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I need help finding a fic. I know I have asked for help finding it on here before but I have searched and search but I can't find that old request on here anymore and I haven't been able to find it any other way either. It was a deaf and blind Dean fic, and he was possibly mute too but I don't remember for sure. I don't remember for sure what happened to cause it, I think it was an explosion? What I do remember was it was a long story and it took place during Dean's last year and Dean faced down the demon and somehow beat it and that's how he got his sight back. His hearing eventually comes back later but in between there's a scene where Dean has sex with a bartender but since he's still deaf he's afraid to have Sam out of his sight so he doesn't let Sam leave. Sam watches and at one point Dean gets on top of his lap with the girl on top of him and they finish like that and I think Dean it's Dean's POV and he feels Sam come under him, and after 2 years it's still one of the hottest sex scenes I've read. The story also had some outsider POV including the bartender's and the hotel manager's who thought Sam and Dean were a couple before they finally got together and it was still just sexual tension. If you could help me find this story I would be forever in your debt, and I swear I will bookmark it this time!