General Sam-focused and Sam-appreciation request

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

Hi everyone! I’ve been so very lucky with my previous requests here, I’m gonna chance it again and ask all you nice people for your kind help)))

My angst bunny is demanding to be fed, and I’ve been rewatching some of the previous eps waiting for S9, so now I’m looking for (sorry for it being so looooong):

1. Fics where Sam believes Dean is going to make good on the voicemail and kill him (I’ve always been fascinated by the sort of flinch-halfstep back Sam took at the end of The End, when Dean got Ruby’s knife out). Sam being suicidal and all “go on, do it, I’m not gonna fight” is a bonus, so is the voicemail issue finally being resolved. Fic can be set either at the end of Lucifer Rising, or at any point before their reconciliation in Fallen Idols, or at any time at all in S5, really, but setting within these first eps will be squeed over))). An excellent example of this is Reap by Tyranusfan.

2. Fics where Dean gains some perspective / insight into Sam’s side of the story during S4, which leads to an apology for the whole “you’re a monster” attitude.

3. Fics where Sam’s given credit for saving the world. I mean, not in any Dean-negative “all by himself” way, I mean where it’s really recognized that he did, in fact, save the world by jumping into Lucifer’s Cage… and just generally where it’s appreciated that it took a lot of strength to go through what he did (I mean, starting from his father basically blaming him for putting Dean in a coma in IMTOD and viewing him as a “save or kill” mission, it’s all not exactly a happy place).

4. Fics where not all of the blame for starting the Apocalypse is laid at Sam’s feet – not looking for any rewrites of canon here, just some acknowledgement that Sam wasn’t the only one who made mistakes and could’ve done some things differently, y’know?

All of these can of course be present in a single fic))) I’m okay for any pairings, length, warnings and self-recs, so long as there is a happy(ish) ending, no permanent character death, and no character bashing. Please and thank you.

Comments

[chellexxx.livejournal.com]

Love the requests you've made

I have a tag for voicemail links
http://previous.delicious.com/chellexxx1/SPN+Season!5+voicemail

& one that feature 'that' moment with the knife too
http://previous.delicious.com/chellexxx1/SPN+Season!5+knife

hope you find something that you like
xxx

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Your tags are awesome! *bookmarks away*

[nwhepcat.livejournal.com]

I just finished listening to a podfic of rainylemons' "Will You Serve?" verse, which has several related fics that should get your #3 happiness going, and may even include some of your other elements. Later stories have Castiel/Sam, nothing super explicit.

As podfic: http://ratherastory.livejournal.com/127401.html

The text of each story is linked there too, so I'll just let you find it in text from there, if that's your preferred way of taking it in.

Enjoy!

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

Oh. my. GOD!!! How could I have missed this slice of awesomeness? *read first installment, downloaded podfic to listen on way to work, getting the whole 'verse onto kindle* Thank you!

[eosrose]

If you are interested in listening to the complete series as podfic, I recorded all of them here. I think ratherastory (who did a *brilliant* job!) only did the first three parts.

:-)

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

Sorry for the late reply. And yes, you're right, ratherastory's podfic is totally awesome, but only has the first 3... This is an excellent verse, so I'm totally off to download! Thanks again!

[jasmineisland.livejournal.com]

I have a bunch of links, too.
http://delicious.com/jasmineisland/search/VMFIX

This one is out there, but I think it might fit your request. Sam is in a coma and Dean dreamscapes him.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5354065/1/Between-the-Lines-of-Fear-and-Blame

This is a self rec- set after Dark Side of the Moon but Dean finds out how much of what's happened between them isn't all Sam's fault.
http://jasmineisland.livejournal.com/11107.html

And another self-rec following On The Head Of a Pin. Used and abused by angels and demons, the Winchesters are farther apart than ever in their own pain. Until Sam is forced to make a decision that changes everything, and Dean finds himself understanding his brother better than Sam ever hoped he would.
http://jasmineisland.livejournal.com/16652.html

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, will definitely be checking all of these out!

[jasmineisland.livejournal.com]

Forgot all about this one. One of the best IMHO. Dean realizes what Sam has actually had to live with since he was 6 months old.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5407645/1/Oh_Brother_Where_Art_Thou

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

Thanks, this baby is definitely going into the faves! Reading it was very therapeutic))))

[morgana-st.livejournal.com]

For #2:

Thicker Than Water (http://archiveofourown.org/works/210496) by ratherastory
Summary: Prompted by the lovely and talented rainylemons at the Dean-focused h/c meme over at hoodie_time. Sam and Dean switch bodies due to a curse. It's temporary, so they soldier on, but Dean finds himself struggling with the unfamiliar burden of addiction and cravings.

Know how Dean took issue with Sam's whole blood junkie problem? As well he should, yes. But, here's the thing - he and Sam get cursed and wake up in the morning in the wrong body -…and Dean has this itch, this hunger…that won't go away. He can't stomach a burger or a steak or meat because it just makes everything worse, but life's life and a job's a job, so they keep working. But…Dean goes for a beer and Sam’s elsewhere, in comes {a demon}. And God does he ever hate her on so many levels, but she smells so good and he wants what's under her skin. He needs it. He has to have it. If you want to make me really happy and be a total bastard, you can flip them back and leave Sam with suffering the drying out in the panic room ordeal so that Dean has angst.‘}

So basically what happens is Dean gets a better understanding of what it's like for Sam to live with the struggle to fight against the bloodlust every damned day, and then what happens when he can't hold out against it.

[keiu-olari.livejournal.com]

sorry for the lateness! I've actually read this one (but somehow managed to forget to mention it on the request, drat! *shameface*) - in fact, like Tyranusfan's "Reap", this fic is what made me make this request)))) but I always enjoy a good re-read. Thank you muchly!