12 July 2019 @ 08:06 pm
Hello all. I read a story awhile ago that I swear I bookmarked on AO3. It was Cas finding Dean walking naked on the side of the road. He was pregnant and had just escaped some sort of facility that held omegas captive or something. It was long and had snippet sequels and now I can't find it at all. It even had another fic inspired by it that I read and I can't find that one either so I can track it back to the original. Does anyone know the fic I'm talking about? Please?
 
 
19 January 2019 @ 11:50 am
I'm looking for Original Sin by alexadean. I read a work by paperback writer called Original Sin-Unfallen that was related to the Alexa Dean fic which I never read but want to. I followed some links but the journal is deleted and purged . Does anyone have a copy of know the author and if he or she would be ok with it being shared. I haven't read it so my tags are going to be wrong probably.
 
 
16 January 2019 @ 11:53 am
Hey guys I am looking for stories with either Sam or Dean or both will be adopted by the Winchesters or just John with the boys were past abused and tortured . I read once a story called lightness and darkness it was exactly what I wanted and another one similar called coming home So i was hoping someone would help me find something similar these two stories any suggestions are really welcomed
 
 
30 August 2018 @ 02:39 pm

#2 and 3 found in comments ! Holding out for #1, read it on fanfiction but can't find it again.
1. Dean and Sam are in high school and John is off hunting. Dean is sleeping with his female teacher in exchange for money and food. He hates it and gets sick when he gets home. I believe there are sequels where Sam and or John figure(s) it out.
2. Dean is targeted by a vampire who entrances him and has sex with him while he's in a dreamlike state. He winds up being taken by the vampire. Sam and John go to rescue him but actually rape him in a crowded basement instead. I remember there being the concept of elder vampires.
3. The 3rd I believe by the same author as # 2 . It's John/Dean but Dean is mentally browbeat into giving into his father's advances. At one point John is possessed by YED and is even more of a depraved partner than usual coercing Dean into giving in having src in front bathroom mirror and rimming him on the kitchen table. Sam walks in at one point
If anyone knows about these it'd be great.

 
 
06 August 2018 @ 06:20 pm

Request: I am looking for a story in which Dean is openly bisexual and Sam has no problem with it. The brothers are still as close as ever. Dean is in a relationship with a guy but this guy is abusive towards Dean. It takes some time until Sam figures it out and when he does it's not all roses but Dean keeps insisting that the guy is only doing it occasionally, and when he does it he's done something to deserve it and that he really loves him. This is mostly due to Dean's really bad self worth and Sam tries everything to help him recognize that he is worth having a good life. No Winchest please. 

 
 
28 June 2018 @ 11:30 am
So a while a ago I read an Alpha/Beta/Omega fic that was Sam/Gabriel on archiveofourown. The plot was that Dean and Sam were omegas, and the Crowley kidnaps Dean (and maybe Sam) to keep and use for sex. Dean breaks himself out and ends up witnessing a murder as well and goes on the run.

It starts off with Sam being put into Gabriels care, whos a police officer protecting him, and helps Sam try to find Dean who's now a key witness to taking down Crowley and his cohorts. Castiel is the one who finally tracks him down

I think in the end they finally catch Crowley in Vegas.

I can't find this fic no matter how hard I search so I really appriciate anyone who can help me find it!
 
 
Can anyone point me in the direction of another evil Sammy story. What I remember may be from more than one story.

Firstly Dean tries to kill himself by cutting his wrists and Sam heals him by using his powers to suck all the blood from the carpet and put it back in his veins.

Secondly at some stage there is an angel in the story and Sam pins it's wings above their bed.

finally the headboard of the bed was wrought iron or something and Sam could use his powers to move the struts to trap Dean's hands,

Any help appreciated. Also still looking for evil Sammy recs
 
 
I only remember one part of this story and I hope its enough for someone to remember.  Sam and Dean were raised apart, Sam by Mary I believe and Dean by John and John abused Dean, possibly sold Dean or traded him at one point.  Sam and Dean are reunited and Dean gets help and at one point there is a scene where Dean is in his new apartment and everyone is over visiting and they go outside and John shows up and beats up Cas outside the apartment and it was really cold out I believe.  Does this ring any bells with anyone?

thanks
 
 
I'm seriously regretting doing such a shitty job at bookmarking now

- I'm looking for a specific Dean-centric story which revolves around his daily life. He was being abused by John at home (I think his mother had an infidelity and he was not John's son). He would go to his high school and come back home to do a bunch of housework. His room was very small, more like a closet. Sam was aware of (almost) everything, but he didn't really care. I think there was a scene with Dean being miserable with the trash bag or something, and Sam just passed by? It was probably because he was young, and did not realize the extent of Dean's abuse.
- I'm not sure if there was any sexual abuse between John and Dean or not, but there probably was.
- I think there was a scene where a teacher was worried about Dean, and Dean just thinks "The angry teachers aren't that bad. I can deal with them, but the ones that actually care are the worst". I'm not sure if I'm mixing up different stories though. (In that case, if anybody can tell me what story did this scene come from, it would be deeply appreciated).
- Again, I'm not entirely sure, but it might be a Destiel fic.
 
