1) Dean is experiencing traumatic PTSD dreams after returning from Hell. He and Sam are sharing a bed.. I don’t think they have an established physical relationship, but Sam is there for comfort. Dean ends up wetting the bed and Sam purposely does the same to reduce Dean’s humiliation. I don’t know if this lead to anything sexual..

2) One of the boys is shaving the other’s face in a hotel bathroom. I believe it was Dean shaving Sam because he had hurt his hand. Beautifully written, very intimate atmosphere, and leads to first-time Wincest. I feel like this was written by a prominent Wincest writer. (Thought it was [livejournal.com profile] runedgirl, but I can’t find it.)
I am looking for a season 4 fic. I remember the titles of each chapter was a lyric from the Fort Minor - Remember the Name (Ten percent luck, Twenty percent skill, fifteen percent concentrated power of will, etc.) I think it was Uriel making Sam and Dean live out many alternate lives to test if they would choose each other each and every time or not. (They weren't related in those AUs and I think Uriel said that Sam and Dean were only so devoted to each other because they were brothers.) To prove to Castiel that they weren't worthy or something? In the end after Dean and Sam chose each other over and over even though they weren’t related in those AUs, Castiel finally pulled them out. I want to say that the story was wincest? Not super sure though. Also, I think the story might have been part of the Big Bang Challenge? Thanks in advance if anyone can find this story for me! Or something similar?
I've been looking for a story I read awhile back that I can't find anymore. I believe it takes place in Season 4. Sam is having back spasms/cramps from his injury from Jake, but because the brother's relationship is strained, he doesn't want to tell Dean about it. Sam doesn't get out of bed in the morning (because he can't), and at first Dean thinks he's just being lazy. But he eventually starts wondering if something is up, and then figures it out and takes care of Sam.

Anyone know where I can find this fic? Thanks!
23 May 2017 @ 07:51 pm
I'm searching for a specific story... I remember the following:

- Dean/Sam
- Set in either Season 4 or 5
- Dean is angry at Sam for lying, etc during season 4
- Fight in motel??
- Somehow Sam ends up doing whatever dean wants to show how much he wants forgiveness. Not sure if it starts out sexual or not. Dean punishes Sam in various ways.
- Not a short fic. Maybe in the 10-50k range? Possibly multi chapter??

07 January 2017 @ 11:54 pm
Hi there!

I need a help finding an old fanfic. The platform was either AO3 or fanfiction.net, probably the latter.

TW FOR GORE but the plot is Sam made a deal with this man where has has to give some of his blood away to the man once a week to save Dean from hell. The man gives the blood to this vampire, Sam passes out from blood loss in an alley way, Dean finds him, and he goes to a hospital, but plays it off as nothing. Dean follows him giving blood and Lilith shows up.

If anyone has any idea what fic this is, please let me know. Thanks so much <3

FOUND: It's Black Market https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8896691/1/Black-Market
Specific searches, all of these are Gen:

1. A multichapter vampire!Dean fic I'm almost positive is on FFN where, after Sam has convinced Dean not to kill himself, Dean's understandably upset about the whole situation and starts acting out. Sam meets Bobby in a restaurant and Dean comes in, possibly in sunglasses, and starts trying to get a rise of out them by talking about how he wants a steak, nice and bloody, etc.

2. Another vampire!Dean fic (possibly the same one???) where Sam, Dean and Bobby go on a hunt with Jo and Ellen without the latter two knowing he's a vampire now. They mistake Dean holding an unconscious Sam with his fangs out for unrelated reasons as Dean trying to attack Sam.

3. An S4 fic where Dean misses Hell, and takes to locking himself in the bathroom with a heat lamp and a little tin of sulphur. [FOUND: Images of Broken Light]

General searches, still Gen please:

4. Any Gen vampire!Dean or unusual creature!Dean you know of from LJ. I'm pretty sure I've picked Ao3 clean at this point ;)

