Jensen and Jared are teens and Jared has moved around a lot because his dad is in the military. Jared's dad's leg is injured so the family moves to this really small town while he recovers and Jared meets Jensen there. Jensen's older brother died so Jensen's uncle moved in to help out the family. One day, Jensen is hurt and crying and Jared assumes it is Jensen's father who abuses him. However, at the end of the story, it's revealed that it was Jensen's uncle who was abusing him and it's implied that the uncle killed Jensen.

Thanks for any help!
Hi, I've never posted anything like this before and I really hope I'm doing it correctly! I've read through all the tags that I thought would help me find the fic I'm looking for but have struck out.

The first -- And I may not be remembering it correctly but ... here goes. I'm fairly sure this is a J2 fic, but I read it a long time ago. The way I remember it is, Jensen is kidnapped by, I think, Christian Kane, or someone that's a competing warlord -- it's set in a historical time but I can't remember when. What I do remember is that someone, I think it's Jared is, at some point, sitting outside a tent biding his time to get to Jensen. Jensen is eventually rescued.

The second -- is a more modern age fic -- and I don't remember much about it except that Jensen was castrated or very damaged in his private area. I remember that I think. And for some reason, I think it's Kane that is his rescuer.

So, if anyone can help me ID these two fics, I'd really be grateful for the help! I hope I'm doing this right! Thanks in advance! L.

FOUND! See comment! You guys rock!
03 October 2016 @ 09:05 pm
Hi Everyone!!

I'm looking for an older fic, Jensen and Jared are actors on Supernatural but Jensen is dating someone on set, who hits him and are very jealous.

Please help me find it!


Hey I was wondering if you guys can tell me the name of this fic. All i remember about it was the Dean was being abused by his dad and he meets Sam at school and they become a couple and Sam finds Dean beat up in his house and gets him to the hospital. If you guys can me find this fic or others like it that would be great thank you. I remembered that Dean was a football player and Sam went to Notre Dam after Graduating.(Edited)

07 June 2016 @ 08:06 pm
Does anyone know if this story was continued on any other site? the author only has 3 stories on sinful desire and they are all excellent, I was wondering if she writes on another site?

thank you!
05 June 2016 @ 12:26 am
Hello SPN friends! I was hoping you wonderful folks could recommend some stories where Jensen has scars and is self conscious of them. Perhaps he got them because of child abuse, or was in the military and captured and tortured, or they could be surgery scars or due to an accident. They can be anywhere on his body. Would love if the stories were also J2 and Jared tells Jensen he's still beautiful or that he's even more beautiful because of the strength he has for having gone through whatever caused the scars. Can be gen or J2. Please no WIPs.

Thank you in advance.
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The first fic I'm looking for features Jensen as a human pony - not as part of kinky pony play, but more of a 24/7 signed contract or lifestyle thing in a world where human ponies are a pretty normal thing. It might have also been court ordered as punishment, I'm fuzzy on the details here.

Either way, he gets rescued from his abusive owner (a woman, IIRC) and brought to a farm where Jared works. The farm owner is named Eric but the author's notes stated it wasn't supposed to be Eric Kripke.

Jensen is hurt and distrustful but Jared manages to win him over in time.

The other fic I'm looking for is a dragon AU with both Jared and Jensen as dragons. Jensen is a noble, highly respected dragon while Jared is a clumsy dragon (who once burned his own wings or tail accidentally) and is basically the laughing stock because his greatest treasure is his My Little Ponies collection.

It was a really sweet love story in which Jensen wooed Jared and they get together in the end.

I'm pretty sure both fics were posted on AO3. Any help would be greatly appreciated! Thanks. :)

ETA: both fics found! Pony!Jensen & dragon!Js
07 April 2016 @ 06:04 pm
Hello :)

Okay so, there was this certain AU fic that I read ages ago when I first started getting into the J2 pairing that I can no longer seem to find, or even remember the title to.

But I think it had Jared living next door to an omega!Jensen (may have also been a cat boy, I don't remember details), and Mark (Sheppard?) was his owner, and he was quite abusive (physically, sexually, emotionally, the whole nine) to Jensen. And Jared pretty much figured out what the deal was but he felt like he was crossing a line if he interfered but there was one day where Jensen was left out in the cold and hurt pretty bad and Jared couldn't take it anymore and pretty much brought Jensen to live with him/called the cops on Mark.

Does anyone might know what this fic was called? I'm hoping that someone has come across it in this community and loved it as much as I did because I surely can't remember what it was for the life of me.

Please and thank you~
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Hi guys!

Okay, so it's 2:30am, and I'm driving myself INSANE because I can't remember the name of, or find a story!

