Hello! I've recently read Credit in the Straight World, Outside By the Blue, Blue Moon, Brittle, Boy Falling Out of the Sky, The Air Moves In, Invisible Boy series... Basically if you can find it under Sam Winchester/OMC and it's lengthy on AO3, I probably have read it! I'd love more fics though, so I hope you can help!

1. Fics that have Sam exploring his sexuality with a male, with Dean finding out or walking in on it. Bonus for Dean getting super overprotective! Wincest preferred but I'll take gen too. I don't mind what age they are.
2. Hurt! Sam with comfort. Rape, violence, anything.
3. Sam with an eating disorder or self harming Sam.
4. Infantalism as a lifestyle. I'd prefer baby! Sam if that's possible. I've read SailorChibi's works on Ao3 for this too.
5. Protective/Possessive/Jealous! Dean.
6. Dean walking in on Sam getting off.

I'd love everything to end with a happy ending! No death fics, please. I'm looking for Wincest only, no other pairings. I don't mind if it starts out as another pairing as long as it ends in Wincest. I'll take gen too. Thanks so much in advance :D
19 September 2016 @ 01:59 pm
Just a general, non-specific search for stories that feature mentally ill and/or suicidal Jared or Sam. The more dark and messed up the better, I really want him to hurt (I know, I'm a terrible person). It can be AU, non-AU, gen or slash (but if it's slash please only Wincest or Jared/Jensen). I've seen a lot of mentally ill Sam fics out there but not many ones focusing on Jared. The longer the word count the better. Thanks!
04 September 2016 @ 09:27 am
1) I'm looking for fics where Dean has an eating disorder. It doesn't have to be the sole focus of the fic and I'll accept just about any eating disorder. He can get treatment or not, the issue can be named or not, people can try to help or tell him to suck it up, gen or ship, it's all good.

2) I'm also looking for fics that specifically deal with Dean having an eating disorder where he starts making himself puke after normal meals because he feels like a pig for eating stuff like burgers and pie, and then it just slowly progresses and spins out of control to where he's puking after every meal or barely eating. I've only found one fic like this and I really hope more exist.

Any help is much appreciated!
I'm looking for some stories where Castiel is struggling to get used to being human, and has trouble getting used to normal human things (like eating and sleeping maybe), which develops into health issues (eating disorders, insomnia, ect.)
Could you recommend J2 stories in which one J recovers from extreme abuse? the ratio of abuse to recovery time is not important, but it has to be pretty horrific and move towards a better end, even if the fic doesn't end on perfect notes (even death!fics are cool(.

Examples or harm include, torture, malnutrition, involuntary body modification, extreme power play that leads to identity and dissociation issues, and of course lots of physical harm. Sexual violence/slavery is cool, but I'd prefer if it was paired with more complex issues.

Bonus for length, world-building, J1 helping J2 recover from JDM (I love me to evil-JDM), and badass!victims that want to get better but need someone to show them how to move past their trauma and love themselves.

Also, the recovering abusee doesn't have to be one of the Js, but one of the Js must contribute to the recovery and (preferably) no J on J violence unless you think its awesome (like in the Desperate Measures verse).

Oh boy. I am a real buzzkill. I have no idea how to tag this except to select everything under the 'warning' tag :-/

Please and thank you
14 November 2015 @ 11:28 pm
So, I read these two stories a long time ago and now I can't find them. Any help is appreciated!

1. Sam was sexually abused by a fellow hunter as a minor. Dean didn't know but I'm pretty sure Bobby did. Anyway, the Hunter comes back around asking for help on a case and Sam tries to act normal so that Dean doesn't find out. I think the ending involved Sam telling Dean that he needed to tell him something. (I'm pretty sure I read it on FF)

2. Adam grew up with the Winchester's and at one school his teacher makes him stay after school for tutoring but Adam ends up getting repeatedly sexually assaulted by the teacher instead. Adam then developed an eating disorder to cope. I specifically remember a scene when Sam catches Adam bingeing and purging late at night. They try to put Adam in counseling but he refuses and purposefully scratches the impala. Adam eventually confesses to the assault. (I read this on FF as well)

Thanks so much! :-)
10 November 2015 @ 01:04 pm
Simple and straight to the point.
I want all the stories that feature Sam with an eating disorder.

