23 March 2017 @ 02:44 am
I'm looking for a story I read where Cas came to the bunker after the angels fell, andunder cut for triggers for abuse/non-con )
I know it was on the kink meme a long time ago, not sure if it was ever posted anywhere else... anyone know the story I'm talking about? :)

Thanks! 
 
 
15 March 2017 @ 12:09 am
I'm looking for a deleted fic that was oposted on AO3. It had Sam, Dean, Cas and Gabriel in it. The pairings were either Dean/Cas and Sam/Gabriel or Dean/Gabriel and Sam/Cas, so since I'm not sure, I didn't put any pairings in the tags. In the fic, Sam and Dean were alphas and Cas and Gabriel were omegas. In the AU, omegas were basically treated like slaves and Cas and Gabriel get bought by Sam and Dean, but Sam and Dean are nice to them and all. In the beginning though, Cas and Gabe are scared of and mistrust the Winchesters, but they eventually warm up to them. Thanks a bunch.
 
 
04 January 2017 @ 10:45 am
Happy New Year, everyone!

I'm looking for a specific fic I read about Cas' time being controlled. Unfortunately, all I can remember is there's a part where Dean's observing Cas, and notices that his eye looks strange (ie irritated, red, bruised, like something had been inserted into it, etc. I don't remember specifically how it was described).

And in general, I'd dearly love any fics dealing with what Cas endured under Naomi and the "lobotomy," (as seen in flashbacks here). I'd also be very happy reading any fic surrounding the angels who captured him in season 11, the ones who used those creepy head contraptions. Honestly, any fic surrounding these or related subjects would be fantastic. Aftermath is good, too! I'm a sucker for hurt!cas, caring/comforting!Dean and/or Sam, others. Can be gen or slash.

I hope some part of that drivel makes even a bit of sense; I'm afraid I am not very articulate at the moment.

Thank you all so much!
 
 
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Hello. I have a few general searches I'd appreciate some help with.


1) Any fics dealing with the torture Sam went through at the hands of Michael and Lucifer whilst stuck in the cage.

2) Fics about Sam (either set in or similar to season 7) dealing with Lucifer banging up his noggin.

3) Possible AU's where Sam actually was still stuck in the cage and Lucifer was just messing with his head, rather than Sam just being crazy.

4) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

5) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
 
 
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Hello, me again.

Specific fic: There's this alpha/omega style fic I started reading a week ago but forgot to bookmark, I think it may have been on AO3, and it had Dean, Cas, Charlie and I think someone named Gilda(?) where they were at some sort of omega resort, and Cas and Dean were in a relationship that their alphas' didn't know about. I think I got up to the point where Cas reveals his alpha has taken him off of birth control and Dean kinda freaks out a bit. That's all I can remember.

General searches:
1) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.

2) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.

I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
 
 
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14 October 2016 @ 01:41 pm
Hi is there any fics where Dean abuses Cas or the other way around whilst in a relationship?

I don't mind if it is emotional, mental, sexual, financial or physical but would prefer physical.

Thank you.
 
 
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26 September 2016 @ 10:40 pm
I am hopping someone recognizes this one; again searching for someone else this is what the person remembers:

Cas is omega or mpreg.. Castiel is in an abusive relationship with Dean.. they have a baby daughter, and Cas is pregnant with second child. When Cas was finished with the doctor appointment he was waiting for Dean to pick him up but Dean wasn't there so a pregnant Castiel had to walk home carrying their baby girl through the rain.

Thank you!
 
