Hi guys!

Okay, so it's 2:30am, and I'm driving myself INSANE because I can't remember the name of, or find a story!

This is what I remember about it; it was ABO, with Alpha Jared. The Padalecki and Ackles packs weren't really peaceful, and I think Jared wanted to attack the Ackles pack to gain control, but instead, they come up with a compromise; Jared takes Jensen to live with him, and in exchange, the Ackles pack is left alone. There's a lot of protective Ackles family, especially from Josh, since Jensen is an omega, and I think that's part of the reason he agreed to go with Jared. Anyway, Jared starts off mean, and there's a scene when he's drunk and Genevieve hits Jensen and he does nothing to stop it...Sandy is his awesome "housekeeper" of sorts, and she has a soft spot for Jensen. One night Jensen gets sick, and Jared bonds with him...it reads almost like a Beauty and the Beast based fic. There's a cute Christmas scene and Jensen learns that the Padaleckis aren't as bad as he was raised to believe, and there's Jensen being an awesome cook...just before everything can be perfect, he gets kidnapped by some wolves that Jared banished, I think? But eventually, he ends up with Jared after Jared saves him from a cave or something...

Wow, that was long winded! I remember all that, just not the title! Hope its ringing some bells...I don't think I'll sleep until I find it, lol!

Other than that, any top Jared or top Sam with bottom Dean or bottom Jensen, please!! Preferably ones with possessive, jealous Jared/Sam!

Thank y'all!

EDIT: FOUND in comments by the awesome, fantastic moonlight_grrl!! *Happy dance*
Hello everyone. I just watched Disney's latest version of Cinderella and it has me craving for J2 versions, preferably with Jensen as the Cinderella character. I've done a search and found a few that I've bookmarked to read later, and I did find the below entry and was curious to know if anybody had a copy of the story mentioned? If so, would you mind sharing it provided the author is okay with that?


Of course, I'm interested in any other recommendations you may have. Just please no WIP's. Self recs are always welcomed.

Thank you in advance!
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12 February 2016 @ 04:35 pm
Hi! I'm looking for a fic with Jensen in abusive relationship with someone (not sexual abuse). Then he meets Jared and they fall in love etc etc. It's not a specific fic btw :) just something I would like to read. Any suggestions? Thanks!
Could you recommend J2 stories in which one J recovers from extreme abuse? the ratio of abuse to recovery time is not important, but it has to be pretty horrific and move towards a better end, even if the fic doesn't end on perfect notes (even death!fics are cool(.

Examples or harm include, torture, malnutrition, involuntary body modification, extreme power play that leads to identity and dissociation issues, and of course lots of physical harm. Sexual violence/slavery is cool, but I'd prefer if it was paired with more complex issues.

Bonus for length, world-building, J1 helping J2 recover from JDM (I love me to evil-JDM), and badass!victims that want to get better but need someone to show them how to move past their trauma and love themselves.

Also, the recovering abusee doesn't have to be one of the Js, but one of the Js must contribute to the recovery and (preferably) no J on J violence unless you think its awesome (like in the Desperate Measures verse).

Oh boy. I am a real buzzkill. I have no idea how to tag this except to select everything under the 'warning' tag :-/

Please and thank you
Hi there!Sorry if my description of all the vents in the fanfic is very long but I DO LOVE THIS FIC :(

A loooong time ago I read a long j2 AU fanfic here on lj where hooker!Jensen gets booked by a filthy rich man,mystery man Jared. He gets booked for a long period of time and there's a lot of very violent S/M involved.
Jared is from what I recall a sort of drug lord or something and has a big entourage (CW actors are in this story too)
During this time Jensen gets in touch with one of his older clients,an old lady,who tells him that if he ever feels like he's in danger,he can call this number she gives him and wherever he is he'll be found and saved by a sort swat squad.
Everything seems fine but!!! one time Jared hosts a party on his boat and he has sex with Jensen..but he's hurting so bad he can't take it anymore and wanting to leave he calls the "special"number.
Finally they rescue him and he comes home safe and sound leaving his old escort life behind..but after some weeks /months JARED FOUND HIM!Poor Jensen :'((

He's a very deranged man and the author express this exquisitely.
Oh and it turns out (don't remember if jared tells him this at the very end) that Jared knew Jensen since high school,but poor Padabear was a nerdy loser who wanted to impress Jensen with no avail.
In that moment Jay realised that he'd change his image and get a "revenge" on Jensen in the future.

That's pretty much it.
It's a fantastic story,compelling and it'll get you all paranoid!!trust me!It'd be a great thriller on screen,yeeppp.

I hope someone can help me finding this precious jem!
Hi friends!
I recently read the amazing 'It's just a phone call ' by freakn-out and am craving for more Jared/Jensen fics where either of the boys have been through physical or mental abuse of any kind and the other helps him recover .

Help me please?

I am dying to read fics where either Jared or Jensen have experienced any kind of assault in their life (in the past or present) and the other helps him in overcoming the trauma. Any kind of fics of this genre..first time or established relationship are welcome.

Thanx a million
06 May 2015 @ 03:25 pm
Hello again, good people!

I'm looking for a J2 au story from a long time ago. I remember that Jared was a rancher/cowboy and met Jensen in a bar and took him home. He kept thinking about being a gentleman and worrying that Jensen was going to run and they'd never see each other again. Jared was super sweet and Jensen had been in an abusive (emotionally?) relationship, I think with James Vanderbeek? But Jared is really sensitive and patient and sweet and makes Jensen see his own worth so they can be together. I also remember Chris (I'm pretty sure) and maybe Steve, being in it and Jared getting jealous of Chris at one point and then the boys have sex in a lake/pond.

