Jensen and Jared are teens and Jared has moved around a lot because his dad is in the military. Jared's dad's leg is injured so the family moves to this really small town while he recovers and Jared meets Jensen there. Jensen's older brother died so Jensen's uncle moved in to help out the family. One day, Jensen is hurt and crying and Jared assumes it is Jensen's father who abuses him. However, at the end of the story, it's revealed that it was Jensen's uncle who was abusing him and it's implied that the uncle killed Jensen.

Thanks for any help!
 
 
27 July 2017 @ 03:35 pm
Hello everybody,

I'm looking for a story I read a long time ago. what I can remember about this fic is that there was a school shooting and dean was killed in it. He was trying to talk down the shooter and I think that the shooter accidently killed him. I think that the shooter felt bad about killing dean because dean was one of the few people that was nice to him. I'm not sure if he turned himself in or if he killed himself. I do know that after dean dies sam, when he is in class,I don't remember if it was in Stanford or high school but I know that in the class they talked about the shooting and brought up dean and his part in it and how he saved people I think and sam was sitting in the class and i think that people knew dean was his brother.
That's all I remember about it and it was written nicely It made me cry. I have tried searching for it in ao3 and fanfic.net but I don't remember which one it was in.

Thank you and I would appreciate any help I can get.
 
 
24 June 2017 @ 02:56 pm
I am looking for a fic. I don't recall much of it. I recall it being a Destiel fic, a road trip type fic, and Cas dies. Dean follows in John's foot steps. it was a work in progress.

NorthernsSparrow did a fic similar called "into the fire"
I suppose I am looking for any fics that are similar to "Into the Fire"

any assistance in locating this fic or similar fics would be appreciated.
thank you,
sincerely,
jazzy


Tags: genre: angst, genre: au, genre: hurt/comfort, genre: death!fic, genre: slash, character: castiel, character: dean, pairing: dean/castiel,
 
 
04 June 2017 @ 11:45 pm
I read this AU Destiel fic a long time ago where Dean is depressed and sometimes it gets very bad. Sam is with Jess and they try to help him. Then he meets Cas and they get together. But Dean has an episode of extreme depression and ends up killing himself, thinking Cas would be better off not having to deal with him. I think he jumps out window in front of Cas? Cas then later also kills himself.

Yeah, very tragic ending. But if anyone can help me find it that would be great!
 
 
Somebody kills Sam and Dean takes him away to a house and freezes him in a tub and then Sam's ghost comes to him and grows stronger?
 
 
03 May 2017 @ 12:38 pm
I read a story a while ago and can´t find it anymore.

Jensen had turned or mated Jared against his will. Jared was pregnant and hated it. I think he commited suiced in the end but I´m not sure.

Can someone help me please.
 
 
21 March 2017 @ 11:43 pm
Hi, hoping you can help me find some fics i read a while ago on ao3 and cant seem to find again

The first one is a one shot. An angel tries to kill Dean but Castiel steps in front of him. Sam and Dean think that Castiel isn't really dead as there are no wing impressions on the ground. When dean takes a shower he finds the wings on his skin as Castiel had his wings wrapped around him when he died.

The second is an alpha/beta/omega au.
Castiel is an omega and recently found out he's pregnant. He's scared Alpha Dean wont want the pup so Benny offers to look after him and the pup if Dean doesn't want to be involved. Benny had previously lost a mate and pup.
Dean finds out about pregnancy and assumes Cas is leaving him as he thinks he wont be a good father. Cas and Dean talk it out and decide to raise the pup together.

There is also a scene where Lisa who is Deans ex sends them baby clothes and it upsets Cas as it has her scent on them. Dean realizes and gets rid of them.

Thanks in advance for your help :)
 
 
17 February 2017 @ 05:52 pm
Hi

Im looking for a fic where Dean comes to see Sam at Stanford & insists that he comes on a roadtrip with him, not hunting, just a roadtrip, so they can spend some time together. They spend a few months on the road trip & near the end of it it comes out that Dean has cancer or something & he's dying. I think he dies in Sammy's arms on a cliff overlooking the ocean.