Any pairings or non-pairings welcome. Pre-series, during series, post series, whatever. The story can be about it or it could just be in the story but not the focus. Happy ending, sad ending, open ending, whatever.

Seriously... anything... as long as Sam has an eating disorder.

Reason? Therapy fics. Some people like to read (or write) about situations they go through to help deal with it.
23 November 2014 @ 10:26 pm
This is my very first time asking for help finding a story but not being able to find this one story is really driving me crazy.

Here is what I remember:

- I believe it was on FanFiction.com

- Adam was raised with Sam and Dean
- Adam starts getting sexually assaulted by a teacher but he is too afraid to confide to his brothers
- Adam then develops an eating disorder to cope
- Sam finds out about his eating disorder but Adam convinces him to not tell anyone
- Eventually, everyone else finds out and someone is making him go to therapy but Adam damaged the Impala to not go. Dean is livid and tells Adam that he doesn't care about what happens to him
- Adam finally tells his family what happened to him... John and Dean leave to go confront the teacher leaving Sam to take care of Adam.

I hope those are enough details in order for someone to identify the story! Thank you! :)
15 November 2014 @ 11:35 pm
Are there any other stories like this one - https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4987670/1/Not-Hungry - where Sam finds out that Dean sacrificed his own nutrition so that Sam could eat when there wasn't enough food for both of them? I'd especially like it if Sam finds this out when they are adults.

Any other stories about their different tastes in food would be good too. Maybe how Dean loves to cook or maybe some hurt!Dean where he has to adjust his diet and Sam convinces him to at least try and eat healthier.
28 May 2014 @ 07:12 pm
I've been looking for this specific story that had Sam suffering through and eating disorder.
It was a very long and in depth story. The author really went all out into Sam's mind in this one. So much that it is extremely difficult to re call anything that could really help out the search.

I am not exactly sure, but I am almost positive that the story was Gen, but I could be wrong. It could also have been wincest, but I don't seem to recall that.

Basically, the story revolved around Sam having an eating disorder. I wasn't much of an AU fic cause the boys were still hunting. At some point of the story Dean realizes that Sam has been getting thinner and has been eating less. (Like noticing that he drinks bottled water excessively, he'll take one bite of the meal and not finish the rest)

I do remember one particular scene where Dean tries to test his theory to prove Sam's eating disorder to himself. I believe that they were driving around in the impala and Dean gets in the mood for snacks and decides to stop at a gas station to buy some. I know for a fact, 100% that he bought twizzlers. Dean tries to get Sam to eat more the just to a bite of it. I recall him eating it aggressively to prove a point.

Other than that, I don't necessarily know much more. I do also know for a fact that the story was over 10K and was divided into parts. (Maybe 3 or 4?) and I read it on LJ. I am not sure if it could be on Archive of our Own or Fanfiction.net.

I hope my hazy details helped a bit.

Thanks in advance
26 March 2014 @ 04:40 pm
I'm looking for fics where a main character suffers from Binge Eating Disorder. Binging can take over a person's life, and I would love to read a character's journey with the disorder, and hopefully, recovery. Over eating is NOT the same thing, so don't rec me those. Binging is when a person eats excessively even when they're not hungry to the point where they can't move, and food takes over their entire world.

Does anyone know if there's anything like this out there? I would be forever in your debt.

Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean only. Gen is fine, but NO het or Destiel.

NO anorexia or bulimia; they aren't the same thing as BED.

Don't rec me - 22 Weeks Is A Long Time or In A Mirror Distorted and Indistinct. They are't what I'm looking for, and I've already read them.
09 February 2014 @ 04:07 pm
1. Obsession. Fics where one or both the boys are obsessed with the other. I do not care how the fics turns out. If they get together and are happy or if one gets a restraining order. I just want obsession.

2. Teacher/Student. Im almost positive I've read every one in the fandom, but, surprise me. Give me more. I will gladly reread them too.

3. Eating disorder(s).
19 October 2013 @ 09:11 pm
It has mention of Destiel at the very end. But it kind of spans over Dean's life from a time when he's young to the "present". He has an eating disorder (bulimia) and it goes through different sections of his life. From taking care of Sam as kids, to Sam leaving for college, to Dean going to Hell (where Alistair did horrible things to him, and made him and Bella do awful things) to the end where he's with Cas and they're together. Does anyone know where I can find it?

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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06 September 2013 @ 09:54 pm
Hello, darlings!

