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Summary: Mary Winchester has one son.

I'm looking for a pre-series fic set in an alternate universe where Sam dies instead of Mary but the family still see him around the house, especially Dean. Sam also grows even though he's not alive really and Mary tries to get rid of him before realizing he is actually her son. 

Thanks. 

during sex, dean either keeps the lights off or covers his eyes. i think sam resorts to  pinning his arms or tying them?

thanks!