I hope someone can remember this one. I did check the cowboy tag but didn't see it.

Thanks, as always! =}
30 April 2015 @ 11:27 am
Hey guys!

I'm seriously addicted to J2 at the moment, and hoping you guys can point me in the direction of some awesome fics. Please, let them all be bottom!Jensen and preferably no hurt!Jared. Ideally, I'd love:

1) Any hurt!Jensen and protective!Jared fics. Jared can be a good or a bad guy, as long as he doesn't hurt Jensen himself.

2) Any fics where Jensen gets hurt protecting Jared, and Jared gets all mother-hen and protective over Jensen.

3) ANY possessive!Jared and jealous!Jared stories are beyond epic.

4) Any abused!Jensen fics where Jared tries to help him heal and is very protective of him. Bonus if there's a confrontation with Jensen's abuser.

5) Any fics where Jared tries to woo Jensen, who believes he isn't worth it.

6) Any kidnapped!Jensen fics where Jared's racing against the clock to get to him and Jensen is hurt during the interim.

A lot to ask, I know, but I'd love to see what fics I might have missed!

Thank you!!! ;-)
25 April 2015 @ 02:37 pm
I'm looking for a SPN RPS fic that I think was from a kink meme. In it, Jared and Jensen have an established relationship, but Jared doesn't know that Jensen had an abusive boyfriend before. This relationship makes him think that he needs to appease Jared with sex.

At some point Jared finds out about this and they both take a no-sex vow until Jared can make Jensen believe that he doesn't need sex to make the relationship work.

Any of this ring a bell? I might be getting some of the details wrong.
I'm looking for any fics with:

1) abusive/drunk/asshole!john abuses dean in any way.
Bonus for (especially) Sam, or maybe even Bobby (or some other character) intervening on Dean's behalf.

2) fics with Jared/Jensen where either J1 or J2 (or both?) is being abused by their spouse/partner/parent, etc. Especially fics where J1 saves J2 from the situation - lots of hurt/comfort.

If anybody could help me find fics like this... it would make me very happy. <3
For reference, I think I might post fics I've already recced' here as well.

The Recs so Far...
My delicious tags for abuse (I must be a psycho...so many tags):

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] ohwillothewisp

  • Old Ghosts, New Love When Jared and Jensen have their first real fight it brings to light some trauma from Jensen's past.

  • Stealing His Omega Jensen was a thief for hire. He had just not expected to find this priceless treasure in the house he was robbing.

  • Wedding Night  Jared is a young omega who is about to go into his first heat. At the same time, his parents set up an arranged mating to secure a business deal. To Jared's surprise, his alpha isn't interested and instead, ties him to a machine with no synthetic knot or alpha pheremones to satisfy his heat - for who knows how long. Jensen is a thief-for-hire (mid to late 20s), and he's been told the home containing his target should be empty, so he's curious when he hears crying and moaning. When he finds Jared, a clearly unclaimed omega all alone, he knows he's gonna steal a little something for himself as well. Besides, an alpha who doesn't take good care of their omega doesn't deserve to keep them anyways. At first Jared thinks his alpha has returned for him, but he becomes frightened when it becomes clear that some stranger wants to take him away. He desperately wants to be knotted but he doesn't trust this stranger and knows that it's very important to his parents that his marriage works out.

  • The Jester Jensen is the sidekick to one of the world's most respected heroes. A man loved and admired by all. What nobody knows is that the hero in question has been sexually abusing Jensen, since he took the boy in as his ward. Warning Jensen that if he tried to tell anyone the truth of what's been happening, no one would believe him, since everyone would just assume that Jensen had been brainwashed by one of his guardian's enemies. One day, Jensen is hurt in a fight against one of said heroes younger supervillain nemeses, aka Jared. Jensen is more hurt due to something that his mentor did to him, than what the bad guy's did to him.  Jared initially just takes Jensen along, planning to use him as a hostage against his mentor, but then he somehow finds out what the hero has been doing to Jensen. After that Jared becomes immensely protective of Jensen, takes care of him and tries to help him. Only stopping Jensen from going back, because he knows that if Jensen does, he'll just go back to his guardian's abuse. And he knows Jensen only wants to go back because he's scared of what his guardian would do to him if he didn't.

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] casey679

  • * Bring Me to Life: Jared’s a shy young man, whose life has never been easy. His father hates him, his mother drinks her sorrows away and his husband Paul condescendingly treats him like he is nothing more than a beautiful toy. When his husband has to go away on a business trip to Europe for two months, he sends Jared away to a ranch in the middle of nowhere to keep him under control. There, Jared meets people who show him what love, friendship and loyalty mean for the first time in his life. Can he escape his life and finally find some love and happiness for himself?

  • * Stars Fall In: Growing up next door to each other in Calvary, Tennessee, Jared has known Jensen practically their entire lives. He knows almost everything there is to know about Jensen, harbors all of Jensen’s secrets. And that’s why Jared is hellbent on getting Jensen out of there, before it’s too late.

  • * The Best Gift of All: Sam runs away from and abusive relationship, taking his daughter with him. On the road and trying to get as far as possible on limited funds, his car breaks down. Against his better judgment, Dean, a mostly retired hunter and the town mechanic, offers to let them stay with him until repairs can be made. Together, they find a way to comfort and heal each other.