I'm looking for any kind of fic where Dean has an eating disorder, or problems with weight/eating. I would like for it to be destiel, but I don't mind if it's not exactly an established relationship.

I am also interested in fics where Dean suffers from a mental disorder, of any kind. Pairing preference is the same as mentioned above.

PDF's are also welcome.

Thank you, lovelies.
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07 August 2013 @ 02:05 am
Hey, so I was wondering if any of you could help me with this. :)

1. Any Jensen Ackles/Chad Michael Murray? Preferably not Jared/Jensen/Chad or Jared/Chad. But if the fic is good, and you think I'll like it, go ahead and rec it. :)

2. Sebastian/Misha? The fics are always so small, so I was wondering if any y'all knew a long one, or a really cute one. Any will work.

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3. And the last request. Any Wincest fics where Dean self-harms or has an eating disorder. Actually, any j2 fics with Jensen like that would also be really great. (I put this under a cut because this may be sensitive for some readers)

Thank you!
28 July 2013 @ 01:05 pm
Hey there!

I'm on a hunt for stories about Jared (or anyone really) being concerned about Jensen's weight loss.

It could be because he's been sick, stressed, depressed or whatever the situation.  I just want some serious concern by friends or family.  Maybe some tears?  I love a crying Jensen, not gonna lie!

It can be AU or Non and if it's J2 that's a huge bonus but as long as there is some concern for Jensen and his health in the story, I'll be happy!
25 June 2013 @ 07:14 pm
Gathering some fics to recommend for my friend, and I cannot, for the love of strawberries, remember where this fic is.

It was of a moderately long fic, composed of either two parts or the initial story and a sequel. Dean was deaf from a young age - older than five, but younger than twelve I think. John is emotionally/verbally abusive and neglectful to Dean after he becomes deaf, and then becomes physically abusive after Sam leaves for college. At one point John is possessed by a demon, and Dean does not realize the difference until a few days/weeks later. Because of John's abuse, Dean develops an eating disorder.

The first part (or the first story) is set before/during Sam's Stanford years, and the second part (or the sequel) takes place during season 1. The latter is more focused on Sam realizing that something is wrong with his brother and trying to figure out what it is/how to help him.

Thank you in advance.
05 June 2013 @ 03:20 pm
01. Any fics where Sam comes out as gay/bisexual to his brother and father? Any reaction is fine, and I'm all for wincest or Sam/omc etc.

02. Alpha/beta/omega fics with Sam or Jared as an omega - I'm always on the look out for these! Knotting and mpreg are a bonus!

03. Any fics where Jared/Jensen/Sam/Dean are bikers? There's not enough on these, and since I'm working on a biker!verse of my own I thought I'd see what you guys can turn up! Bottom!sam/jared only please.

04. Any slutty!Sam fics? Can be girl!sam, but I'd love to see a version of him where he loves getting fucked. Would be awesome if Dean found out about it and there was eventual wincest, but I'd take anything where bottom!sam is a little bit of a slut. Underage is fine. Bonus for him getting off on rough sex and being manhandled. Dubcon elements are fine. Will also be happy to receive slutty!Jared recs :)

05. Possessive Dean/Jensen. I seriously can't get enough of these, so please rec your favourites!

06. Hurt/sick Sam or Jared. Would particularly love something where Sam/Jared finds out that they have a serious illness and tries to hide it from Dean/Jensen. I think I've read most of these, but I'm desperate to turn up some new ones!

07. Sam with a medical assistance dog of some kind? Would also love ones where Jared has a dog for this reason, but Sam ones are hard to find and I'd really appreciate people tossing a few my way. Doesn't matter if it's for an emotional/psychological reason (such as ptsd) or physical.

08. Fics where Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean meet in college?

09. Fics where Sam/Jared thinks he's worthless, or has low self esteem? Or has an eating disorder?

I think that's all for now, but I'll likely be back with a few more requests soon enough! Thanks in advance to anyone who helps!
26 May 2013 @ 12:24 pm
I don't really know how to start this, so I'm just going to jump in. Fair warning, this list is long. Also, I'd just like non-Wincest fics.