 
06 May 2018 @ 05:36 pm

Hey I'm looking for any Fic where Dean was abused in the past either by his dad or someone else. 

I would prefer these Fic's to be base around season 12 where Mary is alive again and she finds out about the abuse Dean went through. 

Either Sam already know about the abuse and tells Mary [Or doesn't tell ] Or he is just finding out as well.

Please let me know if there is any Fic's like this that you know of.

Thanks x

 

 
 

Hey, not sure I'm doing this right but I cant find the fic so. I read a Supernatural fanfic a while back and I'm craving it now.

There was a bigger age gap between Dean and Sam, Dean had a job at a diner and Sammy sometimes sat there and did his homework. He was a kid, Dean was older. THIS IS NOT WINCEST PLEASE

Castiel lived with his brothers (and sisters) and had a crush on Dean? It was pretty cute. I'm also pretty sure Dean was in trouble and Cas was trying to help him, but Dean wasn't letting him.

I'm not sure whether it was the same fic, or if I'm confusing the two, but I believe there may have been some drunk John abusing Dean thing going on. If it is the same fic, I remember a scene where John hit Dean and some broken glass got involved. Dean woke up bloody with glass embedded in his back, I think he tried go on throughout his day like that too.

I'd really appreciate it if you could find this for me! If it is actually two different fics, I'd love to get both. Thank you in advance!

ps: I tried to get as many tags as I could think of, but I may have missed some :/

 
 
Hello. I'm looking for an old fic that I remember very vividly but can't seem to find. In it John had raised the boys to believe in the supernatural, and they "hunted" the same way they do in the show, but the supernatural did not actually exist and John was just killing people. He had convinced both Dean and Sam that Dean is possessed by a demon, and requires physical and sexual abuse to keep the demon at bay. Sam really loves Dean, but both Dean and Sam have been isolated to the point that they believe John's insanity. This was a wincest story. If anyone knows where I could find this, I would be very thankful. :)
 
 
08 January 2018 @ 01:59 am
Two weeks ago, I suddenly have the craving to re-read "Daddy Said So" and its sequel "No Matter What He Says" by aelfsiden and that's when I realized her journal was purged. This is extremely sad since she had so many well-written stories, for example,  "Without Question", "Out of the Darkness", "We Are Legion", and many more.

If anyone has any of her stories, please send me a copy.

My email is home.mam1412@gmail.com

Many thanks!
 
 
Hi read this story awhile ago and now I cannot find it.  Sam died I believe in the fire and John blames Dean and abuses him.  Dean blames himself and takes it.  John tries to get Dean killed on hunts.  Sam keeps appearing to Dean as a little boy ghost.  Finally John possessed by yellow eyes tries to kill Dean but grown up ghost Sam shows up and saves him.  Its really sad. 
 
 
19 October 2017 @ 09:59 pm
Hello! **General warning #2 mentions physical abuse

I'm currently searching for two fics that I read forever ago and am kicking myself for not bookmarking them.... They're both AUs, are Dean and Castiel pairing, and I THINK I read them on AO3.

1. It's almost a Western!AU and Dean is an Omega and is relegated to the more "feminine" tasks from back then, and it definitely bugged him. I remember that he was really close with Mary and that Sam was an alpha who was courting Jessica. He didn't want any of the alphas from town and decided to find an alpha from a Singles Ad in a magazine. Obviously, it's Cas and he's looking for an omega who can help raise his kids because his wife died. They exchange letters and even scent tokens. I know there was mpreg between a side pairing, and at one point three people break into their cabin/home.

2. I can't remember why but Sam and Dean weren't hunting together and weren't in contact. I think Sam ran into Dean in a supermarket and it shocked Dean so much he ran home and freaked out in front of Cas. He wanted to leave because Cas is a creature; I can't remember what but I remember he had wings, so maybe a dragon.... Jess and Sam go over for dinner and Sam and Dean end up arguing because Dean didn't want to tell Sam what was wrong (that John used to ab use him). At one point Sam calls John and he wants to kill Cas. I'm trying super hard to remember and I'm hoping I'm not mixing two stories up.

If anyone could help me with either of these that would be amazing! Thank you so much :)
 
 
Hi in trying to find some John/Abused Dean stories I came across this one but the journal is deleted.  There are several other stories from this author that sound interesting.  They are not in the deleted journal page.  I was wondering if anyone had any of them saved?