This is what I remember about it; it was ABO, with Alpha Jared. The Padalecki and Ackles packs weren't really peaceful, and I think Jared wanted to attack the Ackles pack to gain control, but instead, they come up with a compromise; Jared takes Jensen to live with him, and in exchange, the Ackles pack is left alone. There's a lot of protective Ackles family, especially from Josh, since Jensen is an omega, and I think that's part of the reason he agreed to go with Jared. Anyway, Jared starts off mean, and there's a scene when he's drunk and Genevieve hits Jensen and he does nothing to stop it...Sandy is his awesome "housekeeper" of sorts, and she has a soft spot for Jensen. One night Jensen gets sick, and Jared bonds with reads almost like a Beauty and the Beast based fic. There's a cute Christmas scene and Jensen learns that the Padaleckis aren't as bad as he was raised to believe, and there's Jensen being an awesome cook...just before everything can be perfect, he gets kidnapped by some wolves that Jared banished, I think? But eventually, he ends up with Jared after Jared saves him from a cave or something...

Wow, that was long winded! I remember all that, just not the title! Hope its ringing some bells...I don't think I'll sleep until I find it, lol!

Other than that, any top Jared or top Sam with bottom Dean or bottom Jensen, please!! Preferably ones with possessive, jealous Jared/Sam!

Thank y'all!

EDIT: FOUND in comments by the awesome, fantastic moonlight_grrl!! *Happy dance*
03 March 2016 @ 05:13 am
Hi! I'm searching for an specific fanfic that I read years ago. I can't remember the title (and google is being of no use)

It's a high school AU where Jensen lives with an abusive father. He has to do all the chores, gets beaten regularly and only has like three pieces of clothe to wear while his younger brother (I believe he was named Josh) gets a nice treatment and everything he needs. He only ever gets a break on his birthday when his mother bakes him a cake and he doesn't have to do anything.
Jensen is friends with Jared, Sophie, Chad and others at school, but they think he's really poor since he never has anything and there's a boy in school who bullies him a lot.

I know eventually Jensen's mom decides to leave his dad, but leaves her kids also, so now Jensen is stuck with him with no one to even try to defend him. And I also remember Jared gets him a Metallica CD that he listens to on his brothers discman, there's a party of some sort where the bully from school tries to attack Jensen and in the end I believe he finally goes to the cops.

Does anyone know this story? I really wanted to read it again.
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Hello everyone. I just watched Disney's latest version of Cinderella and it has me craving for J2 versions, preferably with Jensen as the Cinderella character. I've done a search and found a few that I've bookmarked to read later, and I did find the below entry and was curious to know if anybody had a copy of the story mentioned? If so, would you mind sharing it provided the author is okay with that?

Of course, I'm interested in any other recommendations you may have. Just please no WIP's. Self recs are always welcomed.

Thank you in advance!
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12 February 2016 @ 04:35 pm
Hi! I'm looking for a fic with Jensen in abusive relationship with someone (not sexual abuse). Then he meets Jared and they fall in love etc etc. It's not a specific fic btw :) just something I would like to read. Any suggestions? Thanks!
Could you recommend J2 stories in which one J recovers from extreme abuse? the ratio of abuse to recovery time is not important, but it has to be pretty horrific and move towards a better end, even if the fic doesn't end on perfect notes (even death!fics are cool(.

Examples or harm include, torture, malnutrition, involuntary body modification, extreme power play that leads to identity and dissociation issues, and of course lots of physical harm. Sexual violence/slavery is cool, but I'd prefer if it was paired with more complex issues.

Bonus for length, world-building, J1 helping J2 recover from JDM (I love me to evil-JDM), and badass!victims that want to get better but need someone to show them how to move past their trauma and love themselves.

Also, the recovering abusee doesn't have to be one of the Js, but one of the Js must contribute to the recovery and (preferably) no J on J violence unless you think its awesome (like in the Desperate Measures verse).

Oh boy. I am a real buzzkill. I have no idea how to tag this except to select everything under the 'warning' tag :-/

Please and thank you
Hi there!Sorry if my description of all the vents in the fanfic is very long but I DO LOVE THIS FIC :(

A loooong time ago I read a long j2 AU fanfic here on lj where hooker!Jensen gets booked by a filthy rich man,mystery man Jared. He gets booked for a long period of time and there's a lot of very violent S/M involved.
Jared is from what I recall a sort of drug lord or something and has a big entourage (CW actors are in this story too)
During this time Jensen gets in touch with one of his older clients,an old lady,who tells him that if he ever feels like he's in danger,he can call this number she gives him and wherever he is he'll be found and saved by a sort swat squad.
Everything seems fine but!!! one time Jared hosts a party on his boat and he has sex with Jensen..but he's hurting so bad he can't take it anymore and wanting to leave he calls the "special"number.
Finally they rescue him and he comes home safe and sound leaving his old escort life behind..but after some weeks /months JARED FOUND HIM!Poor Jensen :'((

He's a very deranged man and the author express this exquisitely.
Oh and it turns out (don't remember if jared tells him this at the very end) that Jared knew Jensen since high school,but poor Padabear was a nerdy loser who wanted to impress Jensen with no avail.
In that moment Jay realised that he'd change his image and get a "revenge" on Jensen in the future.

That's pretty much it.
It's a fantastic story,compelling and it'll get you all paranoid!!trust me!It'd be a great thriller on screen,yeeppp.

I hope someone can help me finding this precious jem!
08 October 2015 @ 12:12 pm
Hi, I accidentally deleted a fic from my delicious page and I can't seem to find it again. It was a kink meme fill, though I can't remember if it was from the spn-kink-meme or blindfold-spn.