5. As an extra tragic twist, does Gen creature!John fic even exist...?

6. Would love to see a fic where, after the big S9 argument, Dean leaves. Would be supercool to see one in S8 where Dean runs off to be best buds with Benny- haven't seen one that isn't just slash yet!
I was re-reading the 'Redemption Road' series when I remembered this fic existed and I adored it. Here's what I recall: it is definitely an OLD story (at least 5 years ago), it was a 'Cas goes to Hell to save Dean' pre-start of season four fic, and it isn't any of the stories mentioned in THIS: http://spnstoryfinders.livejournal.com/8710379.html similar request. I'm not sure if it was Destiel slanted or not - but it was more about the journey through Hell then the torture stuff. I also think it started with Cas and Uriel (maybe Balthazar?!) discussing the plan, though in the end it was just Dean and Cas. Last but not least - I'm fairly sure it was NOT on fanfiction.net. Sorry I can't be more detailed and any help would be much appreciated. :)
Hi all,
I'm looking for four different things:
1. A specific Destiel fic where Cas was a witch, so was Gabriel I think, and Dean was his familiar(I think he could turn into an animal), the story is about how they meet, and there's a scene where John shows up, possibly at Bobby's when Cas is trying to heal Dean from something, and attempts to shoot Cas and/or Dean I think. Gabriel protects them I believe. Dean either didn't know he was a familiar or had been taught witches were evil or something. Thanks!
2. A general destiel fic search where Dean has a chronic illness or disability of any form, and Cas is his doctor and/or caregiver.
3. A specific destiel fic from a years back, set after Cas raises Dean from hell-in this story, Dean became a demon in hell, he had horns and a twisted appearance, and Cas had to take him somewhere for a long time to help him heal, keep him chained up because he kept trying to attack Cas. I think the horns fell off eventually or something.
4. Any fics where Chuck is a father figure to any of the boys, rescues the boys from being abused, or is in anyway remotely paternal to Dean, Cas, or Sam.
Thanks very much!!
I'm not looking for a specific fic. But any fic that has to do with Dean being traumitized from his time spent in Hell or Purgatory. It could be anywhere from being nonfunctional and not able to be left unsupervised to functioning but with severe PTSD. I really want to read about the emotional, physical, psychological effects of Hell or Purgatory on Dean.

Also they can be AU in that maybe Sam gets Dean out of Hell and angels aren't involved ot it can follow canon.

Also I'm good with both Wincest and Destiel, so if anyone knows any good fics I would be grateful!
14 May 2016 @ 06:03 pm
I am rewatching Season 4, and was struck by how much I adore Cas in his early days, pre-rebelion. I would really like to read some Destiel that begins in Season 4 before Cas rebels against heaven. Happy endings please.
Hey there everyone! :-)

I hope you'll be able to help me out, 'cause I've been going crazy on my own trying to find this.

So, I am looking for a specific fic. Sadly I don't remember the title or the author, only that it was on AO3. Every chapter was one episode of the show. The author or authors were up to season 8 or something, I think? Basically, it was about a character from every episode mistaking Sam and Dean somehow for a couple, although they aren't together. It was awesome reading how every episode could have some Wincest and the boys reaction to it.

So to recap, every chapter was from a different outsider point of view, it wasn't actual slash, but the outsider always thinks the boys are together, there are many chapters (though the single chapters aren't actually every long) and it's still a work in progress.

Rings any bells? I've no idea how I can't seem to find this on my own...
I'd really be grateful for your help! <3

Edit: Found! It's Fumbling in the Dark by leonidaslion and I've simply got very selective memory concerning the summary and the first chapter.
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Sister Christian covered by Jensen Ackles
21 November 2015 @ 10:20 pm
I'm looking for two fics.

Edit: It's below in the comments.
The first one I read awhile ago, but I can't find it now. In the fic the Winchester tradition of making deals with demons is continued with preseries Sam. John, Dean, and Sam were staying somewhere really cold in winter and Dean had an accident ( maybe he fell on freezing water? Can't remember.) and was hospitalized. Doctors said that Dean was going to die. A demon offered Sam that he/she would save Dean if Sam just did a little thing for it.Sam was desperate and made the deal. The demon saved Dean and made the Winchesters forget the whole thing. Now in season four, Ruby reveals to Sam, while taking him to free Lucifer, that if Sam doesn't say yes to the Devil, Dean will die. (and maybe go back to hell? Not sure.) I think it was gen.
The fic was in archiveofourown.

Second request.
I found a rec from http://ao3feed-j2.tumblr.com/post/85933549480/the-eye-of-the-beholder, but the fic was deleted. It's name was The Eye of the Beholder by nanoks. I haven't been able to read so if anyone knows somewhere it might be, please tell me.

