28 June 2017 @ 05:48 am
Hi. I'm looking for a J2 fic I read a while back that I only remember vague details about? Jared as terrified because he went through a growth spurt while Jensen was deployed and he thinks that Jensen only liked him for his twinky body from before? And then Jensen comes back and Jared freaks out and knocks him out. I don't know if the fic was deleted or I'm just hallucinating it but I really want to read it again. I'm also pretty sure it had Jared wearing lingerie.
04 May 2017 @ 04:25 pm
I'm looking for a specific story of Dean/Sam that focuses on Dean talking dirty to Sam and using feminine language. Details below
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Thank you for your help!
Edit: I Got The Month of May by saltandbyrne
27 February 2017 @ 09:09 pm
Hey guys, it's been a while. I'm back with two specific requests, one that I searched for before but never found.

1) crossdressing - Sam and Dean make a bet about something, Sam loses and has to wear a pair of panties, Dean laughs at him and teases him, Sam says something about Dean thinking he's disgusting and gets really upset because he likes wearing the panties. (wincest)

2) suicidal!sam - After Sam finds out he's Lucifer's vessel, he tries to kill himself. Lucifer brings him back but Sam eventually starts committing suicide just to get some rest. This works for a while but eventually the damages start carrying over after he's brought back. (ex. he shoots himself in the head, he's resurrected with a hole in his head; cutting his wrists leaves scars, etc.) (gen, i think)

Thanks for any help!
05 March 2016 @ 07:15 pm
I'm looking for any fics that have J2 as a drag queen. I know I love longer fics, so they are appreciated. I remember an oldie, but goodie that was called Glitter or something. Anything would be appreciated.

01 March 2016 @ 06:53 pm

I'm looking for a story I read some years ago. It involved Sam identifying as a female and keeping it a secret from Dean and John. He stole clothes from a female classmate to wear. And eventaully Dean found out and gave Sam some money to buy some female clothes at a thrift store.

Anyone know this story and can provide a link?

thank ya

*Mods, I wasnt sure how to tag because there isn't a Transgender tag, (can we get one?) so I did the best I could.
hey guys~
im looking for any fics (sam/dean or j2) where jensen/dean crossdresses, whether its wearing panties and bras, wearing makeup, wearing a skirt, or any combination of that. i would prefer that its just something they do, and not that they are professional drag queens or anything. i kind of have a picture in my head of jensen just as his normal self, just wearing a skirt or something like that. but anything really that has to do with this topic. bottom jensen/dean only please.
also, any fics where jensen/dean is transgendered, or a hermaphrodite.
i guess im looking for fics where jensen is just a little bit more feminine than jared, but not just flamboyantly gay, just more feminine.
thanks guys!

oh and also, i dont want this to be necessarily sexual, though they can have sex, i just dont want this to necessarily be a kink only kind of thing. thanks!
13 April 2015 @ 02:01 am
So I just finished watch 30 rock and one of the girls' character has a boyfriend who crossdresses. I was wondering if there's any fics where the crossdresser tops the other? Im not sure if you get my meaning but top!Crossdresser
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08 February 2015 @ 10:17 pm
cut for content )

Thanks in advance
self recs encouraged!

EDIT: I got such an amazing response, thank you all so much!
29 January 2015 @ 04:30 pm
I really enjoy stories that explore Dean's feminine side. We know from the show that he sometimes indulges in secret pleasures, such as pop ballads (I'm All Out Of Love), medical dramas (Dr. Sexy, M.D.), and wearing pink panties. We also know that a lot of what Dean shows the world is what he picked up copying John, and that, as his dream-self put it so eloquently, "His music? That's dad's. His car? That's dad's. Favorite leather jacket? Dad's. Does he even have an original thought?" Plus, monsters and humans alike really seem to enjoy pointing out Dean's prettiness and delicate features.

I'm looking for fics that delve into the side of Dean that he locks up inside himself and doesn't like to show people for fear of being seen as a lesser man and hunter. I'd love anything on this topic, whether these thoughts remain private, if Dean decides to share his secret with a few close friends (Sam, Castiel, Charlie), or he decides to fuck gender stereotypes and put cute kitty key-chains on his key ring or dress in drag.

