17 October 2017 @ 01:34 pm
and held prisoner. I was reading "Gritty and Bleeding" by hunters_retreat(very good story btw), when I remembered reading this story some time ago. I cannot remember if it was a WIP or not. Sam is kidnapped from school by a demon who made himself look like Dean. By the time Sam realized it was too late and they threw him into a van. He was taken to an out of the way place (an abandoned psych hospital) and kept him in a room. In either total darkness or total light and they were trying to make him into the perfect vessel for Lucifer.

John and Dean never give up looking for Sam. I think, a hunter friend, finally gives them a tip to where Sam has been hidden for about two years. If my memory serves me correct, he had violated Sam while Sam was being held in the the totally dark room. I remember John killed him for what he had done to Sam. Sam was totally messed up and extremely angry.

This is all I can remember from the story and I may not have it all correct. It would be appreciated if someone recognizes some of it and can give me a title and author. Thanks in advance if it rings a bell to someone.
04 October 2017 @ 11:59 pm
Hey guys & gals!

I'm looking for a fic I read quite a while ago where Sam was kidnapped or something similar by a cult at a very young age. They abused him too. At the beginning of the story he's living by himself and supporting himself after he escaped, which is where Dean accidentally finds him. The cult very much wants him back. I can't recall if it's Wincest or Gen. Not even sure if Dean doesn't recognize him right away or not.

Thanks in advance!
I can't remember many details. I think Dean hates him because he killed John. Sam goes along with his brother on a hunt or something and Dean gets annoyed, blacks out with rage and when he comes back to his surroundings Sam is beaten up and lying on the floor in a ball. I think Bobby also threatens him saying that he can't do that again. In the fic I think that Sam is sort of accepting of it all, thinking that he deserves it because he killed John. Anyone know what this is, it's been bugging me for a while?
22 May 2017 @ 12:26 am
I'm wondering if there are any fics where Dean or Sam (slight preference for Dean) have an abusive girlfriend - and this is NOT used to make him alter or reconsider his sexuality (that is, he does not suddenly discover an interest in males) or throw him into the arms of someone else (regardless of said someone else's gender/sex). Apparently, this is a trope for Destiel fics, but I'm a non-shipper so any non-ship fics of this sort I'd love to read. I just see both brothers (slightly moreso Dean) being really ripe for a manipulative romantic partner. Because I'm a canon-only sort of girl, please no abusive boyfriends for either brother.
Hello! I've recently read Credit in the Straight World, Outside By the Blue, Blue Moon, Brittle, Boy Falling Out of the Sky, The Air Moves In, Invisible Boy series... Basically if you can find it under Sam Winchester/OMC and it's lengthy on AO3, I probably have read it! I'd love more fics though, so I hope you can help!

1. Fics that have Sam exploring his sexuality with a male, with Dean finding out or walking in on it. Bonus for Dean getting super overprotective! Wincest preferred but I'll take gen too. I don't mind what age they are.
2. Hurt! Sam with comfort. Rape, violence, anything.
3. Sam with an eating disorder or self harming Sam.
4. Infantalism as a lifestyle. I'd prefer baby! Sam if that's possible. I've read SailorChibi's works on Ao3 for this too.
5. Protective/Possessive/Jealous! Dean.
6. Dean walking in on Sam getting off.

I'd love everything to end with a happy ending! No death fics, please. I'm looking for Wincest only, no other pairings. I don't mind if it starts out as another pairing as long as it ends in Wincest. I'll take gen too. Thanks so much in advance :D
11 March 2017 @ 06:49 am
Hey. Im looking for a gwnral search on any stories were teen sam or young sam geta sexually abused.
Also any stories were johns friends does it or another hunter.
08 March 2017 @ 08:02 pm
Just a couple general searches.
I really want any stories of young Sam that's been abused. I prefer not by john but I will take it. but defiantly no dean abusing him please.
Also traumatized, kidnapped, nightmares.

