I am looking for a specific series of stories that are told from Jo's POV. It starts with the Winchester boys and Jo growing up together, and everyone knows about hunting, but Jo never becomes a hunter in the fic. I believe Mary survived, as did Jo's dad, and John was the one who died. Dean is characterized as very dark and abusive in this story. Eventually, Jo and Ellen break away from the Winchesters and there is a lot of bad blood between them.

Some scenes I remember: one of them playing by the river as children; Jo working at a gas station; Jo in a horse stall nearly getting crushed by the horse. There is also an encounter toward the end between the three of them where Jo is working as a caretaker for some horses and Sam brings Dean to her for help because Dean is hurt.

Help?