03 February 2017 @ 04:43 pm
Hey everyone

Ok, so I'm looking for a new link to a story that was on Samdean archive. I can't remember the Title or author, and stupidly just added a note on my own list which just reads "Dean blind, John's fault". Not helpful, lol.

In this fic, Dean got kicked in the head by a lesser demon wearing a teenager, during the a showdown with the YED, and John is too obsessed with killing the YED to even notice Dean was in trouble.

I think John had drugged Sam or something to keep him out of the fight.

Dean is now blind and suffers from seizures. John tries to send Dean to some nursing home or something, but Sam steps in. Sam and Dean move to a small town where Pastor Jim helps them set up a home. Jim knows about the boys' sexual relationship.

Dean goes along to a kindergarten class and tells them stories. There's a scene where the boys are ice skating on a pond and John is spying on them and sees them kiss.

Can anyone help, pretty please?

To clarify; I need a link for this fic that's NOT to samdean archive.

The brilliant Calysta has now posted this story - "Love is never blind" on AO3

Thanks, lovelies.

Okay, so I've been looking for this fic for approximately ever and I have never been able to refind it. It's set pre-series, immediately after Sam leaves for Stanford, and it follows John and Dean for the days or weeks after Sam left. It's in John's POV.

Dean is kind of mid-breakdown about the whole thing, but John is kind of refusing to acknowledge it. He's kind of in denial and thinks Dean is doing pretty okay, or doesn't want to have to deal with how not-okay Dean is. Then they hunt something that they both KNOW has been throwing people off cliffs and he sees Dean follow it up onto the clifftop anyway and nearly get himself killed, and then he's like "holy shit I think he just tried to commit suicide by hunting." Dean, of course, doesn't cop to it.

I don't think the story is explicity Wincest, but iirc there are definitely implications. I think at one point John mentally compares how Dean is handling Sam leaving to how he behaved after Mary died.

Sound familiar to anyone? I've honestly been trying to find it for over a year, so any help is much appreciated.

11 February 2016 @ 01:31 am
I remember reading a certain fic a while of ago where the Yellow-Eyed Demon let John live a little longer after the deal, specifically to let him find out about Sam and Dean's relationship.

I remember that John left Sam and Dean believe that he was taken by the demon, but John kept tabs on them. Also, John discovered both of them in bed together in a cabin (I think it was in a snowy mountain?), got angry, until Dean shut him down.

It ended with the YED taking John to hell.  
Okay, so I believe that these are two separate specific fics that I am looking for, but I could be wrong. Both are set pre-series, after Sam leaves for Stanford and are more or less from John's POV focusing on Dean and how he's handling his brother leaving (hint: not well). Both are Wincest, maybe only in implication, I can't 100% remember. I think both are oneshots/under 10k. The details I remember are below:

1. Dean is really not handling Sam leaving well and John is kind of refusing to acknowledge it, with kind of an attitude of "he's doing pretty okay" but then they hunt something that they both KNOW has been throwing people off cliffs and he sees Dean follow it up onto a clifface anyway and nearly get himself killed and then he's like "holy shit I think he just tried to commit suicide by hunting." Dean, of course, doesn't cop to it, but I think things get moderately better after they talk about it a little.

2. I remember even less detail about the second fic, but what stands out in my memory is a scene where Dean has just drunk himself dumb and is just sitting on the floor in the bathroom being intermittently sick while John witnesses. They may kind of discuss in this scene that Dean is losing it now that Sam's gone, and I think John might even draw a comparison to how he reacted to losing Mary.

I'm not quite sure that "John Finds Out" is the right genre to categorize this, but there is definitely acknowledgement from John in both of them that there was something more significant about his sons' bond than he initially realized. Take that as you will. I remember them both being subtle and very sad.