Anyone know this fic? Ta
 
 
I for one love the episodes when Dean had the Mark Of Cain. Sam was really trying to get rid of it, and Dean was just kinda excepting it. I'm looking for some episodes that base off what Crowley had told Dean about how the mark would make him unwell, and eventually kill him if he doesn't kill in time.
I'd prefer it if Sam is unaware of this effect of the mark, and finds out some reason after Dean collapses, or just gets really sick.
Please no smut, or wincest, or really any kind of relationship besides you know, Sam and Dean's awesome brother bond. Of course I welcome any self recs, and I don't really care how long or short the story is.
I don't mind deathfics, just as long as it's kinda well written, as some deathfics are kinda rushed or something, you know?
(P.S): This doesn't have to be there, but you know what would be cool? If Sam is being kinda mean and selfish about the whole Gadreel deal thing while Dean is getting sicker and sicker. I know, I'm horrible, but you have to admit, it'd be cool to read.
Anyways, thanks to anyone for replying, you don't know how much I appreciate it. :)
 
 
08 January 2017 @ 10:12 pm
I read this a while ago, and I remember loving it but somewhere along the way I lost this beautiful fic and for the life of me I can't remember the name. luckily I remember most details...
Its a spy au and jared is the spy and jensen is (i forget the word for it) but basically he guides Jared and watches him through cameras and talks to him through an earpiece. I remember Jared is flirty at first and Jensen is kind of grumpy, and i know sometime along the way jensen gets kidnapped and his back is really messed up, then they both go to hawaii or something?? i also know this is a death!fic and jensen is shot and then jared kills himself with a bomb or something.
Can someone please give me a link? ive been trying to find this forever, lol.
 
 
Hello! I'm looking for a specific fanfiction that I just can't find anywhere! I think it's based around 9x13 The Purge, after Dean and Sam have their fight, but I can't say for sure. Sam leaves the bunker, and Dean is left heartbroken. Sam goes back to college, gets married, haves a kid I think, and he calls Dean once a month or so. That was until Dean smashed his phone. Cas isn't in this story, and in the end Dean does something terrible, and Sam doesn't find out until 4 months later or something? It could possibly be a one!shot, but I'm not sure. The whole story describes Dean's depression and is very well written. Thanks in advance!

(Found by the lovely person in the comments who knew the title of this amazing story.)
 
 
03 October 2016 @ 11:50 pm
I've been searching for quite a while for all three of these fics.

1. This fic is kind of a redo of the striga episode where in this Sam is pregnant but he doesn't know until the striga attacks him and attacks the baby and he ends up having a miscarriage.FOUND!

2. This fic reminded me of The Crow because Sam and Dean were in a restaurant that ended up getting robbed and they both were both shot and 'killed'. Dean comes back and goes after the people that were involved and tries to find Sam. I remember in this one Sam was shot in the head up against a display case.

3. This story involved Dean and his flashbacks from hell. He creates a rack out of Sam's bed frame and tortures him. Sam is able to escape and stays with Bobby. It's a long time before he feels comfortable being around Dean.

I hope someone can help me find these fics, I've been really wanting to reread them. Thank you!
 
 
This is a fic I read ages ago:
It started with Sam having to choose between John and Dean and John was the one that ended up dead. Dean end up pretty "pissed" at Sam(John aand Dean were shouting why Sam should let the other one live).
They they end up going on a hunt about a mysterios sickness. Sam is feeling realy guilty and starts to hallucinate, wich he thinks because how bad he feels about his dad. Dean has been previously really unsupportive and they later find out that Sam has the sickness.

It might have been on ff.net but you never know.

I Apreciate all and any help!
 
 
11 September 2016 @ 01:50 pm
Yeah Dean is dead and Sam is trying to figure out a way to comunicate better with him so gets a tattoo
 
 
07 September 2016 @ 11:56 pm
This is bugging the heck out of me. I can't seem to find the right tags to locate it.
It was a story of a young (20 something) J2 (maybe, possibly Sam/Dean AU, but I think it was J2) I seem to remember Jensen being the next best thing to homeless and he starts hanging around with Jared. Jensen has been horribly scarred in a fire and is very self-conscious. I also seem to remember Jared being kind of cruel or oblivious. Jensen thinks he's finally found something, but Jared may announce at some point that he's interested in someone else. Or I might be misremembering it.

