I am looking for a specific fic where Jensen went to prison for fraud or something but he was a little simple minded I think & didn't mean to commit any crime.. Jared owns a gym where Jensen goes to box after he was released and the story starts from there.. does anyone recognize the story?!

Please help..
16 March 2017 @ 08:05 pm
I read a fic a long, long time ago. It was J2, and all I can really remember is either Jared/Jensen are special needs and they're 'working' for the other, cleaning up their yard, or something-another... But I know in one scene, their invited in to eat pancakes/waffle and they drowned it in syrup, the other shows them that eating them with just a little syrup still makes them taste good... OR something along those lines.
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09 March 2017 @ 08:48 pm
Just a general search. I really want some preseries stories with sam with a mental illness or disorder.
I like stuff like depression, OCD, bipolar, schizophrenia, really anything were sam is suffering and needs some help.
Please help. Anything is really appreciated.
Is their any series were sam has asthma epilepsy or something alonf those lines. So john and dean has to baby him and look after him.

Also is there any stories were sam is tramatized and has night terrors and need consoling.
03 February 2017 @ 11:20 pm

I've been looking for a specific fic.
I remember that Castiel is a doctor at a mental hospital, and he meets patient Dean.
Sam works at the same hospital as a nurse or something.
Dean thinks he and Sam are brothers, but they aren't.

I think I read it at AO3, but I'm not sure.

Can anyone help me?
I'm going out of my mind.
I'm looking to read Wincest fics where there's a plot twist or surprise ending, where the reader doesn't know what's really happening until later, such as 1) one of the brothers gaslights/manipulates the other, 2) secretly a demon/monster and the other doesn't know, 3) someone else has changed reality for one or both of the brothers, 4) one is hallucinating/mentally ill.
28 November 2016 @ 11:41 pm
I have looked for well over a month to find these and I could use some assiatance.

I remember Sam and Dean lived jn an apartment and Dean took care of Sam and they no longer hunt. It was a series of fics And In one Sam got sick and was having sensory issues and Dean has all these things to help him like a crash pad in the living room and closet with is full of different sensory items like different textures of things and lights depending on whay is needed at the time for Sam. They were eating breakfast and Sam panics and Dean has to take him to the special closet to calm him. Sam also most of the time sleeps in Deans bed with him and it was not a wincest fic. Just for comfort. It states Dean researced autism to help figure out how to deal with Sam's sensory issues. In a fic in the series it talks about Sam's obsession with blankets because soft things remind him he is not it hell anymore.

Any of this ringing any bells for anyone? It is driving me crazy!

Thank you in advance!

P.S : if anyone else also has any good post hell sam fics where Dean has to help take care of him feel free to drop those in as well.
14 November 2016 @ 11:12 pm
Okay, so a while ago I remembered two Sam/Gabriel fics, and wanted to reread them and looked everywere for both with no luck!

1) One of them was a completely human au, and had Gabriel as a nurse or doctor. He met Sam when Sam was hit by car, lost all of his memories, and was basically a child again. With no known family and Sam unable to tell them anything Gabriel takes him home to take care of them.

2)The second one was a short fic, and included Sam as a dying incubus. He was still a virgin in the fic and was coming to the point where he need to have sex or die, but was with Gabriel who just told Sam he was asexual, but they end up having a little bit of fun anyway.

I'm almost 99.9% sure both these fics were on Archiveofourown, and any help would be extremely welcome!

Also,if you have any short Sam/Gabriel, feel free to drop some links to those as well!
I can't remember the name of the Fic i'm looking for but i know most of the details, and i have tried so many different ways to find it but i couldn't ,this is my last resort. The story is a Jared/Jensen fic and it revolves around Jensen who is a genius and invented a machine or something that really helps with the environment.He's rich ,and well known, but he was in an accident that caused him to somehow have something mentally wrong with him and a friend of his is always taking care of him. He meets Jared when he is in a car and he calls out for Tristan which Jared responds to because its his middle name. He ends up taking Jared home with him and Jared stays. Later in the story i think we find out that he called Jared Tristan because their was a jewelry store that had a slogan of Tristan giving love to people and Jensen would always make a joke of who would give love to Tristan but after the accident he thought Tristan was a real person.Later in the story Jensen's sister comes and meets Jared and she causes a lot of drama she makes a case and they go to court. She is fighting to have control over Jensen because she thinks that Jared is taking advantage of Jensen. I know that close to the end during the court scene Jensen gets to speak in front of everyone and defend himself stating facts of why he is no different than anybody else and he can take care of himself. Please i would really love to read this story again. I'm really sorry to everybody this is the second time i do this and i hope i don't cause much trouble.I did read the instructions.

