17 October 2017 @ 01:34 pm
and held prisoner. I was reading "Gritty and Bleeding" by hunters_retreat(very good story btw), when I remembered reading this story some time ago. I cannot remember if it was a WIP or not. Sam is kidnapped from school by a demon who made himself look like Dean. By the time Sam realized it was too late and they threw him into a van. He was taken to an out of the way place (an abandoned psych hospital) and kept him in a room. In either total darkness or total light and they were trying to make him into the perfect vessel for Lucifer.

John and Dean never give up looking for Sam. I think, a hunter friend, finally gives them a tip to where Sam has been hidden for about two years. If my memory serves me correct, he had violated Sam while Sam was being held in the the totally dark room. I remember John killed him for what he had done to Sam. Sam was totally messed up and extremely angry.

This is all I can remember from the story and I may not have it all correct. It would be appreciated if someone recognizes some of it and can give me a title and author. Thanks in advance if it rings a bell to someone.
17 September 2017 @ 12:48 am
Parent/Child Incest I read a fic awhile ago featuring younger possible alpha dean/Jensen as son while omega Sam/Jared as father/mother I cant remember name but do know it was finished multi chapter ed and Sam had a baby in the end.Sam's husband was neglectful and abusive to him.
Hello! I've recently read Credit in the Straight World, Outside By the Blue, Blue Moon, Brittle, Boy Falling Out of the Sky, The Air Moves In, Invisible Boy series... Basically if you can find it under Sam Winchester/OMC and it's lengthy on AO3, I probably have read it! I'd love more fics though, so I hope you can help!

1. Fics that have Sam exploring his sexuality with a male, with Dean finding out or walking in on it. Bonus for Dean getting super overprotective! Wincest preferred but I'll take gen too. I don't mind what age they are.
2. Hurt! Sam with comfort. Rape, violence, anything.
3. Sam with an eating disorder or self harming Sam.
4. Infantalism as a lifestyle. I'd prefer baby! Sam if that's possible. I've read SailorChibi's works on Ao3 for this too.
5. Protective/Possessive/Jealous! Dean.
6. Dean walking in on Sam getting off.

I'd love everything to end with a happy ending! No death fics, please. I'm looking for Wincest only, no other pairings. I don't mind if it starts out as another pairing as long as it ends in Wincest. I'll take gen too. Thanks so much in advance :D
11 March 2017 @ 06:49 am
Hey. Im looking for a gwnral search on any stories were teen sam or young sam geta sexually abused.
Also any stories were johns friends does it or another hunter.
08 March 2017 @ 08:02 pm
Just a couple general searches.
I really want any stories of young Sam that's been abused. I prefer not by john but I will take it. but defiantly no dean abusing him please.
Also traumatized, kidnapped, nightmares.

Is their any were sam has been kidnapped lost or anything and grows up away from Dean and John. He has a really bad time and gets hurt or something. John and Dean find them in the story and help him/ bring him back to them?
20 February 2017 @ 08:09 pm
Hi, i read a story of sam when he was a teenager getting kidnapped by this creature who caught him and tortured him. He wrote on his thigh that he couldn't talk about it to anyone and that he liked pain instead of pleasure (not too sure if this is accurate). He cant say no to people and sleeps with anyone who asks whether he wants to or not.

When the creature has him, he sees dean walking away but doesn't say anything as he wants to protect him.

It ends up that a religious order have the answer but wont give sam the cure because he is seen as a sinner? I think it ends as Sam/Dean.

I really want to reread it hut cant remember the name of the fic.
Pleaee help me!
Hello. I have a few general searches I'd appreciate some help with.

1) Any fics dealing with the torture Sam went through at the hands of Michael and Lucifer whilst stuck in the cage.

2) Fics about Sam (either set in or similar to season 7) dealing with Lucifer banging up his noggin.

3) Possible AU's where Sam actually was still stuck in the cage and Lucifer was just messing with his head, rather than Sam just being crazy.

4) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

5) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
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I've searched for this fic once before but didn't get any results a few years ago, and it's sprung to my mind again and is now driving me crazy trying to find it so I figured I'd try again. This is definitely an older fic (I'm thinking probably around 2007/8) and is longer one...