  • * Shouting Out Loud: "Jensen and Jared are college students who are nothing alike and meet for the first time when they both enroll in an acting seminar. They are cast as the leads in an experimental 2-man play dealing with domestic violence."

  • * Fight for What's Yours: Jensen has to deal with a lot of things: the fact that he's in love with Jared is one. But when Chris asks Jared out, everything changes. Tiny trembles were felt as I pressed him closer and it was clear he was fighting the rising tears. Those beautiful eyes peered up through lashes damp with moisture and his broken voice whispered, 'Can I stay?' 'Oh, Jay…' I murmured, tugging him along the couch until he was practically in my lap and sliding my arms firmly around his torso, giving him the support he needed.

  • * Mismanaged: Jared has a secret that he hides from everyone. The only family he has left, his manager, has been manipulating him, forcing him to audition the old-fashioned way: on his knees. When he meets Jensen, he knows his secret is in jeopardy. When Jensen finds out, will he listen or will he break Jared's heart.

  • * Us Against The World: At the age of 10, Jensen had a car accident that caused brain injury, changing his life forever. Now at the age of 30 he is trying to branch out on his own for the first time. Jared is abused and mistreated by his widowed father. Friendless and alone, he meets Jensen when the older man moves into one of his father’s apartments. Can Jensen and Jared change their lives? Together they have a chance.

Recs by [livejournal.com profile] elwarre

  • Dangerous Waters by [livejournal.com profile] virtualpersonal: "Two decades ago, Dean Winchester was betrayed and left for dead by his own father. Now, the so-called Pirate King is poised to take revenge on the father who cast him out, and the brother who took his rightful place and has been living the high life. When Sam Winchester sets sail to collect a bride that he does not want, his journey is cut short and he finds himself at the mercy of a hard, bastard of a pirate who hates him and orders him to his bed. Inexplicably drawn to this mercurial and sometimes cruel man who holds the power of life or death over him, Sam walks a dangerous tightrope using everything in his arsenal to convince Dean to change course and see him as partner and ally rather than as his pawn and victim."

Bonus:Recs by [livejournal.com profile] rainbowglowing

  • Gunpoint by [livejournal.com profile] felisblanco: Jensen got his childhood stolen away from him when he was ten years old. Along with his memory, his voice and every emotion that wasn’t fear, hatred or anger. Question is, can Jared help him get any of it back? And more importantly, does Jensen really want him to?

04 January 2015 @ 01:30 pm
Hello guys!

I'm trying to recall the title of a specific J2 fic and failing spectacularly. In the story, Jared fall upon hard times financially and moves into a big house with roommates Jensen, Danneel, and Misha. Jensen and Danneel are a couple in the story initially but they don't last long. After a while of living in the house, Jared realizes that something is off with Jensen and he finds out that he has multiple personalities - one being very flamboyant that also makes sure everyone knows about his attraction to Jared. There's another personality who's a bit more reserved and shy that I think had feelings for Misha. Danneel breaks up with Jensen after finding out that Jensen's personality was in control and slept with Jared. And I think Jared felt really guilty about it because he felt as though he raped Jensen since he wasn't in the frame of mind to give consent.

If anyone could help me find this awesome story again, I'd appreciate it greatly! :)
18 November 2014 @ 10:59 pm
Hey y'all I need some help.

I read a fic awhile back. J2 with damaged Jensen. What I remember was that is was fairy tale-ish, like Jensen was "asleep", like he closed himself off emotionally because Jensen had been abused as a kid and Jared woke him up.

I think Jensen was a drummer in a band and Jared was trying out for bassist or something. Either way he got the spot and he and Jensen hooked up, but it was instantly HEA there was some drama then the HEA.

I hope one of y'all can help me.

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So, I'm looking for a specific fic, For the Love of Jensen Ackles, and I can't seem to find it anywhere. The web address for the links I've found on other LJ posts doesn't seem to work anymore and I'd really love to read it.

Also, if there are any other J2 fics that feature Jensen being bullied by Jared/Chad/whomever (like Pretty Enough) or Destiel where Dean is being bullied, I'd greatly appreciate it!
18 July 2014 @ 12:43 pm
Hey, looking for a story I read ages ago and have been looking for it ever since because I forgot to save it.
All I can remember is that Jensen and Jared are together but Jared is a complete jerk and (i think) verbally abusive towards Jensen. I don't think he's physically abusive, but he is a jerk until Jensen gets sick- maybe with pneumonia or something, and it makes Jared realize how much he loves him and asks him if they can start again.
Not much to go on, but hopefully someone somehow recognizes it.

I'm looking for a fic I read a long time ago.

Here is what I remember:
-J2; Jensen was a hooker, Jared was his pimp (though we don't find out til later on that he is actually a cop); starts out with dark!Jared though I think he turns good at the end
-It started with Jensen being taken to Jared's house (perhaps he didn't bring in enough money?)
- Jared makes a deal with some club so Jensen has to go work there
-Jared has a strict no drug policy; the new club they are at force Jensen and the other hookers to take something

I don't remember much else but hopefully someone can find this for me!

Also looking for any other abused!Jensen stories and/or hooker!Jensen? Any recs are appreciated!

Thank you!
03 June 2014 @ 05:48 pm
I'm looking for an old story about Jensen and Jared going to the same school, they are friends but Jensen falls in love with Jared and at the same time he is being abused by his father. And I think Jensen got his arm broken.
I think Jensen also was bullied by a jock at school who wanted to sleep with him...
Please help me find it!!
30 May 2014 @ 03:28 pm
I'm looking for several J2 recs

1. Jensen is being abused and Jared helps him.

2. Jensen has an eating disorder

3. Jensen commits suicide or is doing self-harm

4. Shy!Jensen fics

5. Jensen is addicted to drugs or forced to take drugs

6. High school fics

I would prefer bottom!Jensen fics but bottom!Jared fics are fine too
10 April 2014 @ 06:24 pm
Hi everyone!!