Thanks for your help!
04 July 2015 @ 11:56 am
So I just recently read A History of Love by lyryk for this year's Spn & J2 Big Bang and it's got me wanting more John finds out (about Wincest) fics. Particularly ones where he basically beats the crap out of Dean when he does. I'm really interested in longer fics that maybe show what happens with Dean after he gets away from John (something like Becoming, if you've read that). I'm also interested in fics where Sam didn't know what happened and found out later, or even fics where Dean and Sam never acted on it but John noticed something between them and tried to nip it in the bud, or fics where Sam is the one John goes after but Dean takes the beating instead. I don't believe John actually beat them in canon but I do love the exploration in fanfic. I've read quite a few of these so please feel free to rec long fics, short fics, self recs, and fics that don't fit this completely but you think are still good and in the same vein. 
22 June 2015 @ 07:53 pm
I'm looking for some fics where John knows about Wincest, finds out, or maybe even encourages the bond between the boys. Stories where he watches them grow up always knowing they are too close but sinks into denial about Sam/Dean or watches the relationship to develop like a car crash and he can't look away, like maybe its inevitable. Kinds like that, maybe?

I'm not a fan of John being written as an abusive asshole so no fics like that, please. Flawed but real portrayals of Papa Winchester.

I'll also take Pastor Jim, Caleb, or Bobby knowing/finding out. No appearances by Castiel or time-traveling.
16 March 2015 @ 08:12 am
I read this fic a while ago. All I remember is that it was Dean's birthday and Sam and Dean were having sex and John walked in on them. I remember that he was actually pretty accepting and onpy told them not to show too much PTA while he was around.

Anybody recognize the story?
This is my first time ever using livejournal, so sorry mods if I do anything wrong.

I'm looking for any fic revolving around people finding out about Sam/Dean. I'm absolutely in love with these types of stories and I'm pretty sure I've read most of the 'John finds out' and 'Bobby finds out' fics out there.

I really want to see fics where Crowley finds out and that's the main reason why I'm posting here; I can't seem to find any. Other minor characters finding out would be awesome too (like Charlie, Kevin, Jody, Jess, etc) and if you have any uncommon John or Bobby find out fics, which you think I wouldn't have read before, those are fine too. Even fics like Crush by [livejournal.com profile] sonofabiscuit77 where Fic Spoiler ) works too.

Any kind of reaction is fine, but I'd prefer non-AUs. Thank You!
I read two fanfic before but can't find it now, hoping anyone can help me!><

A)John find out the brothers having sex, then he fuck Sam to warn him don't do that gain with Dean, is anyone know about this fic?

B)John sex abuse Sam, blame Mary's dead on Sam, during the sex, John humiliate Sam, said Dean will feel disgust if he find out Sam seduce hid father, and make Sam say thank you to him, like thank you for make me useful blah blah, can't remember if Dean find out later.

C)John and Dean sex abuse Sam, make him become their bitch, cockslut fucktoy ...etc

And any fanfics like these two is very very welcome!!! Please please please! Only bottom!Sam, underage and dirty talk, spanking, bdsm, bondage is very okay, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!
14 September 2014 @ 09:50 am
Sam and Dean get caught making out at school and I think everyone knows they're brothers. The principal calls John and he comes to get them. From what I remember he wasn't necessarily mad but more annoyed that he had to come pick them up when he was in the middle of a hunt. Hope someone can help!
21 July 2014 @ 11:28 am
The first fic I'm looking for is a Wincest fic. I think it's a comment fic. John found out that Sam is going to Stanford and decides that Sam needs to be brought under control, his control, under his collar. Sam is rather disturbed by this, and Dean is all "Hell no, Sam is mine!" and tells John he knew about Sam leaving and that Sam had Dean's permission to go since Dean was going with him.

The second one was a J2 fic, this one was a longer fic, but my memories are vaguer. They're in some sort of containment center, though Jared's section includes an area outdoors. Jensen ends up in Jared's area because some of the other inmates dumped him there, I think. I know that Jared is feral and someone, the government maybe, is using him as an assassin. Jared latches onto Jensen and everyone is surprised that Jared doesn't kill him. I *think* they have sex, but I'm not sure. Jensen ends up becoming a stabilizing influence on Jared, I think through a mental bond? And then they both end up escaping. That's not quite the end but I don't remember what happens after that. Also, I have read Feral by riyku and while it is a bit similar it is not the fic I'm looking for.
-FOUND! Link is in the comments.

