I'm looking fir a story where Sam is ruler of hell. Dean is with him, but I can't remember what their relationship as far as ruling is. Hell defeated Heaven in a war and while Sam is in Heaven with his army, Gabriel. who had returned when the war turned against Heaven, offers to go with Sam as a hostage sort of situation.
I was cleaning up my own journal and found a list of Big Bang recs from 2009, including "The Lady-Killers" by [livejournal.com profile] thrdstrike. I think this is a fic that I posted here searching for a few months ago, but it wasn't found, and I didn't know the title or author at that time. I'm wondering if anyone has a link to it, if it's still on the internet somewhere? Or a copy of it? Googling brought me here, but the entry that allegedy had a request for a PDF is returning a "Journal Deleted" error, which is bizarre considering I'm typing a post to this journal right now, lol. Actually, I'd even take a summary of the fic, if anyone remembers, because I'm trying to figure out if it is, indeed, the lost fic I was looking for.

Thanks in advance!

There is a PDF download in the comments. :D Thank you for your help!

Since a bunch of people were having trouble, I uploaded the file myself, to Box, HERE
08 May 2017 @ 10:41 pm
Hey guys,

1. I was wondering if there any stories that involve the yellow-eyed(I know his name but I can't spell it) kids that lets them beat the prophetic match or at least they pull one over the yellow eyed one.

2. Or stories that involve the boys becoming more of part of the hunter community, and they don't become hunted

3. BAMF Sam is also apperciated without dean being a dick would be awesome

4. Does anyone have any stories where the boys are dark but still hunters and not insane or demotic.

5. The boys use hoodoo and magic but are not evil

Basically I just want the grey!boys who don't see the world as black and white.
Any length, any paring, and I would prefer complete
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The latest episode has reminded me of how much I love fics where the Winchesters are just huge BAMFs.
I'm looking for fics that show how actually dangerous Sam and Dean can be, especially against "normal" enemies (i.e. nothing world-ending (although they do kick ass there too)). Can be monster or human related (e.g. law enforcement etc). Outsider POV is always cool for these kind of things, but that's not a requirement.

Can be Sam and/or Dean centric (although I'm more of a Dean!girl *cough*).

Double bonus if you could point me towards "Dean being a dangerous bamf in Hell/ Purgatory" fics

I'd prefer no Wincest, but I'll read it if you think the story is just that good.

Thanks! :)

[Is there no "Hell" tag or did I overlook it?]
Hi, everyone!
I'm looking for any fic with Sam become the Boy King or getting possessed by Lucifer, and make Dean his consort. One plus, if Dean's unwilling but he couldn't say "no" to Sam. Double plus, if Sam's so possessive on Dean. Triple plus, for BAMF!Dean (like maybe the demons afraid of Dean because he was the most favorite pupil of Alastair, or maybe Dean's adored by the demons because he's the only one who doesn't afraid to reprimand the BoyKing!Sam/Lucifer!Sam if he's gone too far). I accept any genre, but I only want bottom!Dean if the fic's an explicit one.
Thanks in advance~!!
01 January 2017 @ 02:13 pm

1 ) Because there is coming Fifity Shade of Darker movie, I was wondering is there J2 version this movie? Or Sam/Dean. I didin´t like the the first movie but J2 version it could work ;D I like long fic but you can one shot, too! Only TopSam, please ;p

2) Anything dark Sam/Dean fic. ? Give me your favorites!
3) Also PrgenantDean are ok, too! Only TopSam again.

4) some history fanfiction with J2 or Sam/Dean

Thank you!
27 December 2016 @ 01:45 pm
I'm looking for some fanfics that Dean would do anything for Sam. I mean ANYTHING. Dean is completely devoted to his brother. I would like Dean some how believeing it is the right thing to do. Evil possessive Sam taking advantage of that would be cool too. Maybe Sam turning Dean evil that way? As long as it as Dean devoted to Sam.
Wincest or Gen
Thank you!
27 December 2016 @ 01:25 pm

I'm looking for any fic where Sam time travelling because of Dean (like maybe Dean's dead in his time so Sam goes back to the past to save him or because he's missing him, or maybe Sam time travelling because Dean went to the dark side and he wants to change it). And I want Sam and Dean have very close relationship (as brothers or lovers). Gen or slash is okay, but if slash and there's sex scene I only accept bottom!Dean.

And I also looking for this particular fic. In that fic, Sam went to dark side (as the Boy King, Lucifer, or whoever he is I don't remember) but he's still love Dean (and obsessed). Then Dean got killed (or maybe destroyed because I remember Sam couldn't get Dean back alive) and Sam went to the past because he wanted his Dean. I remember Sam arrived at Stanford-era and using all the means to make Dean in that timeline his.

