specific sam kidnapped, raped and cursed by demon fic FOUND + general search

[serena-golden.livejournal.com]

Hi!
I'm dying to read again an old fic I lost and cannot for the life of me find on google
- it was eventually Sam/Dean
- teen!Sam is kidnapped, tortured and rape by a supernatural creature
- Dean and John never knew he was kidnapped
- Sam is let go by the creature with a curse written in his inner thigh (or something like that I'm not sure) that cause him to constantly seek pain and sex and to be unable to say no
- to break the curse he has to find someone that knows about the curse and love him nonetheless but he can't reveal to anyone what happened
- I remember Sam had sex with a teacher, kissed for the first time a class mate, and met Jen in a bdsm club
- Dean finds out about the curse thanks to the ghost of another victim of the same creature
ETA: FOUND in the comments

And for the general search, I'm starving for Sam/Dean or Jensen/Jared fics
with sexually abused Sam or Jared (NOT by Dean or Jensen)
that focus on rape recovery
with Sam-Jared being insecure, having nightmares, PTSD (etc) and Dean-Jensen helping him
novel-length fics are better, but I'll read everything
AU or not AU is the same;
I feel like I've already read every single fic about this topic (including all the ones I could find here) so please help me out!
THANK YOU and sorry for any mistakes: english is not my first language!

Comments

[tipitiwitchet.livejournal.com]

This one?
http://archiveofourown.org/series/14440

A vid is here (so NSFW)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMLFDeBZ6RU

[kassidy62.livejournal.com]

hah, I was gonna answer this but you got it:) Should have known! Love you C. Just by the way <3

[serena-golden.livejournal.com]

That's it! THANK YOU so much!
And I didn't know about the video, you've been wonderful!
I'm off to read it now!