 
01 August 2016 @ 09:06 am
Hi :) I read a fic quite a while ago and I can't seem to find it? I think Dean was blaming Cas for something with Sam (I can't quite remember what), and he starts to abuse Cas? Like not letting him sleep on a bed or something. At the end I remember Sam finding out about it somehow? I'm not entirely sure how to tag these things, so I'm really sorry if I've done something wrong. Thank you :)
 
 
25 November 2015 @ 04:39 am

I'm looking for this one specific homeless teen Dean fic. He meets Castiel behind a dumpster behind the Roadhouse (I think?) when he's looking for a place to sleep after he got kicked out by his dad. In the end they both sleep there. They both work as a prostitute, sometimes together. One day Alistair kidnaps Dean and they don't find him for a few days (weeks?). In the end Dean ends up in the hospital and Sam and John are there as well? -->
found
I lost all my bookmarks so if anyone could rec some longer (preferably at least 10k but if you think a shorter one is amazing too please add as well :) ) fics with these themes that would be great;
- Dark pre-stanford/stanford era. Dean centric.
- Abused!Dean (all the abuse, by everyone, canon or au)
- Abused!Castiel (again all the abuse)
- Abused Sam, but only by Castiel,Dean or John.
- Any other dark stories with Dark!Sam/Dean/Cas
- Any story where John comes back from the dead after season 5.

 
 
28 June 2015 @ 02:00 pm
I am looking for three things.

1) Angels as a family (Castiel, Gabriel, Lucifer, Michael, etc). Either canon (where they are angels) or AU (human or otherwise). Short or long, doesn't matter as long as it is complete. I don't mind if there is incest ("romantic" family is fine).

2) Castiel whump of any kind (mental, physical, sexual). Any where he is young and being abused by his family are great as long as there is a happy ending! Bonus if it can be tied into request #1.

3) Any fics with Castiel having a mental disorder. Any type is fine (OCD, Autism, Traumatic Brain Injury, etc). Bonus for tying into request #1 or #2.

Any pairings welcome for all.
 
 
08 May 2015 @ 12:12 am
Hey guys,
Found in the comments thank you!
I'm looking for a specific non-con destiel fic, I don't remember many details.

- Sam, Dean and Cas are all traveling together.
- Sam thinks Dean and Cas are in a consensual relationship and books 2 motel rooms so they could have privacy.
- Cas became a human or is graceless
- Cas is not allowed to sleep on the bed, he has to sleep on the floor in a sleeping bag.
- Cas is abused by Dean as punishment.
- Sam finds out Cas is not allowed to sleep on the bed and freaks out.
- I'm pretty sure it was on ao3 but it could also be on livejournal.


I'm also looking for some dark destiel fics, preferably hosted on livejournal.
One of them is dark, both of them are dark, neither of them are dark but they're in a dark situation,etc...
Au's are more than welcome, as are self-recs. I like Sam too so I'm totally okay with him being in the story as well.
Happy ending not required.
 
 
21 April 2015 @ 04:06 pm
I'm desperately searching for a fic I read some time ago (maybe two years ago).
It was not an AU, but I don't remember up to which season it is canon compliant.
It started with Crowley telling the boys about something awful that happened and he eventually convinced them that Castiel was responsible for it.
When Cas shows up, Dean tortures him to get him to admit to the crime. When Cas insists that he is innocent and doesn't know what Dean is talking about, Dean uses a spell which exposes an angel's wings and uses his torture techniques on them. It scars Cas more than the previous torture (abusing an angel's wings is unforgivable and similar to rape).
After a while it turns out that Castiel was telling the truth and Crowley only set this up to get back to Cas for his betrayal in season 6.
Dean is shocked by his own actions and tries to beg Cas for forgiveness, but the angel is terrified of him and only allows Sam to touch him.
That's when I stopped reading unfortunately, so I don't know if it ended with Destiel, Sabriel or none of these.
I hope someone of you can help me out.
 
 
 
I'm looking for a fic where Sam and Dean are bounty hunters of a sort, rounding up rogue angels that have escaped from owners and turning them into the authorities. They find Castiel and Gabriel and instead of turning them in they help them to freedom. I'm almost certain it had Destiel and Sam/Gabriel, and a bit of Castiel whump.
 
