Jensen and Jared are teens and Jared has moved around a lot because his dad is in the military. Jared's dad's leg is injured so the family moves to this really small town while he recovers and Jared meets Jensen there. Jensen's older brother died so Jensen's uncle moved in to help out the family. One day, Jensen is hurt and crying and Jared assumes it is Jensen's father who abuses him. However, at the end of the story, it's revealed that it was Jensen's uncle who was abusing him and it's implied that the uncle killed Jensen.

Thanks for any help!
18 June 2017 @ 10:10 pm
I am looking for any sad J2 stories that make you cry, but that have a happy ending. Although Jensen/Jared is preferred, Jensen/anyone else is great too.

Thanks for any recommendations!
04 June 2017 @ 11:45 pm
I read this AU Destiel fic a long time ago where Dean is depressed and sometimes it gets very bad. Sam is with Jess and they try to help him. Then he meets Cas and they get together. But Dean has an episode of extreme depression and ends up killing himself, thinking Cas would be better off not having to deal with him. I think he jumps out window in front of Cas? Cas then later also kills himself.

Yeah, very tragic ending. But if anyone can help me find it that would be great!
26 January 2017 @ 09:04 pm
I'm looking for some fics where Sam seriously hurts Dean. By this I mean physically, not mentally. The injury could be near death, or just really painful to Dean. Sam might do this by accident, like maybe he screws up on a hunt, or maybe he might want to hurt Dean in some way, but accidentally takes it too far, such as maybe Sam and Dean are in one of their fights, and Sam hits Dean too hard, or possibly he might do something really serious like stab or shoot Dean whilst in a really angry mood. Any of these would be amazing, or any other suggestions. I don't mind pre series fics, and I don't mind Castiel or other characters in it, as long as it is mainly based on Sam and Dean. No love or smut, especially no Cas/Dean or Dean/Sam pairing, all just Sam hurts Dean, and NO DEATH FICS! I know, I'm a horrible person, I just love these kind of fics. for a bonus, maybe Dean doesn't tell Sam how badly he is hurt, until he collapses or something, and Sam is guilty as hell. Thanks in advance! :)
10 November 2016 @ 05:03 am
I am looking for a story about Jared, who is getting abused by his husband. I think his family made him marry the man because of money. They basically sold Jared to this man. I'm not sure what the husbands name is. The husband is very controlling and abusive. Jared gets sent to a ranch while his husband is away on business or something like that. He is sent there to be watched because the husband is paranoid and doesn't trust Jared. He hires people to keep an eye out for Jared. Jared is an artist, he loves to draw, but he is always told by his husband that he is horrible and should stop wasting time on something that will never amount to anything. Jensen tells Jared that he's an amazing artist. The ranch turns out to be the best place for Jared because he gets more confidence in himself. And he is surrounded by people who care about him. He meets Jensen at the ranch either the first day or the second and later on they start a friendship,but it becomes an affair overtime.The friendship takes time because Jared is very timid and doesn't trust easily anymore. Chad shows up at the ranch with help from Jensen. Chad and Jared haven't seen each other in a long time because Chad and Jared are not allowed to hang out. Jared has been forbidden to see Chad, so they keep it a secret from Jared's husband as long as they can. The husband eventually finds out. At the very end of the story Jared shows up at his house to get stuff. He gets raped and ends up in a fight for his life. Jared either kills his husband or almost kills him, by bashing his head with a lamp or something like that. Jared ends up at the hospital. Jared and Jensen end up together in the end.
Here are some tidbits I remember from the story.
The husband parades Jared in front of his friends. The husband may share Jared I forget. The friends are also are mob related. There's evidence against the husband relating to his shady deals. The man had been grooming Jared for a long time and the minute he turned 18 he asked to marry Jared. The dad said yes and forced Jared to sign papers. Jared's mom is either a drug addict or an alcoholic so she is no help at all. During his stay at the ranch he is made to make multiple calls to his husband. He must tell his husband everything about his day. I think Jensenis the one to find Jared in the house after the attack and blames himself for Jared getting hurt. That's all I remember.