Is their any were sam has been kidnapped lost or anything and grows up away from Dean and John. He has a really bad time and gets hurt or something. John and Dean find them in the story and help him/ bring him back to them?
25 February 2017 @ 10:55 pm
I read a story a long time ago but couldn't find it since. I was hoping someone could help me.
I think it was Sam who was a hooker or stripper or something along them lines. He was forced to have sex with the boss because he liked sam the best. I think he has to wear a dildo cat tail at one point.
I think Dean and John found him and took him away from it all after he was hurt and raped.

Also, if you now anymore sad hooker jared/Sam or abused Jared/Sam fics could you mention them as well please.
Any help would be appreciated!
20 February 2017 @ 08:09 pm
Hi, i read a story of sam when he was a teenager getting kidnapped by this creature who caught him and tortured him. He wrote on his thigh that he couldn't talk about it to anyone and that he liked pain instead of pleasure (not too sure if this is accurate). He cant say no to people and sleeps with anyone who asks whether he wants to or not.

When the creature has him, he sees dean walking away but doesn't say anything as he wants to protect him.

It ends up that a religious order have the answer but wont give sam the cure because he is seen as a sinner? I think it ends as Sam/Dean.

I really want to reread it hut cant remember the name of the fic.
Pleaee help me!
17 February 2017 @ 08:34 pm
Awhile back I read a story that involved an abusive Dean. I don't remember everything, but what I do remember is Dean is sent to an alternate universe where he is abusive to Sam. When he first gets there he doesn't know that. He notices Sam flinches a lot when he touches him. They're staying with Bobby. He learns that their Dean hurts Sam and he's angry about it. He wants to go back to his universe but he also wants to stay to work things out with Sam. That's all I remember.
Hello. I have a few general searches I'd appreciate some help with.

1) Any fics dealing with the torture Sam went through at the hands of Michael and Lucifer whilst stuck in the cage.

2) Fics about Sam (either set in or similar to season 7) dealing with Lucifer banging up his noggin.

3) Possible AU's where Sam actually was still stuck in the cage and Lucifer was just messing with his head, rather than Sam just being crazy.

4) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

5) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
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I've searched for this fic once before but didn't get any results a few years ago, and it's sprung to my mind again and is now driving me crazy trying to find it so I figured I'd try again. This is definitely an older fic (I'm thinking probably around 2007/8) and is longer one...

I'm not 100% sure if it's a curse or a spell but Sam gets either sent back in time or to an alternate universe where there is another Dean and Sam - the two Sams swap consciousness but still retain their own appearances. In the past/alternate universe, Dean thinks Sam is insane as he is speaking of a different Dean and the future and possibly demons so he sends him to an asylum where he is very much mistreated. He's kept in isolation and chains practically 24/7.

I remember two specific scenes where he is being bathed/tortured, and another where Dean goes to visit him and he is very withdrawn and gaunt, and his hands are covered with a shawl to hide the chains/bruising. He begs Dean to take him home and Dean sees the chains, but he is convinced that his brother is violent which is why he needs the chains... Sam ends up escaping or being rescued by Bobby, and cared for by Jess who is Bobbys daughter... In the present time Dean and Sam from the past try to work out what happened and break the spell/curse to return them to their own timelines...

If anyone knows this specific fic it would be very much appreciated! I'd also like some recommendations along these types of stories & themes.

Hello, me again.

Specific fic: There's this alpha/omega style fic I started reading a week ago but forgot to bookmark, I think it may have been on AO3, and it had Dean, Cas, Charlie and I think someone named Gilda(?) where they were at some sort of omega resort, and Cas and Dean were in a relationship that their alphas' didn't know about. I think I got up to the point where Cas reveals his alpha has taken him off of birth control and Dean kinda freaks out a bit. That's all I can remember.

General searches:
1) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

2) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
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24 October 2016 @ 02:21 pm
I'm looking for fics either of the J2 or Sam/Dean variety that feature mpreg and/or omega Jared/Sam. Bonus points for fics where mpreg/omega Jared/Sam fics where he's escaping an abusive past.

I'm also looking for a specifc J2 fic with omega Jared.Its a forced boning fic. I cant remeber if they are fourced together by some outside agency or if they are fourced together by nature i.e. once you meet your mate you cant refuse bonding. I do remember that there is an age difference and Jared is younger, maybe a teenager, while Jensen is an adult. They live together in Jensens home and they don't physically bond at first because Jensen knows Jared is not ready for that.Read more... )
03 October 2016 @ 11:50 pm
I've been searching for quite a while for all three of these fics.

