To start, I know it isn’t “Please Dean” or “The Freak on His Leash”, both of which I’ve read, but something similar.

I recall it being set during S5E1, started with Dean and Sam driving somewhere. Sam was feeling guilty over freeing Lucifer and decided to just start obeying Dean, since Sam thinks everything he does is wrong.

I distinctly remember a scene where Sam pees in the car because he didn’t tell Dean he had to go. I think maybe Dean told him to be quiet and that’s why?

After that, some D/s stuff happens but gradually Dean starts becoming more abusive to Sam and Sam just takes it. If I recall correctly it just sort of ends like that but I’m not entirely sure. It’s been years since I read it. That’s really the only specific stuff I remember.

I think I read it on LJ. Pretty sure it was a long one-shot but I can’t say for sure.

Thank you in advance for any help!

Hi, guys,

I read a fic during July of 2015 (when it was posted) where Sam is at Stanford and he starts doing gay porn to pay for tuition. He is ace but it feels good and he has crazy endurance, so he keeps doing it, making more and more money doing riskier and riskier shit--there's one specific scene I remember where he's doing a BDSM dungeon porn scene where several dom guys have their way with him. Between shots he does homework/studies in the corner.

When I read it, it was a WIP and the most recent chapter had Dean involved in some way--probably Dean visiting Sam at Stanford?

It was one of my very favorites and it got deleted from AO3, so I would be very thankful if anyone had an LJ link/download/other source.

Thanks!