07 April 2016 @ 06:04 pm
Hello :)

Okay so, there was this certain AU fic that I read ages ago when I first started getting into the J2 pairing that I can no longer seem to find, or even remember the title to.

But I think it had Jared living next door to an omega!Jensen (may have also been a cat boy, I don't remember details), and Mark (Sheppard?) was his owner, and he was quite abusive (physically, sexually, emotionally, the whole nine) to Jensen. And Jared pretty much figured out what the deal was but he felt like he was crossing a line if he interfered but there was one day where Jensen was left out in the cold and hurt pretty bad and Jared couldn't take it anymore and pretty much brought Jensen to live with him/called the cops on Mark.

Does anyone might know what this fic was called? I'm hoping that someone has come across it in this community and loved it as much as I did because I surely can't remember what it was for the life of me.

Please and thank you~
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Hi guys!

Okay, so it's 2:30am, and I'm driving myself INSANE because I can't remember the name of, or find a story!

This is what I remember about it; it was ABO, with Alpha Jared. The Padalecki and Ackles packs weren't really peaceful, and I think Jared wanted to attack the Ackles pack to gain control, but instead, they come up with a compromise; Jared takes Jensen to live with him, and in exchange, the Ackles pack is left alone. There's a lot of protective Ackles family, especially from Josh, since Jensen is an omega, and I think that's part of the reason he agreed to go with Jared. Anyway, Jared starts off mean, and there's a scene when he's drunk and Genevieve hits Jensen and he does nothing to stop it...Sandy is his awesome "housekeeper" of sorts, and she has a soft spot for Jensen. One night Jensen gets sick, and Jared bonds with him...it reads almost like a Beauty and the Beast based fic. There's a cute Christmas scene and Jensen learns that the Padaleckis aren't as bad as he was raised to believe, and there's Jensen being an awesome cook...just before everything can be perfect, he gets kidnapped by some wolves that Jared banished, I think? But eventually, he ends up with Jared after Jared saves him from a cave or something...

Wow, that was long winded! I remember all that, just not the title! Hope its ringing some bells...I don't think I'll sleep until I find it, lol!

Other than that, any top Jared or top Sam with bottom Dean or bottom Jensen, please!! Preferably ones with possessive, jealous Jared/Sam!

Thank y'all!

EDIT: FOUND in comments by the awesome, fantastic moonlight_grrl!! *Happy dance*
Hello everyone. I just watched Disney's latest version of Cinderella and it has me craving for J2 versions, preferably with Jensen as the Cinderella character. I've done a search and found a few that I've bookmarked to read later, and I did find the below entry and was curious to know if anybody had a copy of the story mentioned? If so, would you mind sharing it provided the author is okay with that?


Of course, I'm interested in any other recommendations you may have. Just please no WIP's. Self recs are always welcomed.

Thank you in advance!
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12 February 2016 @ 04:35 pm
Hi! I'm looking for a fic with Jensen in abusive relationship with someone (not sexual abuse). Then he meets Jared and they fall in love etc etc. It's not a specific fic btw :) just something I would like to read. Any suggestions? Thanks!
Could you recommend J2 stories in which one J recovers from extreme abuse? the ratio of abuse to recovery time is not important, but it has to be pretty horrific and move towards a better end, even if the fic doesn't end on perfect notes (even death!fics are cool(.

Examples or harm include, torture, malnutrition, involuntary body modification, extreme power play that leads to identity and dissociation issues, and of course lots of physical harm. Sexual violence/slavery is cool, but I'd prefer if it was paired with more complex issues.

Bonus for length, world-building, J1 helping J2 recover from JDM (I love me to evil-JDM), and badass!victims that want to get better but need someone to show them how to move past their trauma and love themselves.

Also, the recovering abusee doesn't have to be one of the Js, but one of the Js must contribute to the recovery and (preferably) no J on J violence unless you think its awesome (like in the Desperate Measures verse).

Oh boy. I am a real buzzkill. I have no idea how to tag this except to select everything under the 'warning' tag :-/

Please and thank you
Hi there!Sorry if my description of all the vents in the fanfic is very long but I DO LOVE THIS FIC :(

A loooong time ago I read a long j2 AU fanfic here on lj where hooker!Jensen gets booked by a filthy rich man,mystery man Jared. He gets booked for a long period of time and there's a lot of very violent S/M involved.
Jared is from what I recall a sort of drug lord or something and has a big entourage (CW actors are in this story too)
During this time Jensen gets in touch with one of his older clients,an old lady,who tells him that if he ever feels like he's in danger,he can call this number she gives him and wherever he is he'll be found and saved by a sort swat squad.
Everything seems fine but!!! one time Jared hosts a party on his boat and he has sex with Jensen..but he's hurting so bad he can't take it anymore and wanting to leave he calls the "special"number.
Finally they rescue him and he comes home safe and sound leaving his old escort life behind..but after some weeks /months JARED FOUND HIM!Poor Jensen :'((

He's a very deranged man and the author express this exquisitely.
Oh and it turns out (don't remember if jared tells him this at the very end) that Jared knew Jensen since high school,but poor Padabear was a nerdy loser who wanted to impress Jensen with no avail.
In that moment Jay realised that he'd change his image and get a "revenge" on Jensen in the future.

That's pretty much it.
It's a fantastic story,compelling and it'll get you all paranoid!!trust me!It'd be a great thriller on screen,yeeppp.

I hope someone can help me finding this precious jem!
03 October 2015 @ 06:51 pm
HI...long time no requests :) I come for you with a couple of searches and I will be eternely in your dept if you could help me find them, they are quite famouse and I know most of you will be surprised that I couldn't find them but please any help will be appreciated:

1- in this fic Jensen/Jared is known in the set but they break up I think because Gen told Jared she was pregnant. then comes Robert Downy Jr. and offers the role of Captain America to Jensen. later on they meet again.

2- in this fic also Jensen/Jared but I think Jared breaks up with Jensen because he was afraid his career will suffer. later on you see Jensen moving on with Daniel and getting married and I think he wins an acting prize and invites Jared to his farm, I remember he has a little girl wearing ballerina's clothes and a small boy.

3- what I remember of this is Jensen kidnapped and tortured in a house and every one is looking for him, I think JDM came too to look for him, Jensen was giving the vibe of being vulnerable and every one wanted to protect him

4- I think this one was called Iowa, Jensen was molested when he was a kid and he is not on good terms with his family, I think there was a scene where he was in the swimming pool with JDM making a move on him because he was lonely or feeling worthless.

please help me find them
30 April 2015 @ 11:27 am
Hey guys!

I'm seriously addicted to J2 at the moment, and hoping you guys can point me in the direction of some awesome fics. Please, let them all be bottom!Jensen and preferably no hurt!Jared. Ideally, I'd love:

1) Any hurt!Jensen and protective!Jared fics. Jared can be a good or a bad guy, as long as he doesn't hurt Jensen himself.

2) Any fics where Jensen gets hurt protecting Jared, and Jared gets all mother-hen and protective over Jensen.

3) ANY possessive!Jared and jealous!Jared stories are beyond epic.

4) Any abused!Jensen fics where Jared tries to help him heal and is very protective of him. Bonus if there's a confrontation with Jensen's abuser.

5) Any fics where Jared tries to woo Jensen, who believes he isn't worth it.

6) Any kidnapped!Jensen fics where Jared's racing against the clock to get to him and Jensen is hurt during the interim.

A lot to ask, I know, but I'd love to see what fics I might have missed!

Thank you!!! ;-)
28 April 2015 @ 03:04 pm
I've been trying to find a story I read a few years ago and it's driving me crazy. I never bookmarked anything I read and there's a few stories that stick out and I remember well but I can never find them and it drives me crazy! The one I'm desperately trying to find is a J2 AU and they were teenagers. Jared and his family have a vacation house they go to every summer and they always fight over who gets the downstairs room with its own entrance and that year Jared got it. Jensen had been accused of murder, I think of his sister, but there wasn't evidence to convict him. But because of the allegations everyone hated him, he got in fights, and his parents abused him. I think Jared saw Jensen sleeping in the woods, and I think it was raining so he let him in? Not sure on that part though. But in the end they caught who really killed Mack and I think it ended up being Chad? I can't remember the title or author but it was longer and I think it may have been a Big Bang? Please someone help me find this!
Hi guys, I'm in the mood for a couple of different non-specific J2 stories but I don't think these two things are particularly on any rec lists anywhere or have specific tags but I'm sure you lovely peeps will know of some stories including such things so here goes:

1. Stories where one of the J's was previously married. Maybe it causes them to be extra cautious and afraid of commitment. Maybe the marriage was abusive and very unhappy. Maybe they bump into said ex-hubby and some explaining proceeds afterwards. IDK why this popped into my head but I just think it could lead to some interesting story plots etc wherein a past very serious relationship effects the brand new one they're trying to create. (I've added a few abuse tags. It's not mandatory for this request, but I just thought I'd add some as a warning in case some stories recommended here do include abuse seeing as I have mentioned it.)

2. Stories with unsupportive and judgmental parents. Either Jensen or Jared always being labeled as the disappointment child. Either because they're gay, their career prospects or their life choices in general. You know, the unfortunate, "Did you know your brother got promoted?" "Your sister has just announced her engagement." "You were such a bright boy in school, you could have done so much with that brain of yours." Etc etc. Obviously the other J cheers them up :)
Hi! I'm looking for two specific fics.

The first is omega!Jensen and alpha!Jared. It was in a universe where omegas go to an agency once they got old enough. The agency make them a profile with their personality and talents, but without a picture. Alphas get matched to an omega, without basing their opinion on looks. Jared is a TV actor, who wants to create a better public image for himself. He decides that getting settling down with an omega would make people respect him more. Jared tells he agency that he found an omega he liked, but he cheats--before, he had visited the agency and caught a glimpse of Jensen there. Jared thought Jensen was pretty, so he tells the agency that Jensen's personality matched his.

Jared and Jensen got married, then they spent their wedding night in a hotel. Jared has sex with Jensen first thing. Jensen has angst, since he had never been kissed and all his alpha wanted to do was knot him. After, they go to live in Jared's mansion. Jared is sexist (is that the toward word?) toward omegas--he ignores Jensen's talents and only used him for sex. I remember there's one scene where Jared takes Jensen shopping to buy him some sexy clothes. There's another scene where Jensen makes a cherry pie (one of his talents) and Jared doesn't want to taste it, he just used it for sex. At some point, a reporter comes by the mansion to make a story about how Jared's life as a married man. The story was a work in progress, and I'm pretty sure it was on a kink meme. I can't remember which meme, though.

The second fic had Jensen as a shy, awkward high school science teacher and Jared as one of his students. When Jensen came to the school, all the students got awkward because they secretly thought Jensen was so pretty. Jared stays after class and forces Jensen into having sex with him. Jensen wore glasses. This one was on a kink meme, too, but it was completed.

Anyone recognize these? :)

EDIT: Both have been found in the comments:
Pretty is As Pretty Does - http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/45297.html?thread=11300081
Out of Syllabus - http://archiveofourown.org/works/668777/chapters/1221856
I'm looking for any fics with:

1) abusive/drunk/asshole!john abuses dean in any way.
Bonus for (especially) Sam, or maybe even Bobby (or some other character) intervening on Dean's behalf.

2) fics with Jared/Jensen where either J1 or J2 (or both?) is being abused by their spouse/partner/parent, etc. Especially fics where J1 saves J2 from the situation - lots of hurt/comfort.

If anybody could help me find fics like this... it would make me very happy. <3
For reference, I think I might post fics I've already recced' here as well.

The Recs so Far...
My delicious tags for abuse (I must be a psycho...so many tags):

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] ohwillothewisp

  • Old Ghosts, New Love When Jared and Jensen have their first real fight it brings to light some trauma from Jensen's past.

  • Stealing His Omega Jensen was a thief for hire. He had just not expected to find this priceless treasure in the house he was robbing.

  • Wedding Night  Jared is a young omega who is about to go into his first heat. At the same time, his parents set up an arranged mating to secure a business deal. To Jared's surprise, his alpha isn't interested and instead, ties him to a machine with no synthetic knot or alpha pheremones to satisfy his heat - for who knows how long. Jensen is a thief-for-hire (mid to late 20s), and he's been told the home containing his target should be empty, so he's curious when he hears crying and moaning. When he finds Jared, a clearly unclaimed omega all alone, he knows he's gonna steal a little something for himself as well. Besides, an alpha who doesn't take good care of their omega doesn't deserve to keep them anyways. At first Jared thinks his alpha has returned for him, but he becomes frightened when it becomes clear that some stranger wants to take him away. He desperately wants to be knotted but he doesn't trust this stranger and knows that it's very important to his parents that his marriage works out.

  • The Jester Jensen is the sidekick to one of the world's most respected heroes. A man loved and admired by all. What nobody knows is that the hero in question has been sexually abusing Jensen, since he took the boy in as his ward. Warning Jensen that if he tried to tell anyone the truth of what's been happening, no one would believe him, since everyone would just assume that Jensen had been brainwashed by one of his guardian's enemies. One day, Jensen is hurt in a fight against one of said heroes younger supervillain nemeses, aka Jared. Jensen is more hurt due to something that his mentor did to him, than what the bad guy's did to him.  Jared initially just takes Jensen along, planning to use him as a hostage against his mentor, but then he somehow finds out what the hero has been doing to Jensen. After that Jared becomes immensely protective of Jensen, takes care of him and tries to help him. Only stopping Jensen from going back, because he knows that if Jensen does, he'll just go back to his guardian's abuse. And he knows Jensen only wants to go back because he's scared of what his guardian would do to him if he didn't.

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] casey679

  • * Bring Me to Life: Jared’s a shy young man, whose life has never been easy. His father hates him, his mother drinks her sorrows away and his husband Paul condescendingly treats him like he is nothing more than a beautiful toy. When his husband has to go away on a business trip to Europe for two months, he sends Jared away to a ranch in the middle of nowhere to keep him under control. There, Jared meets people who show him what love, friendship and loyalty mean for the first time in his life. Can he escape his life and finally find some love and happiness for himself?

  • * Stars Fall In: Growing up next door to each other in Calvary, Tennessee, Jared has known Jensen practically their entire lives. He knows almost everything there is to know about Jensen, harbors all of Jensen’s secrets. And that’s why Jared is hellbent on getting Jensen out of there, before it’s too late.

  • * The Best Gift of All: Sam runs away from and abusive relationship, taking his daughter with him. On the road and trying to get as far as possible on limited funds, his car breaks down. Against his better judgment, Dean, a mostly retired hunter and the town mechanic, offers to let them stay with him until repairs can be made. Together, they find a way to comfort and heal each other.

  • * Shouting Out Loud: "Jensen and Jared are college students who are nothing alike and meet for the first time when they both enroll in an acting seminar. They are cast as the leads in an experimental 2-man play dealing with domestic violence."

  • * Fight for What's Yours: Jensen has to deal with a lot of things: the fact that he's in love with Jared is one. But when Chris asks Jared out, everything changes. Tiny trembles were felt as I pressed him closer and it was clear he was fighting the rising tears. Those beautiful eyes peered up through lashes damp with moisture and his broken voice whispered, 'Can I stay?' 'Oh, Jay…' I murmured, tugging him along the couch until he was practically in my lap and sliding my arms firmly around his torso, giving him the support he needed.

  • * Mismanaged: Jared has a secret that he hides from everyone. The only family he has left, his manager, has been manipulating him, forcing him to audition the old-fashioned way: on his knees. When he meets Jensen, he knows his secret is in jeopardy. When Jensen finds out, will he listen or will he break Jared's heart.

  • * Us Against The World: At the age of 10, Jensen had a car accident that caused brain injury, changing his life forever. Now at the age of 30 he is trying to branch out on his own for the first time. Jared is abused and mistreated by his widowed father. Friendless and alone, he meets Jensen when the older man moves into one of his father’s apartments. Can Jensen and Jared change their lives? Together they have a chance.

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] elwarre

  • Dangerous Waters by [livejournal.com profile] virtualpersonal: "Two decades ago, Dean Winchester was betrayed and left for dead by his own father. Now, the so-called Pirate King is poised to take revenge on the father who cast him out, and the brother who took his rightful place and has been living the high life. When Sam Winchester sets sail to collect a bride that he does not want, his journey is cut short and he finds himself at the mercy of a hard, bastard of a pirate who hates him and orders him to his bed. Inexplicably drawn to this mercurial and sometimes cruel man who holds the power of life or death over him, Sam walks a dangerous tightrope using everything in his arsenal to convince Dean to change course and see him as partner and ally rather than as his pawn and victim."

Bonus:Recs by [livejournal.com profile] rainbowglowing

  • Gunpoint by [livejournal.com profile] felisblanco: Jensen got his childhood stolen away from him when he was ten years old. Along with his memory, his voice and every emotion that wasn’t fear, hatred or anger. Question is, can Jared help him get any of it back? And more importantly, does Jensen really want him to?

04 January 2015 @ 01:30 pm
Hello guys!

I'm trying to recall the title of a specific J2 fic and failing spectacularly. In the story, Jared fall upon hard times financially and moves into a big house with roommates Jensen, Danneel, and Misha. Jensen and Danneel are a couple in the story initially but they don't last long. After a while of living in the house, Jared realizes that something is off with Jensen and he finds out that he has multiple personalities - one being very flamboyant that also makes sure everyone knows about his attraction to Jared. There's another personality who's a bit more reserved and shy that I think had feelings for Misha. Danneel breaks up with Jensen after finding out that Jensen's personality was in control and slept with Jared. And I think Jared felt really guilty about it because he felt as though he raped Jensen since he wasn't in the frame of mind to give consent.

If anyone could help me find this awesome story again, I'd appreciate it greatly! :)
I know I would be a real jerk asking for this but I just can't help it, so please don't hate me, I do love Sam myself :sob:

I'm hunting for stories in which Sam (or Cas, or anyone else but preferable Sam) loves so see Dean's tears, so he says harsh and mean words just to make Dean tears up, no physical abuse though.

Also, I'm looking for stories with NON-AU Dean or Jensen being in an abusive relationship with Sam or Jared (or Cas/Misha).
I have been searching for these for like 9 months and still couldn't find anythinhg :(

Oh and Bottom!Dean only please. Thank you! :x

Edit: Just remember a specific lost fic: Sam and Dean get three wishes from Santa (?) and use one to kill all the bad things on the world (monster, creatures, demons...). I'm mostly sure that it's Wincest. Please let me know if you bookmarked this one :x
18 November 2014 @ 10:59 pm
Hey y'all I need some help.

I read a fic awhile back. J2 with damaged Jensen. What I remember was that is was fairy tale-ish, like Jensen was "asleep", like he closed himself off emotionally because Jensen had been abused as a kid and Jared woke him up.

I think Jensen was a drummer in a band and Jared was trying out for bassist or something. Either way he got the spot and he and Jensen hooked up, but it was instantly HEA there was some drama then the HEA.

I hope one of y'all can help me.

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22 October 2014 @ 07:08 pm
I've somehow stumbled across quite a few fics lately where Gabriel or Balthazar or Meg (or someone) threatens Dean about his relationship with Cas because of how protective of him they are. Usually it's the, "you hurt him and I'll [insert bodily harm here]." It's gotten a little annoying lately. So I was wondering if anyone had something where the opposite happens - where Sam, Jess, Sarah, Benny, Charlie, Bobby or whatever threaten Cas about hurting Dean and they're all very protective of him for some reason?n Or, alternatively, where Dean is in a relationship with Cas (or Benny, Aaron - any male slash but preferably not Wincest) and they somehow break his heart. Maybe he's dumped or cheated on or forced to be in a secret relationship with them because his partner isn't out? Abused Dean like with Alistair also works!

Any fic request where it's RPF with Jensen in these situations with Jared or Misha or JDM are appreciated as well!
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So, I'm looking for a specific fic, For the Love of Jensen Ackles, and I can't seem to find it anywhere. The web address for the links I've found on other LJ posts doesn't seem to work anymore and I'd really love to read it.

Also, if there are any other J2 fics that feature Jensen being bullied by Jared/Chad/whomever (like Pretty Enough) or Destiel where Dean is being bullied, I'd greatly appreciate it!
21 July 2014 @ 09:38 pm
Hi! You guys were so helpful last time that i need to ask again: I'm looking for a fic that i read a few weeks ago and then didn't bookmark. I don't know if it was LJ or AO3, but i do know the plot. Jensen and Jared act on SPN and Jensen is wary of people because he's been treated badly in the past. He has a crush on Jared and when he's drunk one night Jensen confesses to Jared that he's gay. It's revealed Jensen used to/still does have a crush on Jared and Jared becomes mean because he's drunk and tells Jensen he knows about the rumors that he's a slut and sleeps around on lot. Jensen is crushed and becomes distant with Jared. He does this a few times throughout the story, talking about the rumors that Jensen is a whore. you find out Justin Hartley started these rumors and he used to fuck Jensen when they worked together. Jensen loved him, and Justin treated him like a joke which is why Jensen has trust issues. they end up together, of course :) 
21 July 2014 @ 08:08 am
I have no idea where to even look for this...

I think it was Jared who's a doctor at a clinic that specializes in heart repair: if your heart is damaged by a break-up, the death of a loved one, even just extreme stress or something, the doc will open you up and sew the damage with specially chosen string or gears. There's a serial heart-stealer who's going around grabbing half of peoples' hearts, and Jensen gets his stolen. A cop is investigating Jared as a suspect, but he ends up giving Jensen half of his own heart because he's got a crush and Jensen's heart is too mangled to survive half on its own. Also Misha is a homeless? at least openly uncaring about where he spends his days guy who hangs out int he neighborhood and at the clinic.

Thank you! Adore this fic. On the subject, anything in the ballpark of this, fics where the heart can be interacted with, in any fandom, would be sweet. I know of two in Torchwood that I'll give if anyone cares.
18 July 2014 @ 12:43 pm
Hey, looking for a story I read ages ago and have been looking for it ever since because I forgot to save it.
All I can remember is that Jensen and Jared are together but Jared is a complete jerk and (i think) verbally abusive towards Jensen. I don't think he's physically abusive, but he is a jerk until Jensen gets sick- maybe with pneumonia or something, and it makes Jared realize how much he loves him and asks him if they can start again.
Not much to go on, but hopefully someone somehow recognizes it.
23 June 2014 @ 08:12 pm
Jensen gets contracted/assigned to JDM, who he doesn't want to be with and who doesn't treat him well. (I can't remember whether Jensen's there to have his children or if it's just for sex, and whether it's officially arranged or some sort of debt was owed to JDM..?) Jared works for JDM and doesn't like the way he treats Jensen and, in the end, helps him escape with assistance from Jensen's mother.

Found in comments!
08 June 2014 @ 08:25 pm
ok how about 3 for 3 you guys! :) I don't remember where I read this fic and I don't remember much about it. all I remember is Jared has been getting into trouble so he gets sent to a horse rehabilitation center. He meets Jensen there who works there. It comes out that he's been stealing his dad's horses and ran away from home, because his dad is a no good guy! also Misha and Genevieve are also there and they like each other. One day Jensen's dad comes around asking if Jensen is there and Jensen has to hide. Jared and Jensen do end up together. Also JDM is the manager of the horse rehab center! HELP!! I have faith in you guys! Don't fail me now!! :) THANK YOU!!
03 June 2014 @ 05:48 pm
I'm looking for an old story about Jensen and Jared going to the same school, they are friends but Jensen falls in love with Jared and at the same time he is being abused by his father. And I think Jensen got his arm broken.
I think Jensen also was bullied by a jock at school who wanted to sleep with him...
Please help me find it!!
30 May 2014 @ 03:28 pm
I'm looking for several J2 recs

1. Jensen is being abused and Jared helps him.

2. Jensen has an eating disorder

3. Jensen commits suicide or is doing self-harm

4. Shy!Jensen fics

5. Jensen is addicted to drugs or forced to take drugs

6. High school fics

I would prefer bottom!Jensen fics but bottom!Jared fics are fine too
10 April 2014 @ 06:24 pm
Hi everyone!!

First I'm looking for a story I read some time ago, in it Jensen is younger than Jared, Jensens mother works as a cop and Jared is her new partner and after some time Jensen and Jared falls in love.
Really want to read that one again!!

Secondly and an general search: stories that have abusedJensen and him trying to hide it from Jared and his friends, and of course Jared and Jensen ends up togheter! :)

Please Help!!!
Thanks in advance!!
I'm looking for three stories. Maybe you guys can help me...

1) The first story is Wincest. Sam and Dean live in the Men of Letters bunker. Dean has a beard. Sam wants him to shave it off, because he looks like John and it's just weird when they are in bed together.
Edit: FOUND! Links in comments

Becaus of possible triggers I put the next two requests under a cut:
Read more... )

Any ideas where I can find these stories?
Sorry for the mistakes, English ist not my first language ;)

Thanks in advance!

Edit: All three stories found in record time!!! Thank you so much!

23 February 2014 @ 01:14 am

So, I read this fic a little while ago where Jared and Jensen were friends from college but went their separate ways for a bit. Then, Jensen contacts Jared and asks to stay with him and his dad (who was JDM) for a while. Turns out, Jensen was on the run from an abusive ex (Tom?) but he and JDM fall in love with one another.

Jared sees them kissing in the kitchen and freaks. Jensen runs away and into Abusive Ex and there's a fight involving him, Jensen, and JDM where Jensen is ultimately stabbed.

In the end, Jared makes peace with their relationship and Jensen/JDM live happily ever after (or so I recall).

Any help would be appreciated. It's driving me crazy not to be able to find this.
23 December 2013 @ 05:56 pm
I have an unusual request. Now normally I tend to read gen stories but I've always been a huge slash fan. For this request, I'd like good Jensen/Dean bottom stories. Um to be more specific, I'm looking for stories where he thinks he's a top but turns out to really like being the bottom. So bottoming for the first time recs really. Top This by leonidaslion http://archiveofourown.org/works/181717 is a good example if it helps. It's wincest in case anyone was wondering. My favorite pairings are wincest, j2, destiel, jensen/misha and I don't mind wincest/castiel, j3, or j2/misha either.

I'm also looking for very good rape aftermath/recovery stories (with Dean/Jensen being the victim only please). I'm really strict in that request. Only Dean/Jensen. Thanks.

Now I don't mind top!dean or top!jensen stories so long as the plot focuses on him more. Like Monster and the sequel to it Not Waving But Drowning by [livejournal.com profile] redrum669. http://redrum669.livejournal.com/7862.html

The final request I have is somewhat like the first one but a bit more specific still. I'd like it so that Jensen/Dean are strong characters at first like how he is in the series, where he takes care of everyone. Then something happens that makes him changed. Like in The Doors of Time by [livejournal.com profile] felisblanco http://felisblanco.livejournal.com/1090487.html or [livejournal.com profile] meus_venator's Prime
http://archiveofourown.org/works/304757/chapters/487269. ObsidianRomance's Follow You Down http://archiveofourown.org/works/998452/chapters/1976485

I hope I've been specific enough and that people have some recs I haven't already read before. If it helps I probably haven't read as much livejournal stories I have on AO3. Thank you guys!
Hi, this is my first post on this community. I hope to do everything ok.

I'm searching for fics in which there is a BDSM relationship focused on discipline and punishment from the Dom to the bad Sub. I'd prefer if there is strong love between Dom and Sub, so the punishments are not for pleasure, only for learning a lesson. guilty!Sub willing to accept whatever the Master decides because he knows that he's been bad. Emotional!Sub scared to be sent away for his mistakes. The trasgression is not important (disrespect, brattiness, forget the rules ecc) and not specific punishments, too. I prefer spanking, caning, CBT and similar, painful but with no lasting damages. Whatever punishment can be effective on the emotional side of the Sub is okay, too. No safewording, no blood. I wish to see aftercare, even if it arrives after a couple of days to stuck the lesson better. Nothing is too harsh, so don't worry about it. Crying!Sub it's ok, for guilty, fear (not of Master but to be sent away) or pain.
Other than BDSM realtionship, it's ok A/B/O realtionship and puppy!play with the puppy punished.
I prefer J2 or Destiel (no preference for top or bottom between J2; in Destiel, bottom!Cas is better but i'll take bottom!Dean, too), but I gladly take Dean/Sam, Sam/Castiel (top!Castiel) and Dean/Sam/Castiel, too. No Samifer or Sabriel, please.

Other fics that i'd be glad to read are the ones with a bad Dom/Alpha and a damaged Sub/Omega who thinks to be useless and craves to serve another Dom/Alpha better. I'd prefer a slow relationship between the two, with Dom/Alpha caring and loving and Sub/Omega slowly becoming more confident. Discipline is good, too, but nothing harsh that could ruin the Sub/Omega's progresses. Dom/Alpha has to know his boy's limits.
I'd prefer only J2 for this (with Sub/Omega!Jensen, if it's possible and caring Dom/Alpha!Jared) or Dean/Sam relationship.

Third type is lighter. I'd love to see Sam as the big brother for once, so deaged!Dean fics. No loss of memories, Dean conscious to be the big brother but willing (after some time or right away) to be taken care of by Sam.

Specific fic is a spanking fic. I seem to recall that the boys were in a relationship and Sam made a mess in the hotel room he and Dean were staying while his brother was gone, and he didn't put the salt lines, so when Dean came back, he spaked him and at one point he handcuffed him for something (struggle or because he told him to stay quite and he didn't) and Sam started to cry while getting the handcuffs because he hated to be handcuffed. I also remember that Dean tells Sam something like "If you wanted a spanking, you could have ask instead of made such a mess" after punishment is over. I thought to have it bookmarked, but obviously i was wrong >.<

Sorry for bad english, i'm italian and i did the best i could! Hope you guys can help me! Thanks in advance!
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27 October 2013 @ 09:05 pm
Hey all!

I'm looking for fics that where Dean is abandoned by his family or betrayed by family friends. I love angst and h/c it makes me very happy. Slash, het or Gen is fine, Au or NonAu is fine, they only thing I request is no Wincest (if the boys aren't related by blood, then no problem). Any fics where Jensen is betrayed/abandoned by people he trusts would be awesome too (again, J2, slash/het/gen/AU/NonAu all acceptable. Someone should come in and save the day, making Dean/Jensen feel loved.

The longer the better!

21 October 2013 @ 12:51 pm
Hi guys,

 1. I'm looking for fics were one of the J's was or still is in fostercare and had a rough childhood (physical, mental abuse etc.). I'd love to read something along the lines of Brand New Start.

2. I adored the Strangers and Angels verse especially how the relationship between the brothers and Jo's family is protrayed. So I'm wondering if there are other good stories like that out there, that deal with the boys being welcomed into a family. (I already looked through older, similar searches and I am now looking for additional stories)

3. Are there any stories were the Js or Sam and Dean are scuba divers, or just scuba dive in their free time? I don't think I've come across a story like that, and I came up empty googling it so.... recs plez if you got any :-)

4. And last but not least. Does anyone know if there is a story out there that is based on the movie "Shelter" by Jonah Markowitz? I just loved the atmosphere and tone of the movie and was wondering if anyone has written something based on it.

Thx everyone in advance!

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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Hi ,

1. It's a story i read a long ago and i believe it was WIP back then.  It was J2 and arranged marriage? . J1 is looking for a husband for public or something like that and go to some agency and find offer with J2. Everything is arranged and they marry. But J2 thought that it wold be like fairytale but J1 only sleeps with him , barley talk to him etc. For J1 he is just fuck toy or something. Thats all i remember. Maybe that was alpha/beta/omega AU but I'm not certain.

2. It's demon!sam and demon!dean with other demons attack some angel facility and find young innocent angel castiel in library.

3. This is gen request - any fic with J2 where they are friends but J1 is love with J2 but J2 is complete moron and doesn't notice it and start dating some girl. This girl however are more aware of J1 filings and do all to end friendship between J2. Generally I want bitch girlfriend/finance who want to ruin J2 friendship. Maybe they fall apart for few years or couple days i don't care only with happy ending.

4. Another gen - J1 hurt J2 in any way (mentally, neglect etc.) and then try and apologize. Something like that.

5. Any J2 fic with homophobia in it. I would like it very sad like J must run from home becouse his parents disown him or something like that.

I like long story but good short one wold be fine. WIP if it updated
regularly. I don't mind alpha/beta/omega or mpreg or AU.
20 June 2013 @ 10:09 pm
Hi friends:)

 Can you please rec me  any fic where either Jared or Jensen were abused in their previous relationships, before they met each other? Any story where horrible experiences with ex lover leads one of the boys to have trust issues or hidden scars..that the other manages to heal?

I am up for any story as long as its well written and doesn't have extreme underage in it.

Thanx a million in advance
Hi everyone,

I read this story a while ago and cannot remember the name of it and I have searched this community but cannot find it :(

I cannot remember if it was Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean. I think it was Jared/Jensen. They were both abducted, along with Chad and sent to a sex-slave camp/ring/something. Tom Welling was there, as one of the trainers. Jared and Jensen were kept by 'Mistress' along with a girl named Ghost. Jared is younger than Jensen. Jensen acts very protective of Jared and they eventually start a relationship.

They were all forced to have sexual relations with clients. Eventually the feds are able to free them.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?
I am flying to Prauge in 2 weeks and would love some fics to read on the plane and since i dont have internet on the flight i would like fics that are in pdf form so i can download them.

So give me your favorite hurt!dean, sick!dean, hurt!jensen, abused!jensen or sick!jensen fics, preferably longer ones. If they have protective!jared or sam in them, that is a huge plus:)
thanks guys!
Hey, guys! I've been searching for this fic for a few weeks now, and I simply am unable to find it. I read it several months ago, and I'm fairly certain it was posted on LJ, but not positive.

The gist of it was that Jared and Jensen had had some sort of rocky break-up and Jared quit Supernatural. Fast forward to years later, things are still icy between them but Jared is either directing or starring in (or both) a new movie and for some reason he wants Jensen to co-star. Jensen doesn't want to -- at all -- he hates Jared because of whatever happened between them, but he is forced to because of a contract or something -- basically, his boss or someone threatens him into not only working with Jared but being nice to him.

Jared thinks he's being sincere, and takes advantage. It's a while before the truth comes out.

I also remember that it was quite a long fic -- definitely over 10k, probably more but I can't remember an exact amount.

Help would be much appreciated! ^-^

ETA: Has been found! Thanks so much!
30 December 2012 @ 02:55 am
Hi. I'm looking for any fics where one of J's suffers some sort of childhood abuse and the other finds out and helps him, or fics where the J's are adult and one of them finds out about he others past childhood abuse. The abuse can be emotional, physical or sexual. Thank You.
28 December 2012 @ 11:00 pm
There's one fic that I read a long time ago and I've searched the tags here but can't seem to find it. I don't remember much but I think it was Jensen (possibly Jared) that was in an abusive relationship in the past. The Js meet at a college party, I think at Jensens house. The abuser comes back and is stalking Jensen and sees that he's with Jared. He takes Jared and I think tortures him? I can't really remember. I do remember Jared being in the hospital and Jensen blaming himself.

The other fic I'm looking for is also a J2 fic, Jensen is on a boat with his boyfriend. I don't know why, I think Jensen witnessed something so the bf tries to get rid of him. Burns off his fingertips so there are no fingerprints to identify him with and throws him in the ocean. Jared meets him, I think in the hospital? Or maybe it was Jeff. Jensen can't remember anything about what happened or who he is. I think Jared gives him a place to stay until they can figure out what happend and the bf comes back to try and kill him again.

Hope someone recognizes these!
11 December 2012 @ 02:08 pm
I know there are a couple of stories with this theme.

What I know: In one Jensen is at a house party and runs into the guy who 'discovered' him. JDM and Christian Kane (I think Dave Boreanaz might be involved somehow, as a good guy) know this guy is bad news; they get him to admit he drugged and assaulted Jensen.

In another I think Jared's dad convinced him to go with a particular agent/manager (with the knowledge that he wasn't a good guy). The agent basically gets Jared shit jobs and expects sexual favors in return. He's convinced Jared that he's not a good actor.

I'm not sure about pairings (except for non-con Jensen/OMC). I think they might both end up Jensen/Jared
If you good people know of any other fic along similar lines I'd love to read them, too.

Edit: Second fic found. It's Mis-Managed (link in comments).
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28 October 2012 @ 06:37 pm
Hi everyone!

1) I'm looking for a story that I read a while ago and don't remember a whole lot about it. It was a D/s themed story where Jensen was a sub recovering from abuse of his old Dom. He's best friends were Vicki (who was a dom) and Misha (who was her sub). In comes Jared who starts to try and train Jensen to enjoy doing things for his Dom for the pleasure rather then out of fear of a punishment. I know Vicki was pretty protective of Jensen and when they would go out she would have Jensen wear a bracelet so other Dons would think he was claimed and let him alone. ~ FOUND

2) Jensen is hosting a party and Jared comes with his Dom. His dom collared him that night without telling him what it meant and ends up abusing him in the basement. Jensen realizes what's going on and puts a stop to it. ~ FOUND

3) All the abused sub!Jensen or abused sub!Jared stories you have. I've read Wrapped in Chains, which I love and it doesn't matter who bottoms but I am only looking for J2 fics. I'd like the other J to be the Dom teaching them the new better way of life, not the abuser.

4) The last is very limited when it comes to what I remember. Jensen was dating someone, not Jared maybe Jeff. The man is a Dom but does not take good care of Jensen. The only think I remember was that he allowed other men to use Jensen and he would beat Jensen into subspace but then just leave him alone. No aftercare at all and Jensen would wake up alone.

Thank you for any help!
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14 October 2012 @ 04:10 pm
This was a AU J2 Fic. I think Jared was an actor/model and Sandy was his girlfriend who was trying to get into the acting business too. Jensen was a baker or a chef and he was with a really abusive guy, maybe Jeffrey Morgan or Chris. Sandy told Jared she had accepted the offer to be on this reality show where they switch significant others for a certain period of time and they are filmed, 24/7. Jared and Jensen meet, and Jared finds that Jensen has zero self-esteem and he dresses baggy to hide himself because his boyfriend is emotionally and verbally abusive. They get closer and really like each other and end up having sex; I think Jensen was the bottom. The show cancels their episode and they think its because of them, but in reality, Sandy cheated on Jared with Jensen's boyfriend and the show found them first. I think Jared planned on leaving Sandy for Jensen and vice versa with Jensen leaving his boyfriend, but Sandy told Jared she was pregnant and made him give her the apartment and recommendations so he and Jensen could keep the baby when it was born. I don't remember anything after that. 

If any of you know this fic, please let me know. Thanks! ;)

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07 October 2012 @ 09:36 pm
Hey dudes, I'm searching for fics where Dean/Jensen's parents are really disappointed in them or ignore them. I would like it if Dean/Jensen acts out or tries really hard to impress them and it doesn't work. I need some major Dean/Jensen angst!! haha :P
Thanks in advance :)
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16 September 2012 @ 08:58 am
Hey guys. I'm in a very hurt/comfort kind of mood, and I trust y'all to hook me up with some good fics.

Specifically, I'm looking for some Jensen non-cons. Maybe he gets drugged and date!raped, maybe it's a random act of violence from a crazed fan, maybe it's his abusive boyfriend. Whatever you got, I'll take.

J2 is good, gen is also good. I'd like to keep it Non-AU if possible, but if it's a fic worth reading, definitely share regardless.

And since I haven't posted here in a while, I may as well also request any and all fics post S7finale. Hurt/Comfort, trauma, whatnot and whatnot. Wincest, Destiel, and gen are all welcome.

Thanks in advance everyone. I really appreciate it!

(btw, I loaded this post down with as many appropriate tags as I could, so if I missed one, please feel free to correct me, dear Mods)
07 September 2012 @ 04:38 am
Hey everyone, I am feeling so down at the moment and I'd really love if it anyone can rec me some long fics in which there is sadness, destruction of self esteem, whump, angst, misunderstandings, despair and so on going on with the J's or those Winchesters.  For instance, Just One Breath by Kee is exactly what I mean.  Happy endings are a must, along with no major character death.  Everyone else can die though, that's fine. 

I have really been through this site and others thoroughly, so I know most of the famous ones, but then the other day someone rec'd, 'The Incremental Breakage of the Last Tenuous Strands' by Smash86 and I'd never heard of it and of course, LOVED IT so I'm holding out hope that there are fics out there I haven't devoured. 

Preferences are as follows, but seriously, if it's going to make me cry then I'll be thrilled to give it a go. 

Epic/Long length.
No Major Character Death.
J2 and Wincest only.
Self rec's totally welcome.
Happy Endings are essential.
AU's are fine. 

Thanks in advance.  You guys are a great fandom. 
I read a story a very long time ago that was a WIP at the time and I really hope it's been updated or completed by now.

Here's the story:

J's are strangers. Jensen is sitting at a bus stop, and Jared runs up. I believe Jared missed the bus and Jensen was oblivious to bus even coming. They start a conversation about Jared's university, and studies. I think the J's meet at the stop several times but during their conversations it becomes clear to Jared that Jensen is in an abusive relationship. I think Jensen is a student as well but only takes a few classes. True to Jared's assumptions we are thrusted into Jensen being severely abused both physically and mentally. Jared and Jensen see each other at a shopping mall and Jensen is with his abuser. He is so scared of what Jared will say to him in front of his abuser that he almost faints. There's a casual introduction where Jared covers nicely for how he knows Jensen after catching on to how scared Jensen is. Sadly Jensen's abuser only needs a little stimulus to start wailing on Jensen. Jared has a rich girl at school who is a pistol, and together they try to talk Jensen into leaving is abuser. Jensen is too scared, so they only get him to submit to pictures of his body for future evidence if he decides to pursue chargers when the relationship finally ends. I know that there is this really emotional scene where Jensen wants to get in a private swimming pool but his body is so scarred and damage he just sits by the side of the pool and watches. Jared and the his girl friend talk Jensen into the pool. It was so loving and unconditional I remember crying when I read that particular scene.

Please help me find this story:-)
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I'm looking for this fic that I vaguely remember. I recall Jensen going to a party that Justin shows up to, and Justin acting like a possessive meathead (I don't remember if they were already broken up at the time). Their friends say Jen needs to cut ties with Justin. Long story short, everyone turns on Justin because he's being a total control freak, douche, and is simply harassing/stalking Jen at this point. Everyone except Steve. Steve points out that Justin needs to cut back on the caveman act, but he doesn't believe Justin's a horrible person/can redeem himself.

Could have been a college AU.

They have a lot of reservations, but eventually, Steve/Justin reveal their relationship to their friends. Any ideas?

ETA: FOUND. It's College!Verse by [livejournal.com profile] aleia.
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19 July 2012 @ 10:57 am

Okay so this worked really well last time so now I am going to try two things...are we ready?

1. There was this story I read a while back that had Jensen living with Jared in some kind of apartment or garage type house because his parents hated him or something because he was gay. The whole story Jared is trying to break Jensen on his constant bad attitude about himself because they had been best friends for a long time and he knew that Jensen wasn&#39;t a bad guy. I remember that Jensen was in love with Jared or something but he refused to tell him because he didn&#39;t want to lose him so Jared thought he had a crush on someone else? I might be confusing two stories there, but the one that i am looking for has Jensen sleeping on a pull out couch that makes his back hurt i think....i am not entirely sure but if you find that or something like it I will probably read it :-)

2. I love high school fics where Jensen is abused by either bullies or family. I have read a ton of them so there&#39;s a chance i might have already read what you suggest, but I will one hundred percent read it again because I love me some young hurt Jensen :-) Anyway no character death or sad endings please, i read one (and if you are into this genre too you know which one i am talking about) and one of the boys leaves in the end which made me cry, so things can get as dark as they want to in the story, but i want our boys together in the end if you can find it. If you look at the tags all the specfics for this request are in there so if you can find anything good that matches with some of those...HAVE AT IT!

Okay thats it so....ready, set, go!

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03 June 2012 @ 02:23 pm
so i remember this supernatural meme i was reading and it was a request for an Alien!Jared with medical kink and it was filled. I remember in the first section it started out with Jensen already being abducted and he was on a table with a lot of tentacles connected to him and Jared making scientific findings about him and discovers that he can speak, and talks about how he seems kind of weak with no signs of obvious weapons or ways of defense. He is later put in something called a "cradle" i believe where "all his needs are taken care of" but it makes Jensen very stressed and Jared doesn't understand. I do know it's non-con too and not mpreg.

ps anyone who recommend more non-con Alien!Jared or Alien!Jensen is awesome thank you (no mpreg plz) but mostly looking for that one ^ thanks