The story ends with Jensen rushing to catch the bus and is so distracted he is struck and killed.

Does this ring any bells with anyone? It was a SPN_J2 Big Bang three or four years ago.
Any help appreciated.

FOUND by the awesome [livejournal.com profile] wusswooand I had everything wrong about the story except the scars!
Lick The Valleys Up by [livejournal.com profile] xxamlaxx
Summary: SPN AU based off Marianela. Dean and Sam's parents died in the fire that left Dean disfigured and Sam blind. Sam is adopted by the Winchesters, Dean isn't. In simpler terms: Dean is ugly, Sam is blind, and they meet.
 
 
I recently read The Georgia Incident by MarquessaS, and got me in the mood for stories that were like that, where Sam used his demonic powers on Dean causing him great injury, whither it be permanent, fixable or a deathfic.
My second search is a story where Dean is the real antichrist, not sure if Sam is playing the role to take the heat off of Dean, or not, that's about all I know if it, Hope someone out in the spn universe recognises it. An upfront thanks to all how reply.
 
 
Current Mood: good
 
 
26 August 2016 @ 11:34 pm
I'm looking for a fic I read a while ago, what I remember is it's an au of the apocalypse. Team free will along with Gabriel decide the only chance they have to beat Lucifer is for Dean to let Cas use his body as a vessel, but when they're fighting Lucifer he rips Cas out of Dean but is killed by Gabriel inside of Sam. Afterwards Dean is super depressed and almost comatose for awhile, but manages to start pulling himself together. At one point Dean stumbles across Cas's empty vessel and breaks down. Cas comes back to life at the end. The pairings were destiel and possibly sabriel. I'm pretty sure I read it on ao3 and it's been driving me nuts hopefully someone can help.
 
 
Hi, this is my first time posting so apologies for anything wrong. I've been lurking here for several years and found many good stories from other's requests. Now I'm looking for two stories I read quite a while ago.

The first is set in the future, after both Sam and Dean are dead. Dean's in heaven... I remember lots of white. He cant remember Sam but often goes to the walls where he sees a savage Sam outside. His memory of Sam gradually come back and the angels can't believe it when he rejects Heaven for his brother outside.

The second is a short story with Sam only. He's in a motel room. The supernatural is not real... it's just his imagination, the result of a tumour. I think he dies, but I'm not certain.

Both these stories are quite old. I would love any in the same genre too. Happy with any pairing, or gen.

Thanks!
 
 
I'm looking for a really creepy little fic that told the story of Sam after he'd stopped the trials (I think). He's with Dean and he feels weird - keeps hearing flies buzzing around him - finds stains on the bedding. It turns out that Dean bought Sam's corpse back to life and Sam is sort of living dead (I hope this makes some sense). I've searched and searched to no avail so any help would be awesome!
 
 
27 April 2016 @ 09:23 am

I'm looking for a fiction where Dean stays with Lisa even after Sam gets out of hell. The premise of the story is one sided Wincest. Castel knows of Sam's pining. The last one Sam is hunting and a tree falls on him.
Thanks

 
 
20 February 2016 @ 06:01 pm
Hey! So I've been looking for a specific fic that I read a while ago. I think I found it on spnstoryfinders but i haven't been able to find it since.
I'm quite certain that it was on LJ. Sam had basically gone batshit insane, he's been killing people all across the country and hunters are after him. Dean meets up with Bobby and some other hunters who have tracked Sam down to a roadhouse and Dean begs them to let him see Sam before they try to kill him. He goes in and Sam is waiting for him. Sam has powers and I think he moves things around with his mind and Dean's a bit freaked out but wants to save his brother.
It turns out that Sam thinks he's talking to an angel who is telling him to kill people but I think it was actually a demon. In the end, Dean stabs Sam before the other hunters can kill him and Sam dies in his arms.
I don't remember what season it was set in but I think it might have been that Sam went missing to go on his killing spree from Stanford, though I might be wrong.
I'm quite certain it wasn't wincest either.
I think that's all I can remember but if you have any insane or mentally ill!Sam fics to reccommend I'll be grateful :)
 
 
I read this story awhile back and can't remember the name! I hope you all can help!