I'm not 100% sure if it's a curse or a spell but Sam gets either sent back in time or to an alternate universe where there is another Dean and Sam - the two Sams swap consciousness but still retain their own appearances. In the past/alternate universe, Dean thinks Sam is insane as he is speaking of a different Dean and the future and possibly demons so he sends him to an asylum where he is very much mistreated. He's kept in isolation and chains practically 24/7.

I remember two specific scenes where he is being bathed/tortured, and another where Dean goes to visit him and he is very withdrawn and gaunt, and his hands are covered with a shawl to hide the chains/bruising. He begs Dean to take him home and Dean sees the chains, but he is convinced that his brother is violent which is why he needs the chains... Sam ends up escaping or being rescued by Bobby, and cared for by Jess who is Bobbys daughter... In the present time Dean and Sam from the past try to work out what happened and break the spell/curse to return them to their own timelines...

If anyone knows this specific fic it would be very much appreciated! I'd also like some recommendations along these types of stories & themes.

Hello, me again.

Specific fic: There's this alpha/omega style fic I started reading a week ago but forgot to bookmark, I think it may have been on AO3, and it had Dean, Cas, Charlie and I think someone named Gilda(?) where they were at some sort of omega resort, and Cas and Dean were in a relationship that their alphas' didn't know about. I think I got up to the point where Cas reveals his alpha has taken him off of birth control and Dean kinda freaks out a bit. That's all I can remember.

General searches:
1) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

2) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
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24 October 2016 @ 02:21 pm
I'm looking for fics either of the J2 or Sam/Dean variety that feature mpreg and/or omega Jared/Sam. Bonus points for fics where mpreg/omega Jared/Sam fics where he's escaping an abusive past.

I'm also looking for a specifc J2 fic with omega Jared.Its a forced boning fic. I cant remeber if they are fourced together by some outside agency or if they are fourced together by nature i.e. once you meet your mate you cant refuse bonding. I do remember that there is an age difference and Jared is younger, maybe a teenager, while Jensen is an adult. They live together in Jensens home and they don't physically bond at first because Jensen knows Jared is not ready for that.Read more... )
25 November 2015 @ 04:39 am

I'm looking for this one specific homeless teen Dean fic. He meets Castiel behind a dumpster behind the Roadhouse (I think?) when he's looking for a place to sleep after he got kicked out by his dad. In the end they both sleep there. They both work as a prostitute, sometimes together. One day Alistair kidnaps Dean and they don't find him for a few days (weeks?). In the end Dean ends up in the hospital and Sam and John are there as well? -->
I lost all my bookmarks so if anyone could rec some longer (preferably at least 10k but if you think a shorter one is amazing too please add as well :) ) fics with these themes that would be great;
- Dark pre-stanford/stanford era. Dean centric.
- Abused!Dean (all the abuse, by everyone, canon or au)
- Abused!Castiel (again all the abuse)
- Abused Sam, but only by Castiel,Dean or John.
- Any other dark stories with Dark!Sam/Dean/Cas
- Any story where John comes back from the dead after season 5.

26 October 2015 @ 11:01 am

Looking for stories with Omega Sam...where he is hurt and abused for his status. Any paring or AUs just looking for angst with happy ending. Mpreg always good bonus.

04 June 2015 @ 08:16 pm

Hello everyone :)

I have read Carnivorous by Lise and I feel in love with it.

I'm looking for more fics with Sam trying to cope with Hallucifer by having angry sex with Dean (you know, the pain-thing...)

Bonus if Dean is confused by the weird behavior of Sam.

NO PWP - just angsty and H/C fics :3

Thanks!! :3

28 May 2015 @ 06:07 pm

Hello everyone!

I would like to read fanfictions with Sam dealing with Hallucifer.

The whumpier the better. It has to be followed by comfort from Dean though or it's not on ;)

Any rating!

Wincest or Gen, please <3

Thanks! ;)

I actually found this is recommended on here a while ago & forgot to bookmark it but I'm looking to read it again & can't seem to find the post it was on.

In the fic Dean & Sam grew up apart, Mary survived the fire and took Sam to live with her dad but Dean thought they were dead... Dean gets news (a letter I think) saying that his grandfather died and he's inherited the house/estate. He goes to see it and Bobby is the house/grounds keeper who tells him that he has a brother. Sam is traumatised from being kidnapped by the Yellow Eyed Demon years ago and shut himself away in his head not communicating with anyone. As the story goes on we discover that Sam stopped communicating with people to protect them from himself and/or the demon... Dean gradually brings Sam out of his shell as the fic progresses...

