messed up. he's just a completely changed man. I'm pretty sure he was getting into fights for no rhyme or reason. it was quite a long fic. it's definitely wincest.

I don't know what else to go on. Maybe the journal's deleted now since she can't update it anymore? or I'm somehow just missing it? I just know it's a really good fanfic and I want to read it again.
24 August 2017 @ 08:01 pm
I'm looking for a specific fanfiction I don't remember much but I hope it's enough.
~ Both are teenagers
~ it had definitely Guilty John in it
~ I think John was training Sam and let him run a few round but forgot about him and Sam collapsed
~ Sam was scared of John and didn't want to take a break because he thought he deserved it
I know it's not much but i still hope somebody finds it.
I also love guilty John or Dean and neglected Sam so if somebody could recommend me some of these too i would be really happy.

Have an awesome Day
23 August 2017 @ 11:18 pm
Hi guys, I'm looking for any of supercellchaser's fic. Looks like they deleted everything on their profile back in March and I've had no luck getting in contact with them. They wrote a lot of great Sam whump and Sam/Castiel fic that I'd love to be able to read again. Any help would be great! 
22 August 2017 @ 01:43 pm
i read this fic a really long time ago, but i remember sam was a frat boy and the other guys used him as a toy and sam got off on it. this is really vague but it was super good and i really wanna read it again!
21 August 2017 @ 07:35 pm
I've been looking for a specific fic for a couple months and can't find it.

It's on ao3, most likely mature, +20k, and takes place after season 11. Human!Cas. The author went "f it" to canon, and early season 12 spoilers ). Cas is missing, then Sam and Dean find a John Doe in a hospital matching Cas' description. They go pick him up in the hospital. Cas goes through a long check-up, and has a moment where he runs his hands through his hair in the bathroom. (this sounds strange, but trust me, it's important). They take him back to the Bunker, and everything is sunshine and rainbows for a few weeks.

Then Cas leaves the Bunker 'cause he has a job or something. Cas comes back, but keeps leaving without answering their calls that much. Dean is suspicious but Sam says there's nothing to worry about. Dean follows Cas one day, and turns out he's working at a Gas N' Sip and is trying to get money... for something.

Cas visits the Bunker every couple weeks, and each time he's wearing a new knitted hat. Due to a slip-up, Dean is jealous and thinks Cas is hooking up with a girl named Erin, but really MAJOR spoilers for fic )

It's a delicious slow burn, with a ton of angst, and I didn't get around to finishing it, so help finding it would be appreciated.
21 August 2017 @ 05:00 pm
I read a specific postcage Sam story and I can't find it anywhere. Basically, Sam is struggling with his PTSD and hallucinations post Hell. He researches ways to cope. He finds a post that says knitting is supposed to help. So he knitts whenever he can't sleep or is having a particularly hard time with Hallucifer. It's a great story and I'd love to read it again! Thanks!
20 August 2017 @ 04:34 am
Hey everybody! I really need help finding a story that I have been looking for for weeks. All I can remember from this story was that it was a Pre series story with both sam and dean still going to school and john had dropped them of at bobby's house. I don't know if the story was over the course of a couple years but I know that it's very likely that it was from Bobby's POV and that it was mostly his thoughts on dean and how he acted as a kid. Although there is a very big difference from many other stories like this in the fact that there is a scene where sam ( and sam in this story is only in it for a very short time and he is described as being bratty and kindoff mean to dean) was lying to bobby about something. Bobby knew that sam was lying but for some reason I remember that bobby kindoff chose to belive sam because he thought that dean maybe needed to mature or something. I think we can see form his point of view his decision to chose sam over dean and how dean kindoff reacted to that where he felt very betrayed and there was this lose of trust. I know I'm not explaining it very well. But I'm not really sure it its a line in the story but I remember either reading or thinking (that bobby like many others chose sam over dean)because bobby was one of the few people that treated dean well and I think bobby thought he was coddling him to much and made a choice that resulted in him betraying dean. Which hurts very badly because in the story everybody knew sam was lying and dean was very trusting that bobby would listen to him but instead bobby killed the trust and hope in dean. I am so sorry for the terrible description but If anybody could help me find it I would greatly appreciate it.