From what I remember, Dean dies saving the world but his body doesn't decay and smells like flowers, like a saint or god. He lies in state in some kind of large building and soon as word spreads about him, survivors start to come to be around him. He wakes up and he is changed. I think he has become a saint or a god. Castiel and Sam are in it as well. It's a great story.

Thanks in advance for any help!

Found! Thanks!
 
 
17 October 2015 @ 12:53 am
I'm looking for stories in which one of the characters outlives their partner in a way that feels believable. J2 is preferred, although the dead person doesn't have to be one of the Js.

Sam+Dean gen is also great, perhaps with a hint of wincest if it's not explicit (gencest is the best!).

I'm curious to see the characters go through the different stages of grief and how that changes their relationships, either between each other or with others. Examples of what I'm looking for (J2 or Sam+Dean):

- Character A lost the love of his life a long time ago. Hasn't let himself love anyone else until Character B enters the scene. Complicated romance ensues, with Supportive!Character B and a lot of cuddles.

- Character A loves Character B. Character B dies. Character A (barely?) copes.

- Character A loves Character B . Character C, who is very dear (romantically or not) to Character A, dies. Character B helps his partner cope.

I hope this isn't too specific. I'm craving good old angst, romance, and beautiful, complex characters. Death!fic (obviously) ok, self-recs are more than welcome.

Thank you!
 
 
31 August 2015 @ 01:47 am
Hi! I am looking for a specific death fic I read a few years ago.
I really thought the title was something like "the ghost of you" but I can't find anything.
Here's what a can still remember: Sam dies, Dean is devastated and doesn't want to go hunting anymore. But he changes his mind (I am not quite sure but I believe he 'talked' to Ghost Sam) and then tries to live his life as best as he can. He starts hunting again, but settles down some time. In the end Dean dies as an old man surrounded by his family and is finally reunited with Sam as his twenty-something-old self in the Impala.

If someone could help me find this story, I'd be really glad!
 
 
Hi, so I'm looking for a specific fic that I remember reading quite a while back. Dean is praying to Cas but Cas isn't able to answer or to help him (might have been set in Purgatory?) Eventually, Cas is forced to listen to Dean die (from blood loss iirc). Loved it, desperate to be reunited, please help.

Secondly, does anyone know what happened to onefulloctave and if they are happy to have their fics shared? If so, please let me know if you have any copies. I loved so many of their fics, was so sad to see them go!
 
 
Hi!
I'm looking for fics :

1. The setting is after Sam went for Stanford and John went missing. Dean is dead, alone, and no one know about it. He becomes ghost and very sad because no one cares enough to find him. Until someone (not John nor Sam) felt something wrong and realize that Dean went missing and decide to looking for him.

2. Soulles!Sam is falling in love with Dean instantly after he watch him taking care of Bobby John (the skinwalker baby).

3. Sam is so possessive on Dean since he was a little kid. Like he didn't like Dean be nice with another kid, and when he's teenager he hates to see Dean with his girlfriends, or when he grown up absolutely loathe to see Dean touched (or in Castiel's case "marked") by another people (except Bobby).

About the first one, I prefer Gen but het or slash is okay too.
 
 
21 April 2015 @ 12:19 pm
Hey guys, I'm looking for some stories where Dean or Jensen is just fucked up. I'm looking for some high quality angst in a Dean or Jensen centered story. I'm not pick about the length, and my preferred ships are J2, Wincest, DeanCas, and Cockles. I also prefer bottom!Dean and bottom!Jensen, so let me know otherwise, please. If it's RPS, please no wife-hate!
Thank you!!
 
 
 
14 March 2015 @ 12:49 pm
They can be death fics, unrequited love, not a happy ending, etc. I just want some heart breaking fics.

Any pairing is fine, but J2 and wincest preferred!
 
 
Okay, so first I'm looking for stories with choked, strangled, hanged, smothered, or anything involving Sam/Jared not being able to breathe and getting his pretty neck bruised. The story Gunslinger made me want to request this. Can be Gen or Wincest/J2 as long as it's bottom Sam/Jared and no breath play kink. Can be death fic or not.