1. This fic is kind of a redo of the striga episode where in this Sam is pregnant but he doesn't know until the striga attacks him and attacks the baby and he ends up having a miscarriage.FOUND!

2. This fic reminded me of The Crow because Sam and Dean were in a restaurant that ended up getting robbed and they both were both shot and 'killed'. Dean comes back and goes after the people that were involved and tries to find Sam. I remember in this one Sam was shot in the head up against a display case.

3. This story involved Dean and his flashbacks from hell. He creates a rack out of Sam's bed frame and tortures him. Sam is able to escape and stays with Bobby. It's a long time before he feels comfortable being around Dean.

I hope someone can help me find these fics, I've been really wanting to reread them. Thank you!
I'm dying to read again an old fic I lost and cannot for the life of me find on google
- it was eventually Sam/Dean
- teen!Sam is kidnapped, tortured and rape by a supernatural creature
- Dean and John never knew he was kidnapped
- Sam is let go by the creature with a curse written in his inner thigh (or something like that I'm not sure) that cause him to constantly seek pain and sex and to be unable to say no
- to break the curse he has to find someone that knows about the curse and love him nonetheless but he can't reveal to anyone what happened
- I remember Sam had sex with a teacher, kissed for the first time a class mate, and met Jen in a bdsm club
- Dean finds out about the curse thanks to the ghost of another victim of the same creature
ETA: FOUND in the comments

And for the general search, I'm starving for Sam/Dean or Jensen/Jared fics
with sexually abused Sam or Jared (NOT by Dean or Jensen)
that focus on rape recovery
with Sam-Jared being insecure, having nightmares, PTSD (etc) and Dean-Jensen helping him
novel-length fics are better, but I'll read everything
AU or not AU is the same;
I feel like I've already read every single fic about this topic (including all the ones I could find here) so please help me out!
THANK YOU and sorry for any mistakes: english is not my first language!
01 September 2016 @ 01:44 am
I'm on a bit of a bad-father!John kick at the moment (mostly because I love the angsty h/c it causes for the boys), hence my two requests:

1. Are there any fics out there where John mistreats or abuses Sam (physical, mental, etc.), yet when Sam tells Dean about it Dean doesn't believe him (at least initially)?

2. Conversely, are there any fics where John is hard on Dean or treats him unfairly and Sam protects him/stands up for him? This can be physically or verbally protecting Dean from John's actions, or just backing Dean up when John pushes too hard. Not looking for age-regression fics. I've seen this theme come up in deaged!Dean fics, but never in scenarios where their ages are kept unchanged.

Really appreciate any recs you send my way! Any pairing and timeline are accepted. 
I'm looking for a story where Jared was abused but rather than it was by a man it was by his wife. I remember reading the summary of this but I never actually read the story.

I also wanted to read In Service by Phantasima by I can't find it. Does anyone have a PDF of this story or an alternate link?

Does anyone have any general recs for stories of abused or slave Jared or Sam where Jensen/Dean is not the abuser?

Any help would be greatly appreciated 😁
25 November 2015 @ 04:39 am

I'm looking for this one specific homeless teen Dean fic. He meets Castiel behind a dumpster behind the Roadhouse (I think?) when he's looking for a place to sleep after he got kicked out by his dad. In the end they both sleep there. They both work as a prostitute, sometimes together. One day Alistair kidnaps Dean and they don't find him for a few days (weeks?). In the end Dean ends up in the hospital and Sam and John are there as well? -->
I lost all my bookmarks so if anyone could rec some longer (preferably at least 10k but if you think a shorter one is amazing too please add as well :) ) fics with these themes that would be great;
- Dark pre-stanford/stanford era. Dean centric.
- Abused!Dean (all the abuse, by everyone, canon or au)
- Abused!Castiel (again all the abuse)
- Abused Sam, but only by Castiel,Dean or John.
- Any other dark stories with Dark!Sam/Dean/Cas
- Any story where John comes back from the dead after season 5.