Also their is this phrase that has been in my mind and i'm sure i got it from the story i think it's. "I love you, but only just a little bit." I thought this was the title of the story but its not. I don't think it is.

Hi (:

1. I'm looking for a fic I started reading a couple of days ago on that i didn't get to finish. I forgot to bookmark it and I don't remember the title but it was about the boys when they were teens and Sam was acting kind of sick/depressed and Dean was really worried about him. Sam broke down one morning and Dean made him stay home from school... The last chapter I read had Dean stopping a robbery at a diner, but not sticking around to talk to the cops because he wanted to get Sam back to the motel. Sorry its not much to go on. Also, I dont know if the fic was finished or not - it might be a WIP. -Found! It's Open Book by pineapplefan

2. Also, with the holidays coming up, I've been trying to find some good Christmas fics. I've already read The Christmas Spirit by Noxbait, but that's a good example of what I'm looking for (the longer the better, and I love hurt/comfort)! I'd love to hear your recommendations! - only gen please!

Thank you!

28 October 2016 @ 06:21 pm
Looking for a J2 story, takes place after Supernatural is off the air. Jensen visits Danneel in mental hospital and runs into Jared's sister and realizes that Jared is also a patient at that hospital. Jensen wants to help Jared get better. Don't remember a lot, but both j2 suffered some kind of tragedy. Does anyone remember this?

Thank you,


**Found, link in comments**

Thanks so much!
23 October 2016 @ 11:22 pm

I'm looking for a specific supernatural rpf fic. I believe they were both in high school. Jensen was popular, Jared was a bit of a loner. Jensen was dared to befriend Jared and give him a makeover and get him a date for some sort of school function. Jensen's cousin was a hair stylist I think. Anyway, Jared found out, things got tense, but eventually worked itself out. If anyone has any idea of what story this is, please let me know. Thank you!

Also, I've been reading stories with mute/deaf/blind Sam/Jared and mentally ill/mentally disabled/autistic Sam/Jared and homeless Sam/Jared. I think I've read all that's been posted, but just in case, if you know of anything that is a bit harder to find, like isn't labeled for it, please let me know that too.

Thank you!

Story found! Title:My Problem is You Make Me Melt or
I'm looking for a J2 high school fic, where Jared is a shy, mute boy and Jensen is the new kid. He's attracted to Jared immediately, and they begin a relationship. At some point, Jensen gets fed up with all the students and teachers who bully Jared, and he brings a gun to school one day and shoots them. He's arrested, and Jared goes to visit him, but his mom tells him that he can never see Jensen again. The story ends with Jared shooting the rest of the people on Jensen's list so that he can join Jensen in juvie.
19 September 2016 @ 01:59 pm
Just a general, non-specific search for stories that feature mentally ill and/or suicidal Jared or Sam. The more dark and messed up the better, I really want him to hurt (I know, I'm a terrible person). It can be AU, non-AU, gen or slash (but if it's slash please only Wincest or Jared/Jensen). I've seen a lot of mentally ill Sam fics out there but not many ones focusing on Jared. The longer the word count the better. Thanks!
25 July 2016 @ 10:32 pm
For some reason, I'm dying for fics where Dean is sent to a universe where the canon events haven't happened, or time-travels back to when he was younger, yet he still has all his memories. Also, does anyone know of some fics where Mary finds out what the boys have been through and doesn't react well to it? Basically any fics where alternate universe or pre-series Mary/John/Sam meet canon!Dean.

(In case you want examples, some really good ones that I've read so far are:)

If I Knew Then What I Know Now:
Given an opportunity to change his family's destiny, Dean Winchester finds himself back in 1983 as his four year old self, yet with his adult memories still intact. But can he alter the events of that tragic night? And if so, will young Dean, his family, and Castiel be ready to survive all the evil that destiny has in store for them?