Do either of these fics sound familiar?
Looking for specific fic with mpreg!Sam and Dean at the roadhouse, Dean planning surprise birthday party for Sam

Surprise )

I can remember the details, but still my google skills fail me. I thought I had it bookmarked, but either I didn't or it was lost. There may have been a sequel or was the first of a verse, unless I'm confusing this with another fic, but I'm sure about all the other facts. Help!!!

Found in comments.
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01 March 2014 @ 07:15 pm
I've been searching for this wincest fic for a while now, but I haven't found it yet so I joined LJ in hopes that one of you know it. It's in a hotel, john in one room and sam and dean in the other. Basically, sam and dean are going at it and john's calling them to wake up and one of them mentions that the door is unlocked and john could just walk in but at the end, the other learns it's been locked the entire time.
20 January 2014 @ 02:13 pm
Any fiction that have bobby/john finding out or he just knows that Sam and Dean are together .

Found by [livejournal.com profile] chellexxx
15 January 2014 @ 08:04 pm
hi- i'm looking for a specific wincest fic. from what i remember, john finds out or suspects that dean is sexually interested in sam and sends dean away to get trained by hunters. the hunters do very bad things to dean and after a few years pass, dean is sent back to live with his dad and sam- but he's different. the hunters he was living with basically turned him into a sociopath. dean eventually runs away with sam and john is left to wonder how all his good intentions went so very wrong.

i think it was written for a challenge.
04 January 2014 @ 10:16 pm
I'm looking for a wincest fic. When John found out he beat up Dean (threw him out a window?) and Dean's back is injured. He left and changed hi name and gained wheight to look different. I don't remember what happend to Sam, but later John and Sam are in ther as well.

Rings any bells?


I was wondering if anyone is aware of any fics where either Sam/Dean or Castiel/Dean become intimate while someone else is in the same room? Maybe John Winchester is sleeping in the next hotel bed or driving the impala with the boys in the back seat. Or maybe it's Sam nearby while Cas and Dean are together.

I'm pretty much open to any situation (weecest is fine), length of fic, smut level, WIP, etc. I'm just not having any luck finding many stories with this sort of situation.

Thank you in advance!
15 June 2013 @ 04:20 pm
Could you guys please rec me some non-AU complete fics (or WIP fics which are not abandoned) in which Dean and Sam somehow end up with one of the kids they've met along the way? I don't care about the rating or length (though longer is definitely better for this request), but I do want to see first time Wincest in the story. Also, I don't care if they're raising the kid in the hunting lifestyle or have settled down or some mix of the two.

Also, are there any fics in which John gets resurrected or both boys travel back in time to when he was alive to fix their mistakes and he has to face the fact that his sons are WAY better hunters than he could ever hope to be? Also, Dean should definitely refuse his orders and John should definitely be pissed about all of it and be a total asshole. It can end with John realizing how wrong he was to be like that or the boys sending him away because they can't deal with his crap anymore or whatever. No AU's, no abandoned fics, and I'd like to see first time Wincest in the story too even if John doesn't find out about it. If he does and freaks, though, that would be awesome. Please help, guys!
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06 June 2013 @ 09:22 pm
Hey! I looking for four kinds of fanfics
1) A fanfic where Sam, Dean and Cas they travel to another universe where everything is the same except all the genders are switched! Bonus if Fem!Dean and fem!Cas are dating, but i don't care if its wincest or any other ship!
2) Either Sam or Dean start reading slash supernatural's fanfic, i rather Destiel, but again, any ship goes.
3) A fake relationship where Dean has to pretend to be castiel (or sam) boyfriend
4) Dean is Gay/Bisexual and somehow John discovers and is homofobic (Bonus for Destiel!)
Thank you all!
24 April 2013 @ 11:01 am
The first fic is an Au J2 fic, It's a Tarzan type fic. You'd think this would be easy to find but I've looked through the tags here, at J2-recs, spnkink_meme and others but still can't find it. Jensen is on an island and Jared comes he doesn't speak to Jensen (that I recall), it's sort of dub-conish in that Jared just kind of starts touching Jensen and Jensen doesn't really know what to do and at first tries to stop Jared and talk to him but eventually gives in. It was short and I think it might have been from a prompt? Not sure though.
FOUND! Link in comments