Also any recommendations for abused Dean, most especially where he protects Sam or hides it from others or Sam or someone finding out when they are older.

thank you
 
 
Hi everyone, I am looking for any fics where Dean is being abused by John or others sexually, physically or both and he tries to hide it from everyone and where he protects Sam by taking the abuse.  They could include any other pairings, Destiel, etc.  Lots of angst a plus.  I've read quite a few but hopefully there are some out there I have not read yet.  Can be high school or any other time period.

I am also looking for two specific fics.
1.  Dean was raised by John I think he kidnapped him or got custody and Sam was raised by Mary.  Mary was remarried to someone rich.  It is not Sink or Swim but very similar.  There was no Charlie in this one.  Dean was abused and has a hard time adjusting.  At one point he overhears Sam say he wishes Dean never came there and he runs away and overdoses in an ally and ends up in the hospital.  It might not even be complete.  I believe its Destiel too.
2.  Dean and Sam are with John and John abuses Dean, one time he ends up in the hospital.  They end up being foster cared by the Novaks who have other foster kids, maybe Benny is one?.  Dean has panic attacks and flashbacks.  This part may be part of this story or I am mixing it up with another story, and if so then I would like that story name too, but Dean goes back to their apartment and finds a journal that John kept of all the abuse he did to Dean with pictures.  They go to court and when it seems like John may go free Dean gives the journal to the judge.  Dean ends up in a treatment center that uses art I think?

Thank you
 
 
05 August 2017 @ 01:36 pm
Hi!
I'm looking for a story, I think it was eventually Destiel, where a young Omega Dean is kicked out/abandoned/or dumped by his pack/John, and found/taken in by Castiel and his pack. I'm 99% sure it was a Werewolf AU, and that Dean was an Omega, or possibly a sub? I remember Cas found him outside in the snow or something, badly injured? I think John had beaten him before abandoning him. I remember a scene where Cas brought Dean to someone to be healed, possibly Ellen? I'm pretty sure Dean was a teenager at the start of the story, and that Cas was the alpha of a large pack. It was quite a long story, possibly still a WIP, and I think it was on AO3. Thanks!
 
 
Hello!

I was hoping you could help me find Stanford era Dean-centric fics that have MINIMAL Sam angst. I'm tired of starting promising looking fics only to discover Dean spends all his time missing Sam or thinking about how smart and strong he is to get out of the life. It's both out of character and uninteresting to me when Dean has no anger or resentment about the fact that he was (in his point of view) abandoned. So I would like recommendations that aren't all about Sam's absence. However, a focus on his relationship with John is more than welcome, as are case fics.

I'm also looking for pre-series fics that explore the dangerous situations Dean was put in as a child with a focus on human monsters. Especially the scarily plausible idea that he was sexually abused in the past. A trope that I'm tired of encountering when it comes to this type of fic is when the predator is originally after Sam and either settles for Dean or Dean offers himself up to protect Sam. Please, recommend me stories that avoid that cliche and have Dean as the one who's in danger from the start. The only fics I'm accepting where that scenario plays out would be ones where Dean is bitter about what happened to him instead of perfectly content that nothing bad happened to his brother.

I apologize for how bitter this request sounds. I just want Dean trauma fic that is about Dean and only Dean and avoids cliches. If you happen to have something that fits the general description without necessarily being pre-series then I welcome that too.
 
 
22 May 2017 @ 12:26 am
I'm wondering if there are any fics where Dean or Sam (slight preference for Dean) have an abusive girlfriend - and this is NOT used to make him alter or reconsider his sexuality (that is, he does not suddenly discover an interest in males) or throw him into the arms of someone else (regardless of said someone else's gender/sex). Apparently, this is a trope for Destiel fics, but I'm a non-shipper so any non-ship fics of this sort I'd love to read. I just see both brothers (slightly moreso Dean) being really ripe for a manipulative romantic partner. Because I'm a canon-only sort of girl, please no abusive boyfriends for either brother.
 
 
26 January 2017 @ 09:04 pm
I'm looking for some fics where Sam seriously hurts Dean. By this I mean physically, not mentally. The injury could be near death, or just really painful to Dean. Sam might do this by accident, like maybe he screws up on a hunt, or maybe he might want to hurt Dean in some way, but accidentally takes it too far, such as maybe Sam and Dean are in one of their fights, and Sam hits Dean too hard, or possibly he might do something really serious like stab or shoot Dean whilst in a really angry mood. Any of these would be amazing, or any other suggestions. I don't mind pre series fics, and I don't mind Castiel or other characters in it, as long as it is mainly based on Sam and Dean. No love or smut, especially no Cas/Dean or Dean/Sam pairing, all just Sam hurts Dean, and NO DEATH FICS! I know, I'm a horrible person, I just love these kind of fics. for a bonus, maybe Dean doesn't tell Sam how badly he is hurt, until he collapses or something, and Sam is guilty as hell. Thanks in advance! :)
 
 
Hello. I have a few general searches I'd appreciate some help with.


