26 June 2017 @ 01:08 am
1. Is there any stories out there where Dean is born a Nephilim? Or when he's in his 20's he grows wings and is freaked out thinking Sam will reject him, or maybe other hunters, hunt him.

Plus 2. There was a story about a hunter wanting to get back at John for something he'd done and he poisons Dean and sends him up a mountain and a supernatural creature attacks him, I think he might be blind and only has a short time to live. Not sure if Sam is with him on the mountain. Does this ring any bells. Thanks to anyone that answers.
25 February 2017 @ 02:05 pm
I was going through Delicious (yes, I actually got it to work) and was converting the bookmarks to an Excel sheet. I came upon a few that are deleted journals or broken links and would like some help tracking them down if possible.

All found now! Thank you everyone!

1. One Too Many - a group of people stranded at an isolated diner during a blizzard. Two troopers show up, searching for a fugitive. The patrons of the diner were passengers on a bus. Six passengers, swears the driver. But ... there are seven people (not counting the driver, the counterman, or the cops) in the diner. homage to the classic Twilight Zone episode "Will the Real Martian Please Stand Up?", written by Rod Serling. http://ficwriter1966.livejournal.com/241022.html (converted to original fiction and no longer available)

2. Turn the Page - Dean gets a new hobby after Sam leaves for Stanford. http://apocalypsos.livejournal.com/1105892.html?style=mine (now at dreamwidth - link in comments)

3. The first installment of the Blind!Dean series by roque-clasique. "There’s something off about his brother’s posture, something that a headache alone wouldn’t account for. And Sam, expert though he is, can’t quite place the problem." https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4901693/1/Two-Fics-one-angsty-one-cracky

4. Real Men Don't Make Cheesecake - Dean takes home economics, and chaos ensues. And no, it's not his fault. http://apocalypsos.livejournal.com/1086261.html (now at dreamwidth - link in comments)
03 February 2017 @ 04:43 pm
Hey everyone

Ok, so I'm looking for a new link to a story that was on Samdean archive. I can't remember the Title or author, and stupidly just added a note on my own list which just reads "Dean blind, John's fault". Not helpful, lol.

In this fic, Dean got kicked in the head by a lesser demon wearing a teenager, during the a showdown with the YED, and John is too obsessed with killing the YED to even notice Dean was in trouble.

I think John had drugged Sam or something to keep him out of the fight.

Dean is now blind and suffers from seizures. John tries to send Dean to some nursing home or something, but Sam steps in. Sam and Dean move to a small town where Pastor Jim helps them set up a home. Jim knows about the boys' sexual relationship.

Dean goes along to a kindergarten class and tells them stories. There's a scene where the boys are ice skating on a pond and John is spying on them and sees them kiss.

Can anyone help, pretty please?

To clarify; I need a link for this fic that's NOT to samdean archive.

The brilliant Calysta has now posted this story - "Love is never blind" on AO3

Thanks, lovelies.
29 July 2016 @ 08:40 pm
Hey y'all!
Looking for a specific fic where Dean is blinded after a hunt and John wants to drop him off and leave him behind. However Sam takes Dean and they run away together. I think they live near and get help from Pastor Jim. I vaguely remember Sam and Dean ice skating on a frozen pond and their father had tracked them down. He confronts them about their intimate relationship.
23 July 2016 @ 09:49 pm
I read a blind Dean Fic a few years ago and I can't remember who wrote it. Dean was blinded as an adult. Sam went back to college. At one point Dean was offered a job as a waiter in one of those Blindfolded Restaurants. It was a WIP that was abandoned.

If anyone knows which fic this was, a link would be very much appreciated!
05 May 2016 @ 12:20 pm
Hey guys,
A friend of mine told me about a really good Wincest fic she had read some time ago but turns out she had forgotten who wrote it. Basically it's a story where Dean and Sam go on a hunt that somehow goes wrong and Deans ends up losing his sight. According to her, there was a scene where Sam and Dean stay at a motel and Dean is afraid Sam is going to leave him so he stays in front of the door holding a knife during the night to make sure Sam doesn't leave the room. Then Sam finds him there and they sleep in the same bed.
Ring any bells? It seemed like such a good story I'd really like to read it.
14 April 2016 @ 07:43 pm
I'm new to this so if I do something wrong I'm really sorry!