First I'm looking for a story I read some time ago, in it Jensen is younger than Jared, Jensens mother works as a cop and Jared is her new partner and after some time Jensen and Jared falls in love.
Really want to read that one again!!

Secondly and an general search: stories that have abusedJensen and him trying to hide it from Jared and his friends, and of course Jared and Jensen ends up togheter! :)

Please Help!!!
Thanks in advance!!
I love reading fairytales retold as J2 or Sam/Dean and I have saved many, but my computer crashed and I have to reassemble some of my saved stories. I have one I loved but can't find so I was hoping for help. What I remember... It was in a community for J2 fairy tales or fables (can't find the right one there either). It was a take on Cinderella with Jared as the prince and Jensen as Cinderella. I am pretty sure that the step siblings were Alexis and Milo from Gilmore Girls, and Tom amd Mike from Smallville were friends? of Jared. I am sure Jensen had been abused in all ways but was so shy everyone thought him fine. Of course Jared saves the day, but not with fighting? I believe Chad had a role in it too as maybe Jensen's friend? I had made a personal PDF as it was just posted to a journal and I can't remember the author or the title. If anyone knows this fic, where to find it (or the fourn it was in) or has a copy I can have I would be greatful.

Also if anyone has any recs for good fairy tale/fabe rewrites I would love to read them, any pairing or rating or story base  or any persons (J2 or Supernatural characters)

Thank you so much for any help.

p.s. I hope I got all the tags I went a little nuts.
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28 December 2013 @ 10:59 pm
I'm looking for J2 fics where one of the boys is conditioned and trained for most of their life to be a soldier or some type of warrior without choice. Something like In retrospect (I’d rather have been a poet. Or a farmer.) by . Maybe J1 was physically as well as mentally abused? Completed stories only, please. Lots of angst, but please warn me for death fics. Thanks! 
23 December 2013 @ 05:56 pm
I have an unusual request. Now normally I tend to read gen stories but I've always been a huge slash fan. For this request, I'd like good Jensen/Dean bottom stories. Um to be more specific, I'm looking for stories where he thinks he's a top but turns out to really like being the bottom. So bottoming for the first time recs really. Top This by leonidaslion http://archiveofourown.org/works/181717 is a good example if it helps. It's wincest in case anyone was wondering. My favorite pairings are wincest, j2, destiel, jensen/misha and I don't mind wincest/castiel, j3, or j2/misha either.

I'm also looking for very good rape aftermath/recovery stories (with Dean/Jensen being the victim only please). I'm really strict in that request. Only Dean/Jensen. Thanks.

Now I don't mind top!dean or top!jensen stories so long as the plot focuses on him more. Like Monster and the sequel to it Not Waving But Drowning by [livejournal.com profile] redrum669. http://redrum669.livejournal.com/7862.html

The final request I have is somewhat like the first one but a bit more specific still. I'd like it so that Jensen/Dean are strong characters at first like how he is in the series, where he takes care of everyone. Then something happens that makes him changed. Like in The Doors of Time by [livejournal.com profile] felisblanco http://felisblanco.livejournal.com/1090487.html or [livejournal.com profile] meus_venator's Prime
http://archiveofourown.org/works/304757/chapters/487269. ObsidianRomance's Follow You Down http://archiveofourown.org/works/998452/chapters/1976485

I hope I've been specific enough and that people have some recs I haven't already read before. If it helps I probably haven't read as much livejournal stories I have on AO3. Thank you guys!
24 November 2013 @ 09:21 am
HELP! I am looking for a story that can be one of many pairing. The only that I am sure of at this point is that it had Jensen or Dean in it. I believe that Jensen was an ex-convict. I am not sure exactly what he did, I do know that he was fasely accused (at least I think so...) He is on probabtion when he gets back and police officers or his probabtion officers are complete dicks to him and make his life a living hell. I am not sure of the pairing, but I know there was mpreg and jared or misha (sam or castiel) had a child by jensen/dean and the police officers will not allow him to see his partner (whom he may or may not be in a relationship with) or his child. Basically there is a hurt jensen fest! <3 I do know for a fact that there was a few sex scenes in there and they were top jensen/ or dean. I also believe that Jensen/Dean was older than the person he was in a relationship with. (sorry if my tags maybe incorrect)
Hi, this is my first post on this community. I hope to do everything ok.

I'm searching for fics in which there is a BDSM relationship focused on discipline and punishment from the Dom to the bad Sub. I'd prefer if there is strong love between Dom and Sub, so the punishments are not for pleasure, only for learning a lesson. guilty!Sub willing to accept whatever the Master decides because he knows that he's been bad. Emotional!Sub scared to be sent away for his mistakes. The trasgression is not important (disrespect, brattiness, forget the rules ecc) and not specific punishments, too. I prefer spanking, caning, CBT and similar, painful but with no lasting damages. Whatever punishment can be effective on the emotional side of the Sub is okay, too. No safewording, no blood. I wish to see aftercare, even if it arrives after a couple of days to stuck the lesson better. Nothing is too harsh, so don't worry about it. Crying!Sub it's ok, for guilty, fear (not of Master but to be sent away) or pain.
Other than BDSM realtionship, it's ok A/B/O realtionship and puppy!play with the puppy punished.
I prefer J2 or Destiel (no preference for top or bottom between J2; in Destiel, bottom!Cas is better but i'll take bottom!Dean, too), but I gladly take Dean/Sam, Sam/Castiel (top!Castiel) and Dean/Sam/Castiel, too. No Samifer or Sabriel, please.

