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04 June 2019 @ 03:25 pm
16 January 2019 @ 11:53 am
Hey guys I am looking for stories with either Sam or Dean or both will be adopted by the Winchesters or just John with the boys were past abused and tortured . I read once a story called lightness and darkness it was exactly what I wanted and another one similar called coming home So i was hoping someone would help me find something similar these two stories any suggestions are really welcomed
17 July 2018 @ 08:15 pm
This is killing me! This story was a series of 3 (possibly four) in which the first story Sam is kidnapped by BMOL — Toni mostly — who is working to try and get Lucifer revived. I don't remember much about the first story, just that the theme is that they are pushing Sam to say yes and he ends up believing he did say yes. Also, Tony has a sidekick guy / right hand man (whose name I don't remember) and *spoiler* Toni is killed by Lucifer in the end.
The second part of this series, Toni's henchman guy kidnaps a delicate-minded Sam to try and take him 'under his wing' in his own sick way — he locks Sam in a storm cellar and there are storms outside or a tornado and he tells Sam it's Lucifer and Sam of course freaks out. Also, Henchman has a lady-henchman who is just kind of sadistic toward Sam when guy-Henchman is out of sight.
They were looong multi-chapter fics and I'm dying and can't find them anywhere, would LOVE some help!!!
22 May 2017 @ 12:26 am
I'm wondering if there are any fics where Dean or Sam (slight preference for Dean) have an abusive girlfriend - and this is NOT used to make him alter or reconsider his sexuality (that is, he does not suddenly discover an interest in males) or throw him into the arms of someone else (regardless of said someone else's gender/sex). Apparently, this is a trope for Destiel fics, but I'm a non-shipper so any non-ship fics of this sort I'd love to read. I just see both brothers (slightly moreso Dean) being really ripe for a manipulative romantic partner. Because I'm a canon-only sort of girl, please no abusive boyfriends for either brother.
06 May 2017 @ 12:36 am
Hello! I've recently read Credit in the Straight World, Outside By the Blue, Blue Moon, Brittle, Boy Falling Out of the Sky, The Air Moves In, Invisible Boy series... Basically if you can find it under Sam Winchester/OMC and it's lengthy on AO3, I probably have read it! I'd love more fics though, so I hope you can help!
1. Fics that have Sam exploring his sexuality with a male, with Dean finding out or walking in on it. Bonus for Dean getting super overprotective! Wincest preferred but I'll take gen too. I don't mind what age they are.
2. Hurt! Sam with comfort. Rape, violence, anything.
3. Sam with an eating disorder or self harming Sam.
4. Infantalism as a lifestyle. I'd prefer baby! Sam if that's possible. I've read SailorChibi's works on Ao3 for this too.
5. Protective/Possessive/Jealous! Dean.
6. Dean walking in on Sam getting off.
I'd love everything to end with a happy ending! No death fics, please. I'm looking for Wincest only, no other pairings. I don't mind if it starts out as another pairing as long as it ends in Wincest. I'll take gen too. Thanks so much in advance :D
1. Fics that have Sam exploring his sexuality with a male, with Dean finding out or walking in on it. Bonus for Dean getting super overprotective! Wincest preferred but I'll take gen too. I don't mind what age they are.
2. Hurt! Sam with comfort. Rape, violence, anything.
3. Sam with an eating disorder or self harming Sam.
4. Infantalism as a lifestyle. I'd prefer baby! Sam if that's possible. I've read SailorChibi's works on Ao3 for this too.
5. Protective/Possessive/Jealous! Dean.
6. Dean walking in on Sam getting off.
I'd love everything to end with a happy ending! No death fics, please. I'm looking for Wincest only, no other pairings. I don't mind if it starts out as another pairing as long as it ends in Wincest. I'll take gen too. Thanks so much in advance :D
11 March 2017 @ 06:49 am
Hey. Im looking for a gwnral search on any stories were teen sam or young sam geta sexually abused.
Also any stories were johns friends does it or another hunter.
Also any stories were johns friends does it or another hunter.
08 March 2017 @ 08:02 pm
Just a couple general searches.
I really want any stories of young Sam that's been abused. I prefer not by john but I will take it. but defiantly no dean abusing him please.
Also traumatized, kidnapped, nightmares.
Is their any were sam has been kidnapped lost or anything and grows up away from Dean and John. He has a really bad time and gets hurt or something. John and Dean find them in the story and help him/ bring him back to them?
I really want any stories of young Sam that's been abused. I prefer not by john but I will take it. but defiantly no dean abusing him please.
Also traumatized, kidnapped, nightmares.
Is their any were sam has been kidnapped lost or anything and grows up away from Dean and John. He has a really bad time and gets hurt or something. John and Dean find them in the story and help him/ bring him back to them?
26 December 2016 @ 06:44 pm
Hello. I have a few general searches I'd appreciate some help with.
1) Any fics dealing with the torture Sam went through at the hands of Michael and Lucifer whilst stuck in the cage.
2) Fics about Sam (either set in or similar to season 7) dealing with Lucifer banging up his noggin.
3) Possible AU's where Sam actually was still stuck in the cage and Lucifer was just messing with his head, rather than Sam just being crazy.
4) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.
5) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.
I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
1) Any fics dealing with the torture Sam went through at the hands of Michael and Lucifer whilst stuck in the cage.
2) Fics about Sam (either set in or similar to season 7) dealing with Lucifer banging up his noggin.
3) Possible AU's where Sam actually was still stuck in the cage and Lucifer was just messing with his head, rather than Sam just being crazy.
4) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.
5) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.
I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
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tired13 December 2016 @ 11:57 pm
I've searched for this fic once before but didn't get any results a few years ago, and it's sprung to my mind again and is now driving me crazy trying to find it so I figured I'd try again. This is definitely an older fic (I'm thinking probably around 2007/8) and is longer one...