The Best Years of Our Lives, My Ass:
Dean goes to sleep in a motel room in Texarkana, and he wakes up 17 years old, in his childhood bedroom in Lawrence, Kansas, 1996. He has no idea how he got there, why his parents are still alive, why his brother is an adorable freshman with no memory of his adult life, and why the only ally he has in this place is the angel he left behind in Purgatory – somehow also 17 years old.
19 June 2016 @ 12:45 pm

I'm looking for a specific story.In this story, Dean has been placed in a hospital (I believe he has been there since he was a teenager). Sam may have or may not have known that Dean was his brother, but circumstances bring him to the place where Dean is staying. Sam, a student at Stanford, wants to take Dean out of the hospital and take care of him himself. It is revealed to Dam that the hospital's previous administration was abusive to rhe patients and Dean got the brunt of the abusive. This abuse has rendered him mute. The new administration is very caring, especially towards Dean. If I remember correctly, Dean found solace through art and his entire room was full of pictures that he drew.

I believe that when Sam withdrew him from the hospital, he found a new therapist (who may or may not have been Castiel).

I'm sorry if this is confusing.
20 February 2016 @ 06:01 pm
Hey! So I've been looking for a specific fic that I read a while ago. I think I found it on spnstoryfinders but i haven't been able to find it since.
I'm quite certain that it was on LJ. Sam had basically gone batshit insane, he's been killing people all across the country and hunters are after him. Dean meets up with Bobby and some other hunters who have tracked Sam down to a roadhouse and Dean begs them to let him see Sam before they try to kill him. He goes in and Sam is waiting for him. Sam has powers and I think he moves things around with his mind and Dean's a bit freaked out but wants to save his brother.
It turns out that Sam thinks he's talking to an angel who is telling him to kill people but I think it was actually a demon. In the end, Dean stabs Sam before the other hunters can kill him and Sam dies in his arms.
I don't remember what season it was set in but I think it might have been that Sam went missing to go on his killing spree from Stanford, though I might be wrong.
I'm quite certain it wasn't wincest either.
I think that's all I can remember but if you have any insane or mentally ill!Sam fics to reccommend I'll be grateful :)
29 December 2015 @ 01:20 pm

I've recently been reading Fireflies in the Dark by Winchesterpooja. In this story, Sam is suffering from crippling anxiety due to very traumatic events in his life. I was wondering if there are any other stories that deal with Sam sufferering from a mental illness (PTSD,OCD, anxiety, etc.) that is severe enough to warrant medication or hospital stays.

Could you recommend J2 stories in which one J recovers from extreme abuse? the ratio of abuse to recovery time is not important, but it has to be pretty horrific and move towards a better end, even if the fic doesn't end on perfect notes (even death!fics are cool(.

Examples or harm include, torture, malnutrition, involuntary body modification, extreme power play that leads to identity and dissociation issues, and of course lots of physical harm. Sexual violence/slavery is cool, but I'd prefer if it was paired with more complex issues.

Bonus for length, world-building, J1 helping J2 recover from JDM (I love me to evil-JDM), and badass!victims that want to get better but need someone to show them how to move past their trauma and love themselves.

Also, the recovering abusee doesn't have to be one of the Js, but one of the Js must contribute to the recovery and (preferably) no J on J violence unless you think its awesome (like in the Desperate Measures verse).

Oh boy. I am a real buzzkill. I have no idea how to tag this except to select everything under the 'warning' tag :-/

Please and thank you
Story has been found here: Spectrum (in 4 parts), by [ profile] tbrook.  The conclusion is here: Jumping at Shadows.  Thank you for the help, all you commenters!  :D

This is an old specific story I'm looking for.  It starts right where the series starts, just before Jess's death.  Sam passes through his own doorway on which somebody carved a cursed sigil, and he basically loses his mind.  The story is written in a very distinct stream-of-consciousness style from a third person Sam perspective, and I believe this moment is described as "the whole world took a step to the left."