I hope that helps and I hope it wasn't to confusing.
15 July 2016 @ 11:23 pm
Hi! I'm looking for any fic where Dean is an angel and Sam is a demon, but they're still brothers that so close to the borderline of incest (though maybe not incest) like in canon. And plus, if there's reason on their species differences (like maybe Sam used to be an angel too but he got involved when Lucifer rebeled). Double plus, if Dean took advantage of the angels' plan about the Cage and Lucifer to free/meet Sam again. Triple plus if the fic can make me moved to tears. I prefer Gen, but if the story's slash I want it wincest or destiel with bottom!Dean only.
Hi, this is my first time posting so apologies for anything wrong. I've been lurking here for several years and found many good stories from other's requests. Now I'm looking for two stories I read quite a while ago.

The first is set in the future, after both Sam and Dean are dead. Dean's in heaven... I remember lots of white. He cant remember Sam but often goes to the walls where he sees a savage Sam outside. His memory of Sam gradually come back and the angels can't believe it when he rejects Heaven for his brother outside.

The second is a short story with Sam only. He's in a motel room. The supernatural is not real... it's just his imagination, the result of a tumour. I think he dies, but I'm not certain.

Both these stories are quite old. I would love any in the same genre too. Happy with any pairing, or gen.

15 April 2016 @ 09:01 pm

Hi all you wonderful fic reccers! This one is a bit hard to describe, but I'm aching for them so hopefully you'll get what I mean. I'm looking for any and all fics where one of the boys pushes the other until he breaks. Like there's that one moment where all the crap that the other has put them through comes to a head and you can actually feel them break. Where B1 just completely decimates B2, rips their heart out and stomps on it. Egs to show what I mean, hopefully you'll know them and get what I mean:

Waves, where Dean has a bunch of internalised homophobia and denies Cas continuously and the moment where Cas kisses Dean in front of his friends and Dean screams at him that he's a fa**ot.

And This Is Enough where Dean is cheating on his wife with Cas and they finally make love and that moment where Dean has to leave straight away and Cas' heart is smashed to pieces.

Getting Lucky, where Jared wants Jensen to experience sex with someone who cares and the moment when Jensen tells Jared to just shut up and f*ck him already.

Failure To Communicate, where Jensen has been doing a bunch of nasty stuff to force a divorce out of Jared and that moment where the last thing he does pushed Jared over the edge and he signs the papers.

I hope that kind of gets it across. The fics where you almost feel your heart breaks with them at the straw that broke the camel's back. All pairings are great, I'm good with non-con and dubcon, and even domestic violence from one boy to another, but happy endings only please! :-)

Thank you, I love each and every one of you (have I sucked up enough yet? Wait, I'll leave some kisses) xxx

24 September 2015 @ 06:33 pm
One of my favorite stories is the Freak Camp series by Brosedshield and LaviniaLavender. Anyone have any recommendations that are like this? Pretty much any hurt Sams stories that have really sad moments but a happy ending. No deathfic please! Thanks!!
Hi! I read these ages ago and can't for the life of me find them again.

1. For some reason, teen!Dean actually takes a couple of driving lessons instead of using a fake license. They show the kids pictures of burned-out cars (and dead bodies?) and Dean kind of breaks down. John finds him crying on the sidewalk, I think.

2. Dean is high on pain killers or cough medicine or something. Sam has to babysit, which is fun at first, but then Dean wanders off and Sam has to find him and bring him back to the motel room. He says something along the lines of "I thought you'd left." and Dean just kind of shrugs and goes "yeah, people leaving sucks, huh?". I'm almost sure this one is an old hoodietime fill.

3. This one I barely remember at all. I know it was set in S1/2 and ends with Dean crying/trying not to cry after revealing something I can't quite remember to Sam and then rejecting Sam's attempts to comfort him. Sam kind of remembers how when they were kids Dean would never accept any kind of help but was always there when Sam needed comforting, so he pretends to be very upset by what Dean just told him, so he will let him hug him. I'm fairly sure it was on Might have been one of the 'what if Sam and Dean had had Max's childhood?' fics, but I could be mixing something up there.

