Entries tagged with warning: eating disorder

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Sam exploring his sexuality, hurt! Sam/baby! Sam, accidental voyeurism, protective! Dean

Hello! I've recently read Credit in the Straight World, Outside By the Blue, Blue Moon, Brittle, Boy Falling Out of the Sky, The Air Moves In, Invisible Boy series... Basically if you can find it under Sam Winchester/OMC and it's lengthy on AO3, I probably have read it! I'd love more fics though, so I hope you can help!

1. Fics that have Sam exploring his sexuality with a male, with Dean finding out or walking in on it. Bonus for Dean getting super overprotective! Wincest preferred but I'll take gen too. I don't mind what age they are.
2. Hurt! Sam with comfort. Rape, violence, anything.
3. Sam with an eating disorder or self harming Sam.
4. Infantalism as a lifestyle. I'd prefer baby! Sam if that's possible. I've read SailorChibi's works on Ao3 for this too.
5. Protective/Possessive/Jealous! Dean.
6. Dean walking in on Sam getting off.

I'd love everything to end with a happy ending! No death fics, please. I'm looking for Wincest only, no other pairings. I don't mind if it starts out as another pairing as long as it ends in Wincest. I'll take gen too. Thanks so much in advance :D

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Depressed, Suicidal Jared or Sam

Just a general, non-specific search for stories that feature mentally ill and/or suicidal Jared or Sam. The more dark and messed up the better, I really want him to hurt (I know, I'm a terrible person). It can be AU, non-AU, gen or slash (but if it's slash please only Wincest or Jared/Jensen). I've seen a lot of mentally ill Sam fics out there but not many ones focusing on Jared. The longer the word count the better. Thanks!

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Dean with eating disorder fics

1) I'm looking for fics where Dean has an eating disorder. It doesn't have to be the sole focus of the fic and I'll accept just about any eating disorder. He can get treatment or not, the issue can be named or not, people can try to help or tell him to suck it up, gen or ship, it's all good.

2) I'm also looking for fics that specifically deal with Dean having an eating disorder where he starts making himself puke after normal meals because he feels like a pig for eating stuff like burgers and pie, and then it just slowly progresses and spins out of control to where he's puking after every meal or barely eating. I've only found one fic like this and I really hope more exist.

Any help is much appreciated!

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Fics with castiel struggling while human, and getting sick because of it?

I'm looking for some stories where Castiel is struggling to get used to being human, and has trouble getting used to normal human things (like eating and sleeping maybe), which develops into health issues (eating disorders, insomnia, ect.)

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general cwrpf search - recovery from horrible harm

Could you recommend J2 stories in which one J recovers from extreme abuse? the ratio of abuse to recovery time is not important, but it has to be pretty horrific and move towards a better end, even if the fic doesn't end on perfect notes (even death!fics are cool(.

Examples or harm include, torture, malnutrition, involuntary body modification, extreme power play that leads to identity and dissociation issues, and of course lots of physical harm. Sexual violence/slavery is cool, but I'd prefer if it was paired with more complex issues.

Bonus for length, world-building, J1 helping J2 recover from JDM (I love me to evil-JDM), and badass!victims that want to get better but need someone to show them how to move past their trauma and love themselves.

Also, the recovering abusee doesn't have to be one of the Js, but one of the Js must contribute to the recovery and (preferably) no J on J violence unless you think its awesome (like in the Desperate Measures verse).

Oh boy. I am a real buzzkill. I have no idea how to tag this except to select everything under the 'warning' tag :-/

Please and thank you

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2 Specific Non-Con Stories

Hi!
So, I read these two stories a long time ago and now I can't find them. Any help is appreciated!

1. Sam was sexually abused by a fellow hunter as a minor. Dean didn't know but I'm pretty sure Bobby did. Anyway, the Hunter comes back around asking for help on a case and Sam tries to act normal so that Dean doesn't find out. I think the ending involved Sam telling Dean that he needed to tell him something. (I'm pretty sure I read it on FF)

2. Adam grew up with the Winchester's and at one school his teacher makes him stay after school for tutoring but Adam ends up getting repeatedly sexually assaulted by the teacher instead. Adam then developed an eating disorder to cope. I specifically remember a scene when Sam catches Adam bingeing and purging late at night. They try to put Adam in counseling but he refuses and purposefully scratches the impala. Adam eventually confesses to the assault. (I read this on FF as well)

Thanks so much! :-)

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SAM WINCHESTER - EATING DISORDER

Simple and straight to the point.
I want all the stories that feature Sam with an eating disorder.

Any pairings or non-pairings welcome. Pre-series, during series, post series, whatever. The story can be about it or it could just be in the story but not the focus. Happy ending, sad ending, open ending, whatever.

Seriously... anything... as long as Sam has an eating disorder.

Reason? Therapy fics. Some people like to read (or write) about situations they go through to help deal with it.