Also if their are any stories that kindoff give of that vibe about how dean was forced to grow up to fast or pre series on the neglect dean suffered. Anything dealing with the fact that dean was just a little kid and everybody especially john basically forced him to ignore his safety and do everything he could to protect sam please do rec them to me. I would love to read any recommendations.
19 August 2017 @ 04:43 pm
hi guys, i'm looking for a fic where sam is raped or sexually abused by john's friend. i think he left sam in his care while he and dean went hunting because sam was moody and acting out, and he assumed that the punishments were military training but his friend was raping sam. sam thought john knew and did it on purpose. at the end john or dean kills him when they find out.

i'm looking for another fic but i'm not sure if it's the same fic i'm looking for. it's wincest and i remember a scene where the guy corners sam in the bathroom and says some terrible things to him while being very close, smelling him and threatening him. i think there's a scene where they go outside and grill together and sam is extremely uncomfortable and tries to avoid him as much as he can. i read it on ao3. thanks in advance :)
17 August 2017 @ 02:25 pm
Hi. I would love to read stories where Sam speaks or at least understands Enochian from his time in the cage.

15 August 2017 @ 07:30 pm
I am looking for two pretty general searches and one more specific fic.

1. Stories where Sam learns how much Dean has done and hoe much he has underestimated him and tsken him for granted. Fics where Dean has worked to the bone and parented Sam. Maybe went hungry and got sick ignoring his own needs. Hunger, exhaustion, ignoring injuries, etc.

2. Stories where Dean has a child and raises him/her and Sam realizes that Dean is an awesome parent because he already did it once.

3. Specific search - I dont remember much, but Dean had a daughter and was going to sueprise Sam at Stanford, but stopped at a cafe for cookies (I think). Sam was there with his friends and they spent time belittling he guy with the whiny kid.

Thanks! <3
13 August 2017 @ 10:30 pm
I been trying to find this fic for like ever!!!!

I am pretty sure that in it that John and Sam are arguing while fighting over a gun. I forgot what Dean was doing but got shot some where when the gun accidentally fires. Dean goes to the hospital, but John and Sam are still fighting and Bobby is there too. I think John leaves Dean at the hospital and Dean has a meltdown.

That is mostly all I can remember.
Please help me I am dying to read this fic again!
04 August 2017 @ 11:17 pm

Lately, I've been thinking about this story that I read a while ago. I believe it was on AO3 and it may have been a Destiel fic. One scene vividly sticks out to me. The overal tone of the story was pretty angsty. In this scene, Dean went to a liquor store and pretty much consumed all of the drinks in stock. I believe he suffered from alcohol poisoning which resulted in him going to the hospital. Mary and Sam were in this story and think Castiel may have been a preacher.

If anyone knows what I'm talking about, I would love some direction lol
03 August 2017 @ 08:27 pm
Hey everybody,

I'm looking for a story that I remember reading with Sam, Dean, and Cas. It may have been Season 6-ish timeframe, but I really can't remember. Sam and Dean get in a heated argument, and Dean storms off to a nearby bar. Cas comes in to find Sam having a seizure on the floor, stays with him until it passes, and then goes to find Dean and convince him to come back.

Anyone know where I can find this?

03 August 2017 @ 09:34 am
I'm looking for a story where the Winchesters were going out on a hunt for some bearlike creature (I honestly can't remember). And Sam basically has like a mental breakdown and kills the monster by himself with only a knife. John and Dean find him and are definitely creeped out by him. They go home, and Sam patches Dean and John up in his fugue state. Sound familiar to anyone?
02 August 2017 @ 10:18 pm
Hi everyone. I recently lost a hard drive, and all my videos were on it. I had my music backed up on another drive, but not the videos, because I hadn't gotten around to buying a second external drive. Now I am paying for it. Despite our best efforts with test disc, the majority of my 500+ music videos are gone, or have been mysteriously replaced by clips of Phil Collins. I kid you not - dozens of videos open and then it's Phil Collins. So very weird.

Anyhow, I had a good selection of SPN vids, many of them old - 8 or 10 years. I've hunted and replaced what I could, but I'm limited because I don't have any information other than what the video was saved as. So I don't know the vidder or in many cases the song.