The second I think is wincest, could be gen. Dean is taken to an alternate universe after they're trying to hunt a djinn. In the AU Dean goes to the motel and finds that Sam has been beaten and hurt, he goes to help but sees that Sam is scared of him. Turns out Dean is abusive to Sam and I think Dean is a serial killer, not a hunter but I could be mixing that up with something else.
FOUND! I found it buried in my bookmarks The Cancer Inside by purplehrdwonder

The third fic is wincest, Sam I think had either brain damage or some kind of mental disability. Dean took care of him and John is aware of their relationship, not entirely ok but understanding. There's one scene in particular that I remember -->read more... )

Hope someone can help! Thanks
20 April 2013 @ 07:56 pm
Hi guys, I've been looking for two specific Sam/Dean fics and am hoping someone can help me locate them:

1. The first fic I've been searching for is an older Sam/Dean fic with mpreg!Sam. The boys are in an established relationship. When Sam finds out he's pregnant, they decide they have to leave John, who they know would never condone their relationship let alone their having a baby together. They end up in an isolated cabin where Sam can safely have the baby. John ends up finding them, though, and when he sees that Sam's pregnant all hell breaks loose. I think it's revealed that Dean's the father. John starts verbally and physically lashing out at Sam and punches him in the belly. Dean eventually manages to fight John off and get rid of him (can't remember the details) but the punch made Sam go into labour. The fic ends with the baby's birth, but all's well in the end.

2. The second fic is a Stanford!AU. Dean receives a phone call from Jess that Sam's in the hospital. He needs to have surgery but refuses to do it before having seen Dean again. I think Sam's afraid he won't survive the surgery and wants to make things right with Dean and admit his feelings for him, explain why he left the way he did. Dean hurries to Sam's side and they have a talk, with Dean persuading Sam to go through with the surgery. There are confessions, apologies and declarations of love, as far as I remember, and the fic ends in Wincest. FOUND. [livejournal.com profile] maryjo24 kindly provided a link for the pdf in the comments. Thanks, guys!

I hope I'm remembering these details correctly and managed to include the most relevant tags. It's been driving me mad that I couldn't find these fics again, so I would be ever so grateful if someone knew what I'm talking about here. :)

Thank you so much in advance!
25 February 2013 @ 04:00 pm
Hello all, I realize this may be a longshot, but I would like to read some fics where John is an *gasp* awesome father. Could be pre-series or set in season one, Wincest is always a bonus. I'm not really fond of AU's (as in Sam and Dean aren't brothers or Mary lives kind of AU's).
one; I'm looking for a fic where Dean is in denial about his feelings for Sam and/or every time they have sex, Dean denies it ever happened. Pretty much any fic where Dean is in-denial, any rating will do, I'd prefer if Dean topped. MHM.

two; I'm looking for a first time fic, any time period, but I would like it to be angsty, I would like to see a confused!dean and perhaps one where John finds out?

three; A fic where Dean is turned into a girl and Sam finds Dean extremely attractive and they end up having sex, girl!dean gets pregnant. I would like there to have been to previous wincest until Dean is turned into a chick.

I'm sorry I'm not awfully specific, self recs are more than welcome!
Ok so around 15 year old Sam is in love with Dean, and tries repeatedly to act on it, but Dean doesn't feel the same way. He's all like god, you're my brother and stuff. But he gives in little by little (I think it's a fic around ... 15.000 words) and when he finally breaks and is like fine, you wanna have sex, let's do it (but he still just sees Sam as a brother, so it's one sided) John catches them and he apparently knew the whole time about Sam's feelings for his brother and is very disappointed that Dean gave in to him. Don't remember how it ends though.