If anyone can recommend this or something similar to it that would be awesome! Thanks in advance :)

p.s. I've tagged powers!sam but I'm not sure if he actually has powers in this fic so feel free to remove it mods if it's not correct
So I found a fic on someones delicious account that I would really really like to read;

My Heart Yearns
"Sam said he was going away to Stanford, but he actually never got into college. He just needed a reason to run away from his unnatural feelings for Dean. Two years later, Dean comes looking for him in Palo Alto, but they have no record of Sam Winchester as a student. Dean tracks Sam down to a sex house in San Francisco where the owner keeps the working boys high on a dangerous cocktail of drugs to make them more compliant to customers' strange demands. Dean has to pose as a client to get close to Sam. Sam seduces him." (comment fic)

it doesn't say anywhere what comment fic meme it was in :/


love you all xoxox
Hi All,
This story was request last year and it was found, unfortunately, I forgot to save it. I can't remember the title or author. I just remember a certain scene playing out so I hope it is enough information. Here goes:

I can't remember if Sam is suffering from Stockholm symdrome or is just really mentally unstable ( gone crazy) because of Dean.

I can't remember if Dean was a Ware or Serial Killer? I do remember he was wanted by the FBI and he was #1 most wanted in the nation. He was dangerously really good at killing and evading the authorities.

I do remember that the Feds either arrived at where they knew Dean was staying at but the found Sam there instead (I don't remember if he was bound or lock in the basement?). Well they took him in to the closest precinct to question him/interrogate him? I remember that Sam was either really terrified and wanted to get back or he was totally crazy and ranting? I do remember him looking at the Fed/Cop and saying " The wolf is coming, you should't have taken his cub?" I do remember all hell brakes lose in the Precinct after Sam said that or maybe a bit later?

Does this ring a bell to any one? Would really love to read again.
Thank you Guys for all your help.
Hi All,
once again looking for certain fics with kind of the same theme. I am looking for any DARK DEAN stories where Dean's usual "take care of Sam/Protect Sam" mind-set is way over the top or over done. Like even though Sam's a teen or adult he never lets him out of his sight and does not allow him to do anything for himself, it a twisted psychological trick to keep Sam 100% co-dependent on him and unsure of himself or insecure, basically keeps him as a child mindset on purpose. So he can rely on Dean and only Dean.

John could be in it or Dean could have murder John to keep Sam to himself.

Best example is by writer "T.V program rule" Title: "Escape Rewritten" in FanFiction "www.fanfiction.net/s/10552352/1/Escape-Rewritten" (I don't know how to make the link work form here)

So if any ya'll know of any Dark Dean fic (Seriously not enough out there)where he does not want to hurt Sammy , just be 100% possessive/obsessive of all his thoughts, actions and feelings-

Sammy could be fighting it at first but always caves in, in the end, because he still has that soul mate bond with his brother "Needing Dean" "Can't live without him" feelings.

So if you have any favorite Dark Dean with this similar theme please rec to me? PRETTY PLEASE, coming up on a long holiday weekend and would love to read something at home
OH yeah it could be GEN or WINCEST
23 August 2014 @ 11:17 pm
Are there any stories where Mary is not the loving, nurturing sacrificing, devoted mother? I will take anything except Wincest or Slash.

Also, are there any stories where both John and Dean blame Sam for Mary dying? I would love to see them be really abusive towards Sam throughout his life but I will take anything.

Thanks in advance!!!!
21 June 2014 @ 03:19 pm
Hello again,

I'm looking for a type of fic where;

1) Castiel is upset over the way Dean treats Sam, whether abuse is present or just implied.

2) Sam is hurt (mentally, physically) or is suicidal and Dean doesn't seem to care/notice, but Cas does.

3) Dean loses patience with crazy!Cas (season 7) and treats him badly. Sam is the opposite and cares for Cas.

Whether Dean realises what he's done or not doesn't matter too much. Also, these do not have to be Sastiel, though that's always a nice bonus, so any pairing is fine.  Please no AU's (like human!verse, Cafe fics, etc) though Canon AU is fine.

Thanks so much!!
Hi friends,
this is the third time I am searching for this particular fic. Hope I get lucky this time:) PLEASE..PLEASE..HELP ME??
It's a Dean/Sam slash that I read in Sam Dean slash archive.
This is what I remember about it.