Synopsis: an SPN RPF re-telling of the classic Twilight Zone episode, “The eye of the beholder.” Jensen Ackles, a young man, lays in a hospital bed, his face wrapped in bandages, awaiting the outcome of a surgical procedure performed by the State in a last-ditch attempt to make him look “normal”. Will it be a success or a failure? Will he be able to stay in the city, or will he be exiled to the ‘village’ to live with Jared Padalecki, a man who is, by the beauty of the world’s standers, hideous and ugly?

Words: 9110, Chapters: 4/4, Language: English

Fandoms: Supernatural RPF
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Categories: M/M
Characters: Jeffrey Dean Morgan, Misha Collins
Relationships: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Future Fic, Mutant Society, Discrimination, Science Fiction & Fantasy, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Friendship, Friendship/Love, Sexual Content, True Love

Thank you!
Gen for all of these.

1. Specific fic: Sam and Dean become trapped in an endless series of rooms. Each is more horrific than the last, but there is no way to go but forward. I don't recall there being a happy ending.

2. Usually when I see Dean demonstrate his torture expertise, sadism, etc., it's after the whole roadside confession. Show me something where the big secret comes out in a decidedly less pleasant manner.

3. So..... Any good Halloween commentfic memes I missed? I'd love links to those in general but in particular I'm looking for any new creature!fics. Dean or both boys. Vampires are my favorite.
02 October 2015 @ 10:12 pm
Anything where Sam is the one who finds a way to get Dean out?

Or even finds a way to break Dean's deal?

Thank you in advance.
20 July 2015 @ 07:11 pm
hellooo... please help me with the following fanfics...

1) Any fanfics where Sam has gotten addicted to alcohol or drugs and Dean helps to overcome the problem.. I would love it if it s during season 4 where instead of alcohol Sam gets addicted to alcohol...

2) Fics where in season 5 Sam listens to everthing that Dean tells him without any arguments coz he feels guilty for starting the apocolypse.. Dean tries to get Sam to be responsive and voice out his opinion...

(general fics, no pairing)

Thank you so much:)
I commented yesterday that I totally wasn't addicted to Post-Hell-Issues!Dean and could stop any time I wanted. I lied.

1. Fics where there is some kind of benefit to Dean's time in Hell, even if it isn't taken as one-- Demons, etc. being afraid of Dean, given his former status as Alastair's protégé; an unreasonable pain tolerance (I can so picture Sam or Bobby being really freaked out by this); using an "I've been to Hell and back" speech for intimidation (I've read a fic where Sam did this, and it was skull-shatteringly cool), and so forth.

(And ooh, what if even Ruby was on edge when it came to Dean?)

2. Given the sheer length of time he spent in the Pit, I'd wager Dean might have some trouble adjusting. Forgetting that torture isn't really acceptable topside? Having his time topside be a distant memory, so he'd have trouble recalling everything, even perhaps tingeing reunions with nostalgia?

3. I'm looking for just about any Harry Potter crossover that involves some sort of magical mishap delving into Dean's time in Hell. i.e., an Alastair boggart; an instance of legilimency gone horribly wrong; Crucio rendered laughable, etc. Even if it's just one scene in a larger fic. "Changing Circumstances" by EclipseWing did this well.

4. Okay, this one's a long shot. One of my favorite- but sadly abandoned- fics involved a Hell-traumatized Dean waking up in his teenaged body, and being unable to hide that fact from John and Sam. Another was written for the prompt, "Dean dreams of Hell. He is 10 years old." D'you see where I'm going with this?

I prefer no slash, but I could tough out minor Dean/Cas if it's reeeally good. (Dean/Alastair is okay, because I really wouldn't put it past the bastard.)
29 June 2015 @ 11:02 am
Hi! I was talking to a friend on Tumblr about the Season 3 storyline that never was and they were wondering about fics where Sam saves Dean from going to Hell. (I'd also take fic where Sam rescues Dean from Hell.) I know I've read loads of really great ones but I'm terrible at keeping a record of my reading and so I'm hoping you guys can help. I just want good, well-written stories that offer a different ending to Season 3. I'll take gen or Wincest, long or short, just your favourites and the best ones you've read.