I'm going to list them here, and if anyone recognizes one, if you could point me in the right direction to get it, or, if you have it, if you could give me a copy, I would be eternally grateful. It's hard to write SPN without my playlist.

These are all Supernatural videos. I haven't even begun trying to replace the couple hundred vids I have in other fandoms...

Here's the list (listed by file name) with whatever other information I have:

- aboveandbelowfinal

- crashed with watermark_agk

- discord_littlehollyleaf

- Drink You Pretty

- driversized_Thandie

- False Keeper

- finalscene

- gimmeshelter.v.2.divx

- godeatgodmed

- happytogether (this one is about Dean and the Impala)

- Hope Into Hell (I know this one is Patty Griffith, because it introduced me to her and I love her)

- inthewateriambeautifulmed

- sam1-divx

- shuffle-divx

- SPN Killit

- wakeupmed

- windowsill_xvid

- there's also one that uses coldplay's Vida la Vida, but it has a voiceover with Sam talking about angels. Love that one. Can't find it.

I realize this may not be very helpful, but I've got my fingers crossed. I'll be happy to get any of them, but in particular I want Hope into Hell, Happy Together, and the Vida la Vida one.

Many thaks to anyone that read through the list. I'm hopeful.
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Coldplay
Current Location: Texas
29 July 2017 @ 05:02 pm
Hi everyone!
I'm looking for a fic I've read before, and I'm pretty sure it was on here? Maybe.
It's set around the whole leviathan era I believe, in a kind of post apocalyptic setting. The main things/scenes I remember are:
1) I think in the beginning Dean takes Sam to a cabin somewhere (Dean has a broken leg) and Sam is practically comatose. It takes a long time for him to start speaking.
2)Sam has really bad nightmares and the only thing Dean can find to stop them is some sigil he carves into Sam's back with a knife. He does this at least twice throughout the story.
3) At some point they get invited to join this group of survivors/hunters and eventually help train them. They also help plan an attack on the leviathans.
4) Sam mostly uses knives because he feels more in control.
5) Walt and Roy make an appearance.
6) The boys are completely bamf. Most people are terrified of them and think of them as "legendary" and I think for awhile they hide their real names because of it.
7) Towards the end the boys have a fight. They're extremely codependent.

I've been looking for this fix for awhile, so any help finding it is greatly appreciated. Thank you!
29 July 2017 @ 03:36 am
Looking for all stories about Sam's missing tattoo after Cas burns it off in Road Trip. Any recs are great (gen or Wincest), but also looking for a specific fic where Sam learns to tattoo himself and in response to his possessions, he creates these elaborate tattoos. Dean discovers the designs and tattoo gun in Sam's room in the Bunker.
27 July 2017 @ 03:35 pm
Hello everybody,

I'm looking for a story I read a long time ago. what I can remember about this fic is that there was a school shooting and dean was killed in it. He was trying to talk down the shooter and I think that the shooter accidently killed him. I think that the shooter felt bad about killing dean because dean was one of the few people that was nice to him. I'm not sure if he turned himself in or if he killed himself. I do know that after dean dies sam, when he is in class,I don't remember if it was in Stanford or high school but I know that in the class they talked about the shooting and brought up dean and his part in it and how he saved people I think and sam was sitting in the class and i think that people knew dean was his brother.
That's all I remember about it and it was written nicely It made me cry. I have tried searching for it in ao3 and fanfic.net but I don't remember which one it was in.

Thank you and I would appreciate any help I can get.
23 July 2017 @ 02:00 am
Hello! So there was this fic I was reading, but I never finished it. I've suddenly remembered it but I cannot for the life of me remember what it was called and I can't even find it in my history, it's killing me!

What I remember is that it was basically kind of a How I Met Your Mother au? Like not a complete parallel universe, just a lot of references to the show. Cas was persuaded by Dean to talk to a girl (Meg, I think?) and he gets her number (much to Deans surprise). But then Dean takes his phone and switches Megs number with his own, to "teach Cas a lesson" or something like that, and he ends up texting Cas as Meg, yadda yadda yadda. I remember Cas ends up being really dirty mouthed, and they sext a few times, Cas believing it's Meg he's sexting? I remember Charlie was in it as well, and Sam was with a girl named... Sarah, I think?