(i)Dean gets a call from Bobby that Sam is doing badly in Stanford. Bobby probably brought Sam to his own home where he tried to kill himself a number of times.

(ii) It's from Bobby and (maybe) Sam that Dean learns about Sam's tragic past. Not only was Sam sexually abused by his professor in University, he was regularly abused by John as a child whenever Dean turned his back.Sam suffered greatly at the hands of John who was a very mean man.

(iii)Dean brings Sam with him to his motel room with an aim of curing him. But Sam by then had become an intensely suicidal, chronically depressed man who cut himself daily with blades or razors. He also had an eating disorder .

(iv) One day Dean catches him while cutting himself. He locks everything in impala's trunk.But somehow Sam gets hold of a knife and tries to cut himself again.Dean stops him and tells Sam to cut him instead as it would hurt less.

(v) Sam also tried to shoot himself with a gun. But Dean catches him on time. They have sex. There's a happy ending...

I hope there's someone who knows the story.

Thanx a million
22 May 2014 @ 02:14 pm
I have had a REALLY bad 4 months and I need LOTS of cheering up. What you can do to help with that is to recommend as many h/c, angst Sam (or Jared) stories you know (gen only please but I will take any and all ratings)!!! Share with me the ones where Sam is SO injured, you don't know how he is going to survive. Share the stories where your heart is breaking apart right along with his. Recommend all the abused Sam stories you keep reading over and over again. My motto is the more Sam hurts (physically and/or emotionally) the happier I am!!! Also the longer the story is the happier I am!!!

I am sure I have read a lot of your recs but please rec away. It is always good to re-read great fics over again. Also self-recs are welcome (I don't know why anyone would have a problem with self-recs). Bonus points for Dean (Jensen) being an AWESOME big brother (at least by the end of the story)

So start reccing!!! THANKS!!!
19 April 2014 @ 06:54 pm
Hey, I'm looking for two types of fics!

1) I was wondering if anyone has come across a fic where, after the cage, Sam is awesome in bed. Like Lucifer taught him in the cage (whether it was non-con or not) and it just blows the mind of whomever (Dean, Cas, ext...) is in bed with him. Any pairing is fine, I just really want to read something like that.

2) Also if anyone knows any fics where post-cage Sam, totally messed up from what Lucifer (or Michael) did to him, abuses someone but doesn't really see a problem with it because it was just part of his life in the cage for so long. Any kind of abuse is fine, it doesn't even have to have a pairing in it.

Hi guys! Any help with this would be phenomenal! I saw a post on her a while ago about a specific story the op had read and I have been searching for it ever since! Unfortunately, I haven't been able to locate it, and I can't find the original post either to see if it's been found :( Luckily, I still have the description saved on my computer, it went like this:

" Sam is only 16 years old and meets a 23 year old guy that he falls in love with and he is very insecure since he has zero experience with men. The guy Sam is dating is really trying to push him into having sex with him and I remember him threatening to leave Sam if he doesn't "put out" soon. Dean overhears that conversation and goes all protective-big-brother over Sam and ends up almost dragging/carrying Sam to the Impala and then refuses to let Sam see the guy without him being around. He also makes Sam promise to not sleep with the guy until he is 18. I think the story ends with the guy leaving when Sam won’t have sex with him and Sam seeks comfort from Dean. Somewhere in this story Dean has a sex-talk with Sam since he realized no one had ever had that conversation with Sam."

Please help! Love you all! xoxo
09 March 2014 @ 09:37 pm
Hi guys I'm looking for fics where John or Dean kill Sam either on accident (i.e. a car crash) or on purpose (can't save him), they don't even have to be the ones to do it, but they should be directly responsible for it in some way (i.e. sending him out unprepared for a hunt, driving him to suicide) . Whether Sam comes back or not is fine, really I just want massive amounts of angst.

Wincest or gen is fine, pre-series would be amazing.

15 February 2014 @ 12:43 am
Hello! I have a few requests, none specific, mainly with a Sam focus. If another character isn't mentioned, presume I mean the request is a fic like that involving Sam! Any pairing or rating is fine. I think I have done this request right, please let me know if I need to amend anything.

1. Language fics. Where at least Sam, if not Dean and others, speak two or more languages, and the use of extra languages is some sort of plot point. Can be real or made up languages.

Examples would be Sam picking up Enochian from Lucifer, or Sam and Dean with their own private language, or well, anything.