Please help me, and thanks in advance!
OK, so this time, I'm kind of vaguely remembering a fic that was a Big Bang one year, I think, where all I really recall is how it ends (oops). I guess I should probably put it behind a spoiler tag, maybe.

serial killer au )

If anyone knows what it is I'd be so grateful!
So I read this story a long time ago, but I'm pretty sure it was on the SPN Kink Meme. Sam is turned into a werewolf and decides Dean is his mate. From then on he is training Dean to be more submissive and accomodating to him. He times it so that when they stop to eat Dean has to go to the bathroom so Sam orders his good, so eventually even when he doesn't go to the bathroom he still expects Sam to pick what he eats. Then Sam starts dropping his stuff so Dean will pick it up for him. I think towards the end he drugs Dean while they drive to this cabin and he feeds Dean his cum.
There was a fic a million years ago that had Sam and Dean travelling the country, but they were actually the serial killers Henriksen thought they were. I think they eventually got caught and put in a maximum security prison, which they broke out of. Now, I'm not actually looking for THAT fic, because I'm pretty sure the author deleted it and left LJ long ago, along with telling people she didn't want it shared (shame, 'cause I want to reread it. Sigh.). Edit: I didn't think it was possible for anyone to find it, but I'm pretty sure the one I was thinking of here is Darker Shade of Black. by sardonicsmiley.

But I'm looking for similar fics now.

I just read Blood in Your Mouth by saltandbyrne on AO3 and that's what made me crave more. There's just something so sexy about the boys actually being evil, but not supernatural evil, just human evil. (Yes, there is something wrong with me, I will be over there -->) There are bonus points for the more fucked up the boys are (like the fic I referenced, with implied necrophilia).

(Uh... I thought there was a serial killers tag, but I can't find it. Crap. I hope I tagged this right!)

p.s. this is actually [livejournal.com profile] annabeth posting from a new, going-to-be-mostly-public journal, and I'm mentioning it because I know sometimes I get searched and my regular journal is locked.
Howdy y'all!

I'm looking for a story I read many years ago on the Internet. It must be ten years already (I'm getting old).

I remember the story vividly, but there are gaps in my memory.

Sam was deeply in love with Dean. Dean died tragically in some kind of incident with something or someone that wanted him dead, but not before giving birth to a baby boy that was his and Sam's son. Sam wasn't around to witness what or who killed him. They were so close to being a happy family, but that dream was cut short by Dean's death. Sam was heartbroken by his passing and, as the years went by, and he lived in only sorrow, despair and constant distress, became bitter and angry. He never let his son have any fun, not if he could help it at least, and was just in general a very strict person. They lived in somewhat of a manor. In my mind, I recall it being something of a mix between the mansion from Beauty and the Beast and the mansion from the Adam's Family. It was kind of spooky with a gothic architecture style type-thing to it and such. Anyway, his son grew only to know his father as a mean person. He never knew what happened to his "birth-father" because Sam refused to talk about it, so he couldn't exactly understand why his father was the way he was. One day, his son found a picture of Dean and, when Sam found out about it, he was furious to say the least. ❥

On another note, Sam had some stupid little bitch on the side getting his rocks off whenever he needed it. I think this individual might have been to blame for Dean's death, like it was all part of his grand plan to weasle himself into Sam's bed.

I'm pretty sure the son was gay, had a boyfriend, was a girly boy and found a way to time-travel back to when Dean died to try and save the day. Sam followed him.

I don't remember the end of the story.


Peace and love to you all!

* FOUND! It's [livejournal.com profile] sammyndeansgrl1's simply amazing Back To The Beginning (which you just have to read if you haven't already)

ETA: I was wondering if anyone here knows the J² story that goes as follows.

It's a story where Jensen lives very deep in the forest in a cabin, is recluse and is secretly a werewolf who chains himself up every full moon because he believes himself to be a monster, i.e. a danger to the public. Jared is a werewolf who just happens to meet Jensen somehow and falls "in like" with him. Jensen doesn't quite appreciate the company because he's afraid of what he is and what could happen if he lets himself get out of hand.

This story was a "work-in-progress" last I checked, quite a few years ago. I lost track of it because it was taking so long for it to update, but I miss it deeply given that it was a real chocker. Thanks in advance! Here's two cookies for your troubles: Open Road and The Jelly Green Giant (rawr).

* FOUND! It's [livejournal.com profile] surevesta's fantastic When We Wake Up (when reading this story, don't make the mistake of getting too attached because the story has no end)totally tragic
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27 March 2016 @ 02:43 pm

1.) So I was wondering if there is any fics where Dean is evil temporarily in the story and he's not truly evil. Like Demon Dean, mind controlled, powers anything really.
2.) Where Sams evil and corrupts Dean and turns him to his side.

Thank you :D
06 March 2016 @ 11:12 pm
I know this is a long shot but I was wondering if there were any wincest au's with crimeboss!sam or Dean. Just curious because I know there's a lot of j2 fics like this, but I've never actually come cross any wincest ones.