The plot: Jared is a hunter. A fellow hunter takes him back to this place after a hunt to have a drink or something. It turns out this hunter has been keeping vampire!Jensen as a slave. He's been physically and sexually abusing Jensen. Jared is disgusted and about to leave, but sees the hunter raping Jensen and can't help himself from going back and rescuing Jensen.

Jared takes Jensen with him and keeps him chained up, because he doesn't want him to hurt anyone. He can't bring himself to kill Jensen because Jensen is so weak and abused and can't defend himself. Jensen offers himself up sexually, and Jared turns him down.

It turns out that Jensen got turned against his will and was living on his own in the woods or something near the nest of the vamp that turned him when the hunter captured him. He's never drank from a human before, he survives off of animal blood. Jared hunts a deer or something for him. Slowly, Jensen (who had been starved by the other hunter) gets back his strength.

In the end, the other hunter captures Jared and hurts him. I can't remember if he was gonna take Jensen back, or kill Jensen and take Jared as his new slave. Jensen saves Jared, and in the end, Jensen and Jared get together and Jared realizes that Jensen isn't a dangerous monster.
03 October 2015 @ 06:51 pm
HI...long time no requests :) I come for you with a couple of searches and I will be eternely in your dept if you could help me find them, they are quite famouse and I know most of you will be surprised that I couldn't find them but please any help will be appreciated:

1- in this fic Jensen/Jared is known in the set but they break up I think because Gen told Jared she was pregnant. then comes Robert Downy Jr. and offers the role of Captain America to Jensen. later on they meet again.

2- in this fic also Jensen/Jared but I think Jared breaks up with Jensen because he was afraid his career will suffer. later on you see Jensen moving on with Daniel and getting married and I think he wins an acting prize and invites Jared to his farm, I remember he has a little girl wearing ballerina's clothes and a small boy.

3- what I remember of this is Jensen kidnapped and tortured in a house and every one is looking for him, I think JDM came too to look for him, Jensen was giving the vibe of being vulnerable and every one wanted to protect him

4- I think this one was called Iowa, Jensen was molested when he was a kid and he is not on good terms with his family, I think there was a scene where he was in the swimming pool with JDM making a move on him because he was lonely or feeling worthless.

please help me find them
13 September 2015 @ 01:49 am
Hi all, I'm looking for a specific J2 fic. I'm not sure if it belongs under a cut or not, so I'll put it under one just in case....

Hidden, triggery stuff )

If you find it for me you get 100 awesome points.
Hi friends!
I recently read the amazing 'It's just a phone call ' by freakn-out and am craving for more Jared/Jensen fics where either of the boys have been through physical or mental abuse of any kind and the other helps him recover .

Help me please?

I am dying to read fics where either Jared or Jensen have experienced any kind of assault in their life (in the past or present) and the other helps him in overcoming the trauma. Any kind of fics of this genre..first time or established relationship are welcome.

Thanx a million
30 April 2015 @ 11:27 am
Hey guys!

I'm seriously addicted to J2 at the moment, and hoping you guys can point me in the direction of some awesome fics. Please, let them all be bottom!Jensen and preferably no hurt!Jared. Ideally, I'd love:

1) Any hurt!Jensen and protective!Jared fics. Jared can be a good or a bad guy, as long as he doesn't hurt Jensen himself.

2) Any fics where Jensen gets hurt protecting Jared, and Jared gets all mother-hen and protective over Jensen.

3) ANY possessive!Jared and jealous!Jared stories are beyond epic.

4) Any abused!Jensen fics where Jared tries to help him heal and is very protective of him. Bonus if there's a confrontation with Jensen's abuser.

5) Any fics where Jared tries to woo Jensen, who believes he isn't worth it.

6) Any kidnapped!Jensen fics where Jared's racing against the clock to get to him and Jensen is hurt during the interim.

A lot to ask, I know, but I'd love to see what fics I might have missed!

Thank you!!! ;-)
28 April 2015 @ 03:04 pm
I've been trying to find a story I read a few years ago and it's driving me crazy. I never bookmarked anything I read and there's a few stories that stick out and I remember well but I can never find them and it drives me crazy! The one I'm desperately trying to find is a J2 AU and they were teenagers. Jared and his family have a vacation house they go to every summer and they always fight over who gets the downstairs room with its own entrance and that year Jared got it. Jensen had been accused of murder, I think of his sister, but there wasn't evidence to convict him. But because of the allegations everyone hated him, he got in fights, and his parents abused him. I think Jared saw Jensen sleeping in the woods, and I think it was raining so he let him in? Not sure on that part though. But in the end they caught who really killed Mack and I think it ended up being Chad? I can't remember the title or author but it was longer and I think it may have been a Big Bang? Please someone help me find this!
Hi guys, I'm in the mood for a couple of different non-specific J2 stories but I don't think these two things are particularly on any rec lists anywhere or have specific tags but I'm sure you lovely peeps will know of some stories including such things so here goes:

1. Stories where one of the J's was previously married. Maybe it causes them to be extra cautious and afraid of commitment. Maybe the marriage was abusive and very unhappy. Maybe they bump into said ex-hubby and some explaining proceeds afterwards. IDK why this popped into my head but I just think it could lead to some interesting story plots etc wherein a past very serious relationship effects the brand new one they're trying to create. (I've added a few abuse tags. It's not mandatory for this request, but I just thought I'd add some as a warning in case some stories recommended here do include abuse seeing as I have mentioned it.)