 
I'm looking for two fics:

1) Sam gets captured by lucifer and tortured but castiel offers to switch places with sam (or tries to rescue him and gets caught himself while sam gets away) and gets tortured and probably also raped by lucifer. He's also fed demon blood by him until the boys rescue him

2) This is a domestic fic probably after season 8 with fallen!cas who has ptsd and panic attacks. There's a scene where he gets one in a shoe shop while shopping with dean and people are staring at him until dean gets there and calms him down + gets him out of there. There also a scene where dean is frustrated with cas' situation and punches a tree until his hand bleeds and sam tells him to get it together to help cas get better. It was a wip when i read it but it's probably finished now

Thanks in advance c;
 
 
I am looking for a specific fic that I saw a few years ago that involved non-con, due to the dark content of the story I'm putting the request after the cut.

Read more... )

I am looking for hurt/comfort fics with Dean and Castiel, or J2 where one of them suffered any form of abuse or was hurt in some way and the other one takes care of them and deals with the after math, or one was abused in the past and the other helps get them past it. Can be gen or slash, any length or rating.

The stories I have found so far for this are Jensen Ackles Doesn't Exist by Xenodike, Coming Down on a Sunny Day by Maychorian, and Last Resort by Choosetolive and DreamsofSpike,
 
 
Hey Guys!

I've been on the look for this story that had Dean in this biker gang (or maybe some other type of gang?). Anyways, he meets Castiel who is a libarian (I am not entirely sure about that detail though). I think that they end up hooking up, maybe at a bar or something and get into a relationship.

Something Castiel gets kidnapped by one of Dean's gang rivals, Alistair I think, and when they finally rescue him he isn't the same. Soon, it turns out that the abuse the Alistair put Castiel through change him and his way of coping through it was violence.

I wasn't like normal domestic violence because in this case it was mutual. Castiel copes with his abuse by being more rough and aggressive with in all facets of there relationship, especially sexually. Castiel would urge Dean to be as rough as possible with him during sex leaving bruises and hand prints over his body, slamming each other against the walls and even hitting each other sometimes. Dean was initially against being that rough with Castiel, but he was slowly losing him so he went along with it.

Dean's friends start to notice this change in there relationship when they start seeing Castiel with bruises and hand prints over his neck, initially believing that Dean is abusing him. Several times during the story they make comments to both Dean and Castiel about how they are abusing each other.

Other than that, I do believe that Dean ended up getting locked up because he got framed for murdering someone he didn't actually murder.

There is also a small possibility that this story could have been J2
I recall reading this on Archive of Our Own (It might be on LJ as well) and this story also had a verse and was complete or at least this part of the verse was.
And also, I am 100% that this was completely top!dean with no switching present, or at least written.

Thanks in advance!
(Couldn't find the Abuse tag)
 
 
07 August 2014 @ 11:25 am
Okay so i remember a lot from the specific fic which is why it annoys me so that i lost it :/

1) It's set after the season 8 finale and cas is still in the forest where he gets captured by other fallen angels (or demons? though i'm sure it's angels) who torture him in his human state. Meanwhile sam and dean gave up hope that cas is alive (they don't know that he got kidnapped) and team up with two other hunters. An older man and a young woman who could be tracy bell but i'm not sure. The two see a lot in black and white when it comes to hunting which is why the boys don't get along well with them.
The rest I remember is a little bit further in the story so i'm putting it in a cut

More )

2) Also are there any fics where cas is falling and slowly loses his knowledge and abilities? So not just his memories (but that too) but also things like talking and other stuff.

Thanks in advance!
(I'm not sure if the cut is working so really sorry if it isn't)
 
 
There's a fic I read a long time back, so not sure if it's still around. It had Jared in a relationship with a rich OMC who is physically abusing him. Jared is an artist and the OMC makes him paint all day to earn money from selling the paintings. By memory they move into a beautiful house by the beach, and Jared has a room that is just for him to paint in. I don't recall how the Js meet, but they do and eventually happy ending and all. Sorry, it's not much to go on!

