I’ve gotten myself in a pickle! Been searching through every possible tag I can find on here, on a03, on hoodie time... and I’m at a loss. I’m looking for a lost fic! Here are some things I remember about it:

• Destiel
• Castiel’s POV
• Sort of Godstiel?
• Castiel “wakes up” with memory loss; all he knows is he’s in some sort of paradise/beautiful place, and Dean is there.
• Only, Dean is not there. Mentally. He acts like a sexual slave, and Cas it’s totes freaked out, and he goes to find Sam.
• Sam is all “Dude, you’ve been keeping my brother prisoner forever, I’mma kill you now,” and so Castiel manages to convince him he isn’t all power-hungry monster anymore.
• I’m pretty sure there’s this whole bit where people know who Dean and Cas are, and treat Cas like a scary God and are a little afraid of Dean too, because he Belongs To Castiel and no one is allowed to look at him.
• Sam and Cas have to... collect things? Maybe pieces of Dean’s soul to put him back together?

I'm going to go ahead and put the "non-con" warning on here, because even though I don't remember it happening explicitly, it was definitely mentioned that power-crazy Castiel used Dean for sexual gratification purposes. 

God, I hope I’m not imagining this fic. Help?