The first one sounds like Someone Else's Life by magser ("Jared Padalecki is a young man living hand to mouth, trying to save the only two friends he has in the world. Jensen Ackles is a man with a broken heart and dented pride, and enters Jared's life long enough to leave him with a drawing and a dream of what Jared could have had. When one of Jared's friends dies tragically, Jared is left with no choice but to run, and ends up living a life that isn't his, a life that he can never have. What happens when Jensen finds Jared living in the house meant for the fiance that broke his heart, and can they come to an arrangement that suits them both?"). The journal was deleted, but I can send you a copy if you'd like.