Jess dies the same way she did in the series, and Dean shows up after Sam calls him incoherently from the kitchen floor.  Dean tells him to stay put, because he was already almost there.  The rest of the story is basically an insane Sam-styled warped perspective on the beginning of the series.  Dean is looking for their father, but his search has been completely disrupted because Sam is incoherent.  He can speak, but the things he says are often uninterpretable without any perspective on the things he's hallucinating.  Sam frequently begins screaming for reasons completely incomprehensible to Dean.  Once at a gas station he starts screaming because he is afraid he will fall into the sky.  He keeps seeing a man in a trenchcoat following them.  The television looks like an eye watching him.

I think the story is in 5 parts or so.  I read it on livejournal, and the author had a blue background.  Sadly, that is all I can remember, and keyword searches have gotten me nowhere.  The story is gen, no pairings.  It's implied that the man in the coat is Castiel, but this is never said outright, and I think Bobby shows up at one point, but other than that it's just Dean and Sam.  The style is the most distictive feature.  It read almost like poetry-prose.  And it would be at least 4 years old, probably more.  If anyone can help me find this, I would be so grateful.  It was an amazing story, and I'd love to read it again!
First of all the one I'm looking for is NOT Matching Weights.

In the story the boys have finished a hunt and they get hurt. Sam of course doesn't tell Dean and it gets worse after they go to another hunt. I think Sam was hurt on the abdomen area. Sam then asks Dean for some cash and Dean only gives him a twenty saying that's all he could spare. Sam then walks to a free clinic and meets a doctor who thinks Sam's being abused. He then recommends he goes to the hospital. He takes the taxi because he's tired. At the hospital, the doctor tells Sam to rest and gives him prescription pills to help with the pain. When Sam goes to buy them he finds out he doesn't have enough money so buys the strongest over the counter medicine instead. He gets home and Dean thinks Sam's being mopey or lazy and gets mad that Sam hasn't helped with the current hunt. Then he finds out Sam's hurt and does what he can to help him. There's a scene where Dean calls the doctor in the hospital and finds out that Sam needs a few weeks rest. Then Dean goes to buy the medication feeling bad for not giving Sam the money he asked earlier and that the medicine was a little over twenty dollars. Dean makes Sam rest until he gets better.

I keep reading this story and forgetting the title so if someone would be so kind to tell me the title I'd greatly appreciate it.

Also any stories where Sam is suicidal, has a mental disorder, eating disorder, low self esteem or selective mutism that'd be nice. I don't care if it's slash or not if there's rape or any other stuff in it. One thing though is if it is slash I prefer bottom!Sam but it isn't necessary.

Thank you in advance.
08 November 2015 @ 12:45 am
Hi all, I'm all new to LiveJournal and I was wondering if you could help quench my thirst for some particular SPN fics (Canon or AU I don't mind + I'm up for Destiel but please no Wincest):

1)I absolutely adore Castiel but I also love de-aged fics and so I thought why not combine the two and ask if anyone knew any good mentally de-aged Castiel fics and so here I am. If you have any other de-aged fics to rec that'd be great too.

2) Castiel with mental disorders (such as seizures, DID or Autism - like A Postcard for Castiel by almaasi etc).

3) Cas turning creature would be pretty good too. No specifics though. Maybe some angst.

4) Any fics where Dean chose Sam over Cas to save or Cas sacrifices himself.

5) Highschool AUs where Cas is poor, has a crap family (abused?) and maybe drug taking while Dean is rich and basically has everything Cas doesn't.

6) Any angsty cursed Castiel fics. I've already read Insult to Injury by strangenessandcharm and loved it so anything like that.

7) And finally, (and thank you for staying with me) I recently read Forget-me-not blues by noangelsinthegarrison and loved it so I was wondering if anyone knew any other fics about bullied Castiel, bully Dean and reunions.

Basically pure angst and fluff.

Thanks for the help :)
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30 October 2015 @ 08:27 pm
There's a fic I read once where Dean died and ended up an angelic guardian for Cas who was a mental patient (I think he was an angel). Then Sam comes in on a case and they end up hunting together with Dean watching over Cas. Eventually Sam ends up figuring that Dean was there. What fic is that. I don't remember if it was Destiel. Thanks!
I commented yesterday that I totally wasn't addicted to Post-Hell-Issues!Dean and could stop any time I wanted. I lied.