Specific things I'd absolutely adore:

Dean wearing panties underneath his jeans.
Dean being really insecure about admiring delicate feminine things such as ballerinas.
Sam jokingly criticizing Dean's like of something, or off-handedly making an ephemiphobic/homophobic remark and accidentally hurting Dean's feelings.
Dean struggling with the fear that wanting to dress up femininely/like a woman makes him not a man/less of a man/gay.

I'm not looking for kink or smut! I'm looking for character analysis, sensitivity, and compelling inner/outer dialogue.
I'm also not looking for Dean to be gay or bisexual! While either is perfect and appreciated, I'd actually be even MORE grateful to find a fic where Dean has feminine tendencies but is heterosexual!

I'd also prefer no Wincest, I like the brotherly relationship. However, a well-written Wincest fic would not be ignored.

An example of what I'm looking for:
15 October 2014 @ 10:27 pm
Read this a while back and now it seems the author has her page on lock down. I was wondering if anyone had a file of the fic tucked away or could help me find an extra link.

The fic's title is 'You Make Me Feel Like a Natural Woman'. It's a wincest, bottom!dean. Basic summary, Sam never knew Dean liked to wear panties and finds out. Smut ensues. If I remember correctly, it could be considered a d/s fic as well. It's by annebeth. Here's the link to the locked down fic http://annabeth.livejournal.com/190221.html

If anyone could help me out, I'd really appreciate it! Thanks!
22 September 2014 @ 01:37 am
I've found two 'verses that feature androgynous!Sam (Silk!verse and Anasyromenos!verse), and both are super-hot. I would absolutely kill for the opportunity to read more. Do you all have any recommendations?

Cross-dressing Sam fics are welcome, as are any that depict Sam as being a little otherworldy (Supernatural Born Killers comes to mind). Thanks in advance, all.
Hello! I’m looking for this fic “Pink Satin Panties Saga” by Ciaran. The first time I read it, was a translation. The translator does not have the original version anymore, but she said it was in Ciaran’s LJ.

I think the original summary was something like this: “Rhonda Hurley did Dean Winchester use her pink satin panties. And it seems that Sam liked.”

The fic is a Weecest but started with Dean and Rhonda Hurley trying to have sex, where she suggests he dressed her pink panties. Dean keep wearing the pink satin panties the whole time and then Sam gets turned on and give him a blowjob in the Impala.

The translation is here: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5443103/1/Pink-Satin-Panties-Saga

But I really want to read the original. Can someone help me?


Found: http://andreth47.livejournal.com/33899.html
26 June 2014 @ 06:07 am

This is driving me crazy! I read this Sam/Dean fic within the last six months. The boys are in the bunker and Dean finds an old box of women's clothes that he puts on. He misjudges Sam's reaction and spends a lot of time feeling bad about himself. I think he may have gone to a shop and gotten a better fitting dress to wear while cooking for Sam.

Anyone? Thanks!
27 May 2014 @ 09:35 pm
I'm here from again from thej2library. We get multiple requests looking for certain fics and I just don't recognize these. If someone can help me out, I'd really appreciate it.

1. fic where J2 have been sleeping with each other and Jared knows that Jensen is in love with him but chooses not to do anything about it. Jared spots Jensen moving on with another actor on set, they've just exchanged handjobs or blowjobs in Jensen's trailer and Jared comes over furious and ends up taking Jensen outside his trailer.

2. There's one I read while back and it's a mpreg!Jared one, and Jensen's in love with his chest and Jared's really self concious about the size of it, and Jensen asks him to wear this sort of bra and he doesn't like it. I can't for the life of me remember though. Any ideas? I think it was on AO3.

3. There's one fic i read a while back and I think it was omega!jensen and his pups were jared and misha and he was like learning to feed them or something? and I think it was set in the bedroom cause they'd come in and woken him up? I think jared and misha were quite young too?
Hi, I'm here from thej2library. We get multiple requests looking for certain fics and I just don't recognize any of these. If someone can help me out, I'd really appreciate it.