26 October 2015 @ 11:01 am

Looking for stories with Omega Sam...where he is hurt and abused for his status. Any paring or AUs just looking for angst with happy ending. Mpreg always good bonus.

25 October 2015 @ 04:40 pm
There are a surfit of fics that feature Dean taking abuse (sexual and/or physical) to spare Sam, and a far lesser number that feature Sam doing something similar, but I can't seem to find many that have both of them in a bad situation.

So, anyone know of any fanfics where both Sam and Dean are being abused? Don't care by whom, but happy endings are preferred. Its also cool if the abuse is all in the past. Maybe they each thought they were the only one being hurt and it comes out years later that they both were?

Also, I'm interested in any fics that might feature Sam or Dean in an abusive relationship in the Stanford era. And maybe finally calling their sibling for help when it finally goes too far, or Sam or Dean being contacted by the hospital when their siblings abuser nearly kills them? Does that exist?

And I'm REALLY interested in all of the above featuring end game Destiel and/or Sabriel. Or gen. (Mpreg and a/b/o stuff doesn't bother me either, but I'm not really into worlds where omegas are seen as lesser beings.)

Please NO wincest, non supernatural AUs, or RPF. (I realize that probably cuts my options down but its just not my thing.)

Thank you!!!

Note: I really had to fight with my tablet to hit the right tags, sorry in advance if I missed one or hit a wrong one.
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24 September 2015 @ 06:33 pm
One of my favorite stories is the Freak Camp series by Brosedshield and LaviniaLavender. Anyone have any recommendations that are like this? Pretty much any hurt Sams stories that have really sad moments but a happy ending. No deathfic please! Thanks!!
14 September 2015 @ 05:07 pm
I'm for looking for stories with similar plots to Come Home by Corri-Khun or the Freak Camp series by Brosedshield and LaviniaLavender or the Devil's Advocate by UThinkUrFunny IThinkImAdorabe. Basically the part that's similar in all these stories is that Sam is thought to be, or is, some kind of supernatural creature and is abused for it. Anyone know or any other stories with that subject matter? Thanks!
13 September 2015 @ 01:50 pm
It's an older story that I don't think was ever finished but I can't seem to find it anywhere. I vaguely remember it was about John believing that Sam was evil and abusing him for it. Does anyone know where I can find it? Thanks!
I read this story a long time ago (years I think) so what I can remember is this...

Dean is cursed and doesn't remember that Sam is his brother. The boys go back to Bobby's house to try and fix the curse. At one point Dean offers Sam some kind of meat (a burger maybe?), but Sam refuses and when Dean asks why Sam said he'd know why if he remembered Sam at all. I think this comes from when Sam was tortured by his cousins and one of them tried to literally eat him and he still has the bite marks from it.

I also think Dean didn't really want to remember he had a little brother all that much because he liked being an only child.

This may or may not be me mixing two stories together, so if any of this sounds familiar let me know. Thanks guys!
27 August 2015 @ 08:34 pm
I just love fics where Dean hits Sam and Sam is shocked and hurt. Maybe Dean always said "I'll never hurt you" and then he does hurt Sam and Sam feels really hurt.

please im begging.
27 July 2015 @ 08:11 pm
I'm looking for stories where Sam is being hurt,tortured, raped, etc and Dean (maybe John) is forced to watch. It'd be even better if the story goes into what happens after they escape/are rescued. I just ask no deathfic please! Thanks!
09 June 2015 @ 06:16 pm
I'm looking for fics that feature Hurt!Sam and Guilty!/Protective!Dean, preferably in the first two seasons or teenchesters, but other seasons are ok too. Wincest is ok, though I prefer gen, non slash stuff. No pwp please. No Death!fics please. Destiel is also ok as long as the fic isn't Destiel centric, I'd prefer it to be mostly about the brothers/Sam. There are a few things I'd like to see specifically, so I'll list them here.

- Sam and Dean are in the middle of a brawl and are for the most part holding their own until Sam gets caught off guard, maybe seriously hurt, Dean sees and tries to get to him but is outnumbered. Limp!Sam, H/C ensues.