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Specific Adam Non-Con

Hi!
This is my very first time asking for help finding a story but not being able to find this one story is really driving me crazy.

Here is what I remember:

- I believe it was on FanFiction.com

- Adam was raised with Sam and Dean
- Adam starts getting sexually assaulted by a teacher but he is too afraid to confide to his brothers
- Adam then develops an eating disorder to cope
- Sam finds out about his eating disorder but Adam convinces him to not tell anyone
- Eventually, everyone else finds out and someone is making him go to therapy but Adam damaged the Impala to not go. Dean is livid and tells Adam that he doesn't care about what happens to him
- Adam finally tells his family what happened to him... John and Dean leave to go confront the teacher leaving Sam to take care of Adam.

I hope those are enough details in order for someone to identify the story! Thank you! :)

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Dean's eating habits

Are there any other stories like this one - https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4987670/1/Not-Hungry - where Sam finds out that Dean sacrificed his own nutrition so that Sam could eat when there wasn't enough food for both of them? I'd especially like it if Sam finds this out when they are adults.

Any other stories about their different tastes in food would be good too. Maybe how Dean loves to cook or maybe some hurt!Dean where he has to adjust his diet and Sam convinces him to at least try and eat healthier.

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Specific Fic Sam w/ Eating Disorder

I've been looking for this specific story that had Sam suffering through and eating disorder.
It was a very long and in depth story. The author really went all out into Sam's mind in this one. So much that it is extremely difficult to re call anything that could really help out the search.

I am not exactly sure, but I am almost positive that the story was Gen, but I could be wrong. It could also have been wincest, but I don't seem to recall that.

Basically, the story revolved around Sam having an eating disorder. I wasn't much of an AU fic cause the boys were still hunting. At some point of the story Dean realizes that Sam has been getting thinner and has been eating less. (Like noticing that he drinks bottled water excessively, he'll take one bite of the meal and not finish the rest)

I do remember one particular scene where Dean tries to test his theory to prove Sam's eating disorder to himself. I believe that they were driving around in the impala and Dean gets in the mood for snacks and decides to stop at a gas station to buy some. I know for a fact, 100% that he bought twizzlers. Dean tries to get Sam to eat more the just to a bite of it. I recall him eating it aggressively to prove a point.

Other than that, I don't necessarily know much more. I do also know for a fact that the story was over 10K and was divided into parts. (Maybe 3 or 4?) and I read it on LJ. I am not sure if it could be on Archive of our Own or Fanfiction.net.

I hope my hazy details helped a bit.

Thanks in advance

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Looking for J2 or Sam/Dean - Binge Eating

I'm looking for fics where a main character suffers from Binge Eating Disorder. Binging can take over a person's life, and I would love to read a character's journey with the disorder, and hopefully, recovery. Over eating is NOT the same thing, so don't rec me those. Binging is when a person eats excessively even when they're not hungry to the point where they can't move, and food takes over their entire world.

Does anyone know if there's anything like this out there? I would be forever in your debt.

Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean only. Gen is fine, but NO het or Destiel.

NO anorexia or bulimia; they aren't the same thing as BED.

Don't rec me - 22 Weeks Is A Long Time or In A Mirror Distorted and Indistinct. They are't what I'm looking for, and I've already read them.

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J2 General Fics

1. Obsession. Fics where one or both the boys are obsessed with the other. I do not care how the fics turns out. If they get together and are happy or if one gets a restraining order. I just want obsession.

2. Teacher/Student. Im almost positive I've read every one in the fandom, but, surprise me. Give me more. I will gladly reread them too.

3. Eating disorder(s).

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Dean-centric fic

It has mention of Destiel at the very end. But it kind of spans over Dean's life from a time when he's young to the "present". He has an eating disorder (bulimia) and it goes through different sections of his life. From taking care of Sam as kids, to Sam leaving for college, to Dean going to Hell (where Alistair did horrible things to him, and made him and Bella do awful things) to the end where he's with Cas and they're together. Does anyone know where I can find it?

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Looking for J2 story where Jensen has been abused by everyone he's acted with except Jared

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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Dean with eating disorder/weight problem

Hello, darlings!

I'm looking for any kind of fic where Dean has an eating disorder, or problems with weight/eating. I would like for it to be destiel, but I don't mind if it's not exactly an established relationship.

I am also interested in fics where Dean suffers from a mental disorder, of any kind. Pairing preference is the same as mentioned above.

PDF's are also welcome.

Thank you, lovelies.

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Some Chad/Jensen and Misha/Sebastian?

Hey, so I was wondering if any of you could help me with this. :)

1. Any Jensen Ackles/Chad Michael Murray? Preferably not Jared/Jensen/Chad or Jared/Chad. But if the fic is good, and you think I'll like it, go ahead and rec it. :)

2. Sebastian/Misha? The fics are always so small, so I was wondering if any y'all knew a long one, or a really cute one. Any will work.