1. crying!Dean fics. I don't care why he's crying, I just want him crying and Sam or John comforting him.
2. Dean or John is deaged and Same has to take care of them.
3. blind, deaf, hurt, or sick!Dean with Sam taking care of him. I don't care if how hard the injury is or how sick Dean is, if he's been blind or deaf since birth, if it's permanent or just part of a curse.
4. protective or smart!Sam. Just something where Dean or John realize that Sammy isn't little anymore.
5. girl!Sam. Because I'd bet she'd be awesome, I'd prefer Dean is still a boy, unless
6. doctor!Sam. At least have taken some classes, and how'd that would affect their hunts.
7. Crossovers with Criminal Minds (with a focus on Sam and Reid) or SuperWhoLock crossovers. Any kind. Though a focus on Sam, the Elventh Doctor, and Sherlock would be loved.
8. Sam as teenaged father please, or Sam with a daughter.
9. Sam realizing he's gay or bi, and John and Dean's reactions
10. Sam going back just mentally and impressing everyone with his knowledge, or physically and everyone wondering what the hell happened to make him like this.
11. abused!Dean. Any kind, but I'd like the main on it to focus on his recovery.
12. teen!Sam getting addicted to any kind of drugs or starts cutting.
13. teen!Dean getting an eating disorder or being raped and a focus on his recovery.
14. Basically any Castiel/Sam fics that don't meet any of these requirements. No porn unless it's part of a much larger story.

18 May 2013 @ 10:31 pm
hey so im looking for angsty fics. and I mean ripping your heart out of your chest and stamping on it would be less painful kind if fic. ones I would really like: high school fics where character a has really low self esteem (self harms and is suicidal is a plus) and they are in love with the popular guy. emphasis on how alone they feel and perhaps how their home life isnt great is a must.

Basically pining fics where a character has no friends and they have kind of given up. aus are ppreferred if possible. eating disorder fics I would absolutely love too if you've got them.

any fics where being depressed or having a major drug addiction (perhaps they are homeless because of it) would also be greatly appreciated.

the longer the fics the better, I would prefer destiel but j2 and wincest are also fine. I would like the fics the be as well written as possible too. thanks in advance!
I'm not exactly sure how to tag this because it could fall under a million different tags, so I'll just beg: please give me all your Sam or Jared getting skinny. It could be either an eating disorder, illness, curse, addiction, whatever. I just love him all long and lanky, the more narrow the better. Gen, het, slash, it's all fair game.

Also, if you've got any good ones where characters swap bodies with each other, that'd be great too. My preference is for J2 or Sam 'n Dean, but all are welcomed.

Thanks in advance!
Okay, I'm looking for a few different things here.

1. Any fics where Dean's birthday is forgotten. Maybe he grows up not celebrating his birthday, when they always celebrate Sam's birthday. Or when Sam is at Stanford, he has to spend his birthday alone because Sam and John don't remember. OR, after Dean picks Sam up from Stanford up to anywhere in season 8, Sam and/or everyone else forgets Dean's birthday, and Dean is disappointed but doesn't mention anything, and everyone remembers later. I'd rather it be Non-Au.

2. Fics where Dean stops eating because he is stressed, keeps forgetting, someone says something mean about his eating habits (kind of like John in The Illusionist on ff.net), Sam realizes Dean didn't eat enough as a child because he gave it all to Sam, etc. Please, Non-AU.

3. Any fics where maybe Sam realizes Dean puts on a front, but in reality he's really shy or his true personality is like the opposite from what he makes it out to be and he only acts like that because John wanted him to or it was to protect himself. Maybe even Dean brags about being with tons of woman,  but he hasn't and only said that to pacify John or annoy Sam. Or he pretends to be dumb so Sam feels important. Possibly he is cursed to show his true self. Again, Non-Au please.

4. Fics based on the Disney movie Atlantis: The Lost Empire, where Dean and Sam go looking for the city, and Castiel and the other angels are actually the ancient civilization that live there. Destiel please, and obviously AU is the way to go.

5. Any fics where Sam and Dean climb Mt. Everest for some reason. Possibly they have to go on a journey to find some random artifact or something. Really specific with details on how hard the climb was and what they went through. Non-AU please.

If you could help me with any of these requests, I'd really appreciate it. Have a nice day! :)
14 February 2013 @ 11:03 pm
So, I've never actually READ this story, just seen it rec-ed.  Of course, now that I WANT to read it, I can't find it anywhere.  I'm just going to write what I remember from the summary.