- Sam is a teenager and gets in an argument with either Dean or John or both, so decides to clear his head with a walk/run/storms out of the house. Everything is fine at first until Sam gets hurt. Could be attacked, kidnapped, hit by a car, doesn't especially matter as long as Dean finds him unconscious and hurt and has to take care of him, while trying not to lose it over guilt and worry.

under cut for possible triggers

-Sam does something that pisses John off and so John sends Dean off for solo hunts or hunts with Caleb or Bobby, in order to focus on Sam and give him concentrated, isolated training. At first there's a lot of sparring and wearing Sam down with running etc. But one day John gets drunk, and beats/rapes Sam. The next day Sam is in extreme pain and John doesn't remember the night before, so forces Sam to keep running laps, and train, regardless of his pain. This happens a few times over the years, but Sam pushes through it and keeps it to himself. Dean finds out later.

Amendment: Nothing Graphic, I don't want to hear about the abuse itself, more the recovery process/Dean finding out. I want to see how the brothers handle that situation. (Ie. Sam sharing something that absolutely scares him to share, and no doubt still has him really messes up, and sharing it in spite of the fact he knows that their opinion of john is a HUGE bone of contention between the brothers. Dean realizing his hero worship has blinded him to how much john really has hurt Sam, and also having to face what that means.) I REPEAT this isn't about the act of abuse, please lave that out- it's about the effect, and the recovery, and the impact on Sam and Dean.

Any fics with a focus on Sam recovering, and Dean coming to terms with his role/blindness of abuse are welcome.

- Sam is angry with Dean for some reason, and gets distracted on a hunt for a witch. While casting a spell to kill the witch, Sam loses focus and puts the wrong ingredients into the ritual or says the wrong words, throwing him into a different dimension, where he can see/hear Dean, but can't talk to him or be seen. Dean freaks out and tries to get him back.

So let me know if y'all know any fics like this. Thanks in advance. :)
Hello guys!

So, I hevn't read this fanfic before, but i saw an old post here on the community where someone was looking for it, but sadly it was never found, and i'm really interested in reading it. Here's the post:

"Sam is kidnapped by the (relatives?) of a demon(s)/monster(s) they killed a while back. These monsters are in control of an underground prostitution ring (except, I think, they somehow get the victims to say "yes") for monsters and demons. They catch Sam, bind him up, and brutally abuse/rape him. Various monsters come to him, including some kind of wraith or big-and-bad. Dean eventually figures out what's going on and he calls in a bunch of hunters and they raid the place and rescue Sam."

According to the original post, it's neither "The Fetters of Fenrir" by leonidaslion nor "A Year Without Music."

Also, I just read "Worth the Price" by d8rc_messnger, and it was AMAZING, but i read a .PDF version since her account has been deleted or something, so i was hoping that maybe someone could point me to where i can find her other fics? I just really loved the way she wrote "Worth the Price" and I'd love to read her other works as well!

Thanks in advance :D
19 May 2015 @ 08:53 pm
I'm looking for some fics. I hope you guys can help me.

#1. Any good J2 or Wincest fics. Bottom Jared/Sam is preferred. Any length is okay, but the longer the better. I don't care of it's AU

#2. Any J2 or Wincest fics where Jensen/Dean cheat on Jared/Sam. Any ending is okay

#3. Any hurt, sick, abused (in any way) Jared/Sam fics. It can be J2, Wincest or Gen, I don't care.

Thanks for your help.
12 April 2015 @ 05:44 pm
I'm looking for a story that I read a long time ago that was centered around Sam and Dean dealing with Sam being raped.
This is all I remember from it: Dean and Sam retire from hunting from what I remember and they buy a house and Dean takes the bath out because for some reason baths are triggering for Sam. Sam had been kidnapped and raped by some creature that reminded me of and alligator-monster. And Sam has messed up feet from torture. The first part is in Sam's pov but there's and add-on that is in Dean's
I'm sorry I suck at summaries but if you can help, it's greatly appreciated!
06 April 2015 @ 11:14 am

Looking for a story were Dean leaves John and Sam and joins the military. He left so John would start taking care of Sam. That didn't work and CPS gets in touch with Dean and he has to care for Sam. Dean has a house with other members of his unit. I think Sam had Aids as well.