1) Any fics dealing with the torture Sam went through at the hands of Michael and Lucifer whilst stuck in the cage.

2) Fics about Sam (either set in or similar to season 7) dealing with Lucifer banging up his noggin.

3) Possible AU's where Sam actually was still stuck in the cage and Lucifer was just messing with his head, rather than Sam just being crazy.

4) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

5) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
 
 
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Hello, me again.

Specific fic: There's this alpha/omega style fic I started reading a week ago but forgot to bookmark, I think it may have been on AO3, and it had Dean, Cas, Charlie and I think someone named Gilda(?) where they were at some sort of omega resort, and Cas and Dean were in a relationship that their alphas' didn't know about. I think I got up to the point where Cas reveals his alpha has taken him off of birth control and Dean kinda freaks out a bit. That's all I can remember.

General searches:
1) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

2) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
 
 
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21 November 2016 @ 01:23 pm
I have a few general searches:

1) Anything where Dean is abused by someone but keeps it a secret from everyone, but then when they're adults someone (John, Sam, Bobby etc.) finds out and comforts him.

2) Something where Dean suffers through really bad abuse in order to protect Sam from it (preferably teenchester or weechester).

3) Dean or Sam is being abused by John and the other finds out.

If anyone could help me out that'd be great!
 
 
16 October 2016 @ 08:18 pm
Hi, so I'm looking for any fics that are centered around Dean and John, where John is an abusive/neglectful father and doesn't treat Dean the way he treats Sam. I'm open to any and all kind of abuse, whether it be sexual or psychological. Preferably no wincest, but that doesn't really bother me too much.
 
 
14 October 2016 @ 01:41 pm
Hi is there any fics where Dean abuses Cas or the other way around whilst in a relationship?

I don't mind if it is emotional, mental, sexual, financial or physical but would prefer physical.

Thank you.
 
 
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06 August 2016 @ 10:32 pm
1) Looking for fics where Dean is abused by John (or Sam) and saved by other people (Bobby, Pastor Jim, random people). Any kind of abuse is welcome.

2) This may be one fic or several fics that had the same theme. Dean dies in the main universe. John and/or Sam somehow enter an alternate universe. The Dean in that universe is being abused by its John and Sam. So original John and/or Sam rescue alt!Dean and bring him back to their universe to save.
 
 
 
 
I read a fanfiction where is in an abusive relationship with Michael and Castiel is Michael's boss. Michael forces dean to sleep with castiel in order to give himself better chances at work.
I think that it was in an a/b/o universe and I'm pretty sure that it was on ao3.

Does anyone know the story?

Oh and I think that it was Part of a series!
 
 
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26 April 2016 @ 11:22 pm
I have read this fic some time ago. Its a long fic with Dean having schizophrenia(?) He was made to believe that the whole hunting life that he had with Sam and the others was all in his imagination. Turned out that he was placed there by some bad people. I cant remember who helped him escaped but he was reunited with Sam, Bobby and the other hunters. They convinced him that it was all real. There was a lot of angst and hurt/comfort. I have tried searching to no avail. I really hope I can read this fic again as it was very good. Your help is very much appreciated.
 
 
Hi y’all,

I’m looking for fics that feature any kind of hurt!Dean (injured on a solo hunt or after he got separated from his hunting partner, hooking to get money, in Hell, kidnapped, captured, tortured… you get the gist). I know there are tons of fics like that out there, but I would like to find those that don’t use hurt!Dean as a reason to pity him, show how damaged and broken he is and how he needs protection from Sam/Cas/whoever.

I’d like to read those that concentrate on the fact that even after going through something awful, Dean’s still strong enough to pull through. To endure, to wait it out, if need be. Bend, or even break, but also to put those broken pieces together again. To survive. (And still be able to find joy in life, to see good in the world, to care about those around him.)

In a similar vein, I’m also looking for hurt!Dean fics where Dean saves himself instead of having to wait for somebody else to come and save him. Maybe he overpowers/outsmarts his kidnappers and even wounded and bleeding, manages to get to a phone and call for someone to come for him. Maybe he dislodges himself from the tree trunk that fell on him when he was hunting a wendigo and manages to stagger/limp/crawl from the woods, reach the Impala and drive himself to a hospital.

Of course the fic doesn’t have to feature Dean only, other characters can be there too, and help him along the way, but Dean should be the one who pulls most of the weight when it comes to his rescue.

I’ll take gen, slash or het, any pairings. And I’ll be grateful for any suggestions. Thank you!