Jensen's slightly overweight.  His ex writes a story in a magazine about dating someone who's obese.  This inspires Jensen into some sort of action.

Hopefully, that vague description will strike someone and I will FINALLY be able to read this story!
Anything where (fallen) Castiel has an eating disorder, and Dean is caring/worried

Please no slash and no AU

18 January 2013 @ 09:24 pm
Any fics out there with either Jensen or Jared having bulimia or are anorexic, the other one being protective, supportive and such as they try to deal with it.

Open to Sam and Dean too but please no wincest.

I have read Mouths of Decadence
An In A Mirror Distorted & Indistinct felisblanco

Also does anyone have a link to the Ruins 'Verse? EDIT: Sort of found

11 November 2012 @ 02:54 pm
I'm back again, looking for Sam/Dean fics where Sam has some kind of disorder? It doesn't matter if it's preseries, or something that's been developed since/because of Dean's death or his own venture into hell, or whatever. OCD, self harm, suicidal!Sammy, ptsd, eating disorder, whatever you've got, I'll take it. 

The longer the fic, the better!
Preferably not mpreg, and not on ff.net
Thank you!

Sorry if I've missed anything

Alrighty, I've got a couple of things I'm looking for.

1) Dean is still having nightmares about hell (or maybe something else), and Cas is trying to comfort him in some way, maybe extremely confused and awkwardly, maybe not.

2) Castiel is having a difficult time adjusting to having human needs, i.e. eating and sleeping, and either has insomnia/fear of sleeping or develops some sort of eating disorder (the latter would make my life), and Dean is there trying to patch him up.

I would really, really like destiel and fluffuous comforting, but gen is alright too. Really, I'm not super picky about any of this stuff, so if you know of anything similar but not quite like my description, shoot.

Thanks a million! You dudes are awessome (;

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I'm on an eternal quest to find good self harm/eating disorder fics for dean and jensen, so I'd be happy to get any good ones! it can be any pairing, au or canon, at any age, but it has to be self inflicted (in the case of eating disorder fics). I've already read In a Mirror Distorted and Indistinct and most other often-recced fics though, so lesser-known fics would be much appreciated!

I'd also like some fem!Winchesters, but no curse-related genderswap, simply them being born female. I'd rather them still be hunters, but I like AUs, too. I'd prefer gen fics for this, but dean/cas and or sam/gabriel is fine also. NO wincest on this one, please.

thank you!
Hi, I'm looking for a few stories that I saw a while back and a general search to see if there are any existing stories that cover what I'm interested in.

1. First off is a story about Sam having asthma. I remember reading how Sam let himself have a bad asthma attack purely to torture and punish himself. If anyone knows or has written any stories similar to this, I would love to hear. [Found]

2. Secondly I've seen stories where Dean becomes blind, an OC becomes deaf and Sam becomes mute. I've also seen a few stories where Dean is mute and am interested in an AU story in which Sam is mute either from birth or some point during his childhood.

3. Third is a little odd, but I'm really interested in Sam's relationship with food. Over the entire series I've only seen Sam eat about four times and it's only ever one tiny bite, all other times we see Sam looking disgusted by Dean's eating habits and declining offers for food (mainly also is that Sam is pretty ripped, how is he getting like that when he never eats more than a nibble?). This one covers eating disorders or supernatural influences (vampire, demon blood, maybe even a vampire-demon hybrid of sorts, perhaps Sam can only drink demon blood? etc). I would just like to read something that addresses this odd phenomenon of the show. [Found]

4. Is there any stories where Sam, or Sam and Dean, are some kind of were? Not a bizarre hybrid of man and beast, but turning completely from a Human to an animal. Shapeshifter-esque.

[Edit] 5. Does anyone know of a story where Sam has to protect his Stanford friends from something Supernatural, or even just Human? Stanford days would be great. On the same note, is there anything on an AU where Sam stays evil, and someone who knew Sam back in Stanford or remembers him saving their lives on a hunt gives their point of view seeing Sam evil, as like King of Hell or something?