I am also looking for a fic that I searched for before.  The person that found it for me deleted the comment. It was a Sam/John sneaky!bottomSam, were he rode John while he was asleep. It was a comment fic meme FOUND!

Thank you for your help!
 
 
15 February 2015 @ 09:37 am
I recall reading at least one story a few years ago where the boys were old and took daily walks in the park. There were several park regulars who recognized them. By the end of the story only one of them was coming, and it was implied the other had passed away.

I think there might have been two similar stories - both were responses to a prompt from one of the LJ communities. I don't believe the stories were slash, exactly, but they could have been read that way if I remember right.

Thanks if you can help me find one/both of these! :)

ETA - One has been found (if there are actually two), link in comments.
 
 
26 December 2014 @ 10:45 pm
Hey guys!

I'm looking for the angstiest, saddest, most heartcrushing deathfics you have, where Castiel is the one who dies. Because I'm a masochist.

I'd prefer if it was ~somewhat permanent, ie. not S09E03, and no Wincest unless it's Wincestiel please. AUs are great (though not Twist & Shout, I know of that one already :') ). Bonus for fic with the other angels making appearances too.

Thank you so much in advance!
 
 
Hey guys. I'm looking for 2 fics, and I don't care if it's a self rec, if you wrote it, or if you found it after I post this. Anyway, these are them:

1) John finds Sams Stanford letter and ruins Sams plans for his attendance. Sam, heartbroken, tries to kill himself.

I don't care if Sam dies or not, but Dean has to be devastated and John has to see the error of his ways.

2) Sam thinks that John doesn't love him and runs away, only to be taken in by Gabriel and turned into a Trickster.

John and Dean (and maybe Bobby) have to run into them eventually. Gabe and Sam have to be a couple.
 
 
Current Mood: bored
 
 
Hi, I'm looking for a specific story, it's wincest, and I'm pretty sure it's a one shot, and it ends with suicide. John, Sam and Dean hunt together, but Sam does drugs and is in love with Dean, there's a specific scene I remember, the three of them are in a diner and Sam suggests that they get jobs and John says something like "so you can buy drugs?" or something like that...
 
 
13 November 2014 @ 06:32 pm
Hi)

1) I'm looking for first-time wincest fics. It'll be great if it is 9 or 10 season timeline. More angst, more drama, hurt-comfort, if it is possible. It doesn't matter if fic has happyending or not, it also can be a death!fics.

2) I'm also looking for soulless!Sam/demon!Den fics:)

Thanks!
 
 
So, I haven't seen a whole lot of stories that feature Sam dying Pre-Stanford and am wondering if anyone knows of any that they would recommend. Wee!chesters is perfectly fine as well.

Sam dose not actually have to die in the fic, but it would be ideal if Dean and John thought he was for any amount of time. Bonus points if we see Dean and John grieving/ struggling to come to terms with Sam's death(That may or may not be real).

Also, I really enjoy authoressnebula's fic, Invisible Touch, so if you have anything that like that please recommend it!

Thanks for your help!
 
 
20 October 2014 @ 05:08 pm
Hi

The fic I'm looking for was set at the end of season 6 or the beginning of season 7. I seem to remember there was mention of Cas as god, but it could have been before all that went down. I do know it was about Sam's wall crumbling, and he basically never came out of the coma. Dean carried on looking after him at Bobby's, basically giving up on everything. It starts with Dean being hopeful that Sam will come out of it, but as Sam deteriorates so does Dean. There were pretty in depth scenes of Dean washing Sam and treating bed sores etc. In the end Sam dies in one of the most heartbreaking scenes I've ever read. If memory serves, Dean shoots him because he knows Sam wouldn't want to be stuck like that but I'm a little hazy there. There may have been some sort of communication between the brothers, with Sam asking Dean to put him out of his misery. However it comes about, Dean just gives up. He basically goes to bed and wills himself to die, and Bobby can't do anything to stop it and has to watch as Dean dies of a broken heart.