1. Fics where there is some kind of benefit to Dean's time in Hell, even if it isn't taken as one-- Demons, etc. being afraid of Dean, given his former status as Alastair's protégé; an unreasonable pain tolerance (I can so picture Sam or Bobby being really freaked out by this); using an "I've been to Hell and back" speech for intimidation (I've read a fic where Sam did this, and it was skull-shatteringly cool), and so forth.

(And ooh, what if even Ruby was on edge when it came to Dean?)

2. Given the sheer length of time he spent in the Pit, I'd wager Dean might have some trouble adjusting. Forgetting that torture isn't really acceptable topside? Having his time topside be a distant memory, so he'd have trouble recalling everything, even perhaps tingeing reunions with nostalgia?

3. I'm looking for just about any Harry Potter crossover that involves some sort of magical mishap delving into Dean's time in Hell. i.e., an Alastair boggart; an instance of legilimency gone horribly wrong; Crucio rendered laughable, etc. Even if it's just one scene in a larger fic. "Changing Circumstances" by EclipseWing did this well.

4. Okay, this one's a long shot. One of my favorite- but sadly abandoned- fics involved a Hell-traumatized Dean waking up in his teenaged body, and being unable to hide that fact from John and Sam. Another was written for the prompt, "Dean dreams of Hell. He is 10 years old." D'you see where I'm going with this?

I prefer no slash, but I could tough out minor Dean/Cas if it's reeeally good. (Dean/Alastair is okay, because I really wouldn't put it past the bastard.)
28 June 2015 @ 02:00 pm
I am looking for three things.

1) Angels as a family (Castiel, Gabriel, Lucifer, Michael, etc). Either canon (where they are angels) or AU (human or otherwise). Short or long, doesn't matter as long as it is complete. I don't mind if there is incest ("romantic" family is fine).

2) Castiel whump of any kind (mental, physical, sexual). Any where he is young and being abused by his family are great as long as there is a happy ending! Bonus if it can be tied into request #1.

3) Any fics with Castiel having a mental disorder. Any type is fine (OCD, Autism, Traumatic Brain Injury, etc). Bonus for tying into request #1 or #2.

Any pairings welcome for all.
04 June 2015 @ 02:43 am
Hi, I've never posted before so forgive me if I'm doing this wrong. A long time ago I read this story that sort of followed what was happening in canon but Dean was wrong, in the way that he didn't feel things like normal people. I think because of what happened to his mother and how he was raised. I would really appreciate you guys helping me find this story. Sorry that I don't have more information, it was in the early stages when I got into this fandom.
Also sorry if i tagged this incorrectly. Mods you can fix the tagging if I did it wrong. Thanks
21 April 2015 @ 12:19 pm
Hey guys, I'm looking for some stories where Dean or Jensen is just fucked up. I'm looking for some high quality angst in a Dean or Jensen centered story. I'm not pick about the length, and my preferred ships are J2, Wincest, DeanCas, and Cockles. I also prefer bottom!Dean and bottom!Jensen, so let me know otherwise, please. If it's RPS, please no wife-hate!
Thank you!!
10 April 2015 @ 12:05 pm
I don't know the exact details of them but this is what I can remember.

1) I think its a sequel to another fic where Sam was kidnapped but that might have just been at the beginning of the book. Sam is struggling to cope after it happens and ends up in a pyschiatric ward. He then tries to kill himself and one of the doctors stayed with him all night after it happened to try and calm him down and then Dean goes and visits him and they end up falling asleep on the couch before someone slams the door waking them up. I think Sam asks why Dean wants to take him home.

2) It's either wee!chester or teen!chester and Dean gets hurt on a hunt and John refuses to let Sam come to the hospital to see him. I think Bobby and maybe Pastor Jim or Caleb are in this story. They try and talk some sense into John but John isn't having any of it. John says something really harsh to Sam when he calls him and then I think Bobby shouts at John. Sam is upset by what's happening and I think he ends up in the hospital too.

Sorry for the terrible descriptions.

Thanks xxx
Two general story searches:

So, I was recently reading a collection of stories that all featured Suicidal!Sam, which included a few centered around Mystery Spot. I was wondering if anyone had found stories where Gabriel is shocked by how far Sam goes to try to end the loop, and stops the loop as a result? Bonus points if Gabriel has to work to fix Sam's broken mind.