Thanks so much, guys!
So, I have a hankering for fics that address the selfish comment Sam made about Dean in S9. Where he said that Dean is fine with sacrificing as long as he's not the one getting hurt. I really would love to see a fic where Sam is corrected. I'm not looking for the part where Sam says that he wouldn't do the same for Dean (save him if he were dying). I understand that part as miscommunication (Holy blonde cheerleader Batman, miscommunication!). I want it to brought to Sam's attention on just how much Dean has sacrificed for him over their lives. Stuff like, HELL?! Leaving Ben and Lisa (he tells Sam if he ever mentions their names again, he's going to break his nose...), his entire childhood, etc.

And... Are there any fics out there where it's brought out maybe just how far back or how long Dean's progression may have been? Like this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uk8g2ZMqzw

Perhaps maybe, when other characters sit and think about it, Dean's road to a demon never truly stopped from S3/4? The Mark just sped things up to where he couldn't fight against it anymore? (I don't believe Dean is inherently a bad person, just a thought about the way his life has gone, how much for granted he's taken by everyone, etc. I just think that takes a greater toll than the show has portrayed up until S9/10).
Hello! I'm in need for fics where the themes of seasons 4/5 are in focus. I mean all the angst and hurt that Dean goes trough due to sam and the demon blood. Also, the aftermath is important: Sam realizing what he did (not only releasing Lucifer but also how he hurt Dean and such) and feeling immense guilt. I want him to really have to work for his forgiveness and for Dean to not act like nothing ever happened. It could be wincest or a gen brother relationship. But if it is wincest I'd prefer bottom!Dean. Thank you!
I have been reading so much Destiel, Samifer, Sabriel, and J2 lately that I'm suddenly craving some gen fics, taking place during any of the seasons between 4 and 10. I really don't care if they focus on a specific character or not but would prefer them to be at least 20,000 words long.

Thanks for your help!
30 April 2015 @ 10:44 pm
Hey Guys, I have two requests:
1.I'm looking for some fics that are similar to The Road Begins by ElvisRose
Where Dean already went to Hell whilst Sam was at Stanford. Castiel must be in it. So basically Dean gets sent to Hell and is rescued by Cas while Sam was at Stanford and Sam notices his brother isn't quite how he remembers what with the PTSD and all. Also if u haven't already I reccomend you read The Road Begins its so good :)

2. Any fics that Deans PTSD is featured in would be great. Be it PTSD from the military or Hell.

Pairings wise I'm up for both Gen and Destiel but absolutely no Wincest.

Thanks Guys

So I'm sure somebody somewhere wrote a fic about this. At least I hope so :)

I'm looking for an AU, where instead of attacking Lilith Sam actually makes the deal in 4x18 The Monster at the End of This Book.

Plus poins would be:
-Lilith keeping the boys as her pets
-dark!fics where she takes her time killing them
-Dean being ok with it, since they are saving everybody
-something wicesty (totally optional)

But I'll take anything within the general setting. Thank you :)

25 November 2014 @ 08:08 pm
I'm looking a novelization of Supernatural tv. And no, not SPN novels, but retelling of SPN from pilot episode to the lastest episode.
Is there someone who made this kind of fic? Please help me!
Current Mood: hopeful
30 October 2014 @ 04:29 pm
1) I read a hurt!dean story a long time ago and I remember that it was really well written and not a long one but can't remember the details. I think Sam said something along the line "It has never been about you, right, Dean? It has always been about someone else".

2) Is there any story that deal with Dean's message (in season 4 final)? Like they talk about it afterward and Dean tells Sam that he didn't say anything like what Sam heard.

Thank you!
20 October 2014 @ 02:00 pm
Hello - this is my first request so i hope I'm doing this right!

I'm looking for a story about the time while Dean is hell and Sam's reaction to his death - drinking too much? Not sleeping? Suicidal missions? I would also be interested in how this holds over after Dean returns.

Preferably AU (I don't want Ruby in these stories if possible). And NO Wincest please.

Hi guys,

Looking for a specific fic where Dean gets hit by some kind of near-death paralysis spell during a hunt that leaves him conscious, and so he gets to hear Sam break down when Sam thinks he's dead. S4 fic, because I remember Ruby enters the mix at some point, and is aware that Dean's still alive but conveniently neglects to tell Sam.

Also, if anyone knows any other fics along this line where one brother gets cursed and the other thinks he's dead, that would be really great!