2. Stories with unsupportive and judgmental parents. Either Jensen or Jared always being labeled as the disappointment child. Either because they're gay, their career prospects or their life choices in general. You know, the unfortunate, "Did you know your brother got promoted?" "Your sister has just announced her engagement." "You were such a bright boy in school, you could have done so much with that brain of yours." Etc etc. Obviously the other J cheers them up :)
21 April 2015 @ 12:19 pm
Hey guys, I'm looking for some stories where Dean or Jensen is just fucked up. I'm looking for some high quality angst in a Dean or Jensen centered story. I'm not pick about the length, and my preferred ships are J2, Wincest, DeanCas, and Cockles. I also prefer bottom!Dean and bottom!Jensen, so let me know otherwise, please. If it's RPS, please no wife-hate!
Thank you!!
12 April 2015 @ 01:34 pm
Hey guys,

I'm looking for a specific fic that I just cannot seem to find. It's Jensen/Jared.

Jared is dating Sandy, and she's into all this stuff that is meant to make her look good. One day she takes Jared to a cage fight, where the fighters are slaves. Jared sees Jensen fight, and decides that he doesn't like what he sees. The next day, he goes back to the underground cage fighting arena to buy Jensen. Takes him home.

Another thing that I really remember from this fic is that Jared buys Jensen a heated mattress pad and/or an electric blanket because years of cage fighting had destroyed his joints that waking up in the morning was physically painful.

Edit: Found-
Thank you WhiteTed :)
I'm looking for any fics with:

1) abusive/drunk/asshole!john abuses dean in any way.
Bonus for (especially) Sam, or maybe even Bobby (or some other character) intervening on Dean's behalf.

2) fics with Jared/Jensen where either J1 or J2 (or both?) is being abused by their spouse/partner/parent, etc. Especially fics where J1 saves J2 from the situation - lots of hurt/comfort.

If anybody could help me find fics like this... it would make me very happy. <3
For reference, I think I might post fics I've already recced' here as well.

The Recs so Far...
My delicious tags for abuse (I must be a many tags):

Recs by [ profile] ohwillothewisp

  • Old Ghosts, New Love When Jared and Jensen have their first real fight it brings to light some trauma from Jensen's past.

  • Stealing His Omega Jensen was a thief for hire. He had just not expected to find this priceless treasure in the house he was robbing.

  • Wedding Night  Jared is a young omega who is about to go into his first heat. At the same time, his parents set up an arranged mating to secure a business deal. To Jared's surprise, his alpha isn't interested and instead, ties him to a machine with no synthetic knot or alpha pheremones to satisfy his heat - for who knows how long. Jensen is a thief-for-hire (mid to late 20s), and he's been told the home containing his target should be empty, so he's curious when he hears crying and moaning. When he finds Jared, a clearly unclaimed omega all alone, he knows he's gonna steal a little something for himself as well. Besides, an alpha who doesn't take good care of their omega doesn't deserve to keep them anyways. At first Jared thinks his alpha has returned for him, but he becomes frightened when it becomes clear that some stranger wants to take him away. He desperately wants to be knotted but he doesn't trust this stranger and knows that it's very important to his parents that his marriage works out.

  • The Jester Jensen is the sidekick to one of the world's most respected heroes. A man loved and admired by all. What nobody knows is that the hero in question has been sexually abusing Jensen, since he took the boy in as his ward. Warning Jensen that if he tried to tell anyone the truth of what's been happening, no one would believe him, since everyone would just assume that Jensen had been brainwashed by one of his guardian's enemies. One day, Jensen is hurt in a fight against one of said heroes younger supervillain nemeses, aka Jared. Jensen is more hurt due to something that his mentor did to him, than what the bad guy's did to him.  Jared initially just takes Jensen along, planning to use him as a hostage against his mentor, but then he somehow finds out what the hero has been doing to Jensen. After that Jared becomes immensely protective of Jensen, takes care of him and tries to help him. Only stopping Jensen from going back, because he knows that if Jensen does, he'll just go back to his guardian's abuse. And he knows Jensen only wants to go back because he's scared of what his guardian would do to him if he didn't.

Recs by [ profile] casey679

  • * Bring Me to Life: Jared’s a shy young man, whose life has never been easy. His father hates him, his mother drinks her sorrows away and his husband Paul condescendingly treats him like he is nothing more than a beautiful toy. When his husband has to go away on a business trip to Europe for two months, he sends Jared away to a ranch in the middle of nowhere to keep him under control. There, Jared meets people who show him what love, friendship and loyalty mean for the first time in his life. Can he escape his life and finally find some love and happiness for himself?

  • * Stars Fall In: Growing up next door to each other in Calvary, Tennessee, Jared has known Jensen practically their entire lives. He knows almost everything there is to know about Jensen, harbors all of Jensen’s secrets. And that’s why Jared is hellbent on getting Jensen out of there, before it’s too late.