1. There's one I read while back and it's a mpreg!Jared one, and Jensen's in love with his chest and Jared's really self concious about the size of it, and Jensen asks him to wear this sort of bra and he doesn't like it. I can't for the life of me remember though. Any ideas? I think it was on AO3.

2. I'm looking for a J2 that I read on AO3 where both Jared and Jensen have /slight/ mental disabilities and Jared's dad is an ass who runs some apartments, Jensen moved in out of his parents house because he wanted to try life on his own. They meet, get together and go back to Jen's parents to get away from Jay's dad who tracks them down and tries to burn down Jen's parents house and Jay works in a pet store. -- FOUND

3. There's one fic i read a while back and I think it was omega!jensen and his pups were jared and misha and he was like learning to feed them or something? and I think it was set in the bedroom cause they'd come in and woken him up? I think jared and misha were quite young too?

4. I am looking for a story where Jensen gets turned into a werewolf by a rare alpha wolf and scared finds and talks to the head of mythology at the local university. Jensen is alone because of family problems or deaths anyway the professor (?) gives him a phone number for Jared who is a member of a pack that has it's own town. Jensen is being stalked by the wolf that changed him. I hope that is enough info! -- FOUND
10 April 2014 @ 09:57 pm
All I remember is that Sam crossdresses for Dean (I'm pretty sure he goes all out, waxing or shaving and tucking) and sings(?) for Dean in a bar. It's not weecest.
16 February 2014 @ 09:08 pm
Er... I don't know if it would technically be a crossover, but I was wondering if there are any Destiel fics based off of the show/manga Princess Jellyfish, specifically where Dean is the transvestite character?
13 January 2014 @ 06:44 pm
Hey guys!

This time I'm looking for any androgynous Sam fics anybody might have laying around:)
I'd prefer if it's biologically-a-dude Sam with feminine tendencies, but I'll take always-a-girl Sam with masculine tendencies too:)

I've already read the Anasyromenos!Verse and the This Isn't A Movie!Verse, so yeah...

I'll take any pairing as long as it involves Sam in some way, and any length or genre, AU or non, just whatever Andro!Sam fics you got:)
12 December 2013 @ 02:30 am
Hey guys--

I read a short fic awhile ago and for the life of me I cannot find it again- I can't remember the author, title, or where I read it.

Basically, Sam and Dean are in the Impala and Dean brings up Sam's cross-dressing kink. Dean gives Sam money to buy some women's clothing, and when Dean comes back to the house they're staying at Sam is in a jean skirt and tank top, cooking dinner for Dean. They have sex, and Dean calls Sam his "wife".

That's about all I remember. If anyone can direct me to this fic, I would appreciate it!
I've been looking for these for several days, and it was fun because I found a bunch of other great fic that I'd lost, forgotten or never read. But I'm giving up now because I don't think I'm going to find them. My google-fu has actually been pretty good lately, I've found several things (for myself and my girls) by playing with search strings, so I'm a little disappointed I can't find these. However (there's always a however) I know the good people here will help. Seriously, this is the best story-finding com in fandom.

So, first - and I know I had this! - Dean's well endowed, so guys always want him to top or want to suck him, and he can't bring himself to ask for what he really wants, which is to bottom. But Cas knows and shows up and convinces him that it's okay to let himself have what he wants. Hot sex, some cuddling, all good. I need this one back in my folder.

Found: in comments.

Second - Child Services gets Dean and Sam, they get split up, John finds and retrieves Dean but they don't find Sam. Then one night adult Sam walks into a gay bar and is instantly taken by a green-eyed beauty in a micro-mini and a Metallica tee; they have a great night together and the next day or so realize who they are. They hit the road together and eventually decide to be a couple. And John doesn't know about the crossdressing. And Dean has a toned-down version that Sam recognizes as 'work drag', or something along those lines.

Found: in comments.

And Third - this one's a little fuzzier and I'm not sure I've got the details right. I'm going to put it under a cut because it might be triggery.

possible trigger )

Found in comments!

So, that's it. It took me about ten years, I think, to save all the stories and bookmarks I had before my computer crashed, and I'm thinking it may take me that long to find them all again. Or even remember them :-)

Thank you!
I read a 'Sorority Boys' remake in which Jared dated Jensen, thinking he was a girl. It had a happy ending.
It was on this journal--> http://dollydolittle.livejournal.com/
The author deleted all the stories. Anybody got a copy they could mail me?
My email id is 81094aj@gmail.com.

Other than that, any similar fics you guys could recommend? Wincest works too.
I prefer bottom!Jensen. Thanks!
15 September 2013 @ 12:54 am

I'm looking for a specific J2 fic that I read at least two or three years ago, so definitely an older one. Hope anyone remembers it...

It's basically a pwp, (as far as I remember with some kind of nebulous historical setting) where rich/noble Jared was supposed to marry Jensen's sister, whom he'd possibly never met. To spare his sister, who wasn't a fan of the idea, Jensen dresses up as a girl and goes in her stead. Yeah, I know... pwp, people.
Anyway, Jensen wears a veil or whatever and Jared never notices the sham until it's time for the wedding night. Jensen expects to be thrown out at that point, but Jared just goes through with the wedding night he's "owed".

So there's definitely a big dub-con element in this, as well as power imbalance.

Thanks in advance if anyone still knows this one!
Hey everyone!

I'm fairly new to the fandom, and while I have had some success finding what I am looking for, more help would be appreciated.

As you can see from my tags, I am looking for WINCEST only. I prefer Sam to be at least 18- the youngest I will read is 16 (not a weecest fan).

I have had success with crossdressing!sam fics, so I am more looking for fem!sam and girl!sam fics, where Sam is still male but dresses as a girl all the time or most of the time. More importantly, he ACTS like a girl and accepts that identity. Dean should be very masculine, even hyper-masculine. Fics where Dean calls Sam "his girl", "baby girl" etc. highly encouraged. PWPs accepted gratefully, but also looking for regular fics as well. Art also encouraged!

Thanks for any suggestions!
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Hi all,

I'm hoping you can help me find a specific set of fics and art-- it's so good, and I can't believe I didn't bookmark it better!!

Sam has identified as feminine since very young-- and as he grows up through puberty and adulthood.  Dean knows and is supportive from the beginning, (not so much John).  There was some gorgeous art that went along with it that I think may have been by a different artist than the author.  The art of young Sam depicted him(her) with short straight hair and clothing ala Mathilda in the Professional, and another drawing had teen/young adult Sam with a short ponytail and a sweater off the shoulder.

Please oh please I hope someone knows who the authors/artists were for this-- it is very sweet and so well done, and I know I'm going to feel so dumb for forgetting who did this gorgeous work.  Please help!!  And thank you!!!


PS mods:  There is gender-identified female dressing so that's not really (maybe?) a crossdressing kink but I wasn't sure what other tags might better apply-- I didn't see one better related to gender identity issues so please add/correct as needed.

Also, because it starts when Sam is very young, and because Sam has issues/problems and Dean is supportive, I also added Wee!chesters and H/C tags because I think they loosely apply-- please edit or advise me if I need to if you don't think these are appropriate.  Thank you!!

Found!! with a helpful hint from [livejournal.com profile] gooferdusty and another lead (and link!) from [livejournal.com profile] morgana_st, thanks ever so much!!  And yes, it is indeed theSilk!Verse )by [livejournal.com profile] minchout, and very highly recommended!!

(bonus link for the beginning of the story, for those interested:  http://spnspringfling.livejournal.com/33962.html?view=comments)
23 April 2013 @ 10:54 am
1. I'm looking for a fic I read a while back that featured Trans!Jensen. In it, Jensen was seeing Jared but was worried once Jared found out his secret (that he still had a penis, I think), that Jared would leave him. I think when Jared does find out, he's a bit freaked but comes around eventually. Very vague, I know, but I'm hoping this rings a bell.

2. Additionally, I'd love any and all Trans!Jen or Trans!Jared. Cross dressing, drag, pre-op, post-op... Anything. Just no kink play. Meaning, nothing that is just used for a scene of play. I want this to be their life style.

J2 and Sam/Dean only, please?
I’m looking for 2 specific Sam/Dean fics that I read several years ago.

The first is a genderswap story where teenaged/early-20’s Dean gets changed into a girl permanently/semi-permanently.  He and Sam were together before Dean got changed into a girl, but refuses to sleep with her afterwards, not because he isn’t attracted to her, but because it somehow feels more wrong.  I believe the fic started out when Dean was already a girl, and he’s adjusted to it surprisingly well…painting her toenails and wearing short skirts, and going out to bars to flirt with guys.  Which eventually prompts Sam to get over his hang-ups and get back together with Dean. Still looking for this one...

The second fic I’m looking for took place during season 4.  It was Sam POV and had Sam thinking about how Dean wasn’t strong enough after Hell to stop the apocalypse, not like Sam was.  But it was more like Sam wanting Dean to just stop and let Sam take care of things and admit how weak he was so that Sam could protect him.  In the end I think there was some crossdressing where Sam got Dean to dress in women’s clothes so that he could see how delicate and fragile he was, though I don’t remember if it was a full dress or just underwear.  I don’t think it was dark!Sam exactly, but as I recall he had a somewhat unbalanced feel to him.  I think there was a lot of guilt for not saving Dean from hell and needing to protect him now.  I have no idea if it was an established relationship or first time. FOUND! Link in comments.

Do either of these sound familiar to anyone?
Can you recommend me any stories with a transgender character, a character with intersexual characteristics, someone facing problems because of their gender identity,

... or stories with a (pansexual) character, who deliberately ignores the gender binary and sexual orientation categories?

RPF with J2 would be good, though I would be fine with any pairing or Gen.
Preferrably AU and completed fics.

I really hope that you can help me out! I've been looking in a lot of places, but most stories were Winchester, Wincest or just cross-dressing fics.

Thank you so much in advance!

Example: "Oh, My Queen!" by [livejournal.com profile] cherie_morte
04 March 2013 @ 06:54 pm
hey i was wondering if any one knows were i can find a fic
1  its colege au dean is blamed for burning down his frat house so while all his frat buddies are rooming in a hotel dean is forced to room   with castiel who he thinks is weired with his tokidoki obsession. dean is obsessing him self over cas, cas likes to were panties and at   some  point he gets dean to wear a pair to.
  im not sure if all this is completely right its been ages since i read this fic but its awesome and if any one knows were i can read it, would   be so awesome.

2 and any other fics that are  college au were dean and castiel either are roomies or a forced to be roomies or any fics like this with sammy   and dean.

3 cross dressing fics were dean is forced to try it and likes it way more than he admits and either has to admit it or is caught by someone or fics that relate to what dean said in season 5 episode 4 to prove to his future self that he is in fact a legit Dean Winchester.

any thing is good slash, mpreg, wincest, moresoms, they dont have to be human if theres any others just let me kno and send me think like i read just about any thing.

please and thank you in advance

1. is found in comments
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09 February 2013 @ 11:05 pm
I've had the worst couple of days, and my new meds have turned me into a crybaby and I can't settle down at all, even with the Klonopin, so all I can do is stop trying to be productive and *calm down*. To that end I have a couple of requests.

The first is a specific story that I've been looking for since I lost my bookmarks. I believe it was D/C - Cas bought Dean a pair of panties and it really worked for both of them I remember Dean thinking that Cas had gone into a lingerie store and chose them for Dean and the way Cas would do anything to make him happy. It was very hot, with a touch of sweet.

In general I need that touch of sweet. Not saccharine, not sucrose, but sweet, and caring. Hot is good too. I'm happiest with Sam/Dean and Dean/Cas. No permanent disability please (h/c welcome), or mpreg, born-a-girl, transgendered or changed-into-girl or food sex fics, please, and no shapechaing or sentient animals or anything with overtones or undertones of slavery, sexual, biological *or* legal. Just a couple, preferably on a case, exhibiting love and concern for each while still gettin' it on hot-n-heavy and being BAMFs. Being out, rejecting other advances, all good - but an equal partnership, not one taking care of the other with no reciprocity. And there must be sex, of the NC-17 sort. (But I'll try one rated R is you say it's worth it. OPV adored.
It's probably not the easiest request to fill, but I'm hopeful.
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09 February 2013 @ 12:22 am
I'm looking for a specific story.  What I do remember of it, Jared and Jensen had parted ways after Supernatural and Jared now works at a bar/club dressing up as a woman (and loves it).  At one point, Jared (as the woman) and Jensen are sitting at the bar (where Jared works) and hit it off really well and Jensen doesn't even realize that it's actually a man he's talking to.