It's not Shouting Out Loud (though that is also Abused!Artist!Jared and incredible, I highly recommend it).

Also, do you know any fics of any pairings where one character is with someone that is abusing them and they have an affair before abused!character leaves the abuser? I would especially like if the abused character is super shy. I love Bring Me To Life, so similar fics would be very much appreciated! Or if you know of any abused!Jensen, since I think I've only read abused!Jared fics. But really, any combination of characters, I ship them all.

THANK YOU!
 
 
I am looking for three different fics!

1) Any fics involving the angels as a family. Must have Castiel and any other angels. I would not mind some shipping as well (particularly Castiel/Lucifer, Castiel/Gabriel but any Castiel/? welcome). Gen is great.

Angel family AUs where the angels are all human are okay too.

2) Fics with Cas whump. Hurt Cas, sick Cas, abused Cas, they are all good! All warnings welcome (including noncon and abuse fics). My only stipulation is that it have a happy ending. Any pairings or gen.

3) Your favorite Castiel/Sam fics.
 
 
17 November 2013 @ 01:08 am
Hello guys,
I've read a fic a few months ago and I can't find it anywhere.
It was a Wincestiel AU in which Sam and Dean spent their summers at Bobby's and Cas lived next to them (I think Sam and Dean eventually really moved there). They had a tree house where they spent a lot of time. Sam and Dean had been fooling around for a while and then they let Cas join too. I think Sam and Dean wanted to go slow but things didn't go as planned and Dean inadvertently took Sam's virginity without either of them really wanting it. Then Sam asked him to keep going not to spoil his first time.
I also remember Cas lived with a violent/abusive family member (an older brother maybe?).
Thanks!

--Found in comments!
 
 
I'm looking for any fics anyone can recommend in which Sam is, for whatever reason (demon blood addiction, soullessness, anything else) evil or abusive or scary and mean and dark, and mistreats Cas, hurts him or holds him captive or uses him for his own ends, etc. Non-con, slavery, abuse all okay (even recommended ;) lol)

Anything at all along those lines, especially where there's Dean/Cas comfort to go along with it after the Sam/Cas hurt :)

Anyone? :)

Thanks :)
DoS
 
 
I read a Dean/Cas longish high school AU a long time ago that I haven't seen on any rec lists or anything since. Details are hazy, but I'll be as specific as I can. I remember the fic begins at a house party or something where a band is playing a show. I THINK Cas is one of the band members, and maybe Anna, but I could be wrong. Dean is at the party, and I think he and Cas end up talking by Dean's car? I believe eventually Dean wants to date Cas, but Cas is in an abusive relationship or something, maybe with Crowley. I can't really remember what happens in between all that, other than a lot of angst. Any help you could give me would be much appreciated, thanks!

EDIT: Found! Hymns of Angels Don't Sound Like This
 
 
16 April 2013 @ 10:22 pm
Okay, I deleted my bookmarks and found out how sorry I was about it. I lost a couple of stories that are very similar- one i was reading and the other a favorite i wanted to re-read. Please help me if you can, it is very appreciated.

Both stories are centered around Castiel being held captive by Lucifer!Sam and used as a play toy. In one I remember they were bound by Gabriel to make sure Castiel didn't die before they rescued him. In the other Lucifer not only had cas but two others( Bobby, Sam, or Dean not quite sure) in a coma like state. They end up breaking out in the end.
If this sounds close to anything else please also send a link- I would like to cover all my bases.

​Thank You Guys for ALL your help!
 
 
 
01 March 2013 @ 01:36 am
Ok, I feel a little awkward doing this. but I'm not having any luck on my own... so here goes.

Sub/Bottom Castiel only.

