ugh I lost the same fic AGAIN *flails* bottom!sam, non-con, hurt!sam, witches

[michelle-36.livejournal.com]

Ok like I ligit remember LINES from the fic but I can't remember the name to save my life.

It starts out with Sam being controlled by a witch and raped in front of Dean. Dean's under some sort of spell, Dean somehow manages to break free of it and kill the witch.

The fic focuses mainly on the recovery and I really, REALLY remember how Dean grabs Sam and he just starts screaming and Dean's begging him to stop screaming and to come to him and Sam crawls over to him.

I'm pretty sure it's two parts and the first part is Sam thinking Dean hates him or something and the second part is Deans side and how he thought Sam hated him because he couldn't stop the witch.

Please help me, I can't believe I keep losing this fic. Honestly I've read it about a thousand times but there's just something about it.

(NOTE: It is NOT "The Missing" by Menthol Pixie, I know it does sound like it a bit. It is also NOT "Secrets of South Carolina" (I forget who it's by.)

Anyways I love all of you and thanks so much for dealing with me :D xoxox

Comments

[phoenix1966]

Pretty sure it's the small series by dimelioracalled Please Don't Go at A03.

[michelle-36.livejournal.com]

I. LOVE. YOU.

[phoenix1966]

:)

That scene where Sam is screaming and then crawling to Dean is a pretty memorable one for me, with Dean calling him "baby boy" and such.

[michelle-36.livejournal.com]

ohmigosh right though?! The fic gives me chills every time I read it.

[phoenix1966]

It's so heartbreaking and well done. dimeliora is one of my favorite writers when it comes to these boys.

[dimeliora.livejournal.com]

Thank you both so much!! <3

[michelle-36.livejournal.com]

you are so very welcome you wonderful human <3

[immortalfire13.livejournal.com]

Could it be Personification? http://wolfmoonslash.com/efiction/viewstory.php?action=printable&textsize=0&sid=338&chapter=all

[michelle-36.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, that isn't it but I'm definitely going to read that one! :) xo