ETA: these are some stories that I’ve already read and that are in the spirit of what I’m looking for: Highway Chile, Wolf in Lamb’s Clothing, Ramble On, The 1300 Days, Last Child, Please Exit Hell Quietly by the Rear Doors, the Drive 'verse.

Even though Dean is in a really bad way in most of those, I feel they all showcase his strength of will, his determination to fight, in one way or another.
 
 
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23 February 2016 @ 09:59 pm
Do any of you know of some good fics with Dean as a high school student trying to take care of Sam? Especially if they still move around a lot and they've just come to town (although that's more a bonus than anything else). Hunters or not, whichever. Cas as a highschool student, if he's in it. General fics are good too. Anything that loosely matches any of that, really, I've just got some anti-John feels right now.
 
 
21 February 2016 @ 10:20 am
I have come across bits and pieces of this story. It was posted on spnkink-meme. The author has removed several parts of the story. Does anyone have the complete story as it was posted that they would be willing to share?
 
 
06 January 2016 @ 06:18 pm
This story was written by nephthys101. The links to chapters of the story no longer work. Would someone be able to make this story available to me?
 
 
25 November 2015 @ 04:39 am

I'm looking for this one specific homeless teen Dean fic. He meets Castiel behind a dumpster behind the Roadhouse (I think?) when he's looking for a place to sleep after he got kicked out by his dad. In the end they both sleep there. They both work as a prostitute, sometimes together. One day Alistair kidnaps Dean and they don't find him for a few days (weeks?). In the end Dean ends up in the hospital and Sam and John are there as well? -->
found
I lost all my bookmarks so if anyone could rec some longer (preferably at least 10k but if you think a shorter one is amazing too please add as well :) ) fics with these themes that would be great;
- Dark pre-stanford/stanford era. Dean centric.
- Abused!Dean (all the abuse, by everyone, canon or au)
- Abused!Castiel (again all the abuse)
- Abused Sam, but only by Castiel,Dean or John.
- Any other dark stories with Dark!Sam/Dean/Cas
- Any story where John comes back from the dead after season 5.

 
 
25 October 2015 @ 04:40 pm
There are a surfit of fics that feature Dean taking abuse (sexual and/or physical) to spare Sam, and a far lesser number that feature Sam doing something similar, but I can't seem to find many that have both of them in a bad situation.

So, anyone know of any fanfics where both Sam and Dean are being abused? Don't care by whom, but happy endings are preferred. Its also cool if the abuse is all in the past. Maybe they each thought they were the only one being hurt and it comes out years later that they both were?

Also, I'm interested in any fics that might feature Sam or Dean in an abusive relationship in the Stanford era. And maybe finally calling their sibling for help when it finally goes too far, or Sam or Dean being contacted by the hospital when their siblings abuser nearly kills them? Does that exist?

And I'm REALLY interested in all of the above featuring end game Destiel and/or Sabriel. Or gen. (Mpreg and a/b/o stuff doesn't bother me either, but I'm not really into worlds where omegas are seen as lesser beings.)

Please NO wincest, non supernatural AUs, or RPF. (I realize that probably cuts my options down but its just not my thing.)

Thank you!!!

Note: I really had to fight with my tablet to hit the right tags, sorry in advance if I missed one or hit a wrong one.
 
 
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02 August 2015 @ 11:34 pm
Hi there I'm looking for any fics set while John is still alive in which Dean is abused sexually or raped, but NOT by John. I'm not interested in that. What I am interested in is:

1. Dean being abused and John finding out later and being the protective vengeful father.
2. Dean being attacked and John stopping it or finding him after the attack. I love the idea of John patching Dean up.
3. John being angry at Dean for some reason, maybe because he was irresponsible and left Sam, but then finding out what really happened.
4. Dean being raped or abused in some way in order to protect Sam and Sam or John finding out about it.

I am happy to have fics set after John is dead if they involve Sam finding out about what happened in the past. I am also happy with any pairing as long as it's m/m, but NOT John/Dean. Wincest is fine, I also love Destiel so that's okay as long as it is focused on what happened to Dean in the past.

*bonus points if it focuses heavily on the father son relationship between John and Dean. John doesn't need to be nice in it, just no sexual content between them.
**bonus points if it's set when they are young and another adult like Bobby or Ellen are more concerned about Dean's well-being than John is because he doesn't pay enough attention.
***extra bonus points if Dean has serious self-esteem issues as a result of what happens to him, the more angst the better. I know I'm cruel :p

This all sounds very specific but really anything you can send my way that is related to these issues is appreciated, I haven't read many of these kinds of fics so hopefully your searching skills are better than mine :) Thanks and happy hunting!!
 