1) Gagged Castiel. For any reason.
2) A fic where someone uses sextoys on Cas, fully consensual or dub-con fine.
3) A fic where someone punishes Castiel (ideally I'd love one where he breaks some kind of rule someone has put in place because they don't trust him, or because of the nature of their relationship D/s maybe, and he is punished for it, but whoever is punishing him doesn't reach the "forgiving" stage because they're too angry, are distracted by a hunt, or just assume Cas knows he's forgiven once the punishment is over, only to have to comfort him later when they realise he's been really hurting over it... I think people call it sub drop aftercare or something)
4) A fic where Castiel is an unwilling participant in a D/s relationship, would majorly love some public bondage.

and lastly, a slightly different (but still sorta the same)

5) Any fics where Castiel's wings are restrained. I'm talking actual tethering, maybe special demonic chains that don't let him uncurl his wings. Can be consensual (Maybe Cas does it to show his willingness to submit to them) or non/dub-con.
 
 
25 July 2012 @ 09:41 pm
Hello wonderful people! I was wondering if you might be kind enough to help me find some good gen, series-era whump fic featuring Dean, Sam, and/or Castiel. I'm game for kidnapping, physical abuse, bondage, torture, etc. but PLEASE NO sexual abuse.

Dark!fic, Case!fic, epics, short stories, happy endings, hurt/comfort, five ways, horror, action/adventure... Whatever! It's all good to me, as long as it's got some good wump in there and it's gen.
 
 
Searching for a fic in which Alistair makes Castiel believe that he (Cas) is being abused by Dean. As the fic progresses, Castiel becomes more confused as to what's real and what's happening in his mind. Meanwhile, Dean doesn't understand why Castiel begins to fear him. I believe this may have been a prompt fill for Supernatural Kink Meme (spn_kinkmeme) but it may have been someplace else. Thank you for any help!
 
 
20 July 2012 @ 05:11 am
It was a long time ago and i don't remember the title but the pieces i remembered is Dean saving Castiel from something and in his pain, Castiel accidentally revealed that Dean had tortured him when he was in hell. I think Castiel begging Dean that he doesn't have to do that anymore because he was there to save him or something. Ring a bell? Thanks in advance. :)
 
 
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16 July 2012 @ 02:29 pm
I've found a new "Cas" kick again! They beginning to A Reason To Fall had me thinking about Cas being in a Hospital with no memory or with and how he would react. Would he call Bobby, Dean, Sam, or would he just get up and go? Then I went on a side trip to him being Kidnapped. Either by bad guys or good guys (as in one of his brothers trying to keep him safe etc.) But Alas! I can't find very many! So I would love your guy's help! If you have any Favs related to this as well please rec those too!

Needs...
-Cas Kidnapped or in a Hospital
-Him haveing to get help
-I love comfort and hurt to go along with it
-if you have any fatherly!Bobby I would love you!

Thanks to any who can help!
-

(Mods- I couldn't find a Cas-kidnapped but one for each of the boys. I would love if you could add Cas to the list as well ;) Thanks!)

Edit: Help! I still want more :p I suck I know but I would love more it you guys got them! Thanks!
 
 
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10 July 2012 @ 07:06 pm
Hi peoples! I was wondering if you people could help me find two Destiel FICA I read ages ago and was stupid enough not to save them.

The first one is a Destiel high school AU where Castiel's dad beats the crap out of him all the time and so he now hates any sort of conflict eg. Jo playfully hit a guy (could've been Ash) and Cas flinched like something bit him. Dean goes over to Cas' house and pisses off his dad so he would attack Dean while (John?) films it so he could be arrested.

And the second one, I only remember 1 scene from (for all I know it could be the same fic as the first request). I remember that Cas is on school property after talking to a teacher and Dean is waiting for him at the impala and a gang of kids start to beat him almost t odeath because he was gay and was about to set him on fire but Dean or police or something interrupted them before they could finish.

I know that might not be a lot to go on but it is all my demented head remembers. Please help me! Thanks in advance!