So I found a fic on someones delicious account that I would really really like to read;

My Heart Yearns
"Sam said he was going away to Stanford, but he actually never got into college. He just needed a reason to run away from his unnatural feelings for Dean. Two years later, Dean comes looking for him in Palo Alto, but they have no record of Sam Winchester as a student. Dean tracks Sam down to a sex house in San Francisco where the owner keeps the working boys high on a dangerous cocktail of drugs to make them more compliant to customers' strange demands. Dean has to pose as a client to get close to Sam. Sam seduces him." (comment fic)

it doesn't say anywhere what comment fic meme it was in :/


love you all xoxox
I hope someone can help me find this story. It has been a while since I've read it and I'm a bit hazy on the details. I think it was a WIP and not finished at the time I read it. Sam and Dean were at a bar and had been drinking. When they came out they were kidnapped and taken to a lab. The scientist was doing some type of experimentation and had wanted 2 young men to perform the experiments on. He did not realize that the boys were brothers at the time. This is where it get sort of hazy for me, so bear with me....somehow the scientist planted a womb inside Sam and used Dean's sperm to create a baby. This is basically a mpreg story. I can remember Dean falling to his knees and crying about the pain that Sam had to endure while the scientist experimented on him. I remember Bobby somehow finding them and being torn up about what had happened to the boys.

Any help would be appreciated.

FOUND....thank you very much, Vinylreckoning
12 February 2015 @ 03:36 am
I've been absent from the fandom for a good while & I'm trying to find a fic that I read a while ago which I loved, I've been searching google for a few days now with everything I can think of to find this and it's driving me crazy so I'm hopeful that someone here can help me.

The details from what I remember are pretty vague:

- it's an older fic I'm 90% positive
- it's either time travel or an alternate universe which Sam is sent to
- a spell or a curse which causes Sam from the present time to swap places with Sam ion the past (who also has a brother called Dean)
- I'm pretty sure the brothers from the past weren't hunters but don't quote me on that
- the alternate Dean thinks that Sam from our time is insane as he speaks about hunting and time travel and has him committed where he really suffers in the institution.
- there's a scene where Dean visits Sam at the institution & Sam begs him to him home and tells Dean they are hurting him but Dean passes it off as his illness
- he escapes and a girl called Jessica (I'm pretty sure) helps him and nurses him back to health

That's really all I can remember but I'm pretty sure that Dean in present time finds a way to communicate with his Sam in the fic too.

I know this could be any number of fics so I'll take any recommendations along these lines too.

Thanks in advance!
06 February 2015 @ 05:51 pm
Looking for stories where Castiel has to care for or protect younger versions of Sam and/or Dean. Can be de-aged or just pre-series.

Specifically looking for stories where the boys are abused and Castiel is a doctor/pediatrician and is able to care for them, but other comfort stories work too. I think I read one where Castiel worked for CPS and had to care for the boys and I would like to find more of those as well.

If you know of any stories where Castiel has to gain wee!chester trust and comfort them that would also be awesome. Thanks!
I read an awesome story called Instinct by NixBlaque and was wondering if there were any more stories similar to it. Without going into too much detail the main parts i am looking for are: Dean/ Sam, not brothers, Dean rescues creature Sam, if Slash I would prefer bottom Sam. Any suggestions would be appreciated.
Sorry  if it is not specific enough.
Link to Instinct if anybody wants to read it.
Hey, so I'm looking for fics where John has to choose between his boys. I would like fics where they are kidnapped or something, and John has to choose which boy dies or gets tortured or something like that, I'm not really looking for Death fics though! I've read a few like this but they're not really what I'm looking for! And I DON'T want fics with rape or sexual abuse.

I'm also looking for fics where the Boys travel back in time, to see their younger selves, I've also read a few of these but I haven't found any I really liked..