In line with that, does anyone have stories where people are trying to fix Sam's craziness? It can be any form of crazy, from Hell trauma to general life issues. Fixing via talking it out or by magical dream walking are both awesome. Basically, I just love Sam finally getting the help he deserves.

btw, if you don't know what I mean by magical dream walking, check out this fic: Between the Lines of Fear and Blame by Faye Dartmouth
31 December 2014 @ 07:14 am
Okay, years ago I read this AU fanfiction where Gabriel I believe he was a lawyer and works with Sam and though being friends with Sam he meets Dean. The fic was from Deans' point of view I think. Some of the things that stood out were that Gabriel has Bipolar Disorder and was born in some messed up cult and a plot point was meeting his half brother Castiel again. There was also a really emotional scene where Dean and Gabriel fight and Gabriel goes into a depressed stage.
I really want to find it and have been having problems so please if you know it leave a post please!
Hi All,
This story was request last year and it was found, unfortunately, I forgot to save it. I can't remember the title or author. I just remember a certain scene playing out so I hope it is enough information. Here goes:

I can't remember if Sam is suffering from Stockholm symdrome or is just really mentally unstable ( gone crazy) because of Dean.

I can't remember if Dean was a Ware or Serial Killer? I do remember he was wanted by the FBI and he was #1 most wanted in the nation. He was dangerously really good at killing and evading the authorities.

I do remember that the Feds either arrived at where they knew Dean was staying at but the found Sam there instead (I don't remember if he was bound or lock in the basement?). Well they took him in to the closest precinct to question him/interrogate him? I remember that Sam was either really terrified and wanted to get back or he was totally crazy and ranting? I do remember him looking at the Fed/Cop and saying " The wolf is coming, you should't have taken his cub?" I do remember all hell brakes lose in the Precinct after Sam said that or maybe a bit later?

Does this ring a bell to any one? Would really love to read again.
Thank you Guys for all your help.
20 December 2014 @ 01:23 pm
I'm fairly new at this so please be patient with me.

I'm looking for a fiction is about broken boys or very dependent boys. It can be post hell or purgatory or because of torture that make them nearly catatonic or have autism like behaviour. They can be cursed also i'm not picky as long as the have that behaviour.

A lot like this fic "Grass Is Always Greener" By: AlElizabeth
Grass Is Always Greener
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I'm still a bit shocked that magser deleted her/his journal, I was there only a month ago...

As it says on the tin, I'm looking for "Behind the mask" by magser (tall_tales was the name of the lj) - "Jensen Ackles is in the home stretch...he just has to get through four months at the worst Asylum he has ever seen and he is a fully qualified psychiatrist. What he finds there though is much worse than he ever imagined, and like an old movie playing out in front of his eyes, he finds neglected patients, lazy doctors and an injustice he is determined to put right..."

Since the journal has been purged, I cannot contact the author to ask whether it would be alright to share (maybe someone here knows something?), but I just optimistically assume it's fine and ask if someone saved the story and would be kind enough to send me a copy (and I'd totally bake you virtual christmas cookies!)! :D

Edit: FOUND fantastically fast by kruel_angel. Link in the post.
(Eesh, so many tags! Mods: I think I've got everything but I can't seem to find the tags for wing!kink or for dark!castiel. Please help me out!)

To my fellow spn brethren. Yes, yes, I know, it's me again, but I can't help it ^^
Anyway, I'm looking for two types of stories today.Under the cut for possible triggers... )
2. As the title says, I'm also looking for wincestiel wing!kink stories, because there seems to be a massive shortage of this in the fandom. I have read plenty of Destiel, Sastiel and even Wincest wing!kink, but strangely, not any wincestiel. So please help me out! Again, I will literally take anyything. I would prefer it be bottom!cas,but I will take bottom!sam or dean instead too! So please gimme all you got! :)

Thanks in advance!
26 September 2014 @ 10:52 pm

I'm looking for a specific story. In this story, Sam and Dean were separated as children. I believe Dean stayed with John or Bobby and Sam went to live with Missouri. Sam may or may not actually be mentally challenged. He and Dean meet when Dean picks up the Impala after John's death and Sam flips out on Dean.

Also, similar suggestions are also appreciated!
30 August 2014 @ 05:10 am
I'm looking for fics where Dean is mentally challenged. Anything else is fine — AU/Non-AU, pre-series/future fic, abuse, other warnings, etc — just as long as Dean is mentally challenged.