They're all mainly Sam centered, but I'm open to Dean's POV or even stories where say Sam's eating habits are only briefly mentioned. I'd prefer no Wincest, but I'm not 100% against it. Slash is absolutely fine, as is het.
so hi fellas,

i'm not looking for any specific storys, just some good fics to read ! i guess you can help me

1. highschool and college fics, where either dean / jensen or cas / misha is teacher and one or the other student. maybe that one whoever are student gets in trouble and teacher gets worried about him, and somehow they fall in love. i also would like to read stories with same basis but where teacher panics about their big age difference and maybe ends their thing and another gets really sad or pissed etc

2. stories like http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7726055/1/Too_Much ( one of my all the time favs, you really should read it ! ). i mostly prefer cas as bipolar and dean getting care of him. college and high school au's are the best, but i take others too

3. eating disorder fics. i don't care which one of these two are sick, but i maybe like more dean as the one. maybe it could be sam or gabriel / bathazar too, like, seeking attention, getting jealous when brother has found someone who gets suddenly all the attention. i've read lately stories http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7563979/1/The_Dead_Walk ( another favourite !! ) and http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6887905/1/Thin plus few others, but most of them have been wincest or j2 so please, give me some destiel

4. just good college and gich school fics, as long as possible ! me likey if there's some drama clubs or dancing hobbies, but i'm okay without them too. just something good to read !

show me what you guys got and hit me with your best shots ; i dare you !
05 April 2012 @ 08:04 pm
Hey All,
I am looking for any fics in which Sam/Jared or Dean/Jensen has an eating disorder, Dean/Jensen is prefered but I am not too fussed either way. Also if there is some Adam one out there I would LOVE LOVE LOVE it :)
It can have a pairing or not, but if it does I would rather it be Wincest or J2
Thanks in adavance :)
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30 March 2012 @ 01:02 pm
I really want to read some well-written awesome fics that others enjoyed :)

1) Non-AU J2 fics with the boys figuring out or disclosing their mutual attraction to each other. UST is always awesome, as is angst.

2) Any h/c low self-esteem fics in which Jared, Jensen, Misha,  Sam, Dean, Cas, or Gabriel feels like he isn't good enough, and another one of the three helps him through it. I'm not really picky about pairings. Self-injury, eating disorders... anything goes. Once again, preferably not AU. I really liked In Mirror Distorted and Indistinct

3) A (possibly shmoopy) story in which one of the boys has to go out of their comfort zone to comfort the other... hugs, cuddling, heart-to-hearts, etc.

4) Inexperienced!Cas... Dean shows Castiel how to get himself off or shows him how to have sex.

5) This one is really general, but any story with great sexual tension that does or does not lead to sex. Long stories filled with awkward moments and awkward boners make me happy :)

Sorry for so many requests! Thanks!
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16 March 2012 @ 07:43 pm
Jensen/Jared, Jensen/Misha, Dean/Cas, Sam/Gabriel, or gen are all fine, and either character/person can have the eating disorder. I only want stories where the disorder is self-inflicted, and I'd prefer if they ended up getting a bit better by the end, but it's not necessary. I definitely only want AUs for stories involving characters from the show, but RPF based in reality is fine. and I'd love a high school or college AU, but I don't think there're any dealing with eating disorders. :/
Oh, and I've already read In a Mirror, Distorted and Indistinct.

thank you! :3
01 March 2012 @ 10:20 pm
Alright, so I have mock exams all of next week, not to mention getting results from the previous segment, so I'm working on the principle that I'm either going to need some good fics to cheer me up, or just for relaxing with. As such, I'm looking for a few things:

1. Stories where Sam and Dean or Jared and Jensen have an argument, or some kind of misunderstanding, and Jared/Sam ends up hurt - causing mucho guilt for Jensen/Dean. I’d much prefer that there wasn’t any cheating, but it’s alright if one of the boys simply THINKS that the other has cheated on them.

2. Stories where Sam/Jared essentially feels that he’s worthless. Eating disorders, self-harm or suicidal thoughts are all fine, although I’d prefer if it wasn’t a death!fic. Aftermath of dub-con or non-con is fine, as are mentions of mental issues such as bipolar or depression.

3. Stories where something happens to Sam at Stanford and Dean finds out about it - either when it happens or when they’re back together again, it doesn’t really matter.

4. Fics where a hurt!Sam saves either his brother, father or both. Particularly if there’s lots of hurt/comfort afterwards with Dean and/or John taking care of him.

5. I lovelovelove fics like tabaqui’s wolfpack ‘verse, where the boys are just a little wilder and more feral than they are in the TV show, and I’m actually working on a ‘verse with a more feral-based outlook for myself, and so I’d love if there was anything else out there that was similar.

