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I'm looking for a J2 fic where Jensen finds Jared who has some sort of mental illness. In the fic Jared has an obsession for pears and he has headphones that he uses to block everything out with. Misha is his friend/carer and I think that Jared had some kind of psychic ability and sees things like walls dripping with blood, (Although I may be confusing that with different fic.)
The next fic I'm looking for is a hurt!Sam fic but I can't remember too much about it. It was set when Sam and Dean were younger and after something happens to John (I think he may of been killed) Sam begins to think Dean hates him and when Dean is talking to him instead of hearing what he is actually saying he thinks Dean is saying horrible things to him.
Thank you for any help.