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Emotionally hurt Dean

Hey!

I'm having a crazy craving for hurt!Dean fic, but not the "oh no I tripped and broke my leg" kind, more like the "and now we delve into Dean's previous messed up emotional trauma and whump him some more kind"! (Yes I know, I'm a disturbed individual...)

One request though, I want the REALLY bad stuff, like the stuff that made you cry so hard you couldn't see the computer screen through your tears, or that made your stomach and/or heart hurt, or that was so awful you had to stop reading and look at fuzzy kittens before you could keep reading. I particularly like betrayal, abuse, emotional trauma, neglect, guilt, abandonment issues, you know all that good stuff :) . Oh, I almost forgot, NO death, I can't take just about everything but that is just beyond the pale...

EDIT: I HAVE read The Bright Lights of Disturbia as well as just about everything else by leonidaslion :)

Examples of the kinds of fics I'm looking for
Sins of the Innocent by reapertownusa
Broken Boy Soldier"
Images of Broken Light by ameresu
Steadfast by rivkat
The Wellington Fort by Rafikiven

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The Bright Lights of Disturbia (http://archiveofourown.org/works/181007/chapters/266202) by Leonidaslion

That's the one that came to my mind, too! 350,000 words that will wreck you - in the best possible way.

Haha that fic is actually one of the first 20-30 I read in this fandom! Thanks

Though technically this is a hurt!Sam fic, I honestly felt Dean's story was more tragic. And it has a hopeful ending which I was totally down with!

I think it fits your criteria because while I felt bad for Sam, I was sobbing for Dean :(

Anyway, it's called, "When Our Minds Betray Us" and here's the link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2837218/1/

Oooooh I will give it a try, thanks!

Stumbling Towards Spires of Freedom by meus_venator
http://archiveofourown.org/works/261025

Also, have you read A Monster by Any Other Name? While it's mostly Sam getting whumped, Dean is pretty much a wreck too.

Cool, two fics I haven't read. Thanks!

I'm just presuming that gen is ok as well?

I think Blind Spot (http://pdragon76.livejournal.com/34039.html) would meet that criteria. "Dean's on a slow burn after a bloody confrontation with an old nemesis. Sam's got his hands full picking up the pieces. The Crossroads Deal isn't the only timer ticking."

Also, I got really shaken by The woods are lonely, dark and deep (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4954718/1/The_Woods_are_Lonely_Dark_and_Deep) (Zatnikatel) and even more so - a LOT more so - by the sequel The Killing Moon (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5231870/1/The_Killing_Moon) "Missy Bender was three things. She was obsessive. She was insane. And she was in love – with a tall, beautiful stranger who looked real purty when he was hurting. But unfortunately for Dean Winchester, one thing she wasn’t was still locked in the closet…"

Aaaaaand, there was 66 Seals of Doom on the wall (http://adrenalineshots.livejournal.com/9000.html): Takes off right after episode "In the Beginning". Dean's task takes on proportions that are sure to lead to drastic and heart breaking paths. Will he be able to follow through? Angels are there to help him, but he doesn't always like the sort of help being offered.
Alternative s4, that is so close to the real thing it isn't even funny!

This one made me tear up, though it's less whump of the physical kind and more of the Sam-being-demon-blood-and-ruby-high- kind. It was still awesome, though. ...and deposit your trash in the receptacles provided (http://innocentculprit.livejournal.com/4212.html#cutid1)" Between the Winchesters and the Apocalypse lies engine trouble and a bad breakdown in communication. Oh, and ghosts. Nasty ones."

Also, though totally not my genre (wincest), The bright lights of disturbia are shockingly whumpy!

Oh, I forgot: you should check out

purple_carpets. She's really apt at whumping Dean

Oh my goodness, I love purple_carpets! A fellow Dean!whumper for sure! I'm not sure if I've read everything of hers yet, and chances there could be new stuff!

I LOVE me some gen!

I've read Disturbia and the 3 instalments of the Bender verse and loved them. I haven't read the other ones you've mentioned though so thanks a bunch!

There's one that comes before...And Deposit Your Trash.... It's Please Exit Hell Quietly By the Rear Doors (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4791477/1/Please_Exit_Hell_Quietly_By_the_Rear_Doors). Even though the other one works perfectly on its own.