And while I'm at it, I know this is super vague, but I'd love any and all recs for sad Dean fics. Not the drowning-in-angst kind and not really depressed!Dean, just... sad fics. Fics that make you sad for Dean and his life, instead of Dean being sad, or even realizing how not-good everything is, if that makes sense. I'd prefer pre-series to S5, but I'm happy to give anything a try.
13 June 2015 @ 12:22 am
Hi! All I really remember is that Dean and Sam were on a case and in a small town bed and breakfast sort of place. The creature they were hunting was possessing Dean or getting into his dreams and he kept passing out. It became harder and harder for him to regain consciousness each time the spirit (?) Went into him. And I think there were amnesia aspects where he would think he was the ghost/spirit/whatever whenever he woke up. There was a scene where Dean said that he was afraid to go to sleep because he didn't know if he was going to remember who he was when he wakes up.

Please help!
10 May 2015 @ 12:17 pm
I'm looking for a emotional hurt/comfort fic with holding or cuddling. Preferably, I would like there to be some tears. I'm open to romance or not romance, but I just really want one holding the other and for it to be sad. If it were Castiel being held, that would be awesome, but Dean's good too. I'd prefer for Sam and anyone else to not be a part of their cuddling.
So I just read In the Deafening Silence yet another time and I was crying again at the end of the story. I just love this fic so much and I really, really want to read more like that!

So my request is, is there any Dean!centric tearjerker fic like this? Be it for any specific reason (Dean being abandoned, depressed, badly hurt, even dead), as long as it's tearjerking because of Dean, not anyother person.

Long fics are always nice, and it'll be super nice if they're set in the first two seasons or are pre-series ones.

Preferablly Gen, but slash fics with a bottom!Dean would do, too.

26 April 2015 @ 11:34 pm
I'm looking for a specific series I read just a little bit ago, but can't find. I believe it was called something like the "Summer Days" verse. The first fic was about Jared staying in a hotel. He goes out to the motel pool and Jensen is there too. Jensen can't swim, so Jared teaches him. They like each other, and eventually make out. Jensen confides that he does porn with older men, and has been doing it since he was about twelve. He has some missing teeth and pockmarks all up his arm from heroin.

All of the next installments are of many years later. Jared has been looking for Jensen for a long time, and became a lawyer or something to help people like Jensen. His PIs have finally found Jensen, who is working as a prostitute in a terrible area and is known as "White Boy" because he never takes off the white velvet jacket that Jared gave him when they first met. Jensen is really bad off, but Jared takes him away to the hospital, then back home to live with him. Jensen is very sick and has AIDS, and the doctors only give him six months to live. Jensen spends the rest of it with Jared. It's a sad ending.

Please help!

14 March 2015 @ 12:49 pm
They can be death fics, unrequited love, not a happy ending, etc. I just want some heart breaking fics.

Any pairing is fine, but J2 and wincest preferred!
I hope someone can help me find this story. It has been a while since I've read it and I'm a bit hazy on the details. I think it was a WIP and not finished at the time I read it. Sam and Dean were at a bar and had been drinking. When they came out they were kidnapped and taken to a lab. The scientist was doing some type of experimentation and had wanted 2 young men to perform the experiments on. He did not realize that the boys were brothers at the time. This is where it get sort of hazy for me, so bear with me....somehow the scientist planted a womb inside Sam and used Dean's sperm to create a baby. This is basically a mpreg story. I can remember Dean falling to his knees and crying about the pain that Sam had to endure while the scientist experimented on him. I remember Bobby somehow finding them and being torn up about what had happened to the boys.

Any help would be appreciated.

FOUND....thank you very much, Vinylreckoning
04 March 2015 @ 07:44 pm
I just remembered, I am also looking for another hurt!Sam fic.

Sam doesn't want to be Lucifer's vessel so he finds a way to lock him out by carving sigils on himself and burning himself with Holy Oil. I know Dean was in it,and Cas too. Cas tried to heal him but coudn't.

Thanks again for your help!