Someone posted for 'Sam as Boy King w/Dean as Consort' type deal. Several of the recs involved Dark!Sam manipulating and forcing Dean into his role as consort [specific e.g., "Where You Belong (Always by my Side) by majestic_duck].

"Where You Belong" was a great read and in it Sam is manipulative from the get-go and Dean is enveloped by Sam's darkness.

Are there fics where: Sam is Boy King or just plain dark, thinks he's manipulating Dean, thinks he has the upper hand, but it's actually Dean who's got the control?
Like, Sam wants to make Dean his consort but Dean wants to save Sam, so Dean allows Sam to think Sam's tainting Dean/dragging Dean down/making Dean submit, but Dean is actually binding their souls and bringing Sam up with him?
Or, Dean is happy to be corrupted (is already corrupt?) and becomes something much worse/scarier than Sam but Sam doesn't understand that Dean is the more powerful one (who might be goading Sam into darker/scarier things)?

Anything like that?

I'd also prefer bottom!Dean, I feel it adds to the false-perception power dynamic and I just like it.

Several of the tags imply dark or evil Dean, but that's because there aren't tags for good or light Dean. Just mentioning it because I'm more looking for fic in which Dean is bringing Sam into his "light" to bring Sam back type of thing. But demon!Dean who's worse than BoyKing!Sam is all good too.

link to "Where You Belong" should anyone be interested: http://archiveofourown.org/works/3469457
Also kind of along the lines of "Let Your Sins Be Strong" by xzombiexkittenx http://archiveofourown.org/works/392953
26 February 2016 @ 12:19 am
Looking for fic that has Sam start drinking Demon blood again behind Dean's back. If he has powers cool if he's doing this to some how protect Dean, even better! Wincest would be great, but gen is fine too! :)
25 February 2016 @ 02:34 pm
1. I read this awhile ago but can't remember where.

2. Sam and Dean are super possessive of each other. There the only one for one another. Dean will do anything for Sam.

3. They run away young. I know dean kills and they live in an abandoned building for awhile.

4. I know dean tries to provide for Sam by killing people.

5. I remember Bobby or Crowley I forget. He comes in the building with an offer for them to work for him.

6. They follow him to his base and his assistant (?) thinks Sam is easy prey.

7. Sam turns him into his pet.

8. Sam and dean are trained and become dangerous Assasins/Hitmen.(World Class)

9. Sam makes friends (?) with the bomb specialist.

Pretty much all I remember. Looking for it.
21 February 2016 @ 06:35 am
Hello! I have two requests, one for a specific fic and one general request.

1) Specific: Can't remember how long ago I read it or where I read it or even if it was wincest or gen. But I think it was really early seasons, and Sam either was or Dean was afraid he was going to leave for Stanford again. They find this weird wooden doll thing. When Dean falls asleep, he wakes up in a parallel timeline/universe where the YED was possessing John indefinitely and Sam had gone darkside, but the three were together and Dean struggles with how much he wants that. Every time Dean shifts worlds one of the limbs of the doll like folds up? I think in the end he figured out a way to stay in the parallel world by burning it because at least there his family wanted him or something. I know the evil Winchesters had caught Jo and Bobby and were going to kill them. FOUND - link in comments

2) General: There are a lot of dark/evil boys fics, and I love them. But it's also fun to read ones where John is dark too, especially when that makes the whole family a weird and twisted group that even other hunters are afraid of. Can be gen, or wincest if John knows about them and doesn't care at all. Examples: here and here.

Thanks for any help! :)
20 February 2016 @ 06:01 pm
Hey! So I've been looking for a specific fic that I read a while ago. I think I found it on spnstoryfinders but i haven't been able to find it since.
I'm quite certain that it was on LJ. Sam had basically gone batshit insane, he's been killing people all across the country and hunters are after him. Dean meets up with Bobby and some other hunters who have tracked Sam down to a roadhouse and Dean begs them to let him see Sam before they try to kill him. He goes in and Sam is waiting for him. Sam has powers and I think he moves things around with his mind and Dean's a bit freaked out but wants to save his brother.
It turns out that Sam thinks he's talking to an angel who is telling him to kill people but I think it was actually a demon. In the end, Dean stabs Sam before the other hunters can kill him and Sam dies in his arms.
I don't remember what season it was set in but I think it might have been that Sam went missing to go on his killing spree from Stanford, though I might be wrong.
I'm quite certain it wasn't wincest either.
I think that's all I can remember but if you have any insane or mentally ill!Sam fics to reccommend I'll be grateful :)
25 January 2016 @ 06:33 am
Relatively recently someone had searched for a story in which Sam was kind of obsessed with Dean. It was a Djinn fic where Sam was hit by the Djinn [sorry, I can't find that particular entry].

The story was Better Elsewhere by Veronamay http://archiveofourown.org/works/1190469/chapters/2429007

It's a fun read. But I kind of crave something different now because of it.
In the fic "real world" Sam was in love with "real world" Dean but Dean was in denial. Then Sam got hit by the Djinn.
In the Djinn world, Djinn-world!Sam had a bit of a psychotic break due to his obsession with Dean and was placed in an institution. The story followed Djinn-world!Dean who eventually returns Sam's affections.

I'd love to know if there are fic in which Sam is obsessed with Dean, but Dean DOES NOT return Sam's infatuation. He loves Sam, but only in terms of brothers. Like, Sam might be even kind of creepy and Dean has to try to instill hard-line boundaries to stop Sam from just kind of consuming him. Or Dean makes sure to not be totally alone with Sam because Sam is mostly fine/normal...but that can't always be trusted.
Or Sam is constantly pushing boundaries, Dean continues to love him platonicly and tries to cope.

I'm fine with rape, assault, dub-con, just pushing Dean till he has to push back, or being creepy and suggestive without anything more happening.
Hello! A few requests because I definitely don't have finals to be studying for.

1) Specific fic – Fairly certain I read this on ao3 but tag searching is failing me. Wincest, set far enough in the seasons to be at the bunker I’m 95% sure. One of the brothers got back from a solo hunt and had been back for a week or so, but Sam didn’t really react. Dean was pissed because he felt ignored. Sam takes him to Vegas for vacation to make up for it? They had a dom/sub relationship and I think Dean’s leg was permanently injured. There was a scene where Sam takes Dean to a club to show him off and pulls a knife on a guy who gets too close.

2) Specific fic - This one is… kinda graphic. Age reversal where Dean’s the baby brother and Sam is the angry dark overprotective brother. Dean was taken and strung up in a sewer by a monster and he was hanging there with at least one other victim, who ends up getting her abdomen shredded. There’re pretty intense descriptions of that. Dean had this thing that never got explained about how he would always see these eyes, like tons of pairs of eyes and there was some kind of significance about the color of them.

3) General – Rec me all the at-least-mostly-happy bunker fics. Gen or wincest, don’t care, but no other overt pairings otherwise preferably... because BROTHERS. I just get warm happy feelings about the brothers being all domestic in the bunker and Dean cooking or Sam being in love with all the books in the library. I will read pretty much anything that has the word "nesting" in the description honestly.

Thank you. ☺
07 December 2015 @ 03:05 pm
Trying this again, as I've never placed stuff behind the cut and I guess my artwork is NSFW. Mods, I've never done a cut before, so I hope I've done this one correctly.


Read more... )
This is quite an old one, but hopefully someone will remember it.

Sam becomes King of Hell, not sure how. He isn't evil but he is very dark. Naturally, Dean is with him, and Castiel too - I think because he wouldn't leave Dean with Sam (or possibly to avoid being taken by Heaven, or both). But now he's reliant on Dean for protection from Sam. (Possible Dean gets powers in this due to being Sam's brother and consort).

I do remember Castiel being scared of Sam and having to play it very carefully.

There are three scenes that have stuck in my mind:

1) Sam follows Castiel into a room and Cas wants to leave but thinks Sam won't let him pass - he does though.

2) Sam is in a relationship with Dean, but wants Cas too - a combination of actually wanting Cas for his own sake, and because he's an angel, and because he's a little jealous of how Dean still cares for Cas. I remember Cas drawing a promise from Sam not to hurt him, and having to remind him of it a few times because while Sam isn't rough he isn't gentle either. Dean's there to support Cas through it and make sure Sam reigns it in.

3)The Host show up to negotiate / deal with Sam, and it ends up with Sam, Dean and Cas on one side of the table and I think Michael and Zachariah on the other. They want to take Castiel back, and claim that Sam is holding him against his will. Sam disputes this, and says Cas is free to go anytime, but I think he gets a few barbs in about how he's treated Castiel better than they ever did. Michael and Zachariah tell Cas his place is in Heaven with them, not in Hell with the Winchesters, but Cas says he'd prefer to stay. (I think he says something like he'd rather serve in Hell than in Heaven). Which pisses them off and I think they threaten to take Cas, but Sam tells them Cas has made his choice and if they try to grab him Sam will just turn them and their armies back at the gates. I remember Cas being quite stunned at Sam being so protective of him.

Thanks in advance!
01 November 2015 @ 11:10 pm
Stories where the BOYS (or only Dean) loose their humanity and just go rouge by becoming monsters (by whatever means). Make me scared with the hoplessness by finding out that they liking it or finding out that there is no way out so they just goes with it.

Lets go further with Dean facing his dark side. (Imagine along the lines of Persona 4)

Just Gen it or some stories without sex.
Hi, I can't find this fic and I'm really hoping someone can help me:

It was a relatively short Robo!Sam/Dean noncon story where Sam assaulted Dean in the bathroom of a gas station and they had sex which ended up being pretty much like Sam's sex scene in 6.13 "Unforgiven".

