There's a specific John/Dean story I want to find. I can't remember if there's any actual sex in the beginning, but Dean can't stop wanting it even though John says refuses. So Dean starts self medicating (LSD I think, but it was definitely a hallucinogenic) in an effort to get over his obsession. John knows that Dean's into something he shouldn't be and follows him one night and finds him high. He brings him home and comes down on him hard, but Dean starts freaking out because of the LSD. Once Dean comes down, he and John have a talk. Basically, he feels like a freak because sons aren't supposed to be sexually attracted to their fathers, and he was using to deal with those feelings.

I read this story about a year ago, and I've been looking for it for months. Does this sound familiar to anyone? Please... help. Thanks!