Gen or Sam/Dean is preferred.

Thanks to anyone who can help!
12 August 2014 @ 12:34 pm
Hello everybody

I'm going to be doing a long train trip soon and wanted something to read.

Does anybody know any stories where Dean has had to leave Sam with someone or in a hospital/care home due to Sam having care issues or post Lucifer taking him over.

Specific story
I know it was a J2 story. All I can remember is Jared standing in the rain outside Jensen's nan's care home begging him to come back to him.

I know it's not a lot to go on but I have seen miracles on this page.

Thank you xxxx
03 July 2014 @ 09:27 pm
Hello, I'm looking for any fics where either Sams crazy comes back after 'The Born-Again Identity' or Castiel isn't able to fix his mind. Any rating and any pairing is fine. Thanks!
Hi. I need some help finding some good fics.

1) Okay so I'm looking for particular fics that are heavy in angst, hurt/comfort, and dark. Now I was wondering if anyone knew if any fics where either Sam or Dean where with someone else but they end up dying and they are going through a hard time and it eventually leads to wincest but after all the hurt/comfort. I don't want any fics where Sam/Dean and there partner leave each mutually. I want it where they are having a hard time getting over their first lover or whatever. This doesn't have to be just Sam/Dean, it can also be J2!

2)I want some dark,evil type fics. Such as one of the brothers, preferably Dean, go dark/evil. I prefer it be some type of wincest but I don't want it to be where the other brother is completely fine with it. I want it be more dubcon and non con. Kind of like the brother is breaking the other brother into submission and what not.

3) I'm really in need of fics where it turns out the events of Supernatural never happened and it's all in one of the brother's head and their actually sick mentally. This can be wincest or gen but heavy in interactions with the two brothers and other people.

4)One of the brothers in a role of a hooker or sex slave. Preferably wincest or J2. Don't really want an immediate happy ending. I want there to be a type of struggle and distrust.

5) One of the brothers or J2 become pregnant by someone else. I want it consensual and preferably Sam being the one pregnant. This one can be wincest, J2, or gen.

6) Linked a bit it request 6. Sam or Dean get pregnant by someone else when they are with each other. This can also be J2!

Thank you in advance for anyone who can help me find this request. Hopefully you good people can find me some goodies!
19 April 2014 @ 06:54 pm
Hey, I'm looking for two types of fics!

1) I was wondering if anyone has come across a fic where, after the cage, Sam is awesome in bed. Like Lucifer taught him in the cage (whether it was non-con or not) and it just blows the mind of whomever (Dean, Cas, ext...) is in bed with him. Any pairing is fine, I just really want to read something like that.

2) Also if anyone knows any fics where post-cage Sam, totally messed up from what Lucifer (or Michael) did to him, abuses someone but doesn't really see a problem with it because it was just part of his life in the cage for so long. Any kind of abuse is fine, it doesn't even have to have a pairing in it.

10 April 2014 @ 09:38 pm
I've been thinking about a fic that I have been wanting to read again and it's driving me crazy that I can't find it.
I remember it was a oneshot and it wasn't super long. It was about wee!Sam and wee!Dean and how Sam was slightly crazy as in he couldn't tell the difference between fiction and fact. Like he would think a make believe story was real because his family hunted things that they said were real and everyone else said was not real.
There was a part in it where Sam gets in trouble at school for some kind of paper describing what he did for summer or something and he wrote outlandish stories that he truly believed were real and Dean confronted him about it at home saying they didn't do any of this stuff. Then he realizes that the things Sam described in his paper were things that he watched on television or Dean read to him or something like that. Dean realizes Sam is slightly crazy and can't tell the difference between reality and fiction and hides the fact from his Dad and fixes the problem by teaching Sam the difference before his Dad can find out.
Sorry I suck at descriptions and summaries but I hope I wrote it clear enough.
13 March 2014 @ 11:01 am
Hi guys!
So, here's the thing. I'm kinda new to this whole SPN finders community thing, and i was hoping that you guys can help me find some new fics that i can read.

1)I'd like to read fics about Sam getting kidnapped AND tortured by anyone or anything. Whether it be a ghost or some creature or even a hunter looking for revenge, etc.