I'm not 100% sure if it's a curse or a spell but Sam gets either sent back in time or to an alternate universe where there is another Dean and Sam - the two Sams swap consciousness but still retain their own appearances. In the past/alternate universe, Dean thinks Sam is insane as he is speaking of a different Dean and the future and possibly demons so he sends him to an asylum where he is very much mistreated. He's kept in isolation and chains practically 24/7.
I remember two specific scenes where he is being bathed/tortured, and another where Dean goes to visit him and he is very withdrawn and gaunt, and his hands are covered with a shawl to hide the chains/bruising. He begs Dean to take him home and Dean sees the chains, but he is convinced that his brother is violent which is why he needs the chains... Sam ends up escaping or being rescued by Bobby, and cared for by Jess who is Bobbys daughter... In the present time Dean and Sam from the past try to work out what happened and break the spell/curse to return them to their own timelines...
If anyone knows this specific fic it would be very much appreciated! I'd also like some recommendations along these types of stories & themes.
Thanks!
I'm not 100% sure if it's a curse or a spell but Sam gets either sent back in time or to an alternate universe where there is another Dean and Sam - the two Sams swap consciousness but still retain their own appearances. In the past/alternate universe, Dean thinks Sam is insane as he is speaking of a different Dean and the future and possibly demons so he sends him to an asylum where he is very much mistreated. He's kept in isolation and chains practically 24/7.
I remember two specific scenes where he is being bathed/tortured, and another where Dean goes to visit him and he is very withdrawn and gaunt, and his hands are covered with a shawl to hide the chains/bruising. He begs Dean to take him home and Dean sees the chains, but he is convinced that his brother is violent which is why he needs the chains... Sam ends up escaping or being rescued by Bobby, and cared for by Jess who is Bobbys daughter... In the present time Dean and Sam from the past try to work out what happened and break the spell/curse to return them to their own timelines...
If anyone knows this specific fic it would be very much appreciated! I'd also like some recommendations along these types of stories & themes.
Thanks!
05 December 2016 @ 09:40 pm
Hello, me again.
Specific fic: There's this alpha/omega style fic I started reading a week ago but forgot to bookmark, I think it may have been on AO3, and it had Dean, Cas, Charlie and I think someone named Gilda(?) where they were at some sort of omega resort, and Cas and Dean were in a relationship that their alphas' didn't know about. I think I got up to the point where Cas reveals his alpha has taken him off of birth control and Dean kinda freaks out a bit. That's all I can remember.
General searches:
1) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.
2) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.
I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
Specific fic: There's this alpha/omega style fic I started reading a week ago but forgot to bookmark, I think it may have been on AO3, and it had Dean, Cas, Charlie and I think someone named Gilda(?) where they were at some sort of omega resort, and Cas and Dean were in a relationship that their alphas' didn't know about. I think I got up to the point where Cas reveals his alpha has taken him off of birth control and Dean kinda freaks out a bit. That's all I can remember.
General searches:
1) Any alpha/omega style fics where Dean/Cas/Sam are omegas and have abusive alphas, with some hurt/comfort in there of course.
2) Fics where Cas has somehow become human and turns to Sam and Dean for help, but Dean (or Sam) decides they can't forgive him for the things he's done and abuses him in secret. (And I've already read Repent Of Your Sins (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1178489), which is what got me onto this in the first place.
I'd appreciate the help. Thanks guys.
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drained24 October 2016 @ 02:21 pm
I'm looking for fics either of the J2 or Sam/Dean variety that feature mpreg and/or omega Jared/Sam. Bonus points for fics where mpreg/omega Jared/Sam fics where he's escaping an abusive past.
I'm also looking for a specifc J2 fic with omega Jared.Its a forced boning fic. I cant remeber if they are fourced together by some outside agency or if they are fourced together by nature i.e. once you meet your mate you cant refuse bonding. I do remember that there is an age difference and Jared is younger, maybe a teenager, while Jensen is an adult. They live together in Jensens home and they don't physically bond at first because Jensen knows Jared is not ready for that.( Read more... )
I'm also looking for a specifc J2 fic with omega Jared.Its a forced boning fic. I cant remeber if they are fourced together by some outside agency or if they are fourced together by nature i.e. once you meet your mate you cant refuse bonding. I do remember that there is an age difference and Jared is younger, maybe a teenager, while Jensen is an adult. They live together in Jensens home and they don't physically bond at first because Jensen knows Jared is not ready for that.( Read more... )
09 September 2016 @ 02:56 am
Hi!
I'm dying to read again an old fic I lost and cannot for the life of me find on google
- it was eventually Sam/Dean
- teen!Sam is kidnapped, tortured and rape by a supernatural creature
- Dean and John never knew he was kidnapped
- Sam is let go by the creature with a curse written in his inner thigh (or something like that I'm not sure) that cause him to constantly seek pain and sex and to be unable to say no
- to break the curse he has to find someone that knows about the curse and love him nonetheless but he can't reveal to anyone what happened
- I remember Sam had sex with a teacher, kissed for the first time a class mate, and met Jen in a bdsm club
- Dean finds out about the curse thanks to the ghost of another victim of the same creature
ETA: FOUND in the comments
And for the general search, I'm starving for Sam/Dean or Jensen/Jared fics
with sexually abused Sam or Jared (NOT by Dean or Jensen)
that focus on rape recovery
with Sam-Jared being insecure, having nightmares, PTSD (etc) and Dean-Jensen helping him
novel-length fics are better, but I'll read everything
AU or not AU is the same;
I feel like I've already read every single fic about this topic (including all the ones I could find here) so please help me out!
THANK YOU and sorry for any mistakes: english is not my first language!
