Abused!Dean Pre-Series or Season 1

[strangerthings7.livejournal.com]

Hi there I'm looking for any fics set while John is still alive in which Dean is abused sexually or raped, but NOT by John. I'm not interested in that. What I am interested in is:

1. Dean being abused and John finding out later and being the protective vengeful father.
2. Dean being attacked and John stopping it or finding him after the attack. I love the idea of John patching Dean up.
3. John being angry at Dean for some reason, maybe because he was irresponsible and left Sam, but then finding out what really happened.
4. Dean being raped or abused in some way in order to protect Sam and Sam or John finding out about it.

I am happy to have fics set after John is dead if they involve Sam finding out about what happened in the past. I am also happy with any pairing as long as it's m/m, but NOT John/Dean. Wincest is fine, I also love Destiel so that's okay as long as it is focused on what happened to Dean in the past.

*bonus points if it focuses heavily on the father son relationship between John and Dean. John doesn't need to be nice in it, just no sexual content between them.
**bonus points if it's set when they are young and another adult like Bobby or Ellen are more concerned about Dean's well-being than John is because he doesn't pay enough attention.
***extra bonus points if Dean has serious self-esteem issues as a result of what happens to him, the more angst the better. I know I'm cruel :p

This all sounds very specific but really anything you can send my way that is related to these issues is appreciated, I haven't read many of these kinds of fics so hopefully your searching skills are better than mine :) Thanks and happy hunting!!

Comments

[hunenka.livejournal.com]

Try these:

Robbing Peter (http://ginzai.livejournal.com/86294.html) by ginzai

Won't Cry Wolf (http://archiveofourown.org/works/798034) by geckoholic

Carouselambra (http://archiveofourown.org/works/336612) by brihana25

Take It All (https://archiveofourown.org/works/543957) by reapertownusa

Lost (https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4633091/1/Lost) by CIFan812

[frostfalcon.livejournal.com]

this has a bit of what your looking for in #1.... it's a good story too.

http://purple-carpets.livejournal.com/19372.html

[je2060.livejournal.com]

This one fits some of what you're looking for in #2 mostly (with a dash of Sam & Pastor Jim in it as well): "there's something he should be saying" by Letting The Rain In
https://m.fanfiction.net/s/3675385/

[werewolfsfan.livejournal.com]

I have a story for your point #4 although it isn't until the end that Sam discovers that Dean was molested and I don't think he ever finds out that Dean was protecting him.

Phantom Load (http://lovesrain44.livejournal.com/9737.html) by lovesrain44
Summary: Dean and Sam return to Boulder, CO, where they investigate a haunted school. The job seems simple enough to Sam, who has good, although vague, memories of living in Boulder back in 1992, when John Winchester rented a single-wide trailer, and the boys were able to walk home from school together. Dean, however, has altogether different memories, far less pleasant and far more damaging. It's during the investigation that Sam discovers the secret that Dean doesn't realize he's been hiding. ~54,000 NC-17
*** Haunting and yet seems so possible given their canon issues. The rating is for child abuse although there was no penetraion. No Wincest.

[nahemaraxe.livejournal.com]

#4 Begin in Innocence (http://reapertownusa.livejournal.com/70255.html), by reapertownusa

Dean confronts a monster from his childhood while Sam struggles to understand what happened and how he can help his brother to release the pain of the past.

#1,2 Speak No Evil (http://reapertownusa.livejournal.com/9345.html) by reapertownusa

After being assaulted by a group of hunters, Dean struggles to make sense of the attack and to make sure his family never finds out.

[strangerthings7.livejournal.com]

Hey guys thanks so much for all the amazing recommendations xD