I just finished S4 and the hurt!Sam was awesome especially in the last few episodes.Need more fics revolving the description below or others similar that's not necessary in s4.


In 4x21, when the levee breaks, Sam experiences hallucinations of Dean calling him a monster as well as the confrontation where Dean actually does state Sam a monster after being hurt by Sam. So What I'm looking for is hurt!sam fics revolving Sam being called or believing himself to be a freak/monster especially if its said by Dean(both intentionally or unintentionally) kind of like in anger but didn't realize how deep the scarring is.

I read a meta that compared Dean and Sam's reaction to the word "freak". Sam's reaction throughout SPN, seemed more emotionally linked to the word while Dean's uses freak much more casually.

1. I would prefer if the fics focus on during the series like now rather than weecest, teenchesters, or preseries.
2. I read wincest but both wincest and gen is fine
3. Guilty!Dean is a plus, hurt!Sam outside of the request is awesome
4.*** Fics does NOT have to be only in S4. Any season is fine. I was just in a mood b/c i just watched 4x21
5.I did search the epi coda
6 I've already read Hands and Freak on ff.net and did a little browsing in hurt!Sam area on Cherry's fic list :D


Sorry for the long note guys but thanks!