Other fics that i'd be glad to read are the ones with a bad Dom/Alpha and a damaged Sub/Omega who thinks to be useless and craves to serve another Dom/Alpha better. I'd prefer a slow relationship between the two, with Dom/Alpha caring and loving and Sub/Omega slowly becoming more confident. Discipline is good, too, but nothing harsh that could ruin the Sub/Omega's progresses. Dom/Alpha has to know his boy's limits.
I'd prefer only J2 for this (with Sub/Omega!Jensen, if it's possible and caring Dom/Alpha!Jared) or Dean/Sam relationship.

Third type is lighter. I'd love to see Sam as the big brother for once, so deaged!Dean fics. No loss of memories, Dean conscious to be the big brother but willing (after some time or right away) to be taken care of by Sam.

Specific fic is a spanking fic. I seem to recall that the boys were in a relationship and Sam made a mess in the hotel room he and Dean were staying while his brother was gone, and he didn't put the salt lines, so when Dean came back, he spaked him and at one point he handcuffed him for something (struggle or because he told him to stay quite and he didn't) and Sam started to cry while getting the handcuffs because he hated to be handcuffed. I also remember that Dean tells Sam something like "If you wanted a spanking, you could have ask instead of made such a mess" after punishment is over. I thought to have it bookmarked, but obviously i was wrong >.<

Sorry for bad english, i'm italian and i did the best i could! Hope you guys can help me! Thanks in advance!
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21 October 2013 @ 12:51 pm
Hi guys,

 1. I'm looking for fics were one of the J's was or still is in fostercare and had a rough childhood (physical, mental abuse etc.). I'd love to read something along the lines of Brand New Start.

2. I adored the Strangers and Angels verse especially how the relationship between the brothers and Jo's family is protrayed. So I'm wondering if there are other good stories like that out there, that deal with the boys being welcomed into a family. (I already looked through older, similar searches and I am now looking for additional stories)

3. Are there any stories were the Js or Sam and Dean are scuba divers, or just scuba dive in their free time? I don't think I've come across a story like that, and I came up empty googling it so.... recs plez if you got any :-)

4. And last but not least. Does anyone know if there is a story out there that is based on the movie "Shelter" by Jonah Markowitz? I just loved the atmosphere and tone of the movie and was wondering if anyone has written something based on it.

Thx everyone in advance!

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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Hi ,

1. It's a story i read a long ago and i believe it was WIP back then.  It was J2 and arranged marriage? . J1 is looking for a husband for public or something like that and go to some agency and find offer with J2. Everything is arranged and they marry. But J2 thought that it wold be like fairytale but J1 only sleeps with him , barley talk to him etc. For J1 he is just fuck toy or something. Thats all i remember. Maybe that was alpha/beta/omega AU but I'm not certain.

2. It's demon!sam and demon!dean with other demons attack some angel facility and find young innocent angel castiel in library.

3. This is gen request - any fic with J2 where they are friends but J1 is love with J2 but J2 is complete moron and doesn't notice it and start dating some girl. This girl however are more aware of J1 filings and do all to end friendship between J2. Generally I want bitch girlfriend/finance who want to ruin J2 friendship. Maybe they fall apart for few years or couple days i don't care only with happy ending.

4. Another gen - J1 hurt J2 in any way (mentally, neglect etc.) and then try and apologize. Something like that.

5. Any J2 fic with homophobia in it. I would like it very sad like J must run from home becouse his parents disown him or something like that.

I like long story but good short one wold be fine. WIP if it updated
regularly. I don't mind alpha/beta/omega or mpreg or AU.
Hi everyone,

I read this story a while ago and cannot remember the name of it and I have searched this community but cannot find it :(

I cannot remember if it was Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean. I think it was Jared/Jensen. They were both abducted, along with Chad and sent to a sex-slave camp/ring/something. Tom Welling was there, as one of the trainers. Jared and Jensen were kept by 'Mistress' along with a girl named Ghost. Jared is younger than Jensen. Jensen acts very protective of Jared and they eventually start a relationship.

They were all forced to have sexual relations with clients. Eventually the feds are able to free them.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?
I am flying to Prauge in 2 weeks and would love some fics to read on the plane and since i dont have internet on the flight i would like fics that are in pdf form so i can download them.

So give me your favorite hurt!dean, sick!dean, hurt!jensen, abused!jensen or sick!jensen fics, preferably longer ones. If they have protective!jared or sam in them, that is a huge plus:)
thanks guys!
28 October 2012 @ 06:37 pm
Hi everyone!

1) I'm looking for a story that I read a while ago and don't remember a whole lot about it. It was a D/s themed story where Jensen was a sub recovering from abuse of his old Dom. He's best friends were Vicki (who was a dom) and Misha (who was her sub). In comes Jared who starts to try and train Jensen to enjoy doing things for his Dom for the pleasure rather then out of fear of a punishment. I know Vicki was pretty protective of Jensen and when they would go out she would have Jensen wear a bracelet so other Dons would think he was claimed and let him alone. ~ FOUND

2) Jensen is hosting a party and Jared comes with his Dom. His dom collared him that night without telling him what it meant and ends up abusing him in the basement. Jensen realizes what's going on and puts a stop to it. ~ FOUND

3) All the abused sub!Jensen or abused sub!Jared stories you have. I've read Wrapped in Chains, which I love and it doesn't matter who bottoms but I am only looking for J2 fics. I'd like the other J to be the Dom teaching them the new better way of life, not the abuser.

