I, for the life of me, cannot remember the name or author of this one story and i've been looking for weeks; Okay, i'm a little hazy but the most evident is that it was definitely pre-series, sam was young, john and dean had come from a hunt and dean had been handcuffed/tied to a bed in order to be kept away from sam. Dean showed almost possessed mannerisms - i think his pupils went crazy dilated from hormones and such and when sam first sam near him he would start talking about all the things he wanted to do to sam, and I believe this was pre sexual relations with the boys.
Anywho, I think it was two parts, something over 8k maybe. The hunt itself involved a goddess? it worked in the fuck or die trope I believe, something bad was going to happen to dean if sam didn't do something, and sam was clearly adamant to do anything to help. There was sex, sam was young and very much the bottom, think sam still had dean handcuffed because he didn't want to risk either of them getting hurt, it was bordering dub-con, but it got into pre-weecest later on? really can't remember.
I appreciate any and all help, even recs if you can't find it, thanks so much c:
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