Yay, what a cool request! This is exactly my favourite kind of story! Why is it we like to cry over hurt Dean?

So, here are a few stories that came to mind:

Passenger/With Spit And A Prayer (http://amalthia.mediawood.net/ebooks/viewstory.php?sid=639) by kroki_refur (non-con, yet not in a way you'd expect, psychological trauma)

A Good Man Is Hard To Find (http://spn-gen.livejournal.com/144167.html) by kimonkey7 (depression, whump)

Ramble On (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3266757/1) by gaelicspirit (whump, John-related issues)

Sense (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6284190/1) also by gaelicspirit (Dean loses his senses one by one)

Ghosts of Future Past (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7367459/1/) by etrixan (Dean already knows that the future isn't looking good, but it isn't until he gets a visit from his own ghost that he realizes just how bad it could get. A season 4 AU that bumps into seasons 5 and 6.)

Tales by bigpink (http://web.mac.com/bigpink1/Big_Pink/Tales.html), especially Red and Fire In The Hole. (Whump and emotional trauma.)

Angelwings 'Verse (http://archiveofourown.org/series/6229) by leonidaslion. (Dean's having a little demon problem.
Mostly whump. Excellent!!)

Ninth Circle (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6940696/1) by adrenalineshots/ophium. (Not exactly a coda to 'Frontierland', though spoilers abound; not exactly a story about souls, though they play a very important part. This is a story about friends, brothers and duty.)

Crux Cross (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6270651/1/Crux_Cross) also by adrenalineshots. (Whump.)

Named (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6620318/1) by McLachlan. (Absolutely brilliant if you don't mind Dean/Cas. Not explicit - as far as I remember.)

Thursday's Child (http://strangeandcharm.livejournal.com/91450.html) by strangeandcharm. (Again Dean/Cas. The tears I cried over this one... Explicit in parts.)

Three Little Words (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3066265/1/Three_Little_Words) by swanseyjill. (With sequel. Emotional hurt up the wazoo.)

In Country (http://oselle.livejournal.com/tag/spn%20endverse%2F2014) by oselle. Start with the prequels mentioned on the page. (I'm currently listening to the podfic of this and while it's absolutely amazing I can't tell yet if it's gonna be a death!fic...)

And one last one:
Of Desire and the Status Quo (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5382298/1) by written in dreams. Okay, you said you didn't want character death, so you mightn't want to read the last chapter... (There's no warning in the summary, so I was caught by complete surprise!) But even if you don't read that last part this is a seriously amazing fic that got all the voices (oh, it's a Dark Angel/SPN crossover!) down absolutely perfectly. The quality of writing is just brilliant.

I hope you enjoy some of these stories (if you don't know them already). Do you have a public Delicious or Diigo link-collection? Or would you mind pointing me to more stories that you might have read? I'm gonna check out the ones in your post asap!!

Edited 2011-12-28 22:27 (UTC)

Squeee!

Your response made me sooo happy! It is always nice to know there are other Dean!whumpers out there and I have not read quite a few of your recs and the ones that I have are exactly the kind that I mean which makes me super duper excited to check them out!

Also, I have to admit that from the beginning of your response I had wanted to pimp out my delicious (I just LOVE sharing the fics I love), but I was worried it might seem weird.... So the fact that you actually asked for it makes it not weird and awesome, Yay!! :)

Here you go!
http://www.delicious.com/dirtydancer14

Oh also, just a note, when I tag character related things like hurt!dean for example I have it under hurt!jensen because I figured why have a hurt! jensen, hurt!Dean, and hurt!alec tag when I can just consolidate. There are a few tags that are character specific but most in regards to Supernatural are tagged under actor.

Hope you enjoy!

One of my favorite hurt/Dean fics is one on FanFiction.

Its called, 'When Darkness Turns to Light', by Aecoris. Link -> http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4460724/1/When_Darkness_Turns_to_Light

Oooh I have not read that one, I will be sure to check it out. Thanks!

How could I forget? *headslap*

Practically everything by roque_clasique (http://roque-clasique.livejournal.com/). Especially her epic Drive 'Verse!!

If your still looking I have a self rec that might fit.

http://sheppsboy.livejournal.com/

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