4) The last is very limited when it comes to what I remember. Jensen was dating someone, not Jared maybe Jeff. The man is a Dom but does not take good care of Jensen. The only think I remember was that he allowed other men to use Jensen and he would beat Jensen into subspace but then just leave him alone. No aftercare at all and Jensen would wake up alone.

Thank you for any help!
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17 September 2012 @ 03:15 pm
Hello, I'm looking for a story in which Jensen and Jared are having sex regularly but Jensen is strongly against having a relationship or falling in love, possibly due to a traumatic upbringing during which his mom punished him for being afraid of thunderstorms.
I remember Jensen's friends like Jared and are upset when Jensen eventually blows him off.
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I hope this is enough information,it was a great story!

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16 September 2012 @ 08:58 am
Hey guys. I'm in a very hurt/comfort kind of mood, and I trust y'all to hook me up with some good fics.

Specifically, I'm looking for some Jensen non-cons. Maybe he gets drugged and date!raped, maybe it's a random act of violence from a crazed fan, maybe it's his abusive boyfriend. Whatever you got, I'll take.

J2 is good, gen is also good. I'd like to keep it Non-AU if possible, but if it's a fic worth reading, definitely share regardless.

And since I haven't posted here in a while, I may as well also request any and all fics post S7finale. Hurt/Comfort, trauma, whatnot and whatnot. Wincest, Destiel, and gen are all welcome.

Thanks in advance everyone. I really appreciate it!

(btw, I loaded this post down with as many appropriate tags as I could, so if I missed one, please feel free to correct me, dear Mods)
19 July 2012 @ 10:57 am

Okay so this worked really well last time so now I am going to try two things...are we ready?

1. There was this story I read a while back that had Jensen living with Jared in some kind of apartment or garage type house because his parents hated him or something because he was gay. The whole story Jared is trying to break Jensen on his constant bad attitude about himself because they had been best friends for a long time and he knew that Jensen wasn&#39;t a bad guy. I remember that Jensen was in love with Jared or something but he refused to tell him because he didn&#39;t want to lose him so Jared thought he had a crush on someone else? I might be confusing two stories there, but the one that i am looking for has Jensen sleeping on a pull out couch that makes his back hurt i think....i am not entirely sure but if you find that or something like it I will probably read it :-)

2. I love high school fics where Jensen is abused by either bullies or family. I have read a ton of them so there&#39;s a chance i might have already read what you suggest, but I will one hundred percent read it again because I love me some young hurt Jensen :-) Anyway no character death or sad endings please, i read one (and if you are into this genre too you know which one i am talking about) and one of the boys leaves in the end which made me cry, so things can get as dark as they want to in the story, but i want our boys together in the end if you can find it. If you look at the tags all the specfics for this request are in there so if you can find anything good that matches with some of those...HAVE AT IT!

Okay thats it so....ready, set, go!

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26 May 2012 @ 10:04 pm
I remember reading a fic from this community that had Jensen and Jared working together on Supernatural. Jared finds out Jensen has a habit of sleeping around with anyone who wants to have sex with him, even walks in on Jensen giving an actor a BJ. J2 stay friends, but then Jared walks in on Jensen in the bathroom, his forehead smashed into the bathroom mirror and some guy screwing him. Jared yanks the guy away. Turns out Jensen had been sexually abused (sexually, emotionally) by his uncle along with Jensen's cousin. Jensen's abused cousin ended up hanging himself, and Jensen's mom found pictures of him and Jensen naked as kids.
It was a really good fic, Jensen ends up healing despite what he's been though and it ends with J2 in a relationship. Thanks in advance(:
Found: http://raise-a-glass.livejournal.com/1204.html
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This is a really great story that I found on this site a few months ago, but I have gone through all the tags that I though would apply and haven't found it! This contains spoilers
Jared is a spoiled, self-absorbed actor that got himself in trouble with the government and was thrown in jail where he was given a slave to teach him responsibility and respect for the government. As you may have guessed, Jensen is this slave. Jensen has a hurt leg and is very suspicious of Jared despite his insisting that he will not take advantage of the situation. In the end, however, Jared does take advantage of the situation while convincing himself that he is doing the right thing. Jensen, in order to protect himself, doesn't protest and does as he is told although he considers it non-con.
Eventually, they leave prison, and Jared continues his acting job while Jensen has to stay at home. Jared is in love with Jensen and takes him on trips to a cabin in the woods. Jensen seems to be okay with things, but he reveals to Jared eventually that he is very mad at him and he leaves Jared after his leg finally heals so he can fight in the resistance.
They still end up together.
Does anyone know this fic?
Hi everybody!

I'm searching for stories in which Dean or Jensen is physically and/or mentally abused by Sam/Jared or Castiel/Misha. I would prefer no pairing (gen) and a high rating (above PG-13/K+). Anything else goes: au, non-au; minor pairings; anything at all. I just really want to read about Dean/Jensen abused by someone he isn't romantically/sexually involved with.

I'd very much like if someone found out (John/JDM perhaps) about Dean/Jensen being abused, perhaps from being hospitalised, but that is just a bonus.

I've searched for something akin to this before, only then I wanted the stories to be slash and dub-con involved, whereas I want these to focus more on friendship, or at least a platonic relationship. I don't mind self-recs.

Thank you!
01 May 2012 @ 09:42 pm
Hi! I'm looking for three things:

1. Wincest (bottom!Dean only, please) -- where Sam uses their size difference and manhandles Dean, BUT Sam isn't absolutely dominant in the bed. A little is fine, but not completely so. I'd like to read something where Dean tells/shows Sam to do -- but not first time, just in general, just showing what makes him feel good and so on. Are there fics like these? 

2. In character J2 -- I would like to read a story/PWP about Jared and Jensen both being in character as much as possible. Genre doesn't matter, really, but I'd like them to still be on the SPN set. I'd also like to see Jared as possessive, protective or jealous but also believable. (Gen and bromance is fine too, but slash preferable.)

3. Abused!Jensen (preferably physical) -- wherein Jared (or anyone really) abuses Jensen (it can be gen or slash, doesn't matter) and he is still in character.

Can be accidental or on purpose, and I'd like it if someone else found out. (AU is fine, but I'd like to see them on set for this!) It doesn't have to be super-angsty or so, and maybe Jared is regretful once he realises what he's done? Also, amazing if there are any stories where Jared (or another) is actually convicted for abusing Jensen! 

Thank you so, so much in advance!
11 March 2012 @ 05:19 am

Yeah, so I suck. I've lost 5 fics I was lovin, so if ya'll could help a gal out?

1) Short J2, where Jared spanks Jensen for his improper use of grammar, I think during an interview? FOUND by [info]equally_dour. It's "Here Endeth The Lesson" by [info]lazy_daze

2) Sam was killed, or a wish-gone-wrong, or something, and was reincarnated as a baby to a woman. He has very vague memories of Dean and John and whatnot (he seems scared of the dark, and I think his bear's name is Dean), and I want to say his mother was a waitress. I remember him stealing salt shakers all the time. It was one of the first AU fics I ever read, and I can't find it now. :/ 85% sure it's a gen story. FOUND by[info]ceedeeandco! It's "Somewhen I Was Meant To Be"

3) Teen-Sam got his wisdom teeth out, and Dean's taking care of him, and his loopy-on-pain-meds-self. Sam keeps going on about how Gremlins are trying to get into the room, so he shoved all the socks in the bathtub (for some insane reason), and how baking soda repelled Gremlins, and yeah.  Gen. FOUND by the totally awesomely amazing [livejournal.com profile] roserlee!! it's "The Pains Of Being Sam Winchester"

4) Sam takes up knitting after the Wall incident. I remember Dean saying something along the lines of "Sam, that yarn has glitter. Don't touch it. No.... damnit."  It was short, and I'm leaning more towards gen, but you could see slash if you squinted. FOUND by [info]equally_dour. It's "In Time" by [info]lazy_daze

5) Jared takes in feral-omega-Jensen. It was a WIP last I recall, and it started off in the present, with Jared coming home and letting Jensen out of his cage (where he preferred to be, feeling safe), and then went back in time to when Jensen came into the rescue that Jared and Jeff ran. It was really good, but I've totally misplaced the bookmark. Help? EDIT: FOUND BY . "Rehabilitation" IS STILL A WIP THOUGH.

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07 February 2012 @ 09:44 pm
So I just got done reading the story Harvester Of Sarrow And I have to say it was amazing! So I was wondering if you guys new of any other J2 stories like this?

Or just anything with J2 abuse in it? 

I thank you all in advance :D
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12 January 2012 @ 11:25 am
Okay so I don’t know what is happening to my bookmarks but I keep losing stories. Thank you so much for any help!

1. Is a story where Jared and Jensen are in a relationship together and one of them buys a cock ring. Jared goes away for a few weeks to film something; Jensen finds the ring and puts it on. When he tries to take it off he finds out Jared set him up because it can’t be opened without a key which Jared has with him. At some point Jensen is in a lot of pain and is so uncomfortable he can’t faction so Jared talks him though milking over the phone. ~ FOUND

2. Jared is a 24 hour sub to OMC who takes him to Jensen’s home for a party. That same night he collars Jared only telling him the collar means Jared has to do whatever the master says. He ends up drugging and beating the hell out of Jared, Jensen comes down to the basement to find them and puts an end to it. Jensen kicks the master out and I think fires him. ~ FOUND

3. Jensen is a sub to another male character that is abusive, doesn’t give him any relief ever. Misha is Jensen’s best friend and Vicki’s sub. Once they get Jensen out of the relationship he’s shy and scared but agrees to go out with the pair to a local club. Vicki gives Jensen’s a bracelet, as a claiming just so no one will hit on him. Jared is a friend of Vicki’s and meets them while at the club and slowly but surely a relationship starts between the J2. ~ FOUND

4. Any story where one of the J’s is in an abusive S&M or D/s relationship and meets the other one who later becomes a much better Dom or Master to him.

5. It was a story where Jensen broke up with Jared by changing his FB status. The two are going off to college and Chad doesn't send in the roommate form so Jared ends up being roommates with Jensen. Then he ends up sitting next to him in a class and his professor hooking them up for a project. Turns out it was all a plot between Chad and Jensen so make Jared talk to Jensen. From the start Jared refuses to talk though, puts duck tape down in the middle of the room, etc? ~ FOUND
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29 December 2011 @ 02:42 pm
1. Ok now i dont remember much of this story, but i remember that is was a college AU with Jared and Jensen and it had the rest of the gang to (Chad, Misha, Chris, Sandy, maybe Gen, and Steve) and i forget why, but they came up with a "zombie" game where one person was a zombie and they coould infect the others, and if you got caught then you turned into one? It was a big bang im pretty sure. Sorry theres not more info, but if anyones got a clue what it is, that would be awesome :D

2. Any J2 high school AUs or college AUs. Im having a bad day, so i like fluff, but a little angst never hurt anyone as long as its got a happy ending. Bonus points for homophobic or abusive (sexually/physiclly/mentally) parents for one J and supportive parent for the other. Ive already read "as this sunset turns to morning" and friggin loved it!