I'm dying to read again an old fic I lost and cannot for the life of me find on google
- it was eventually Sam/Dean
- teen!Sam is kidnapped, tortured and rape by a supernatural creature
- Dean and John never knew he was kidnapped
- Sam is let go by the creature with a curse written in his inner thigh (or something like that I'm not sure) that cause him to constantly seek pain and sex and to be unable to say no
- to break the curse he has to find someone that knows about the curse and love him nonetheless but he can't reveal to anyone what happened
- I remember Sam had sex with a teacher, kissed for the first time a class mate, and met Jen in a bdsm club
- Dean finds out about the curse thanks to the ghost of another victim of the same creature
ETA: FOUND in the comments
And for the general search, I'm starving for Sam/Dean or Jensen/Jared fics
with sexually abused Sam or Jared (NOT by Dean or Jensen)
that focus on rape recovery
with Sam-Jared being insecure, having nightmares, PTSD (etc) and Dean-Jensen helping him
novel-length fics are better, but I'll read everything
AU or not AU is the same;
I feel like I've already read every single fic about this topic (including all the ones I could find here) so please help me out!
THANK YOU and sorry for any mistakes: english is not my first language!
03 June 2016 @ 07:12 pm
Hello,
you guys are always great help, so I hope anyone can recommend me some fics
about the following specific topics. I already went through any kind of tags regard my requests, but sorry, I'm kinda specific and yeah I think also very picky.
( Season 11 )
you guys are always great help, so I hope anyone can recommend me some fics
about the following specific topics. I already went through any kind of tags regard my requests, but sorry, I'm kinda specific and yeah I think also very picky.
( Season 11 )
14 February 2016 @ 06:04 pm
This was an AU where John Winchester believed in the supernatural but it was not real. He, Dean and Sam lived on Camp Chitaqua along with Castiel and one other person(Chuck?). I remember that John and Dean were together and that Chuck was abusing Sam but Sam did not want to tell Dean. I also remember that they were trying to exorcize Meg or Ruby and they ended up killing her in a storage shed. I think Sam had to clean it. Gabriel was an FBI agent who was investigating John. There was a shoot out and John, Dean, and Castiel ended up dying. It ended up with Gabriel and Sam getting together after like 5 years of Sam being in foster care and being abused. Gabriel was a professor at a university. I hope someone remembers this story because it has been bugging me.
30 January 2016 @ 11:56 pm
I'd love fics where Sam and Dean are in a relationship, but Sam doesn't actually want to, but is only doing it for Dean, maybe because he thinks Dean will leave if he doesn't or because he still feels guilty over Ruby/Purgatory etc.
25 November 2015 @ 04:39 am
I'm looking for this one specific homeless teen Dean fic. He meets Castiel behind a dumpster behind the Roadhouse (I think?) when he's looking for a place to sleep after he got kicked out by his dad. In the end they both sleep there. They both work as a prostitute, sometimes together. One day Alistair kidnaps Dean and they don't find him for a few days (weeks?). In the end Dean ends up in the hospital and Sam and John are there as well? -->
found
I lost all my bookmarks so if anyone could rec some longer (preferably at least 10k but if you think a shorter one is amazing too please add as well :) ) fics with these themes that would be great;
- Dark pre-stanford/stanford era. Dean centric.
- Abused!Dean (all the abuse, by everyone, canon or au)
- Abused!Castiel (again all the abuse)
- Abused Sam, but only by Castiel,Dean or John.
- Any other dark stories with Dark!Sam/Dean/Cas
- Any story where John comes back from the dead after season 5.
26 October 2015 @ 11:01 am
Looking for stories with Omega Sam...where he is hurt and abused for his status. Any paring or AUs just looking for angst with happy ending. Mpreg always good bonus.
17 April 2015 @ 05:48 pm
The description of the fic contains underage, non-con content so I'm putting it under a cut so as to not trigger anyone.
( Read more... )Thank you in advance for your help :D
ETA: FOUND! See the comments below for the link to the story.
22 March 2015 @ 02:21 am
So I found a fic on someones delicious account that I would really really like to read;
My Heart Yearns
"Sam said he was going away to Stanford, but he actually never got into college. He just needed a reason to run away from his unnatural feelings for Dean. Two years later, Dean comes looking for him in Palo Alto, but they have no record of Sam Winchester as a student. Dean tracks Sam down to a sex house in San Francisco where the owner keeps the working boys high on a dangerous cocktail of drugs to make them more compliant to customers' strange demands. Dean has to pose as a client to get close to Sam. Sam seduces him." (comment fic)
it doesn't say anywhere what comment fic meme it was in :/
PLEASE SEND HELP
love you all xoxox
My Heart Yearns
"Sam said he was going away to Stanford, but he actually never got into college. He just needed a reason to run away from his unnatural feelings for Dean. Two years later, Dean comes looking for him in Palo Alto, but they have no record of Sam Winchester as a student. Dean tracks Sam down to a sex house in San Francisco where the owner keeps the working boys high on a dangerous cocktail of drugs to make them more compliant to customers' strange demands. Dean has to pose as a client to get close to Sam. Sam seduces him." (comment fic)
it doesn't say anywhere what comment fic meme it was in :/
PLEASE SEND HELP
love you all xoxox
30 December 2014 @ 07:52 am
Hi All,
This story was request last year and it was found, unfortunately, I forgot to save it. I can't remember the title or author. I just remember a certain scene playing out so I hope it is enough information. Here goes:
I can't remember if Sam is suffering from Stockholm symdrome or is just really mentally unstable ( gone crazy) because of Dean.
I can't remember if Dean was a Ware or Serial Killer? I do remember he was wanted by the FBI and he was #1 most wanted in the nation. He was dangerously really good at killing and evading the authorities.