If anyone has any fics to rec that'd be awesome!
And please NO wincest or destiel!
27 September 2014 @ 10:07 pm
I am looking a specific story that puts the boys and John in an alternate universe. It chronicles their lives from their first motel night until the boys start hunting of their own accord. John drinks heavily, and initially Dean is responsible for keep Sam fed and quiet. As time goes on, John starts beating Dean, but Dean takes it so Sam doesn't have to. Then one night Sam stands up to John for Dean, and after both being beaten bloody, they escape to New York City. Dean gets a job at a garage and sends Sam to school.
23 August 2014 @ 11:17 pm
Are there any stories where Mary is not the loving, nurturing sacrificing, devoted mother? I will take anything except Wincest or Slash.

Also, are there any stories where both John and Dean blame Sam for Mary dying? I would love to see them be really abusive towards Sam throughout his life but I will take anything.

Thanks in advance!!!!
19 July 2014 @ 01:26 pm
Hi everyone

I read a story many years ago and it's just popped up in my head and now I want to read it again, so here is what I can remember.

* I'm sure it was on FF.net.
* There are a bunch of guys who take Sam.
* They get Dean to do jobs for them.
* One of the jobs I think was to kill someone and then give them a finger from the dead guy but Dean doesn't kill them, just gets the finger.
* I'm sure another job was to get a diamond ring.
* They made Sam go get the items from Dean and the bad guys would shoot at them if they took too long.
* Dean noticed that Sam was looking worse each time they met.
* I'm pretty sure it was long

I hope someone can help me

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15 July 2014 @ 12:54 am


I'm travelling soon and won't have internet connection for a while. So, please, help me out!

I'd really like long stories, J2 or Wincest. Shy, insecure, sick Jared or Sam. I'd love if someone could point out stories where Sam/Jared is in love with a clueless Jensen/Dean. Also, any stories where one of them is a celebrity and the other is a normal person from the public. If Sam/Jared is being abused by his parents or boyfriend.

To be honest, just recommend good and long stories. I'm not picky and I'm desperate to find good stories to read while I'm away!

Sorry for the general request and thanks in advance!

Mods: sorry! It's ben a while and I'm not used to the tags anymore...tried my best!

21 June 2014 @ 03:19 pm
Hello again,

I'm looking for a type of fic where;

1) Castiel is upset over the way Dean treats Sam, whether abuse is present or just implied.

2) Sam is hurt (mentally, physically) or is suicidal and Dean doesn't seem to care/notice, but Cas does.

3) Dean loses patience with crazy!Cas (season 7) and treats him badly. Sam is the opposite and cares for Cas.

Whether Dean realises what he's done or not doesn't matter too much. Also, these do not have to be Sastiel, though that's always a nice bonus, so any pairing is fine.  Please no AU's (like human!verse, Cafe fics, etc) though Canon AU is fine.

Thanks so much!!
22 May 2014 @ 02:14 pm
I have had a REALLY bad 4 months and I need LOTS of cheering up. What you can do to help with that is to recommend as many h/c, angst Sam (or Jared) stories you know (gen only please but I will take any and all ratings)!!! Share with me the ones where Sam is SO injured, you don't know how he is going to survive. Share the stories where your heart is breaking apart right along with his. Recommend all the abused Sam stories you keep reading over and over again. My motto is the more Sam hurts (physically and/or emotionally) the happier I am!!! Also the longer the story is the happier I am!!!

I am sure I have read a lot of your recs but please rec away. It is always good to re-read great fics over again. Also self-recs are welcome (I don't know why anyone would have a problem with self-recs). Bonus points for Dean (Jensen) being an AWESOME big brother (at least by the end of the story)

So start reccing!!! THANKS!!!
21 May 2014 @ 10:33 pm
so a while ago I read this au fanfic and in it Sam was in an abusive relationship with Lucifer and Gabriel was a bartender who was trying to protect Sam - can any of you help me find it?

update: found in comments
26 April 2014 @ 10:08 pm
So I read the story Suspicious Mind by lizzypaul and I was wondering if there are any other fics like it. So basically I'm looking for any fics where people suspect that Sam is abused. Gen would be preferable and maybe have it be pretty lengthy? Maybe the CPS can get involved? So anything like that would be awesome, Thanks!