ETA: Found by the brilliant gluisa88. It's Sleep Eternal by LittleFairy78
26 September 2014 @ 07:50 am
I'm watching 4.04 Metamorphosis on TNT right now and was just wondering, is there any fics out there that are a coda to this episode where Dean and Sam track down Mrs. Montgomery and talk to her about her husband.   Would love to read a follow-up story to this episode that entails an aftermath.  Anything out there.  Would appreciate any help.
04 August 2014 @ 11:37 am
I've just gotten my brother into the show long-distance (he lives in CT and I'm in FL). I don't think he even knows fanfic exists, but he does love the show.

What I'm asking for are stories you absolutely love: either with the brothers' relationship or the hunt, whatever. I would prefer to give him something not really arc-heavy, but something someone who is just watching the first time via re-runs on TNT. That puts him only up to season 6. Honestly, I'm not sure how much of the earlier seasons he managed to watch, I think it may be a little spotty so maybe nothing involving the deal. If you want to rec something like that, mark it and I can save it for later.

Thanks in advance!

I think I covered all the tags.
Are there any fics about the overnight drive that Dean, Sam, Ruby, and Anna took from Bobby's house to Kentucky to find Anna's grace in episode 410 (Heaven and Hell)? Maybe where Dean and Ruby are the only ones awake and Sam and Anna are both asleep and Dean and Ruby talk? If this gapfiller doesn't exist yet, someone should write it :)
15 June 2014 @ 05:39 pm
Fics based around season four. Where Dean is sad/angry/betrayed by Sam keeping secrets or him being with Ruby? I want Wincest but it'd not required. Destiel is fine, too. Just not heavy Sam hate please.

A happy ending is also preferred but not necessary.

Or jealous Dean. That's always welcome.
I could've sworn I had this bookmarked, but it looks like not.

It's basically what it says on the tin: mid-season-four Dean has been regressed to roughly the age of 5, but he still remembers Hell and has nightmares about it; Sam tries to comfort him.  I'm pretty sure it was before the revelation about what really happened in Hell, but child!Dean doesn't express himself quite well enough for Sam to figure it out.  I recall that one of the things Dean says is that Alastair wouldn't let him "have a name" until he said yes, and also claimed that he wanted to torture people, which Dean vehemently (if incoherently) denies.

Any takers?  I am about 75% sure that the author's LJ name began with H, if that helps...
28 April 2014 @ 02:43 am
I'm looking for a short fic where Cas gives Dean a pep talk. All further spoilers are below the cut.
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17 April 2014 @ 11:11 am
Hi guys,

I'm looking for two dystopian fics that I'm hoping someone here remembers and can link me to.

1. Sam and Dean post s4-finale. They're driving around a post-apocalyptic society while Chuck and Castiel have their roadtrip to find the Winchesters. Chuck keeps having visions of the Winchesters and writes them down. There's a scene I remember where group leader tries to get Dean to give him sexual favors in return for supplies and Dean laughs and shoots the guy.

2. A long in the future fic where Winchester gospels are part of a Hunter-esque religion in a dystopic/post-apocalyptic society. 2 young boys meet a guy calling himself Castiel who tells them that they are Dean and Sam reincarnated. There's a scene where church mass leads to Castiel finding Dean and Sam.

hi everyone! i'm looking for a specific fic where cas hears dean want his little brother back and brings both of theirs younger versions from the past. It was in season 4. Sam and Dean had to live with younger versions of themselves for a while. Sam was getting jeaolus by the attention his dean was giving to his little self. I was looking for that fic for DAYS now i really wanna read it again. If anyone can remember the name i would be soo happy.
07 April 2014 @ 08:39 pm
I'm looking for some recs that are centered or focused on season four, i have a hard time watching any episodes during then because i absolutely despise ruby and the whole coercing sam thing, so i'd really like lighter noted stories, but definitely don't have to be.

can be of any length, but absolutely must be wincest, and pertaining to season four (or how they were both in dark places). I have an extremely high preference for bottom!sam, so if it is bottom!dean throughout please don't rec it for me, if they switch that is more than fine. sorry about the strictness, but i've got a craving,,,,
I've been wracking my brain trying to remember where the two fics I'm looking for were even located and since Google fell down on the job, maybe you guys can help!