I do remember that the Feds either arrived at where they knew Dean was staying at but the found Sam there instead (I don't remember if he was bound or lock in the basement?). Well they took him in to the closest precinct to question him/interrogate him? I remember that Sam was either really terrified and wanted to get back or he was totally crazy and ranting? I do remember him looking at the Fed/Cop and saying " The wolf is coming, you should't have taken his cub?" I do remember all hell brakes lose in the Precinct after Sam said that or maybe a bit later?
Does this ring a bell to any one? Would really love to read again.
Thank you Guys for all your help.
This story was request last year and it was found, unfortunately, I forgot to save it. I can't remember the title or author. I just remember a certain scene playing out so I hope it is enough information. Here goes:
I can't remember if Sam is suffering from Stockholm symdrome or is just really mentally unstable ( gone crazy) because of Dean.
I can't remember if Dean was a Ware or Serial Killer? I do remember he was wanted by the FBI and he was #1 most wanted in the nation. He was dangerously really good at killing and evading the authorities.
I do remember that the Feds either arrived at where they knew Dean was staying at but the found Sam there instead (I don't remember if he was bound or lock in the basement?). Well they took him in to the closest precinct to question him/interrogate him? I remember that Sam was either really terrified and wanted to get back or he was totally crazy and ranting? I do remember him looking at the Fed/Cop and saying " The wolf is coming, you should't have taken his cub?" I do remember all hell brakes lose in the Precinct after Sam said that or maybe a bit later?
Does this ring a bell to any one? Would really love to read again.
Thank you Guys for all your help.
17 December 2014 @ 04:52 pm
Hi All,
once again looking for certain fics with kind of the same theme. I am looking for any DARK DEAN stories where Dean's usual "take care of Sam/Protect Sam" mind-set is way over the top or over done. Like even though Sam's a teen or adult he never lets him out of his sight and does not allow him to do anything for himself, it a twisted psychological trick to keep Sam 100% co-dependent on him and unsure of himself or insecure, basically keeps him as a child mindset on purpose. So he can rely on Dean and only Dean.
John could be in it or Dean could have murder John to keep Sam to himself.
Best example is by writer "T.V program rule" Title: "Escape Rewritten" in FanFiction "www.fanfiction.net/s/10552352/1/Escape-Rewritten" (I don't know how to make the link work form here)
So if any ya'll know of any Dark Dean fic (Seriously not enough out there)where he does not want to hurt Sammy , just be 100% possessive/obsessive of all his thoughts, actions and feelings-
Sammy could be fighting it at first but always caves in, in the end, because he still has that soul mate bond with his brother "Needing Dean" "Can't live without him" feelings.
So if you have any favorite Dark Dean with this similar theme please rec to me? PRETTY PLEASE, coming up on a long holiday weekend and would love to read something at home
OH yeah it could be GEN or WINCEST
once again looking for certain fics with kind of the same theme. I am looking for any DARK DEAN stories where Dean's usual "take care of Sam/Protect Sam" mind-set is way over the top or over done. Like even though Sam's a teen or adult he never lets him out of his sight and does not allow him to do anything for himself, it a twisted psychological trick to keep Sam 100% co-dependent on him and unsure of himself or insecure, basically keeps him as a child mindset on purpose. So he can rely on Dean and only Dean.
John could be in it or Dean could have murder John to keep Sam to himself.
Best example is by writer "T.V program rule" Title: "Escape Rewritten" in FanFiction "www.fanfiction.net/s/10552352/1/Escape-Rewritten" (I don't know how to make the link work form here)
So if any ya'll know of any Dark Dean fic (Seriously not enough out there)where he does not want to hurt Sammy , just be 100% possessive/obsessive of all his thoughts, actions and feelings-
Sammy could be fighting it at first but always caves in, in the end, because he still has that soul mate bond with his brother "Needing Dean" "Can't live without him" feelings.
So if you have any favorite Dark Dean with this similar theme please rec to me? PRETTY PLEASE, coming up on a long holiday weekend and would love to read something at home
OH yeah it could be GEN or WINCEST
02 November 2014 @ 12:39 am
Hi everyone,
Looking for a late S1 fic where Dean finds out John's been mistreating Sam (verbal and/or physical abuse) when he overhears them having an argument outside the motel room, mostly one-sided and involving John blaming Sam for something. (Dean might have been injured?) Also explains Sam's departure for Stanford as either because of John's abuse or because John ordered him to leave. Possibly slash (John not reacting well to discovery of Wincest), though I might be mixing up different fics.
26 October 2014 @ 05:36 pm
I read two fanfic before but can't find it now, hoping anyone can help me!><
A)John find out the brothers having sex, then he fuck Sam to warn him don't do that gain with Dean, is anyone know about this fic?
B)John sex abuse Sam, blame Mary's dead on Sam, during the sex, John humiliate Sam, said Dean will feel disgust if he find out Sam seduce hid father, and make Sam say thank you to him, like thank you for make me useful blah blah, can't remember if Dean find out later.
C)John and Dean sex abuse Sam, make him become their bitch, cockslut fucktoy ...etc
And any fanfics like these two is very very welcome!!! Please please please! Only bottom!Sam, underage and dirty talk, spanking, bdsm, bondage is very okay, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!
A)John find out the brothers having sex, then he fuck Sam to warn him don't do that gain with Dean, is anyone know about this fic?
B)John sex abuse Sam, blame Mary's dead on Sam, during the sex, John humiliate Sam, said Dean will feel disgust if he find out Sam seduce hid father, and make Sam say thank you to him, like thank you for make me useful blah blah, can't remember if Dean find out later.
C)John and Dean sex abuse Sam, make him become their bitch, cockslut fucktoy ...etc
And any fanfics like these two is very very welcome!!! Please please please! Only bottom!Sam, underage and dirty talk, spanking, bdsm, bondage is very okay, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!