Would be great if someone knew what I'm talking about. Thanks!
28 May 2015 @ 10:57 pm
can`t find the story about Boyking!Sam and Dean as his slave, really dark and non-con, and i remember just the last paragraph where Dean crawled behind Sam on hands and knees, and Sam casually asked, let`s see if you could take my whole hand now?
22 April 2015 @ 10:42 pm
Hey guys :)

So I've always been fascinated by the whole mind control aspect of Sam's demon powers. So I was wondering if there were any wincest fics dealing with this. You know, where Sam uses his powers to coax Dean into sex or something? (I'd particularly really love fics where Sam uses his powers to bring Dean to orgasm without touching him *blushes*). And yes, of course, I've read the Suite verse. As usual, no non-con please! Dub-con is fine

Thank you!

EDIT: I will also accept non-con, so long as it's not too violent. Thanks!
Hello again!

So I've read a lot of J2 stalking fics, but I was wondering if there were any for wincest? I'm particularly looking for fics where one of the boys kidnaps the object of his fascination, but if that's not available, just regular staking fics are fine.

I'm also looking for fics where one of the boys is darkly possessive over the other. I don't mind if it's gen or wincest, just fics where Sam or Dean have a twisted sense of love for the other and would do anything to 'protect the other' (yes, I've read the suite verse and I've also read unhobittiyhobbit's fics. Anything else besides that?)

Thank you! :)
08 March 2015 @ 10:14 pm
Hello everyone!

I was wondering if somebody can give me some recs that have bottom!Castiel/Misha and the Winchesters being mafia gangsters, yakuzas or any type of powerfull and dark position? I don't care about the pairing, be it Destiel/Sastiel or anything else.
The character who is with Cas should be dark, possesive but loving at the same time.

Thank you in advance,
Basically, I am looking for a fic where Sam says yes to Lucifer and gets appointed as the Ruler of Hell, but Sam wants Dean by his side while he is ruling. So Sam and Lucifer decide to bring Dean to Hell and slowing get him to accept his role as a consort. In the fic, Sam and Lucifer share Sam's body and mind. They are not completely merged as one being so they trade on and off to interact with Dean. At first, Dean refuses to talk to Sam if Lucifer is in control of Sam's body but eventually Dean comes to accept both of them. The fic is wincest but Dean is very reluctant to sleep with Sam and fights him on it. One specific part in the story is where both Sam and Lucifer find out that Heaven is still trying to recruit Dean and turn him into an angel so Sam has sex with Dean and once Dean falls asleep I think Sam performs a spell or using magic on Dean's soul or body (sorry I can’t remember exactly what he does) but basically alters Dean in such a way that Dean becomes tainted and can't be used by Heaven at all. Also, Sam and Lucifer talk to one another inside Sam's head and they are very gentle with Dean and don’t try to force him into anything. I can't remember the name or the author and I have already tried searching the tag but still can't find it. Any help at all would be most appreciated.

Thank you!
18 January 2015 @ 06:21 pm
Looking for a fic I read many moons ago - way back when Delicious was still a thing that was useful and we used that to archive fics - anyhoo - Sam had gone darkside, and this was known on earth by the public (not just demons and in hell). Dean was on the run. Sam used the TV to advertise that he was looking for Dean - I think Dean saw it when he was in a diner(???). So Dean gets turned in, and Sam takes him to a house he prepared for him - I think it was in the country. That is all I remember.

Mostly found:


I think the second part about taking Dean to a house in the country must have been from another story.
Hi everyone - I'm looking for a specific fic that I read a few years ago. Sam & Dean grew up in the slums that was predominately African American. I remember a scene where some gang member called Dean a pretty white boy or something like that. Sam and Dean grew up away from John because John etiher abandoned them or died, and the boys weren't hunters although it's implied that John was. Dean slept with someone in charge of a gang - it was very dubcon-y - and Sam later rescues Dean (I think). They later grow to be powerful leaders of a powerful gang/mafia.

27 December 2014 @ 03:13 am
The main thing I remember about the fic I am looking for is that the prison Dean & Sam get sent to is an super-max located underground. All the usual suspects are in it - Ash, Bobby etc.


Found, info in comments.
(Eesh, so many tags! Mods: I think I've got everything but I can't seem to find the tags for wing!kink or for dark!castiel. Please help me out!)