Thank you all in advance, and may everyone on here have a Happy New Year! <3
03 December 2011 @ 10:11 am
Hello Guys, I'm looking for specific fics..

1. YED possessed John just like in 1x22.. He rapes Dean and after Sam shot YED!John, the demon escapes and Sam and John took the broken Dean into Bobby's.. Sam is overley protected and possessive while John is very guilty and also protective.. Dean is traumatized about what happen. (That's what I remember about and I'm sure it's not the Night Country)

2. Dark!Sam or Evil!Sam fics
3. Protective!Sam or Protective!Castiel or Protective!Jared or Protective!Misha for Jensen/Dean (Preferably Bottom!Dean or Jensen)
4. MPREG!Jensen or Dean
5. Delicious links for Bottom!Dean or Jensen
6. Abused!Dean or Jensen, Hurt!Dean or Jensen or Sick!Dean or Jensen
7. Low self-esteem or claustrophobic Jensen or Dean

Thank you so much in advance..
21 November 2011 @ 01:08 pm
I'm looking for the completed version of "Fray", a fill from the spnkink_meme. (http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/44194.html?thread=11263906#t11263906)
When I checked there this morning, I found - to my big joy and utter delight!!! - that the author has, apparently, finished it and posted it at their journal (as postwed here: http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/44194.html?thread=13309346#t13309346)
The journal ([livejournal.com profile] radiogalaxies), however, has been deleted since then (damn my fucking bad luck! If only I had checked earlier...). Someone else has been looking for it here, at least google tells me so - but that entry has disappeared as well!
I thought the story was rather extraordinary and very well written and I stalked it faithfully, and I would have LOVED to see how the author let it end.
So, if it's allowed, does anyone here have a copy that they would send me? Please? *big puppy eyes*
25 October 2011 @ 12:27 am
Hi all,

Last time when I needed your help, I got great responses. I'm hoping y'all can help me this time round as well.

I am looking for fics where Jensen is hurt after being in an abusive relationship. It can be physical or plain ol' emotional hurt. I'll take anything, as long as it shows that Jensen was deeply hurt by his partner.

I'd also love to read fics where him and Jared meet after he is disabled in some way.

Or something where Jensen and Jared know each other but lose contact over the years and when they meet again, Jensen has changed a lot due to an accident or a bad relationship and therefore, Jared feels guilty for not being there.

Gen or J2, doesn't matter. Any other pairing is a-okay!
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11 October 2011 @ 03:25 pm
Hey guys! I just finished reading A Monster By Any Other Name (http://freac-camp.livejournal.com/517.html) which features a totally and completely broken Sam. I've also read Bait (http://maz-kazama.livejournal.com/tag/bait) which has totally broken Dean.

I'm looking for other fics where one of the boys (Sam, Dean, Jensen, Jared, even Castiel or Misha) has been totally and systematically abused (mental, physical, sexual, anything) and is, basically, now somewhat of a basket case. They're just completely terrified and scared and constantly expecting pain. And I want the other to be desperately trying to make it all better. Basically I was extreme hurt/comfort guys!

Keep in mind I have read a TON of J2. I've read all of leonidasden's fics. NC-17, AU, gen, slash, wincest, its all totally fine. So are self-recs. WIPs I can handle as well. Just give me the most gut wrenching hurt/comfort out there. Thanks in advance!
I'm always adding fics to my list to read  and then eventually, they are added appropriately onto my Delicious fic recs page with tags. 

One of the "tropes", I guess you'd call it, that intrigues me is one character who has suffered from traumatic abuse in the past and has not learned to deal with it in normal society or a character who is suffering from abuse currently and needs to be saved or needs the strength to rescue himself..  The other character rescues or saves the first character from this abuse or helps him overcome the obstacle keeping him from moving past it and somehow maybe in doing so, they both find salvation.
O.K. Start with the basics -- one or both of them in an abusive relationship or one is still dealing with the aftermath of previous abuse.  This can be any kind of abuse -- domestic, child, mental, etc.  In the cases of sexual and child, I prefer, "mentions of" instead of graphic details.  Remember the focus is not on the abuse but on overcoming it.
Go from there.
14 March 2011 @ 07:56 pm
This is so specific I can't believe I can't find it. I only got to read the beginning of a story where Jensen was a 'troubled kid" in the foster care system who kept being abused. His abusive counselor sends him to live with a cult and there he meets Jared who has never lived outside to cult.
I'm sorry that's all I have. I originally stumbled across it here in another post looking for something else so now of course I can't find it after three days of searching! Any help would be great. Finding teh original post I found it in would be even better cause I think there where a few other stories in there I didn't get to.
I remember once reading a J2 fic where Jensen had had some kind of abusive former boyfriend, and as a result he was scared of people. He lived in an old house that was far away from urban areas, and worked from home. I think he may have had some kind of scars from his previous boyfriend, and possibly Chris was in it as Jensen's best friend. At some point, Chris might have had to tell Jared about Jensen's past experience.

Anyone know the story?

Edit: Found! Link in comments.