I'm looking for a story where Cas is blind and he's a professor at Sam's college. I think Dean was a former police officer and he got shot and he sometimes goes blind but only temporarily. I'm pretty sure I read it on Archive of Our Own. I think it has DeanxCas and maybe Sam and Jess.

I'm going on a long road trip soon and wanted some awesome fics to pass the time! I haven't read a SPN fanfic since March 2014 (ish), so I'm looking mostly for fics created in 2014 or 2015, but that's by no means a rule. These are some of the genres I like, but if you have any angsty/dark/epic personal favorites, feel free to share those, too!

I prefer Wincest and Gen, but will read Destiel, RPS, and OC Romances if the story is really good. I'm cool with very dark fics, and I have no problem with major character death... I like me a good tearjerker. I'd prefer if the fics don't go too AU (unless it's a crossover or something), but again, I'll make exceptions for a good story.

Thank you all in advance! :D

1. Blind!Dean or Blind!Jensen. Or more generally, any fics where Dean/Jensen isn't born disabled, but becomes disabled over the course of the fic. Will read disabled Jared/Sam if the story is good enough.
2. Demon!Dean, especially AUs where Dean wasn't cured in 10x03.
3. Crossovers with Merlin, Stargate (SG1/Atlantis), Star Trek (TOS/TNG/VOY/Movies), Doctor Who, Dark Angel, NCIS, or Fringe.
4. Sam/Jared or Dean/Jensen are transformed into some supernatural creature. I especially love fics where Dean is transformed into an angel or some kind of winged creature... super mega bonus points if you can find one that isn't Destiel.
5. Dean-Is-Michael fics. Also, Dean-Is-[any role Jensen has played in the past] are pretty cool.
6. Amnesia!Dean or Amnesia!Sam.
7. One of the Winchesters is cursed.
8. Any fics where Dean is (willingly or unwillingly) used as a vessel. I kind of expect Destiel in a fic like this, so it's fine in this case.
9. Bodyswap fics!
10. Possessed!Dean
11. Fics where Dean decided to stay young in "About A Boy."
12. Cast-Are-Characters or Cast-Meet-Characters.
23 March 2015 @ 10:12 pm
(Oh wow, the tags....)

Thank you all for all the wonderful fics! I've slowly but surely been updating my list of bookmarks and I couldn't have done it without you guys :)

Today, I'm looking for two different things:

1) I'm looking for J2 or Wincest fics where one of the boys is blind. But the thing is, especially when it comes to wincest, I'm looking for fics where the boys have always been blind, not just because of a curse or whatever? Are there any fics like that?

2) I've sort of asked this once, but I'll ask it again. I'm looking for fics where Dean is taken as a mate by an angel/angels. I don't mind the pairing, literally anything goes (Dean/Michael, Dean/gabriel, Dean/lucifer, Dean/Michael/Lucifer?). Just please no Destiel, because I've already read heaps of those fics (and that's what most of the fandom is based around anyway), and please no non-con.

Come on fandom, please don't disappoint me! ^_^

08 November 2014 @ 09:45 pm
Recently I've been reading some alpha/beta/omega fics and enjoyed them! I also read a really good Blind!Jared fic that made me want to read more!

1. First a more specific request! I'm looking for fics where Sam and Dean (RPF is okay too) are transported into an alternate universe, cursed, or something along those lines, and becomes an Omega or Alpha.

2. A more general one. Just any A/B/O that you thought where good. With plot as well as good smut! PWP is okay though as long as it's well written! :-)

3. Fics where a character is blind, deaf or both and have at least a reletivly realistic portrayal of the blind/deaf community.

For all requests, I don't mind about pairings but I do like Dean/Cas or J2 and I love Sam/Gabriel. I prefer Sam or Jared to top but anything is fine!

Feel free to self rec!
11 July 2014 @ 11:03 pm
hey there, can you guys rec me any J2 or wincest fics where jensen or dean has some sort of mental disability? could be very bad or could just be something small. i will also take deaf, mute or blind fics. please bottom jensen or dean only if there is sex and i prefer no gen. thank you!
06 June 2014 @ 02:05 am
So I read this Lucifer/Dean story back then. I forgot the title but it goes like this Lucifer kidnapped Dean and then blinded him from what I can remember. Sam and some others rescued him from Lucifer and since Luci loved him enough, he let Dean go. But then Dean also fell in love with Luci and wanted him and I think he tried pouring something in his eyes to blind himself?

Anyone have a link or copy of that story?