6. General hurt!Sam/hurt!Jared stories - throw me your favs! No pairings other than Sam/Dean, Jared/Jensen and I’d prefer bottom Sam/Jared. (Mods: tagged the hell out of this. Feel free to add/remove any, as always. EDIT: Fixed!)
29 February 2012 @ 09:10 pm
Hello all!

I would love to read some stories where Sam has an eating disorder/issues with food. Protective and loving Dean is always wonderful, but not necessarily necessary.

Thank you for the help!
05 February 2012 @ 03:18 pm
Hey everybody,

I was wondering if you could rec me some good stories about eating disorders. I think I have read the most popular ones (stuff like In a Mirror Distorted & Indistinct), but I can't seem to find more. I don't really care what pairing, but my favorites are Sam/Dean, Jensen/Jared and Dean/Cas (although I have never heard of a Dean/Cas story that deals with eating disorders)

Thanks in advance!
21 January 2012 @ 08:35 pm
So first off, please no slash for any of these requests!

1) I read this awesome story, can't remember the name of it- but that doesn't matter, I'm not looking for it- but anyway, it was an AU andDean was an FBI agent and Sam was attending Berkley. In it, Sam was portrayed as a hippy and I loved picturing Sam as a hippy.

So that's what I'm looking for- hippy!Sam. Hippy!Dean is awesome too, it's just not as believable. :P

2) Request number two might be easier to find- I read "Trail Magic" by Bella Temple- so I want fics where the Winchesters are legen- wait for it- dary :P

I don't care what they're legendary for, maybe an outsider POV where a bunch of people are telling campfire stories and one of them is about the Winchesters, maybe hunters in a bar talking about the Winchesters and maybe people are like, "Yeah right, that doesn't sound real!"

Bonus points if the person being told the story is Sam or Dean (But the story teller doesn't know it) :)

3) I am looking for fics where either Sam or Dean have an unusual disorder or disease. For example, I read a fic where Sam had synesthesia (he sees colors in response to sounds) and a fic where Dean has prosopagnosia (he can't identify faces- every face looks the same).

Unusual curses work too :)

4) Either Sam or Dean have an eating disorder.

5) Bad!John fics :D

6) I've read a lot of bullied!sam stories but none where Dean was bullied- obviously he has a "don't screw with me" attitude- but if there's story that paints a believable scenario in which Dean is bullied, I would love to read it.

Again, please no slash and while I love angst, I want a hopeful ending. I don't want it to be all darkness and despair :P

Self-recs are awesome!
15 January 2012 @ 06:39 pm

I read a short oneshot a while ago where Jared is working in a diner and Jensen is the new guy in town. He's visibly anorexic and Jared gently coaxes him to eat a bit. I forgot who the author is so if anyone can help me I'd be grateful :)


Edit: it's been found! It's Bobby's Diner by janissa11.
28 December 2011 @ 12:10 am

I'm having a crazy craving for hurt!Dean fic, but not the "oh no I tripped and broke my leg" kind, more like the "and now we delve into Dean's previous messed up emotional trauma and whump him some more kind"! (Yes I know, I'm a disturbed individual...)

One request though, I want the REALLY bad stuff, like the stuff that made you cry so hard you couldn't see the computer screen through your tears, or that made your stomach and/or heart hurt, or that was so awful you had to stop reading and look at fuzzy kittens before you could keep reading. I particularly like betrayal, abuse, emotional trauma, neglect, guilt, abandonment issues, you know all that good stuff :) . Oh, I almost forgot, NO death, I can't take just about everything but that is just beyond the pale...

EDIT: I HAVE read The Bright Lights of Disturbia as well as just about everything else by leonidaslion :)

Examples of the kinds of fics I'm looking for
Sins of the Innocent by reapertownusa
Broken Boy Soldier"
Images of Broken Light by ameresu
Steadfast by rivkat
The Wellington Fort by Rafikiven
Current Location: Canada,
27 December 2011 @ 02:05 am
1) I'm searching for a J2 fic, which I read ages ago. I barely remember anything, so I'll be really impressed if someone actually recognizes this. One of the J's (I think it was Jensen, but I'm not sure) has been abused as a child, and ends up with a really low self-esteem. J & J meet on the set of Supernatural. The first chapter of the story is a flashback to where J is being abused. And that was it.