  • * The Best Gift of All: Sam runs away from and abusive relationship, taking his daughter with him. On the road and trying to get as far as possible on limited funds, his car breaks down. Against his better judgment, Dean, a mostly retired hunter and the town mechanic, offers to let them stay with him until repairs can be made. Together, they find a way to comfort and heal each other.

  • * Shouting Out Loud: "Jensen and Jared are college students who are nothing alike and meet for the first time when they both enroll in an acting seminar. They are cast as the leads in an experimental 2-man play dealing with domestic violence."

  • * Fight for What's Yours: Jensen has to deal with a lot of things: the fact that he's in love with Jared is one. But when Chris asks Jared out, everything changes. Tiny trembles were felt as I pressed him closer and it was clear he was fighting the rising tears. Those beautiful eyes peered up through lashes damp with moisture and his broken voice whispered, 'Can I stay?' 'Oh, Jay…' I murmured, tugging him along the couch until he was practically in my lap and sliding my arms firmly around his torso, giving him the support he needed.

  • * Mismanaged: Jared has a secret that he hides from everyone. The only family he has left, his manager, has been manipulating him, forcing him to audition the old-fashioned way: on his knees. When he meets Jensen, he knows his secret is in jeopardy. When Jensen finds out, will he listen or will he break Jared's heart.

  • * Us Against The World: At the age of 10, Jensen had a car accident that caused brain injury, changing his life forever. Now at the age of 30 he is trying to branch out on his own for the first time. Jared is abused and mistreated by his widowed father. Friendless and alone, he meets Jensen when the older man moves into one of his father’s apartments. Can Jensen and Jared change their lives? Together they have a chance.

Recs by [ profile] elwarre

  • Dangerous Waters by [ profile] virtualpersonal: "Two decades ago, Dean Winchester was betrayed and left for dead by his own father. Now, the so-called Pirate King is poised to take revenge on the father who cast him out, and the brother who took his rightful place and has been living the high life. When Sam Winchester sets sail to collect a bride that he does not want, his journey is cut short and he finds himself at the mercy of a hard, bastard of a pirate who hates him and orders him to his bed. Inexplicably drawn to this mercurial and sometimes cruel man who holds the power of life or death over him, Sam walks a dangerous tightrope using everything in his arsenal to convince Dean to change course and see him as partner and ally rather than as his pawn and victim."

Bonus:Recs by [ profile] rainbowglowing

  • Gunpoint by [ profile] felisblanco: Jensen got his childhood stolen away from him when he was ten years old. Along with his memory, his voice and every emotion that wasn’t fear, hatred or anger. Question is, can Jared help him get any of it back? And more importantly, does Jensen really want him to?

04 January 2015 @ 01:30 pm
Hello guys!

I'm trying to recall the title of a specific J2 fic and failing spectacularly. In the story, Jared fall upon hard times financially and moves into a big house with roommates Jensen, Danneel, and Misha. Jensen and Danneel are a couple in the story initially but they don't last long. After a while of living in the house, Jared realizes that something is off with Jensen and he finds out that he has multiple personalities - one being very flamboyant that also makes sure everyone knows about his attraction to Jared. There's another personality who's a bit more reserved and shy that I think had feelings for Misha. Danneel breaks up with Jensen after finding out that Jensen's personality was in control and slept with Jared. And I think Jared felt really guilty about it because he felt as though he raped Jensen since he wasn't in the frame of mind to give consent.

If anyone could help me find this awesome story again, I'd appreciate it greatly! :)
I know I would be a real jerk asking for this but I just can't help it, so please don't hate me, I do love Sam myself :sob:

I'm hunting for stories in which Sam (or Cas, or anyone else but preferable Sam) loves so see Dean's tears, so he says harsh and mean words just to make Dean tears up, no physical abuse though.

Also, I'm looking for stories with NON-AU Dean or Jensen being in an abusive relationship with Sam or Jared (or Cas/Misha).
I have been searching for these for like 9 months and still couldn't find anythinhg :(

Oh and Bottom!Dean only please. Thank you! :x

Edit: Just remember a specific lost fic: Sam and Dean get three wishes from Santa (?) and use one to kill all the bad things on the world (monster, creatures, demons...). I'm mostly sure that it's Wincest. Please let me know if you bookmarked this one :x
06 November 2014 @ 03:50 pm
Okay - I'm going to literally tell you almost everything about this story and apparently the only thing I don't know is the author and title.

•Jared is a medium who does a favor for his buddy Chad and reads Chris, Steve, Aldis (I'm 99% sure it's Misha as well) and Jensen's fortune. Jared has a comic shop and Chad owns the shop he reads the above mentioned group.

•Jensen is a vet that just recovered from an accident involving his abusive boyfriend (Matt Bomer. Yum, side note why not a regular thing Matt/Jensen??).

•At first Jared is the only one who can see Matt, delves into backstory, etc.

Someone? Anyone? [ profile] saltandburnboys ftw. Link found in comments.

So, I'm looking for a specific fic, For the Love of Jensen Ackles, and I can't seem to find it anywhere. The web address for the links I've found on other LJ posts doesn't seem to work anymore and I'd really love to read it.