19 November 2014 @ 11:14 am
Hey guys just feel like reading sad but happy ending fics. So, can you hit me with stories where Jensen or Dean gets cheated on but finally at the end he is happy. If it is Dean please no wincest, if they are unrelated Sam can be the cheater. Thank you guys so much. xoxo

P.S. I rather Jensen end up with Jared
This was definitely on Archive of our Own. Basically, Sam is suicidal, but can't flat out kill himself (duty to his family, maybe?), and instead, while going around checking the salt lines, etc., he prays to god, or a deity or an angel or someone to have a monster come and kill him. Dean overhears him praying, and they get all emotional and comforty and stuff.
Thank you!
10 November 2014 @ 12:15 am
Hey guys! I love this site and how you're so eager to help.

Anyway, I'm about to go crazy since my laptop with all my favorites, broke down and now I can't find one fic I started reading, I've looked through the tags in here a long time before finally admitting to myself that no, nobody searched this before me. Preatty Please, could y'all help a guy out?

Anyway, so here I go, trying to explain it;

1. It's Dean's POV and he has some big issues with Sam and we get to see Sam, like in the bathtub, saying stuff like: "Dad will find out." and "He'll know." Later on, at the end of the story, it's understood that Dean did molest Sam and John knew it, or found out somehow after Sam left for Stanford, saying to Dean he failed Sammy.

Does that ring any bells? Please, I'm going crazy over here!

And for the General search, I really want slow build-up wincest stories and actual kissing, a lot, before the first time between our boys.

Can anyone help me out finding the first one? I'll give you my soul for it! Thanks beforehand! Ps. Only bottom!Sam, please. But if they switch, it can be Dean bottoming too, but mostly Sam. ;)
15 September 2014 @ 05:40 pm
I've totally forgotten the name of one of my favorite stories, where Jared is an actor and proposes to Genevieve, but he married Jensen when he was a teenager and they've been married ever since. They broke up (i forget why?) but Jensen refuses to sign the divorce papers even though Jared keeps sending him. Eventually Jared returns to Texas face to face to get Jensen to sign because he really wants to marry Genevieve. They also adopted a child once but she died of an illness, i think? Anyway, it's super angsty and i really miss it. Does anyone know what I'm talking about?
10 September 2014 @ 04:53 pm
Hey everyone, I'm feeling sick and miserable so let's add some seriously emotional death fics to that. Because we can.

I'm looking for stories where Dean dies alone. It can be on a hunt, an overdose, a car wreck. During Stanford Era when John had sent Dean off on his own to hunt, or any time when Dean and Sam had separated later. Sam, John, Castiel, or Bobby can find out later or find his body, but I want Dean dying alone. Any pairing or gen is fine.

Bonus points:

• Dean makes some last dying calls like in Sharlot's Jai Guru Deva Om [] and nobody picks up the phone or they hold on and hear his last words.

• John goes to Sam at Stanford for help finding a missing Dean.

• Dean's body is Incorruptible, like Catholic Saints. So when Sam/John/Bobby/Castiel finds Dean's corpse it is pristine and untouched by age, decomp, or animals.

• Aftermath of finding out, sadness, angst, and guilt.

03 July 2014 @ 01:22 pm
1. Dean/OMC. I don't know why but I suddenly have a craving. The parameters I have for this are; Sam knows (or finds out), canon setting, not pre-series/Stanford and no non-con. Just Dean/OMC, no wincest, but if it ends in destiel instead that's okay. I'm dying to read Dean/OMC set in a later season.

2. Sam finds out Dean was a hooker during his youth in order to put food on the table/pay for things for Sam. Major Sam guilt please, as much as possible. Bonus points if Dean views it as just one more thing he had to do, and Sam is horrified at Dean's lack of self esteem.

3. Any other guilty Sam fics, any pairing, any subject, but please warn for non-con and other triggers. Bonus points if there's any fics out there about Sam teasing Dean about his eating habits, until Dean admits he eats so much because he starved as a child making sure Sam could eat. The more of a jerk Sam is, the better - as long as Dean stands up for himself and makes Sam work for his forgiveness. I hate stories where Dean just rolls over and takes the abuse in an OOC manner, and then forgives him like it was no big deal.

