Hey everyone! I created an account just for this, so if I’m doing something wrong, it’s beacuse I have no idea what I’m doing. 

About a year ago I read a Jensen/Jared fic, (and its precuel) that I forgot to save the link to and now I can’t find anywhere. In the fic not much changes from real life, they’re actors and they met in Supernatural, except that their marriages are beards (shocker lol) and Gen is awful, basically.

Jared has depression and I think that at a given point, he a Jensen argue at a party and he accidentally overdoses and it looks like he tried to commit suicide.

The precuel is about how they got together during the first(s?) season of spn, and I think, (I might be confusing it with some other fic tho, sorry) that Jared opens up about a guy who forced him to make out with him and tried to go further.

Also in the precuel (again, might be wrong) Jensen buys a bunch of alcohol and locks himself in during a long weekend to sort his feelings out and writes a list of all the things he likes about Jared.

I copy and paste the parts that inspire me from certain fics for future reference, (I already learned the lesson of save the link, but at the time I didn’t) so I have quotes from it that might help. I’ve tried looking them up but nothing shows.

Here are the ones from the fic:

Hi guys, it’s the first time I’m doing a request here so I’m sorry for anything that may be wrong. So, a while ago I read A Mother's Love, by Leahelisabeth, and I absolutely loved it. Now I’m obsessed with this kind of fanfic but find no other like it. So, I wonder if you guys have any fics where Mary:

- can’t forge a bound with Sam;

- finds out about Sam’s past and doesn’t take it well;

- learn about the boys before meeting them and think Sam is evil/using Dean;

- finds out Samuel had come back to life and Sam killed him;

- anything that makes Mary denial, refuse, neglect or misunderstand Sam.

I would like fics were Sam is really affected by it even if he tries to hide it. Any pairing is cool while you let me know of it.

Dean can be protective of Sam or not or he can be unaware of his mother’s thoughs, but I would like Mary to have a normal relationship with Dean. All story lengths are fine.

Thanks!!

Hey so I have a general and a specific search if anyone can help. 

1)Sam was struggling with outbursts and nightmares and along all that he was beginning some serious OCD tendencies. That's all I really remember but was a real good.

2) While I was reading this I was wondering if there was any other stories similar or with the ae kind of struggling Sam. For example, Sam with OCD, Tourette's or just generally unstable with John, Dean and the other hunters looking after him and keeping him safe. 

Any help would be Great!

Thanks 

So I have a couple requests 

1) Does anyone know of stories that revolve around Sam's faith? He's shown throughout the series to believe in God and angels. I'm looking for anything that acknowledges his faith. Where maybe an angel who talked to him had heard his prayers or God comments on it. 

2) Stories where Sam's developed some hobbies. Finding a hobby is a way that people cope with PTSD and depression. I'd love to see stories where that's what Sam does, whether it's painting/drawing, knitting, yoga or whatever. Really just stories where Sam develops some healthy coping methods with what his dealt with over the years — he seems like he would have researched this stuff.  

Hey just a search for any traumatized, struggling emotionally Sammy. 

I prefer Teen Sam but I will take any as long as Dean is by himself and helping him overcome the issues. I would love it if the other hunters are with them as well like Celeb, Bobby, John ad pastor Jim. 

I don't mind if its abused Sam, Hurt or just struggling in general.

Thanks for any help :) 

I would love to read a fic with a brotherly talk about Dean's line "I don't care what happens to me - I never really have." in 13x20. Dean's self worth issues are tragic! :(

I've been dying to re read this one, but my Google skills fail me.

It was a hurt!Sam fic set mid series, maybe season 6, 7, or 8? Sam was driving to get dean something or whatever andhe pulled up at a stop light. He sees behind him a bus of kids is stuck directly on railroad tracks, the barriers somehow malfunctioned and the train was coming, so sam made a calculated decision to run the red light, into a dangerous intersection, so that the bus could pull up, thus saving the kids.
Pretty sure there were like low self esteem / suicidal!sam aspects too.

Also any similar hurt!Sam suicidal/low self esteem car crash fics would be soooooo appreciated :)

Hello all! I was hoping someone might be able to point me in the direction of a fic that I know I have read so many times (and somehow can't seem to find right now ...argh)

Hi (:

1. I'm looking for a fic I started reading a couple of days ago on fanfiction.net that i didn't get to finish. I forgot to bookmark it and I don't remember the title but it was about the boys when they were teens and Sam was acting kind of sick/depressed and Dean was really worried about him. Sam broke down one morning and Dean made him stay home from school... The last chapter I read had Dean stopping a robbery at a diner, but not sticking around to talk to the cops because he wanted to get Sam back to the motel. Sorry its not much to go on. Also, I dont know if the fic was finished or not - it might be a WIP. -Found! It's Open Book by pineapplefan

2. Also, with the holidays coming up, I've been trying to find some good Christmas fics. I've already read The Christmas Spirit by Noxbait, but that's a good example of what I'm looking for (the longer the better, and I love hurt/comfort)! I'd love to hear your recommendations! - only gen please!

Thank you!