2)Fics about Sam being raped by anyone (But not by John or Dean) and if the fic talks about the aftermath of the rape, that would be even better and much appreciated.

3)I recently read this AMAZING fic called "The Long Way Home" (Which you should probably read if you already haven't) and it was about Sam having HIV. So if someone knows about any other fic with Sammy having any kind of STD, then please tell me about it :D

4)And finally, I'd like to read fics about Sam (Again!) being depressed, bipolar, suffering from PTSD, having panic attacks, anything about self-harm, or ANYTHING related to mental illness (You name it).

And that's it. Thank you in advance :D

P.S: I'd really appreciate it if the fics were multi-chaptered and long. And please NO incest or WIPS.
24 January 2014 @ 09:13 pm
Dean has been through more than enough to drive him a bit off the edge, the whole upbringing as a hunter, hell, people he's let name it. So:

I'm looking for any fics that involve Dean in a psych hospital, whether he is actually mentally ill, on a case,sane but misdiagnosed, or put there by an evil character.
03 January 2014 @ 11:22 am
Hi there. I read a fic recently, and now I can't find the link or remember the title or author.

In the fic, Sam is in an institution. Amelia is his psychiatrist, and I *believe* it mentions Ruby (Dr. Rubenstein) as a previous therapist. Sam's extremely unstable and has committed some violent crimes, and Dean may or may not be real. I really want to find it again, so if you can remember anything about it, please let me know!

Insane!Sam or Dean fic recs are also welcome :)

Edit: Found in comments!
11 December 2013 @ 06:14 pm
Hey People!

So i'm currenty studying for Finals, (Yay College) and I was preparing an Essays about the Kansas-Nebraska Act on 1854 when a scene from a story i read a year or two ago popped into my head.

I remember that Dean was mentally challanged either due to a curse or a head injury, but I remember a specific scene where Dean was asking Sam if they were from Kansas, but he kept saying "Kans-ass" and it annoyed Sam for some reason. And then i remember that he was obsessed with a TV show or something...

Anyway if someone could post the link to this story that would be great!

Also any other story with Mentally challanged Dean would be great to.

Thanks in Advance!!!!
Current Mood: exhausted
09 October 2013 @ 09:58 pm
So I've been kicking myself trying to find this story, and it's a no-go far - so some help would be great!

basically, I found it on LJ, I think, and the tital was in Latin. I think it might have started with an F or a T. It was pretty long, from what I remember, and set in season 7. Basically, the entire premise was that Sam was continually hallucinating Lucifier as well as developing a fixation with doing things in threes. Things like three showers a day, only eating dinner before five, always doing laundry on Saturdays, I think, even if they were in the middle of a case. In the beginning on the story, on a case, he ended up getting burned while on a hunt for a witch. He ended up grabbing a red-hot medallion and the words, something religious in Latin, got seared onto his palm.

There's an entire scene of the Winchesters buying pens in a Staples, basically, and Sam being super picky about it - how many black pens vs. blue - and it not being played for laughs.

At some pointt some point, Sam was kidnapped by Crowley and chained to a pipe in some warehouse, arms above his head. Crowlery tortures him a bit, but the thing that bothers sam (and Lucifer) more is the fact that there's a puzzle/crossword book laying crumpled on the floor).

Pairing were sort of a back-seat, but I remember that there was wincest and maybe implised Lucifer/Sam?

Thanks for the help, guys.
05 October 2013 @ 10:32 am
Hey guys! So a while back I read a fic on AO3, I think, and it had to do with 'gender-confusion' in a way. Dean and Sam weren't related, but Dean still lost his mom at a young age. He lived with John repairing spaceships(?) and his entire life he believed he was an omega. He has depression, and attempts suicide, I think, and they send him to a hospital which tells him that he's an alpha. I think his roommate is Cas, and he has an obsession with a plant (?).
He meets Sam, who is there because everyone thought he was an alpha because of his height, but turns out to be a beta.

Thanks for any help!
Greetings and salutations people!  Okay, looking for two types of fics today

1.  stories where Sam is autistic and

2. stories where Jo is all into Dean and Dean is... not.  It can be wincest or general (though I prefer the reason is cause he's into Sam).

Thanx peeps!