Please no: Death fics or permanent changes (deafness, boys not brothers etc)

Thanks in advance!
27 June 2014 @ 05:16 pm
So I kinda just had my heart broken and would like to console myself by drowning in J2 fanfic. Any really good unrequited/just friends J2 angst fics y'all would like to recommend would be highly appreciated. Thanks - I just need a really good cry right now ;-;
Hey guys, I'm looking for a story that will make me cry my eyes out, but with a really good, long, plot. I want it to be filled with everything that makes a great story. I want to not be able to stand how much angst is in it, I want to feel an ache in my chest, and tears in my eyes! Please, give me all you've got! Nothing grosses or freaks me out. I'm up for anything, just please, help me! (Don't forget that I want to cry!)

P.S. I'll try to tag with all the things I'd love to see
22 May 2014 @ 10:41 am
So, having watched and rewatched the finale, I am standing on the edge, looking down at the chasm that is the summer Hellatus. There was a lot I liked about the finale and some things I didn't, mostly I wanted more of what I liked. My emotions got ramped up but I didn't quite get the cathartic sobbing I was hoping for (mostly due to editing/cutting to other scenes). So I turn to you, my fellow fanatics, in search of the perfect story that leaves you the best kind of emotional wreck, has you pause your reading because you can't see through the tears. Gen and Wincest are both fine (no Destiel please). What is the story that you still tear up about just thinking about please?
20 March 2014 @ 10:25 pm
1. Any fics with either Jensen and Jared breaking up or Sam and Dean? I want them to cause me to cry my soul out. I want a happy ending, but I guess I can live without one.

2. A fic where one of the boys (Jared, Jensen, Sam, or Dean) is a girl but they act like a guy. Like, they hang out with the guys, maybe has a short hair cut?? I don't know...

3. I was reading this really good j2 high school au fic, where Jared moves in with Danneel, Misha, Chris, and Jensen, and Jensen has dissociative identity disorder and his alters were named Bo, J, Jack, and more... If you could help me?
1. I'm looking for a specific J2 fic w/ Jared and Jensen in an established relationship and Jared's going into the army-not necessarily because he wants to, I think he promised his dad that he would or something. He offers to stay if Jensen asks him but Jensen knows the army is important to Jared so he doesn't. I think it might've been a WIP that left off with Jared leaving for the army when Jen was still asleep. I was wondering if it sounded familiar to anyone.

2. I'm looking for any angsty J2 fics that maybe have the boys fighting or breaking up and then getting back together or some other kind of happy ending.

3. I'm looking for something where one thinks the other is cheating but it isn't true. Or any fics where they are cheating but please have it be Jared cheating and let me know if they are actually cheating because stories like that make me sad and I need to be in a certain mood to read them.

4. Any stories where one of the boys is an addict or suffers from substance abuse.

5. Any stories with mpreg Jensen. I recently read An Unexpected Love and now I really want some of these.

6. Last but not lease any tearjerkers but with happy ending (and please let me know if cheating is involved).

Or you can recommend any J2 fics you think are worth reading but please warn for infidelity or deathfics.

Any and all help is appreciated, thank you!!!!!
10 December 2013 @ 10:35 pm
Okay can I please have some help? There was this fic that I read a while back and it was J2 and it was about Jared and Jensen having a secret “casual” sexual relationship (That’s what Jensen called it; Jared was in love) but one day Jensen said that they had to call it off because he was getting married to Danneel, and Jared let him go. Two years later Jensen was back in town directing something and Jared found out when he was being interviewed on TV and Chad was his agent and Jared hadn't gotten over Jensen but wanted to see him and the story was based of the “Someone Like You” song by Adele, and can someone find me the link? Or give me a PDF version? The link that I have is broken and I don’t know if the author removed it, because I scoured Google for it and couldn't find it. I don’t know the title and I don’t know the author but can someone please help me?