23 August 2014 @ 11:17 pm
Are there any stories where Mary is not the loving, nurturing sacrificing, devoted mother? I will take anything except Wincest or Slash.
Also, are there any stories where both John and Dean blame Sam for Mary dying? I would love to see them be really abusive towards Sam throughout his life but I will take anything.
Thanks in advance!!!!
Also, are there any stories where both John and Dean blame Sam for Mary dying? I would love to see them be really abusive towards Sam throughout his life but I will take anything.
Thanks in advance!!!!
21 June 2014 @ 03:19 pm
Hello again,
I'm looking for a type of fic where;
1) Castiel is upset over the way Dean treats Sam, whether abuse is present or just implied.
2) Sam is hurt (mentally, physically) or is suicidal and Dean doesn't seem to care/notice, but Cas does.
3) Dean loses patience with crazy!Cas (season 7) and treats him badly. Sam is the opposite and cares for Cas.
Whether Dean realises what he's done or not doesn't matter too much. Also, these do not have to be Sastiel, though that's always a nice bonus, so any pairing is fine. Please no AU's (like human!verse, Cafe fics, etc) though Canon AU is fine.
Thanks so much!!
I'm looking for a type of fic where;
1) Castiel is upset over the way Dean treats Sam, whether abuse is present or just implied.
2) Sam is hurt (mentally, physically) or is suicidal and Dean doesn't seem to care/notice, but Cas does.
3) Dean loses patience with crazy!Cas (season 7) and treats him badly. Sam is the opposite and cares for Cas.
Whether Dean realises what he's done or not doesn't matter too much. Also, these do not have to be Sastiel, though that's always a nice bonus, so any pairing is fine. Please no AU's (like human!verse, Cafe fics, etc) though Canon AU is fine.
Thanks so much!!
20 June 2014 @ 01:22 pm
I search for fics that would in some way touch the topic of Sam giving up his independence from Dean, and describe his feelings about that. ( Cut )
26 May 2014 @ 10:58 pm
Hi friends,
this is the third time I am searching for this particular fic. Hope I get lucky this time:) PLEASE..PLEASE..HELP ME??
It's a Dean/Sam slash that I read in Sam Dean slash archive.
This is what I remember about it.
(i)Dean gets a call from Bobby that Sam is doing badly in Stanford. Bobby probably brought Sam to his own home where he tried to kill himself a number of times.
(ii) It's from Bobby and (maybe) Sam that Dean learns about Sam's tragic past. Not only was Sam sexually abused by his professor in University, he was regularly abused by John as a child whenever Dean turned his back.Sam suffered greatly at the hands of John who was a very mean man.
(iii)Dean brings Sam with him to his motel room with an aim of curing him. But Sam by then had become an intensely suicidal, chronically depressed man who cut himself daily with blades or razors. He also had an eating disorder .
(iv) One day Dean catches him while cutting himself. He locks everything in impala's trunk.But somehow Sam gets hold of a knife and tries to cut himself again.Dean stops him and tells Sam to cut him instead as it would hurt less.
(v) Sam also tried to shoot himself with a gun. But Dean catches him on time. They have sex. There's a happy ending...
I hope there's someone who knows the story.
Thanx a million
this is the third time I am searching for this particular fic. Hope I get lucky this time:) PLEASE..PLEASE..HELP ME??
It's a Dean/Sam slash that I read in Sam Dean slash archive.
This is what I remember about it.
(i)Dean gets a call from Bobby that Sam is doing badly in Stanford. Bobby probably brought Sam to his own home where he tried to kill himself a number of times.
(ii) It's from Bobby and (maybe) Sam that Dean learns about Sam's tragic past. Not only was Sam sexually abused by his professor in University, he was regularly abused by John as a child whenever Dean turned his back.Sam suffered greatly at the hands of John who was a very mean man.
(iii)Dean brings Sam with him to his motel room with an aim of curing him. But Sam by then had become an intensely suicidal, chronically depressed man who cut himself daily with blades or razors. He also had an eating disorder .
(iv) One day Dean catches him while cutting himself. He locks everything in impala's trunk.But somehow Sam gets hold of a knife and tries to cut himself again.Dean stops him and tells Sam to cut him instead as it would hurt less.
(v) Sam also tried to shoot himself with a gun. But Dean catches him on time. They have sex. There's a happy ending...
I hope there's someone who knows the story.
Thanx a million
22 May 2014 @ 02:14 pm
I have had a REALLY bad 4 months and I need LOTS of cheering up. What you can do to help with that is to recommend as many h/c, angst Sam (or Jared) stories you know (gen only please but I will take any and all ratings)!!! Share with me the ones where Sam is SO injured, you don't know how he is going to survive. Share the stories where your heart is breaking apart right along with his. Recommend all the abused Sam stories you keep reading over and over again. My motto is the more Sam hurts (physically and/or emotionally) the happier I am!!! Also the longer the story is the happier I am!!!
I am sure I have read a lot of your recs but please rec away. It is always good to re-read great fics over again. Also self-recs are welcome (I don't know why anyone would have a problem with self-recs). Bonus points for Dean (Jensen) being an AWESOME big brother (at least by the end of the story)
So start reccing!!! THANKS!!!
I am sure I have read a lot of your recs but please rec away. It is always good to re-read great fics over again. Also self-recs are welcome (I don't know why anyone would have a problem with self-recs). Bonus points for Dean (Jensen) being an AWESOME big brother (at least by the end of the story)
So start reccing!!! THANKS!!!
21 May 2014 @ 10:33 pm
so a while ago I read this au fanfic and in it Sam was in an abusive relationship with Lucifer and Gabriel was a bartender who was trying to protect Sam - can any of you help me find it?
update: found in comments
update: found in comments
01 May 2014 @ 01:01 pm
Hey, so I'm looking for some stories that take place during season 9, so spoilers under cut.