Ahh, it's not too fresh in my mind, but I really hope this is enough to go on? I've been dying to get back to this fic ever since I remembered it, so I really hope you can help me! Thanks a bunch <3
21 July 2017 @ 08:05 pm
I'm looking for a story I read once. Here's what I can remember:

One of the brothers finds one of their old cell phones, and in it are selfies they took that suggest they were a couple, only they never have been. They contact Castiel, who confesses the brothers' memories of their love affair were suppressed for the same reason John & Mary were manipulated by Cupid into falling in love, to guarantee the Apocalypse would play out. The brothers insist Castiel restore their memories, even at the risk of how confusing things could be between them afterwards, because they are just that sick of having their lives toyed with by angels, demons, and everything else.

So, memories restored, things don't change at first, but ultimately the brothers feel this pull towards each other, as right and natural as anything. Long story short, Sam gets injured somehow, and as Dean's patching him up, having his hands on Sam's skin for more prurient reasons just feels as normal as breathing, and Sam's expression says the same. Things go from there. I think it ends with Castiel observing them sleeping together afterwards, secure in the knowledge that everything is finally as it should be.

Any help finding this one would be appreciated.
Hi :)
I am looking for a fanfiction which was posted on archieveofourown.org, as far as I remember. It is about Sam who runs away from Dean and into a forest where he tries to kill himself with a knife.
Cas and Dean look for him but can't find him until it's too late.
When Cas finally finds Sam on a clearing he is already dead but he gets brought back to life by Lucifer...
That's all I can remember.
I hope anyone can help me :)
16 July 2017 @ 08:05 pm
Does anyone know of any stories where Dean is John's favorite and maybe it gets revealed somehow and Sam feels hurt.
Thanks :)
14 July 2017 @ 04:58 am
I was hoping you guys would be able to help me find a fic I read a few years ago.

It was an spn/American Idol crossover, set in a world where the supernatural isn't real, and where Sam and Dean both sign up for American Idol. With several other spn chars participating as well.
And it turns out that Dean had to have John institutionalized because he became a threat to Sam.

Anyone know where to find it?
13 July 2017 @ 09:15 pm
Hi guys, I'm looking for fics with Sam as an alpha. Every pairing is welcome, though there are extra points for samifer or wincest. No fics whith alpha Sam turning into beta or omega, please.
11 July 2017 @ 10:45 pm
Im looking for a fic where everythike dean thinks about the mark sam passes out and gets sick and I can't really remember much but dean kills sam and they somehow resurrect him I remember Charlie is in it and jo helps sam out of heaven
Hi I'm looking for a fic which is a short look at what Dean and Sam's life woukd be like if Supernatural were 'real', i.e., they were semi alcoholics after all the terrible things they've seen, they had to get rid of the Impala cause it was too obvious etc. Also, Dean got drunk at a bar and told some radom guy (Chuck) abou their lives, and it's now a successful TV show that Dean is watching in the fic - it's pretty drepressing, but a good read and I can't for the life of me remember who wrote it/ what it's called - any help appreciated!

Hi to all you great people!

I'm looking for:

1) A fic where Sam was abducted and taken to a lab or place where they experimented with psychic kids. I remember there was another kid who they let wander more freely because he was harmless, but Sam tgey kept restrained.
It was kid or teen Sam, with Dean and John looking for him.

2) A fic (short, I believe) wehere Sam has amnesia, somehow he's taken by a female vampire but eventualy she takes him to an old lady's place. Because they don't know his name, the lady gives him a new one each day (or week, perhaps?). At some point he's in a church and prays so Cas is able to find him and ehen Sam sees Dean everything comes back (I think it all made him throwup)

Also, any similar stories are very welcome!!!
Thanks! :)
Hey all! I was wondering if there are fics out there that portray Sam being in a mental hospital or insane asylum at the end of season 7 beginning of season 8 when Dean was in purgatory instead of with Amelia.

Either fics of that time or after the time with Dean finding out are good for me.
Hello fellow travelers! I'm looking for any and all fix it fics for Dark Side of the Moon. I know it just continued the storyline, but I never understood why they didn't know they were being tricked. I mean, one of Dean's memories was of his mom crying over his father, how was THAT a happy memory? So, please, rec away! No dean/castiel please. Gen and wincest are fine.

