I remember reading this a LOOOONG time ago and I'm not sure if it's still around. I'm sure the author deleted her journal.

In the story, Sam goes missing and dean never finds him. In the end he sees Sam ghost, or imagines seeing him and sam tells him to move on or something like that. The story was very haunting. Dean broke down in the car once and there was something about coffee??? Not sure if it was wincest or gen

I think the title had "A Thousand" in it, maybe? I remember reading it and feeling scarred but it was seriously amazing. Would be nice to reread it if it was still around. Thanks (((: