Dean post hell fics

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I'd be forever grateful if anyone had some fics that kind of match what I'm looking for. Alright here we go:

1. Dean was in hell for 40 year, right? I want fics where that shows. For example: he has nightmares, he comes back with a few new kinks, he misses being tortured, ect,ect. Basically, I'll take any fics where post-hell Dean is not exactly the same as pre-hell Dean. I'll take any parings (preferably destiel or gen but I'll take wincest too, gotta share the love). Dean/Alistair gets you brownie points.
2. Any Dean/Alistair fics. It's so fucked up it works (at least in my mind it does)
3. And finally, someone tries to torture Dean but they fail spectacularly because he was in hell for 40 years.

Thanks!