Also, if there are any other J2 fics that feature Jensen being bullied by Jared/Chad/whomever (like Pretty Enough) or Destiel where Dean is being bullied, I'd greatly appreciate it!

I'm looking for a fic I read a long time ago.

Here is what I remember:
-J2; Jensen was a hooker, Jared was his pimp (though we don't find out til later on that he is actually a cop); starts out with dark!Jared though I think he turns good at the end
-It started with Jensen being taken to Jared's house (perhaps he didn't bring in enough money?)
- Jared makes a deal with some club so Jensen has to go work there
-Jared has a strict no drug policy; the new club they are at force Jensen and the other hookers to take something

I don't remember much else but hopefully someone can find this for me!

Also looking for any other abused!Jensen stories and/or hooker!Jensen? Any recs are appreciated!

Thank you!
06 July 2014 @ 04:23 pm
Hi y'all! I'm trying to find a story I read a while back. I loved it!! Jared is a mobster & he sees Jensen at a coffee shop one day and Jared follows grim because he likes the look of Jensen! (Of course!) Jensen owns a bookstore and he lives a solitary life due to abuse in his past. Jared starts to woo Jensen. Jansens abuser comes back into his life. Ring any bells?!
Hi everyone

I thought I'd saved this fic, but obviously didn't.  I have the fanmix soundtrack someone did for it which is why I *think* the title is Stars Fall In (could be wrong on that, but that's the title of the mix) but I've had major Google fail looking for it and it's driving me nuts!

In case I'm totally off with the title what I can remember from it is that Jared & Jensen are neighbours and have been friends forever.  Jensen is abused by his dad and Jared is fixing up a truck so that when he's old enough to get his drivers licence he can take Jensen away.  Bobby helps him get the truck fixed up and find somewhere to go with Jensen (an aunt I think).

Ring any bells with you marvellous people?
03 June 2014 @ 05:48 pm
I'm looking for an old story about Jensen and Jared going to the same school, they are friends but Jensen falls in love with Jared and at the same time he is being abused by his father. And I think Jensen got his arm broken.
I think Jensen also was bullied by a jock at school who wanted to sleep with him...
Please help me find it!!
30 May 2014 @ 03:28 pm
I'm looking for several J2 recs

1. Jensen is being abused and Jared helps him.

2. Jensen has an eating disorder

3. Jensen commits suicide or is doing self-harm

4. Shy!Jensen fics

5. Jensen is addicted to drugs or forced to take drugs

6. High school fics

I would prefer bottom!Jensen fics but bottom!Jared fics are fine too
There's a fic I read a long time back, so not sure if it's still around. It had Jared in a relationship with a rich OMC who is physically abusing him. Jared is an artist and the OMC makes him paint all day to earn money from selling the paintings. By memory they move into a beautiful house by the beach, and Jared has a room that is just for him to paint in. I don't recall how the Js meet, but they do and eventually happy ending and all. Sorry, it's not much to go on!

It's not Shouting Out Loud (though that is also Abused!Artist!Jared and incredible, I highly recommend it).

Also, do you know any fics of any pairings where one character is with someone that is abusing them and they have an affair before abused!character leaves the abuser? I would especially like if the abused character is super shy. I love Bring Me To Life, so similar fics would be very much appreciated! Or if you know of any abused!Jensen, since I think I've only read abused!Jared fics. But really, any combination of characters, I ship them all.

Hi Everyone,

My computer recently bit the dust, so I am trying to find some of my favorite stories that I no longer have bookmarks for. I've tried searching for the, but am not having much luck. It is a bit of a varied list...

1. Supernatural/NCIS crossover fic - This fic opens with Sam and Dean meeting Tony DiNozzo who has been kidnapped by 'terrorists' who are possessed by demons. It was a long fic that progressed with parallel stories of the NCIS team coming up with legitimate reasons for why Sam and Dean do what they do and the Sam and Dean story of them trying to protect the NCIS team from demons. I believe that I read it on - (Found in Comments)

2. This fic deals with the long-term effects of Dean having been possessed by Meg and having a head injury during this possession (I believe he was struck in the head by a piece of concrete). It opens with Sam caring for Dean while he is still in a coma. It moves on to follow their progress as Dean wakes and has to relearn even the most basic tasks. Eventually, Meg and the demons return to make their lives difficult, but there is a happy ending (though Dean never heals fully). (Found in Comments)

Four J2 Fics
3. Dragon Fic - In this, Jared is a mechanist and Jensen is a dragon on the run from a guild that harvests his scales for materials. Jensen is in the form of a human when they meet and Jared doesn't learn that he is a dragon til near the end. (Found in Comments)

4. J2 where Jensen's cousin commits suicide. He begins to implode, struggling with drinking and depression and it is eventually discovered that his uncle had abused both Jensen and his cousin when they were children. (Found in Comments)

5. A/B/O fic - Jensen is the omega of Jared's neighbor (Mark, I think?). Jared meets them as he is considering an omega of his own, however he is concerned about how Jensen is being treated. He eventually discovers Jensen chained in the backyard, in the snow, and rescues him. The story goes on from there... (Found in Comments)