The last scene is Dean waking up in Heaven, in the Impala and Sam comes to get him, and Mary is on the porch waving at them or something similar. It is one of the saddest and most beautiful things I have ever read and although it ends with them both dead, it kind of has a happy ending too.

I'm pretty sure this was a oneshot, and I'm pretty sure it was Gen and not Wincest, but I'm not positive about that. I'm scouring the big bang and the mini bangs in search of it as well as my story favs, bookmarks etc but so far, no luck.

Any suggestions? Sound familiar? Chuck, I hope so!
 
 
I don't know about anyone else, but I feel like I was robbed of an outstanding performance from Jensen in the Season Nine Finale, " Do You Believe in Miracles".  The whole "death" scene in AHBL was a better platform for his talent than DYBM.  I really expected more for Dean's "death scene".  I was so looking forward to the "awesomeness" that is Jensen and his acting for such an emotional scene.  So....to try and fulfill a void...I am looking for stories that expand on the "death" scene in DYBM.  Are there any out there? Thank you in advance.
 
 
Current Mood: moody
 
 
01 October 2014 @ 11:44 pm
Hi guys,
can you rec me some fics in which one of the boy is there when the other dies? It can be a true death scene or just a situation in which they both believe one of them (or both) will die.
What I really want are sad and moving last speeches or last words, you know, something like that!
I'm ok with both Gen and Wincest.
Thanks a lot!
 
 
10 September 2014 @ 08:55 pm
I'm looking for two fics.

The first, I can't remember much about at all. All I remember was that Sam and Dean run into two boys on a hunt and they find the dad is abusing them and they take the boys with them. I think at one point the older brother admits that their dad or whoever they were living with made him hit his brother so the little brother won't look him in the eye.

The second, I also don't remember much. It was a deathfic, where Sam and Dean were running away from John because he was either abusing Sam, or he found out about the demon blood or something. Dean crashes the Impala (I think on purpose) and one of the brothers ends up flying through the windshield and they both die. I think at the end, John was on the pavement crying, all guilty.

Thanks, I hope somebody can help me.
 
 
10 September 2014 @ 04:53 pm
Hey everyone, I'm feeling sick and miserable so let's add some seriously emotional death fics to that. Because we can.

I'm looking for stories where Dean dies alone. It can be on a hunt, an overdose, a car wreck. During Stanford Era when John had sent Dean off on his own to hunt, or any time when Dean and Sam had separated later. Sam, John, Castiel, or Bobby can find out later or find his body, but I want Dean dying alone. Any pairing or gen is fine.

Bonus points:

• Dean makes some last dying calls like in Sharlot's Jai Guru Deva Om [http://archiveofourown.org/works/955608/chapters/1869996] and nobody picks up the phone or they hold on and hear his last words.

• John goes to Sam at Stanford for help finding a missing Dean.

• Dean's body is Incorruptible, like Catholic Saints. So when Sam/John/Bobby/Castiel finds Dean's corpse it is pristine and untouched by age, decomp, or animals.

• Aftermath of finding out, sadness, angst, and guilt.


Thanks!
 
 
31 August 2014 @ 01:54 pm
SPECIFIC WINCESTIEL FIC Sam and Cas are subs and Dean is their dom. Dean gets drunk and is very mean (says horrible things about how broken Sam and Cas are) to Sam and Cas. The next day, Dean keeps apologizing.

2. Fics where one or both the main characters die. I want Wincest, J2, Mishalecki, Sastiel, or Wincestiel.
 
 
27 August 2014 @ 11:44 pm
I can't remember much about it because I read it so long ago. I think Sam and Dean got into some sort of fight about something and Dean freaked out and punched Sam. Sam got upset and went for a walk but accidentally gets hit by a car and dies alone on the side of the road. I think there was a second chapter that expanded on Dean's reaction, and Tessa was somehow involved at the end, but that's really all I remember about the story. Is this ringing any bells for anyone?
 