Oh and they are in a house I think, and they have sex on the sofa. I also think it was a little angsty.

Thanks in advance!
28 November 2012 @ 09:51 pm
So in this fic, Dean, Sam, and John are all trained military. Dean and Sam work for John and are lovers but think he doesn't know. I think he spies on them through their dog tags? And to split them up John sends Dean out into danger and Sam has to save him. Then they confront John at the end. Anyone remember this one?
23 November 2012 @ 02:52 pm
Hello there :) I am looking for a specific fic. I cannot remember the title or the author for the life of me.

I remember it was about John finding out about Sam and Dean being together and he reacts badly. I believe he pulls a gun on Dean and forces him to leave and never try to contact him and Sam. When Dean goes back to get Sam John has already taken him somewhere. I never finished the fic so I have no idea what happens next and is the exact reason why I am looking for it.

Help is much appreciated :)
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18 November 2012 @ 01:17 pm
Hi all!
So this is my first time on live journal and posting on this community thingy, but anyway I've searched endlessly for good (wincest/destiel/sassy/Wincestiel) stories where the boys get caught at school (preferably High school) or by john or given dirty looks on the streets, anything! Basically what I'm looking for is anything where you read it and want to face palm it's so embarrassing and squeal with delight it's so exciting! No J2 please or AU and only Dean/Sam, Dean/Cas,Sam/Cas pairings please and if you happen to have Dean/Sam/Cas that would just be peachy, also wee!chester is fine just as long the age is above 12.
P.S Schmoop/Fluff = GREAT!
Thanking you all very kindly in Advance if you can help :-)
Sorry if I've done this post incorrectly. hope I got all the tags.
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This is a specific fic I read where John comes home from a hunt and sees Dean prostituting himself. He gets angry but Dean reveals that he's doing it because they don't have anymore food and no money. John gets food for dean and sam and goes back to the motel to pay the rent that's overdue. Years later John finds out about Wincest between Sam and Dean but Dean asks him not to say anything to Sam as payment for all Dean had to put up with (Like the leavning them alone for ages and other things like that) he had to go thought when he was a kid.
09 September 2012 @ 03:45 pm
Are there any completed Wincest stories that deal with either Bobby or John finding out about Dean and Sam's relationship? Thanks!
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I got two specific fic searches.

1. The first is a J2, where something happens to Jared (hits his head maybe?) so he acts like a child. I remember Jensen taking him somewhere they could swim, and Jared's got these kid trunks on that looks obscene on him cos he's an adult. Jared also eats so much ice cream, and is really proud of that, but then he gets sick, and vomits all over the car I think. 

He gets normal again at some point, and they kiss I think.

Ring any bells?

2. Wincest fic where John either suspects or knows, I'm not sure. I only remember two things about it... First thing is that it's from John's POV. And the other is that he suspected about it already when they were children. The scene I remember is under the cut.

Read more... )

Can anyone help me?
08 April 2012 @ 09:59 pm
1). I'm not sure if this was Wincest or not. I vaguely remember there being a Wincest and a Non-Wincest version, but they could just be similar stories. Dean is at Stanford with Sam. He's going to Sam's classes with him and they talk a lot about it. John visits eventually claiming that there is a case at Stanford. He notices how close the boys are, but I don't think he minded. It turns out that the professor of the class the boys go to is a ghost. Also, I kinda remember Sam giving Dean an engineering textbook that he takes with him when he hunts. Sam finds it later with notes inside and missing pages. 

2). Jensen's family goes to their summer home every year, where Jensen is good friends with Jared. It shows their friendship for a couple years, until Jensen realizes he's in love with Jared. He gets a wedding invitation that he believes is Jared's, but is actually his sister's. Jensen avoids the cabin for a few years, until his brother kidnaps him and takes him out in the back of his truck. I remember something about Jared living in a tee-pee out in the woods. ***FOUND!! Link in comments!***

Any help would be appreciated! Thanks!!
06 April 2012 @ 03:37 pm
Hello !!