Oh, I also want Michael/Dean, Gabriel/Dean, and Lucifer/Dean stories if you guys could rec me some. *bows gratefully

I wouldn't mind Powers!Dean, Angel!Dean, Michael!Dean or anything with Dean being some sort of Messiah or something.

Thanks guys!
05 June 2014 @ 03:59 pm
Hi, I'm looking for two John/Dean stories by ghostwriter056 (livejournal). They have apparently deleted their account, and although I've done a google search and not being able to locate them, I thought I'd ask here as someone might know if they are on another story site. Below is the descriptions of have in my bookmarks.

1. Fragile Threads: Dean loses both of his legs on what should have been a routine hunt when he was a teenager. It changes everything forever and Dean just wants to know he won’t get ditched now that he isn’t as useful as he used to be.

2.What's Done in the Dark: At fifteen, Dean was irreversibly injured on John's watch. After an incident with a shapeshifter threatens to damage Dean even more, both confess their feelings for the other, but accept that Dean can't live the hunter way of life anymore. Eleven years later, Sam, unaware of their relationship and the things that led to it, is pulled back into hunting by John who needs his help in protecting Dean while he searches for the Colt.

I've looked through all the side tags for powers, hurt, blind and demonic Sam, but cannot find this fic.

Its an old fic and was futureish.  Its set at a roadhouse, can't remeber if it was Harvelles, but its from an outsiders point of view.  Sam and Dean come in and Sam is leading Dean as if he's blind.  Anyway, some hunter/customers start making trouble and Sam holds them up with powers against the wall, then an old man tells the girl to cover  her eyes and Dean takes off his glasses and theres a bright light (like angelic powers) and the troublemakers are gone.

Does it sound familiar to anyone?

Its driving me insane, so if anyone knows it pls help! :D


EDIT: Found - See comments.
06 January 2014 @ 06:19 pm
I have a craving for hurt and sick Winchesters.
Permanent or long lasting effects.
A helping of blind and/or deaf is always appreciated.

Where there really is no good reason _why_ . Just bad genes and unlucky circumstances. Mix in a helping of less than stellar healt care, and perfectly ordinary injuries or childhood diseases can have huge effects.

As for timelines: Anything from pre-series to future-fic. But I don't like soulless Sam.

Long to epic stories and verses.
Prefer gen or het, but will read slash if it is well written.
I'm a Dean girl, but not fanatic.
And please, no death fics...

http://nwhepcat.livejournal.com/1279086.htmlNwhepcat's Rage, rage and all that crap is a perfect example of what I'm looking for.
18 November 2013 @ 07:12 am

I'm looking for a Wincest fic where Sam is at Stanford and he loves Dean. He has an apartment by himself, and is doing OK (except he misses his brother). Dean randomly calls one day and he and Sam start talking on the phone a lot. Sam ends up masturbating during one of their calls, and Dean figures it out. They end up confessing their love and having phone sex, but Dean won't visit and won't let Sam find him (and won't tell him why either). Eventually he confesses that he was blinded on a case and can't afford the surgery to fix it. Sammy drives out to him and pays for the surgery with a credit card in his own name and keeps Dean at his apartment until he's better. Once he recovers it's all happily hunting after.


So, as often happens, I got in a mood to read a certain genre. I'm currently looking for long J2 or Wincest physical disability fics, preferably that deals with navigating a relationship while dealing with a disability. My Kindle has a whole collection dedicated to disability fics, but they're not hitting my buttons at the moment. I re-read the Battlements verse and the Twists and Turns verse, which is what sent me on this search.
  • Jensen/Jared or Dean/Sam pairing

  • No preference who is disabled (it just happened that the last two I read were Disabled!Jensen)

  • No preference on disability (blind, deaf, paralyzed, etc.)

  • Longer the better...something I can really sink my teeth into

  • Focus on the disability and how it affects the relationship would be nice

So! Rec me your favorite disability fics! Fill my Kindle with goodness :D
Current Mood: curious
Current Music: Silence
26 September 2013 @ 01:08 pm
These days I'm into fics where life it self screws the boys over. Where natural causes, bad genes, sudden illnesses (and less than stellar health care), are the reasons for some major h/C. Disabilities! Sickness! Permanent (or long lasting) disability is ok. Magical solutions to problems (or experimental cures that could just as well have been magical, but the magician wears a white coat and has a medical degree....), are frowned upon.
A good helping of blind and/or deaf is allways appreciated.
No deathfics please.