6. Last one is a story where Jensen has left acting after Supernatural and is now a driver in an extreme car racing series. The races involve lots of danger, relatively high risk of death, and to complicate the issue, someone is sabotaging the races and seems to be focused on Jensen. (Found in Comments)

Ok, this was super long! Thanks for your help in advance!!
Hi gang! I'm looking for a specific J2 - Jared and Jensen are the perfect couple but then Jared starts to work for his dad and his personality starts to change. He starts cheating on Jensen with women. He beats up Jensen really badly, I think he falls through a glass coffee table or something like that. Jensen leaves him, and Jared marries either Sandy or Gen, I can't remember which one. Sandy/Gen is not a very pleasant person. After that I'm all mixed up as to which is this fic and which are other fics. But hopefully this sounds familiar to someone?

I'm also looking for any J2 fics where the Js are together, then separate for any reason (infidelity, arguments, misunderstandings, long-distance, etc) and when they meet again, either one or both of them are with someone else and there's plenty of angst.

I'm also looking for angsty AU Destiel. My favourite angsty Destiel is And This Is Enough by [ profile] camui_zuuki and [ profile] dream_0f_flight if that gives you any idea of what I'm after. Tons of angst to make you cry.

Thank you!
10 April 2014 @ 06:24 pm
Hi everyone!!

First I'm looking for a story I read some time ago, in it Jensen is younger than Jared, Jensens mother works as a cop and Jared is her new partner and after some time Jensen and Jared falls in love.
Really want to read that one again!!

Secondly and an general search: stories that have abusedJensen and him trying to hide it from Jared and his friends, and of course Jared and Jensen ends up togheter! :)

Please Help!!!
Thanks in advance!!
I'm sure I read a sequel  to A Changed Man by MickeyM, but looking at their journal and googling/hunting around, I can't seem to find it? I think the follow up I'm thinking of must have been written by someone else? Or perhaps isn't a sequel at all, just had a very similar setting?

Jensen is part of Jared's harem and is castrated. The fic I'm looking for is a sad quite realistic look at long-term effects of that.
I love reading fairytales retold as J2 or Sam/Dean and I have saved many, but my computer crashed and I have to reassemble some of my saved stories. I have one I loved but can't find so I was hoping for help. What I remember... It was in a community for J2 fairy tales or fables (can't find the right one there either). It was a take on Cinderella with Jared as the prince and Jensen as Cinderella. I am pretty sure that the step siblings were Alexis and Milo from Gilmore Girls, and Tom amd Mike from Smallville were friends? of Jared. I am sure Jensen had been abused in all ways but was so shy everyone thought him fine. Of course Jared saves the day, but not with fighting? I believe Chad had a role in it too as maybe Jensen's friend? I had made a personal PDF as it was just posted to a journal and I can't remember the author or the title. If anyone knows this fic, where to find it (or the fourn it was in) or has a copy I can have I would be greatful.

Also if anyone has any recs for good fairy tale/fabe rewrites I would love to read them, any pairing or rating or story base  or any persons (J2 or Supernatural characters)

Thank you so much for any help.

p.s. I hope I got all the tags I went a little nuts.
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23 February 2014 @ 01:14 am

So, I read this fic a little while ago where Jared and Jensen were friends from college but went their separate ways for a bit. Then, Jensen contacts Jared and asks to stay with him and his dad (who was JDM) for a while. Turns out, Jensen was on the run from an abusive ex (Tom?) but he and JDM fall in love with one another.

Jared sees them kissing in the kitchen and freaks. Jensen runs away and into Abusive Ex and there's a fight involving him, Jensen, and JDM where Jensen is ultimately stabbed.

In the end, Jared makes peace with their relationship and Jensen/JDM live happily ever after (or so I recall).

Any help would be appreciated. It's driving me crazy not to be able to find this.
02 February 2014 @ 08:06 pm
I read this fic a long time ago, but no matter what I do, I can never track it down - probably because I don't really remember much about it, lol.

Cut for Spoilers and mentions of non-con.

It goes like this... )

Any help would be much appreciated.
28 December 2013 @ 10:59 pm
I'm looking for J2 fics where one of the boys is conditioned and trained for most of their life to be a soldier or some type of warrior without choice. Something like In retrospect (I’d rather have been a poet. Or a farmer.) by . Maybe J1 was physically as well as mentally abused? Completed stories only, please. Lots of angst, but please warn me for death fics. Thanks! 
23 December 2013 @ 05:56 pm
I have an unusual request. Now normally I tend to read gen stories but I've always been a huge slash fan. For this request, I'd like good Jensen/Dean bottom stories. Um to be more specific, I'm looking for stories where he thinks he's a top but turns out to really like being the bottom. So bottoming for the first time recs really. Top This by leonidaslion is a good example if it helps. It's wincest in case anyone was wondering. My favorite pairings are wincest, j2, destiel, jensen/misha and I don't mind wincest/castiel, j3, or j2/misha either.

I'm also looking for very good rape aftermath/recovery stories (with Dean/Jensen being the victim only please). I'm really strict in that request. Only Dean/Jensen. Thanks.