2) And I'm looking for fics in general where either Jensen or Jared has a very low self-esteem.

3) And for fics where one of the J's is suffering from self harm and/or an eating disorder. (and, yes, I have already read In A Mirror Distorted and Indistinct)

Thanks in advance. :)
13 November 2011 @ 03:46 pm
looking for another general search.
1. John abuses Dean, or someone else abuses Dean, Sexual and Physial are loved,even more if he's remembering it as an adult. Maybe he ends up telling
Bobby or Sam. Maybe he tells Castiel
2. Dean is sick, he finds out he had cancer or such or he's blind, deaf or an amputee.
3. Dean is a god, a pagan god or something like that.
4. Dean is scared of something or someone.
5. Dean drinking Demon or human blood and Sam catches him.
7. Dean is a demon or angel. or possessed
8.Dean in college, AU with sam(or without) or him going after averting the
apocolypse or before. Him with friends or as an outsider. Love any as long as its Dean(I'll accept Jensen as long, it would be cool if Jensen met Jared in college) or even highschool
9. Dean cuddling after sex or just Cuddling with Castiel, Sam whoever!
10. A drunk Dean spilling something
about his past to Crowley or Ruby or one of the angels making them see something different about him.
11.Dean tries to kill himself, hurt himself or do/does/is addicted to drugs or has an eating disorder, noncon and dubcon welcome
12. Dean with a size kink, he has to be bottom though.
13.Dean mentally ill.
14. Virgin Dean. Whether with guys or just in general.
15. Anything where Dean's homophobic but really gay/bi
and into Sam, Cas, crowley (Someone, anyone) or no one at all.

The mods keep sending it back! Wahh!!! Ah well, I think I got it right this time :)
Current Mood: cranky
26 October 2011 @ 02:06 pm
Okay, so I read "In a Mirror Distorted and Indistinct" again and I'm in the mood for more angsty fic. I'm satisfied with either J2 or Sam/Dean or even gen, as long as there's angst and Jensen/Dean has a bad self-image, psychological problems, is depressed, alcoholic, things like that. I'm not really opposed to Sam/Jared being the one with the problems, either, though I'd prefer it being Jensen/Dean. Oh, and please, happy/hopeful endings only, please?

I feel like an ass for wanting to read this...

Thanks in advance!

25 October 2011 @ 09:33 pm

I'm looking for a fic I read a loooooong time ago, about Jared and Jensen's son in his first day at school. He asked Jared why his Daddy (Jensen) didn't come to see him (or something like that) and did Jensen still love him. Jared explained that Jensen is in heaven, and sometimes people have to leave the ones they love even though they don't want to. Um, Jensen's dead in car accident by the way.

Oh, and I also looking for a fic titled In A Mirror Distorted and Indistinct. It's about Jensen got an eating disorder.

Can anyone help me? Thanks!
23 October 2011 @ 03:39 pm
Hey, second time here first time went great! Anyways, I'm looking for a pretty broad spectem of things:
1. Dean has an eating disorder, any eating disorder
2. Dean self-harms, cutting. Burning himself...stuff like that.
3. Anything PWPish with Dean as a bottom
4. Suicide, whether Dean goes through with it, attempts it and is injured or stopped or decides not to.
5. Dean is taking drugs.
6. Crossovers with the eleventh doctor and any season of bones
7 highschool and college fics
8. fics where Dean is deaf, mute or blind
Basically anything with angsty Dean. I like happy happy though!
From any season.
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21 October 2011 @ 09:30 pm
I'm looking for any Non-AU hurt, abused, self-harm, or eating disorder Jensen. Any pairing is okay, I just want some good, preferably long fics. Please no sad endings or death fics though, I want something that winds up happy :) Thanks in advance.
14 October 2011 @ 10:26 pm
Hey! There seems to be a lot of eating disorder fics, but I can't seem to find any fics in which Sam or Dean are simply depressed to the point of not eating, and possibly not even getting out of bed. 

Does this exist?

I'll take them at any age or with any pairing. 
02 December 2010 @ 03:28 am
I have been lurking around these parts for some time, but my brain only made the realization that if I'm in the mood for a certain kind of story then I can just hop on board LOL So...

All I want for Christmas is: )

As you can see, I've got a Castiel itch that I just can't scratch. Help a sistah out, y'all ♥
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