Thanks in advance!
04 July 2017 @ 10:42 am
Hi everyone I'm looking for any fics where Sam can turn into or gets turned into a real wolf
29 June 2017 @ 12:09 pm
Dean has been discharged from the military after combat I think and he may have PTSD. I think Castiel appears at night and watches over him or checks on him but Dean thinks he's a hallucination. I think they start dating not sure how and at some point Dean realizes that Castiel ended the world when he was full of the purgatory souls and has a flashback to Sam killed gruesomely by him. I think Cas tried to reset things because he was remorseful and Dean isn't supposed to have memories but does.
28 June 2017 @ 06:17 pm
I've read so many fics with the BAU from Criminal Minds interrogating Dean and I love them, but I never see any with them interrogating Sam. If you guys have any fics with the BAU interrogating both brothers or just Sam alone that would be great! I would prefer gen fics, but if it's slash that'd be okay too. Thanks guys!
27 June 2017 @ 03:03 pm
hey! I've been trying to find this story for forever, hopefully these details will help:
- it was a teenchester fic with John, Sam (and later) Dean
- 50000% sure it was on Fanfiction.net
- Dean was off on a separate hunt in another state but promised to meet John& Sam later
- it begins with Sam sulking from not wanting to go on the hunt with John
- The hunt was in the woods, off of a highway
- John told Sam to split up, but John found the monster first
- I think the creature threw a tree? at John, but somehow, John got knocked unconscious and was able to let out a few bullets (that i think killed the monster?)
- Sam heard the bullets and ran to where John was, but one of John's bullets hit Sam in the stomach
- i remember this part vividly, because Sam was lying in the forest and he didn't know what happened, but he knew he had to get to his father so he crawled/dragged his way next to him before passing out
- John wakes up and realized Sam is next to him and that he's bleeding/he shot him and calls Dean
- but he couldn't get a reception so he had to leave Sam to get back to the road and find help

I can't remember much more, but i hope this helps! Thanks!
26 June 2017 @ 10:26 pm
Hey all! So I read a story years ago about a young Sam being taken by cultists or something and offered to Loki - Gabriel - who is angry, kills the cultists, and saves him. I could be mixing up stories, but I think John might have been abusive.... Did I just make that up in my head or does it really exist? :)
Hey to everyone!

Ever since I am into this fandom I'd like to read mostly about Sam Hurt Fics (emotionally, physically, abused, neglected) - just everything involving Sam :)

1) I am searching for a specific fic (FOUND, thank you!):
Sam is still a teen (before Stanford) and sings regularly in a bar. One day Dean watches him and finally sees how Sam is really feeling due to his self written song he is singing.
I know I read it and I even had it in my bookmarks but I jst can't find it :(
Here it is, thank you so much: Dean's Rules

2) General search:
Please give me the full package of hurt Sam!
Emotionally, physically, abused, neglected, Teenchesters or adult Winchesters, Wincest or not - everything you got!
Suicidal Sam is also welcome.
It doesn't matter if the hurt is inflicted by a monster or John Winchester for example.
What I liked pretty much was Statue of a Son for example.


(Hopefully ny english is well enough, I am coming from Germany :)).
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Hi there guys!
It's me again. Im trying to find an AU fic that I read a while ago and then lost. From what I remember of it, Sam had been kidnapped and taken to a remote island full of monsters. Dean found out where he had been taken and went to rescue him. Whilst he is there, he meets Cas who has injured wings and is full on feral (tries to kill Dean and everything). After that I'm a little fuzzy on details, but I think it had a happy ending? I'm also not sure if it was gen or a Dean/Cas pairing. All i know is it was AWESOME.
Sound familiar to anyone?
I can't remember many details. I think Dean hates him because he killed John. Sam goes along with his brother on a hunt or something and Dean gets annoyed, blacks out with rage and when he comes back to his surroundings Sam is beaten up and lying on the floor in a ball. I think Bobby also threatens him saying that he can't do that again. In the fic I think that Sam is sort of accepting of it all, thinking that he deserves it because he killed John. Anyone know what this is, it's been bugging me for a while?