NWHEPCAT's Rage, Rage, and All That Crap is a good example of what I'm looking for. http://hoodie-time.livejournal.com/505254.html

I'm a Dean girl, but not fanatic.
I prefer GEN or HET, but wel written slash is ok, if it's not too glaring obvious.
No kinks please.
18 August 2013 @ 11:41 pm
Any and all fics where Dean has become blind and/or deaf. Would love it if him and Sam were to become involved with each other and quit hunting and become all domestic. Anything I can get I'll be grateful for.
24 July 2013 @ 03:59 pm
I need help finding a fic. I know I have asked for help finding it on here before but I have searched and search but I can't find that old request on here anymore and I haven't been able to find it any other way either. It was a deaf and blind Dean fic, and he was possibly mute too but I don't remember for sure. I don't remember for sure what happened to cause it, I think it was an explosion? What I do remember was it was a long story and it took place during Dean's last year and Dean faced down the demon and somehow beat it and that's how he got his sight back. His hearing eventually comes back later but in between there's a scene where Dean has sex with a bartender but since he's still deaf he's afraid to have Sam out of his sight so he doesn't let Sam leave. Sam watches and at one point Dean gets on top of his lap with the girl on top of him and they finish like that and I think Dean it's Dean's POV and he feels Sam come under him, and after 2 years it's still one of the hottest sex scenes I've read. The story also had some outsider POV including the bartender's and the hotel manager's who thought Sam and Dean were a couple before they finally got together and it was still just sexual tension. If you could help me find this story I would be forever in your debt, and I swear I will bookmark it this time!
18 July 2013 @ 06:24 pm
Hi I'm looking for a story that I read a while ago. In it a witch pours something in Dean's mouth, throat, and ears to make him blind deaf and mute. Afterwards, he is afraid of a doctor who is a woman. I know they go to Bobby's and to make Dean better they need to do the ritual in reverse. I know it's on fanfiction and that it's complete.
26 May 2013 @ 12:24 pm
I don't really know how to start this, so I'm just going to jump in. Fair warning, this list is long. Also, I'd just like non-Wincest fics.

1. crying!Dean fics. I don't care why he's crying, I just want him crying and Sam or John comforting him.
2. Dean or John is deaged and Same has to take care of them.
3. blind, deaf, hurt, or sick!Dean with Sam taking care of him. I don't care if how hard the injury is or how sick Dean is, if he's been blind or deaf since birth, if it's permanent or just part of a curse.
4. protective or smart!Sam. Just something where Dean or John realize that Sammy isn't little anymore.
5. girl!Sam. Because I'd bet she'd be awesome, I'd prefer Dean is still a boy, unless
6. doctor!Sam. At least have taken some classes, and how'd that would affect their hunts.
7. Crossovers with Criminal Minds (with a focus on Sam and Reid) or SuperWhoLock crossovers. Any kind. Though a focus on Sam, the Elventh Doctor, and Sherlock would be loved.
8. Sam as teenaged father please, or Sam with a daughter.
9. Sam realizing he's gay or bi, and John and Dean's reactions
10. Sam going back just mentally and impressing everyone with his knowledge, or physically and everyone wondering what the hell happened to make him like this.
11. abused!Dean. Any kind, but I'd like the main on it to focus on his recovery.
12. teen!Sam getting addicted to any kind of drugs or starts cutting.
13. teen!Dean getting an eating disorder or being raped and a focus on his recovery.
14. Basically any Castiel/Sam fics that don't meet any of these requirements. No porn unless it's part of a much larger story.

07 April 2013 @ 01:33 pm
Hi there :) I'm looking for one particular fic and two general searches.

1) The specific story: It dealt with Sam finding out that that Dean was abused/neglected as a child by John - notably that their dad once locked him in a closet or a wardrobe for a long time. I think he was drunk or sad about Mary. Sam was utterly horrified - I don't think it was wincest though, just brotherly love. It's not much to go on but it's really playing on my mind. (FOUND - link in comments)

2) A more general search: Sam and Dean as adults, or close enough, and Sam finding out that Dean was mistreated as a child. Anything from full out abuse to just neglect (by John). I want him to be really angry and protective; making Dean understand that what John did was wrong. I'd prefer brotherhood to wincest but anything along those lines is great.