 
Hi! I recently read two very good fics, both similar in some ways but very different and enjoyable! They were

The Spirit of Lawrence High (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2594180/chapters/5776937): Dean Winchester is funny, gorgeous, brave, loyal, and a breath of fresh air in Castiel Shurley's life. Dean Winchester is also a ghost haunting Castiel's school, but nobody's perfect, right?

and

Jump the Track (http://archiveofourown.org/works/224944): It's Dean's senior year at Lawrence High, and he's already given up on himself. It takes the arrival of the strange, intense, awkward Castiel Delacroix at the school to prove to Dean that maybe his life is worth saving after all.

One similarity that both of these fics have are that Dean was raped by Alastair. The rape isn't central to the plot, and the stories mainly focus on the romance, but the angst is exactly the kind of thing I love.

I was wondering if anyone knew of any other AU fics out there with this kind of a plot? If two's a coincidence I'm hoping someone can find a third and make it a pattern. I do enjoy reading fics that are completely original and complex, but sometimes I enjoy sitting back and working through several stories with kind of the same basic setup and ingredients, especially when I'm stressed. Not that these fics aren't both creative and complicated, but they share very similar themes that I'd like to read more of!

Specific ingredients I'm looking for: Teenage Destiel (or I'd settle for college), regular-kid!Castiel, kind-of-outcast!Dean, low-self-esteem!Dean, bad-guy-teenage!Alastair. I also enjoy themes of depression, rape/assault recovery, and developing relationship.

Thank you!
 
 
22 May 2015 @ 09:26 am
Hey!

I'm looking for stories that have Dean being abandoned or taken for granted by his family, especially John. Abuse is okay too. Anything where Dean is being treated like shit by his family. If he leaves them or does something about it, that's great! I love when Bobby is involved.

Thanks!
 
 
08 May 2015 @ 12:12 am
Hey guys,
Found in the comments thank you!
I'm looking for a specific non-con destiel fic, I don't remember many details.

- Sam, Dean and Cas are all traveling together.
- Sam thinks Dean and Cas are in a consensual relationship and books 2 motel rooms so they could have privacy.
- Cas became a human or is graceless
- Cas is not allowed to sleep on the bed, he has to sleep on the floor in a sleeping bag.
- Cas is abused by Dean as punishment.
- Sam finds out Cas is not allowed to sleep on the bed and freaks out.
- I'm pretty sure it was on ao3 but it could also be on livejournal.


I'm also looking for some dark destiel fics, preferably hosted on livejournal.
One of them is dark, both of them are dark, neither of them are dark but they're in a dark situation,etc...
Au's are more than welcome, as are self-recs. I like Sam too so I'm totally okay with him being in the story as well.
Happy ending not required.
 
 
21 April 2015 @ 12:19 pm
Hey guys, I'm looking for some stories where Dean or Jensen is just fucked up. I'm looking for some high quality angst in a Dean or Jensen centered story. I'm not pick about the length, and my preferred ships are J2, Wincest, DeanCas, and Cockles. I also prefer bottom!Dean and bottom!Jensen, so let me know otherwise, please. If it's RPS, please no wife-hate!
Thank you!!
 
 
11 March 2015 @ 07:29 pm
Hello!

There were three fics that I read at various points in time and despite combing through my bookmarks, I can't seem to find them (probably because I have too many bookmarks...).

Anyway, the first was a Destiel fic alternate season 4/5 sorta deal. At some point, it's revealed that Dean is God or something of the sort and he has to seal the gates of heaven to stop the Apocalypse. There's a scene in the end where he's about to sacrifice himself and he's telling Cas to let all the angels know that he's closing the gates for good and whoever wants out of Heaven needs to go now. Cas figures out that he plans on dying to finish his mission and begs him to "let it go" (but i don't remember what 'it' was in this fic).

The second story is also Destiel, I think. Dean and Sam were hunting something in the beginning of the story and Dean's supposed to be protecting Grace (or something - I'm fuzzy on the details) and ends up swallowing it, thus gaining all sorts of powers and whatnot? That's all I really remember for that one.

The final one is Wincest non-con. Apparently the author wasn't a big Wincest fan but was tasked with writing a Wincest fic anyway and wrote one where Sam was possessed and rapes Dean. The story opens, I believe, with Sam handcuffed to the bed by Dean but he doesn't remember why or what happened. Dean's skittish and uncomfortable around Sam (as one would imagine) but still hunts with him. I think Sam figures out what he's done once he sees bruises on some part of Dean's body. I believe there also may have been a sequel? Pretty sure I read this one on ff.net. (And it's not the story where Sam and John were possessed and raped Dean as Hands and Fist under Dick Roman's control.)

Thanks!
 
 
I'm looking for any fics with:

1) abusive/drunk/asshole!john abuses dean in any way.
Bonus for (especially) Sam, or maybe even Bobby (or some other character) intervening on Dean's behalf.