( Spoilers )
Thanks so much!
( Spoilers )
Thanks so much!
19 April 2014 @ 06:54 pm
Hey, I'm looking for two types of fics!
1) I was wondering if anyone has come across a fic where, after the cage, Sam is awesome in bed. Like Lucifer taught him in the cage (whether it was non-con or not) and it just blows the mind of whomever (Dean, Cas, ext...) is in bed with him. Any pairing is fine, I just really want to read something like that.
2) Also if anyone knows any fics where post-cage Sam, totally messed up from what Lucifer (or Michael) did to him, abuses someone but doesn't really see a problem with it because it was just part of his life in the cage for so long. Any kind of abuse is fine, it doesn't even have to have a pairing in it.
Thanks!
1) I was wondering if anyone has come across a fic where, after the cage, Sam is awesome in bed. Like Lucifer taught him in the cage (whether it was non-con or not) and it just blows the mind of whomever (Dean, Cas, ext...) is in bed with him. Any pairing is fine, I just really want to read something like that.
2) Also if anyone knows any fics where post-cage Sam, totally messed up from what Lucifer (or Michael) did to him, abuses someone but doesn't really see a problem with it because it was just part of his life in the cage for so long. Any kind of abuse is fine, it doesn't even have to have a pairing in it.
Thanks!
07 April 2014 @ 01:05 pm
Hi guys! Any help with this would be phenomenal! I saw a post on her a while ago about a specific story the op had read and I have been searching for it ever since! Unfortunately, I haven't been able to locate it, and I can't find the original post either to see if it's been found :( Luckily, I still have the description saved on my computer, it went like this:
" Sam is only 16 years old and meets a 23 year old guy that he falls in love with and he is very insecure since he has zero experience with men. The guy Sam is dating is really trying to push him into having sex with him and I remember him threatening to leave Sam if he doesn't "put out" soon. Dean overhears that conversation and goes all protective-big-brother over Sam and ends up almost dragging/carrying Sam to the Impala and then refuses to let Sam see the guy without him being around. He also makes Sam promise to not sleep with the guy until he is 18. I think the story ends with the guy leaving when Sam won’t have sex with him and Sam seeks comfort from Dean. Somewhere in this story Dean has a sex-talk with Sam since he realized no one had ever had that conversation with Sam."
Please help! Love you all! xoxo
" Sam is only 16 years old and meets a 23 year old guy that he falls in love with and he is very insecure since he has zero experience with men. The guy Sam is dating is really trying to push him into having sex with him and I remember him threatening to leave Sam if he doesn't "put out" soon. Dean overhears that conversation and goes all protective-big-brother over Sam and ends up almost dragging/carrying Sam to the Impala and then refuses to let Sam see the guy without him being around. He also makes Sam promise to not sleep with the guy until he is 18. I think the story ends with the guy leaving when Sam won’t have sex with him and Sam seeks comfort from Dean. Somewhere in this story Dean has a sex-talk with Sam since he realized no one had ever had that conversation with Sam."
Please help! Love you all! xoxo
09 March 2014 @ 09:37 pm
Hi guys I'm looking for fics where John or Dean kill Sam either on accident (i.e. a car crash) or on purpose (can't save him), they don't even have to be the ones to do it, but they should be directly responsible for it in some way (i.e. sending him out unprepared for a hunt, driving him to suicide) . Whether Sam comes back or not is fine, really I just want massive amounts of angst.
Wincest or gen is fine, pre-series would be amazing.
Thanks!
Wincest or gen is fine, pre-series would be amazing.
Thanks!
15 February 2014 @ 12:43 am
Hello! I have a few requests, none specific, mainly with a Sam focus. If another character isn't mentioned, presume I mean the request is a fic like that involving Sam! Any pairing or rating is fine. I think I have done this request right, please let me know if I need to amend anything.
1. Language fics. Where at least Sam, if not Dean and others, speak two or more languages, and the use of extra languages is some sort of plot point. Can be real or made up languages.
Examples would be Sam picking up Enochian from Lucifer, or Sam and Dean with their own private language, or well, anything.
2. Powers!Sam. - I know there are hundreds of fics out there with this theme, but I would like to be recommended the best of them, hidden ones that you feel don't get enough readers. Any type of power is great.
3. Crossovers. With Naruto, Sherlock, Harry Potter, Star Trek(Any Star Trek series), True Blood, Game of Thrones(Even good, well written others which aren't listed here). In fact, I was re-watching some of TNG recently, with how the Q flick in and out and can seemingly bring anything they want into existence, I've always had it in my head that they are some renegade faction of angels, possibly following in Gabriels footsteps(And thusly failing, just pretty much staying how angels tend to be). Please don't tell me that I'm not the only one who had this thought, and please let there be some fic exploring it! Any characters in this
4. Missouri fic? I miss her. She was great.
5. Abused!Sam. Any at all, I have checked through the tags, but I am interested in more, please! (Would love if it were combined with any of my previous requests, particularly the language)
6. Drugs! Drug use. Sam preferred, but also by anyone else.
1. Language fics. Where at least Sam, if not Dean and others, speak two or more languages, and the use of extra languages is some sort of plot point. Can be real or made up languages.
Examples would be Sam picking up Enochian from Lucifer, or Sam and Dean with their own private language, or well, anything.
2. Powers!Sam. - I know there are hundreds of fics out there with this theme, but I would like to be recommended the best of them, hidden ones that you feel don't get enough readers. Any type of power is great.