1) This fic goes AU after the fight in Sex and Violence (S4). Sam kills Lilith without raising Lucifer, and Dean finds him in a near catatonic state. Sam hears bits and pieces of what's going on around him and thinks Dean's going to kill him. He runs. A year later, Dean stumbles across him in a town where he works at the library while recovering from brain cancer - a side effect of the demon blood powers. I think the fic was on LJ, but not sure.

FOUND!!!! Link in comments

2) After the boys split up in S5, Sam literally pics a continent. Dean tries to track him down but Sam's phone is off and he's in Spain trying to locate a gate to Hell so he can figure out some way to help fight off the devil on his own turf. They end up fighting hellhounds or something like that in an old Spanish castle. I think this one was written for one of the mini-bangs a few years back.

FOUND!! Link in comments

Your help is greatly appreciated!!
11 March 2014 @ 08:51 pm
I saw this on tumblr:


and now I want a fic like that! So are there any fics out there in which Dean finds out Sam has cheated on him after he comes back from hell instead of the whole ruby/demon blood issues? Even if it doesn't replace the ruby/demon blood, I'd still want to read some cheating fic so long as it's while Dean is in hell? Please only happy endings? Sad endings are too... well, sad.

Thank you! 
01 March 2014 @ 08:44 pm
I'm looking for two amnesia fics that I read on fanfiction.net.

1. Dean has amnesia after he was pulled out of Hell. He goes to a diner and is having breakfast when Sam recognises him. Sam thinks Dean is a shapeshifter or something and Dean thinks Sam is a crazy guy. Sam takes Dean to Bobby's. Dean thinks it's a trick and that Sam is trying to kidnap him or something. It is all told from Dean's POV.

2. Sam is believed dead. Dean mourns for several months and stays at Bobby's. He's supported by Bobby, Ellen and Jo. But Sam is actually alive, he is homeless, lost his memory and has a stray dog as a pet. Dean finds him somehow and brings him back home. They are going to start hunting again but Sam wants to bring his dog and Dean doesn't want him to. They have an argument and Dean is jealous that Sam seems to care more about the dog than him. The fic was written before the Season 2 finale.

1. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4822628/1/The-Obeisance-of-Memory
2. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4419801/1/Gone
05 February 2014 @ 05:51 pm
I am really hoping someone can help me locate this fic. I tried posting this before several months ago and no luck. I’ve added and changed a few things in this post to hopefully jog someone’s memory. I would really appreciate any assistance in locating this fic. Thank you.

Dark!Sam - self-loathing Dean (still not found) )

affliction: alcoholism, attribute: evil!sam, attribute: dark!sam, attribute: possessive!sam, attribute: jealous!sam, attribute: protective!sam, attribute: stalker,

genre: hurt/comfort, genre: au, genre: dark!fic, genre: dean chooses sam, genre: angst, genre: wincest, genre: ust; position: bottom!Dean; pairing: dean/sam, character: dean, character: sam,

warning: attempt at suicide, warning: non-con, warning: abused!dean (sexual), warning: abused!dean (physical), warning: abused!dean (mental), warning: abused!dean (emotional), attribute: sam's point of view
10 January 2014 @ 07:45 pm

During Season 4, I loved watching how Sam's initial eagerness and faith in angels and God gets broken down both by the angels' actions (that scene where Sam first meets Castiel comes to mind) and the knowledge that they don't really like him all that much.  So because I'm a masochist, are there any fics that deal with this theme of the angels not liking Sam? Can be Sam-centric, angel-centric (Castiel, Uriel, etc), fics where the angels treat Sam badly or are disgusted by him, Sam struggling to come to terms with this revelation, Castiel's stance on the whole thing before and after meeting Sam - just about anything along this line would be brilliant. Preferably set during Season 4, but fics set during later seasons are brilliant too. The only fic I've found so far that deals with this is Do You Know What That's Worth, by redrikki.

13 December 2013 @ 03:46 pm
I read this one a while ago then lost track of it. If ant remember the title, but it was about Cas at the end of S4 meeting Raphael who sends him back in time to teenage!Dean (who I think was sixteen) and their relationship from there. I think cas changed his name to Caspar or something like that. Parallel to that was Dean in the beginning of S4 being reunited with the long lost love of his life who goes by a different name and doesn't know him at all. At the end of the fic, they meet up at the beginning of S5, with present!Dean and Cas, who has left teenage!Dean behind.