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3. And the last request. Any Wincest fics where Dean self-harms or has an eating disorder. Actually, any j2 fics with Jensen like that would also be really great. (I put this under a cut because this may be sensitive for some readers)

Thank you!

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Weight Loss Concern Fics

Hey there!

I'm on a hunt for stories about Jared (or anyone really) being concerned about Jensen's weight loss.

It could be because he's been sick, stressed, depressed or whatever the situation. I just want some serious concern by friends or family. Maybe some tears? I love a crying Jensen, not gonna lie!

It can be AU or Non and if it's J2 that's a huge bonus but as long as there is some concern for Jensen and his health in the story, I'll be happy!

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specific deaf+abused!dean fic

Gathering some fics to recommend for my friend, and I cannot, for the love of strawberries, remember where this fic is.

It was of a moderately long fic, composed of either two parts or the initial story and a sequel. Dean was deaf from a young age - older than five, but younger than twelve I think. John is emotionally/verbally abusive and neglectful to Dean after he becomes deaf, and then becomes physically abusive after Sam leaves for college. At one point John is possessed by a demon, and Dean does not realize the difference until a few days/weeks later. Because of John's abuse, Dean develops an eating disorder.

The first part (or the first story) is set before/during Sam's Stanford years, and the second part (or the sequel) takes place during season 1. The latter is more focused on Sam realizing that something is wrong with his brother and trying to figure out what it is/how to help him.

Thank you in advance.

A few general requests,

01. Any fics where Sam comes out as gay/bisexual to his brother and father? Any reaction is fine, and I'm all for wincest or Sam/omc etc.

02. Alpha/beta/omega fics with Sam or Jared as an omega - I'm always on the look out for these! Knotting and mpreg are a bonus!

03. Any fics where Jared/Jensen/Sam/Dean are bikers? There's not enough on these, and since I'm working on a biker!verse of my own I thought I'd see what you guys can turn up! Bottom!sam/jared only please.

04. Any slutty!Sam fics? Can be girl!sam, but I'd love to see a version of him where he loves getting fucked. Would be awesome if Dean found out about it and there was eventual wincest, but I'd take anything where bottom!sam is a little bit of a slut. Underage is fine. Bonus for him getting off on rough sex and being manhandled. Dubcon elements are fine. Will also be happy to receive slutty!Jared recs :)

05. Possessive Dean/Jensen. I seriously can't get enough of these, so please rec your favourites!

06. Hurt/sick Sam or Jared. Would particularly love something where Sam/Jared finds out that they have a serious illness and tries to hide it from Dean/Jensen. I think I've read most of these, but I'm desperate to turn up some new ones!

07. Sam with a medical assistance dog of some kind? Would also love ones where Jared has a dog for this reason, but Sam ones are hard to find and I'd really appreciate people tossing a few my way. Doesn't matter if it's for an emotional/psychological reason (such as ptsd) or physical.

08. Fics where Jared/Jensen or Sam/Dean meet in college?

09. Fics where Sam/Jared thinks he's worthless, or has low self esteem? Or has an eating disorder?

I think that's all for now, but I'll likely be back with a few more requests soon enough! Thanks in advance to anyone who helps!

Fic Recs-Non-Wincest

I don't really know how to start this, so I'm just going to jump in. Fair warning, this list is long. Also, I'd just like non-Wincest fics.

1. crying!Dean fics. I don't care why he's crying, I just want him crying and Sam or John comforting him.
2. Dean or John is deaged and Same has to take care of them.
3. blind, deaf, hurt, or sick!Dean with Sam taking care of him. I don't care if how hard the injury is or how sick Dean is, if he's been blind or deaf since birth, if it's permanent or just part of a curse.
4. protective or smart!Sam. Just something where Dean or John realize that Sammy isn't little anymore.
5. girl!Sam. Because I'd bet she'd be awesome, I'd prefer Dean is still a boy, unless
6. doctor!Sam. At least have taken some classes, and how'd that would affect their hunts.
7. Crossovers with Criminal Minds (with a focus on Sam and Reid) or SuperWhoLock crossovers. Any kind. Though a focus on Sam, the Elventh Doctor, and Sherlock would be loved.
8. Sam as teenaged father please, or Sam with a daughter.
9. Sam realizing he's gay or bi, and John and Dean's reactions
10. Sam going back just mentally and impressing everyone with his knowledge, or physically and everyone wondering what the hell happened to make him like this.
11. abused!Dean. Any kind, but I'd like the main on it to focus on his recovery.
12. teen!Sam getting addicted to any kind of drugs or starts cutting.
13. teen!Dean getting an eating disorder or being raped and a focus on his recovery.
14. Basically any Castiel/Sam fics that don't meet any of these requirements. No porn unless it's part of a much larger story.

Thanks!