To my fellow spn brethren. Yes, yes, I know, it's me again, but I can't help it ^^
Anyway, I'm looking for two types of stories today.Under the cut for possible triggers... )
2. As the title says, I'm also looking for wincestiel wing!kink stories, because there seems to be a massive shortage of this in the fandom. I have read plenty of Destiel, Sastiel and even Wincest wing!kink, but strangely, not any wincestiel. So please help me out! Again, I will literally take anyything. I would prefer it be bottom!cas,but I will take bottom!sam or dean instead too! So please gimme all you got! :)

Thanks in advance!
04 November 2014 @ 03:09 pm
1st Fic:
Sam tried to save Dean from Hell or something and the only way to do so was to become the King(?) of Hell. At the start of the Fic, Sam drugs Dean and left him bound and gagged in the backseat as he drives them off somewhere to do the ritual. Sam captured this girl to be sacrificed for this ritual as well. I remember how Dean doesn't want that and fights sam every step of the way.

2nd Fic:
Sam and Dean made a promise to do a ritual that binds themselves to the other. I remember how Sam asked Dean to bind himself to Sam first, before Sam went back on his promise and knocked Dean out, effectively leaving Dean bound to Sam but not the other way around. I think that Sam had planned that all along.

Thanks in advance! :)
20 October 2014 @ 02:00 pm
Hello - this is my first request so i hope I'm doing this right!

I'm looking for a story about the time while Dean is hell and Sam's reaction to his death - drinking too much? Not sleeping? Suicidal missions? I would also be interested in how this holds over after Dean returns.

Preferably AU (I don't want Ruby in these stories if possible). And NO Wincest please.

10 October 2014 @ 02:13 pm
Hey guys!
Season 10 )
K Thanks!

PS Mods, we need a season 10 tag please. Also, couldn't find sam's demon blood addiction in the tags... Thanks!!
22 September 2014 @ 09:37 pm
I'm very interested in reading Sanity in Fractured Colours and the other fics in this verse, but the author had taken them down. They stated that it was ok if they were shared between people if they weren't posted anywhere. Does anyone have a copy?
Here I am again, hi awesome storyfinders!

I'm looking for Sam/Dean fics, two specifics and a general search:

1. Sam is king of hell and he breaks Dean into his role as consort/slave with extreme force. He does this in a broad variety of ways, but one thing I can really remember is that at a certain point Ben is living with Sam and Dean, there to be used as leverage to make Dean behave. Eventually Dean accidentally reveals to Sam that he had thought about killing himself by jumping/falling out of a window, and that wasn't permitted so Sam crushes Ben's skull with his hand. Other details are that Sam is really psycho, very undisturbed by all the horrible things he does. He also kind of digs into Dean's soul with his powers (I think Dean described black tendrils? it hurts), and he kills someone in their bedroom and Dean can't see it because there is fabric covering all of the blood. Ruby is there, and Bobby and Jo and maybe Ellen and Rufus are kept by Sam in the building. Eventually Dean is allowed to see them, but by then he's already almost completely broken in. He also wears a necklace that has power over him in the end which is given to him by Sam. If I'm correct it was a collar first. The collar had the power to make Dean really high and submissive, Dean finds it in Sam's study after Sam decides he doesn't have to wear it in a drawer with all kinds of 'train your dog/bird' books and a diary with how well Dean did with really psycho notes from sam with smilies and stuff (Dean gets really angry when he finds it because Sam had said that he'd thrown the collar out). Also Dean had a tattoo that got more intricate the more he accepted Sam. Lots of angsting by Dean that he still loved Sam somehow and that he gets really aroused by him.

2. Sam loses his soul and turns into a serial killer. He kills at least one of Dean's hookups and also a cat, which he throws out of the window of the car while he drives it. Dean doesn't know he does it (i think) and when Sam get his soul back he is really surprised that he still has the killing urge, although he does regret the cat. He starts killing again, and he keeps one of his victims dogs and gives the dog to Dean. Dean eventually finds out and makes sure the bodies aren't found, keeping Sam's works a secret. After that they start to have a relationship, and Dean goes downhill from there, letting Sam cut patterns (diamonds?) into his skin and being extremely jealous of the time Sam spends with his victims. He follows Sam when he goes to kill one time and nearly ruins the whole experience for Sam, but the next time he brings a camera or laptop or something to show Dean how he does it. the victim is a man and live on camera Sam offers the heart to a very emotional and grateful Dean, throwing it away carelessly because he already has Dean's heart and that's so much better anyway (or something similarly cheesypsycho). Mildly disturbing: Dean asks Sam to eat his heart and Sam cuts away a piece of his skin and eats some of the flesh over his heart then packs it with gauze. The emphasis is really on how much Dean loves Sam and how he loses his sanity, how jealous he is of Sam's victims, that it's not right, and Sam's delight in how much Dean loves him and how submissive he becomes, desperate for Sam's attention. I always got the impression that Dean ultimately wanted to be Sam's victim to be completely his but that might be my overactive imagination. I think I read it on AO3 but I'm not sure.

both fics were pretty long, and if found I really recommend them to everyone because whew are they good. Also both were bottom!Dean.