Now I don't mind top!dean or top!jensen stories so long as the plot focuses on him more. Like Monster and the sequel to it Not Waving But Drowning by [ profile] redrum669.

The final request I have is somewhat like the first one but a bit more specific still. I'd like it so that Jensen/Dean are strong characters at first like how he is in the series, where he takes care of everyone. Then something happens that makes him changed. Like in The Doors of Time by [ profile] felisblanco or [ profile] meus_venator's Prime ObsidianRomance's Follow You Down

I hope I've been specific enough and that people have some recs I haven't already read before. If it helps I probably haven't read as much livejournal stories I have on AO3. Thank you guys!
Hi, this is my first post on this community. I hope to do everything ok.

I'm searching for fics in which there is a BDSM relationship focused on discipline and punishment from the Dom to the bad Sub. I'd prefer if there is strong love between Dom and Sub, so the punishments are not for pleasure, only for learning a lesson. guilty!Sub willing to accept whatever the Master decides because he knows that he's been bad. Emotional!Sub scared to be sent away for his mistakes. The trasgression is not important (disrespect, brattiness, forget the rules ecc) and not specific punishments, too. I prefer spanking, caning, CBT and similar, painful but with no lasting damages. Whatever punishment can be effective on the emotional side of the Sub is okay, too. No safewording, no blood. I wish to see aftercare, even if it arrives after a couple of days to stuck the lesson better. Nothing is too harsh, so don't worry about it. Crying!Sub it's ok, for guilty, fear (not of Master but to be sent away) or pain.
Other than BDSM realtionship, it's ok A/B/O realtionship and puppy!play with the puppy punished.
I prefer J2 or Destiel (no preference for top or bottom between J2; in Destiel, bottom!Cas is better but i'll take bottom!Dean, too), but I gladly take Dean/Sam, Sam/Castiel (top!Castiel) and Dean/Sam/Castiel, too. No Samifer or Sabriel, please.

Other fics that i'd be glad to read are the ones with a bad Dom/Alpha and a damaged Sub/Omega who thinks to be useless and craves to serve another Dom/Alpha better. I'd prefer a slow relationship between the two, with Dom/Alpha caring and loving and Sub/Omega slowly becoming more confident. Discipline is good, too, but nothing harsh that could ruin the Sub/Omega's progresses. Dom/Alpha has to know his boy's limits.
I'd prefer only J2 for this (with Sub/Omega!Jensen, if it's possible and caring Dom/Alpha!Jared) or Dean/Sam relationship.

Third type is lighter. I'd love to see Sam as the big brother for once, so deaged!Dean fics. No loss of memories, Dean conscious to be the big brother but willing (after some time or right away) to be taken care of by Sam.

Specific fic is a spanking fic. I seem to recall that the boys were in a relationship and Sam made a mess in the hotel room he and Dean were staying while his brother was gone, and he didn't put the salt lines, so when Dean came back, he spaked him and at one point he handcuffed him for something (struggle or because he told him to stay quite and he didn't) and Sam started to cry while getting the handcuffs because he hated to be handcuffed. I also remember that Dean tells Sam something like "If you wanted a spanking, you could have ask instead of made such a mess" after punishment is over. I thought to have it bookmarked, but obviously i was wrong >.<

Sorry for bad english, i'm italian and i did the best i could! Hope you guys can help me! Thanks in advance!
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21 October 2013 @ 12:51 pm
Hi guys,

 1. I'm looking for fics were one of the J's was or still is in fostercare and had a rough childhood (physical, mental abuse etc.). I'd love to read something along the lines of Brand New Start.

2. I adored the Strangers and Angels verse especially how the relationship between the brothers and Jo's family is protrayed. So I'm wondering if there are other good stories like that out there, that deal with the boys being welcomed into a family. (I already looked through older, similar searches and I am now looking for additional stories)

3. Are there any stories were the Js or Sam and Dean are scuba divers, or just scuba dive in their free time? I don't think I've come across a story like that, and I came up empty googling it so.... recs plez if you got any :-)

4. And last but not least. Does anyone know if there is a story out there that is based on the movie "Shelter" by Jonah Markowitz? I just loved the atmosphere and tone of the movie and was wondering if anyone has written something based on it.

Thx everyone in advance!
02 October 2013 @ 10:57 pm
Hey guys, I'm wondering if you can help me find a fic I read ages ago. It was an AU story where Jared and Jensen grew up in a small town and Jensen pushes Jared away to make him leave town. Jared returns years later to find out that Jensen has a child that I believe is his? And Jensen is being abused or something like that? Does anyone know what fic I'm talking about???
20 September 2013 @ 07:27 pm
Hi, first time here and i'm looking for j2 fic au which i read few years back. It was highschool and Jared is religious and has desire for Jensen who is gay. I remember that Jared and his friends followed/kidnapped Jensen to the woods to scare him. And Jared wanted to do more than scare him but his friends didn't want to. Jared knocked (?) them out or they left (cant remember!). Then he wanted to "save" Jensen, he blamed him to feel lust to him or something.

Arg, i hope someone understand what fic im looking for :D and sorry for my english :DD

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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