3) Also any fics where dean is deaf or blind and mistreated by John because of this.
Current Mood: hopeful
15 March 2013 @ 06:42 pm

I'm looking for four stories

1. Jensen and Jared are in high school and Jared stutters very badly. They go to different schools and end up being paired up as partners on an online project. They become very close and when Jensen starts acting to meet Jared. Jared freaks and stops talking to him online. At some point Jensen just goes to Jared's school and they meet. ~ FOUND

2. The two are getting ready to go to college and Jensen changes his relationship status on FB from in a relationship to single. I think Jared and Jensen break up in a coffee shop because I remember Jared throwing ice coffee at Jensen. Then when Jared gets to school he finds out Jensen is his roommate. The whole roommate confusion was a setup by Jensen and Chad to get Jared to start talking to Jensen again. ~ FOUND

3. Dean is in love with Sam while Sam is at Stanford. The whole story was a series of letters and postcards. Dean considers killing himself because he thinks he's so messed up in the head for being in love with his brother. The only thing I remember for sure was a picture of a letter with blood dripped on it saying ... "You can say this to your brother?!" ~ FOUND

4. Sam stops talking at the age of 5. He can talk but decides not too, he and Dean and very close. John ends up trying to send Sam to a boarding school to give the boys some distance and Dean freaks out. He and Sam run away together and end up lovers. In the squeal Dean becomes blind on a hunt and John, he and Sam all make up. This story was from a long time ago so I don't remember much. >.< ~ FOUND

Thanks so much!
Current Mood: hungry
20 December 2012 @ 09:11 pm
My first post here. Let's hope I dont screw up too bad.

I'm looking for fics where Dean is blind or otherwise handicapped, and DEALING with it. Not just waiting and hoping it will pass, not just lashing out towards any one and any thing within reach, not just wallowing in self pitty. Not just HURT for the sake of hurting, or just to be comforted. I want some real plot to the stories, preferrably long or medium length fics.
It would be good if the blindness/handicap/injury is (atleast percieved as) permanent or long lasting.

I prefer gen or het, but will read slash it it is well written.
10 December 2012 @ 08:37 am
Looking for any fic where one of the boys is blind and the other trains seeing eye dogs, slash please. I like J2 and Wincest :) Any pairing and any kink and self recs are welcome! Thank you!
Current Mood: tired
30 October 2012 @ 09:40 pm
I was wondering if anyone knew of any gen/het fireman!Dean fics?

More general, any gen/het fics where Dean and Sam are not hunters? Or one is and the other isn't? I'm also searching for gen/het fics where Dean and Sam are raised apart (but still brothers).

Lastly, I'm looking for multi-chapter fics where Dean (or Sam) is mute, deaf, or blind. But not born that way. I've read a bunch of one shots with such a theme but I'd like something that I can really dig into.

Thank you so much for any help! :D
02 October 2012 @ 10:24 pm
Hi all, I'm trying to find a fic I read a while back, wherein Dean was blind (can't remember why) and Sam took him to live in a house, possibly with Bobby there as well, or at least close enough to be of regular help. I remember Dean panicked about getting out of Hunting Shape, but Sam was worried that Dean had gotten too skinny, and they had a treadmill set up for him? Or something like that? I can't remember exactly, but there may have been Wincest? And I *think* Dean *may* have gotten his sight back. I also can't remember when it's set. So this is an incredibly vague request, but I'm sure someone out there will know the story I mean!

Also, I'm a sucker for hurt!Dean. Or Awesome!Dean. Or any Dean, really! No preference between Wincest and Destiel, so if you have any other suggestions of any length, send them my way! Just as long as they're well-written and preferably Dean-centric!
17 September 2012 @ 06:50 am
1. I am in search of your best broken!Dean fics

- Preferably not dealing with Hell PTSD
- No slash
- Happy/hopeful endings
- Dark is good
- crying!Dean is awesome :)

2. Fics where Dean or Sam is keeping a secret from the other

- No slash
- No canon secrets

3. Fics where either Dean or Sam have had a major disability (blind, deaf, paralyzed, etc.) their entire life but then are (supernaturally?) healed and they must readjust to life.