3. Crossovers. With Naruto, Sherlock, Harry Potter, Star Trek(Any Star Trek series), True Blood, Game of Thrones(Even good, well written others which aren't listed here). In fact, I was re-watching some of TNG recently, with how the Q flick in and out and can seemingly bring anything they want into existence, I've always had it in my head that they are some renegade faction of angels, possibly following in Gabriels footsteps(And thusly failing, just pretty much staying how angels tend to be). Please don't tell me that I'm not the only one who had this thought, and please let there be some fic exploring it! Any characters in this
4. Missouri fic? I miss her. She was great.
5. Abused!Sam. Any at all, I have checked through the tags, but I am interested in more, please! (Would love if it were combined with any of my previous requests, particularly the language)
6. Drugs! Drug use. Sam preferred, but also by anyone else.
04 February 2014 @ 12:15 pm
I remember reading this fic a while back - I don't think it was ever finished - but the basic premise is both John and Dean get annoyed with Sam being more sensitive than them and they both say some harsh words. Sam takes it upon himself to toughen up and promises himself that he'll never cry again. I remember they hunt a werewolf (or something similar) and both John and Dean get hurt, leaving Sam to kill it. Sam ends up with Pastor Jim (I think) who is shocked so see Sam so cold and emotionless and refuses to let John and Dean see him. I remember there was a scene near the end where Sam tells Jim everything that happened in a church with John and Dean listening in.
27 November 2013 @ 07:26 pm
So there was this really great fic I read a while back and I was stupid enough not to bookmark it.
Here's what I remember:
John is on a hunt and he leaves Sam and Dean in a motel (I think, maybe in an abandoned house?). The money is running out really quick and Sam is going through puberty and is pretty much demolishing every piece of food within ten yards. Dean of course, lets this go and still makes sure that Sam eats enough until one day Sam drinks an entire thing of milk in like a day and Dean gets really mad at him. Sam stops eating everything in his path but eventually they have to seriously cut back on food because they are out of money. At some point Dean calls John (or vice versa) and John promises that he's coming home (which relieves the boys) but on the way back he is side tracked with a hunt and he sends a meager amount of money for them to live on for the next couple of weeks. I don't remember if this is wincest or not but eventually Dean notices how skinny Sam's getting. For some reason Sam runs everyday (I think it's because Dean says he needs to keep training for when John gets home) and I remember that by the end of the story they have a schedule that they stick to and when John finally comes back Dean is briefly worried that the schedule will be ruined and it will change everything. I remember a line about both of them being able to turn a piece/can of spam into like 3 meals and that when John comes home at the end of the story Dean's worried that he's going to notice how sickly thin Sam is but all John says is something about how tall Sam has gotten (I think Sam shoots up like 3 inches during the story).
I know, super specific and yet I still can't find it.
Thanks guys!
Here's what I remember:
John is on a hunt and he leaves Sam and Dean in a motel (I think, maybe in an abandoned house?). The money is running out really quick and Sam is going through puberty and is pretty much demolishing every piece of food within ten yards. Dean of course, lets this go and still makes sure that Sam eats enough until one day Sam drinks an entire thing of milk in like a day and Dean gets really mad at him. Sam stops eating everything in his path but eventually they have to seriously cut back on food because they are out of money. At some point Dean calls John (or vice versa) and John promises that he's coming home (which relieves the boys) but on the way back he is side tracked with a hunt and he sends a meager amount of money for them to live on for the next couple of weeks. I don't remember if this is wincest or not but eventually Dean notices how skinny Sam's getting. For some reason Sam runs everyday (I think it's because Dean says he needs to keep training for when John gets home) and I remember that by the end of the story they have a schedule that they stick to and when John finally comes back Dean is briefly worried that the schedule will be ruined and it will change everything. I remember a line about both of them being able to turn a piece/can of spam into like 3 meals and that when John comes home at the end of the story Dean's worried that he's going to notice how sickly thin Sam is but all John says is something about how tall Sam has gotten (I think Sam shoots up like 3 inches during the story).
I know, super specific and yet I still can't find it.
Thanks guys!
18 November 2013 @ 11:54 am
Current Music: Obsessed With You by The Orion Experience
Current Mood: 
hopeful
hopefulCurrent Location: my awesome chair, as always.
22 October 2013 @ 03:50 pm
13 October 2013 @ 03:27 pm
Hi guys! I'm looking for a few types of fics:
1. Fics about Sam and Dean having some sort of empathic or telepathic connection.
2. Fics where Dean is very possessive/overprotective of Sam and it scares Sam.
3. Fics where the boys are one soul in two bodies/soulmates.
4. Fics where Dean abuses Sam mentally, emotionally, or physically. Whether he realizes what he's doing is awful and stops or not doesn't matter.
I've read a lot of fanfiction in my day (*waves cane*), so I'm hoping to find something I haven't already read.
Gen only for all of these, please. Thanks!
1. Fics about Sam and Dean having some sort of empathic or telepathic connection.
2. Fics where Dean is very possessive/overprotective of Sam and it scares Sam.
3. Fics where the boys are one soul in two bodies/soulmates.
4. Fics where Dean abuses Sam mentally, emotionally, or physically. Whether he realizes what he's doing is awful and stops or not doesn't matter.
I've read a lot of fanfiction in my day (*waves cane*), so I'm hoping to find something I haven't already read.
Gen only for all of these, please. Thanks!
10 October 2013 @ 11:49 pm
I'm looking for any story where Dean is possessed and hurts Sam; there's one I specifically remember reading that I can't find and I really want to read it again. It was set during season 1 I think, and when Dean 'woke up' from his possession he was in the Impala on the side of the road. He called Sam and left a message saying he thought he had been raped because he was bloody in certain areas and when he got back to the motel he found Sam tied to the bed and terrified of Dean because possessed!Dean raped him. Anything like that I would love to read though I would prefer if it had a happy ending!