Found! :
1. Storm of Fear
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7244007/1/Storm_of_Fear

2. I Promise I Love You
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6559269/1/I_Promise_I_Love_You
 
 
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28 June 2012 @ 02:06 am
I'm trying to find a Destiel AU fic where Dean and Cas are in high school together and Dean finds out Cas's father is very abusive and Cas ends up self harming and in a mental hospital?

any help would be great!
 
 
I'm looking for a Dean/Cas fic where Dean and Cas are together and the only part I can remember is that Dean almost hits Cas (I think they are in bed together at that point, but maybe not) and Cas tells Dean that he'll leave him if he does. Dean immediately backs down and feels shame. I think he might be afraid of becoming like John, but Cas assures him he's not like him. That's all I remember of the fic.

Edit: Found in comments

If you guys know of any other fics that deals with Dean hitting/almost hitting/hurting/emotionally abusing Cas, can be AU or not and in whatever setting), destiel, gen or even wincest if Cas is a major part of the story, and then feeling guilty afterwards, please rec them. I do need Dean to feel guilty afterwards, so no 5.04 fics with a non-caring Dean, please.
 
 
Hi, three fic searches.

1. Any Misha/Jared Alpha/Omega fics. I'll take anyone being the Alpha/Omega but I dont want any fics where its very BDSM style, I don't like that stuff.

2. Any cute Sam/Cas fics, preferably long/epic but i'll take one-shots and shorter fics. (though no WIP's please!)

3. Any Abused!Castiel fics, whether its emotionally, mentally, physically or sexually. Either Gen, Dean/Cas or Sam/Cas. I'm hoping for some Sam/Cas though because I havent managed to find any yet.

Thanks in advance!
 
 
06 March 2012 @ 11:27 am
Basically, it's set right after Death's Door (probably) and Dean is about to walk into Dick Roman's headquarters to try and kill him. This suicidal plan depends on the other leviathans thinking he's just one of them having to look like Dean. On his way to Dick's office, someone mentions to him that there's an angel in the basement that everyone has been using and abusing for the last few months. Dean suspects it's Castiel, abandons his chance to kill Dick and heads down to the basement.

Of course it is Cas, and he thinks it's just another Leviathan come to 'rescue' him - get him up several floors and then reveal it's a fake rescue. Dean proves he's human, eventually gets Cas out and...I don't remember the rest.

So yeah, if anyone knows the fic I'm speaking of, I'd love to see the link.

Also, fairly sure it was Dean/Cas by the end, but it might not've been.

Found in the comments!
 
 
03 February 2012 @ 10:10 pm
I read a fic (and I can't remember the author or title) where Cas was in hell being tortured by Lucifer and the floor was really hot and burnt his feet. I can't remember much but I'm pretty sure that eventually he got out and the boys looked after him. I have a feeling that it was Destiel.

If anyone knows which fic this is please help me out!
Thank you
:)

Edit
FOUND: http://thevinegarworks.livejournal.com/23181.html#cutid1
 
 
I'm sorry if I'm posting this in the wrong place but... I had come across a Fanfic a little while back (but I can't tell you the website - may have been LJ or Fanfiction.net or somewhere else) that I would love to find again.

It was set in ep: 05x04 the end. and was written from both Past Dean and Future Cas' POV.

The basic story went along the lines that Future Dean had ended up a shell of what he was and had taken everything out on Future Cas, when Past Dean shows up, Future Cas is basically unrecognizable. It was a really dark fic but show cased the bond between Past Dean and Cas

They wrote the fic along side what actually happens in that ep, ref. a lot of quotes from Future Dean/Past Dean/Future Cas and it was wonderfully written. I.. just can't seem to find this fic again. Can any one help at all?
 
 
03 January 2012 @ 06:32 pm
Happy New Year, all!

Bit of a different request for you all. I'm looking for any fics where God - the 'real' God, not god!Cas - either directly or indirectly heals/comforts/is revealed to/protects/etc. Cas in some positive way. Please no fics with corporal punishment, God/Cas slash, or in another way angry!God. I'm looking for benevolence and overall warm fluffiness, okay? =) Any length. Self-recs are always welcome. Thanks!
 