- No slash

Thank you all so much :)
1. Hi! I'm new and I've tried searching all the tags that would lead me to a Wincest fic in which Dean angers a group of witches and curse him to be blind and deaf. What I can remember from it is that Sam accepts Lucifers help to lift the curse only if Sam does a few dirty deeds for Luci? I'm sorry, I can't remember much more. I know it was a first time fic for Dean and Sammy. 
Sorry, it's kind of vague but I can't remember - I read it such a long time ago :/

2. Also any other Wincest fics where Dean is vulnerable, sick, or cursed in some sort of way and Sam has to save him would be lovely. Fluff is always welcomed, but angst sounds gr8 right about now. I've read fleshflutter's Dark Side of the Moon and Moths on a Mirror, so something along those lines :)

Current Mood: desperate
15 July 2012 @ 06:35 am
Hey all. I'm looking for two stories.

1. Sick!Dean - Dean ends up in the hospital for something serious. The only thing I remember was that Sam tells him he has to cut his hair for surgery. He tries to make a joke and tease him about it, but then sees that the buzz of the clippers is physically hurting Dean's head. I think Sam cuts his hair out of solidarity too. Any fics similar to this with either sick!Dean or Sam or J2 I'd like to read just please no death fics.

2. Blind!Dean - I remember reading a story that had a lot of OCs if I'm remembering right. Dean ends up getting a job as a waiter in a pitch black restaurant where all the staff is blind and the people eat in the dark. I can't remember if this was a WIP when I was reading it as I can't remember the ending for the life of me. I wanna say it was a verse with multiple oneshot type chapters though I may be wrong.

09 July 2012 @ 06:50 pm
I'm looking for specific Sam/Dean. I'm a little hazy on the specifics, but I do remember that Dean starts to lose his senses (sight, sounds, maybe even touch). I think he was cursed. There's also something to do with water I think. I remember it being very good and sad, any help would be amazing!!
Hi I'm new, and Trying to find Gen stories of Dean for...

1) Dean has an illness,it ether makes him very weak for ever or he dies.
from WeeCheter to current age -no older-
(No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

2) Very Sad Death Fic,hopefully dieing for Sam,but any Sad Death fic will do
no Suicide!fic, only if he has to do it like in WIAWSNB
(No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

3) Dean as a ghost/spirit
from WeeCester to current Age -no older-
(No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

4) Sad Demon!Dean fic (No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

5) any Blind,Mute,Deaf (No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

6)Dean Crazy/ in a mental institution (No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

7) Dean never was born,but Sam is (No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

8) you're recommendations,you see what im looking for, what else do you think i'll like (No Wincest or Destiel, Please)

I really appreciate, for any help I get,thanks everyone
Hi all!

I'm looking for Sam/Dean stories, where one is deaf/mute/blind, etc and really relies on the other brother to get around or to communicate or perform daily activities.

Also, while I'm here, any Jared/Jensen stories where one is deaf/mute/blind, etc and they meet and get together.

I'd prefer first time stories with NC-17 rating.

Please no mpreg!

Thank you! :-)
18 March 2012 @ 07:26 pm
Preferably something under 20k or I won’t get anything done tonight.

Destiel that addresses one ore more of these:

  • Wolf/Werewolf AU
  • Bipolar disorder
  • Any kind of disability or mental illness for one or both characters
  • I love fics where one of them is dependent on the other for something or everything
  • love angst/deathfics that are balanced by a little fluff
  • lots of Sammy plz (I really like Dean chooses between Sam and Cas, but if Dean chooses Cas, don’t even bother reccing it)
Thanks in advance! :)
24 February 2012 @ 08:31 pm

Hello guys, I'm here to ask you for your help again. 

First off - I wanted to rec my friend to a certain story - I think it was an AU about J2, where people usually got some kind of chip implanted into their wrist - it's supposed to tell you how long till you meet your true love, if the other person also had the chip. Jensen had it, waited for it to show the numbers he longed for, while Jared didn't want it, cause he didn't want to let a machine tell him what to feel. Anyone has link for this one? 

And second - I'd love some recs. I was kinda going over my old stuff, but I'd like something new. 

Anything long, with feeling included. Whether J2 or Wincest or perhaps Misha/Jensen or Castiel/Dean. Just something that has drama/catches your breath and I have a thing for blindness >////< . 

Though I'd very much prefer if Jensen/Dean were bottoming. 

Thank you!

PS: I hope I didn't mess up the tags >< :

Found: http://fairly-tales.livejournal.com/18048.html 

You're awesome guys, thank you ^^ 

Current Mood: worried
24 February 2012 @ 07:49 pm
I'm looking for stories like The Way Back by [livejournal.com profile] rainylemons  (read this shit!) where the boys (Sam and Dean and/or Cas) are in a pretty dark place/ depressed/ etc.. but slowly work their way up to their happy ending. I'd prefer if this was not the 'I'm so hurt, take care of me' kind of fic, but the boys finding out of their mess because of their own strength. Something that leaves you optimistic at the (happy) end. Can be the AU drug addiction kind of fic, mute or blind!boys or dealing with the apocalypse or something completelly different.