2) fics with Jared/Jensen where either J1 or J2 (or both?) is being abused by their spouse/partner/parent, etc. Especially fics where J1 saves J2 from the situation - lots of hurt/comfort.

If anybody could help me find fics like this... it would make me very happy. <3
For reference, I think I might post fics I've already recced' here as well.


The Recs so Far...
My delicious tags for abuse (I must be a psycho...so many tags):

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] ohwillothewisp

  • Old Ghosts, New Love When Jared and Jensen have their first real fight it brings to light some trauma from Jensen's past.

  • Stealing His Omega Jensen was a thief for hire. He had just not expected to find this priceless treasure in the house he was robbing.

  • Wedding Night  Jared is a young omega who is about to go into his first heat. At the same time, his parents set up an arranged mating to secure a business deal. To Jared's surprise, his alpha isn't interested and instead, ties him to a machine with no synthetic knot or alpha pheremones to satisfy his heat - for who knows how long. Jensen is a thief-for-hire (mid to late 20s), and he's been told the home containing his target should be empty, so he's curious when he hears crying and moaning. When he finds Jared, a clearly unclaimed omega all alone, he knows he's gonna steal a little something for himself as well. Besides, an alpha who doesn't take good care of their omega doesn't deserve to keep them anyways. At first Jared thinks his alpha has returned for him, but he becomes frightened when it becomes clear that some stranger wants to take him away. He desperately wants to be knotted but he doesn't trust this stranger and knows that it's very important to his parents that his marriage works out.


  • The Jester Jensen is the sidekick to one of the world's most respected heroes. A man loved and admired by all. What nobody knows is that the hero in question has been sexually abusing Jensen, since he took the boy in as his ward. Warning Jensen that if he tried to tell anyone the truth of what's been happening, no one would believe him, since everyone would just assume that Jensen had been brainwashed by one of his guardian's enemies. One day, Jensen is hurt in a fight against one of said heroes younger supervillain nemeses, aka Jared. Jensen is more hurt due to something that his mentor did to him, than what the bad guy's did to him.  Jared initially just takes Jensen along, planning to use him as a hostage against his mentor, but then he somehow finds out what the hero has been doing to Jensen. After that Jared becomes immensely protective of Jensen, takes care of him and tries to help him. Only stopping Jensen from going back, because he knows that if Jensen does, he'll just go back to his guardian's abuse. And he knows Jensen only wants to go back because he's scared of what his guardian would do to him if he didn't.

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] casey679

  • * Bring Me to Life: Jared’s a shy young man, whose life has never been easy. His father hates him, his mother drinks her sorrows away and his husband Paul condescendingly treats him like he is nothing more than a beautiful toy. When his husband has to go away on a business trip to Europe for two months, he sends Jared away to a ranch in the middle of nowhere to keep him under control. There, Jared meets people who show him what love, friendship and loyalty mean for the first time in his life. Can he escape his life and finally find some love and happiness for himself?


  • * Stars Fall In: Growing up next door to each other in Calvary, Tennessee, Jared has known Jensen practically their entire lives. He knows almost everything there is to know about Jensen, harbors all of Jensen’s secrets. And that’s why Jared is hellbent on getting Jensen out of there, before it’s too late.


  • * The Best Gift of All: Sam runs away from and abusive relationship, taking his daughter with him. On the road and trying to get as far as possible on limited funds, his car breaks down. Against his better judgment, Dean, a mostly retired hunter and the town mechanic, offers to let them stay with him until repairs can be made. Together, they find a way to comfort and heal each other.


  • * Shouting Out Loud: "Jensen and Jared are college students who are nothing alike and meet for the first time when they both enroll in an acting seminar. They are cast as the leads in an experimental 2-man play dealing with domestic violence."


  • * Fight for What's Yours: Jensen has to deal with a lot of things: the fact that he's in love with Jared is one. But when Chris asks Jared out, everything changes. Tiny trembles were felt as I pressed him closer and it was clear he was fighting the rising tears. Those beautiful eyes peered up through lashes damp with moisture and his broken voice whispered, 'Can I stay?' 'Oh, Jay…' I murmured, tugging him along the couch until he was practically in my lap and sliding my arms firmly around his torso, giving him the support he needed.


  • * Mismanaged: Jared has a secret that he hides from everyone. The only family he has left, his manager, has been manipulating him, forcing him to audition the old-fashioned way: on his knees. When he meets Jensen, he knows his secret is in jeopardy. When Jensen finds out, will he listen or will he break Jared's heart.


  • * Us Against The World: At the age of 10, Jensen had a car accident that caused brain injury, changing his life forever. Now at the age of 30 he is trying to branch out on his own for the first time. Jared is abused and mistreated by his widowed father. Friendless and alone, he meets Jensen when the older man moves into one of his father’s apartments. Can Jensen and Jared change their lives? Together they have a chance.