2. Powers!Sam. - I know there are hundreds of fics out there with this theme, but I would like to be recommended the best of them, hidden ones that you feel don't get enough readers. Any type of power is great.

3. Crossovers. With Naruto, Sherlock, Harry Potter, Star Trek(Any Star Trek series), True Blood, Game of Thrones(Even good, well written others which aren't listed here). In fact, I was re-watching some of TNG recently, with how the Q flick in and out and can seemingly bring anything they want into existence, I've always had it in my head that they are some renegade faction of angels, possibly following in Gabriels footsteps(And thusly failing, just pretty much staying how angels tend to be). Please don't tell me that I'm not the only one who had this thought, and please let there be some fic exploring it! Any characters in this

4. Missouri fic? I miss her. She was great.

5. Abused!Sam. Any at all, I have checked through the tags, but I am interested in more, please! (Would love if it were combined with any of my previous requests, particularly the language)

6. Drugs! Drug use. Sam preferred, but also by anyone else.
13 October 2013 @ 03:27 pm
Hi guys! I'm looking for a few types of fics:

1. Fics about Sam and Dean having some sort of empathic or telepathic connection.

2. Fics where Dean is very possessive/overprotective of Sam and it scares Sam.

3. Fics where the boys are one soul in two bodies/soulmates.

4. Fics where Dean abuses Sam mentally, emotionally, or physically. Whether he realizes what he's doing is awful and stops or not doesn't matter.

I've read a lot of fanfiction in my day (*waves cane*), so I'm hoping to find something I haven't already read.

Gen only for all of these, please. Thanks!
08 September 2013 @ 01:27 pm
I've been looking for this fic for a while but I don't remember the author.  Here's what I do remember:

- Sam was kidnapped when he was a baby by Azazel
- He was rapped and abused regularly by demons and humans
- The first time he met Dean, they had sex
- Dean has a daughter by Cassie and she's as powerful as Sam
- Sam has a lot of scars on his body

I hope somebody will remember this fic... Thanks!

ETA - Found in comments! Thank you!
Current Mood: hopeful
09 July 2013 @ 01:30 pm

I'm looking for a couple of fics I had saved, but I've lost them...in them Sam was left alone with John (because Dean was kicked out/went to college/joined the army) and Dean finds out that Sam has been being severly abused by John, both physically and mentally. I remember in one, Dean was in the army and his army buddies helped find Sam and look after him, whilst being on the run for John, and in another, or possibly the same one, John had cut Sams fingers off on one hand?                        

28 June 2013 @ 11:44 am
its a pretty lengthy fic where Dean and Sam is a d/s relationship but Dean goes overboard with Sam. Like Sam did not want Bobby to know about this type of their relationship. If i remember correctly, Dean broke that trust and somehow Bobby found out about it. Dean was also progressively getting more violent. I think the readers found out that there was something that caused Dean to go this far. Thanks for your time~

Found!- Fic under comments Author:flutternutter
28 June 2013 @ 02:25 am
Hi there,
I'm looking for wincest or gen fics that deals with the events in season 6 and 7. There doesn't seem to be alot if at all in my searches. Perhaps i'm looking in the wrong direction.I thought there would be alot of writing material considering the potential but where is it??? More info on link

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25 June 2013 @ 08:42 pm
I hope someone can help me. I’m pretty sure it was a Sabriel fic. My details are a little hazy because it’s been some years since I’ve read the fic but the things I remember are:

Gabriel works at the family bar/bistro. Dean and Cas are together and happy. Sam’s in a relationship with Michael, an abusive relationship. Gabriel is in love with Sam. I remember a scene where Michael takes Sam to the family bar but Sam is forbidden to talk or look at anyone, including family. However, he talks to Gabriel and when he gets home Michael gives him a black eye for it. In bed Michael is really rough with Sam, and he never uses lubrication.


I really hope someone can help me find this story. I’ve been searching for days.