Status: Found
08 December 2013 @ 10:42 pm

I hope I've tagged this right.

As best as I remember: The story I'm looking for is an au J2 in which they are at or very close to 18 years old and the world is vaguely werewolf-ish, as in there are mates and alphas and betas (I think - It's been a long time!). Jared is looking forward to going to school at Stanford. There is a party at which Jensen is supposed to give him a gift to mark their engagement, which Jared must accept to show he accepts Jensen's courtship. Jensen gives the gift to Jared and he sets it aside, which crushes Jensen and scandalizes those present. Jared does this because he wants to go to school and he thinks being mated to Jensen will ruin any chance at a career as he will have to obey his mate. I think Jared keeps the box, but doesn't open it. At the end, he and Jensen have a heart-to-heart and Jared opens the box, revealing that inside is Jensen's Stanford ID - he knew Jared wanted a career and was going to go with him, but Jared didn't give him a chance. It's a real tearjerker, but there is a hopeful ending.

Thank you!
14 November 2013 @ 09:54 pm
Hi, again. I'm kinda in the mood to cry my eyes out so rec my your favorite tearjerkers, and I mean absolutely heartshattering, ugly-sobbing, making me want to shoot up and die sad stories.

But I'm picky, so
-No Destiel or Cockles
-Only J2 or Wincest
-I'd prefer Bottom!Sam or Bottom!Jared but otherwise is also fine
-Gen is also okay with me
-Story length doesn't really bother me but I would prefer some longer ones

So go crazy.

Thank you so much!!!
I'm looking for two types of fics, please:  1. Fics where Sam goes to join the military. Something like beckal00by's Marine!Verse.  2. Any type of fic which explains why Sam didn't look for Dean. Could be because of cancer, disease, coma, or something else (maybe not health related, but something that prevents Sam from searching for Dean like he WANTS to do). I just want some Poor!Sam! Only wincest or gen, please. Thanks so much!!!

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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I've been looking for awhile but there's a fic that goes along with the song Can't Help Falling in Love with you by Elvis.

It's not, however, Twist and Shout. I think.

I remember some of the plot:
Cas first hears the song in a mall (I think) and eventually Dean buys him the tape (or maybe it was a CD). Cas begins to listen to the song all the time and tries to get Dean to sing it along with him but Dean refuses. At the end of the fic Cas is dying and Dean sings this with him as he dies in his arms.

I'm pretty sure it was a one-shot and it's definitely Destiel. I wanna say at some point it's set during Christmas.

Found thanks to the author,[ profile] arawol:
The two fics I'm looking for are hurt!Sam(obviously) and I hope someone can help me ifnd them quickly.  I've been looking for them for a long time and if you help me I will love you forever.

1) I don't remember what season it was in but I think it was season 2.  Anyway Sam was kidnapped by a monster(don't remember what) and he was tied up in a basement that had a bad leek and it was storming.  When Dean and Bobby find him the water is high eough that he almost drowns and that is pretty much all I remember.  Oh and it also contained awesome!Dean and Bobby with hurt!and-possibly-sick!Sam

2) Set in either season 1 or 2.  Sam fell down a mine shaft on a hunt(I'm thinking it was for a wendigo) and ended up with a concussion.  It took Dean a long time to find him and Sam was out of it and possibly sick.  I honestly don't remember much more so I hope someone can help.

3) Sam got hit by a car and was left on the side of the road.  Dean found him and he knew Sam was dying so he stayed with him and cuddled right there on the side of the road.  After Sam dies he comes back (temporarily) as a ghost to talk to Dean before he moves on.

Sorry if any of these are really vague but I haven't read any of them for a while.

Oh and please recommend any hurt/sick!Sam from either season 1 or 2!
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03 July 2013 @ 02:53 pm

I think this could be considered an AU request. I was wondering if anyone out there knows of any stories that have Sam trying to commit suicide when he finds out he is Lucifer's Vessel.

The twist I was looking for on this story is that I would like to read stories were he does this in font of Dean? Like Dean sees Sam repeatedly try to kill himself so he won't let Dean down or become the Devil's vessel?