I'm looking a specific fic in which John finds out about wincest and throws Dean by a window.

Dean hides from his father and works in shop (like a Home Depot or something).

To be sure he'll never be recognized, Dean starts to eat a lot and becomes chubby.

He also has back pain.

I think the title is Becoming but I'm not sure.

Thanks !!
03 April 2012 @ 11:10 pm
Hi ! I'm sorry to bother you but there's a great fic that I read some time ago and can't seem to find anywhere despite no small amount of looking.

It was a wincest fic and John found out pre-series. He wasn't thrilled, to say the least. He then kicked Dean out. I'm a bit hazy on the details but I think he threatened him with a gun to get him to leave.

John then leaves with Sam and Dean can't find them. He never gives up on his search for his brother and somehow ends up as a professor (at Stanford maybe). One day Sam comes in his office to ask something to the teacher he doesn't know is his brother. Follows an angsty reunion where Dean discovers that John drugged Sam that night and told him that Dean left on his own.

That's all I can remember I think. Thanks in advance to all those that took the time to read this post and sorry to bother you. By the way, if this fic doesn't exist and it somehow created itself in my head, may some talented author write it because it is awesome.

Thanks again.


P.S.: Fixed the strange font running across the page it really wasn't intentional.-_-" Thanks to the awesome mods !

Found by the marvellous Crynintherain : http://www.sinful-desire.org/archive/viewstory.php?sid=3163&warning=5
25 March 2012 @ 04:58 pm
Hey everyone, I was wondering if anyone could rec me any stories where John finds out about Wincest and is disapproving of it. It can be EXTREMELY against it, like to the point of abuse, or just a simple don't do it around me kind of thing. It can be Wee!cest or not. Extra brownie points if it is h/c!
Thanks in advance!
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24 March 2012 @ 09:32 pm
Hey everyone,

I've got two general requests here:

1) I am looking for fics which really deal with the incest topic. It can be Wincest or Angelcest (Castiel/Gabriel, Castiel/Balthazar or Castiel/Gabriel/Balthazar). Pairings with John aren't really my thing, but if the story is very well written... I am interested in the internal struggle of the two brothers but also in problems living an incestious relationship can cause in the outside world.
I already read The Winchester Gospel by SoulfulSam.

2) I want to look into polyamorous relationships, which means intimate, committed, long-term loving relationships between more than two persons. Again the pairing isn't that important. My focus is normally on various combinations of Sam, Dean, Castiel, Gabriel and Balthazar. RPS is fine too. The fics should concentrate on the characters trying to figure out how to make such a relationship work. I am also interested in fics where the pairing goes public and has to deal with the reactions.

So yeah for both requests not just PWP but characters seriously trying to work this out for themselves! The length isn't really important but it shouldn't be too easy for the main characters so I guess longer fics are more what I'm looking for. In Canon, AU or in case of the angels human!AU is all fine with me. And Slash is preferred over Het. I tagged my favourite pairings I hope that's okay...?

Self-recs are always welcome!
05 March 2012 @ 11:29 pm
I'm looking for a multi-chaptered Wincest fic.

Sam's in love with Dean. He tries to date other guys and Dean gets overprotective. Then John, Dean and Sam go on a hunt and encounter this fairy creature that says she'll help Sam. John finds out about Sam's feelings towards Dean and tells Sam never to tell Dean and Sam goes to Stanford to try and make a new life.

He ends up getting D.W. tattooed on his back and starts a relationship with Jess, but cheats on her to break up with her. Then Dean shows and tells Sam the romantic feelings are mutual. Pretty sure sex with bottom!Sam happens.

Doea anyone recognize this?

