Would that possibly be A Thousand Touches (http://community.livejournal.com/saucyminxfix/6392.html)? Link goes to the masterpost for this fic and it's sequel, A Thousand Whispers.

thats the one!!!! did it come with a vid once upon a time or am thinking about 2 completely different things here?

Not that I'm aware of, sorry.

This is not the subject matter you are seeking, but it is a linked Vid and Story.

I'm the vidder... *grins*

Notes from Author: Written for spn_reversebang for this original vid prompt (http://www.4shared.com/video/tGl5SySf/Vigilante-Answers_2.html) by artist zenamydog. Warnings for violence and strong language. Casefic set in season 6, but AU after 5.22 so no spoilers for season 6.

Summary: Sam's returned; Dean isn't asking too many questions. They're just managing to put themselves back together again when Castiel asks them for a favor.

Every night for a year he’s watched his brother fall, in every sense of the word, and every morning he’s woken to a world that’s the wrong shape for him. (http://electricalgwen.livejournal.com/89425.html)

jeez louis! how long did it take me to find the reply link, my god im going blind! aahh!!

anyway, moving on... thank you so much for this!!! cool!! it was really weird and listening to sam say the thing about you killed me? was that sam or the song? ceepppyyy!! loved it, very fitting for this time of year haha, and very fitting fic for what happened in the last epi!!!