 
1. Set after the apocalypse, Cas has fallen and is living with Sam and Dean in a house (it might have been Bobby's). Sam marries Sarah and they have gifted children due to his demon abilities, I think, if I'm remembering it right. Eventually, after many years Gabriel actually leaves them a baby that is theirs biologically, but no one birthed it. This was a series I believe. Found: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8169946/1/Wait-and-See

2. Cas is fallen and human, but also dying because of it and has very little time to live. He lives at Bobby's house with everyone. I remember the scene of Cas dying at night, in bed with Dean. His lungs filled up with blood and he drowned. (SPOLIER!!! Gabriel brings him back to life like a chapter later) Found: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6865609/1/Ready-To-Fall

Any help would be great, Thank you!
 
 
So, I am looking for fics which have suicidal Sam/Jared. For the SPN version, I would love it if Dean feels guilty about it. (Maybe he said something that pushed Sam over the edge?) If the RPF version deals with eating disorders or homophobia, just drop me a warning. (Oh, and I read 'Monster' by freaknout and I loved it.)

Both Slash and Gen fics are fine. Death fics are more than okay. It can be set in any season, pre-series, non-au or even au. Self-recs are always welcome.
Basically I have no special requirement for this search expect that it focus on suicidal!Sam and/or suicidal!Jared.

Thank you in advance.

Mods: I have this problem where all my tags sometimes disappear after you have approved the entry. It might have something to do with me using a plus account.
 
 
Current Mood: sad
 
 
22 May 2014 @ 10:41 am
So, having watched and rewatched the finale, I am standing on the edge, looking down at the chasm that is the summer Hellatus. There was a lot I liked about the finale and some things I didn't, mostly I wanted more of what I liked. My emotions got ramped up but I didn't quite get the cathartic sobbing I was hoping for (mostly due to editing/cutting to other scenes). So I turn to you, my fellow fanatics, in search of the perfect story that leaves you the best kind of emotional wreck, has you pause your reading because you can't see through the tears. Gen and Wincest are both fine (no Destiel please). What is the story that you still tear up about just thinking about please?
 
 
20 May 2014 @ 10:36 pm
I actually found this fic on this site while I was looking for something else. I swore I bookmarked it but now I cant find it.

Sam went to a witch I guess to find a way to save Dan. She says she'll help but he ha to give something up. He walks through a mirror and into a world where he finds that he and Dean aren't brothers. Dean and Jo are siblings and Sam is at Stanford where he has burn scars from trying to save Jess. He finds out that a demon (Meg) is after him and teams up with Dean(they end up in a relationship)_ . She catches up with them and several people end up dying including Jo, Ash, and Sam. Dean ends up going to the same witch and he has to give something up too. He and Sam end up brothers again.  I could go on but I'm hoping someone knows what I'm talking about. Thanks for your help!
 
 
I've been trying to find this story for a long time and it's killing me. I don't remember much, but here's what I think I remember:

I'm pretty sure it was pre-series, but it could have been during the first season. Either way John was alive.

Either Dean finds out John wants to kill Sam because of the demon blood, or Dean finds out John was abusing Sam and he takes Sam and the Impala and they run.

John finds out and chases after them in his truck. They crash the Impala somehow (on purpose) and they both die. I think the very end is from the POV of a cop or someone and he's talking about how one of them crashed through the windshield (although that could have been from another story I read). The cop notes that Johns on the pavement crying, feeling all guilty.

Sorry I don't remember much, but hopefully someone out there can help me out.
 
 
17 May 2014 @ 07:39 pm
Hi!
I'm looking for J2 fics that have the two of them waiting for and then meeting up after death - soulmates style, in spirit form.

Examples of what I mean (and am aware of) would be: [livejournal.com profile] calysta18's Waiting; [livejournal.com profile] mrs_gregsanders' Our Endless Numbered Days; [livejournal.com profile] soncnica's At Last and [livejournal.com profile] aelia1980's The Story Of My Life.

If anyone knows of any more like this please - PLEASE - I'd be so grateful!

-Dee
 
 
Current Music: Bon Jovi's "Bed of Roses"
Current Mood: melancholy
 
 
Hi!

I'm looking for a fic I read a while ago and forgot to bookmark. It was a wincest fic, the boys settled down probably bought or rented a house and lived happily for some time but in the end Dean was killed in a car accident. I was bittersweet and very beautiful but I cannot find it so perhaps someone can recoginse it.
Thanks in advance.
Mary-key84

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