Clowns, suicide attempt and insanely protective Dean

[slash-demon.livejournal.com]

Hey all,
This is my first ever post here but I've been following this community for a LONG time and seeing as how just about every story is found, I figured I'd try my luck.
I have 1 specific fic and two non-specific.

1 (specific): I read this fic a long time ago and didn't save it. Anyway, John give sam the ultimatum of going to stanford. Sam chooses not to go and gets very depressed and at one point turns to self harm. Can't remember if it was attempted suicide or just pain relief. Anyway, dean (or john) finds out and I can't remember past that.
P.S. It's not 'Letting Sam(sammy?) go', but it's similar and I recommend that to everyone.

2. Any fic where ADULT sam has an encounter with a clown and has a dramatic reaction (panic attack or worse)

3. Any fic with an insanely protective Dean like in  Heart's Desire

Comments

[glimmerella.livejournal.com]

for #2...

Title: Obsession
Author: A-blackwinged-bird
Link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3552177/1/Obsession
Warnings: PG-13ish
Pairings: none
Summary: Sam has every right to be afraid of clowns. Run, don't walk, to read this one. Set in (I think) season 2.

[billysgirl5.livejournal.com]

Do you have the link for 'Letting Sam Go'?

#1

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