If anybody could help me find it, I would be eternally grateful!
Hi everyone! I’ve been so very lucky with my previous requests here, I’m gonna chance it again and ask all you nice people for your kind help)))

My angst bunny is demanding to be fed, and I’ve been rewatching some of the previous eps waiting for S9, so now I’m looking for (sorry for it being so looooong):

1. Fics where Sam believes Dean is going to make good on the voicemail and kill him (I’ve always been fascinated by the sort of flinch-halfstep back Sam took at the end of The End, when Dean got Ruby’s knife out). Sam being suicidal and all “go on, do it, I’m not gonna fight” is a bonus, so is the voicemail issue finally being resolved. Fic can be set either at the end of Lucifer Rising, or at any point before their reconciliation in Fallen Idols, or at any time at all in S5, really, but setting within these first eps will be squeed over))). An excellent example of this is Reap by Tyranusfan.

2. Fics where Dean gains some perspective / insight into Sam’s side of the story during S4, which leads to an apology for the whole “you’re a monster” attitude.

3. Fics where Sam’s given credit for saving the world. I mean, not in any Dean-negative “all by himself” way, I mean where it’s really recognized that he did, in fact, save the world by jumping into Lucifer’s Cage… and just generally where it’s appreciated that it took a lot of strength to go through what he did (I mean, starting from his father basically blaming him for putting Dean in a coma in IMTOD and viewing him as a “save or kill” mission, it’s all not exactly a happy place).

4. Fics where not all of the blame for starting the Apocalypse is laid at Sam’s feet – not looking for any rewrites of canon here, just some acknowledgement that Sam wasn’t the only one who made mistakes and could’ve done some things differently, y’know?

All of these can of course be present in a single fic))) I’m okay for any pairings, length, warnings and self-recs, so long as there is a happy(ish) ending, no permanent character death, and no character bashing. Please and thank you.
27 September 2013 @ 07:57 pm
Today I was suddenly reminded of a fic that I read a while ago that I am now having trouble finding, which either means that I didn't tag it well enough, or I forgot to save it.

Details: Dean's has been sent to hell and Sam doing everything he can to try to get him out. Sam eventually goes to Gabriel (who is still disguised as a Trickster) to ask him for help; Gabriel agrees to help out Sam. So the 2 of them come up with a plan that will somehow get Sam into hell to pull Dean out. (I don't remember what the exact plan was.) However, once the plan is put into action, Sam learns that it was for nothing; Dean has already been rescued.

Some time passes and the brothers talk about Dean's hell-break. Sam goes on to tell Dean that he had came up with a plan to save Dean but that the plan had ended in failure. Dean responds by saying that everything alright because Dean was rescued anyway. However this only leads to Sam saying that he feels that he failed as Dean's brother because the two of them always rescue each other and this time Sam didn't do that (thus break the status quo).

Found: It's The Promise at the End of This Book by [livejournal.com profile] electrolitestar.
01 September 2013 @ 06:55 pm
I just finished S4 and the hurt!Sam was awesome especially in the last few episodes.Need more fics revolving the description below or others similar that's not necessary in s4.

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Sorry for the long note guys but thanks!
Hey there!

I was just wondering if there are any stories out there about Jensen feeling left out of Jared's life during season 4 when he started dating Genevieve? For example, Jared forgetting he had plans with Jensen, not answering his phone because he's busy or Jared being too distracted by his new relationship to notice that Jensen's sick or hurt.

Doesn't have to end in J2 (but that would be awesome if it did!).

I'd like for Jensen to really be upset about making him wonder what he did wrong etc.,  but not telling Jared that he's upset instead Jared just starts noticing that Jensen's acting weird and confronts him and / or other cast and crew members.

This may be a stretch but I'd love to find one if there is one out there!
Pretty much as the subject line says, I'm looking for anything where Pastor Jim is still alive or gets resurrected during the time of the Apocalypse, preferably the latter.

What wuld reaaaaaaaaallly make my day is if it were dean/castiel as well, but even if not I'd love to know how Jim reacts to cas and what dean has gotten himself into.

