Hi everyone! I’ve been so very lucky with my previous requests here, I’m gonna chance it again and ask all you nice people for your kind help)))

My angst bunny is demanding to be fed, and I’ve been rewatching some of the previous eps waiting for S9, so now I’m looking for (sorry for it being so looooong):

1. Fics where Sam believes Dean is going to make good on the voicemail and kill him (I’ve always been fascinated by the sort of flinch-halfstep back Sam took at the end of The End, when Dean got Ruby’s knife out). Sam being suicidal and all “go on, do it, I’m not gonna fight” is a bonus, so is the voicemail issue finally being resolved. Fic can be set either at the end of Lucifer Rising, or at any point before their reconciliation in Fallen Idols, or at any time at all in S5, really, but setting within these first eps will be squeed over))). An excellent example of this is Reap by Tyranusfan.

2. Fics where Dean gains some perspective / insight into Sam’s side of the story during S4, which leads to an apology for the whole “you’re a monster” attitude.

3. Fics where Sam’s given credit for saving the world. I mean, not in any Dean-negative “all by himself” way, I mean where it’s really recognized that he did, in fact, save the world by jumping into Lucifer’s Cage… and just generally where it’s appreciated that it took a lot of strength to go through what he did (I mean, starting from his father basically blaming him for putting Dean in a coma in IMTOD and viewing him as a “save or kill” mission, it’s all not exactly a happy place).

4. Fics where not all of the blame for starting the Apocalypse is laid at Sam’s feet – not looking for any rewrites of canon here, just some acknowledgement that Sam wasn’t the only one who made mistakes and could’ve done some things differently, y’know?

All of these can of course be present in a single fic))) I’m okay for any pairings, length, warnings and self-recs, so long as there is a happy(ish) ending, no permanent character death, and no character bashing. Please and thank you.