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spnstoryfinders2015-07-09 08:45 pm
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3 specific hurt!Dean fics and general search
Hi! I read these ages ago and can't for the life of me find them again.
1. For some reason, teen!Dean actually takes a couple of driving lessons instead of using a fake license. They show the kids pictures of burned-out cars (and dead bodies?) and Dean kind of breaks down. John finds him crying on the sidewalk, I think.
2. Dean is high on pain killers or cough medicine or something. Sam has to babysit, which is fun at first, but then Dean wanders off and Sam has to find him and bring him back to the motel room. He says something along the lines of "I thought you'd left." and Dean just kind of shrugs and goes "yeah, people leaving sucks, huh?". I'm almost sure this one is an old hoodietime fill.
3. This one I barely remember at all. I know it was set in S1/2 and ends with Dean crying/trying not to cry after revealing something I can't quite remember to Sam and then rejecting Sam's attempts to comfort him. Sam kind of remembers how when they were kids Dean would never accept any kind of help but was always there when Sam needed comforting, so he pretends to be very upset by what Dean just told him, so he will let him hug him. I'm fairly sure it was on ff.net. Might have been one of the 'what if Sam and Dean had had Max's childhood?' fics, but I could be mixing something up there.
And while I'm at it, I know this is super vague, but I'd love any and all recs for sad Dean fics. Not the drowning-in-angst kind and not really depressed!Dean, just... sad fics. Fics that make you sad for Dean and his life, instead of Dean being sad, or even realizing how not-good everything is, if that makes sense. I'd prefer pre-series to S5, but I'm happy to give anything a try.
1. For some reason, teen!Dean actually takes a couple of driving lessons instead of using a fake license. They show the kids pictures of burned-out cars (and dead bodies?) and Dean kind of breaks down. John finds him crying on the sidewalk, I think.
2. Dean is high on pain killers or cough medicine or something. Sam has to babysit, which is fun at first, but then Dean wanders off and Sam has to find him and bring him back to the motel room. He says something along the lines of "I thought you'd left." and Dean just kind of shrugs and goes "yeah, people leaving sucks, huh?". I'm almost sure this one is an old hoodietime fill.
3. This one I barely remember at all. I know it was set in S1/2 and ends with Dean crying/trying not to cry after revealing something I can't quite remember to Sam and then rejecting Sam's attempts to comfort him. Sam kind of remembers how when they were kids Dean would never accept any kind of help but was always there when Sam needed comforting, so he pretends to be very upset by what Dean just told him, so he will let him hug him. I'm fairly sure it was on ff.net. Might have been one of the 'what if Sam and Dean had had Max's childhood?' fics, but I could be mixing something up there.
And while I'm at it, I know this is super vague, but I'd love any and all recs for sad Dean fics. Not the drowning-in-angst kind and not really depressed!Dean, just... sad fics. Fics that make you sad for Dean and his life, instead of Dean being sad, or even realizing how not-good everything is, if that makes sense. I'd prefer pre-series to S5, but I'm happy to give anything a try.
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Sweet Mary of Silence http://i-speak-tongue.livejournal.com/11659.html
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What Candles May Be Held (http://spnmysteryyears.livejournal.com/6738.html)
Preseries
It's the twentieth anniversary of Mary's death. Dean spends the day cleaning out a den of ghouls. John spends it drinking. Sam spends it in jail.
Same Time Next Year (http://apreludetoanend.livejournal.com/92602.html)
Some things never change. When Dad goes missing, Dean comes for Sam.
Notes: After the first readthrough, I was confused. After the second, I cried. Definitely a sad-FOR-Dean fic.
Legacy (http://spn-summergen.livejournal.com/164971.html)
Time travel really is a bitch. When Dean accidentally stumbles through a time portal inside the Bat Cave, he discovers some new information about the Men of Letters legacy.
Author's Notes: This hopefully covers counteragent’s requests for a fic expanding on the Men of Letters [and the Campbell] legacies, plus Dean with a family member (not Sam). Though Sam does appear here too, and maybe gets a little tiny fix it towards the end. I dunno.
Notes: It's way after S5, but it's worth it, trust me. The boys deserve this so much oh my GOSH. I cried.
Now, there's a few more I'm not really sure about (it's been a long times since I've read them), so I won't waste space here-- Check out the listings for Blood Brothers, Unfinished Business, and Our Troubles Will Be Miles Away here (http://electric-sympathy.tumblr.com/spnficrecs) on my recs page. Eight Arms are Better than Two --right? is a great little crackfic with a surprising dollop of hurty-Dean that tugged on my heartstrings, too.
I'm thinking all the fics I thought I had are still floating around in my bookmarks, waiting to be properly organized and listed. But, it's kiiiiiiiinda 3AM where I am right now and I can't really justify staying up any longer... :p
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yes! That is exactly my problem as well! All my hurt!Dean bookmarks are angst OVERLOAD, but I was re-reading the Sparta'Verse earlier this week and it just gave me this huge need for low-key god-his-life-is-so-sad-and-he-doesn't-even-know-it-ness. So thank you, I'm sure some of these will be what I'm looking for.
Ugh, I'm such a sucker for anniversary of Mary's death fics, it's not even funny anymore....