pairing: jared/jensen, warning: self harm, warning: suicide, warning: dub-con, kink: mpreg,

I am looking for 2 things right now, have actually been for a long time! PLEASE HELP!!!

1. I'm looking for a specific j2 fic in which the world has less and less males and females capable of producing children and therefore it has become regulated by the government to assign breedable people to partners. Jensen, who had never been tested, only finds out he is one when he goes to take the final physical exam for a new job he was due to start & that's when his world comes crashing down around him. He loses most of his legal rights, his freedom, his fiance, everything, etc... He tries to fight it through legal means but he loses his case in court. He ends up being assigned to Jared, who is so happy & excited to have finally been matched with someone & to have a happy, loving family & live happily ever after. What he ends up with is an unwilling partner who only allows him to have sex with him because the alternative is being sent to a cruel man who would rape him brutally or a brothel type place so Jared is kind of the lesser of 2 evils in his mind. Jared tries to be kind & to win Jensen over & to a certain extent he does in the end but Jensen can't seem to get over the life he lost/the life he would have had with the woman he loved. Jensen does become pregnant due to Jared's couplings with him & while pregnant, he gets visited by his family who are ecstatic that he will have children and while they are there he finds out that his brother has married his former fiance. Both his family's attitude toward his situation and the fact that his brother married the woman he loved are too much for Jensen & he attempts to throw myself down the stairs and kill himself. He survives, as does the baby. Jared is devastated & he doesn't know how to help Jensen because he is in love with Jensen even though his feelings aren't returned. Eventually, Jensen gives birth & refuses to have anything to do with the baby or the other child that follows.

2. I am also looking for any stories like The Billionare's Reluctant Husband.

Hi all!

I'm looking for a specific fic. It's ultimately Wincest but began as a threesome. Bela either dared the boys into having a threesome or as payment for a lost bet. I can't remember if she was doing it to get the boys to recognize their feelings for each other, or if it was to make their relationship more complicated. Regardless, they started the threesome and then Bela found herself left out as the boys focused more on each other - which she didn't mind as she was enjoying the view. Ultimately, Bela left the boys passed out on the bed together.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?

Dean comes back to the motel to find a sick Sam feverishly cleaning the weapons, stating that Dad told him to clean the guns. He's so out of it that one of the guns is actually loaded. Set post Lazarus rising

I just read this like a week ago and now can't remember the author. Thanks in advance!

Hey all I have a pretty simple request for you today.

Since I've been busy with work and such I don't have time to search for or keep up with the new fics. So I'm asking you guys to rec me hurt!Sam fics set on S8, 9, or 10. I can do wincest or gen. Please no destiel. The only requirment is hurt!Sam related with protective!Dean. Thanks!.

This was definitely on Archive of our Own. Basically, Sam is suicidal, but can't flat out kill himself (duty to his family, maybe?), and instead, while going around checking the salt lines, etc., he prays to god, or a deity or an angel or someone to have a monster come and kill him. Dean overhears him praying, and they get all emotional and comforty and stuff.
Thank you!

Much to my sorrow, Hellesofbelles' LJ has been deleted for a while now, and a bunch of her PDFs were found in another post here, but sadly, "The Hell Inside" and its second (Prologue: Part Two) and third part (Part Three: Epilogue) weren't included among them. Does anyone have these stories on PDF and if so, would you be willing to put them up with a link for download? I would be ever so grateful!

BTW, there are a few other stories by hellesofbelles I'm also looking for, as well:

• All Tied Up In You


• Dreams Can Come True


• Lessons in Behavior

Thanks in advance if you can help!

I just want fics with one buying gifts and opening doors and just doing sweet stuff to get the others attention.

Looking for a specific story that I can't find in any of my bookmarks or saved memories. It's a weechesters fic told from the POV of a hairdresser. Dean is getting his hair cut and the hair dresser is inner monologuing as she sees papa Winchester sitting with his leather coat draped across his front not realizing until he wakes up that the jacket is covering up a wee Sammy who was napping. Help me fellow spn fans, you're my only hope **internal giggles**