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25 October 2012 @ 11:13 pm
Looking for specific fic: Jared kidnapped Jensen and they live in cabin in the woods where he forces  Jensen to be "pregnant" with enemas and drugs to make him lactate. I remember he makes Jensen wear babydol-style dresses and forces him to hike with an enema(no clue why). Jared isn't really evil but completely delusional wanting ensen to carry his child and Jensen is trying to keep sane during. In the end Jensen embraces the delusion and takes care of their "baby" a doll. Its a pretty short fic, it may have been on kinkmeme or something. Its an interesting twist on mpreg.
09 September 2012 @ 01:42 am

this might be a longshot but i was wondering if there were any complete meduim (10,000) of longer sized fics that where Dean expiriences gender confusion. it can be in the form of cross dressing, being a hermaphrodite, genderswap, transgenderism, ect. it doesn't have to be overly serious but i'm not looking for straight kink either (though if it's in there as well it's welcome!). i'm looking for Slash or Gen mostly (though no kid!fics please), any pairing! oh! and no complete AUs please, hunter!verse only

28 August 2012 @ 07:38 pm

Specific: The fic is a one-shot, set pre-series, and features a crossdressing!Dean. At least, I'm pretty sure Dean liked to wear girl's clothing in the fic (based on what I read of the summary). I'm also pretty sure it's Dean/OMC. Can't offer anything more, unfortunately, as I never got around to reading it before it mysteriously disappeared from my hard drive.

Non-specific: Any fics where Dean or Sam has to come to terms with being gay. Pre-series especially, but in all honesty, I'll take anything. Can be any slash pairing (OMCs included) or slash-gen.

Thanks in advance!

07 August 2012 @ 11:40 pm
i'm looking for any dean/cas, dean/omc or dean/ofc fic that involes dean's kink for wearing women's underwear, and/or exploring the time rhonda hurley asked him to try it. i will 110% take pwp for this one, but squeezing in some character development would be lovely too

i'm also looking for -- and this is what i'm having a hard time finding -- any fic that explores dean's character from a genderqueer angle. i'll definitely take trans* fic, but what i'd love to read is dean identifying as male but feeling more comfortable or equally comfortable in make-up, or women's underthings, etc, or anything that draws parallels between dean and mary, or anything about him repressing these feelings as a result of having a parent like john winchester. any and all pairings are welcome with this one

thaaaaanks in advance! :)
25 July 2012 @ 11:07 am
I'm looking for a fic that I believe was on one of the kink memes a while ago and I haven't been able to find it since I first read it a few months ago.
Sam basically laces Dean into a corset and Dean gets off on it. Those are the key details I remember. There might have been some internal thoughts on Dean's part about the constriction happening but, again, this was months ago.
Any help is appreciated!
09 July 2012 @ 05:15 pm
Are there any stories where Dean or Sam are biologically female but have always lived as a boy? So much so that the other brother sometimes forgets he technically has a sister? Note: I don't mean genderbend fics - not actual transformations. I mean where Dean or Sam is a boy in a girl's body. I actually vaguely remember reading one like this with Dean as the transgender - I think he grew up as a boy because he didn't think John wanted a daughter? Will read Wincest, but no weecest or daddycest, please.

I will also accept fics with Jared or Jensen in the same situation.

Thanks, all :)
I've recently read  Anasyromenos!verse  and would very much like to read any fics where the boys or Cas are androgynous, cross dress or maybe just don't conform to traditional gender stereotypes.

I don't mind the odd sex centred fic but any stories where it's just part of the character would be brilliant.  Self recs are completely welcome. Any if you know any good gender-swap fics I would be very thankful.

Any pairing but ones that include John.  Dean/Castiel, Dean/Sam etc. 

Thank you.  (I apologise for my tagging mistake.)
28 June 2012 @ 11:27 pm
Hi, me again! I recently deleted the history on my browser and because of this, I lost the author name of a funny little ficlet.