 
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21 December 2011 @ 04:42 pm
1. I am looking for fics where Castiel has been or is being hurt or bullied by the other angels. Any type of torture (psychological, physical or sexual). I would especially love it if someone(Dean, Sam, etc) finds out and comforts Cas or beats the hell out of his abuser.

This is similar to what I am looking for. http://archiveofourown.org/works/257236

2. Looking for the above request but with Castiel in a human AU (abuser can be anyone).

3. Stories where we find out Anna actually fell for something really bad (evil!Anna) and that is why Cas doesn't like her (bonus for also lining up with #1).
 
 
11 December 2011 @ 05:44 pm
Hello again,
friends!
I was searching for this fic I read a while ago and tried to look at all the related tags but still haven't found anything, so I hoped you could help.
So, basically, Castiel goes to the rescue during Dean's time in hell, he tries to convince Dean to follow him but Dean is Alastair's pupil and he's unfortunately used to tortures now, he's also convinced he's too damaged to be worth something.
It's a very graphic story, wherein Castiel stays in hell ('til he manages to earn Dean's trust), Dean tortures Castiel (there's also non-con if I remember correctly) but all through the fic Cas never loses his hope that Dean will remember he's not evil and he never loses faith in him and his soul.
I hope someone knows what I'm talking about, I don't remember much else.
Thank you in advance :-)

eta Found: it's The Forty-First Year http://tracy-loo-who.livejournal.com/83174.html
and there's a related story in the comments
 
 
06 December 2011 @ 01:10 am

Hi I lost the name to a fic that I really liked.
Okay here's what I can remember: Dean and Cas are on a case involving the FBI, Dean has raped and bound Castiel in the past. Castiel gets caught at their hide out by the FBI. I remember something about a Murder hoard or something like that. anyway Castiel is psycho-analyzed by the FBI, Dean Confesses to the Murders after turning himself in. I think the case had to do with a Ghost that was bullied and an old school gym.
that is all I can remember.
Oh and I know it is on Fanfiction.net so I don't know. I faved it but I can't remember the name.

FOUND!

 
 
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29 October 2011 @ 10:37 pm
So, the new delicious sucks, yes? I really want to reread this fanfic I found a couple months ago, but I can't find it! The story goes like this:

Castiel goes to Hell to stop the apocalypse. He has a few minutes to say good-bye to Dean and Sam, but the guys are tired from a hunt and Dean won't listen when Cas tries to explain. A few years later, the guys get a call from Missouri about weird stuff going on at a hospital. Turns out it's Cas, rescued from Hell by Crowley. They take Cas back to Bobby's house and let him recover. Cas loses his voice, so everyone learns sign language, and eventually Cas joins Dean and Sam on a hunt.

I hope someone recognises this. Thank you in advance!
 
 
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11 October 2011 @ 03:25 pm
Hey guys! I just finished reading A Monster By Any Other Name (http://freac-camp.livejournal.com/517.html) which features a totally and completely broken Sam. I've also read Bait (http://maz-kazama.livejournal.com/tag/bait) which has totally broken Dean.

I'm looking for other fics where one of the boys (Sam, Dean, Jensen, Jared, even Castiel or Misha) has been totally and systematically abused (mental, physical, sexual, anything) and is, basically, now somewhat of a basket case. They're just completely terrified and scared and constantly expecting pain. And I want the other to be desperately trying to make it all better. Basically I was extreme hurt/comfort guys!

Keep in mind I have read a TON of J2. I've read all of leonidasden's fics. NC-17, AU, gen, slash, wincest, its all totally fine. So are self-recs. WIPs I can handle as well. Just give me the most gut wrenching hurt/comfort out there. Thanks in advance!