All pairings and gen welcome.  :) 
13 February 2012 @ 05:42 am
I'm looking for a fic where Lucifer kidnaps Dean and blinds him, then tortures him and takes care of him and eventually Dean because completely dependant on him. Sam and the others rescue him but Lucifer loves Dean and gives him back his sight and lets him go because he loves him. Dean doesn't want to go and tries to pour cleaner in his eyes.
Anyone know it?
11 February 2012 @ 05:39 am
1. Can people recomend any good bottom!Dean's? As hot as you dare.
2. also the one where Lucifer blinds Dean and then cares for him when he's blind and Dean becomes dependant on him for everything. After rescued he tries to pour cleaner in his eyes since he got his sight back and can't stand it.
03 February 2012 @ 07:45 pm
Okay, so recently I've really been craving a really good (and long) disabled Dean fic. Rather he's blind, mute... anything really. PTSD, metal disability. And I'm with RPS Jensen, also, as long as it's AU. I'm not a huge fan of Deaf!Dean, but I'm with those if that's what there is. Anything goes really... except Het. I don't like Het.

Oh, also, any stories where Sam realizes that Dean gave up a ton of his life for him... if that makes sense. Just, Sam having an epiphany about how amazing Dean is or any other "Dean Appreciation" story would be nice if you have them.

Thanks! Bye!
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Current Mood: hopeful
19 January 2012 @ 10:01 am
Hi, I'm looking for a fic that I'm almost sure it's wee! chester, where Dean is blind and is raped walking to school
I am also looking for another story where the boys were adopted by families in different states when they were children, Sam is in college when he is possessed (or is working with the yellow-eyed demon?) And goes in search of Dean who suffered an accident and this blind ...
Current Mood: blah
12 January 2012 @ 10:24 am
At the DMV today, I failed to pass the eye exam.

First time ever. Crap.

So anyway, with the topic of eye wear on my mind, I remembered a story I once read where Dean had to wear glasses- I would love to read more like it!

And just in case you have no stories like that to recommend, could you recommend a story where torture causes permanent injury? For example: Dean is tortured by a monster (human or otherwise) and they pour acid in his eyes and he goes blind.

Or maybe they cut off a finger.

Whatever. Doesn't matter as long as lots of angst and comforting ensues!

But please, what ever you do, don't destroy his beautiful face! A scar that he's insecure about is fine just so long as he's not terribly disfigured! :P And I LOVE fics where Dean hides injuries. Love them.

And what the hell, if you see a hurt!Dean fic that you really love that doesn't fit one of these topics, rec it anyway! Hehe. (Reading tag lists always gives me ideas for different fics I want to read! lol!) So yeah, hit mewith it. Just as long as it's more severe than a cold or a fever. I want angst, man!

No slash please but other than that I have absolutely no other preferences!

Thank you! (Self-recs are great too!)
11 January 2012 @ 07:46 am
I'm looking for Dean/Castiel fics where one (or both) of them are physically or mentally afflicted and somewhat dependent on the other. I'll take gen too.

Examples of what I've read/am looking for:

Hummingbirds - Mute!Castiel

Ghost Dance - brain damage/mentally ill Dean

(Those are both beautiful by the way. Check them out.)
Current Mood: anxious
24 November 2011 @ 01:00 pm

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! I would like to take a moment to give thanks to this wonderful comm. You are all amazing and I don't know what I would do in this fandom without you.

Now then, I am looking for some cute, adorable wee!chester fics where Sam has a blanket and sucks his thumb and Dean teases him about it. Maybe John yells at him for it because he views it as a sign of weakness? It can be any age, but it would be a bonus if Sam still does it as he gets older and he becomes very secretive and extremely self conscious about it. It can be gen or wincest, but I would love you forever if its a sweet wincest fic. Can be any length and rating. Self recs are welcome. No WIPs and happy endings only please. Thank you!