Any other stories that have Dean dealing with the fact that he knows Sam tried many, many times to kill himself or is trying to because Dean did not want to be with him anymore?

Thank you in advance for any help you can provide.
27 June 2013 @ 04:40 pm
I read this fic somewhere a very long time ago and have been searching for it off and on for some time now, without much success. For the life of me, I can't seem to remember the name of the fic or the author.

All I remember is that it was (most probably) set post season 5, when Sam was still in Hell. Dean wasn't dealing very well with his brother's death. He kept having dreams about Cas drowning and/or dying in a river of some sort, but after what happened to Sam, he just couldn't bring himself to care. Later, Sam returns to Dean with a bleeding Castiel in his arms. It is discovered that and Angel's blood has the power to open the gates of hell and free soul trapped there. Hence, Cas had sacrificed himself to rescue Sam from Hell.

Cas finally dies, leaving Dean broken-hearted. However, Gabriel shows up at the end and tells Dean that moments before his death, Cas tore out his grace and became human. Thus, his soul is now in Heaven and waiting for Dean. He also says that Cas wants Dean to live a full and happy life before his death.

This is all I can remember, unfortunately. So if any of you wonderful SPN-ians know this fic and where to find it, please let me know.

Any other fics with this kind of theme are also very welcome.

Thanks in advance! :)
12 May 2013 @ 06:28 pm
Since it's Mother's Day, are there any fics where Sam is REALLY missing not having a mother?  Maybe fics where Dean and/or John realizes how much Sam has suffered by not remembering Mary?

Also are there any stories where Dean and/or John get really mad at Sam for asking about Mary and they refuse to talk to him about her?

I'm looking for Sam angst, h/c, any kind of abuse is fine but please no wincest or slash.  Thank~you!!!  
05 May 2013 @ 01:02 am

Specific Request:
I read this fic a while ago, and I can't for the life of me find it. I'm a little unsure on some of the details, so I apologize if this is disjointed! It was something like: Sam was sent to another universe where he died in the nursery with Mary, but I think John lived. The Dean of this world is super lonely and depressed, blaming himself for his brothers death, or something. Sam tries to get to know him by saying he's his cousin, and they go out a couple of times. Dean eventually catches on, and is hurt. I believe Missouri is in this fic. In the very end AU!Dean dies. I think Sam goes back to his universe after? I don't remember if non-AU!Dean is alive.

General Request:
I just want the most heartbreaking Dean!Fics out there. I don't care what happens, I just want to cry my eyes out. I don't mind slash. Smut isn't necessary at all, but if there is some I prefer bottom!Dean, please.

Thank you!
Hi y'all !

I'm looking for some really really really saddening J2 fics!
I prefer long ones, but the length doesn't actually matter.
I'm fine with self harm or attempted suicide tics, but I'd rather not have death fics.
The ending does not have to be happy.

(Rating doesn't matter)

Thanks in advance ! xxx
12 February 2013 @ 01:01 pm
I would really like to read a story where Castiel dies/is sent back to heaven or any other place from where he cannot return, but Dean stays loyal to him and refuses to have sex with anyone else while he's gone, even though he knows that Cas will probably never come back. Whether or not Cas actually returns to Dean at the end is irrelevant.  I just want to see Dean stay loyal to Cas even though he doesn't expect to see him ever again. Also, I don't want stories where Dean is physically incapable of having sex with anyone else, just those where he voluntarily chooses not to.

Thanks for your help in advance! :)

Ok, this was Dean had cancer and so they hole up for a bit and he gets chemo and mostly what I remember is the whole thing was just kind of matter-of-fact toned. Dean doesn't lose his hair and it mentions that except for check-ups having cancer isn't ever really brought up or mentioned again in their life. I remember Sam and Dean but I can't remember if there was John, so I'm assuming it was early S1. I read it on an LJ.

