http://archiveofourown.org/works/1772821 emotional. family abuse, struggle etc. I think this meets your criteria.

Thank you!

I just finished reading this a couple days ago

Self Defense (http://archiveofourown.org/works/4974859/chapters/11425594)by pussycatbelle

Summary: Jensen knew something was wrong. He didn’t know how he knew, but he did. What he finds at Jared’s home will change all their lives forever.
Hurt!Jared and Hurt!Jensen, Bottom!Jared, non-con

I never read that before. Thanks for the rec! I feel like... YAY! Something new! \o/

Thank you!

You've probably read her stories but Etoile has lots with this type of description
http://archiveofourown.org/users/etoile_etiolee/pseuds/etoile_etiolee


Damaged goods
http://insane-songbird.livejournal.com/81021.html
Summary: J2AU. For three years a serial killer has been hunting young men in the area of Dallas. The police have no valid leads until the latest victim makes a spectacular escape. After Jensen Ackles finally manages to turn the tables on his captor, the authorities are hard pressed to close the case sooner rather than later. Detective Jared Padalecki is the only one to believe something might be wrong with that when Jensen claims that there is more to this case than meets the eye…

Gunpoint
http://archiveofourown.org/works/861978/chapters/1652215
Jensen got his childhood stolen away from him when he was ten years old. Along with his memory, his voice and every emotion that wasn’t fear, hatred or anger. Question is, can Jared help him get any of it back? And more importantly, does Jensen really want him to?

Sunshine on a rainy day
http://archiveofourown.org/works/203889/chapters/302459
AU. Jared has been looking for a purpose to his life ever since he dropped out of college and returned to the small town where he grew up. Jensen is a deeply damaged young man seemingly locked in a waking coma for the past eight years.


Free fall
http://archiveofourown.org/works/1182371/chapters/2411786
Summary: Jensen is just an out of luck teen hooker until he meets a kindly john who takes him in, but Jeff wants more than a boyfriend. He wants his perfect fantasy.
Warnings: Feminization, underage (Jensen is 17), nipple play, rimming, milking, body modification, light bondage, kidnapping, non-con, suicidal ideation.

Edited 2015-12-27 12:57 pm (UTC)

I've read Free fall and Gunpoint (what fantastic authors), but not the others. Thank you, looking forward to reading this!

Thishttp://archiveofourown.org/series/7842 (http://archiveofourown.org/series/7842) had J on J violence, but the writing is awesome. It doesn't have a happy ending yet, but it's in progress.

This http://archiveofourown.org/works/579740 (http://archiveofourown.org/works/579740)also had J on J violence, but it ends on a happy note.

This http://archiveofourown.org/works/262980 (http://archiveofourown.org/works/262980) doesn't have much violence, but J1 helps J2 recover and it has a happy ending.
I second Gunpoint.
I hope this helps. : D

Thank you! :)

I think this verse fits pretty much everything on your list! Abusive and manipulative asshole JDM, victims that aren't entirely helpless, extreme abuse, trauma, healing, recovery. Blynnk had originally planned a third in the series, and I still hold out hope that it will someday appear, but these two stand alone just marvelously.

* Shouting Out Loud (http://blynnk.livejournal.com/30918.html): Jensen and Jared are college students who are nothing alike and meet for the first time when they both enroll in an acting seminar. They are cast as the leads in an experimental 2-man play dealing with domestic violence. It turns out that Jared is a lot more familiar with the topic than anyone wants him to be.

* Shouting Out Loud: Chasing Rainbows (http://blynnk.livejournal.com/73499.html): Sixteen months later, Jared and Jensen have graduated, gotten jobs, and are recently married. They have everything they ever wanted, but are learning that each of life’s victories come with new, grander (and sometimes terrible) challenges.

* You're the Dream of a Lifetime (http://sammyndeansgrl1.livejournal.com/87022.html): Jared is married to an extremely abusive man. One night, his husband discovers Jared’s intention to leave him – and the unthinkable happens. Jared wakes up in a hospital with no memory of who he is, his past or how his battered and severely abused body got that way. He meets Jensen Ackles – and together they try and rebuild Jared’s life – until…

* No One Hurts Our Boy (http://archiveofourown.org/works/761019): (Non-AU) Jared is in an abusive relationship but hides it well, Jensen and the other supernatural cast are starting to realize something is wrong with Jared around set. Things come to a head at a supernatural convention with all the supernatural family there.

* Kidnapped (http://archiveofourown.org/works/259297): Jared goes missing for a whole month and when he is found, beaten and barely alive, he cannot remember a thing. What happened to him and is he truly safe now? And what is Jensen hiding from him?

* It Takes... verse (http://archiveofourown.org/series/290864): This is an AU where humans are split in two categories: powerful, dominant Masters and submissive, fertile breeders. First breeders and second breeders occupy each household in a precarious balance. This is Jared's household and his story. Mpreg, extreme abusive, Jensen is more than a little bit of an asshole but there are reasons, and it's worth it if you can get through to the end.

* Gone But Not Forgotten (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1979133): Jared and Jensen were childhood sweethearts, but then Jared and his family disappeared. Jensen was forced to move on and became a FBI agent, but always wondered about Jared. His questions are in part answered, when a mansion belonging to the Mafia gets raided. Jared is one of the slaves they rescue, and Jensen immediately wants to help him. Jared is now a very different man from the boy Jensen remembers and trust is one of the furthest things on Jared’s mind, but with patience, Jensen reminds Jared what it feels like to be loved and protected, and slowly Jared’s story begins to unravel.

* Summertime in Austin (http://dark-shadow85.livejournal.com/47541.html): For one weekend each summer for the past two years Jared Padalecki has met with the family’s advertising executive, Jensen Ackles. The attraction between them had been immediate and strong but both were in a relationship and lived in different cities. After two years, Jensen has decided he can’t just keep Jared for a single weekend once a year, but unfortunately Jared’s ties are little more complex - and abusive - and may result in more than just their dreams being destroyed before they’ve begun.

* Mismanaged (http://mis-managed.livejournal.com/3755.html): Jared has a secret that he hides from everyone. The only family he has left, his manager, has been manipulating him, forcing him to audition the old-fashioned way: on his knees. When he meets Jensen, he knows his secret is in jeopardy. When Jensen finds out, will he listen or will he break Jared’s heart?

* Pirate's Chest (http://archiveofourown.org/works/571123): Fierce Pirate captain Jensen Ackles raids a wealthy ship and finds something more than he bargained for. Would Jensen be able to rescue Jared when the young man needs him the most?

* Stars Fall In (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1136701): Growing up next door to each other in Calvary, Tennessee, Jared has known Jensen practically their entire lives. He knows almost everything there is to know about Jensen, harbors all of Jensen’s secrets. And that’s why Jared is hellbent on getting Jensen out of there, before it’s too late.

* Hell Is Other People (http://archiveofourown.org/works/348916): Jared is a hunter, but he is about to find out that evil isn’t just the preserve of demons. He becomes involved in the strange case of Jensen Ackles, a man who is claimed to be possessed, but not everything is as it seems. [Okay, this is a WIP, but it's really, really good. Simply stop at the end of Chapter 19 for a completed story, as all the action from the plot is resolved by then and it's a perfectly good end point. I'm still holding out hope the author will return to complete it, but chapters 1-19 are worth the read regardless.]

* Learning to Fly (http://slashboyz.livejournal.com/4567.html): Jensen and his controlling uncle move to a new town. Jensen’s life is miserable, dominated by his uncle's extreme religious homophobia, and he yearns to break free, which seems impossible. Then he meets a wild and care-free kid, and the older man next door, both more than willing to show Jensen exactly what’s possible...

* Fighting For Him (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1967364): 28-year-old Jensen Ackles is fighting to escape his memories of pain and abuse. He longs for someone who will love him, someone he can trust. Someone like the mysterious Civil War soldier he’s been dreaming of since childhood. Can the ghost of an ancestor who shares his name help him while also fulfilling a promise he made 151 years ago? Captain Jared Padalecki awakened in a world that was not his own. Before he can try to sort things out, the spirit of his lover urges him to save a young man from a murderer’s bullet: a young man who bears an amazing resemblance to his lover, Jensen. As Jensen’s past catches up to him and puts his life in danger, Jared realizes he is falling for the battered young man. The soldier realizes that to be true to himself, he must fight for this boy even if it means making a choice that will break his own heart.

* Gemstone Verse (Jensen Ackles Doesn't Exist and Coral) (http://archiveofourown.org/series/295703): Who would have thought that being kidnapped by sociopathic, amoral art thieves could be a positive experience? (Note: Jensen's childhood abuse in this is backstory, revealed slowly and more left to the imagination than illustrated, but the extensive ramifications are clear in the way Jensen behaves and interacts.)

* Winter Break (http://rpssock.livejournal.com/1177.html): In a super fancy elite all-boys boarding school, young new teacher Jensen is stuck with the job of watching over the students who stay over the Winter break. The students are excited; they have been wanting to fuck Jensen's pretty mouth and ass for the whole semester... and now the school is just them and Jensen.

* Misplaced Childhood (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2051769): Jared Padalecki is seven years old, Jensen Ackles barely five, when they get kidnapped and sexually abused. Rescued but struggling with the consequences, the boys share a special bond that seems unbreakable. Growing up in different environments, they each deal with the aftermath the best they can. Now, Jensen is 22 years old, addicted to drugs and still suffering from PTSD. Although they haven't seen each other in years, Jared doesn't hesitate to come to his aid when he hits rock bottom. With his help, maybe Jensen can finally have a second chance at life. Happiness is just around the corner, however unlikely and impossible it might seem. (both Js are abused and must learn to recover)

* Pull Me Out from Under (http://archiveofourown.org/works/746952): Jared's a hunter. He's never had any qualms about killing things that go bump in the night but one night he goes back to another hunter's lair/house/whatever for a beer and sees that he's keeping vampire!Jensen prisoner and using him as a slave as well as beating/torturing/raping him whenever he wants.

* The Iron Ridge Pack (verse) (http://archiveofourown.org/series/248002): Federal Marshal Jensen Ackles of the Hunter Division was the best tracker the department had on the west coast. Having watched his entire family be slaughtered by a wolf pack as a child, Jensen dedicated himself to becoming a hunter. Under his watch no one would ever suffer as he had, and renegade werewolves would be brought to justice and shipped back to the rez where they belonged. When a call came in about a were sighting in the sleepy town of Munter’s Gorge, Montana, Jensen thought he’d be home in no time. Then he met Jared at the local coffee shop and the case suddenly became a whole lot more complicated. (ABO)

* Remember Us (http://archiveofourown.org/works/4237014): Small-town journalist Jared Padalecki has never been interested in political intrigue, but that changes when he encounters a person from his past, someone he believed was gone forever. Jensen Ackles is running for senate on a campaign steeped in hatred and bigotry. After spending a year in what he believed was a coma, he has spent the last six years trying to piece his life together under the watchful eyes of his powerful family. Everything changes when Jensen is confronted at a debate by a man he doesn’t recognize, but who claims to not only know him but be the father of Jensen’s son. These revelations stun him and start a chain of events that will leave both men changed forever as layers of lies are revealed, and the danger increases when Jensen begins to remember what no one besides Jared wanted him to.

* Debts Owed, Lives Gambled (http://archiveofourown.org/works/3188516): Jared Packalecki’s life is rudely interrupted when his father “loans” him to a ruthless casino owner in exchange for canceling his debt to the establishment. The young man reluctantly goes after his father threatens to hand over his little sister instead. When Jared meets Jensen Ackles, owner of The Open Road Casino, he is prepared to hate the man who took his father’s offer and now essentially owns him for the next six months. Jensen is rumored to be one of the most cold-hearted men in the gambling business. But Jared soon learns that appearances can be deceiving. (Jensen is abusive but gets better, both Js have to recover from traumatic abuse)

Edited 2015-12-28 08:43 pm (UTC)