FOUND: Thanks to Wolfish_Willow. http://casiedearestfic.livejournal.com/18368.html

Lucifer not Michael.
24 June 2013 @ 09:14 pm
I just came across this story at an old Dean H/C meme and was wondering if there were any others like it - http://salacious-newt.livejournal.com/6233.html?view=211289

I'm looking for stories where a lot was put on Dean's shoulders as a child and Sam finds out. Maybe Dean was emotionally/physically abused as a child and Sam finds out later. I always thought that comment Dean makes in DSOTM about when John found out Sam ran away was telling and would love a fic that mentions it. Please no sexual abuse. I'm open to those roles being reversed too if need be and it being Sam who went through this and Dean finds out. But anything h/c and schmoopy where they discuss this issue would be amazing. I just love stories where Sam takes care of Dean for once. So if anyone knows of fic that fits such a generalization of Sam being the temporary big bro, I'm more than open to reading it!
19 June 2013 @ 05:05 pm

Am looking for a few fics but cannot remember the titles.

Some of what I an remember of these fics are:

- Sam in the (mental?) hospital - being tortured with Drugs and electricity - a nurse takes pity on him - Dean finds her and she helps him find Sam - they meet later in a bar while she is looking for a new job.

- Sam in an asylum - in a padded room with the ball gag - Dean is allowed to stay with him but cannot free him unless its to feed.

- One of the brothers is tortured - they recuperate at Missouri's.

- one of the boys is kidnapped - at the end Bobby takes them to a bike/car show.(Sorry cannot remember more of it).

- Any other Sam - Dean - Gordon fics that are Hurt/Comfort/protective (torture would be a bonus).
Current Mood: anxious
05 May 2013 @ 11:47 pm
I remember reading a fic at ff.net where Sam went missing and Dean went looking for him. Dean found him at an cabin all tied up and being tortured by lucifer. As a gift for releasing him, Lucifer grants Sam's wish of repenting by torturing him. At the end, Lucifer healed everything but Sam was pretty much broken.

Found! in comments . It was Gratitude on ff.net. Links down below
So I read the awesome Outside By The Blue, Blue Moon by vaingirlfic- http://vaingirlfic.livejournal.com/18975.html which was a Sam sacrificing himself to protect his family has dubcon and wincest. Also read a great gen fic where Sam nearly drains all of his blood to try and get Dean out of Purgatory (Darkest Before Dawn by Marianna Morgan.

1. I want something similar to Outside. A past mistake/situation (by dean, john, mary, whoever) which caused problems for the winchesters (prefer Sam as the victim) when they're older. (love anything with hurt/angsty sam)

2. Anything fics in regards to how Dean is treating Sam in season 8?
3. Any recommendations for NON-Au decent length fics of J2. In a mood where Jared gets attacked by crazies/or fans or gets hurt protecting Jensen. kinda like "The Untold Story of Inanimate Objects"- here: http://cyndrarae.livejournal.com/85459.html

Its kinda scary how much fics there are >.< Thank you so much everyone! Gen or wincest is great!
SPECIFIC WINCEST FIC WITH SELF HARMING SAM- I searched this fic some time ago also but couldn't find it. Here's what I remember about it :-
(i) Dean gets a call from Bobby and he learns about Sam who was suicidal after being raped/tortured(?) by a professor.He also learns than Sam had tried to kill himself at Bobby's.
(ii)Dean brings Sam with him to the motel room but fails to reach out to him.
(iii)Sam cuts himself up with a razor in every chance he gets..whenever Dean goes out to bring dinner. Dean catches him at last when he entered the motel room and found Sam cutting himself. I remember a scene where Dean extends his wrist towards Sam and asks Sam to cut him instead.
(iv)Dean later learns than Sam was also abused by John in childhood.
(v) It ended in wincest when Dean thwarted a suicide attempt of Sam

WINCEST DEAN MPREG FICS WITH POSSESSIVE DARK SAM- I recently read a fantastic SEDUCTION OF GRAVITY by bridgetmkennitt. Can you please rec me any mpreg fic like this one with possessive dark Sam?

WINCEST MPREG FICS WHERE ONE DOESN'T INFORM THE OTHER I don't mind whose pregnant. I'm looking for those where one finds he's pregnant and doesn't tell the other . Can you rec me some?