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I know the entire story yet I can't find it. I hope someone out there knows it and would kindly share it. :)
I'm really having a hard time finding one specific story, and stories with the topics I'll describe below. Reading Fan Fiction is really my main addiction. I would appreciate any recommendations:-)

1. The one specific story I'm looking for was one in which Sam had found love, but it turned into domestic violence. Dean and Sam are not on the road together anymore, therefore Dean is either not aware of the torture Sam is going through, or he doesn't understand why Sam just doesn't beat his partner to a pulp. I lost the story before I could read more facts about it. I just remember that Sam is really confused by his decision to stay with his violent partner, and doesn't want his last chance at normal to end in such a failed way.

2. I really would like any stories that have to do with Sam, Jared, Dean, or Jensen dealing with being on the receiving end of domestic violence. Stories that have the characters feeling helpless, but their counterpart saving them, i.e. Sam saving Dean, or Jared saving Jensen. Stories where the characters have suicidal thoughts as one way of getting out of their situation is a plus.

3. Please recommend stories that deal with rape, and rape recovery of one of the characters listed in #2, but I would prefer Jensen focused stories. Stories where the victim suffers from mental illness, or has severe self harming reactions like eating disorders or suicidal thoughts because of their attack are welcomed.

4. This last one is a little weird, but I would love any stories recommended where Jensen or even Dean wears a Kimono. Jensen dancing or performing in a Kimono is a serious plus. I just read Glassyskies wonderful series called "Innocence and Feathers", and was completely captured by her writing, and characterizations. Just a deep, beautiful story that I would like to recommend. This is an extensive verse with multiple chapters and plenty of wonderfully long sequels. Innocence and Feathers
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Hello, everyone,

I'm looking for the story where Jared has agreed to marry Mackenzie Ackles in an arranged marriage. After the wedding, Jared takes his bride up to the room for the wedding night. He discovers that his bride is really Jensen. Jensen had taken his sister's place because she didn't want to get married and ran away to Paris with her girlfriend. Jared is actually gay and is delighted to have Jensen as his bride. Jensen is a virgin, but Jared is all dominant and aggressive. I thought it was on spnkink_meme or spn_blindfold but I can't find it anywhere. Please help. I've read it countless times but cannot remember the name or title. I thought I had it bookmarked on my delicious page but its not there.

17 May 2012 @ 11:22 pm
Hey guys!
So I'm looking for the fic "Boys Will be Girls" by[livejournal.com profile] atorable.
Summary:“'So, Dad, I need you to tell me which dress looks best on me.' 'Dear God,” John mumbled, hand gripping the kitchen counter tightly to lower himself into a chair." Sam goads Dean into dressing in drag for Switch Day. Sex ensues.

The account's been purged, so I'm hoping someone out there has a copy and can send it to me. If there is a place to download it or if its archived that would be great too! Any help will be greatly appreciated!

13 May 2012 @ 09:18 pm
hey there, 

i got a sudden urge to read stories about low self esteem!cas who is so lost with himself, maybe mentally ill or something and starts cross-dressing thinking that dean wants him to be pretty and beautiful woman. dean of course doesn't want that and cas gets it wrong etc. i'm not looking for any cross-dressing kinks, pwp fics and pointless porn, i want storys and actual plot. i want cas to be messed up and dean trying to help and getting worried. 
i'd also like to read this woman!cas as MPD ( multiple personality disorder ). you know, cas having normal cas personality and then this woman side. i don't have any exaples for you, but maybe if you have seen movie like peacock you may know what i mean ? i guess that there might not be much this kind of fics but please, if you know any, link it

anyway, then i would like to read mostly any kind of mental illness!cas stories. i don't want him to be in hospital ( he can get there in the end, but i dont want him to be there whole time ). i don't have any bigger criterions this time ( but must be destiel ), just maybe your personal favourites ?
surprise me ! 
1) I'm looking for some good John/Dean stories, so rec me your favorites. I don't care if they're related or not, so it can be in an AU setting or canon. I just want as many fics of this pairing as I can find. I'm kind of gorging myself on them right now. Genre isn't really important to me, I love schmoop all the way to death fic. Just let me know if it's a dark/death fic please.