No Sam/angel, Sam/dean, or generally sam/non-canon pairing
hey guys,

i am looking for 4 specific stories i came across earlier but forgot to bookmark. would really appreciate the help in locating these

1. jared and jensen. Jared and jensen are part of a band and spend alot of time touring. Jared likes interacting with the fans back stage. Jensen gets jealous one day, when he sees a fan giving jared her number and jared pocketing it and asks jared to throw away the number. But later he finds the number in jared's wallet i think while looking through his stuff, and in a fit of anger breaks up with jared. Jared is hurt and when jensen tries to apologize and get back together after realising his mistake, turns jensen down, saying that no relationship can last if the people involved dont trust each other. i think finally they go to jared's mom's place for dinner while in town and later talk things out and get back together. sorry if this was a sucky summary

2. this is a specific fic with possessed dean, shortly after born under a bad sign. Meg goes on to possess dean after sam and makes dean shoot sam in the gut in the motel room. she then ties up sam and leaves him while she goes bar hopping, promising to bring dean back in time to allow him to apologize and watch sam die. Sam replies to this saying that dean doesnt need to apologize as he is not at fault. Sam then manages to paint a devil's trap with his own blood and trap meg in it, and exorcises her from dean. Dean rushes them to a doctor who is trusted by bobby i think and in the end both boys survive.

3. this sam and dean fic, revolves around that nasty voicemail message from season 4. i think its set in season 6, and involves dean finding out that sam has kept the message all these years and regularly listens to it. he then clarifies the misunderstanding and insists sam delete the message then and there. sorry thats all i remember, i think they were at bobby's but i am not sure.

4. sam and dean season 5. in the first episode, after dean drives off in the impala without sam, Sam doesnt go to the motel but throws away all identities and admits himself into a mental hospital. over the months he starts talking to the pyschiatrist, slowly becoming more and more comfortable. finally the doctor introduces him to dena, saying dean had come by a few weeks ago searching for him and the doctor had to make sure sam trusted him before letting dean meet him. dean insists sam get the clear from the doctor before leaving, as opposed to breaking out of the hospital. When they finally do leave, dean hands over sam's wallet, money clip and other identities to him, that he had thrown away.. indicating to sam that he had followed sam's steps in an attempt to find him.

thanks in advance
12 May 2013 @ 09:26 am
I'm looking for any and all casefics where they think they're hunting a monster but it ends up being a serial killer/regular person/normal thing that is doing it. I loved Family Remains and it still is one of my favorite episodes because it's legitimately scary because they're REAL, and I'd love to read fics like that.

Gen/any pairing, hunter AUs, I don't care. :) Please and thank you!
10 May 2013 @ 11:44 pm
There is a fic I read a while ago, might have been vaguely from Cas's pov, I'm not real sure there. It also may or may not have been a 'five times' type of fic. It was some kind of collection of scenes where, for whatever reason, Cas wanted to talk to Dean. The only one I remember clearly at the moment is Cas popping into a motel room and realizing Sam and Dean are sharing a bed. Sam wakes up, sees Cas, and reaches back to tap Dean on the leg. He said something like 'it's for you,' and goes back to sleep. I think Dean might have explained that this motel was either bad even by their standards or full. I'm not sure which. I think it was set in Season 4, before Cas carved protective sigils on their ribs, but I'm not absolutely sure.

The other is a more general,and slightly weird, request. For whatever reason, I want to read fics where the boys are somewhere and one of them falls asleep leaning against the other. Either sitting or standing, not lying down. Like Dean is standing in a hall and Sam is so tired he just kind of leans against him and falls asleep, or vice versa. They can be gen or slash, not much for het but will read it if well-written. Self-recs, AUs, whatever, doesn't matter.
09 May 2013 @ 08:29 pm

I'm looking for a fic I read a few months back. I think it was set somewhere during season 4 and Dean was feeling pretty low between being brought back from Hell and his deteriorating relationship with Sam. What I remember best is that Sam and Dean get into an argument (over trusting Ruby, I think) while Sam is hopped up on demon blood and Sam ends up stabbing Dean in the gut with a knife. Sam freaks out when he realizes what he's done and manages to get Dean into the back of the Impala so he can get him to the hospital. At the hospital, Sam tells the doctors that Dean interrupted a mugging or something along those lines. All of this causes Sam to have an epiphany about the consequences of his actions and behavior. I'm fairly certain that this was a multi-chapter story and either gen or destiel.

Thank you for your help!