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] elwarre

  • Dangerous Waters by [livejournal.com profile] virtualpersonal: "Two decades ago, Dean Winchester was betrayed and left for dead by his own father. Now, the so-called Pirate King is poised to take revenge on the father who cast him out, and the brother who took his rightful place and has been living the high life. When Sam Winchester sets sail to collect a bride that he does not want, his journey is cut short and he finds himself at the mercy of a hard, bastard of a pirate who hates him and orders him to his bed. Inexplicably drawn to this mercurial and sometimes cruel man who holds the power of life or death over him, Sam walks a dangerous tightrope using everything in his arsenal to convince Dean to change course and see him as partner and ally rather than as his pawn and victim."

Bonus:Recs by [livejournal.com profile] rainbowglowing

  • Gunpoint by [livejournal.com profile] felisblanco: Jensen got his childhood stolen away from him when he was ten years old. Along with his memory, his voice and every emotion that wasn’t fear, hatred or anger. Question is, can Jared help him get any of it back? And more importantly, does Jensen really want him to?

 
 
Hi everyone!
I've been looking through the suicidal tag and I gave up for like 2 pages, cuz they're ALL suicidal!Sam. So I decided just to try my luck here...

I'm looking for stories where Dean is suicidal for whatever reason(Sam leaving him, feel unworthy, being tortured/raped, etc), and he tries to hurt or kill himself and Sam or John or whoever finds out about it and feels guilty or something like that.

I prefer gen fic and stanford!era, or stories set in the first few seasons, but other eras are OK. If the fic has slash content I'd love it features a bottom!Dean. I love long fics, so that I can cry over and savour Dean's pain. ;)

Bonus if the person finds out about it feels super guilty (cuz they are neglecting Dean or something they've done hurt Dean very very badly) and becomes super protective over Dean.
Bo-bonus if the fic also has some delicious hurt!Dean. Cuz Dean is so beautiful when he's broken. XD

Hope I can get manysome recs. ><

Thanks in advance!
 
 
06 February 2015 @ 05:51 pm
Looking for stories where Castiel has to care for or protect younger versions of Sam and/or Dean. Can be de-aged or just pre-series.

Specifically looking for stories where the boys are abused and Castiel is a doctor/pediatrician and is able to care for them, but other comfort stories work too. I think I read one where Castiel worked for CPS and had to care for the boys and I would like to find more of those as well.

If you know of any stories where Castiel has to gain wee!chester trust and comfort them that would also be awesome. Thanks!
 
 
 
I know I would be a real jerk asking for this but I just can't help it, so please don't hate me, I do love Sam myself :sob:

I'm hunting for stories in which Sam (or Cas, or anyone else but preferable Sam) loves so see Dean's tears, so he says harsh and mean words just to make Dean tears up, no physical abuse though.

Also, I'm looking for stories with NON-AU Dean or Jensen being in an abusive relationship with Sam or Jared (or Cas/Misha).
I have been searching for these for like 9 months and still couldn't find anythinhg :(

Oh and Bottom!Dean only please. Thank you! :x

Edit: Just remember a specific lost fic: Sam and Dean get three wishes from Santa (?) and use one to kill all the bad things on the world (monster, creatures, demons...). I'm mostly sure that it's Wincest. Please let me know if you bookmarked this one :x
 
 
24 November 2014 @ 08:29 pm

I feel like I've read all the good fan fics out there- I need help!

I'm looking for well-written multi-chapter, angsty, hurt!Dean fics with lots of brotherly love (AUs are my favorite- I like plot twists that take me by surprise!)

Please no angels, no destiel and no sexy business :P (doesn't have to be gen, just no sex scenes)

To make it easier for you, here are some specific things I'd like:


  1. Permanent injury

  2. Bullied!Dean, abused!Dean

  3. Weechesters

  4. Pre-series hurt!Dean

  5. Dean hiding injury or abuse

  6. Permanent injury due to torture

  7. PTSD (not hell related tho)

  8. Domestic fics

 
 
15 November 2014 @ 12:31 pm
Hello everyone!
I've recently been punchsucked into the spn fandom again and I'm looking for a quite old fanfiction I think I red on fanfiction.net (or AO3?) some time ago. It was an AU, destiel, and Castiel was a highly devoted priest who tried to save Dean (a young hooker) from perdition.
I don't really remember everything about the fic, but I can tell there was an exchange between Cas and Dean somewhere at the beginning of the story, in which Cas told Dean in a confessional something like "Son, that's your problem: you have no faith." To which Dean replied "How could I acquire faith? Faith is a gift, isn't it? I have no faith because it wasn't given to me, so were is my guilt?".
I know it's not much to work with, I'm really sorry. ;_; But I hope someone will remember this particular story.
Thank you in advance for everything.  (´ ▽`).。o♡