2) I kinda love crossdressing fics. So I'd love to have any and all fics where Dean/Jensen is in the crossdressing role. Pairing isn't really as important in this one, as long as Dean/Jensen is in the pairing itself. I've read a lot of these, so I'm not sure if I'll find anything new but hopefully you'll surprise me.

The only things I won't read are mpreg, extreme underage and genderswap. I prefer longer stories at the higher end of the rating spectrum, but if they're really good I'll take shorter stories as well. I don't expect crossdressing to have anything in epic length. :( I prefer them all to be slash though, no gen.

Self recs are welcome.

Thank you.
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26 February 2012 @ 01:48 am
There was one small part in a fic that I just read that said that one of the male characters (now it escapes me who...) curled their eyelashes and painted their toenails, so it put me in the mood for some fics where Jared is like this. So, does anyone know of any good fics where Jared is androgynous or effeminate? I would definitely prefer bottom!Jared for this. I'm pretty much open for anything except non-con. Thank you my dears!

Mods I wasn't really sure what to tag for this, I hope I did it right...
Hey! My friend I posted for last time found you guys rather helpful, and asked me to post again on her behalf. Here is her request:

I read a story a while ago where Jared and Jensen are both in college and in the same faternity togather. Jared and Jensen are actually really good friends when the story begins. Something happens and Jensen, I'm not sure if he's the only one or not, gets kicked out of his faternity. He ends up dressing up like a girl and joining a loser house for girls or something like that. I think Christian and MIke were the other two that got kicked out. I could be wrong. Anyway, Jared ends up seeing and liking the girl who Jensen is pretending to be and Jensen falls in love with him secretly. The fic was loosely based off the film Sorority Boys originally staring our lovely Mike.

Crossdressing: I'm also looking for fics where either Jared or Jensen or Sam or Dean have to dress as the opposite sex and the others don't know about it and end up liking the girl that the guy has to pretend to be.I've seen a few that I never got to read where it was Sam dressing as a girl and Dean flirting and trying to get into his pants without realizing it was Sam. I perfer NC17, I don't usually read anything less because I'm addicted to reading porn, lol.Time Travel: I'm looking for fics where Sam and Dean accidentally get transported to the future and see themselves(In a relationship with eachtother, with kids together, or just togather as a couple on the road hunting) or to the past where they meet the teenage versions of themselves. I would like if the fics ended in wincest.

Time Travel: I'm looking for fics where Sam and Dean accidentally get transported to the future and see themselves(In a relationship with eachtother, with kids together, or just togather as a couple on the road hunting) or to the past where they meet the teenage versions of themselves. I would like if the fics ended in wincest.

Mpreg: I'm looking for good Mpreg stories. I would like the couples to be either J2 or Sam/Dean but I have read a few were Chad was the father of Jared's baby but he ends up with Jensen in the end, those were good.

J2 meet Sam/Dean or the other way around: I'm looking for fics where either Jared and Jensen get sucked into the world of Supernatural or Sam and Dean get sent to the real world. It doesn't metter how the pairings end up just as long as the guys end up together in the end in some form. The fics can have only one getting sent or swapping places type of deal. I've read a good few like that but I can never remember the names.
11 February 2012 @ 07:16 pm
Hi all~! So here's what I'm looking for. I checked the tags, but there wasn't anything listed like this except the Destiel Pairings, and the general character tag.

I want fics where Dean is gay, he is out of the closet, and girl he's proud! I have found some stories like it before, but they are few and far between. Don't get me wrong, I like the "coming into his sexuality" fics, or the "it's just the one guy, not all of them!" fics, and the fics where he's openly bi. I don't want him bi or just now discovering that he likes guys, too, I need some crazy gay going on.

I would love it if he were ridiculously flamboyant (think drag queen), but I'll take manly as well, or something in-between. Bottom!Dean rocks my socks, and Destiel is my OTP. I can handle Wincest, so long as it is an absolutely AMAZING story. RPS welcome:-p

With the things I want in this fic, chances are it's going to be cracktastic or humor. That's perfectXD
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