Thank you so much:)
I was inspire by a fic in which both Dean and Sam was captured by demons who decided to give Sam a choice either to torture him (Sam) or Dean. The torture gotten to be pretty bad but despite it all, Sam still refused to let Dean get hurt, even when Dean started begging for Sam to say yes (to switch).So along those lines,

1. Sam sacrificing/willing to allow harm on his person to be tortured to protect Dean
2. Since there was a whole lot of trust issue btw Dean and Sam b/c of Ruby/Lucifer, ect, I want to see how far Sam would be willing to go for Dean despite all these issues btw them as brothers (or lovers)

Wincest preferred but Gen is great too.
28 February 2013 @ 07:54 pm
Hiya guys, so I'm looking for stories where Dean is evil (or a demon) and wants to control and own Sam and keep him safe even if Sam doesn't want him to. Preferably wincest but gen is great too. (Only Bottom Sam in wincest please) Bonus if Sam ends up completely dependant on Dean; really eager to please, ultra obedient etc. No Dark!Sam though please unless he's been mentally deaged/damaged by it all or something like that and doesn't realise it's wrong.
Thanks in advance!!
Current Mood: bored
1) Fics where Sam is the one on the receiving end in Asylum of Dean's anger and gun.
2) Kind of related to number one. Dean's gun in season 8 Southern Comfort was loaded.
3) Fics where Dean hits Sam and Sam is scared of Dean/hurt because of it. Not like regular beatings but more like in Bloodlust or Born Under a Bad sign with one of Dean's random pissed-off-at-Sammy punches.
4) Dean says something emotionally abusive that makes Sam cry/seriously depressed. I'd like it if Dean felt guilty about it, but not necessary.
5) Fics where they're having sex but Dean is emotionally constipated about it and Sam feels used.
6) Fics where Sam commits suicide/tries to because Dean has been ignoring him or leaves him, thinking it is what Dean wants.

I'm fine with Wincest or gen, but no fics that include non-con or are WIP's please. Thanks a ton to everyone who responds! :D
20 February 2013 @ 07:05 pm
I keep posting in this community cause everyone is so awesome!

1. Anyways, I'm looking for fics gen or wincest regarding lucifer/lucifer torture/cage or hellucifer.

2 more specifically, remember the scene where Lucifer calls Sam a bitch in every way. I can't help but think it sexually/noncon. Something like The World Devours Me by Varkelton, which is long and awesome and very close to what I'm looking for. Warnings for The world devours me is that it has wincest,non-con, alot of angst ect. Like stated above I love wincest but gen is great. Love this community and thanks!!

PS: Any other site recommendation would be great for this category. I would think this episode will bring alot of fics but can't seem to find much. It would also be nice if there was a tag for this episode too. Thanks mods!
Okay, I was in the middle of a story when my computer shut off and now I can't find it.
I'm sure it was on AO3 but I've looked for two days in multiple places and can't find it.

Sensitive Topics )

Hopefully I haven't mixed up more than one story. I appreciate any help you can give.
08 January 2013 @ 11:37 am
Hi and happy new year to you all!

I´m looking for some stories where Dean/Jensen are in a relationship Jared/Sam but Dean/Jensen hurts (starts hurting) Sam/Jared. All together with a lot h/c or suicede or drugs or selfharm. I think you get the picture...

Second I´m looking for fics where Sam/Jared is kidnaped or realy bad abused and takes on revange in the end. H/C from Dean/Jensen is more than wellcomed

Thank you for your help.
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05 January 2013 @ 10:00 pm
Hey guys! I'm hoping you guys can help me find some recs this evening. I'm looking for a few things

1. I'm looking for some guilty!Dean fics. Anything where maybe he hurts Sam emotionally or physically and realizes his mistake and feels guilty for it and comforts Sam. Maybe he's drunk or really angry? Anything will work. Wincest and Gen is okay.

2. Secondly, I am looking for fics where Sam and Dean grew up as foster children and Sam is severely abused and Dean is super protective over him. Can be Au, wincest and or gen. Anything will do with this.

3. Anything where Sam is deaf, blind or has some sort of developmental syndrome like autism or aspergers or anything of the sort. Muchos protective Dean is appreciated!

4. Anything where Sam is bullied. 

5. Dean discovering Sam was abused when he was a child (whether by another man, John etc.)

And that is it. (Can you tell I am really in the mood for some juicy, angsty, hurt!Sam fics? lol) Thanks guys!
Are there any pre-Stanford/Wee!chester fics out there where John is clearly abusive (or simply neglectful), especially toward Sam, and:

(1) CPS steps in? Bonus points if CPS really does remove Sam (and possibly Dean) from John's custody (temporarily or permanently, either is good).


(2) Dean puts his foot down and threatens to take Sam and go (or something similar) if John doesn't wise up.

Dean/Sam OR Gen -- both are fine.