Found in the comments!
02 January 2012 @ 07:02 pm
Happy New Year everyone!!
I recently saw a post for crossovers between Sam/Dean and RPS and it made me think of a story that I would like to read again. It had Jared and Jensen as a couple. Jensen was a doctor and I think Jared was a nurse. They had been trying to have kids but it wasn't happening. Jensen finds Dean in gas station bathroom and Dean is in labor. Jensen brings him home and they take care of Dean since he ran away. Dean is a teenager in the story and Sam is the father of the child. Sam finds them and Jared and Jensen take in both boys I think.
Hopefully someone can help me find this story!!!
Thanks in advance
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So, I usually try to avoid sounding so dramatic but my life lately has been incredibly hard. to be honest I'm cracking a little under the pressure and lately supernatural and spn fic is really the only thing that actually distracts me. For that reason I was hoping that all you wonderful people can help me find more to read! You have never disappointed yet, so here goes! 

(also i hope i got the tags right! mods please help if i messed up!)

here's the request! )
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Hi folks,

I'm looking for a fic I read a long time ago, set after John's death.

Sam & Dean have been together since their teens and John found out about them. I remember a scene where they were all in a diner & when Sam went to the bathroom John said something like he couldn't stop them doing anything, but he made Dean promise that he would never have full sex with Sam.

After John died, Sam was getting sick of Dean refusing sex, until finally he finds out the reason why, because Dean feels like he'd be breaking his promise to his father.

Does this ring any bells with anyone?

Thanks :)

ETA: FOUND - link in comment #2, thank you! :D
13 November 2011 @ 02:01 am
I am looking for a fic that I read a long time ago and really want to read again but cannot find it anywhere! I've searched, gone through my bookmarks - I'm hoping someone can help me.

Dean and Sam are young, Dean is maybe 16 I think, they do have the Impala. John leaves on a hunt and never returns. The boys have to fend for themselves. At one point they have no money and Dean is pimping himself out so he can feed Sammy. He doesn't want Sam to see him doing this, they are parked on the side of the roads by the woods or something, so he sends Sam to stand in the woods where he can't easily see or hear what is going on but still close enough for Dean to watch out for him. Sam disappears and it turns out that he has been taken by vampires. Dean is frantic and it takes him a couple days to find him but he does and is able to rescue him before he is turned or killed. They end up living with Ellen at the Roadhouse and she raises them. Years later they discovered that John was still alive and somehow they ended up back with him. He deserted the boys because he thought it was safer, the demon was on his trail or something. There is naturally a ton of anger and resentment. Once they are both older (don't remember if both were over 18) Dean and Sam did start a sexual relationship. Eventually John and Ellen both found out about it and had different reactions.

Can't remember if Bobby was in this story. There was Ellen, Jo, and Ash.

I appreciate any help that anyone can give I would LOVE to read this story again. It was so well written and really struck a lot of chords with me on how I feel about the characters.


FOUND in comments! Thanks, exactly the story I wanted!
12 November 2011 @ 06:58 pm
Hey there,

I'm trying to find a fic I've read some time ago. Its was a canon dystopian future AU where a few selected men could carry children. Sam was one of them. To prevent the government from "giving" him to someone else, John convinced Sam and Dean to have sex which they do only reluctantly at first. When Sam is pregnant, though, they continue to have sex, causing John to freak out as he finds out.
Sam later miscarries and refuses to try becoming pregnant again.
Happy ending, if I remember correctly. Can anybody help me?
02 November 2011 @ 09:47 pm
Sam and Dean were young, something like 9 and 13, and they were kidnapped by a human and buried underground for I think longer than a few weeks. It focused a lot on their time when they were trapped and had limited food. They got more intimate then, too, and when they're found eventually both are very weak and thin. Sam gets nightmares a lot. I think there was a sequel where John takes them to a remote cabin so they can rest. I can't seem to find it in my bookmarks- does anyone know the story I'm talking about?
18 October 2011 @ 01:16 am
Hello! I'm looking for a specific fanfiction I've read a couple of years ago. The whole story consists of Sam and Dean writing letters to each other, and their relationship slowly developing through the course of the fic. If I recall correctly, John hates them for it, but Bobby still supports them.