Um second, anything with hurt/sick!Sam and protective!Castiel/Gabriel or any other angel if you can find it.
Um second, anything with hurt/sick!Sam and protective!Castiel/Gabriel or any other angel if you can find it.
Current Music: Breaking Benjamin
Current Mood: tired
tired09 October 2013 @ 11:16 pm
08 September 2013 @ 01:27 pm
I've been looking for this fic for a while but I don't remember the author. Here's what I do remember:
- Sam was kidnapped when he was a baby by Azazel
- He was rapped and abused regularly by demons and humans
- The first time he met Dean, they had sex
- Dean has a daughter by Cassie and she's as powerful as Sam
- Sam has a lot of scars on his body
I hope somebody will remember this fic... Thanks!
ETA - Found in comments! Thank you!
- Sam was kidnapped when he was a baby by Azazel
- He was rapped and abused regularly by demons and humans
- The first time he met Dean, they had sex
- Dean has a daughter by Cassie and she's as powerful as Sam
- Sam has a lot of scars on his body
I hope somebody will remember this fic... Thanks!
ETA - Found in comments! Thank you!
Current Mood: hopeful
hopeful09 July 2013 @ 01:30 pm
08 July 2013 @ 07:26 pm
I'm looking for a noncon fic where Meg possesses Sam, acts all sluttish and does all kind of sexual stuff like having sex with a group of men/gangbang (one of which i think was a hunter) I remember that one of the men decided to not go with it because he saw the helplessness in Sam's eyes.
06 July 2013 @ 11:36 pm
I'm looking for (gen, Wincest, or Sam/Cas) that focus on Sam being emotionally hurt. Sam is insecure, feels rejected, he's having a really crappy day, etc. Not just a little, but stories that evoke that cold, sinking feeling, like you just got kicked in the stomach. Happy and sad endings welcome.
28 June 2013 @ 11:44 am
its a pretty lengthy fic where Dean and Sam is a d/s relationship but Dean goes overboard with Sam. Like Sam did not want Bobby to know about this type of their relationship. If i remember correctly, Dean broke that trust and somehow Bobby found out about it. Dean was also progressively getting more violent. I think the readers found out that there was something that caused Dean to go this far. Thanks for your time~
Found!- Fic under comments Author:flutternutter
Found!- Fic under comments Author:flutternutter
28 June 2013 @ 02:25 am
Hi there,
I'm looking for wincest or gen fics that deals with the events in season 6 and 7. There doesn't seem to be alot if at all in my searches. Perhaps i'm looking in the wrong direction.I thought there would be alot of writing material considering the potential but where is it??? More info on link
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I'm looking for wincest or gen fics that deals with the events in season 6 and 7. There doesn't seem to be alot if at all in my searches. Perhaps i'm looking in the wrong direction.I thought there would be alot of writing material considering the potential but where is it??? More info on link
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27 June 2013 @ 01:17 pm
Current Music: none
Current Mood: hopeful
hopefulCurrent Location: my fave chair.
25 June 2013 @ 08:42 pm
I hope someone can help me. I’m pretty sure it was a Sabriel fic. My details are a little hazy because it’s been some years since I’ve read the fic but the things I remember are:
Gabriel works at the family bar/bistro. Dean and Cas are together and happy. Sam’s in a relationship with Michael, an abusive relationship. Gabriel is in love with Sam. I remember a scene where Michael takes Sam to the family bar but Sam is forbidden to talk or look at anyone, including family. However, he talks to Gabriel and when he gets home Michael gives him a black eye for it. In bed Michael is really rough with Sam, and he never uses lubrication.
Bottom!Gabriel.
I really hope someone can help me find this story. I’ve been searching for days.
FOUND: Thanks to Wolfish_Willow. http://casiedearestfic.livejournal.com/18368.html
Lucifer not Michael.
Gabriel works at the family bar/bistro. Dean and Cas are together and happy. Sam’s in a relationship with Michael, an abusive relationship. Gabriel is in love with Sam. I remember a scene where Michael takes Sam to the family bar but Sam is forbidden to talk or look at anyone, including family. However, he talks to Gabriel and when he gets home Michael gives him a black eye for it. In bed Michael is really rough with Sam, and he never uses lubrication.
Bottom!Gabriel.
I really hope someone can help me find this story. I’ve been searching for days.
FOUND: Thanks to Wolfish_Willow. http://casiedearestfic.livejournal.com/18368.html
Lucifer not Michael.
24 June 2013 @ 09:14 pm
I just came across this story at an old Dean H/C meme and was wondering if there were any others like it - http://salacious-newt.livejournal.com/6233.html?view=211289
I'm looking for stories where a lot was put on Dean's shoulders as a child and Sam finds out. Maybe Dean was emotionally/physically abused as a child and Sam finds out later. I always thought that comment Dean makes in DSOTM about when John found out Sam ran away was telling and would love a fic that mentions it. Please no sexual abuse. I'm open to those roles being reversed too if need be and it being Sam who went through this and Dean finds out. But anything h/c and schmoopy where they discuss this issue would be amazing. I just love stories where Sam takes care of Dean for once. So if anyone knows of fic that fits such a generalization of Sam being the temporary big bro, I'm more than open to reading it!
I'm looking for stories where a lot was put on Dean's shoulders as a child and Sam finds out. Maybe Dean was emotionally/physically abused as a child and Sam finds out later. I always thought that comment Dean makes in DSOTM about when John found out Sam ran away was telling and would love a fic that mentions it. Please no sexual abuse. I'm open to those roles being reversed too if need be and it being Sam who went through this and Dean finds out. But anything h/c and schmoopy where they discuss this issue would be amazing. I just love stories where Sam takes care of Dean for once. So if anyone knows of fic that fits such a generalization of Sam being the temporary big bro, I'm more than open to reading it!