For the general search: any fic in the vein of the two I just described, emphasis on how the bond between the brothers is sick and twisted and incredibly strong. I prefer bottom!Dean but if it is really good I can read Bottom!Sam, just please warn beforehand. please no consensual (like full, 110% unmanipulated, sane safe consensual) BDSM.

Sorry or the length of this thing, and I really hope they're found! Thanks for reading this!
09 August 2014 @ 06:52 am
I'm looking for a specific AU Sam/Dean fic that I read years ago and I don't think it was on this site.

To save their lives because they were constantly being attacked, Sam accepts a deal to go darkside and joins a brotherhood based in California. He ends up being second-in-command under some sort of vampire, but not like the type Sam and Dean hunted before. While Sam is supposedly evil he is not rampaging around killing everyone.

It's been several years since Sam has made this deal, and Dean has been in downward spiral. He has beeen drinking to much and not being that careful in his hunts. Just as he falls into a drunken stupor outside the Impala Sam shows up. Sam has been watching Dean's decline and decides to bring him to Sam's apartment as his "guest". Sam has a slave who keeps Dean company while Sam is out doing his work. The teenage boy grew up in the 80s and has stopped aging, as part of his agreement to join the brotherhood.

Sam and Dean start a sexual relationship and sometimes the teenage boy joins in.

Dean spends most of his time working on the Impala and trying to find a way to save his brother. He discovers the boy has the ability to send people back in time for a very small periods and people can change the past. He is terrified that the higher ups will find out. He warns Dean not to try to use this power because they would probably both be killed in a bad way.

One night Dean, Sam and the crew go out to dinner and Dean finds himself enjoying himself with these people. They are not the monsters he thought they were. On the way out, they are attacked by hunters, including Jo and Bobby. The teenage boy is shot and they are not sure if he will survive. Sam finds Jo, tortures her and gives her the chance to live if she joins them. Then Sam returns Jo to Ellen and Ash at the Roadhouse, where they have to make the choice to either kill all the other hunters at the Roadhouse because they will kill Jo or help the hunters kill Jo.

When they get back to the complex, Sam's boss is there. They know what Dean and the teenage boy have been doing about trying to change time. Sam's boss uses his powers and takes Dean to a future if Sam didn't make the deal and the world is a disaster. It turns out Dean made a deal with when Sam died to try to get him back and he and in turn the people around him are much cruler. Sam's boss doesn't want this type of a world, he's living well in their world and so are many others. He wants Dean to accept Sam's decision but to stay with Sam because Sam needs Dean to stay sane.
05 July 2014 @ 02:42 pm
Hello all, I'm here looking for some stories with Sam abuses Dean:

1. They still live together, hunt together and Sam is not really evil, just always angry and abusive and can't control himself, it can be a storm of abuse or just some punch. Maybe it's because of the demon blood or Sam is jeolous or his head is too messed up that he believe Dean hates him or he blames Dean for something or simply just because he's angry, ect. I hope it's not only one time but repeatedly. Bonus point if at some point Sam feels guilty, bigger bonus for Dean's low self esteem, think he deserves it and doesn't blame Sam.

2. Pre-series mean Sam bullies Dean (with or without knowing).

3. Dean comes out and gets hurt because of a homophobia Sam

And again, bonus point for guilty!sam and Dean's low self essteem.

No possessed!sam and lucifer!sam, robo!sam is okay if Dean hasn't find out that yet. Wincest is good but bottom!dean only please. Lol this is funny since I really really don't hate Sam, just in the mood, Thank you x100000 :kiss kiss:
22 May 2014 @ 01:05 pm
Hi, I'm into abused!dean and abusive!sam, and for detail, I'm looking for things like:

1. Sam abuses Dean. No demon!sam, power!sam, robo!sam, boyking!sam, possessed!sam, lucifer!sam, vessel!sam, shifter!sam, not-sam, ect. Just Sam, pre-series would be fantastic but any timeline is cool. There can be someone find out and help him (maybe John or Bobby) or not.

2. Sam or John calling Dean's work (his drawing, his handmade machine...) trash and throw them away.
For example: "How I Know Your Brother", "Secrets Kept, Secrets Found", "Trash"

3. Both Sam and John abuse Dean. I would prefer non-sexual abuse but sexual abuse is okay too.
for example: "Sweet Sixteen", "Toy Verse"

Hope that lucky will come to me xD Thank you!
Sam/Dean, John/Dean, Dean/OMC are welcome but I can only take bottom!dean.
There's a fic I've been struggling to find that basically went like this:

One day out of the blue, ordinary small town student Adam Milligan gets a visit from (or is summoned by? can't remember exactly) Sam and Dean, who went darkside and took over Hell. They rule openly and the masses are well aware, and know very well to fear the brothers, so Adam is extremely apprehensive at the prospect of meeting them. He's outright terrified when Sam and Dean reveal that Adam's father John was a hunter.