I am sorry I don't remember anything more.
08 October 2011 @ 05:54 pm
Hey y'all! Hate to trouble everybody but I am going craaaazy here.

[01] Specific Fic - It was Dean/Sam but the boys were unrelated, with Dean living with John and Sam living with a divorced Bobby. They were neighbors and their relationship started when they were fairly young, with Dean sucking a hickey on Sam I think? And having Sam do the same to him? Anyway, the fic went through their relationship as they grew older, and it had a slighty unhealthy vibe to it because Dean was extremely possesive and knew he wanted Sam to be his for good, but Sam wanted the everyday American wife and 2.5 kids future. Dean got his tongue pierced for Sam at one point, and they both eventually went to the high school prom with different girls. Sam saw Dean leaving with his date and got jealous (which was Dean's intention all along), and the boys ended up having sex in the car, and afterwards was the first time Sam told Dean he loved him without Dean tricking/forcing him into saying it. Help? - Found! 'Not a Verse' by bewaretheides15. Link in comments :)

[02] General Request - Anything along the lines of the fic above, as in Top!Dean/Jensen relentlessly and unashamedly pursues a somewhat reluctant Bottom!Sam/Jared? No non-con or dub-con please!
[03] Specific Fic - Wee!cest - John and Sam were at a rental house alone while Dean ran errands, and John told Sam it was okay to go to the gas station/library/store or whatever by himself. Dean came back and was super frantic when he realized John had let Sam out alone, getting up in John's face about how Sam was his responsibility and Sam had to calm him down. They left for another room and John heard them having sex through the walls. I think it was on fanfiction. - Also found! Link in comments. :D
[04] General Request - Anything Wee!chesters that's sort of like the fic above, where Dean shows John that Sam is his, either gen as a father figure or 'cest as a lover.

[05] General Request - Fics where Sam/Jared is injured or has a medical condition and doesn't tell Dean/Jensen - especially if Dean/Jensen finds out when Sam/Jared faints or passes out. Preferably Wee!chesters but older boys will do; any age for J2 is fine.

[06] General Request - Fics where Jared occassionaly struggles with depression, and Jensen helps him through it, even though he's totally shocked that his happy, energetic, puppy-dog friend could be so sad and lethargic.

Bottom!Sam/Jared only please! :)
30 August 2011 @ 04:55 am
so, i'm in a weird mood.  i'm looking for stories where john is like as awful as he can be with Sam, both physically and emotionally.  I also want Dean to either find out and kick his ass or find out and take Sam and leave.  Just basically badjohn fics where Sam is the abused party and Dean goes all BAMF on his ass.  Or in reverse, where he's badjohn to Dean and Sam finds out and goes all BAMF on him.  Either or is fine.  Wincest is preferable, but I'll take Gen too. 

Also (I know, ain't I a stinker?), fics where John finds out about the boys sleeping together.  Because some of the ones i've read, and I cannot remember the title of a single story how frellin weird is that?, have been some doozies!  But such interesting reads!

Recs? Give me what ya got!
12 August 2011 @ 02:54 pm
Hi everyone!

This is my first post here even if I've been lurking around for awhile. I've found fics I haven't read before and it's just so great!

Anyway, I'm in the hospital at the moment and is totally bored, so I would like to read a little and I would love to read some;

Read more... )
Current Mood: bored
29 July 2011 @ 03:16 pm
I am looking for
1.) AUs in which John comes back or is somehow watching the boys and finds out about the Apocalypse, Mary being raised a hunter, Dean going to Hell, or other events involving the boys after his death. AUs in which John lives also work.

1a.) Fics in which John finds out that Dean and Castiel are together. John meeting Cas.

2.) Fics in which John or Bobby find out about Sam and Dean being in a relationship. Any reaction is good. I just want to see John or Bobby finding out. I prefer bottom!Dean.

Thank you all.