-----> Found: Silver Earrings by wave_obscura

Cas falls (from heaven) and then his body falls apart because angels weren't meant to live in human bodies (or some reason like that.) He gets sick and the fic ends with him dying. At one point Dean asks why only Sam & Bobby (they are staying at Bobby's) can help him shower,etc and Cas says it's because he doesn't want Dean to see him like this. I think near the end he goes for a drive with Cas (even though Cas is too weak for it at this point) and they (finally?) kiss. Cas says at one point he doesn't regret falling. They may have shared a bed. Dean POV, I believe.

-----> Found: full of sparks by glassyskies

Thank you!!! I know, neither really have that much to go on, but anything that rings a distance bell.
14 January 2013 @ 10:18 am
I have made a similar request before but I was so thrilled with the results that I wanted to try it again :)

I am looking for tearjerkers with with happy/hopeful endings. Please no death!fics! I'm not up for that kind of pain! (And I'm at my work desk, I need to be able to keep up my poker face!)

But other than that, I'm good with nearly anything. Some specifics to maybe narrow things down a bit:
  1. Multi-chapters are strongly preferred
  2. I love AUs (though not necessary)
  3. I love the brotherly relationship
  4. My favorite era is pre-series to pre-season 3 but again, this is a very broad search so I won't say no to anything that is post-season 2.
  5. And if John is featured in it heavily, I prefer that he be portrayed as either neglectful or an a-hole (not that I don't love John or anything, it's only that I prefer a focus on the brothers' co-dependency without having a third party to rely on.)
  6. Hurt!Dean, hurt!Sam, doesn't matter- it's all good :)
  7. And last, please no slash :)

Thank you so much for any help!
27 December 2012 @ 09:16 am
I'm a liiiiittle bit taken at the moment with Jeff Buckley's cover of 'Hallelujah', so I was just wondering if there are any Dean/Cas fics out there based on its lyrics? Like, not fics with titles taken from the song but stories that actually have their narrative derived from the verses, ie. Dean and Cas (and maybe Sammy) settle down into domesticity, Dean cuts Cas' hair after he turns human, some tears are jerked ... :D

I'm really not fussy & deathfics are more than fine.

Also, are there any great Dean/Cas fics that have the boys taking on a case? Dean and Cas can be in a pre-existing relationship or the story can have them coming together - I don't mind. Even pre-slash works; UST is welcome. I'm really just looking for any story that has Team Free Will hunting down monster(s) with Dean/Cas sliding along for the ride. I'm fine with the monster hunting being necessary to avert the apocalypse or whatever came after. I would give examples of what I'm looking for but alas I've found naught of such. I suppose the closest things I have read are the occasional case-episodes in the Redemption Road epic and the beginning of Contrapasso by [ profile] takadainmate.

Any length of fic is great. Thanks!
Jensen works in a Christmas Decorations Store (yes that is all they sell, year round). Jared is mentally challenged/autistic, and physically abused by his mother. He comes into the shop to see the pretty baubles. Jensen hears the abuse/sees him thrown down the stairs. Jared ends up in the hospital; Jensen takes him home with him. Jensen builds a 'Winter Wonderland' in his back yard; to help Jared have a happy Christmas.

ETA: Fic Found. PDF Available in 'Deleted Journals' List. It's The Christmas Wish By PignAPoke
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25 November 2012 @ 05:33 am
I'm looking for any sad, angsty wee/teen Dean fics that leave you all teary eyed.

Thank you.
11 November 2012 @ 01:28 pm
Hi everyone!

I'm looking for a bunch of different things:

1. In general, any depression/self harm/suicide fics. I've read a TON of them and I'm having a hard time finding ones I haven't read.

2. Going in to specifics, I would love to read some depressed/self harm/suicide fictions about Castiel. To give you an example of what I'm looking for, misslucyjane's, Looking in the Wrong World, is a great story I really enjoyed.

3.Hurt!Gabriel would be nice, I can't seem to find many.

4. Bring on the dark!fic's and tearjerkers too.

I don't care if any of them are gen, slash, etc. and I don't care what paring (if there is one). I'm okay with NC-17 and self recs as well. Also, I would prefer fics that have over 5k words, but sometimes less is more (aka, feel free to suggest short ones anyway).

Thanks (: