Here I am again, hi awesome storyfinders!
I'm looking for Sam/Dean fics, two specifics and a general search:
1. Sam is king of hell and he breaks Dean into his role as consort/slave with extreme force. He does this in a broad variety of ways, but one thing I can really remember is that at a certain point Ben is living with Sam and Dean, there to be used as leverage to make Dean behave. Eventually Dean accidentally reveals to Sam that he had thought about killing himself by jumping/falling out of a window, and that wasn't permitted so Sam crushes Ben's skull with his hand. Other details are that Sam is really psycho, very undisturbed by all the horrible things he does. He also kind of digs into Dean's soul with his powers (I think Dean described black tendrils? it hurts), and he kills someone in their bedroom and Dean can't see it because there is fabric covering all of the blood. Ruby is there, and Bobby and Jo and maybe Ellen and Rufus are kept by Sam in the building. Eventually Dean is allowed to see them, but by then he's already almost completely broken in. He also wears a necklace that has power over him in the end which is given to him by Sam. If I'm correct it was a collar first. The collar had the power to make Dean really high and submissive, Dean finds it in Sam's study after Sam decides he doesn't have to wear it in a drawer with all kinds of 'train your dog/bird' books and a diary with how well Dean did with really psycho notes from sam with smilies and stuff (Dean gets really angry when he finds it because Sam had said that he'd thrown the collar out). Also Dean had a tattoo that got more intricate the more he accepted Sam. Lots of angsting by Dean that he still loved Sam somehow and that he gets really aroused by him.
2. Sam loses his soul and turns into a serial killer. He kills at least one of Dean's hookups and also a cat, which he throws out of the window of the car while he drives it. Dean doesn't know he does it (i think) and when Sam get his soul back he is really surprised that he still has the killing urge, although he does regret the cat. He starts killing again, and he keeps one of his victims dogs and gives the dog to Dean. Dean eventually finds out and makes sure the bodies aren't found, keeping Sam's works a secret. After that they start to have a relationship, and Dean goes downhill from there, letting Sam cut patterns (diamonds?) into his skin and being extremely jealous of the time Sam spends with his victims. He follows Sam when he goes to kill one time and nearly ruins the whole experience for Sam, but the next time he brings a camera or laptop or something to show Dean how he does it. the victim is a man and live on camera Sam offers the heart to a very emotional and grateful Dean, throwing it away carelessly because he already has Dean's heart and that's so much better anyway (or something similarly cheesypsycho). Mildly disturbing: Dean asks Sam to eat his heart and Sam cuts away a piece of his skin and eats some of the flesh over his heart then packs it with gauze. The emphasis is really on how much Dean loves Sam and how he loses his sanity, how jealous he is of Sam's victims, that it's not right, and Sam's delight in how much Dean loves him and how submissive he becomes, desperate for Sam's attention. I always got the impression that Dean ultimately wanted to be Sam's victim to be completely
his but that might be my overactive imagination. I think I read it on AO3 but I'm not sure.
both fics were pretty long, and if found I really recommend them to everyone because whew are they good. Also both were bottom!Dean.
For the general search: any fic in the vein of the two I just described, emphasis on how the bond between the brothers is sick and twisted and incredibly strong. I prefer bottom!Dean but if it is really good I can read Bottom!Sam, just please warn beforehand. please no consensual (like full, 110% unmanipulated, sane safe consensual) BDSM.
Sorry or the length of this thing, and I really hope they're found! Thanks for reading this!
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