Oh! while I'm posting I want to ask for some deaf/blind/mute fics. I have already read a lot of deaf, blind and/or mute Dean and I love them, but I'm looking to expand my horizons. I would love something where Sam, Jared, or Jensen are the afflicted one (though I'd still take hurt!Dean any day so rec them if you got them). I'd like it if either they were born that way and it's permanent, or if it's something that happens later in life that it's only temporary like a curse or something. I'd like either J2 or wincest, no gen please. I'd rather that you don't just link me to your delicious because then I'd be to tempted to read them all. I know there are a lot of these out there so please just rec me your all time favorites. Can be any length and rating. Self recs are welcome. No WIPs and happy endings only please. Thanks again!

13 November 2011 @ 03:46 pm
looking for another general search.
1. John abuses Dean, or someone else abuses Dean, Sexual and Physial are loved,even more if he's remembering it as an adult. Maybe he ends up telling
Bobby or Sam. Maybe he tells Castiel
2. Dean is sick, he finds out he had cancer or such or he's blind, deaf or an amputee.
3. Dean is a god, a pagan god or something like that.
4. Dean is scared of something or someone.
5. Dean drinking Demon or human blood and Sam catches him.
7. Dean is a demon or angel. or possessed
8.Dean in college, AU with sam(or without) or him going after averting the
apocolypse or before. Him with friends or as an outsider. Love any as long as its Dean(I'll accept Jensen as long, it would be cool if Jensen met Jared in college) or even highschool
9. Dean cuddling after sex or just Cuddling with Castiel, Sam whoever!
10. A drunk Dean spilling something
about his past to Crowley or Ruby or one of the angels making them see something different about him.
11.Dean tries to kill himself, hurt himself or do/does/is addicted to drugs or has an eating disorder, noncon and dubcon welcome
12. Dean with a size kink, he has to be bottom though.
13.Dean mentally ill.
14. Virgin Dean. Whether with guys or just in general.
15. Anything where Dean's homophobic but really gay/bi
and into Sam, Cas, crowley (Someone, anyone) or no one at all.

The mods keep sending it back! Wahh!!! Ah well, I think I got it right this time :)
Current Mood: cranky
There's this fic I remember reading, but I don't remember most of the plot. One of the boys, Sam or Dean, had been hurt somehow, and they wind up sticking permanently in some town. I think the hurt boy was blind, but I'm not positive. All I remember specifically is at the end of the story, he winds up wandering around the town (with people looking for him) and ending up in a church.

Also, a general request for any recs you have with either of the boys becoming blind and getting a seeing eye dog or even just a companion dog. I prefer SPN gen, but I'll give any pairing or J2 a shot.

Thank you!
26 October 2011 @ 04:32 pm
I am looking for a specific fic that includes Dean getting blinded by what I think was a witch. It happens during the Stanford era and I can remembering Sam coming out to help Dean after getting a call. There are a couple of things that I remember. Dean was very good at walking around blind. Later on they are at Stanford and people are amazed at his ability to play darts whan he cant see the board. He also gets information for a hunt by throwing knives at a man who is tied up and getting staedily closer to either his head or his manly parts. He hooks up with one of Jess' friends who is quite self conscious. I believe her first time is with Dean. She also gets him to pose naked for a drawing. I remembering them interacting with a small boy. I think he was the son of whoever cursed Dean.
08 October 2011 @ 01:21 pm
Hi everyone! I'm searching for unrequieted cas/ dean fic!
Cas being hopelessly in love with dean. Dean loving cas like a friend or a brother, or only looking at sam, things like that! Idealy,  I'd like cas being jaelous and agressive with the people that dean loves more than him, but really, I want every possible fic with cas having unrequieted love for dean! I'm okay with everything, from threesome to happy ending fic (as long that dean doesn't share cas love in a moment of the story ) Please please please? *o*
Current Mood: hopeful
28 September 2011 @ 05:50 am
I'm looking for a Dean/Sam fic.
Dean's caught by the FBI. He's strapped to a bed in the hospital and blind. He refuses to speak and eventually rescued by Sam.

Please help : ) 
Thank you
Current Mood: anxious
19 September 2011 @ 08:01 pm
Hi all, I'm looking for a specific kind of Dean/Cas stories: Any fics, post-apocolypse, where Dean or Cas is missing/presumed dead, and the other spends months/years looking for their lost love? Slash or gen is great, although I must insist on a happy ending. Finding each other is the whole point of reading fics like that.
Also, I'm looking for any fics where Dean is crippled in the apocolypse, physically, not mentally. Dean/Cas, friendship or slash a must. Blind Dean fics are great.
Cheers, Tes