specific story search

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I've started reading a fic a while ago, sadly I've forgotten to bookmark it and now I can't find it anymore.
what I know:
it was on fanfiction.net
Dean left for the military, Sam stayed behind with John,
Sam got abused, he had scars covering his body (John told everyone that Sam was self-harming when it was him scaring Sam) and I think he also had AIDS,
Dean found Sam and decided to bring him with him, they lived together in a house with Dean's army-buddies who all developed a sibling bond with Sam
Sam was also blind in one eye I think, something happened when Dean first tried to rescue him (Sam didn't recognize him)

also I'm searching for all Sam/Dean/Jared/Jensen as angels/demons fics.


any help is appreciated!