Almost 100% certain this was both a oneshot and posted to LiveJournal. Not entirely sure Adam still lived in Windom, but I can't remember that he didn't. May or may not have been Wincest. Pretty sure Adam was already in college, but he might have still been in high school.
24 April 2014 @ 01:44 pm
Hello, guys!
I'm looking for fic recs where Dean as the Mother of All, whether that's because of the side effect of Eve's bite or because Godstiel changing him. And there's a fic I don't quite remember who the author and the tittle story, but I remember it's about Dean who had changed into mother of all by Eve before her death, Lucifer!Sam and Godstiel fight over him and led to the war between angels and demon with the Earth as their war zone. Dean, who didn't want to see the war but couldn't do anything to stop it as he didn't have to heart to attack or kill Sam and Castiel, decided to run away from them and into hiding. He made a refuge for the survivors in the earth (humans and supernatural creatures) and cloaking it from the angels and the demons.

Thank you for your help :)
19 April 2014 @ 06:54 pm
Hey, I'm looking for two types of fics!

1) I was wondering if anyone has come across a fic where, after the cage, Sam is awesome in bed. Like Lucifer taught him in the cage (whether it was non-con or not) and it just blows the mind of whomever (Dean, Cas, ext...) is in bed with him. Any pairing is fine, I just really want to read something like that.

2) Also if anyone knows any fics where post-cage Sam, totally messed up from what Lucifer (or Michael) did to him, abuses someone but doesn't really see a problem with it because it was just part of his life in the cage for so long. Any kind of abuse is fine, it doesn't even have to have a pairing in it.

17 April 2014 @ 11:00 pm
Hey, I'm looking for stories where Sam is paired up with someone unusual. I've read Victrix by Askance (War/Sam), and it was wonderful. I'd like to read something like that. Post season 2 please, if it's possible.

No wee!chesters, AU's (like Human or Non-hunters) or kid!fics, but time-travel is fine.

Bonus points if Sam is evil or Boy King.

14 April 2014 @ 02:15 pm
Are there any fics where sam says yes to lucifer and physically hurts dean(not sexually). I mean like tortures him or just sam torturing dean. I'll accept anything.
Hey, everyone! So today I'm seeking fics in which either Sam and Dean or Jared and Jensen are enemies. Or have an unhealthy relationship.

Gen or slash, both are welcome. I'm not really looking for abusive relationships or "just sex" relationships, but more actual enemy fics, like hunters who don't like each other or those of the hunter and huntee. I don't simply want a hit man who falls for his mark, for example, but a fic where they actively dislike each other. At least for a while. If they fall for each other in the end, or learn to work together for gen, that's fine, even great. But I'd like at least half the fic to revolve around being enemies. (I don't really mean possesion fics or fics in hell either). Here are some fics like the ones I mean:

Dark Love: NC-17, J2 Slash. Mpreg. Really weird, but I loved the love/hate relationship. It was twisted and amazing. There's a sequel too, so that's a plus. Summary: "Jared went undercover in the Ackles organization and fell for the top boss, Jensen. When they finally come to arrest Jensen, Jared finds out he's pregnant. But mobster Jensen is set free on a technicality. What happens when he catches up with pregnant Jared, who betrayed him?"

Neighbors: NC-17, J2 Slash. I totally wish this could have been more extended and detailed, and I felt that the hate was a bit too intense, but hey. It's good. Summary: "Jensen is the neighbor from Hell. So is Jared."

What I haven't found yet is a fic where Sam and Dean are like hunters in competition, who preferably aren't brothers. But occasionally one finds the other injured and helps them, before leaving as quickly as possible because they're still enemies... so... any fics like that out there? Thanks, guys!
22 March 2014 @ 03:11 pm
Are there J2 violent abuse between Jared and Jensen and Sam/Dean toward other?  I want to read them.  It can be Jared or Jensen who is abusing toward Jared or Jensen. 
05 February 2014 @ 05:51 pm
I am really hoping someone can help me locate this fic. I tried posting this before several months ago and no luck. I’ve added and changed a few things in this post to hopefully jog someone’s memory. I would really appreciate any assistance in locating this fic. Thank you.

Dark!Sam - self-loathing Dean (still not found) )

affliction: alcoholism, attribute: evil!sam, attribute: dark!sam, attribute: possessive!sam, attribute: jealous!sam, attribute: protective!sam, attribute: stalker,

genre: hurt/comfort, genre: au, genre: dark!fic, genre: dean chooses sam, genre: angst, genre: wincest, genre: ust; position: bottom!Dean; pairing: dean/sam, character: dean, character: sam,

warning: attempt at suicide, warning: non-con, warning: abused!dean (sexual), warning: abused!dean (physical), warning: abused!dean (mental), warning: abused!dean (emotional), attribute: sam's point of view